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The Defenders: Daredevil is ‘a little bit lost’ at the start of the series 

Charlie Cox: Well, it’s been a few months since the end of season 2. I think it’s been quite a challenging few months for him. He took the death of Elektra very badly —I think he feels responsible for that. One of Matt’s big things is trying to protect the people he loves, which is why he keeps his identity hidden, and he’s failed. He’s left holding the dead body of a loved one, and so I think he’s tried to turn a corner.

It’s almost like quitting an addiction in the hope that it will get easier. He’s perhaps a little bit lost, and the best he can do for now is to not engage in his vigilante activities. When we meet him at the beginning of The Defenders, I’m not sure he’s completely found peace with that idea. I think he’s doing the best with what he can at the time. He finds himself between a rock and a hard place, which is the crux of his issue really from the beginning of season 1. “Should I or shouldn’t I? What is more beneficial to society?”

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  • mycroft admits to purposefully trying to trigger sherlock to remember his traumatic childhood memories that he’s repressed so he could ~better gage~ his brother’s mentality.
  • they apparently lock a child with some serious mental health issues in a ridiculous futuristic prison.
  • mycroft has apparently forbidden any sort of psychiatric evaluation or therapies because eurus is just that crazy~~~
  • they spend approximately half a hot second showing sherlock dealing with some traumatic childhood memories that were so bad, he’s apparently forgotten his sister and also the fact that redbeard was actually a childhood friend. and then it’s back to Super Detective Mode and never visited again. holy shit HOW UNREALISTICCCCC.
  • once they find john, they literally put eurus right back into sherrinford, where mycroft tries to convince their parents that there’s no point in making contact with their daughter (whom he lied about and told them she died years ago) because she doesn’t talk. 

all of this was just a huge and blatant disregard of the facts surrounding serious mental health issues, and i feel like they failed in trying to represent the idea.

i’m not angry at you for asking, just so you know! i’m just angry at the creators.

in a way i understand what they were trying to say with the “who you really are, it doesn’t matter” bullshit. they tried to make it sound like “the legend” is more important than the truth because that way they, we and everyone can make our own stories based on the legend (like we already have). but with all that has happened, no. that is not a good thing to say, you fucked up everything surrounding this great metaphor of yours and failed miserably. who you really are does matter and that’s “the story, the adventure” we are going to tell.

Like in our vows / A Nate Maloley Imagine

“Can I have a Nate maloley imagine where y/n and Nate are trying to have kids but they keep failing, and finally y/n goes to the doctor and they tell her that she is not able to have kids, and she thinks that Nate will leave her for someone else who can actually give him the family that he wants, but Nate was really sweet about the whole situation even though he is upset himself”

Here you go, this was an hard one to write. I hope it’s okay.

Please request me other imagine ideas!

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9 months. 9 months me and my husband Nate had been trying for a baby. But nothing worked, no matter what we tried.

I wasn’t myself lately, the day me and Nate decided we wanted to take our marriage to the next step with starting our own little family was an amazing idea. At least, back then. Now all these months later I’m desperate. Desperate to see 2 little red lines on that pregnancy test. Of cource today, the test was negative. Again.

I laid in our bed, watching Netflix as Nate came in the room. He knew what happend and turned the tv off and looked at me. “Baby girl” he says and all the tears i’ve been holding in the last few hours fall out. He pulls me into a tight hug rubbing my back. “Nate this isnt fair” I say starting to sob. “I know baby, this ain’t fair.” He says trying to keep himself strong. “Can we lay down please?” I ask him and he nods “of cource we can”
We both lay down and we cuddle up. “We should go to the doctors again.” He says after a moment of silence. “Nate they will only tell us to try harder, you know that” I tell him. Nate really wanted kids. “We tried 9 months Y/N! We don’t know what’s going on! I’m getting crazy!” Nate gets mad, or upset. I can’t tell. All i know is that it only makes me feel worse. I feel like crying again but instead I start to sob. Nate looks at me. “Please let me take you to the doctors.” He almost begs me. After a while I nod. “Thank you” he says.

The drive to the doctors office was quiet, even the radio wasn’t on. We just didn’t had any words left to discuss about what was going on.

After a while we finally arrived. I get out off the car and looks at Nate. He comes closer and kisses me. “I love you Y/N, I always will.” He says grabbing my hand before we get inside. The waiters room was empty, on the ground we saw all sorts of kid toys. I looked at them and smiled. So beautiful and joyful.

After a while the doctor calls our name and we get inside. “Still nothing?” She asks us. We both shake our head. “Well, we might take some blood to see if everything’s alright. Is that okay for the both of you?” She asks us. We nod.

A week later.

12:00pm
“Why isn’t she calling Nate?” I say looking at my phone.
“I don’t know, maybe she will call in a second. She promised us to call as soon she had the results.” Nate says trying to calm me down. I shake my head and look at my phone again
12:01pm
“She’s a minute too late” I say, I got so frustrated. “Calm down baby, she is going to call I prom-”
Nate got interupted by my loud ringtone. I pick up as fast as I can.

The call wasn’t long, I dropped the phone. And fell down. Tears running down my face. Nate gets the phone, and she tells him the same few words;

“I’m sorry, we found out your wife can’t get pregnant.”

I haven’t seen Nate cry since the day we got married. Seeing him like this because my body doesn’t allow me to get kids broke my heart. At this point we couldn’t even comfort each other. “I’m sorry”
“Don’t be, it’s not your fault.” He says trying to comfort me even though he was broken after the news he just heard. “You are going to divorce with me, aren’t you?” I say looking into his dark brown, watery eyes. “I would never leave you. That was written in my vows.” He tells me. “Vows are just a paper” I respond
“Not when it comes down to you Y/N.”
He pulls me closer. “Eventually you’ll break up with me Nate, and get a family you always wanted” I whisper trying not to cry again. “We can make it on our own Y/N. We really can.” He says, I don’t know if it was him convincing himself or if he actually meant what he said. I just nodded.

kuruasu  asked:

What do you think would've happened if Steven hadn't escaped his cell, and Jasper took them all the way to Yellow Diamond?

Interesting question! I don’t think YD would be as pleased as Jasper would expect her to be.

The thing is, when it comes to Earth, YD is playing the “out of sight, out of mind” game really hard. Basically all of her coping with Earth hinges on not admitting it’s there or that it hurt her which is why she’s failed utterly at getting closure.

But I think it’s very likely that being actively presented with Steven, she’d react defensively and try to shut the interaction down as quickly as possible- and with as much power as she would have over how that meeting went down, it’s very, very likely she’d lash out in a way that would make it very dangerous for Steven.

As much as I’d love Steven and YD to meet and reach an understanding, YD continuing to avoid the topic of Earth is basically the one floodgate holding back over five thousand years of unmanaged grief and it’s important to understand she is going to fight to keep that gate in place. Consider Steven’s responses in Keystone Motel and Mindful Education. YD wants to carry on like nothing is wrong and, if anything, actively sabotage any attempt of seeking closure for Earth.

And I think this is a way that YD has failed people like Eyeball and Jasper who want that closure. YD is failing herself in this situation already because even if she doesn’t want to feel bad, her bad feelings never go away because she never addresses them. YD’s in that same hurricane of butterflies that Steven was caught by in Mindful Education except she’s trying to move in a smaller and smaller box just to try not to disturb them.

Tying this into the last thing I reblogged… I find it very funny when people keep insisting that YD somehow requires narrative retribution for doing badly by others- because YD is living that retribution. She’s doing exactly what the larger themes of the show condemn as bad things- she’s isolating herself, she’s burying her feelings, she’s refusing to listen and she’s trying actively not to understand.

And all of that is what’s ripping her apart at the seams at this point. The fact that she has such a deeply dysfunctional relationship with her emotions that at this point she doesn’t want to face anything that reminds her of how much she’s hurting tells us that YD is nowhere even remotely approaching okay. She’s built a comfortable house two feet off of rock bottom and has been living there for, as best as we can tell, the last 5,000 years.

Sometimes you have to kick a character off their high horse before they can admit they have a problem and start to change, but that’s not at all who YD is. YD is someone who will sooner let her problems eat her alive than confront them and at the root of that I’m pretty sure it’s because she’s terrified. You don’t deal with someone who’s afraid by giving them even more to be scared of.

mr robot might be too much for me like i’ve been trying to watch the pilot since like august and i always get ridiculously sleepy at this damn ferris wheel scene and then it’s another failed attempt at watching this show

#i feel like a mom driving my two children in a mini van trying to keep up with their thoughts#as I fondly remember the cute grocery store patron who gently had her hand linger as we grabbed for the same sack of potatoes#and I contemplate leaving my failing marriage from my garbage husband and I’d take you two with me#because surely that woman would understand and would want to help enrich your lives

@armeniangf, @endangeredtreealligator, @ukitakejuushiro

I listen to my children in the back seat arguing… Honestly, I’m not sure I even know what it is going on, but swiftly, and with a single sentence, I answer their question and settle it. They’re disgruntled, but also pleased. I ask them, feeling a sense of whimsy, “Would you like to get some ice cream?”

Squeals of delight call out into the air at the thought of such a treat.

“But why are we getting ice cream, mommy?”

I look in the rear view mirror. Their faces reflecting the joy I once had in my heart that now runs cold. “I just want you to feel happy,” I tell them, honestly.

They do not know. I pray they never will.

ive built up this huge tolerance to my meds and you know, sometimes i think the worst part about having adhd isnt adhd itself but that 97% of the time i gotta function like i dont have it. I have to focus, sit still for a long period of time, try not to distract myself even though i inevitably will. And i guess my meds help that. Somewhat.

But not enough. Sometimes being normal and trying to be functional feels superhuman for me. I mean im an adult, thats what adults do, right? But its rough. I gotta tone myself down and mask a lot of my symptoms day in and day out. Theres a fear that sits with me that one day im gonna fail completely if i dont keep up the act that im organized, focused, capable.

Yet thats very far from who i am. The person i was this time last year that felt accomplished and productive and sure herself because of when i first started my meds is gone. She’s gone. Ive got this mental crutch that feels like im running at full speed trying to catch up while everyone else is walking casually.

Sucks, you know? Sucks being this way. In the end ill just get told to work harder. Im trying, though. OH MY GOD DO I TRY. I TRY ALL THE TIME. IN THIS INSTITUTION. OH MY GOD, DO I PRAY. I PRAY EVERY SINGLE DAY…for REVoLUTION!!! MYAH.

AND I SAY, HEYEYAYEYEAYEA.

anonymous asked:

If Tom Holland came knocking on your door, what would you do?

The funny thing is I would probably ask, “May I help you?” I feel like I won’t be able to process the fact Tom Holland is at my door. Then when I finally processed it, I will probably TRY to act chill. BUT, I would fail miserably and start rambling. THEN, I would realize I look like I have no pants on because my sweater is huge. 

Send me questions!

me@myself: you NEED to study for physics or else you will fail the test this week and the final exam next week
me: try and get past the part in twilight princess that you’ve been stuck on for like the past four years and haven’t touched in forever

lossencat  asked:

I've had to unfollow so many Sherlock Holmes blogs recently because they started posting such an overwhelming amount of Sherlock. I'm glad I'm following at least one person who hates that show as much as I do.

LMAO. Yeah I’m following literally like two people who post about it and my dash was still 80% blacklist a couple of days ago, it was kind of amazing. I TRY to keep it classy over here and not post too much vitriol but sometimes I fail spectacularly, today was one of those days. (I expect the failures may continue for a bit.) Good to have your support, friend!

Yes I'm An SJW. No, I'm Not Obligated to be Polite About It.

Was told by a crybaby Trump supporter today that I’m “too angry”.

I’m not sure if he was trying to make me feel like somehow being angry and expressing that anger is a bad thing, but I’m not ashamed of my anger.

Here’s what this ignoramus fails to understand.

For decades SJWs, like myself and far better than myself, have been told that unless they protest “quietly” and “peacefully”, they won’t be listened to. They’ve been told that unless they’re calm and demure in their debates, they have no credibility.

But, where has their quiet protest gotten them? Slavery is still legal, and still heavily targets black people and other minorities, though how it is executed has changed. Women are still only meat for the enjoyment of men, as evidenced by the judicial system’s near-complete inability to actually indict and sentence rapists. The rich are still getting richer as the poor continue to get poorer. Gentrification is still destroying black neighborhoods. Redlining is still being executed by banks in order to make it more difficult for people of colour to get mortgages or loans than for white people.

Yet, you hear so many people who’ve grown up blinded by their own privilege saying that these problems don’t exist, or ceased to exist a long time ago, or are suddenly new. No. What’s new is that the protests have ceased to be quiet. SJWs like me, and especially ones far better than me, are making sure their issues are now in your face as much as humanly possible because treating the privileged with kid-gloves for the last however many decades has not been effective.

It is high time for the kid-gloves to come off. It is high time that the people who have been unaware of these ongoing problems have their safe-spaces taken away and have the problems of women, minorities and minority women shoved down their throats until real changes start to happen.

So, no, I am not ashamed that you think I’m not polite or demure enough. Your privilege has taught you that you deserve to be engaged with softly, but I’m here to tell you that that is all going to change. Buckle up, sugar, it’s gonna be a bumpy ride.

Someone probably beat me to the punch and made a post like this already, but honestly, I just had talk about this scene.

I’m sure all of you remember the infamous bathroom scene. This new flashback from episode 12 puts things into a different perspective. 

Here Yuri is, watching Yuuri’s past GPF performance. He’s trying his best to look disinterested yet you can tell he’s clearly interested. He even goes as far to admit that Yuuri’s step sequence grabbed his attention. And when he mentions the failed jumps he sounds almost…disappointed.

He isn’t making fun of him for messing up his jumps. He wants to see Yuuri be able to succeed and successfully complete a program.

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things i love abt girls from a gay girl:

  • when their lipstick gets smeared after giving you a really passionate kiss
  • when they try to take artsy nudes as if every nude they take isn’t already a work of art
  • when they giggle and play with their hair when u get them all flustered
  • when they try to put their hair in a cute bun but fail and huff and give up and just put it in a cute messy bun
  • when they sacrifice u to satan
  • when they ask you for help when putting on a necklace and then once u put it on them they pull their hair out from under the chain

please join the maria reynolds defense squad

i watched @galactibun ‘s maria speedpaint and felt Compelled to draw her bc she doesnt get enough love also i love how they draw her a lil on the chubby side……. so…………… here she is