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“His Wedding” Part 4

Summary: Modern-Day (AU) Bucky and you are exes. He moved on but you couldn’t since you both are still friends, he asks you for a favor - a ridiculous one. You reluctantly agree, not thinking of the future consequences you’ll have to face. You just hope everything will be fine. But it doesn’t always work out, does it?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Word Count: 1170

Warnings: none

Author’s Note: repost, with a lil’ editing! taglist is open!

‘His Wedding’ Masterlist | Main Masterlist

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

“Um… am I disturbing you guys?”


The owner of the voice finally came in view, he had a cheeky grin on his face, having heard Natasha’s exclamations. The mischievous twinkle in his blue eyes told me he was eavesdropping on our conversation from the half open door.

“How long have you been there?” I ask him in a playful way, but also let him know that I’m a little creeped out by him.

“Oh, don’t worry, Y/N. I don’t think I heard anything but Nat shout out she saw you naked, which I already knew.” Steve chuckled before shrugging his jacket off and draping it on the armrest near me. He plumps his heavy body on the couch between me and Nat, chuckling. “Didn’t know you were into girls.”

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Being Human... Almost

Summary: Sam and Dean finally return, bringing more drama to Jack and you while he was finally getting used to his powers.

Words: 1350

Pairing: Jack x Reader

Originally posted by godshipsit

Warnings: Angsty, Season 13 Spoilers

A/N: So, I felt like writing a second part to this. maybe there will be a third even. We will see how this goes.

Becoming Human… Almost (You should probably read this first)

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anonymous asked:

Do I really have ADHD or am I just trying to excuse my laziness? I'm constantly confused and afraid that I'm capable of keeping up with everyone But I just don't. My guilt and sense of worthlessness is weighing really heavy. I don't know how to talk about it with anyone when I don't seem visually distressed. I've been assessed with a 90% of inattentive type but I still don't know. No one else has noticed so maybe I'm lying to myself that I'm struggling? I don't know what to do

This is a pretty common feeling, especially for those who have (or lean) Inattentive, partly because Inattentive symptoms aren’t as noticeable by other people since people who have Inattentive ADHD are often quiet and non-disruptive and stuff. I want to reassure you that if you feel that you’re struggling, you are.

Something that often happens with ADHD is that we know we’re capable of more than we’re doing. Like, we know that we can do better; we just don’t, for some reason. We struggle because we know that we aren’t reaching our full potential, but we don’t really know how to make that happen.

This is because of the way our symptoms impact us. They make it difficult for us to identify our goals sometimes, and then if we know what we want we have trouble breaking down the steps we need to take to get there, and even if we know the steps we have trouble actually following through and completing the steps. Executive dysfunction screws us over a lot.

An example: I really like organizing and planning things. I’m actually pretty good at it. But I have ADHD, so can I actually maintain organization and follow through on my plans? Of course not! The day I realized that if I didn’t have ADHD I’d probably be a really organized person was the day I really began to take in just how much ADHD impacts my life.

See, I’m capable of organizing my stuff. I’m also capable of keeping it that way… if ADHD doesn’t interfere. Which it always does. I have the skills needed to do the organizing and so on, but I don’t necessarily have the ability to use those skills all the time.

It’s a really exhausting disconnect between what we know we could be and do, and what we actually end up being and doing.

So, that’s all kind of discouraging, but here are a few thoughts that I hope help you feel a bit more positive about things.

First, recognizing that you have skills but that your ability to use those skills is inconsistent is actually pretty empowering. Now that I know that I’m good at organizing but struggle to maintain it, I can work on systems that will help me maintain that organization once I’ve got it in place.

Second, if you struggle, you struggle. Your struggles might be different from other people’s struggles, but that doesn’t make them less valid or less real. Period.

Third, no matter what you struggle with, you matter. You are worth people’s time and energy, including your own. Because you are here, and that makes you important.

-J

“Don’t interrupt me. I’m on the hardest level of this game and if I give you any more attention than I am, I’m going to lose. Again.”

“I’m trying to find them- we all are. We should help each other.”

“I’ve been thinking about how I want to propose. I don’t want it to be too big of a thing, but they deserve the best.”

“You’re questioning the almighty me? How dare you.”

“As much as I love making trouble and breaking the rules, sometimes I like sleeping more.”

“Instead of lamenting about how you should have tried harder, put your words to action. Start trying. Maybe it’s time I started listening to my own advice, too.”

Scandal Finale Season 7:03

“Day 101”

Everything about this episode was so raw, I loved it. I applaud Shonda and the Scandal Writers because this was definitely a gem of an episode. This is Scandal content I like to see. A Fitz centered episode? In this economy? Praise GOD, cuz only he answered our prayers 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

“Where’s 💋 Olivia?” “#Olitz 4eva”

So we open up with Fitz riding in his SUV heading somewhere(?) and me and him both spotted some Olitz fans with these signs‼️😜💃🏽 hey now! omgggggg that was a moment! Shout out to those two. It was a man and a woman! They the real MVPs! They were representing for us Olitzers 🤗 but Fitz kinda gave a little smile but it was so quick you almost missed it my mans is lowkey sad 😒 and we all know why.

Vermont 😩🤧

Ommmahgawd he walks into the house and it looks warm , it’s really pretty but you can just feel the emptiness. So next Fitz is in bed watching Tv, a news show reporting on how President Grant just came to Vermont and they were wondering if he would be like Jimmy Carter and blossom out of office or fade away like George W. Bush? And then someone said “can you imagine such a charismatic lightning rod figure thriving in a small town, being a regular joe? 👀 and then the black man was like na fuck all that I wanna know about that kiss‼️ lmao leave it to a black person to wanna know some tea! 😂😂 but I’m with him tho. 🤷🏽‍♀️ Olivia sis what’s good? But seriously Fitz definitely won’t fade away, we just not gone even entertain that idea 🙅🏽 don’t ever disrespect Fitzgerald Thomas Grant like that 👊🏽💢

I’m a grown man😎

Fitz woke up and fired everybody lol, he says he has been cared for , for 8 years, he wants this freedom and to be able to do things for himself. Including making turkey sandwiches which are his favorite. And my mans said he gone drive his damn self 😂😂 Fitz was not playing with these folks. In the car while he’s driving he was jamming to Rihanna “Needed Me” but you know ABC so they covered it up with “shake ya groove thang” 😂😂😂 so we at the grocery store , Fitz and Olivia and that front lawn kiss is on every newspaper and magazine. Fitz buys groceries but he didn’t activate his card , lowkey didn’t even know how to swipe it 😂😂🤦🏽‍♀️ then he called the card to activate and I’m guessing the woman told him he didn’t sound like how he look or something cuz he was like “sorry to have let you down” lmao aye tell that wanch she can square tf up! 😒 don’t play him like that! And did yal see how the cashier was posing for the pictures 😂 I would have done the same thing, hell get my good side! (Also 👀 I want one of those magazines. )

🙃Cooking with Fitzgerald

Lmao yal Fitz burnt that chicken a couple times before finally getting it right. He had to eat a burger after that first burnt chicken 😂😂 I appreciate this tho because he gets to be domestic and that’s what he wanted to do for a long time. So I’m glad he finally got a chance to. That was really cute to see him like that.🤧 Although he wanted to be domestic with Olivia but I’m not gonna go down that road right now. 🙃

Fit actually went running, and we all know he use to hate that! But looks like he wants to keep in shape, or maybe he’s trying to find things to do to keep his mind off the fact that Olivia ass is not there in Vermont 🤧 👐🏽ik ik , I said I wasn’t gonna go there but let me just say real quick that’s it’s only been 5 minuets into the show and I can already see Fitz is lonely without Olivia. And of course we all know how she’s been doing without him 🤦🏽‍♀️ can yal please just let these two souls be together damn they so miserable without each other. But anyway we see days go by and Fitz is doing this same thing over and over. So tonight he’s watching tv and a young man is getting interviewed. He’s protesting, he’s sleeping underneath a statue of a man who is celebrated as a hero but was a slave owner/ rapist. General Raymond Sist. He raped black slaves he owned and imprisoned his own children. And this young black man wants to know why isn’t it documented? Why as a young black person do we have to celebrate these type of people? 🗣pause. This is one of the moments I applaud the scandal writers. Yes speak this truth! In school we grew up and still til this day they teach about these type of people and always sugar coat the bull shit that they did. I love how they portrayed this moment. If we gotta learn about these people make sure you tell all the things that they did. Including the racist, sexist and misogynistic things. They love erasing history.

So Fitz turns off the tv and opens up a package that Marcus had sent from his belongings. It was a gun 👀 and the way he was acting with it I was like hold up are we finally about to hear/see a flashback to the time he tried to kill himself? My first reaction :Bitchhhhhh hol up‼️ this gun! Is this like a hint of how he tried to kill himself that one time😱😱😱😱 GIRL‼️

Lmao Marcus said fuck Mellie he all in the club in Cuba grinding on a woman 😩😩😩 Marcus is the new Stella do ya hear me 😂😂

Marcus heads to Vermont: Marcus and Fitz are running together and Marcus shows Fitz where his Museum is going to be built, they share a moment. Now we back at the house and on the tv a reporter is talking about Mellie and Fitz was like she might need my help. Marcus tells him that out of respect he needs to wait before he tries to help Mellie, the new President with anything. Because she’s trying to step out of his shadow. Once again the gun is mentioned Marcus says he didn’t know Fitz owned a gun and Fitz tells him it was a gift. And then Marcus brings up Olivia 👀☕️

Marcus wants to know how much is Olivia gonna be featured in Fitz library. Marcus tells Fitz that Olivia worked in his White House, Advised him and Ran his campaign, lived with him and was Americas 1st First Girlfriend. She stood tall in front of the American people and assured them Fitz was good to go when he had got shot. And now she’s the chief of staff to the president that succeeded him. Olivia is Hillary Clinton, Beyoncé, Oprah, and Sistah Souljah all in one. Marcus goes on to say “Olivia is important to the people, the world, they care about Olivia. There was a house with Olitz in Christmas lights.” 😜😜😜💃🏽💃🏽💃🏽 ayeeeee we lit! Who ship keeps getting mentioned? #Endgame that’s who! And after this conversation I picked up on something Fitz is trying not to think about Olivia, he wasn’t tryna hear what Marcus was saying about her having her own wing in his museum.

Fitz: you’re basically telling me I’ve been reduced to nothing but a man who loved a woman.

Marcus: welcome to the plight of almost every successful woman in the history of mankind.

🗣pause. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 say that shit Marcus! Women have always always always been reduced to just a love interest or her accomplishments have to ride off on a mans! Speak 👏🏽 scandal writers are on 1 with this episode seriously 😏

Bar Scene: “hoods and tiki torches” yes scandal writers 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Marcus was like I need to know where the black people at in case some shit popped off! Also, Fitz isn’t ready to work. And I personally feel like it’s a lack of motivation. Olivia was a big part of his motivation, at least that’s how I see it. And when Fitz was like “I let go”

Me: 🗣you lying. I know you lying, you know you lying , secret service know you lying, hell TOM, wherever his ass at know you Fitzgerald are lying.🤥🤥🤥🤥🤥🤥

Lmaooooo I knew they ass was gone get into it‼️Lmaooooo wait! Real quick can I just say that my man Fitz got heart 😜 he threw the first punch lmao and Marcus didn’t back down! Yal I was screaming and laughing at this damn fight 😂😭😂😭🤦🏽‍♀️ but honestly I saw them arguing coming I just didn’t know it would end up in a fight! Lol. I mean they both been bottling up their feelings and it just exploded 💥 but they gone get closer after this, ain nun like a fight between friends lol! Although they did say some harsh shit to each other but it was the truth and it needed to be said.

Fitz was miserable and being lazy and he wasn’t doing Olivia justice unless he give her her own wing and celebrate that bad ass black woman that she is! I don’t care how you feel about Olivia she is a fuckin BOSS and she gets shit done. Her methods are sometimes on the deep end but she be making moves. And Marcus ass wants power and he jumping on anybody bandwagon to get it lol which is fine do you and get it how you live ! Just don’t be a fuck boy 🤷🏽‍♀️ and I like when he said “a black woman held you up” ☕️👀 Yal know Fitz my baby but yesss give my other baby Olivia her fuckin credit! She inspired and made Fitz and that’s no lie. He wanted to be great for her. He wanted to be able to do things but Olivia pushed him to it. 😎 remember the 100th episode.

🗣they not Olitz 😂 soooo I guess Mellie and Marcus were tryna have an Olitz moment with the phone call , lol no. But I will say this you could tell they had things to say but they didn’t. And Although Marcus probably does miss Mellie, he only called her so she could talk him into staying by Fitz Side.

🤣🤣🤣🤣 Fitz got a Red eye, ain’t no black eye 😭😭 soooo how Rowan sneaked in the house? 🙄😒 where tf was security? Listen if you have not watched this episode go watch it now! The whole time Rowan was talking I was just like “I’m suppose to feel sorry for this bitch? 🗣HA , I don’t!” And let me tell you why. 🗣He is pure grade A Shit! I can not stand his manipulative ass. Now that Olivia is in control he wanna be a caring father? Now all of a sudden he gives a damn about how he raised her? Child please. Where is the worlds smallest violin 🎻 I need it. “The Woman we love is slipping away.” Well damn don’t you think you pushed her to this. Had it not been for Rowan lying and standing in Olivia’s way, making her feel powerless time and time again she wouldn’t be this fuck’d up‼️🙄🤦🏽‍♀️ yal them fake ass crocodile tears *que in Joceline “I cun not I cun not”* it’s crazy how he hated Fitz so damn much but now you in his room begging this man to save your daughter ☕️ I love tears for tea.

So anyway yal know Fitz 😏 he got pumped up and was ready to make some shake all because of Olivia. This is what happened: After Rowan left , Fitz is sitting outside the house in a rocking chair. There were two, I’m guessing the other one was for Olivia 🤧 but I’m not gone start lol. Ok so Marcus pulls up , he gets out and walks to Fitz. Fitz is holding a gun and Marcus is like ummmm what yu doin? Lol Fitz tells him he Father gave him that gun, when he became governor. And he tells him Cyrus once told him that when he wasn’t president anymore and the lights were off of him, he would take that gun and blow his brains out. (Fuck You Cyrus) Marcus is like you’re not gonna do that right? And Fitz is like Na kid I got shit to do 😂 ok fr he was like No. and then he tell Marcus he throws a mean punch and Marcus was like I can barely move my jaw. They laugh and make up. Fitz: Marcus is Olivia Pope everyone’s world or just mine?

😭😭😭🤧 why did that touch me? Like why does this man love for her makes me so emotional? 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Tony is one hell of an actor🤗 I legit love him frfr, his portrayal of Fitz needs to go down in History, right along with Kerry’s portrayal of Olivia.

Fitz tells Marcus he needs to go to Washington for a while but before he does he wants to “do some meaningful ” Marcus knew what time it was he was like “I’d be happy to help you with that sir.” and I was like yesssss my boy is back! I knew what that meant, He got some pep in his step! And he ready to go handle business. Fitz and Marcus goes to where the young black man is sleeping underneath the statue. President Fitzgerald Grant encourages him to keep fighting as the young man had just told him he felt like giving up. And so Fitz hugs him and gives him gloves and he thanked him for his service and tells him good luck. And before Fitz leave he was like sir selfie for the gram 🤳🏽 mane I fell out laughing 😂😂😂😂 Fitz threw up the peace sign and everything ✌🏽

🗣pause ok another moment to applaud! Yal remember not to long ago how people were protesting and getting these statues knocked down? 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 good job scandal for including this!

Finally Fitz is off to Washington and of course we end up right where we left off on the previous episode where Fitz is at Olivia’s door and she comes out of the elevator and gets SHOOKEN to her core 😜 so next week we will get to see her reaction and hopefully get some tea on what really happened between them and why they asses ain’t been talking because they did not explain how we went from kissing in front of the world to not talking once he landed in Vermont 😒🤦🏽‍♀️ but overall I enjoyed this episode I loved that it was Fitz centered and I love how they were not afraid to step on some toes in this episode! Can’t wait for next week, hope it’s another goodie!

Let me know your thoughts

💋Chaun

CHOROMATSU DISCOURSE!

I really, really have no tolerance for discourse but y’all messed with my friends so I have no choice.

Yes, Choromatsu is gross. Choromatsu is nasty. Choromatsu is a creep. It’s completely understandable and okay to dislike Choromatsu.

Yes, the idol industry has some gross, nasty and creepy undertones as well.

But calling someone a potential sexual predator is still A VERY BIG AND SERIOUS ACCUSATION. Fantasies are a normal thing to have. A normal human thing. Shady fantasies are also a normal, flawed human thing. Because humans are flawed! Choromatsu is flawed! That was the entire point of his stream of confessions, as Nature said. He was showing Ichimatsu that he isn’t as perfect and proper as Ichimatsu believed, which intimidated him.

Not to mention we have had seen Choromatsu actually interacting with women (the whole SEX incident with Nyaa-chan and the date with Iyayo come to mind) and he was a flustered mess who still did his best to act properly. The whole reasoning about sliding his Twitter to Nyaa-chan in hopes of getting close to her was pretty blergh to me BUT. IT WAS STILL RELATABLE! Who hasn’t thought of that? Hell, you could say one of Twitter’s main purposes is checking on how your favorite famous people is doing and perhaps get to interact with them. It’s a REAL THING!

Choromatsu is a flawed human being with flawed things such as questionable fantasies. That’s the entire point of the series. All the brothers are flawed, and sometimes to exaggerated degrees for the sake of comedy. But I REALLY doubt the staff would go as far as making sexual assault jokes, or at least that’s what I want to believe until proven otherwise. Japan is fucked up but don’t make strong accusations, don’t jump into conclusions if nothing has been done.

If you really feel like complaining about it, then you might want to look at other animes that definitely have more outright fucked up shit in them, but don’t accuse Choromatsu. Give him a chance. The poor man wanted an ‘I love you’ on his food, for fuck’s sake.

TL;DR: Choromatsu can be disgusting and so can be the idol industry but if it was just mentioned as a fantasy and didn’t actually happen, don’t throw strong accusations on him. There’s no solid evidence of it and I’m pretty sure he knows better than putting his disgusting desires into practice and might even feel bad about them. Leave my disgusting frog son alone.

PS: Tabi and Heso aren’t being taken into account because they bastardized characterizations and we all know it.

darknesswearsangelswings  asked:

I think I haven't seen this mentioned, but at the end of 13x02 Dean promised Jack he would kill him if it came to that. Didn't Cas promised Dean he would do the same if he became a demon again back at the Mark of Cain times? Idk like this makes me think even more that Jack is made as a parallel both for Cas and Dean, am I crazy?

Yep! Well Jack is a parallel to all of TFW of course and he massively is mirroring Dean and Sam right now with not so subtle Bucklemming expositions too like “sometimes things hurt, you just man up and deal with it!” and the Sam believing he’s good despite his powers thing, I wouldn’t even be surprised if he ends up paralleling a few other people too.

He’s gonna end up a bloody parallelogram.

Id love it if in the end he shrugs its all of and is like IM DONE WITH YOU ALL YOU’VE ALL LEARNED YOUR LESSON. IM NOT A PARALLELOGRAM.

*shocked silence for the reveal*

I’M AN OBLONG!!!!!

also this is how I would reorder the songs on the album: 

  1. the tide (upbeat, and I love the ‘oh no, get ready!’ opening)
  2. seeing blind (this is just such a fun, beautiful duet; I like to think it’s looking back at with rose-tinted glasses)
  3. too much to ask (in the same vein as ‘fire away,’ this one’s all about failure of communication to me)
  4. slow hands (because it’s fun and a little raunchy and a little faster-paced; could also work well after ‘on the loose’ as a post-break up hookup)
  5. since we’re alone (I like that it makes for a slightly more upbeat track between two slower ones, even though the lyrics detail what feels like a very one-sided negotiation to make things work) 
  6. fire away (the plea for a conversation that goes unanswered)
  7. mirrors (this song and ‘flicker’ are the turning points of the album for me; sometimes things just aren’t going to work out)
  8. flicker (so this song and the rest are about that process of letting go more than anything)
  9. on the loose (it’s not a super angry song, but I think it has that slightly hurt edge of a breakup song, and sometimes you’re upset before you’re sad over a breakup)
  10. this town (this one just feels like the beginning of letting go, where you still think that maybe, impossibly, u can go back)
  11. paper houses (I just love the imagery of this one, and the way it reminds me of taking one last look around before you heave the last box up into your arms and move out, move on)
  12. you and me (I think this one still wants to have that promise of someday)
  13. on my own (cuz this one’s saying, I think, I’m alone and I LIKE it)

P R O M P T L I S T

Here’s a little prompt list. Send requests if you so wish. I’ll list the characters/celebrities I’ll write for in the tags.

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1. “I’m over it. I’m over being over it,”

2. “Let’s just sit down and talk about this.”

3. “This is not helping the situation at all”

4. “Sometimes I just want to kick him/her into oblivion”

5. “Cheating on a game is one thing, cheating on a person is another”

6. “For once I would like to feel normal”

7. “Christmas carols make everything better, even if it isn’t Christmas”

8. “What are you hiding from me?”

9. “Why is there a puppy in our living room”

10. “I can’t believe you forgot your moms birthday!”

11. “This is your idea of a good date?”

12. “You should really get that checked”

13. “I swear I didn’t do what you think I did do”

14. “If we play monopoly we’ll be starting world war three”

15. “I’m not forgiving you for that.”

16. “I cannot believe you pulled a +4 on me during UNO, I thought we were friends.”

17. “You took my food, that’s not okay”

18. “Why are you watching Disney channel”

19. “Please tell me you didn’t kill someone, I’m not ready for that yet”

20. “Sometimes I question if our relationship is a good or a bad thing”

21. “As much as I love you, I’m not doing this”

22. “Sure, lets make the little one do it”

23. “I don’t even know with you people anymore”

24. “Honestly at this point I shouldn’t be surprised”

25. “The 80’s man”

26. “A dance battle won’t solve this”

27. “I’m getting married to a 5 year old, oh my god”

28. “Alcohol doesn’t make everything better, no matter what those fancy commercials say.”

29. “If you don’t shut up, my inner Latina will throw a chancla at you.”

30. “Are you seriously using the kid choptsticks?”

31. “Why is my nail polish spilled all over the floor?”

32. “A roadtrip with you sounds like a recipe for a chaotically fun disaster”

33. “Don’t make them kick us out of Disneyland”

34. “You didn’t seriously buy that”

35. “That’s a terrible idea for a group costume”

36. “Yea, no. Not happening ever”

37. “I’m too lazy to do that right now”

38. “I’m not talking to you right now even though I’m talking to you to tell you that I’m not talking to you”

39. “We are not going all Dominic Torreto on this, This is reality not a fast and furious movie!”

40. “When did this become about beauty?”

41. “Well hello there good looking”

42. “I can’t believe we’re playing laser tag/ paintball”

43. “Be like Elsa and just let that shit go”

44. “I cannot deal with your gorgeousness right now”

45. “Am I supposed to know the answer to that?”

46. “Don’t make me slap you with my churro!”

47. “We’ll talk after you take me to McDonald’s”

48. “Can we just cuddle and forget everything else”

49. “At this point I don’t know if I’m bloated, fat or just filled with love”

50. “I can’t believe we got married in Vegas by Elvis and Elmo!”

k-kichigai  asked:

You probably got an ask like this already but I'm curious whether you shave or not? I know that this is more related to body positivity. I stopped shaving mine two months ago in the summer and shortly after I found your blog and fell in love mwahah :3

I do shave my legs, but not seriously. leg hair doesn’t bother me, so I shave whenever I feel like it or want to take the time rather than when I feel prickles. sometimes I’m like “oh hey let’s take a bubble bath and shave while we’re at it.”

also I hate how it feels against long pants and jeans so I shave a lot more during the winter. :)

but yeah, it’s a personal preference, body positive type thing. shaving makes me feel good but I’m glad you do what makes you feel good. (and thank you!!)

anonymous asked:

Hey Ten! How do you think of/create all your incredible designs? I’m having issues designing my own, ESPECIALLY the patterns, so I was actually wondering if you could give me some ideas how to make beautiful designs?

first of all, thank you so much ;w;;;; im so touched that people think my designs are actually like…recognizable or at least somewhat unique. ive only just recently entered the whole adopting scene, so its pretty amazing to hear people thinking high of me already @w@

and as for my source of inspiration: its nature! pretty much always nature, though sometimes architecture or single objects (generally weird things you can find in strange little thrift stores) can be really interesting and inspiring! but i actually find a TON of inspiration from plants, and some pretty neat animals (generally a single feature that i think is interesting, ill build a design off that). Patterns can come from animals, or from plants! those generally tend to be more natural feeling and a little more organic to design and draw, as opposed to superimposed random patterns on a body ^^”

so honestly, my best advice is to just keep your eyes open and always be ready to take a picture of a weird plant you see, funky building, or something like that. think outside the box, but still within nature. thats really all i can articulate ….

hopefully that helps some… good luck designing, amigos :3c

anonymous asked:

What's something you've always wanted to share about yourself but never found a reason to/were too shy to share?

There’s one awkward thing that still surprises even me but when a person is kind to me I feel like I’m falling in love with them. Seriously, in the beginning it always goes this way and I just can’t help myself but think of probable future relationship development. My heart is too weak when it comes to kind people, sometimes I can’t control my action and my mouth just doesn’t stop dropping shy compliments and words of appreciation which make the situation really awkward.
Some of my new classmates have already suffered through this, some people on tumblr too

anonymous asked:

I remember, months ago, when you would update things and love would pour into your inbox and you could almost physically feel your pride and happiness. There were nasty people at that time too, but you were still happy. So many bad things have happened since then, and you're still here. You fight back against the bullies and you try your hardest to stay afloat. You do so much for us, and I'm really thankful for that. Like anyone else, I miss your writing, but I also miss (1/2)

“the peaceful and happy Ramsey. I sometimes see her here, in between the countless gifs of your favorite rice pot, and it makes me smile. I hope that one day you’ll be able to write with the same love and freedom you used to. But not for me or any of your other readers. I want it to be for you. No one should lose the love they have for writing, which is why I anticipate the day when you see yourself completely healed and find no hate waiting for you. Be happy, Ramsey. That’s all we want. (2/2)”

THIS MADE ME CRY.

like I’m tearing up reading it again on the train.

This really means a lot to me. I miss those days too, so much. I miss the ability to express myself freely and tell ridiculous stories like ashes and acitm and explore imperfect relationships like w&m and for you.

I have been writing, and I have something that’s ready to go as soon as I get home but the thought of uploading scares me. It sucks that something that used to bring me so much joy makes me feel panicked afraid.

I hope that one day I’ll feel comfortable enough to write publicly again on this blog, but for now I’m just enjoying my time on here as much as I can.

anonymous asked:

So I told my friends at school I'm pretty sure I'm autistic and looking for a diagnosis, so far they've been really patient and curious so that's cool. But, there's one friend that keeps making jokes that are just a bit off... I don't know how to approach it cause I make jokes about it and I guess it's a coping thing and to get used to hearing autism in a good/funny context, but this friend really goes too far sometimes and I dunno how to explain that it's rough hearing jokes from a non autistic

Glad most of your friends are being supportive! 

Here’s what you could say to your friend making the jokes:

“Hey, friend. I know you mean well, but jokes like that actually don’t feel great when they come from a non-autistic such as yourself. I’d appreciate it if you didn’t make those jokes.” Then change the subject. “So anyway….”

If you want to offer an explanation, you could also say something about how there are too many harmful stereotypes, too much stigma, etc, for those jokes to really strike you as funny.

When you tell your friend this, tell them as matter-of-factly as possible. You’re just relaying information - information that will help them be a better friend to you. By approaching it with as neutral a tone of voice as possible, you’re cuing to them that this is an easy solution to fix and that you don’t think they’re a horrible person for making a few ill-considered jokes.

If they respond by asking, “Why can YOU make jokes and I can’t??” you could say, “The jokes I made help me adjust to seeing myself as autistic, but the jokes you make don’t feel great and I’d just like you to stop.”

You don’t owe them a long explanation. It’s not your job to teach them about what makes a joke friendly & inclusive versus harmful & mean. It’s also not your job to process their emotions for them.

It’s possible they might act defensively or express a lot of feelings when you first tell them you’re not enjoying the jokes. They respond with something like, “We’re friends, I’m not some kind of monster! I’m just joking!” or “OH NO I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON, I NEVER MEANT THIS TO HAPPEN.”

If they do, I would suggest disengaging with them for the time being. Have an ‘out’ prepared, so you can exit the conversation: “Hey, I need to get to class,” or even just, “I’ll talk to you later.” Let them process their feelings (or find any friend who is not you to help them process their feelings). It could be that they are actually upset at themselves for having accidentally upset a friend.

If they slip-up and make those jokes again, you can either remind them again - “Hey, I thought you weren’t going to make that kind of joke anymore, you know I don’t like it” - or you can simply not react and change the subject. By not reacting and changing the subject, you’re making it less interesting for them to make the jokes.

Repeat the process - reminding them that you don’t like the jokes, then changing the subject or disengaging for awhile - until they get the idea.

By the way anon, I think it’s great that you want to do something about this not-so-great joking. When I was younger, I made some bad jokes that I didn’t realize were harmful to a friend (though I should have). I appreciated it when a friend said something to me about the joking. I’d much rather endure a few awkward moments and change my own behavior than hurt a friend or lose a friend.


Good luck, and I hope this helps!

- Lissa

anonymous asked:

Takamisa?

I wish someone could explain this ship to me. I want to like it, but can’t.

I understand it aesthetically and I absolutely get the appeal of “the girls ditch the guy and get together”, but on a character level I don’t see what there is between them as people. Misa and Takada prioritize completely different things in their lives and what common ground they have is flimsy. Where Takada prefers to be elegant, mature and politically active, Misa is loves being over the top, cutesy and is more engaged with pop culture and fun than politics.
Takada is an academic who canonically looks down on non-academic women. Misa is an outgoing person who wants to have fun, she’s not at all bookish and Takada’s snobbiness pisses her off.

Sometimes opposites attract, of course, but I don’t see what would attract these two? What would make them like each other? Nobody has ever told me.

Shipping for me is a lot about character study, so this pairing kind of bothers me. It’s something that seems to be done solely for looks and not because the women involved actually fit together? And I’m really looking for someone to disprove me and give me a more in-depth view of the reasoning behind the ship, but as of now none has been provided so it irks me personally. Doesn’t mean shipping it is bad or anything, I just look for something else in ships personally.

originofthedragonage  asked:

Say Dark, how do you deal with physical and mental stress piling on top of you? I've recently come into some health troubles and its making getting any work done (at work or at home) like running a decathalon at the Olympics. Plus financial issues and some...less than savory aquaintences make for a very stressful life for me right now.

I find the best way to deal with such things mental or physical is distraction. Even if for a brief moment distraction can be an escape from it all, it can help you regain a calm mind and pass the time quicker than sitting worrying sick to your stomach. 
That and physically killing something helps sometimes…

-Darkiplier

I’ve personally been there too. I had some horrible living conditions in my past. Bad financial, People I didn’t want anywhere near me, I was attacked several times while out with friends and gained a fear of going outside, I gained bad depression, and paranoia that lost me a lot of online friends. 
What’s always worked for me is distraction. Watch youtube, draw, write fiction, even if you cant hold focus for long just little things can help. I find sometimes if I zone out, I can rapidly click a fidget cube for a while and come back to things. that’s what those things are for after all. 
Basically just find some small things to keep your mind your own, and know that in time things will pick up. that saying “it gets better” is cliche and over used but it is true <3

-Cerevire

Tagged a million years ago by @jadedbirch and @beneatheblacksails and possibly some others. ( I AM SORRY it’s been so long, *blows you all a kiss*)

Once you get this it would be cool if you posted ten facts about yourself and then passed this along to your ten favorite followers :)

1.  My family didn’t have tv growing up so I was raised on old movies & tv shows and whatnot, and sometimes I’ll say something about a thing and people are always like ‘how do you know about that???’ Me: How do you know about anything that happened before you were born?? you encounter it, you’re interested, you pursue it, duh. (anyway, I am making up for the lack of relevant tv at the time now, mostly by rewatching Black Sails a lot)

2. I’ve had blue/green hair for most of this year and I don’t regret it at all.

3. I love Bob Dylan. I’ve seen him many times in concert and I’m going to see him on one week from today for my birthday :D 

4. I rarely wear makeup. I like how it looks, but I don’t really like how it feels on my skin. (This often contributes to people thinking I’m younger than I am. *shrugs*)

5.  I took ballet for a few years even though I never made it to pointe *sighs* and I still remember plenty of the positions but as they’re all in French, I can never spell them correctly.

6. Right after taking ballet I did horseback riding, and it was difficult cause in ballet everything is turned out, and in riding, you’re supposed to keep everything turned in, lol.

7. I love maps. Fantasy maps, treasure maps, historical maps, nautical maps, all the maps. (My sister used to draw maps for stories she told me when I was little and they were great.)

8. I hate talking on the phone, even with people I love. I just hate it.

9.  I’m a Scorpio

10. This year is my golden birthday as I’m turning 31 on the 31st.

anonymous asked:

Responding to the post about the lesbian pride flag. Sorry but its not like the lesbian pride flag is unknown??? So the excuse of “ sorry that we dont make every flag known in existence “ dont work sis. Yah girl is lowkey disappointed. Smh. - A POC queer girl who is also kinda fed up with tumblrs shit 💋

Hey get through your head and that’s not what I said I said that not everyone knows about the lesbian flag and sometimes the corespondents with the gay/lgbtq flag. So like maybe instead of complaining to someone who reblogs things you ask content creators who create stuff with the pride flag to create stuff with your pride flag. Is it to hard for y’all to ask? Instead of complain. Like all you got to do is ‘hey can you make my flag?’ And the person will more than likely respond with yes. It’s not that hard.

Reason why i’m inactive in tumblr thesedays:

Hi hello everyone ^-^ like you all know my blog is a blog for me to show my love for mark&hyuck and markhyuck and interact&be friends with other nctzens,markhyuck shippers, mark/hyuck stans 💙 and like, again, you all know, it is a positive blog, a negativity free one and i always try my best to keep it like that, nice,soft and sweet 😊 but i had been seeing so much negative stuff here, people misunderstanding my posts and some other things that is not connected to me personally but still made me uncomfortable to see so i decided to take a break from here and then i came back. But so did my depression. It came back really hard and honestly i felt so bad that some days i can’t even leave the bed. But i tried to hide it by making cute posts. but it works only sometimes. And the stress i am in is not helping it. So what i want to say is; i’m sorry i’m not active beside posting imagines and a few markhyuck posts, i’m trying to heal and think about more positive things, and i’m so so so so sorry for answering messages so late :( i hope you will understand my struggle, i love you all so much and i am thankful to every single one of you, even the mutuals i didn’t talked yet, i hope you all is and will have a great day/night 💙