i liked this more than i was expecting to honestly

Give me someone who has some fucked up tastes in fiction, but is kind and respectful to real people, over someone who only ever ships the healthiest ships and stans the purest characters, but is rude and cruel to real people, any day of the week.

Your goddamn fictional preferences don’t show what kind of person you are; your actions do.

It’s not a hard concept to grasp.

Edit: WOW this blew up like…. infinitely more than I expected or wanted it to. Honestly this was just me venting to my followers after seeing someone get harassed for liking a villainous character (so no, in response to the people claiming this is about a certain ship or type of ship, it’s a lot more general than that). I’m glad this has resonated with people but I can’t help wishing it didn’t get so big, because I hate discourse with a passion and only wish to be left alone. This wasn’t meant to target or defend anyone in particular, just a little rant about fandom hypocrisy that I really didn’t intend for a larger audience. So if this post bothers you, just know that I didn’t mean for you to be subjected to it in the first place lol. On the other hand, if you like it, I’m glad you do and I appreciate all the support. Peace to you all.

I hope everyone who bitched about Jimin posting in the fancafe while on tour and said he didn’t like intl fans is really proud of themselves. He’s acknowledged intl fans and asked people to translate stuff so many times in the last couple of days; he obviously feels guilty. He even had Hoseok do that live with him so be could understand and interact with the intl fans. You guys really made him feel bad.

Not every idol can read/speak/understand English, languages are hard. Some people really struggle with learning second languages. And honestly I don’t think idols should be required to learn English or Japanese or anything else if they don’t really, actually want to. That kind of expectation is just too much, imo. We should take it as a nice surprise when an idol knows a second language instead of an expectation or a requirement. And on top of that, what is getting upset with an idol for communicating in their own language with fans who speak that language suppose to do exactly? Yelling at him doesn’t make him suddenly capable of understanding everything you guys type at him at lightening speed. It just hurts his feelings.

And of course he would feel home sick. He’s in a foreign country, eating foreign food, surrounded by people he can’t understand. If I remember correctly Jimin was the one who got homesick the fastest on Bon Voyage. He loves his country and there’s nothing wrong with that. He’s a homebody, so sue him.

Anyway it’s like 4am, I’m emotional, and him asking people to translate on ch+ for intl fans made me :/ :/ :/ because he shouldn’t have to worry about that. He’s a good kid and he doesn’t deserve to be spoken to that way by people (his fans) who are suppose to love and support him. I love armys, but honestly I don’t think you guys realize how spoiled we are. Your expectations are unrealistic.

There are fandoms out there that can’t even find an eng sub of a five minute clip of their group months after it’s aired. We get twenty subs uploaded to YouTube in a matter of hours. Armys work hard for each other and it makes BTS seem more accessible than they actually are, but please remember to respect the members in real time when English isn’t always an option. I hope that makes sense?? Like don’t let the ease of accessibility make you forget that, in the moment, you are dealing with real people with feelings who might struggle to understand you.

In short; please don’t be selfish and always remember to respect the members. They love you and they work hard for you. They deserve to be spoken to with care.

Fig chatter! (Q/A)
First off, i just wanna say thank you so much to everyone for all the super nice and encouraging notes! It always makes me to happy to see that my work is making people happy and your notes really help to motivate me to do my best at this comic!

Yep!!! That manga is one of my favorite things in the whole world so it really really influenced my comic.


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anonymous asked:

I've been struggling on how to come out to my parents, it was incredibly easy to come out to friends and strangers but with my parents I feel like they'd look and feel differently about me and that would break my heart.

I think “disappointment” was one of the things I feared most in my whole coming out process, particularly when it came to my family. I felt that my parents had certain expectations of my life and what it would look like, which honestly they did. In the end I had to decide that my happiness and living an authentic life was more important than disrupting my parents ideas of what my life “should” look like. 

I got so stuck in my head worrying about what their reaction was that I didn’t even give them the chance to prove me wrong until was 19. Which they completely and totally did. 

Good luck with everything, people can surprise you. 

[MAGAZINE INTERVIEW] 170420 WINNER for HIGH CUT May Issue

WINNER’s beginning was different from the start as they were born through a reality program, “WIN: Who Is Next”. In the first week of their debut, they won three #1 crowns on music shows with their title track “Empty” and swept up all the rookie awards that year. The public fixed their eyes on the monster rookie that had skills, visuals, and the star quality and WINNER always put out results that met expectations. But a long hiatus followed which was unprecedented for a rookie group. A sudden piece of news that fans received during the hiatus was not about their comeback but about a member leaving the group. They became 4 members from 5 and they changed the formation of their choreographies and they adjusted the vocalist parts and they had to work hard to fill up the one empty spot. The result of this came in the form of their single album “FATE NUMBER FOR”, which was released on April 4th, 1 year and 2 months after their previous comeback. The moment the album was released, it recorded first place on iTunes Charts in 21 different countries and was featured in Apple Music’s “Best of the Week”. The fact that the public’s response to “REALLY REALLY” and “FOOL”, which are total opposites of each other, are addicting is just a bonus. WINNER is at their peak.

KANG SEUNGYOON

The response for “REALLY REALLY” is very hot. Do you feel how popular it is?

I’ve been told by people but I can’t really feel it myself. Just like it has always been, we just perform onstage and meet our fans and move according to our schedules.

During WINNER’s hiatus, with Nam Taehyun’s leave, the group became 4 from the original 5. Didn’t you feel like your responsibility as the leader was heavier with this comeback?

Of course I felt responsible. But I didn’t think things like, “I need to lead WINNER better so we can go to a higher place.” (laughs) I felt like I needed to do things instead of staying still.

I heard that you weren’t able to properly rest or travel for leisure during the hiatus.

Yes. When I didn’t have plans on making music, I was at home. Home and company. That was it. It was because I didn’t want to just rest. Even when I didn’t have any songs to work on, I went to the company. I felt more comfortable staying at the company, eating with my composer hyungs, and talking to them.

I heard you made “REALLY REALLY” and “FOOL” very quickly.

Composing for both songs came easy to me. For “REALLY REALLY”, I finished composing the melody and writing the lyrics while lying in bed in 4 hours. But I couldn’t figure out the best melody progression for the bridge part so I asked Mino to help me.

As a member who composed the songs, which member do you want to praise the most?

Jinwoo-hyung. I don’t force directions to the rappers. They have always done well with their individual styles and they know how to show off their own colors. But I was really surprised at how much Jinwoo-hyung’s singing improved while recording for this single album. The time it took to record decreased greatly. It took 30 minutes when it usually takes 2 hours.

Jinwoo told me earlier that the songs suited him so well that he was very comfortable with them.

Whenever I make WINNER songs, I compose so that it suits the members. It’s only possible since I’ve known them for almost 10 years now, ever since we were trainees. This means I probably can’t make songs for other singers.

I feel like you received a lot of stress to achieve such good results.

I feel like I don’t get stressed much but my body keeps hurting in places. (laughs) I still get migraines.

How do you relieve stress?

These days I reform clothes with Mino as a hobby. I usually relieve stress by going outside and walking under the sunlight. But I need to wear a face mask and a hoodie so people don’t recognize me. I wear black clothes to not draw attention to myself at night. (laughs)

How do you reform clothes?

I just fold them and stick them together and sew things together and cut things. I’m bad at sewing. When I have things I need to sew, I put them aside and when my mother comes to Seoul, I make her do it… (laughs) She enjoys it though! I’m usually really blunt around her so when I ask her to do things like this for me she thinks we’re playing together.

In the end, all the clothes you’re reforming are made by your mother.

No, that’s not it. I design the clothes and my mother sews the clothes. Designers don’t sew clothes themselves. Their assistants do it. (laughs)

You’re receiving good results after a long hiatus. Is there something you want to challenge yourself in in the future?

I want to hear people say, “This is what WINNER-like music is” even when we make music we want to make and not bother with trends. To make that happen, we need to become more known and further develop our careers. I think it’s possible with time. Personally, once WINNER becomes properly stabilized as a group, I want to release a solo album but I want to include all genres of music into that one album. When people think about the music Kang Seungyoon makes, they assume it’s only folk or rock music. I want to break that preconceived notion and put in dance, hip-hop, R&B, and even trot songs into the album. I’m just sharing my thoughts. (laughs)

SONG MINO

You’ve succeeded in the variety scene. You received your nickname “Song Dumb” through “New Journey to the West” and you’ve become famous enough among the older generation that they ask for your autograph. Was it your wish to appear on a variety show?

Yes, I wanted to. Other than music shows, we weren’t able to have complete promotions and as time passed, the image of the group WINNER solidified into being a group that is hard to approach and classy. (laughs) I don’t mind that kind of image and vibe but I wanted us to promote more and become more known. In that timing, I received the offer from “New Journey to the West” and I had lots of fun filming it but I didn’t expect to be shown like that… (laughs)

You’re honestly worried as a rapper, right?

At first I was worried that my image would cover my music activities. But when I thought about it, what was shown on TV is my true self and it’s separate from the music I make so there is no need to forcefully hide myself. I’ll show myself as I am and I can show my music as it is.

In a separate interview you said that you worked hard to show rapping that overflows with energy without covering the melody. Maybe because of this I feel like your vocalization changed.

My vocalization changed during “Show Me The Money”. It’s actually a change that all singers and rappers go through. It’s how we find the voice we’re most comfortable with. When I first started rapping, I made up a voice and rapped in that voice. When I listen to the songs I made when I was in high school, my voice sounds like I swallowed stones. (laughs) Back then, I thought that was cool. But gradually, I’m finding the voice I’m comfortable with.

When you promote as WINNER, rapping is a component that makes up the vibe of the song. You must want to work on your own music since you don’t rap as much compared to when you promote individually.

Yes. The rapping I do as WINNER is one part of the song so the importance lies in the overall concept. But my rap style is made up of word plays and I pour in a lot of fun elements and enjoy my music so when I get the opportunity to work on my solo music, I’m going to do whatever I want. I want to go hard in my rapping.

Do you perhaps remember the first rap you made?

I don’t remember the lyrics but I remember what happened. The first ever music I made was when I was in my 6th year of elementary school. I went to my friend’s house and wrote my first lyrics and recorded myself on a cassette tape with my friend. I didn’t know anything when I was writing those lyrics. I just scribbled something and said, “Hey, but let’s still record it” and I recorded it on a cassette tape. I wonder where that cassette tape is now.

Out of all the raps you’ve made, which one gave you the hardest time?

The song that I had the hardest time making was “Shoot” for “Infinite Challenge: Great Legacy”. The overall concept was already set in place. The larger theme was history and the smaller theme was General Lee Soonshin. And the project was about becoming aware by looking back into the past and looking at the present. It was difficult to express myself within a fixed boundary. Fortunately, the end result turned out well.

You’ve had the name WINNER for 4 years now. Is there a time when you think you have some spare time now?

I don’t think we’re at that level yet. But the chemistry between us members is really good. We’ve been living together for a long time now so I think we know pretty much everything about each other. I know what my members are thinking just by looking at their faces. The member who is in the best mood today is… Seunghoon-hyung. That hyung has severe mood swings but I think he’s pretty happy today. (laughs)

Is there a specific key point you want listeners to focus on for “REALLY REALLY”?

Um… What a difficult question. (Song Mino mulled over the question for a long time. Lee Seunghoon, who had finished earlier came and suggested, “Didn’t you say you worked hard to change your tone? Tell her about that.”) The change in my tone can just be heard. I don’t need to specifically tell that to people… I just want people to listen to it comfortably. Comfortably. (laughs)

LEE SEUNGHOON

I heard CEO Yang praised you for making the choreography for “FOOL” in 5 hours.

I was able to make it quickly because I thought about the flow of movements. “FOOL” didn’t need complicated dancing. It’s a song that is close to the ballad genre so it wasn’t necessary to dance powerfully and put in a key point dance. The first thing I thought about was how I could make us look cool.

I’m curious about your process in making choreographies.

First, I close my eyes while listening to the song and draw a picture in my head. I imagine an overall picture while thinking about the mood of the performance that people would find cool watching us. After I imagine that, I make a large outline of how the members should move. After that, I make the detailed dance movements. “FOOL” didn’t need lots of movements but the formation had to change because we became 4 members from 5.

You’ve started promoting after a long hiatus. I heard you thought a lot about what kind of fanservice you would do for the fans.

The ground-breaking invention of Naver V App is helping many people other than ourselves, I think. I really want to tell Naver that I love them. (laughs) I’ve always liked making and planning ideas and content. I’ve had interest in making videos from when I was young. So I have fun and I like communicating with our fans through V App.

I feel like you’ve been overflowing with ideas from when you were on “K-Pop Star”. I guess you’re not nicknamed “Deputy Lee of YG Planning Team” for nothing.

I enjoy producing ideas. When I get told they’re fun, I get really excited. Usually, other artists go to the YG office building to work out or go to the recording studio on the 3rd floor and they don’t really go to where the staff members work. But I always go to those staff members’ offices. So when they see me on TV, they say that I look unfamiliar and that it feels strange. They say things like, “Why is our Deputy who’s always scruffy appearing on TV like that”. (laughs)

You have good fashion sense. You’ve collaborated with fashion brands too.

Let me just tell you that good-looking people like Jinwoo-hyung never get interested in fashion. That’s because they look good no matter what they wear. (laughs) I enjoyed going around used-goods markets and looking for clothes with my friends. Since I debuted and am earning money, I can buy expensive clothes now, right? I used to not have money so I couldn’t buy expensive clothes but I suddenly realised that the ultimate end to fashion was to personally create a style of clothes I like. So later on, when I have the opportunity, I want to create my own clothing brand, like Tyler, the Creator who made “Golf Wang”.

You’re a jack-of-all-trades. I was surprised when I saw your poem called “Flower Boat” that you wrote for your fans.

I just imitated something like a poem. I feel like my fans like it so much because what I feel for my fans can be felt from that poem. I’m not good at writing and I’m not talented.

What are you talking about? Your fans say that the lyrics you write are the best parts of the songs. Were you proud when you listened to the completed recordings of the new songs?

Yes, I liked them. Seungyoon is the type to listen to the music he makes a thousand times before the release but I don’t listen to our songs often. I say things like, “Why listen to them already when we’re going to keep listening to them after they’re released?” (laughs) But I was satisfied. I worked hard to make a rap that middle school girls could imitate easily.

How did you do that?

I made sure my enunciation wasn’t hard to imitate and the speed wasn’t too fast. And most importantly, I put in many breaks between the beats where you can rest. I imagined how people would sing and rap along. (laughs)

KIM JINWOO

You’re famous among your fans for being very diligent. What kind of effort did you put in for this single album?

I kept receiving lessons while we recorded. I also learned contemporary dancing and thanks to that I became very confident. I used to sing quietly when we recorded but now I actively try singing this way and that. My singing hasn’t changed but my attitude has.

As the group became 4 members, your singing parts increased too. Were you not burdened?

I just recorded the songs comfortably. When Seungyoon makes a song, he thinks about our tones and the rappers’ tendencies. We record many songs and there are times when there are good results and there are times when there are bad results but when Seungyoon is the one who made the song, I never struggle. I didn’t put in any extra effort. I don’t need to because he makes songs that suit me perfectly.

When were you most excited while recording the songs?

I was just happy the entire time we were recording. I feel like learning how to physically express myself in a given situation through contemporary dancing made me change a lot internally. If I have the time, I want to continue learning contemporary dance.

Fans know that you’re a homebody. Do you still always stay home?

I don’t spend my spare time outdoors. I watch TV at home or I lie in bed and play with my phone. I used to play lots of phone games but I’ve stopped that now. Playing so many phone games made me spend too much money. (laughs) I stopped because I realised that if I kept it up, I would go broke. (laughs)

You must’ve watched a lot of TV during the hiatus.

I’ve watched many dramas recently. I especially enjoyed watching “Defendant”.

Who is your favorite actor?

Kimura Takuya. I love it when people tell me I look like how Kimura Takuya looked like when he was young. (laughs)

Who is your favorite Korean actor?

Jisung-sunbaenim who acted in “Defendant”. Did you watch that drama? You didn’t? You really should. I really love Choi Jinsil-sunbaenim. I didn’t know that I would fall in love with another actor besides her. Jisung-sunbaenim acted his character who would never let go of his deep sadness even in a happy situation and… Wow… Seriously…

You’ve acted in a webdrama before, right? I can feel that you’re greedy for acting.

Yes, I’m always interested in acting. I’ve acted in a couple of webdramas but I think they didn’t really suit me. I want to try acting a deep and heavy character instead of a light character. Of course, I am still very lacking.

But you’re the icon of effort. All the other members picked you as the member who improved the most.

Not just me, all of us worked really hard in making this single album. If you ask me what people should focus on when listening to our song, I want to say “all of it”. There is really no part that didn’t require hard work.

Then when is the best timing to listen to “REALLY REALLY”?

When you’re in a flirting relationship with someone. Or at the beginning of a romantic relationship, when the love is fresh. If I were to compare that feeling to a season, it would be Spring, which is right now.

When do you think Spring will start in your love life? I heard what your ideal type is on the radio. You said that you want to date someone who looks like you, right? A women with big eyes, a slender face, and is 165cm tall. Do these characteristics still hold?

Firstly, I don’t mind what kind of hairstyle she has now. But I would like it if she is shorter than me. Other than that, the general descriptions haven’t changed. But right now I will concentrate on WINNER promotions. (laughs)

Translated by @chrissy96_

Scans by @from1025       

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Word Count: 1,250

Rating: PG-13

“Bloody hell Joe,” you groaned, leaning closer to the mirror, examining the marks your boyfriend had left everywhere on your neck. They were darker than usual, and they went down your shoulders as well, a few even grazing your collarbones.

“I’m sorry love, I got a bit carried away,” he mumbled, coming up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist. You rummaged through your makeup bag, frustrated. You hadn’t necessarily planned on you and Joe having sex at his sister’s house, but after the impromptu water fight yesterday, which had left both you and Joe in see-through, soaking wet white t-shirts, the hormones were kicking all day until you could finally escape up to the spare room.

However, the lack of planning had left you without your thickest concealer, which you usually used to cover up. Joe had a habit of leaving the purple marks, and they weren’t seen as professional at work.

“Do they hurt?” Joe’s voice came from behind you again. He was pressing gentle kisses to the few he had left on your shoulder. You could tell he felt bad.

“No, of course not. Believe me, they felt good, I just didn’t really come prepared to cover them. And with us all having breakfast later…”

“Well, my sister is a beauty blogger you know. I’m sure she’s got a billion tubes of that stuff,” he pointed towards some of the concealer in your bag. He was right; she was sure to have a color correcting kit and everything else in her makeup storage upstairs.

“Okay, here’s the plan. You go downstairs and put a spoon under the coldest water you can get, then bring it to her makeup room upstairs, okay?” You gave him a quick kiss and sent him on his mission.


Joe was very quiet as he went down the stairs. Zoe and Alfie seemed to be asleep still, so he crept to the kitchen, doing as he was told with the spoon. It was only then that he realized that Nala was pawing at his leg. That meant she was out of her crate.

Which meant someone was awake.

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Scheme: Part 2

Prompt combination of: Hopefully I get this in time and this works out :3 How about where the reader has been part of Batfamily and when Ra’s/Talia “visits” Bruce and Damian, they recognize the reader like “What are you doing here?” and they reply with “Hello Uncle Ra’s/Aunt//Cousin Talia”, revealing that the reader is distantly related to the Al Ghul family but not part of the crazy business. (Bonus if Damian and the reader have a family bond ;3)  AND

One where Jason gets hurt (like dieing again hurt) and Tim asks if anyone’s called Jason’s girl. But nobody knows who Jason girl is. Then they meet her at the cave and her and Tim are friends cause Tim hangs out at Jason’s apartment and knows her. She’s really tough and Bruce and the rest fall in love. And when Jason wakes up Damian won’t let her leave and is extremely attached. Please that was really weird but I would love it. Love you 😘😘😘

Requested by ANON and audreythetealovingcat

Part 1


You watch Scheme toddle around the cave with a small smile. Her fascination with the trophies spread throughout the cave aren’t unusual, after all, what four year old wouldn’t be fascinated by a giant penny. Your eyes glance at the clock on the computer, and you know it’ll be any moment now.

    Sure enough the sound of engines hits your ears moments later. Out of the corner of your eye you watch Scheme’s ears twitch before spinning to look at the entrance.

    Your daughter is a quiet thing. Observant and smart as hell. She takes after Jason. More often than not you find them reading, or researching something together. Your family is made up of nerds and you love that.

    The first one through is all too familiar. You know it’s bad when Damian stumbles. He’s covered in cuts, and bruises and you make sure to catch him before he falls. You say nothing as you escort him to the gurney and start tending to his wounds.

    Damian is a chatter box. Your nephew had come into the world screaming, and he hadn’t stopped talking yet. Thalia had always been quiet, your father on the other hand…Damian had to have picked up his chatty nature from somewhere, and Ra’s was the only obvious point.

    “Auntie, it’s bad. Joker …”

    “Will die a painful death once I’m through with him. Right now my focus is you and then Jason. When I’m done with you, I want you to take Scheme somewhere safe.”

    He sighs, “I can be of more help .  . .”

    “Taking care of your cousin. I’m leaving her in your care Damian. Do not let me down.”

    He says nothing else. The sound of more engines prick your ears, and you listen to the rush to get Jason out of the car, when everything seems to stop.

    “What the hell is she doing here?”

    Your eyes flicker to Bruce, and he gives you a small nod of his head. “It’s been a while Y/N.”

    “Bruce.”

    He lets out a sigh, “I should have known. I heard about your defectment. I should have put the pieces together.”

    “Yes, you should have.”

    “Where’s Alfred?”

    “I slipped in as he slipped out to get a Dr. Lee.”

    Bruce nods, “So you and Jason?”

    “Are married.”

    “And she’s?”

    “Our daughter, Scheme.”

    Bruce nods, “I’ll need your help getting him out of the car. The others are one their way, but Jason needs attention now.”

    You nod, as Damian scoots off the gurney and Jason is moved on to it. He’s unconscious, with several broken bones, gashes and burns. It’s bad, you know it is. That’s when you hear her voice, “Papa.”

    Your eyes flick to Scheme, “Damian …”

    He picks your daughter up without any hesitation, you watch her snuggle into his arms, and listen as Damian speaks Arabic to her. She doesn’t say anything, but her eyes stay trained on her father.

    You work quickly to slow the bleeding and stabilize him, the others arrive soon after, and Bruce explains things to them. And then again when Alfred arrives. You say nothing as the Doctor takes your place.

    You turn away, and end up face to face with Cass. She says nothing, simply wraps her arms around you, and gives you a tight hug. You return it, before turning to face Damian. Scheme holds out her arms not to you but to Cass. The woman takes her without a word, before sitting on the floor, and tucking her into her embrace.

    Hours later she falls asleep in Cass’ arms with Damian nearby. You talk with his brothers in the days that he’s unconscious. You watch as your daughter wraps everyone around her finger, Alfred and Dick in particular. The girl was going to end up spoiled if the amount of cookies she’d been given was any indication. It’s in the early hours two days after he’d been brought in that Jason begins to stir.

    He moves in and out of consciousness over the next several days. You don’t leave his side. A week after everything’s said and done, when Jason is conscious, and your daughter is able to hug him you make a call.

    The next night you leave them curled up on the bed, and sneak out of the estate. Damian is waiting for you outside the gate. Neither of you says anything, as you make your way to your destination. They’re waiting for you.

    “You have some nerve calling us for help.”

    You roll your eyes, “You’ve always been on the dramatic side father. Honestly I expect more at this point.”

    Your father turns his gaze on you, “I should have you killed for ruining my plans.”

    “But you won’t. I’d also like to point out that I didn’t ask for your help. I asked for my sister’s help.” You turn to them, “He followed you?”

Nyssa’s scowl was all the answer you need, “Like a bloodhound on a hunt.”  

You shrug, “You’re welcome to leave father, the four of us are more than enough for what I need to do.”

His eyes focus on you, “To kill a clown. I’m done playing around.”

Your sisters’ smiles are daring, “The little imp on a mission, my oh my, this hasn’t

happened for a looong time.” Nyssa says with a grin.

    Talia’s matches Nyssa’s, “And we all know what the youngest sister is like when her mind is set to a task.”

    “The stupid clown doesn’t stand a chance.” Damian’s voice is sincere and steady.

    Ra’s let’s out a sigh, “If we’re going to do this then we should call in your mother and other sister.”

    You shake your head, “No. Cass has her own standards I respect those. And Shiva is too much of a wild card. We handle this among the Al Ghul’s.”

Your father nods, “Fair enough, but I have a price.”

You raise an eyebrow, “I’d like to see my granddaughter.”

Language learning advice I should give myself more often

- I did not start speaking a single word of my NATIVE language until after 1 year.

- Language learning is not a race, it is a new way of life.

- Some times I will feel like I’ve made lots of progress, other times I will feel like I’ve gone 10 steps back. It’s all relative.

- Stop expecting to make leaps and bounds in a day’s work.

- I still encounter words in my native language, after 20 years, which I do not know.

- BEING UNDERSTOOD IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN BEING GRAMMATICALLY CORRECT.

- I would not think someone struggling to speak my native language is stupid, so native speakers of my target language would not think the same either.

- I know you say “I’ll never need to know this word” but honestly if you’re aiming for a high level of “”“”fluency“”“”, please learn it.

- “Fluency” is too broad a term and not a clear goal to aim for.

- Even native speakers make mistakes.

- If the content I am learning is too simple, I am not challenging myself.

- “If you do the same thing you’ve always done, you’ll always get the same results.”

- Don’t be ashamed for having an accent.

- I will one day in the distant future look back and think how amazing the journey to learn my language was.

- The journey is always more exciting than the destination.

- Speech between 2 native speakers is one of, if not the, hardest things to understand. Do not be disheartened.

…and have been wanting to say it for awhile now.

It was rather obvious, but this blog is honestly… pretty dead. I always had the intention of coming back, but with friends leaving this place behind, there seldom were people that I interacted with on a regular basis– and thus a lack of motivation to keep up with the influx of asks (of similar and repetitive nature– there’s really only so many things to do before things being to repeat themselves, especially if you’ve been at it for a really long time, not taking into account interactions and events.) I tried multiple times to get back into the flow of things, but it simply never worked out due to the aforementioned issue as well as things such as school schedule, the workload it presented, and now a job with the potential to grow into sometime promising– especially when it’s something I’ve always wanted to do, which is work on games.

This place has been a positive impact on my life and general existence. Tremendously so. I’ve been here since the very beginning as the second blog back in April 2015 (forgive me being a little prideful in saying so, it just means a lot to me) following in badlydrawnjotarokujo/kakyoyoin’s footsteps, and then being followed by badlydrawnpolnareff– both who became lifelong friends of mine, whom I cherish to the very end. This place has done a lot, even if only by setting certain things in motion. I had a lot of fun, and had a lot of opportunities– I improved drastically in my art, met a lot of great people who I still talk to, got a lot of attention for a blog filled with dumb doodles, and even met up with people at conventions– namely Katsucon– making good friends there, as well. I built a lot of confidence, learned a lot, went through some hardships, and was able to feel accomplishment whenever I got an ask saying I made someone laugh, brightened their day, or even helped them be happy despite how much life sucked, even if by just a little. I’m sorry for never answering them, but I do get those asks, I see them, and I want to thank you all for them. I might be a little dramatic, I suppose, but there’s just a lot I’m thankful for. 

I just really wanted to say a genuine thank you for all the support and love that  me and this blog has gotten over the past two years. To make people happy, give ‘em a laugh, or even inspire someone with my art; that’s really all I wanted from this. There was a huge timeframe where I got busy with school and wasn’t able to do much and I’m sorry for that, and I’m ever so grateful to everyone who insisted I take my time and take priority in my other work, and even followed me outside of this blog, which means so, so much to me. Thank you to everyone who showed me love and support in your asks and comments despite my inability to keep active. And for putting up with the feeble attempts to make stuff again.

To say I’ve been pretty absent from Tumblr as a whole is an understatement, although I’ve been AT LEAST trying to keep my artblog up to date w/ somewhat nicer pieces I do. I’m much more active on my Twitter, where I’m at least a couple hundred times less serious sounding than this, I swear. I also have been making use of Instagram as of late. Snapchat too, if anyone’s into that? I’ve been doing a lot of art and have been practicing on getting better and better, and have a lot of plans for the future, such as convention tabling and making art for games, and further down the line, a webcomic (hopefully with music and animations!) that I’ve been planning and developing for the past year, as well as run a coffee shop alongside bdpolnareff, my QPP. So, things have been looking up, even if I’ve been struggling with depression and the like. I have things I really look forward to. I’ve also recently graduated and have a Bachelor’s degree in Digital Arts & Design! School ain’t over yet, though, since I’m spending another two years in school for a degree in Game Art. Then comes the student loans…

So, while I really want to say sorry for probably disappointing you all with a general lack of content here (which I really am), I want to focus on the positive. I want to express just how thankful I am to all of the 3,000+ people that decided to follow this blog (which was WAY past any expectation that I ever had, tbh) For just being there, validating and supporting me, whether you said something or didn’t,  ‘cause it’s something I really needed. Honestly, you all are the reason that I kept at it for so long, after all. I’m really, really grateful– probably more than you could ever realize. And if I could ask, if you liked my stuff, please follow me on other places and don’t be afraid to drop a comment somewhere, ‘cause I really appreciate them! (Although I’m kind of bad at conversation sometimes, especially in DMs, but I still appreciate–)

I honestly could say thanks and thanks again all day, and it’s probably getting really old by now if you’re still reading, but I just… really wanted to say how much all of this meant to me. So, as a final thanks, thank you for taking the time to read this. ‘Cause that means a lot too. This is goodbye! From here, at least!

I wish all of you luck and good fortune for the future. There are dark times ahead, but remember that it’ll always pass! Easier said than done, I know, but you can do it! Things may not go as planned, but sometimes those things happen so that something greater may come later. After all, we wouldn’t know what happiness is if we were never sad. You never know what’ll happen!


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lots of Ahsoka requests! I chose palette #3 @avada-matata @i-am-not-a-committee @blurry-jace

EDIT: fixed a few things bc the anatomy was bothering me

danisnotonfire’s eye!
wow, i don’t think i’ve ever been more proud of a drawing in my life. i am honestly so happy with this drawing aaaah!
for this i used faber castell polychromos pencils and some white acrylic paint for major highlights.
honestly, this has turned out way better than some of my graphite eye drawings which i did not expect :3
i hope y'all like it!
@danisnotonfire

update: thank you all so much for the kind comments, likes and reblogs. it honestly means so much to me and this has become my most popular post now. honestly i couldn’t wish for anything more :)

reasons why that whole darn episode was amazing:

  • marlon’s fACE when faith makes a break for it is p r i c e l e s s
  • “she’s like the usain bolt of grandmas.” “who needs a wheelchair?”
  • rob being so upset that the wedding wasn’t perfect and aaron not caring because all that was important to him was that, at the end of it all, robert was his husband
  • i know i’ve said this at least six times now but i cannot even believe they got married in the damn garage they fucked for the first time in
  • also the garage is so much more significant than that? like, that’s where aaron attempted suicide, it’s where he first started to really grow up and be responsible, not to mention that’s where robert made the first attempt at even a friendship, never mind the affair
  • “remind me why i’m marrying you and your massive ego again?”
  • aaron’s little choked up, emotional giggle at the end of the “i wasn’t expecting you to do the whole ‘til death do us part’ thing” i mean the lad honestly sounds like he could cry of happiness at that moment
  • “that’s how it works, idiot” i love how this has just become their pet name
  • i really, really love how they keep coming back to the “but you know” “i know” thing
  • “i never thought i’d have this with anyone. and i never though i’d have it with you.”
  • foreheadkissforeheadkissforeheadkiss
  • all of aaron’s little smiles because aaron dingle’s happiness is my happiness
  • charity ringing the bell i love her like as much as she teases them she loves them
  • ADAM
  • the damn pink confetti
  • diane “break his heart and you’re dead” sugden is my queen
  • the “drink from the welly!” chant
  • cain, who once beat the absolute daylights out of robert, getting annoyed with him when he’s taking too long to do it
  • paddy’s “he does love you. i think anyone can see that.” he’s going to start accepting rob’s presence in aaron’s life
  • also the whole padron scene, i’m so glad they’re slowly fixing them paddy just needs to stop being so wrapped up in his damn self
  • “better go and rescue my husband”
  • just anytime they refer to each other as “husband” i mean really
  • “one’s enough, i like him conscious”
  • the way rob steadies himself on aaron after the welly idk why i like that so much i just do
  • ADELE
  • the way rob grips aaron’s face as he kisses him in front of everyone and doesn’t even care #charactergrowth
  • if you blink, you’ll miss it, but right as the camera pans over before they disappear behind chas as she walks past them you can see rob gently kiss aaron’s neck
  • the way robert presses his face into aaron’s shoulder, his lil smooshed nose, and the way they both light up when they see chas
  • faith calling rob “blondie” does she even know his damn name? anyway if they wanna make rob and faith best friends i’m here for it
  • speaking of robert’s friends, robert has friends!! even if they were just background randoms that he never actually interacted with! but where the f was bob?!
  • how peaceful aaron looks in robert’s arms
  • robert and belle interaction, that made my life
  • robert’s drunk stumble (which is mostly ryan’s post-surgery knee)
  • “oi, have you seen me husband? dead grumpy, but he doesn’t look bad in a suit.”
  • the way reality hits aaron like a freight train at the end of the ep broke my damn heart but was beautifully acted god bless u ryan and danny
  • mr. dingle and mr. sugden
  • robert knowing aaron’s not fine
  • “i don’t wanna leave ya” “i don’t want you to go”
  • aaron apologizing to robert destroyed my heart like yeah thanks i didn’t need that or anything
  • “you’ll come home to me, and we’ll never look back”
  • also, the weird cover of ‘please don’t stop the music’ playing behind them in that scene
  • and of course, that beautiful wide shot of just them in the night with some candles, clinging to each other because they’re the most important things in the world

I feel like we don’t talk about Draco/Astoria enough ??

Like after the war Draco is basically hated on both sides because the death eaters are like “you’re a fucking coward and so are your parents” but everyone else is like “you’re a disgusting death eater” bUT here is this girl who fucking loves him to death and shows him light when he’s in a really dark place takes all the pieces of this broken boy and puts him back together and he loves her so much that he stands up to his PARENTS for her,,, (something he never does),,,and marries her despite what anybody thinks and they just love and care for each other so much that they lock themselves away from society and spend everyday together and decide to have a child for THEMSELVES. Not for the pureblood, not to continue the family name, for them and their love for each other. And Draco’s so devastated when she dies that he literally has to restrain himself e v e r y d a y from using dark magic just to spend one more fucking minute with her and I feel like their love is so overlooked and ??? Honestly I’m just really emotional about Draco and Astoria

HMMM… My top ten fave characters are:

1. Izuku Midoriya (in his costume)

Originally posted by medusalily

2. Izuku Midoriya (when he’s determined)

Originally posted by nishiki

3. Baby Izuku:

Originally posted by anime-angel-lover

4. Izuku in his jam jams (yes I call pajama’s jam jams courtesy of Marco Diaz)

Originally posted by midorkiya

I love his pajama’s okay?

5. Izuku when his cheeks look exceptionally round UuU:

6. Izuku with the U.A sportswear/headband:

Originally posted by gahrou

7. Izuku in his disguise:

8. Teary-eyed Izuku:

9. Izuku when his hair looks really detailed/fluffy:

10. Izuku in his uniform:

Originally posted by midorkiya

…..I just love everything about my son…. I have a lot more Izuku’s that I ike aside from these ones…

thanks for the tag my friend @indygnation! this is probably not what you’re expecting but I honestly do not have a list of my top 10 fave characters… because I have a lot of characters that I like, but for now Izuku is my nuber 1.

@harunnn @sevi007 @shadowsage @greenapplepies @blamedorange @buycandy @ragdollisstillmyhero@chocolate-coffeecake@toxic-vanilla

@rex101111@hatefilledpoptarts@the-creepy-unicorn@mysteriouskusajo@zakamore1@sunsetsorceress

CONFESS YOUR TOP TEN FAVE CHARACTERS AND THEN TAG 10 TEN PEOPLE TO DO THE SAME!

I OBVIOUSLY TAGGED MORE THAN 1O BECAUSE THESE WERE THE PEOPLE THAT I SAW ON MY DASH.

you don’t gotta do it if you don’t wanna.

Reasons to read the poison study series by Maria v Snyder

-good representation of a victim of torture and abuse who now has ptsd
-but she is so much more than a victim and has a full life and wonderful narrative
-poisons are cool
-valek is a sexy assassin
-yelena is a 10/10 female protagonist and is impulsive as hell
-yelena always manages to get in shit but holds her own throughout everything
-the author low key slides a trans character in there when you least expect it and it isn’t a big deal it’s just like oh cool this is nice. Honestly a trans character in a high fantasy??! I thought I wasn’t reading it correctly for a second I was shook
-lots of PoC
-well designed cultures
-cool magic w souls and fire and lots of weird mind powers
-did I mention Valek yet? Bc he is an A+ male lead and is an unconventional alpha male and is wonderful
-claustrophobia is represented
-magic school and who doesn’t love magic school
-evil men but they don’t win
-amazing story arc of an abuse victim fighting back against her abusers and learning to heal and be this amazing bad bitch
-much more but I don’t think I need anything else to convince you

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((Colored with Lighting>Flat Colors>Line Art> Sketch on Paper))

I would really wanna see more screen time on Himawari in the series, i wanna know more about her personality is she gonna be like her mom or dad???

She looks better on the sketch tho…

Honestly my shipping Heart is too excited to know who shes gonna end up with… And my brain is like NO,Shes just a kid fam! (InoHima tho)

Anyways… Im honestly falling inlove with the Boruto: Naruto Next Generation series uwu its showing a bit more of potential than i expected! but it still has a long way to go!

Edit: Pls feel free to comment if you think there should be some tweaks and/or retouches :)

Let's talk about bughead antis

Ok so I didn’t initially want to get too deep into the hate surrounding bughead as a canon ship, but seeing the number of hate comments on the cast’s tweets (particularly Lili, since she’s the one who has tweeted about the deleted bughead scenes the most) has honestly made it hard to stay out of. I understand not backing a particular ship because you just don’t see the two people connecting, or because you ship one of them with a different person. That’s all fine and good. But to go after and verbally attack the writers and cast of the show because you don’t agree with how the story is being written is unacceptable.
I know a lot of people are mad because bughead as a ship doesn’t fit with the comics, which I can certainly see if you’re comparing the show to a few specific storylines in the comics, but it definitely doesn’t apply to all of them. The Archie comics have been around for a very long time, and in that time there have been a countless number of tellings of the lives of the characters. Granted, most (if not all) of these feature Jughead as either romantically/sexually uninterested in anybody, or as strictly asexual/aromantic, which makes the argument that he shouldn’t be in a relationship a little more valid. However, that’s not to say a more romantically interested Jughead character is completely off the table, as there are endless possibilities for the story of the Archie comics characters.
The idea of endless possibilities brings me to beronica. Obviously there were a huge amount of people who went crazy for the beronica kiss in the first episode. Who wouldn’t? The idea of two strong female characters being in a relationship is more than appealing, and I would honestly like to see their relationship develop more throughout the series (maybe not romantically, but I like the idea of them as a sort of power duo). With that kiss came a lot of expectations as to where their relationship would go, and thus bringing about beronica shippers. But, when bughead was made canon in episode 6, beronica shippers, for lack of a better term, went crazy.
This brings me to my main point. Now, like I said before, it’s perfectly fine to be dissatisfied with a couple in the show because it’s not allowing for your personal ship to happen. But, as I also mentioned, attacking the actors and writers of the show for making it impossible for your ship to exist at the moment is unacceptable. No amount of hate comments or protests is going to get the writers to change anything, so you might as well just let the show run its course, and if your ship ends up working out, that’s great! But don’t spend your time angrily tweeting at the cast and writers just because you’re unhappy with how they chose to write the show.
Lastly, and I’m surprised this isn’t more obvious, it’s a TV show. It is a fictional story comprised of made up characters and a screenwriter-developed plot. Of course it means a lot to all of us who watch it, but there comes a point where you need to separate reality from fiction. The actors on the show are real people. Lili, Cole, Camila, KJ, Madelaine, Casey, Roberto and all of the other wonderful people who make this show what it is are just that: people. So stop treating them like robots who will respond to your every demand, and stop saying so many hurtful things to them. Whether or not you think they do, they see the awful things you say to them on Twitter and everywhere else. And I bet you anything that those things hurt.

TL;DR: y'all gotta just suck it up, stop being assholes and let the show run its course

AAAAAALL RIGHT MY FRIENDS, LET'S TALK ABOUT LEFOU.

(Not a spoiler-free post)

The idea of LeFou as -the- gay character is a tricky one. In the original movie, he’s a jokey, flat, pitiful Gaston-worshiper who is somehow even less socially aware than Gaston himself. That’s… Really not the case anymore, honestly. Both characters had a lot more depth and reasoning behind their actions and behavior.

I went into this movie expecting 1991 LeFou, #butgay. I got… An interestingly precise parallel of my own experience with an abusive friendship. Like, to be fair, some of the choreography in /Gaston/ was a little cringy with regards to being obnoxiously “gay” (I did like the hug “too much?” bit and you can fight me), but imo LeFou was excellently done and I love Josh Gad.

Back to the matter at hand, LeFou at the beginning of the movie c l e a r l y has a crush on Gaston and is willing to go along with most anything he says. It seems to be going pretty well for him, since Gaston seems appreciative of LeFou and actually seems to let him get a word in edgewise in this (LeFou is also much smarter now thank GOD)

But as the movie goes on, and Gaston gets crueler and more ruthless in his obsession with Belle, LeFou starts to obviously squirm. He gets less and less willing to blindly follow Gaston and even tried to redirect him a few times, only to get shot down or in one case, Gaston threatens to have him THROWN INTO THE ASYLUM WITH BELLE.

“Ok well, he followed along through all of that because of his crush”

Oh no, theoretical Devil’s Advocate, by that point it is “Gaston is going insane and if I step one toe out of line, he will out me to a village that ran a woman off for READING”

Like at this point Gaston has (SPOILERS) tried to kill Maurice, already whipped the tavern into a semi-mob in order to get Maurice thrown into an asylum where as Gaston said, the man probably wouldn’t last a week, and had Belle thrown in the carriage right alongside him the moment she returned!

I have also been stuck in a friendship with a person who had the power to out me before I was ready, and, that is not something that I would wish on anyone.

LeFou has a new line to himself in Kill the Beast now, and it is… One of the best additions to the entire movie. Along with (SPOILERS) teaming up with Mrs. Potts because he says outright that Gaston is wrong and this is crazy? I love that.

Guys, LeFou isn’t a villain anymore, and BatB is so much better for it.