i like to gif real late at night

A/N: I don’t really know where that came from, I just felt like writing Bellamy. Anyway, it’s mostly fluff with some angst, enjoy…

Demons

Bellamy Blake x Reader

I trust Bellamy with my life, but I know something’s off with him lately. Every time I try to talk to him about it he brushes me off and tells me it’s nothing, but I know there’s something he’s not telling me.

I felt a sudden movement next to me and I woke up to check it out. After everything that has happened you can’t really blame me for being a light sleeper. I turn around and see Bellamy tossing in bed.

“No… No, please, not her!” He’s talking in his sleep.

“Bell! Listen to me, it’s just a dream… It’s not real, Bellamy, wake up!” I say and shake him. He jerks up causing me to fall back on my back. “Hey, it’s okay… It was just a dream…”

He looks at me without saying a word and hugs me. He doesn’t say anything, just holds me close for the rest of the night. I can feel the tears rolling down his face but he doesn’t want to talk about it and I don’t want to push him.

When I wake up next morning he’s still sleeping. He looks so calm like this, an expression I don’t see in him lately.

“Good morning” I hear him say. His voice is slightly deeper.

“Good morning” I say smiling and kiss him. “Are you okay?” I ask, still worried about him.

“Oh, that… Don’t worry, I’m fine…” He says trying to dismiss it but this time I insist.

“Bellamy, I know there’s something going on! Please talk to me! I can’t see you like that… Don’t push me away now, please” I look in his eyes and I can see he wants to trust me but there’s something holding him back.

“It’s not your problem, you don’t have to worry about it” he replies and looks down. I walk next to him and hug him tightly.

“I want to. I love you, Bellamy” I say. He pulls me closer and breathes deeply.

“I know, and I can’t help but wonder why. After everything I’ve done, I don’t deserve someone as good as you. I’m a monster, Y/N, I have a lot of blood in my hands an-” I cut him off before he continues.

“No, you’re not a monster, and don’t you ever say that again! Yes, you have made mistakes, but who hasn’t? What matters is that you always tries to do what’s best for everyone! I love you and I’ll stay with you no matter what” he looks at me with tears in his eyes. “I know it’s hard for you, but you have to trust me… I can help, Bellamy, just let me in… You don’t have to go through this alone”

“T-thank you” He says and kisses me. He doesn’t have to say anything else, everything is in that kiss. All the pain, the love, the passion… Even though it tastes like tears, I know it’s the start of something better.

When we pull away he looks at me and all I can think is How did I get so lucky? He smiles at me and says “I love you… You’re all I have, you know. I can’t do this without you”

“Then it’s a good thing I’m not going anywhere” I say smiling.