The soles of each of my feet are dirty with two different soils.
Underneath one foot, I have the entire West.
I have capitalism and its perks.
Open markets and stockholders and the American dream.
I was born in the West.
My shirt is made up of a cloth made by people in another country, it is not important.
They are not important.
They do not carry the privilege I do,
they were not born in an already developed country with opportunities soaring through the skies like aeroplanes.
I have confused looks and questions.
“No, where are you really from?”
Ignorance is bliss and nobody understands that better than I do.
I have unqualified presidents debating and inforcing laws against me.
I hide behind a mask, a privilege, that is my fair skin and eyes so that I do not have to deal with this first hand.
I can sit back and watch my mom, my friends and everyone else deal with it.
Underneath the other, I have the East.
I have long walks by the river and endless and endless amounts of landscapes ready to be discovered.
I have corruption and the aftermaths of war.
I have reminders of painful pasts and damaged buildings.
Not knowing half your family, the awkward hello’s and goodbye’s with people you haven’t seen in forever.
Having an accent to your mother tongue and seeing your grandfather get more and more disappointed with the way we bend and break our language as the generations go by.
People that died so that you could call your language what it is instead of it being occupied too.
Spices in foods you dont even know the name of but that remind you of home.
Nevertheless, my feet are planted here.
I can try, but I will never succeed on moving one foot to the other.
This is how it was meant to be.
engine | angel eyes (unreleased demo #2) | april 8th | bucket (live acoustic version) | holland, 1945 | i love how you love me (live phil specter cover) | in the aeroplane over the sea | two headed boy pt. 2 (live at jittery joe’s) | king of carrot flowers pt. 1 | oh comely (live at the knitting factory 1997) | avery island / april first | marching theme | little birds (studio) | circle of friends (live, unreleased demo ‘beauty’) | true love will find you in the end (live daniel johnston cover) | my dreamgirl don’t exist (live, unreleased demo #1) | fool | glue (the gerbils cover) | two headed boy (live at jittery joe’s | [untitled] | two headed boy pt. 2 (studio | bucket (organ version, studio) |