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Writing 101: The Ultimate World Building Answer Sheet

I know a lot of you are budding writers, and I know a lot of people put world-building up there as one of the toughest things to do.

Below the cut is an EXHAUSTIVE list of questions that, as a writer, you should be able to answer. By the end of the book, unless information is privileged for plot reasons, your readers should be able to answer a lot of this too (some stuff is more plot-specific). A big part of world-building is just making sure you are aware before you begin writing it, and you can drop hints in here and there as throwaways and descriptions.

This is not character building, so much as world-building and information you can use to build auxiliary characters that aren’t necessarily mains in your story. This list is based on sci-fi/fantasy for the most part, in non-earth worlds.

I’ve tried to arrange the list into some kind of order, but if you just sit down and write out an answer to each question, i promise you’ll find it helps you later on. You don’t need to specifically answer each question within your story, but just sitting down and writing it all out, even if you already KNOW your setting, might really help solidify your vision down the line.

Apologies to those on mobile who are subjected to the full list :)

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Prompto has lots of experience with self doubt, which makes him great at detecting it and responding to it. Here’s some ways he would comfort his s/o:

-Cuddles
-Post it notes with “reasons I love you” around the house
-Surprise kisses and hugs
-Pictures of his s/o that he brought to mind when writing post it notes taped above them
-Kissing every inch of his s/o’s face as he lists all of the things he loves about them most
-Pulling his s/o into long hugs and not letting go
-Piggyback rides
-Less bitching about fighting and more puns
-like seriously
-100000000 puns
-He will buy anything and everything he thinks his s/o like to gift them
-Like that piece of candy? Here’s 3000 pieces
-Like my vest? Take my vest.
-Oh you want a teddy bear? Yeah I’m gonna go win you one babe I gotchu
-He won’t let his s/o’s hand go and keeps starring at them like they’re the holy grail
-Babe you are a blessing, I love you so much.
-Kisses before bed all over his s/o’s face

Prompto would do anything for the ones he loves.

@iinkpools

I want to write a one-shot about Brock teaching Misty how to cook. She claims she’s finally ready to make her move on Ash and decides to go the whole, “The way to a guy’s heart is through his stomach,” route. So he thinks it’s such an admirable reason (and it’s about effing time) that he wants to help… and terrible, horrible, no good, very bad things happen. Of course they do. But I really want to write them out. Lmao.

To Do List (aka: The Horror!)

Sooooo, i was tagged by @bulmavegotaku. And since I have a shitton of things on my to-do list and I love to do lists I am happy to let you in on my current brand of crazy. Also, there are lots of people that I can reassure this way that I haven’t forgotten about them and this is perfect.

Do This: List all the things you’re currently working on in as much or little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. This can be writing, art, vids, gifsets, whatever.

Also now with 50% more gifs, because that makes long walls of texts so much more readable, am I right?

1) Preparing for my State Examinations. (… sort of a master?) I’m putting this first, because it is basically the reason why everything else get’s pushed off and slowed down and I feel terribly sorry for it. But, basically, I don’t have a life until these are over – >as you can tell from my list for March<. After that I’m done with University and should have a couple of months year of freetime ahead, before i start teaching. But until then… it’s mostly me trying to get 5 hours of sleep each night, and maybe an hour each day for freetime. So… I’m really sorry if everything else is slow and I forget things. Just… keep pocking me with a stick.

2) My ‘sort-of-Thesis’ Project: “Production Circumstances of Fanfiction”. We call that Zulassungsarbeit in German, and it’s the equivalent of a master thesis that you have to write as part of the first state examinations in one of your subjects. I opted to write it in Literature, and my mentor is a big fan of paraliterature – which works perfectly if you have been very enthusiastic about a particular sub-genre of paraliterature for over a decade, right? After the day your topic gets approval, you have a span of four months to write 60-100 pages. Mine got approval on March 15th, the last date possible. I’ll start to do this in May, after the State Exams, which means I have only 6-8 weeks. But, I’m optimistic, since I’m on my turf ;) On that note, I’ll start reading any research on the topic I can get my hands on, and I’ll share quotable passages with you, since I figured there’s nothing fandom loves more than meta. If you’d like to know when I start this, and want to know the tag to keep track of, drop me a note. :) (I’m also always happy to have people to bounce ideas back and forth on on the topic, so… if you’re into fanfiction meta, ALWAYS come to my inbox please.)

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3) Maybe Smut. A big maybe. Basically, @hollyspacey encouraged me to do @dresupi’s and @leftylain’s smut challenge (>check it out<) , and just for holly I’m considering it, despite the fact that I made it clear how much I suck at writing smut. (Which is not me being modest, i promise, it’s a fact) There’s a reason I’ve yet to share any of my smut with Darcyland; I’ve embarrassed myself enough in other fandoms as it is. So, don’t hold your breath. I don’t even have an idea yet, or a ship. But I’m contemplating it. For holly (,”she mutters to herself, rocking back and forth like a maniac.”)

4) The proposal AU. After @bulmavegotaku  dropped me a fantastic title in the “fic title meme” thing, and @beatrice-babe  and @dresupi were wonderful enablers, I started doing the thing. I re-watched, I took notes, I have an outline prepared. I suspect it’s going to turn into ~75.000 to 100.000 words, and something between 10 to 15 chapters, but my stories have a tendency to end up twice the size of what I planned. Also, @dresupi (who volunteered to beta and I thank any godly being out there for her) can attest to the fact that it’s going a bit slow. I’m still working on the first chapter and trying to figure out how I am going to introduce all relevant characters. Somehow, it got a lot of characters. I don’t want anyone in the MCU to feel left out. But I am working on it, and it is coming – promise!

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5) Assassin’s Creed AU. What, you say? Darcy in the AC realm? Why, yes, indeed. But there’s much more to it. I’m not going to give you too many details, but basically, @uru-viel and I had an idea and @lucid-dreamer-dreams is an enabler, and for the last couple of months we have been blending together 400 years of the history of Russia, AC-Canon and extended MCU-Canon with a dab of comics. Sadly, I’ve not been able to write as much as I’d like to recently, and @uru-viel had tons of tests coming up (which she aced and I’m SO PROUD I can’t even) so don’t expect this to get posted any time soon. But when it comes- guys! This is a behemoth. This is the project of a lifetime, I tell you. I hope there are a couple of AC-Fans in Darcyland who can appreciate this.

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6) That Pride & Prejudice AU, that most of you might have heard of by now. @thestanceyg is brilliant and I like to be part of ambitious overachieving projects ;) I bask in her glory every day. Basically, if you’ve seen The Lizzy Bennet Diaries on youtube you should have a vague idea of where this is headed. Only that we’ve decided we’ll go with a very different medium, which really is starting to give this its very own dynamics and I’m super excited. (It’s going to have fantastic graphics by @usedkarma, by the way, and if you’re not going to read it for that alone I don’t know how to help you) So follow our Darcy’s blog, @darcylewisdiaries, and all, because we look forward to interactivity with darcyland in april.

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7) That Dragon Age Crossover Thing that’s been in my WIP folder almost two years now. A couple of months ago … erm, whoopsie, roughly a year ago I wrote a one shot named >the siren sound (just before the walls come down)< for @amusewithaview and I mentioned that I have plans for this universe and that this was sort pf the prequel for that. I still have those plans. I have plans for a multi-chaptered, 500 000 words behemoth of a fic that spans all three dragon age games, that includes darcy x zevran, gives a shitload of screentime to dorian and bull, and is open ended enough that I can include any future shenanigans that will hopefully happen within the next 10 years in the canon. I have a very very lose mindmap, but no clear goal, and no time to write it. But I’m desperate to write it, and maybe one of these days I’m going to hit up @amusewithaview for a couple of ideas. If she’d like to, that is.(… but first I have to finish the DLCs of DAI so I know where we are headed)

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8) “Show me yours, I’ll show you mine” Exchange with @bulmavegotaku  (what a fantastic title) metaphorically of course get your mind out of the gutter. I have to say, the fic title meme is a bit a matter of putting a spoke in my own wheel. I thought it was about titles for “fic’s I’m never going to write”, but I ended up with lots of stories I would actually like to write – and even more stories by other people I would actually like to read. And the later is far worse. So I am absolutely down to offer an hour of sleep or two each night a limb or two for a story or two of yours, @bulmavegotaku. (You know that I could would do practically anything for your writing anyway, I’ve embarrassed myself fairly well with my fangirling over your stuff, so …. )

9) Darcy Lewis Crossover Bingo Round Two. Last year in April I did >a thing< and I promised right of the bat to two or three people that I’d do it again this year, because it’s been lots of fun. And because I got a hell of a lot good stories out of it and I’m a greedy bastard. Lately, I’ve been fretting over how the hell i am to squeeze that in my schedule, and then – lucky for me – @dresupi and @leftylain announced their smutchallenge, as mentioned above. I’ve dodged a massive bullet there. So, to whom I’ve talked about this, consider this postponed. I’m eying summer, maybe July or August. And I might even hold a poll before that, so you can nominate things to put on the bingo chart? I wanted to do that last time round, too, but didn’t have the time. Hah!

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10) That Darcyland Appreciation Comment Thing.  This has given me a bit of a headache recently, so I’m glad that I can clear this up: >I’m not through with this list yet<. I’ve read and commented all the one-shots ( I think), but some of you have recced me stories that have somewhere between 10 and 77 chapters, (which i love, don’t get me wrong) but as you can probably tell by now, I really don’t have time to read much recently. Especially not multi-chaptered things. So – sorry that I’m taking so long. I will make it through all of them, and if I haven’t commented on yours so far, it’s not because of your story, it’s because of my crappy time management. I love you all, and everything on that list is amazeballs, and I look forward to reading all of it.

11) Old WIPs. This is laughably far off in the future, but maybe in summer or autumn I will be able to make room to pick up on some of my old WIPs and some of the sequels to one shots that I’ve been promising. To nobody’s surprise, I have a handful of them. I’m especially eying that >Jotun!Darcy-AU<, that >Star Trek AU< and that >Harry Potter AU<. Problem being, all of them have been on hiatus for a while, and I’d actually like to re-work the later two. The chapters that exist are a bit too long, and I have things that I would do differently by now. Especially ‘Remember Darkness’ has developed a mind of its own and is heading somewhere that I did not forsee when I started it ( @roottedmight remember that I had a minor crisis over the matter of “romance” in this, and I have not gotten over it over a year later). I would also need a beta reader to help me make sense of all of that. But as all of that is pretty time consuming, I’m pushing that off for now. Just know that at they are neither forgotten nor completely abandoned. They are just on hiatus for an unforeseeable time.

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12) An old brainchild with a brain friend. When I first came to tumblr, @itsmaryagnes and I had a brainchild together, over darcy as peggy’s grandchild, and I’ve recently stumbled over it and I’ve been side-eying it for a while. It never got a proper ending, and I’ve taken a mental note that… maybe some time in autumn or winter… maybe the issue could be approached again. But, alas, it’s a big maybe with a big sigh following it, because… I mean… have you read the other 11 points on this list?

13) Bonus: I don’t think that you guys know that, but I used to draw a lot, especially in my old fandoms. I used to draw OCs for people, and artwork for stories and stuff. Then there were… things… like trace arts and personal stuff… not to go into detail, but I lost confidence and stopped drawing, roughly six or seven years ago. Then I had a conversation with @sarlyne about art (and you should absolutely check out her art sideblog @sarlyneart; there’s fantastic fanart like dragon age and star wars, but also lots of cool other art <3 ) and ever since I’ve kind of thought about starting again. So … that’s something I’ve been thinking about.

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Sooooo… that’s enough for the moment, I guess? Everyone who got mentioned in here this, you are officially tagged and very welcome to do this as well :) I’d love to see whatever WIPs float around in Darcyland <3

anonymous asked:

i am scared im going to kill myself soon, i cannot see any other way to stop all of this pain

Hi love - 

First of all, if you feel like you may hurt yourself please call the emergency number for your country or go to the hospital. I don’t know where you’re from but here is a list of some global helplines.


I know that when things get really bad it can feel like they will never get better, but no matter how bad it gets, there is always hope for a brighter future. If you can, try to think of and write down anything going on in your life that makes you happy, and any reasons to keep living. 

What do you want to do one day? Is there anywhere you’ve always wanted to travel? Anyone you’ve wanted to meet? Any type of schooling or career you wanted to try? There are so many reasons to keep living, even if it seems impossible right now.

Live because you’ve already come this far! And you’ve already gotten past the worst days of your life!!

Live because you deserve to get better and you deserve to live with happiness instead of pain. 

Stay strong love <3 xoxo

All The Creative Things

Do This: List all the things you’re currently working on in as much or little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. This can be writing, art, vids, gifsets, whatever.

I was tagged by the light of my life, also known as @aubzylynn. So excited for the things you’ve got in the works, my love! I am ridiculously nervous about doing this for some reason… oh dear.

Soundtrack 

(Steve x Reader) - Series In Progress 

Sorry this is taking so long, guys. This idea has been in my brain long before this blog existed, so I’m incredibly intense about making it as perfect as I can… Currently working on Song 3 of 5 and trying to find somewhere to fit in some fluff to avoid it being altogether depressing seeing as I made myself cry writing it the other day. Super yikes. I apologize in advance. HAPPY ENDING THOUGH REMEMBER I PROMISE

10213 words written overall

Untitled Request

(Steve x Reader) 

Gotta balance my sad Steve and happy Steve so I don’t feel like an altogether horrible person! This is for a request that I got asking me to do the Steve option of the request that resulted in Burden of Proof.  “OMG burden of proof was tooooo CUTE!! I saw that the request had an ‘or Steve’ as well!! Please please please please!! But like you’re actually in a relationship, and just blushy flustered Steve– oh lord Sarah, please!!” Working on it, honey!

650 words written

Painted Lips, Smoking Gun

(Bucky x Reader) - Series In Progress - None Yet Posted

Based off this request: “ Bonnie and Clyde AU or inspired in their love but still marvel universe for Bucky? please” In trying to determine how to pay proper tribute to Bonnie and Clyde while keeping it in MCU, I decided I needed a bit longer of a format to do it justice - hence the series. That, and I’m a sucker for Bonnie and Clyde. I don’t know what else to say about it, so if you have any questions, feel free to ask. 

8013 words written overall

The Lonely Tree Picture

Not a story - Actual picture of my Lonely Tree that inspired the series. I’ve been playing around with the idea of posting a picture or two. Let me know what you think!

Follower Celebration

Meant to be a celebration for hitting 500, but due to the nature of the drabble game I came up with, I wanted to wait a bit longer. I’ll probably start it up once Soundtrack is over. Still working out the details.

Other

These are just the ones I have actual material for. Many other requests and personal fic ideas are in the planning stages. I’m very excited for the things I’ve got in the works, and I hope you’re excited too! 


I’m gonna tag ALL OF MY WRITER FOLLOWERS because I’m nosy. Tell me what you’re working on. Also, I hope you guys know you can absolutely 100% tag me in anything you write. I’d love to see it!

superhumanspeedandnetflix  asked:

Useless headcanon: E1 Barry is the only Barry in the entire mutliverse who isn't visually impaired. Some are nearsighted, farsighted, blind, colorblind, have glasses, have contacts, missing one or both eyes, suffering from that thing where you can't see faces, and one probably has a monocle. Do you have any useless headcanons like that?

That’s a beautiful headcanon and I support it 100%.  Also, I’m Team Cisco as Barry’s literal “eyes and ears” in at least one universe.  (My “to-write” list just keeps growing, lemme tell you.)

Do I have any useless headcanons?  Sure, I can think of some.

  1. Because vibrating at different frequencies is the reason different alternate universes exist, the farther you are from your home universe, the more jarring the difference is.
  2. At any given moment, you and an alternate universe doppelganger just gave the opposite response to the same question.
  3. The most powerful relationships in your life are echoed across the multiverse, in equal opposition to balance out.  (e.g. You hate/love your partner.)
  4. The farther from home you travel, the less Earth-like “alternate Earths” become.  Universal neighborhoods are a thing.  Way Out, you’re talking stuff we can’t even conceptualize.
  5. The fifty-two visible universes of The New 52 fame are but just part of the infinite number of universes that cannot be perceived by humans.
  6. Doggos de-age when you transport them from a high frequency universe to a lower frequency, and puppers age when you move them from a low frequency universe to a higher frequency universe.
Zodiac Songs #7 - Portishead

Portishead is my favorite music group of all time.  It took me a while to make this list because my feelings for them are so deep and complex and it was kinda hard to hyper analyze them in this way.  Also I’m a Scorpio and I don’t like sharing with too many people the things that are really close to my heart. I didn’t even want to link all the songs cause I’m possessive like that and I didn’t want to make it too easy for the dilettantes…  But I did anyway since for some reason I felt like writing this right now. So here it is.

Pioneers and perfectors of the trip-hop genre, Portishead formed in the height of the Neptune in Capricorn era.  While more mainstream artists were tied to physical excesses, lamenting over money, sex, and ruthless notoriety, or grumbling in grungy purgatory, trip hop artists, especially Portishead, represented the more melancholic and ethereal side of this era. Bubbling under the surface and never reaching true mainstream status, Portishead and other trip-hop artists represented the soul of this dark, physically focused era. Contemplative, reflecting on the survival mechanisms of human nature on Earth, and the limits of life on this plane, Portishead is produced by Venus in Capricorn - True Node Aquarius native Geoff Barrow and led by the vocals and lyrics of Capricorn Sun - Aquarius Moon, Beth Gibbons. Portishead’s music is decidedly Saturnian in nature –  somber, often harsh, cryptic and coded, obsessively detailed, heartbroken but persevering, aloof, alienating, emotionally dense, exquisitely elucidating the perils of mortality; travelling through time – deeply rooted in the past while always looking forward and breaking new ground.

As Neptune made its way into Aquarius, Portishead’s avant-garde influence began to take root in more mainstream music.  In an era when electronic music made its way into pop music, the lightness of the air element created a fascination with depth and many of the styles and techniques that Portishead had been using a decade earlier became chic and new in mainstream pop. Weirdness became hip and eventually diluted into more palatable forms. But when Portishead released their 3rd album, Third,  in 2008, many of the critics in the airy Neptune in Aquarius era weren’t ready for how real it actually was. Ignorantly written off by many as their weakest release, Third was even more experimental, harsh, and alienating than their previous releases. While they were like the ethereal soul of the Neptune in Capricorn era, Portishead was like the dense core grounding the excess electricity of the Neptune in Aquarius era. Weariness, angst, spiritual disillusionment channelled through synths, Third was rooted in electronic music history and primal psychedelia and effectively called bullshit on all the lightweights playing checkers on their chessboard.  
The music of Portishead for me is like the soundtrack of Saturn at its most dense and ultra feminine in the esoteric sense. This list is basically like Saturn travelling through each of the signs, forcing each one to confront their shortcomings, fears, and inevitable demise on this plane while encouraging excellence and keeping a focused eye on the future.

Aries - Numb, Roads
This loneliness, just won’t leave me alone. A lady of war…

Ohh, can’t anybody see, We’ve got a war to fight, Never found our way, Regardless of what they say

Taurus - Cowboys, Biscuit 
But don’t despair, this day will be the damndest day oh if you take these things from me.

Full fed yet I still hunger. Torn inside. Haunted I tell myself, yet I still wander, Down, inside, its tearing me apart. Ohh sensation. Sin, slave of sensation

Gemini - Magic Doors, Silence 

I can’t divide or hide from me, I don’t know who I’m meant to be
I guess it’s just the person that I am

Tempted in our minds. Tormented inside lie
Wounded and afraid, Inside my head, Falling through changes

Cancer - Sour Times (Nobody Loves Me), Half Day Closing 

Who am I, what and why? Cause all I have left are my memories of yesterday. Ooh Sour times.

In the days, the golden days when everybody knew what they wanted, It ain’t here today. Through the times of lasting love when parents talked of things tried and tested. It don’t feel the same. Dreams and belief have gone. Time, life itself goes on…

Leo - All Mine, Small 

Make no mistake, you shan’t escape, tethered and tied there’s nowhere to hide from me. All mine. You have to be.

Small, tasteless, and forgot, Hoping to see, blinded like me, You tried to understand, but you’re just a man, Open to scorn just like me

Virgo - It could Be Sweet, Nylon Smile 

I don’t want to hurt you. No reason, have I but fear. And I ain’t guilty of the crimes you accuse me of. But I’m guilty of fear.

I’d like to laugh at what you said but I just can’t find a smile. I wonder why you can. I struggle with myself, hoping I might change a little, hoping that I might be someone I wanna be

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So you know how I talked about how I hardcore ship Kallus/Maul in the past… well I’m writing a fic about it.
The list of things I want to happen in this fic at some point include:

  • Maul having several conversations with Kallus about morality, free will, etc.
  • Kallus dealing with depression.
  • Maul having several breakdowns.
  • Maul grieving over the death of his brother.
  • Kallus really trying to be a good person even if he really doesn’t feel like it.
  • Kallus doing questionably bad things for good reasons
  • Maul not trusting Kallus at first but growing to respect and trust his skills and eventually the man behind them.
  • Kallus appreciating Maul for the nuanced individual that he is and not as a tool or a weapon.
  • Murder
  • Political intrigue
  • An ending that I won’t spoil yet.
The first chapter is a good two thirds done already and should be out sometime next week. Hopefully.
UPDATE + To Do List

As all of you have probably noticed by now, I post things less often recently. Don’t worry about it - I am trying to write longer texts, like full one-shots or series, instead of headcanons, so it’s gonna take me more time to finish the text, for obvious reasons.

I post longer things mostly on weekends, because only then I have time to fight with tumblr and its moods.

I would also greatly appreciate some requests! Or actually any form of contact from you… I’ll post more texts when I have more ideas to write.


Also, I have been tagged to make a To Do List by a lovely  @that-was-not-supposed-to-happen . Thank you so much! <3

Texts I plan to post sometime soon, but I don’t have any dates planned:

  • Crowley x reader series named Something Different (it’s not gonna be too long, I think maybe 6 parts, but it all depends on how well it is received, so, you know, everything is in your hands, haha)
  • Credence-centred series, taking place after the movie. It’s also gonna be short, maybe 5 parts max.
  • Loki one-shot(-s)
  • some headcanon-ish imagines for Charles Xavier, Doctor Strange
  • a few moodboards, because making them makes me happy
  • Lucifer Morningstar one-shot(-s).

I am tagging @madswritings, @greisheb @iamfelixc  @junie-moonies-enchantress and @ibuzoo

Have fun!

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The Devil’s In the Details: Making that Same Old Story Sound Unique

If you’ve been following my blog, you know already that I believe no plot is unique. It’s just not. Even the most engrossing plot should fall into Georges Polti’s Thirty-Six Dramatic Situations. There are only 36. Some other lists are longer, some are shorter, but all somehow get covered. And it’s not a bad thing. I take it as a reason to stop worrying my plot isn’t “creative enough” or that it’s kind of like a plot from this other book I read, because it probably is. All quest stories are quest stories. You can compare The Lord of the Rings to The Odyssey to Moby Dick to even, some say, Catcher in the Rye. It’s okay. 

But how to go about making your story stand apart? It’s the details. Big picture, all stories are pretty similar. They fall into a few categories. But when you start introducing unique characters, contemporary and relevant issues, and themes that you specifically care about, your story will start to look a little different. 

Let’s start with characters:  Percy Jackson and Harry Potter might have a lot in common but you can distinctly tell them apart. Why?  They might both be magically-gifted heroes prophesied to battle some great opposing force, but both have more than enough quirks to set them apart from each other. They are different people with different concerns and different personalities. One thing that helps me a lot is giving characters jobs. What do they do all day? A florist who happens to be a werewolf is dramatically different than an outerspace alien who is a hot dog vendor. 

Now setting: New York City, the Moon, and a Texas ranch are all really different settings. Switching from one to another should change your story quite a bit. I once read somewhere that you should try to set your story in a setting that will exacerbate your plot as much as possible, which is a great idea!

Extra details: So, the last little tip I have, pay attention to your nouns. Don’t write house, write Victorian. Be specific, let your specificity direct your story and give it character. It will make your story your own. 

I’ve had a kind of weird week, so I’ve been thinking a lot abt self-care?  So, when I first started hearing about self-care as an idea I had a lot of misconceptions and didn’t really know how to apply it and sometimes made things worse trying to make myself better?  So I’m gonna write out some of the things that work for me now when I’m doing self-care and taking self-care time for myself.

For me, self-care is more about respecting and listening to my body and instincts than it is specific actions.  Like, initially I just saw lists of like ‘take a bubble bath!’ ‘read a book!’ ‘eat a good meal!’ and that’s all good and well, but just Doing Pleasant Things is no good when I do them desperately and for the wrong reasons.

Self-care, for me, means reminding myself that I’m a finite being who’s allowed to have limitations.  It means that when my body says ‘I am too tired to keep doing this’ I say ‘ok ur too tired to keep doing that’ instead of saying, like ‘ok but also u pulled all-nighters all the time 5 years ago ur not that old yet wtf’ or ‘other ppl are still working probably what is wrong with u?’ or ‘too bad ur prob making that up and anyway we gotta do the thing’ or ‘tough noogies have some coffee idc that u have a stomachache it’s only for a little while longer u can puke when this is done.’  Self-care doesn’t always mean that I go get a full 8 hours of sleep, but it does mean that I take my body’s needs seriously.  It means I get to put my needs at least on par with whatever it is I’m trying to get done, instead of below it.  It means thinking holistically and remembering that whatever task I’m doing, I’m doing it as a specific, embodied human with specific talents, abilities, strengths, weaknesses, interests, and limits.

Self-care means staying in tune with the rhythms of my life.  It means knowing how my own REM cycle works and taking it into account when I decide when to go to bed and get up and whether to nap and how long and all of that.  It means remembering that my life is more than a specific day and I need to live like I also want to be healthy 3 days from now and that if I push myself too hard and then collapse on the next free day I have, I’ll never actually enjoy myself.  It means backing down when I have a headache and figuring out if I’ve forgotten to drink my usual amount of water or if I’ve missed my usual morning caffeine or if I’ve not slept long enough or spent too much time in front of a screen or missed out on social time and over-stressed myself or whatever else.  

Self-care also means living with Future Me in mind.  Future Me needs me not to push myself to collapse rn.  Future Me will benefit if I do the 12% of this task I’m probably up to, even if Future Me thought I was going to get 50% of it done today.  Both Present Me and Future Me will benefit from eating some vegetables.  Even if ‘eating some vegetables’ means a sandwich on the go with lots of lettuce bc I still haven’t been to the store, Future Me will still appreciate the veggies.  Future Me will not appreciate the way she feels if I refuse to sleep and make myself do tasks poorly, painfully, and ineffectively and eat nothing but cookies instead of taking the time to find better food.  Even if doing all the work I imagined I should would mean leaving no work for Future Me to do, not doing all the work I imagined I should will mean Future Me is strong enough to handle the work I leave for her, instead of collapsing into mush.  Future Me pretty much always turns out to appreciate that.

Self-care also means giving Future Me some credit.  She’s stronger than I think she is, so while I can and should help her by doing what I can now to take things off her plate, sometimes just helping Future Me be strong enough to cope is good enough.  Often just helping Future Me be strong enough to cope is good enough.

Self-care, for me, also means always having a set of possible standards I’m ok with.  I think a lot about that Ron Swanson thing ‘don’t half-ass two things, whole-ass one thing’ and I think generally it’s pretty good advice, but also, sometimes u have 2 things and u have to do them.  Sometimes u have 5 things and u have to say this is the one I care about enough to whole-ass and then I’ll half-ass these 2 and quarter-ass this one and worry about the mess in the kitchen some other day also u can pay money for ppl to bring food to ur house.  Self-care means reminding myself that I literally can’t do everything all the way all the time and letting myself make new plans that respect that.  It also means letting myself over-achieve on those goals a little bit, as long as I’m focusing on the stuff I care about.  Self-care means not letting myself feel like I’m just getting dragged around by the world instead of making my own choices.  Obviously, I still feel dragged around sometimes, but deciding to do a little when I can and that different standards for different tasks at different times is ok helps a lot.

Idk, this is pretty vague and not nearly as specific as ‘I felt crappy yesterday so I did some yoga and took a shower and wore comfy jeggings and worked from home instead of leaving my apartment’ but I could have done all of those things and still come out of it feeling crappy.

It worked because taking the time to feel my body and breathe deeply and reconnect with my physical being helped me trust my own instincts/self-knowledge after an emotionally tumultuous and mood-swingy week.  It worked because telling myself that I was allowed to take a shower purely because I wanted one and not because it was the time on my how-to-not-be-offensively-greasy-around-others schedule was telling myself that the feeling of wanting a shower was real in the moment even though I usually hate having to shower, and that I was allowed to want that and allowed to give myself that.  It worked because jeggings and a bra under my t-shirt make me feel like I’m dressed and give me that Dressed And Out Of Bed confidence/competence boost, but are not much less comfy than pjs.  It worked because I got some work done instead of none, and because it took the pressure off.  It worked because I had reframed doing 25% of the work I’d wanted to for the day as doing 25% more than if I had stayed too anxious to start any of it and frittered the day away feeling bad about myself and waiting to Magically Start something I wasn’t up to in that state of mind anyway.

So that’s a lot of rambling but anyway there it is.  I ordered a pizza box tonight because I should have gone to the store more than a week ago and still haven’t, and I’m gonna eat it for at least 1 more meal before I go to the store and maybe 4 meals, idk yet.  I’m sore from yesterday’s incredibly basic yoga video bc I haven’t done any in months and don’t really work out beyond walking places when I can get away with not driving.  I’m not exactly the poster child for yoga-and-vegetables holistic living.  But, like, when doing those things is part of Treating My Lived Experience As Valid I can do them without feeling guilty for all the times I didn’t and I can respect myself for making other choices at other moments like taking a nap and ordering pizza, which I’m actually still feeling super duper good about.  I did slightly more than the minimum amount I wanted to get done and ended up meeting my middle goal for work this evening, and I’m super excited about those cinnamon bread sticks I’m gonna eat for breakfast tomorrow.

All The Creative Things

Do This: List all the things you’re currently working on in as much or little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. This can be writing, art, vids, gifsets, whatever.

I was tagged by the beautiful, wonderful, absolutely supportive wife of mine @supernaturallymarvellous

This is my writing and art that’s in the works or on the drawing board.

P.S I Love You

I’ve been having a hard time with writing the next part of this. Reason being I want to stay true to the movie as much as I can but also with it being Avengers-esque I kind of can’t. And the idea is to do a military funeral since I have experience with one but it’s really emotional and I don’t want to over do it too much. I’m probably going to visit the next part some time this week though, let’s hope I can suck it up and actually get on with writing it.

Get A Grip

The month of February for this series is in my drafts right now, and has been for weeks. I think I’m just having trouble with how exactly I want it to play out. Because in general I already know what I want to happen a long the way but I guess it’s filling in the months in between that I’m kind of having trouble with. I’m definitely going to look over it this week though, see how I can work on it.

What I Am

To be honest, this is just a working title for a photography project I’ve been working on (more like, I’m in the drafting stage). It’s meant to be an androgynous photo shoot with me as the model and I have a photographer friend of mine taking the photos. It’s really only taking it’s time because of me, I need to lose weight and dye/cut my hair and buy the outfits. Location I’ll be leaving it up to my friend. But it’s going to be a really fun shoot with serious looks and glitter and laughter and drinks and just an all around good shoot. 

Enamel Pins

This in a sense is a project but more of a business if you think of it. The idea is to turn my artwork into enamel pins, so pins people can wear on hats or jackets or wherever else people put pins. The problem is just that to order pins, it’s expensive and I know a lot of the audience I would love to reach is all over the world and shipping around the world is expensive. Now, that doesn’t mean I won’t ship internationally, because I will ship internationally. What I want to do is this - I have already… 5 different designs that are ready to be turned into pins. Once I raise the money for each pin design and if the response for all of them is great and there’s a large demand for more, I’ll start looking into international shipping because I know there are tons of people outside of the USA that would want some of the pins I’ve designed.

* For 100 pins for just one design, it would cost me 300$. So 300$ x the 5 pin designs? I would have to raise 1,500$, sell all of them and hope and pray the response is amazing so that I would be able to order and make more and hopefully ship outside of the USA.

There’s honestly a lot of projects that I have just written down in a notebook for a ‘if I can make this happen then let’s do it’ kind of thing. I would love to share all my projects with you guys, honestly I would. But it would take me forever to write each and every one of them out with how in depth some of them can be. I know that once they’re completed and ready for the public eye, I’m definitely going to be sharing with my tumblr family.

I’ll be tagging @zeannastardust @aubzylynn @iwillbeinmynest and anyone else who wants to take part in this.

Building a picture

Hello all,
Several people have commented on the improvement of my compositions for the past 6 months/year or so (thank you!!). I’ve been meaning to write a number of Tumblr posts on composition but I can’t seem to make time for that at the moment - so instead I’m sharing with you the checkpoint list I use when drawing.
These are basically all the things I (try to) pay attention to, to work towards a picture that is as strong and impactful as possible. I like having that list with me, so I regularly go over it and ask myself “Have I given enough thought to this? Could I make it better?” Some of these I feel I have reasonably mastered - others I still struggle with, but you know… it’s a journey! :)

I’d love to hear if there are any key aspects you think I’m missing in there.
Also, this is my checklist so it’s worded succintly but I’m happy to explain anything if you have questions.


Space separation

·       Placing of the strongest dynamic lines

·       Placing of the focal point(s)

·       Cropping by the edge of the picture (leave some elements out for interest)

·       Organisation of lines to emphasize the focal points

·       Separation of the major masses (in relation to value placement)

Shapes

·       Variations in shapes and patterns

·       Repetition/singularity

·       Crumping/grouping of objects

·       Variations in sharpness and roundness

·       Overlaps between shapes and object, cropping of some elements

Linework

·       Alternance of straight and curved lines

·       Variations of line weight

·       Variations of line colour and darkness

·       Variations of line density and detail level

·       Variations of broken and continuous linework

·       Different types of edges: sharp, soft, lost (merging of masses, receding parts, etc.)

Values

·       Definition of the major value zones (2, 3 or 4 - one of them usually left to focal details)

·       Variations within the value range of the zone, limiting the overlaps in values between zones as much as possible

Colours

·       Definition of the general colour temperature

·       Definition of the major, minor and accent colour if one is used

·       Variations around the set colour schemes

·       Variations in flat colours and textured colours

·       Variations in saturation depending on importance

 

Shadows and Light

·       Soft/harsh lighting

·       Shadow depth and density to make some parts recede/stand out

·       Blurring of soft edges with shadow

·       Light density and sharpness/diffusion

·       Interactions between objects and light (throwing shades/cropping light/diffusing light)

·       Atmospheric perspective (or inversed)

Details

·       Variations in detail level according to importance

·       Variations in patterns and texture

·       Variations in edge sharpness and softness

·       Highlights and bright lines

I told people on twitter to send me their amazon wish lists for no reason and just went and went through them all and bought some things for some random internet strangers. It was so fun? I love seeing the little things on people’s lists, things they want but won’t spend the money to buy for themselves. And I especially loved seeing younger people with art supplies and writing supplies and writing books. It’s fun to buy those and feel like you’re helping someone feel inspired. Idunno. Having a pay it forward feeling. Thought I’d share. It was cool.

Everyone’s been writing a list of things they want for ME4. What I want: more information about the world of Mass Effect.
I want them to fill the Codex with so much data that some things have to be left out. They’ll have to publish a book with everything they haven’t told us in all Mass Effect games (like they did with Dragon Age). It would be called “The World of Mass Effect” and would be 400 or 500 pages long (what? that’s reasonable!). We’ll get new information about the history and culture of all the races in Mass Effect. We’ll get new information about famous planets or locations. It would contain gorgeous art.
Ah… JUST GIVE IT TO ME.