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Flight Log Theory [Post-Arrival Trailer]

I’m baaaccckkk! The Flight Log: Arrival trailer dropped today, which means it’s time to travel back to the world of plot theories! This is, naturally, an extension of my already-established theory, so I’d recommend going and checking my past theory posts out first.

Flight Log: Departure
Flight Log: Turbulence

Also, I’ll be talking about the Flight Log: Arrival trailer, complete with screenshots, so if you haven’t watched it yet, definitely go check that out first.

That being said, here’s part 3 of my Flight Log theory!

We start off with a series of beautiful yet horrifically dangerous set of scenery shots. A frozen alpine tundra, tumultuous oceanic rapids, and jagged seaside cliffs. The text reads “Nature. Wind. Flight. A bird”. This sets up the metaphor of wanting to “be a bird” and wanting to “fly” throughout the rest of the trailer.

The first time we actually see Jinyoung, he’s walking barefoot in the snow, a metaphor for his momentarily “deceased” body. When your heart stops, blood stops flowing, making your body cold. Walking barefoot in the snow would be essentially the same feeling.

The text then goes on to say, “I often asked myself, can I fly like a bird? And here I am now…”, ending with a flashback to the shot of Jinyoung standing at the edge of the skyscraper roof from the Departure trailer. As I stated before, this is the pinnacle moment in his grief process. It’s when he decides that, instead of moving on with his life, he wants to “fly” with his friends. In other words, he wants to join his friends in death.

The next part is a little jumbled up in the trailer, so I’m going to post it in timeline order here.

It’s revealed that Jinyoung tried to drown himself. Though we only see it in this one, brief scene, the lack of struggle and all-around containment of the area (there’s a glass roof above him keeping him from going up for air), it’s easy to tell that he put himself in this situation on purpose.

I’m assuming he waterlogged himself to effectively drown himself, at least temporarily, until his heart is shocked back into action with the defibrillators. (Side note: I can’t stop laughing at the gap between the paddles and Jinyoung’s chest. Yay for fake revitalization! Hahaha)

When his heart is restarted, his mind is stuck in a sort of “where am I?” state. This is the beach setting. The waves crashing against him, pulling his body this way and that is the blood pumping through his body again, returning life and feeling to each different part.

As he slowly comes back, he starts to regain his memory. “In water,” the text reads. “Perhaps that was the very last thing I remember. I was trapped.” This is accompanied by the underwater footage from the Turbulence comeback, as well as the shot of Jinyoung’s attempted drowning this time around. The text goes on to say, “I’ve failed…”, referring to the fact that he was brought back to life and, therefore, didn’t succeed in his attempted suicide.

“I don’t exist anymore…” goes beyond everything and exposes how he feels. Clearly, through the Departure and Turbulence videos, we’ve seen how much he misses his friends. They always are around him, but never interact with him. This very much makes him feel like he doesn’t exist anymore. While he still breathes and feels, the fact that his friends are all somewhere else without him makes him feel isolated.

Remembering how alone he feels, Jinyoung is shocked yet again. In a way, his brain is flooded with all the pain all over again. The whole realization, however, only takes about a second in real time. This is clear by the face he makes after he’s shocked back, which is similar to the one he makes in the last shot on the beach.

Now, this is where things get especially dark. The scenes in the snow aren’t actually real. Once again, they’re his subconscious. The snow is representative of the tingling sensation his body feels as blood begins to circulate through his veins again, as well as the cold resolve he feels.

Most people… when they fail, they just give up and don’t challenge themselves. But I’m different. I will never ever give up. I am not afraid of anything, because you were there. I am ready to fly.

This would really be a motivational segment if the implications weren’t so bone-chilling. Throughout the Flight Log series, “fly” has always signified death. The six boys could fly after they died, while Jinyoung couldn’t, since he was still alive. That means the last sentence signifies his readiness for death.

It’s the second to last sentence that is the most damning, though. The first half is in present tense, while the second is in past. Present tense indicates that he still is not afraid of anything (even death). He is alive and willing to do whatever it takes to “fly”. Past tense, however, proves that his friends are no longer with him. They are his strength, so the memory of them still curbs his fears.

For one last time, we see the six boys all playing around without interacting or even acknowledging Jinyoung. This is just another reminder of how they’re separate from him. They are dead, but together, while Jinyoung is alive and, at least in his mind, alone.

However, as he watches them play this time, he sighs and smiles instead of looking surprised or upset. His determination to join them puts his mind at ease while these flashback-like memories appear, making them more of an encouragement to join them than a reminder of how they were while they were alive.

The suicidal undertones of this entire trailer hit me like a ton of bricks the first time I watched it and, even after watching it a few more times, they haven’t disappeared. It’s dark in a very underhanded sort of way, but it wraps up the trilogy brilliantly. From the initial accident to Jinyoung’s determined decision to fly, we went on a trip.

Assuming the Never Ever music video doesn’t add anything new, the end will be left open. Honestly, I think that’s for the best. Clearly, showing any deadly scenarios directly wouldn’t be smart, and Flight Log was more about Jinyoung’s grief process than anything else. Whether or not he “flies” at the end is up to each viewer.

Rilaya Fanfic- We're soulmates

Inspired by this post (X) I would recommend looking at it because then this fic would make a lot more sense :)

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“The young couple were so hopelessly in love, everyone around them knew they were inseparable”

                                                                                                                                       

“Hey Maya?” Riley called out to her girlfriend from her bed. “Yes honey?” Maya was currently sprawled out across the floors on her stomach. She was painting with so much passion, which Riley silently admired her for before she responded. “Do you think.. maybe.. If it’s not too much..“

”-Spit it out already Riles!“

“You could paint a sunset on my back?”.

Maya smiled to herself before turning to face Riley. “I’ve painted four sunsets on your back already this week babe, and it’s not even even Tuesday yet!” “I know.. but they just look so pretty!” Riley exclaimed doing her signature pout.

Maya would never admit it but she was whipped beyond recovery when it came to Riley. “Fine.” She mumbled. “Yay!!!” Riley ran over and pressed a quick kiss on Maya cheek instantly causing the blonde’s face to heat up. “I love you peaches.”

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Boyfriend!Seungkwan

• your first impression of him was somewhere along the lines of ZAYUM HES GOT A VOICE MAN LOOK AT THT AND OMG HES SO FUNNY HE MAKIN EVERYONE LAUGH WITH EVERYTHING HE SAYS I LIKE HIM ALREADY
• but in reality he whispered to the members to laugh even if it wasn’t funny just to get your attention bc omg u looked so lovely your the type of person him mom says are the best aw
• when it came to asking you out, he went around using his connections and asking what your fave song was and when he found out he started to practice for hours and hours on end but the morning of the event, he lost his voice and had a semi panic attack right there bc tHIS ISNT SUPPOSED TO TURN OUT LIKE THIS:((((
• but the members saw that coming bc guys lbr he’s been singing with no end for this, he was bound to lose it someday so they secretly recorded him singing in the practices and gave it to him in cd form and he was grateful and he went running to u and gave u the cd to listen to and afterwards u were like “Seungkwan, that was beautiful but-” “wILL YOU GO OUT W ME??”
• and ofc u say yes bc who wouldn’t
• and he’s super duper happy that he tries to sing a song describe his feelings but his voice just wouldn’t come out and ur like o no let’s get you rested
• took you to Jeju for your first date obviously, and it was really great you guys literally went EVERYWHERE but his mom wasn’t there :( but he was like thATS OK YOULL MEET HER NEXT TIME
• you guys tried to visit all the dol hareubangs in Jeju and made a wish, you didn’t know each other’s but you guys actually wished for the same thing - for your family and friends, and for your relationship to last a v v v v long time (which it will ;))))
• much like one of the episodes on ‘where is my friend’s island’, seungkwan started to freak out and fan boy over the small things he remembered from his time in Jeju
• “oh mY GOD LOOK AT THAT TREE ITS SO BIG NOW”
• “I rEMEMBER THAT HOUSE I WALKED PASSED IT EVERYDAY AFTER SCHOOL”
• “JAGIYA SO MANY MEMORIES COMING BACK I THINK IM GONNA CRY”
• and you think he’s the cutest little bun in the world aw
• feeds you all the food Jeju is well known for and insists you try everything and ur like iM FUL- and he stuffs another thing in your mouth
• it was the best time you’ve had in ages and it was way better since boo seungkwan was there :))
• calls you the cringiest things ever just to watch u go red and get embarrassed lol
• yoUR FIRST KISS OH MY GOD IT WAS SO CUTE ok so you all know how he’s a family man, someone who cares about his family and his relationships, so it would only be fitting that he missed you when seventeen was flying back from a country or a place they performed in, you were waiting for him in the airport and the second the two of you saw each other, you guys started running and when you met he just kissed you right there because it had been wAY TO LONG SO MANY NIGHTS OF CALLS AND VIDEO CHATS BUT ITS NEVER AS GOOD AS SEEING YOU IN PERSON AWAWAW
• turns into a shy little boy when it comes to skinship he’s all like really ?? rig-right now ??? u-H //gaps it
• has a habit of turning every sentence into a song, his knowledge of songs is so big he cAN TURN EVERYTHING INTO A SONG AND UR LIKE HOW DO U DO THAT
• “babe! funny story, I was walking down the street-”
• “mAKING MY WAY DOWNTOWN!”
• “hey look at that airplane-”
• “cAN WE PRETEND THAT AIRPLANES IN THE NUGHT SKY LIKE SHOOTING STARS”
• “…. ahem anyway”
• his favourite type of kiss is the kiss where he grabs your cheeks, squishes them really hard until your lips are puckered like a fish and he kisses u bc yOURE SO CUTE U LITTLE BUN
• you know those really rEALLY tight hugs that squeeze all the air out of you and make you feel like your gonna die, but at the same time are really sweet types of hugs? yeah he likes those too.
• “//huggles//”
• “-mmf! can’t,,, breathe!”
• will gET VERY POUTY WHEN HE WANTS AFFECTION THAT YOU ARENT GUVING HIM U MEANY IF IT GETS EXTREME HE WILL THREATEN TO CALL HIS MOM AND TELL ON U BC UR HIS JAGIYA UR SUPPOSED TO LOVE HKM :((:(:(:(:((
• likes hamburgers and suggests (even if he knows that answer is no) if you can eat them.
• “babe we can’t eat hamburgers for dessert.”
• “whY THE HICKITTY HECK NOT”
• also likes summer and fall, is in his element in those seasons like he’s all ready with them scented candles for fall and them swag sunglasses for summer. always rants and raves about all the stuff you two could do together when those seasons roll around.
• “wE CAN GO JUMP INTO PILES OF DRIED LEAVES TOGETHER”
• “and when it’s summer wE CAN MAKE FIVE BILLION TRIPS TO THE BEACH AND BUILD SANDCASTLES”
• and ur just like its the beginning of winter, let’s not get ahead of ourselves.
• challenges you to basketball shoot outs and when you win he can’t accept it bc hIS PRIDE IS SO HURT HE SPENT AGES BRAGGING ABOUT HOW HE WOULD CRUSH U BUT U GO AHEAD AND BEAT HIM??!!!!
• but when you lose he’s so supportive bc he doesn’t want you feeling bad so he’s like, you were just warming up that’s why, you’ll do so much better next time y/n, I believe in you!
• isNT HE THE CUTEST THUNG IN THE WORLD
• obviously likes his best friend hansol, you could tell they were close the second you met seungkwan. you didn’t want to say anything but you could sense hansol giving you the mean eye because he wAS SEUNGKWANS BFF WHO DO U THINK U R
• but when u ask him if he wanted to spend time with your bf he was like offt no I could care less
• and ur like suRE
• dislikes tomatoes with a passion, obviously cause he’s allergic. when there’s some tomato in his sandwich or in his salad or smthn, he’ll place them on your plate to eat o of habit bc he doesn’t like the food going to waste and yOU LUV THEM SO YAY
• secretly made a cd of him singing all ur favourite songs and went to the place you worked and played it through the speakers and everyone just stops what they’re doing and is like ??
• and ur even more confused bc u recognise that voice ??
• then it suddenly dawns on u that it’s ur boyfriend singing those songs and ur heart melts and ur just standing there staring at the speaker while everyone’s working around u and u don’t notice bc ur so into the music but seungkwan is sneaking behind u w a bouquet of flowers and when the songs finished he wraps his arms round u and ur so happy bC U HAVENT SEEN HIM IN AGES
• and ur co-workers are all like wtf yalls are relationship goals
• has an addiction to his mom. it sounds like a bad thing, but it really isn’t. It’s adorable. you often walk in on him having video chatting her and he’s all like “I miss you.” and she’s all like, “me too, take care of y/n” and you just smile and walk away bc this was a special moment u didn’t want to ruin :))))<3333
• hates couple clothing with a passion. he doesn’t know what it is but you secretly think hansol is rubbing off on him bc now he thinks it’s not cool.
• like he dismisses it so fast u don’t even get to finish ur sentence
• “ooh! look at thes-”
• “no.”
• “what about those-”
• “no.”
• “w-”
• “oH HELL NAW”
• when Seungkwan gets jealous, he’ll try to laugh it off as if it’s nothing. though inside its kinda killing him bc nobody can make u smile like that except for hIM and nobody should be touching ur shoulder like that except for hIM. but he’ll act like it doesn’t bother him except u know, u know because you’ve watched him for so long you can recognise his change in mood. he’s not as happy as he was before and u stop him and tell him that you love him and he has nothing to worry about
• and he’s back to his old self again !! bc he trusts that you mean what u say awawawawaw
• his background photo is a photo or photos of you doing the most ordinary things in the world. doing the dishes, sleeping, standing there, yawning, sneezing and he collaged it all into one big photo and is pretty much u doing uninteresting stuff lol when u saw it u were like wHY IN THE WORLD WOULD U DO THAT TO ME and he’s all like WHAAAT U LOOK GREAT I LOVE IT WHEN UR ACTING LIKE URSELF <<<<<333333
• your phone background photo was a photo of the two of u that one time they did a performance and u were in the crowd and they were singing 20 then he spotted u amongst the people and started singing to u and a fan took a photo and it was sO CUTE BC SEUNGKWAN WAS SINGING W SO MUCH EMOTION AND U WERE LIKE SMILING ALL TESRY EYED BC OHMYGOD U LOVE HIM
• always remembers every members’ birthdays and is so on top of buying presents and he forcefully drags u round and asks for ur opinion on his present and ur like babe idk u know them better than I do
• u get all whiny tho bc u didn’t really wanna go birthday shopping so early so everytime u go w him he buys u food bc he’s the best boyfriend ever
• sings like an angel to lull you to sleep
• yELLS SONGS IN UR EAR TO WAKE U UP, ITD A FULL ON OERFORMANCE, COMPLETE W BACKGROUND MUSIC YAY(!)
• it puts a lot of pressure on him since he’s a main vocal in seventeen, to make it worse he always has to refrain from looking tired or upset, since he is the mood maker too. he always has to put on a happy smile around the members to lift their spirits even if he’s feeling sick or upset. he practices way too hard and often visits the hospital due to throat aches, your always there for him when he needs you and he’s forever grateful for that.
• “you know, you can talk to me about how you feel right?”
• “yeah, yeah, I know. but I have to keep strong and happy for the members, you know?”
• ur first fight with Seungkwan would most likely be due to the fact that he took a joke too far, you two were probably doing some harmless bickering but he said an insult that hit a little too close to home and you got upset and he got upset bc it was just a joke
• he then left to let u both cool down bc that’s what his mom always said to do, in case he did something he would regret
• then came back after a few days and apologised bc he missed u ;_;
• “I’m sorry, whatever I said was just a joke, okay? I love you so much and I can’t afford to lose you.”
• seungkwan loves u so much, if it isn’t already obvious. he would go to the end of the universe and back just to see you smile, without you in his life he would probably be v sad v v v sad due to all the stress he can’t relieve and rant out. you’re always a shoulder to cry on, a friend to laugh with, and most of all a person to grow old with. he depends on you a lot, since he’s a growing boy himself and he may not know everything, but he does know you two are meant to be together forever, and you know that too.

Parents - Calum Hood [Part 2/3]

Haaaaay guyssssss. I got a lot of reviews on the first part of Parents. Glad you guys liked it so much! J
I really feel nervous about this chapter for some reason. Antyways here it is!

Part One.

———————-

My feet were killing me. Elijah’s face was covered in chocolate ice cream just like Calums was covered in Strawberry ice-cream.

It wasn’t even his favorite flavor.

It was mine.

Luke, Ashton, and Michael sat with me their living room. Calum and Eli went out to the back yard to play soccer.

“He doesn’t know does he?”

They all shook their heads and I sighed in relief. “But now you have to tell him. You’re back in Sydney and now he isn’t going to let you go again. You’ve set yourself up.” Luke said, matter-of-factly.

I sighed again; this wasn’t getting easier.

“I know but I can’t. At least not now. It’ll will ruin him and his career. And he’ll hate me for depriving him of something so important. I don’t want that.”

It grew quiet until Michael said something.

“Well, what does the kid think about his father?”

“He doesn’t hate him. I tell him that it was important for me to leave him. Every time he asked what his name was I always changed the subject or I just said it wasn’t important. I told him I was the one left. That his daddy loved me very much, and I loved him, but his job was very important.”

My eyes were tearing up and I looked down into my lap. I felt a hand rubbing my back and I looked up to see Ashton looking down at me with gentle eyes.

“Either way, y/n, you still need to tell him. He deserves to know.” He said softly. I nodded. “I guess I’ll have to—”

My phone rang with an unknown number. “Hello?” I cleared my throat. “Hi Miss-

“Y/l/n”

“Well, your mother is at the ER.”

I stood up quickly. “What? Why?!” My heart raced. “Well, she had a heart attack while you were gone with your son. Her care-giver stopped by and saw her on the floor. She’s at the hospital getting treatment, but at this rate, she may not be able to cope with it. Especially since at her early age her body hasn’t fully matured with the fact that she was already ill.”

I covered my mouth. “O-okay, I’m on my way.” I said after processing what he had said through my mind. “Okay. Please hurry.”

I hung up the phone. Please hurry. How often does a Doctor ask a patients daughter to come ASAP? Not often.

I hurried toward the back yard, “Eli!” I called. He had grass stains on his jeans and dirt marks on his face. His hair was messed up and sweat slid down his face. “What?”

“Come on, we have to go.” I walked out onto the frosted grass. “But why? Can’t we wait till tomorrow?”

There might not be a tomorrow I thought to myself. “No. We have to go. Grandma called us and she misses us.” I lied. “But–”

“No. No buts.” I snapped. He sighed as he walked over to me. “Y/n, can I talked to you for a moment?”

I finally realized Calums existence which I had been ignoring all day.

I looked from Eli to Calum. “We really have to go, Calum.” I hissed. He cringed, “I know but… please?” He pleaded. His eyes looked desperate.

“Fine, but please make it quick.”

He pulled me aside as I told Eli to go inside. “Why do you have to go so quickly?” He asked. “Quickly? We’ve been together for the 8 hours.” I shot back.

“I mean, now?”

While looking at him, I saw nothing but Elijah. My heart told me to tell him right now, but my mind told me to wait.

I went with my mind.

I sighed. “My mum is in the hospital. She’s really sick. She had a heart attack while we were gone. The hospital called a few minutes ago and said that her condition is Critical. I’m sorry, Calum. But we really have to go.” I went to walk away, but he grabbed my wrist. “Let him stay here. Do you really think bringing a 3 year old boy around that place to see his sick grandmother is a good idea?”

I sighed. “Calum I can’t do that.”

“Why?”

“You know why.” I tore my wrist from his grasp. “Because of me?”

I didn’t say a word. “You’re not going to let him stay because of me? Because we have a history? Because you may or may not have another person on your life that could not love more than I ever have? Because he isn’t my kid? Because you don’t trust me?!”

I flinched at his loud voice. I started to tea up again at his voice. “I’m not talking about this right now. You don’t know anything.”

“Then when? When can we talk about this? Because we apparently need to.” He pressed on. “We can’t! Calum we aren’t apart of each other lives anymore! We broke up three years ago!” I yelled back.

He lowered his head to the ground. “Just let him stay here. Please?”

“Fine. But I won’t be back till tomorrow. I swear, if any of you let him get hurt—”

“We won’t. I swear.” He looked down at me with a smile.

I returned inside the house to find the boys in laughing fit with Elijah looking confused as ever. “I don’t see where Eli gets his humor from.” Michael spoke up as they began to calm down. “Because it definitely isn’t from Ca—”

“Shut up will you?” Ashton jumped in quickly. “Oh yeah…”

I sighed. “Its fine, Mikey. And Eli, you can stay for the night.”

“Yay! Why did you change your mind?”

“Because Calum begged me to.”

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Calum

“He can sleep in my room.” I offered. “Good because mine is a mess.” Mikey implied. Although he washes his hands 24/7 and is probably the neatest one in the house. I chuckled and guided Elijah up to my room. I will admit, there was some resemblance between us. But there are random people out there in the world that look the same, right?

“What can I sleep in, though?”

I threw him a muscle shirt and climbed in bed. Eli soon followed after he was done changing. “I had fun today.” He smiled at me as he laid down. “I did too. You’re pretty good at soccer.”

“Mummy says I’ve been playing since I could walk, but I don’t really remember doing that. She said it was because my daddy loved soccer and she missed him a lot.” He stated. “Hm, was he good too?”

“I think he was. She used to tell me about a lot of things he did. Things like he was a musician, he loved doggies, he was a great singer and that he was ‘devilishly handsome’ as she likes to put it. She says the really liked the small things about him. But I never really got why she left before I was born. She said his job was really important. And she never told me his name. She always changed the sentence. But she has this box that she keeps on a really high shelf and I see her looking in it a lot. I think there’s pictures in it of her and my daddy.” He rambled on. I was slightly angry; why would she get pregnant and leave? Most importantly, why would he let her? She was like a random person finding diamonds on the beach; very rare. People like her never come around often.

“I wish I could’ve met him sometimes. She used to cry every day because of him. Sometimes she still does.” He mumbled. “Which is why I love my mummy with all my heart. She deserves a real man, which is what I wanna be for her when I grow up. I want to take care of her and be an important person so that I will make lots and lots of money for her because she so young and works hard for me.”

The kid was humble, I’ll give him that. “Do you know where your father is?”

“I don’t know. I know he lives in Sydney somewhere, so maybe we’ll run into each other. But I don’t think so. There’s lots of different people around here. How could it be possible at all for me to just run into him?”

“I guess it’s not.” I muttered. “I know it’s not. I mean, why did he let mommy leave? She’s an awesome person. She says he didn’t know she was pregnant with me, but still if she could go through it all by herself, then I think they both could handle it.” He huffed, clearly annoyed about the subject. “But I don’t like to talk about it. Because although I’m sure I would love my daddy, it makes me angry he would leave her.”

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t’ve brought it up.” Even though I didn’t I felt the need to say it.

“It’s okay.”

It was quiet. “So have you ever been in love? Like you know, as deeply as my mom was with my daddy?” He smirked. “I’ve had lots and lots and lots of girlfriends. Sometimes they don’t even know! But when they try to kiss me I get grossed out because every girl in the world except mummy has cooties. Even grandma does! But mummy says it skipped her generation.”

I laughed harder than I should have. “I was in love, once.”

“Really? Do I know her? I probably do.”

“Yep, actually, you do.”

“Really who is it?”

[DEEZ NUTS. NO IM JP. SRSLY OKAY. SERIOUS TIME.]

I debated on whether or not I should tell him. “Well, you don’t know her well. She left me almost 4 year ago.” I said. Slowly my brain started to click. I went wide-eyed.

“When’s your birthday?” I asked. “Next month? Why?”

I shot up in bed.

Eli said that his father was a musician, that she loved him a lot. That his work was important, that she left him, which she left before he was born.

Why hadn’t it occurred to me before?

“What the matter?” He asked as he sat up in almost the same position. “N-nothing.” I stuttered. He shrugged and laid back down. I took notice of just how much he looked like me. “I’ll be right back.” I said. I busted through the door and shut it behind me.

I ran down the hall and into the living room where the boys sat watching a movie. “He’s mine.” I said in shock. The boys looked from one another with a worried look. “Eli. He’s mine. At first I didn’t want to admit it, but he is. He’s my child.”

They all stood up. It was quiet for a long time. “How did you find out?” Luke spoke up.

I shot him an astonished look. “You knew?” I questioned, not bother to hide the disgust dripping off my voice. “We all did.” Ashton added. “For the past three years of my life, I wasted time thinking that I wasn’t good enough for y/n. For the past three years all I’ve wanted was an explanation of why she left me without a clue.” I spat, “But you all knew and no one had the balls to tell me that the love of my life was carrying my child!” I yelled. My chest heaved as I raged. I could feel my boiling. “She made us promise. She didn’t want to ruin your life.” Michael argued back. “What’s ruining my life is the fact that I was deprived of something so important! It was my fault she got pregnant in the first place! What the fuck, you guys?!”

They didn’t say anything. They knew I was right. “We were supposed to be brothers. We’re supposed to tell each other everything!”

“Calum, this isn’t like telling you have a shit stain of the back of your pants, mate, this is talking about another life being born in your life. She was already getting enough hate because you two were in an open relationship. Just imagine what her life would be like is the world found out she was birthing your child!” Michael yelled back.

I hated to admit it, but he was right.

Elijah was my child. He had found his missing father.

But the real question was, was I the father he wanted me to be?

Drunk Confessions (now in pt 1)

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4

Combined all parts, Use to be part 3, now in part 1

Derek’s POV

Today marks 5 months since I’ve started dating y/n. It’s been the best 5 months of my life. Not feeling pressured, not feeling like I have to show off, I also haven’t stressed over anything. Well besides the fact we still haven’t told Skate. It’s been tough. I hang around him almost every day and he doesn’t even think I know more than her name. It’s also been kind of hard staying away from the drugs. I can do it fine on my own but when I’m with my friends and they’re all doing it, it’s so tempting. A lot of the times I’ve left to go sneak to y/n’s house and left flowers or something at her door to get away from it. Making her happy was the best distraction. Skate will be out shooting a music video today so I’m going to go see y/n to talk to her about telling him. I really hope this doesn’t ruin our friendship. I can’t believe I’ve even kept it from him for this long. He’s become one of my closest friends out here. He really helped me out of a tough time, I can’t keep this secret from him any longer. I call y/n and tell her I’m coming over.

I arrive at her house and let myself in. “You know you really shouldn’t leave the door unlocked.” I say to y/n whose sitting at the kitchen table reading a book. She quickly jumps up and hugs me. “What are you doing here?” she said excitedly.  “I came to talk to you about something.” I say releasing her off of me. Her expression changed from excited to worry. “Don’t worry it’s not bad it’s just about your brother.” I laughed seeing she got nervous. “Oh thank god you made that sound so bad.” She said pointing to the table for me to sit. “Can I get you anything?” She asks. I loved how she was so willing to do things for me. I never wanted her to though, I want to be the one to spoil her. I grab her arm and pull her into the living room. I sit on the couch and pull her onto my lap facing me. We embrace in a kiss. I pull back but our foreheads are still touching. “Don’t feel like you have to do anything for me okay?” I whisper to her. She nodded and kissed me again before sitting next to me on the couch. “So what about Nate?” She asked me. “We need to tell him. I can’t keep this from him anymore. We’ve both been pushing this off for too long" I explain.

She nods in agreement. “I don’t know how we’re going to do this though. I’ve thought of some things but I don’t know how he’s going to take it.” She says. “What have you thought of?” I ask. “Well I’ve thought about me just bringing it up to him but then that would look bad on your part. I’ve also thought of you telling him but then that makes me look like an ass. So then I thought what if we both invite him out to a restaurant with us and we will both tell him together. It’ll work but if he gets mad and flips shit we have witnesses which is awkward. So I don’t know.” She continued. I liked the restaurant idea but she made a good point about him flipping shit. So we’d have to go somewhere more private but not too private where he could get away with beating the shit out of us. I started to think of places we could go. Our houses are too private, friends’ houses are too public, and mountains is too private. “What about the beach? We’ll go to a private one so there’s still people but it won’t be a lot?” I add. She lights up. “That’s perfect! Who could be mad at the beach? Now when are we going to do this?” she asks. “Well he’s pretty busy today so what about tomorrow morning 10am?” I say. “Sounds perfect.’ She says climbing back onto my lap, our lips meeting. We don’t get to see each other often so when we do we tend to enjoy each other’s touch. Our kiss starts getting a little more intimate as we haven’t seen each other since last week. Which only lasted 30 minutes. My stomach started to get butterflies as my hands start travelling up and down her body. Not in a sexual way. Just feeling and knowing she was there and she was mine.

“What the fuck!?”

I hear come from my right. Immediately our kiss is broken and my stomach drops. I know that voice. Skate. Before I can process anything y/n is already off of my lap walking up to her brother. He’s just standing there, jaw wide open. His eyes pacing back and forth between y/n and I. Y/n is talking but I can’t hear. My mind has so many thoughts it won’t focus.

Skate’s POV

I have to head home in the middle of filming to get something from my house for the shoot. I pull up in my driveway and see Derek’s car there. Again? He knows I’m not home so what’s up this time. I step into my house and for some reason the door in unlocked. I walk to the living room and see my sister on top of my best friend. Not only that but with their tongues down each other’s throats. Derek’s hands all over her, and hers slightly tugging at his hair.

“What the fuck!?” I scream. No other words able to come out of my mouth. They barley know each other and now they’re on top of each other? This doesn’t make sense. My sister is not like this. She’s too innocent for shit like this. Why Derek out of all people? I was purposely trying to keep her away from him and now, what even. I can’t contemplate what’s going on. It’s all so confusing. Y/n is now next to me trying to talk to me. I can only catch a couple words being my brain trying to comprehend so much at that moment. I see her start to cry. I hate seeing her upset. I need her in her room for a minute.

Derek’s POV

Is y/n going to hate me for this thinking I lied about him being busy? Is Skate going to drop me for making out with his sister in his own house? I see y/n start to cry. I get up and walk over to them. As soon as I get there “Y/n go to your room for a minute.” Skate tells her. “Nate please just listen to me we wer-“.  He cut her off “Go” he said more sternly pointing up the stairs. She obeyed and went upstairs. Skate then turns to me. “I’m going to get something to eat because this is obviously going to be a long conversation. Go sit at the table.” He says walking into the kitchen. This is going to be interesting.

Your POV

You run upstairs crying. You quickly grab your phone and text your best friend not knowing what to do.

You listen and lay down. Exhausted and stressed you drift off to sleep.

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