i laughed at that passage

“Are you still faint from the run? Or was it my kissing expertise?” How lighthearted, how human he seemed as he laughed now, his seraphic face untroubled. He was a different Edward than the one I had known. And I felt all the more besotted by him. It would cause me physical pain to be separated from him now.
—  Twilight, Stephenie Meyer
At my grandmas yesterday:
  • Gramma: *puts a bible open on Leviticus 18 in front of me*
  • Gramma: Read 18:2-something, and that's the last I'm going to say about it.
  • Me: *VERY VERY NERVOUS THAT SHE FOUND MY GAY ASS OUT (she's not TERRIBLY homophobic, but she's still be disappointed, and since she's not gonna be alive by the time I get married I figure I'll let her keep thinking I'm strictly straight)VISIBLE DREAD IN MY FACE*
  • Me: *Starts laughing hysterically when I realize it's the passage about not getting tattoos*
‘Nico, I said at last, 'shouldn’t you be sitting at the Hades table? 
    He shrugged. 'Technically, yes. But if I sit alone at my table, strange things happen. Cracks open in the floor. Zombies crawl out and start roaming around. It’s a mood disorder. I can’t control it. That’s what I told Chiron.' 
     'And is it true?’ I asked. 
      Nico smiled thinly. “I have a note from my doctor.' 
      Will raised his hand. 'I’m his doctor.' 
      'Chiron decided it wasn’t worth arguing about,’ Nico said. 'As long as I sit at a table with other people, like…oh, these guys for instance…the zombies stay away. Everybody’s happier.' 
       Will nodded serenely. 'It’s the strangest thing. Not that Nico would ever misuse his powers to get what he wants.' 
       'Of course not.’ Nico agreed.
—  The Trials of Apollo: The Hidden Oracle 

I don’t care what the ratio is of violence-promoting passages to peace-promoting passages in any given religious text. We all know we can find a good amount of both kind in any of them. A religion is lived, a text – especially religious texts that are inherently poetic – is interpreted. THAT is what is important.

Do not expect me or anyone who suffered on the 13th to take a blanket statement like “Islam is a religion of peace.” I will laugh, point out passages in the Koran that could not reasonably be interpreted peacefully, and point out the shit heads in the world like ISIS. And I would do the same for Christianity or any other religion. Even when nuance is introduced into the discussion, we fail to address the ugliness at face value. I am tired of my Islam professor telling us again and again, a thousand different ways, that the practice of Islam widely varies in accordance to where it is practiced and who is practicing it, and then never truthfully addressing the ugliness. I’m glad he’s a hippy dippy, wiggle in his chair liberal Muslim. Studies have shown Western Muslims are largely assimilated, peaceful people. Fantastic.

But that does not excuse the ugliness. That does not excuse the deaths. That does not excuse the suffering.The fact of the matter is, there is something tremendously ugly about some Muslims not in the West. Yes, I am going to say it as long as I say it with nuance: some Muslims. And studies have shown – and I have spent the last three months learning about it – that their attitudes are drastically different from Western attitudes. I will not reduce myself to cultural relativism or PC blindness.

I can be nuanced, but I cannot be entirely PC. Let’s own up to it. It is ugly, it is barbaric, it is not okay. And I’m willing to gamble this kind of shit would not be done in support of the belief that there is no God. Atheists have no ties to archaic, poetic texts that can be interpreted into perverse ideologies.

And when I go to class today, I’m not going to show any of this because the professor is writing me a goddamn LOR. But goddamn it, I can at least say it here. It is ugly and I am not going to pretend it has nothing to do with religion. I’m going to be honest about it.