i know we have never interacted but that is because you are famous and i am not

I Broke Down Tonight

So tonight something very strange happened. Something that has never happened to me before. I had a panic attack. My day was going normally and I was at work. 10 minutes before my shift, I started to feel a little bit weird. I was uncomfortable. I felt disconnected from the world around me. My hands started shaking and I started shivering and twitching. I clocked out at work and quickly went downstairs and just sat there, thinking about a ton of things all at once. Next thing I knew, I was outside on the sidewalk with two of my co workers beside me trying to calm me down. I was curled up in a ball, breathing heavily with tears running down my face. At first, I couldn’t pin point why this was happening. But then it hit me. Lately, I had been thinking a lot about some people from the start of my channel. People that used to support every video I did and would always interact with me. Flashes of these people flew into my memory. These people were people who I talked to on a regular basis and people I was getting to know fairly well. One of them in particular (who will go nameless) messaged me first because of my videos. She had said that she was very very depressed and cut herself on a regular basis, And at one point had contemplated suicide. At the time, I was making videos on a very regular basis. She said that my videos brought her so much joy and put a smile on her face. My videos were the reason that she had stopped cutting. Months went by and my videos got more and more infrequent. And then I never heard from that girl again. Then, a few months after, I found out that the amazing, strong, and wonderful girl who had sent me those messages months before, had ended her own life. This hit me harder than ever tonight. After conjuring up this memory of her in my mind, I just couldn’t pull myself together. I was crying as my dad held me in his arms asking me what was wrong. And for the first time, I was completely honest with him. I told him that I don’t want to go to college. I told him how much I absolutely adore YouTube, and I told him how incredibly terrified I am of not reaching my dreams as a yputuber. At first, he didn’t understand. He thought my dream was to get famous and be able to make a lot of money. But then I explained my real dream to him. My dream as a YouTuber is to make as many people as I can happy. I want to be there for you all every single day and bring a smile to your faces. I want to make you laugh when you feel like crying. I want to make you smile when you feel like breaking down. I want to make you happy even when you are at your lowest. The thought of that amazing girl ending her own life crushed me. I almost felt responsible for her death. I wish that I had done more. I wish that I had talked to her more. I wish that I could have made more videos for when she felt down. I don’t just want to entertain people. I want to give them hope. I want to make people smile and I want to show people that they truly matter. I don’t do YouTube because I want to get famous. I do YouTube because I want to make people’s lives better. I do it because I want to inspire people and make them feel happy on their saddest days. I do YouTube because I don’t want anyone to feel alone. I want to be there for you guys. I want to be the person you can look to when you are at your lowest and I want to help you in your time of need. I cannot even begin to examine how absolutely in love with YouTube I am. I love it more than anything. I can’t live without it and for this next year, I am going to try as hard as I can to make my dreams come true and I will not stop until it does. You all mean the world to me. I wouldn’t be the happy person I am today without you. Thank you all so much for all of your amazing support. Your comments and tweets and edits and fanarts and everything you do makes me so happy. I love you guys so much. Thank you. Let’s make this year amazing and let’s grow this community into something incredible. A community where everyone respects each other and helps each other out. A community where everyone is close and friendly. A community where no one will ever feel alone. I know we can do this. I love you all so much.

You Will Never Not Matter

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm Anon!Chuuni! I troll all the mysme imagine blogs that interest me and toss imagine ideas at them~ thank you for your wonderful work. RFA+Saeran/V reacting to meeting some old friends of their s/o who used to bully them and are hoping to rub their success in s/o's face? ;)

Haha, thanks for tossing the idea. ;) Hope you like what we came up with!


Zen:

  • You visit Zen on set one day
  • You decide to surprise him but he was in the middle of a scene
  • One of your old classmates come up to you
  • She was a real jerk to you in school, but you’re polite to avoid drama
  • “Oh, MC! What are you doing here!”
  • She goes on bragging about how she and the main lead Zen are acting together
  • And how they are hitting it off really well
  • You’re trying to suppress your laughter because Zen tells you all about practices
  • You let them ramble off and then Zen comes over
  • He smiles at you and pecks your lips
  • “Hey, babe, what are you doing here?”
  • You hand him his lunch and turn back to your old bully
  • Only she fled from embarrassment

Yoosung:

  • You and Yoosung are going on your weekly froyo date
  • Someone comes up to you and it takes you a moment to recognize them as your old bully
  • He starts rambling about his amazing girlfriend
  • And how successful he is in his new job
  • You’re listening and kind of forcing a grin so as to not be rude
  • But Yoosung keeps looking at him funny
  • Finally he gasps really loudly
  • “I knew I recognized that voice! Aren’t you dragonsheart4840?”
  • Your bully turns really red really fast, stammering for some sort of excuse
  • “Oh, we slaughtered you last time on LOLOL…but we felt really bad when we found out your girlfriend dumped you.”
  • Your bully is mortified and kind of excuses himself
  • Yoosung turns and smiles at you “That should get rid of him.”
  • He remembered you mentioning the bully before and could see you feeling increasingly uncomfortable
  • What a sweet puppy.

Jaehee:

  • You’re taking a break at the cafe so you sit alone in the corner on your laptop to answer emails
  • A familiar guys comes sauntering up to you
  • “Still sitting alone on your laptop? Some things never change, MC.”
  • You finally recognize your old bully from school
  • Before you can say anything, he starts talking about how he’s a chef at a five star restaurant.
  • And talks about all the famous people he knows
  • Jaehee sees you deflate from the counter
  • She comes over to the table
  • “I’m sorry, but I need to steal MC away soon.”
  • You explain that you’re actually the co-owner of the cafe
  • The guy seems to be bit more nervous now
  • Jaehee clears her throat. “Aren’t you that chef from that place down the street? I would think someone who gets paid as well as you would at least have the decency to pay his coffee bill.”
  • You stare wide eyed, realizing he was the “thief” you were looking for all week
  • He runs out
  • “Make that twice” Jaehee sighs

Jumin:

  • Jumin decided to take you on a date at a local coffee shop in town
  • You’re waiting while he gets your drinks
  • A young man in a suit comes up to you, and you dread the interaction remembering your bully
  • You’re barely a minute into small talk and he’s bragging about how he’s the CEO for some company or another
  • He asks what you’re doing and laughs when you tell him your job
  • You feel a little bad
  • But then Jumin comes over
    “Here’s your drink, my love.”
  • You’re introduce your bully to Jumin
  • But he already remembered from when you told him before
  • He nods and says “I recognize that name. C&R recently saved you from bankruptcy, am I right?”
  • Your bully loses color in his face and murmurs some thanks before excusing himself
  • You scold him a bit for it
  • “I’m sorry,” he says. “But it kind of felt good.”
  • Jumin, no.  


Seven:

  • Your car broke down in a parking lot near your job
  • You’re surprised when you see a girl in a nice business suit walk up to you
  • Your old bully greets you, staring awkwardly at your sweatpants
  • You explain the situation
  • Your bully offers not-so-humbly to give you ride in their Lexus and maybe some money to fix your broken car
  • You politely refuse, saying that your boyfriend is coming to pick you up
  • You’re so happy (and slightly smug) when Seven rolls up in his red Ferrari
  • “Oh! That’s him right now” you grin at your bully’s gaping mouth
  • Seven rolls down the window and taps his fingers on his sunglasses
  • You’re about to walk up to him when he raises up a pack of Honey Buddha Chips
  • “Look who got a discount on another box!”
  • He’s grinning ear to ear
  • You chuckle nervously. “Nevermind…I don’t know him.”
  • Seven calls your name and opens the door
  • Your bully is still shook
  • You walk up to him and sigh
  • “You’re such a dork, but I love you.”

Saeran:

  • You two were at the park together
  • You notice your old bully taking a walk nearby
  • You point them out to Saeran and explain
  • The bully sees you and starts walking towards you with a smug smile
  • You groan, knowing what’s coming
  • But then suddenly, your bully pivots on his heel and walks in the opposite direction
  • You turn to Saeran who’s smiling innocently at you
  • You still don’t know what happened…but you’re still thankful you avoided the awkward situation

V:

  • He took you to the museum for a date
  • He steps aside for a few moments to take some photos of the exhibit
  • While you’re waiting, your bully comes up to you
  • He doesn’t brag too much about himself
  • Instead, his comments start to become degrading
  • You can barely get a word in edge-wise, and the comments were pretty hurtful
  • V steps in between you guys, almost shielding you
  • He gives the guy a polite smile, though there’s an edge in his voice
  • “I don’t think that’s how you talk a lady.”
  • The bully is taken aback since barely anyone stood up to him before he backs away
  • V asks if you’re alright

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MY JIKOOK TIMELINE SERIES pt.2

Okay this was really unexpected lol. I didn’t know so many people will find interesting what i have to say. 

I must admit I was thinking a lot about how I am gonna put this whole thing together.Also I had to remind myself that these are events from 3 years ago and therefore when I really wanna be detailed it is going to take some time to sort my things out. That’s why I am posting these series now because I had this idea in my mind for a very long time. 

DISCLAIMER: This post is supposed to be just for fun and shipping of Jikook. I am not claiming this is truth and I am not forcing anyone to believe this. These are just my observations throughout the years I have been into BTS and the time I have been into shipping jikook. I don’t want to cause any types of fanwars or stupid “shipwars” by this post and I don’t want other people to use this content for these kind of purposes. Also I am opened to hear about your other opinions. Just if you don’t like my opinion don’t be later on rude in my asks or something. As I said I am opened to listen but I AM NOT GONNA TOLERATE HATE OR PEOPLE BEING RUDE TO ME JUST BECAUSE I HAD FUN WITH THIS 

so let’s begin

late 2014+ Dark and wild comeback

The main thing that is totally visible about this so called “era” is that Jikook moments kinda are getting more serious and me watching them interact I always had this heavy feeling on my heart. I would say that this was kinda of a peak of Jungkook’s teasing. I would called this Jungkook being lil shit era. But also we can see other kind of attitude coming from Jungkook to Jimin at that time and that was him getting less shy and showing way more how he cares for Jimin. This period made me confused so many times to be honest because when I finally thought I had some kind of idea of what’s going on something other happened and I got totally confused again. 

Many people would claim that there is not much of a difference in Jikook relantionship when it comes to early 2014 and later 2014. But I see a huge difference and mainly in Jungkook’s behaviour. You are probably asking why do I always point out on Jungkook? To be honest he is way easier for me to read him because Jimin is more of a reserved person and he likes to put out his act. On the other hand Jungkook cannot fake most of his emotions he acts like he feels at the moment and he has no problem to show it. I was thinking about comparing these 2 periods on really nice example and that’s very famous “JIMINTV moment”. It is really nice how these 2 videos are exactly made in the early 2014 and late 2014 and how nicely we can see the change of Jungkook’s behaviour in it. 

The video starts with Jimin visibly trying to get Jungkook’s attentions and Jungkook not really being into it. 

At first I thought he was being shy or not really in the mood to play around but even if that’s the case he still found a way to tease Jimin back.

But then later on we could actually see that maknae was not having it. And he was kind of annoyed and later he left. 

Actually I don’t want to be one of those fans who would be pointing out look in this video Jungkook doesn’t like Jimin’s attention and in this video he does. No that’s not my style at all. I don’t want to talk about it because we will never know what was the base of the video. Why Jimin was even filming Jungkook and why Jungkook was really kind of annoyed. In my opinion it went like this. Jungkook was kinda tired or didn’t feel like filming and Jimin being his clingy caring hyung was trying to make his mood by playing around and annoying him. I don’t think there is more to it and I don’t really wanna go deep into this. The thing I really wanted to point out in this comparison is the body language and the weight of the situation. In this video we definitely could see that Jungkook had still this kind of friendship relationship towards Jimin or that’s what he was still going for. I think he was really not trying push it at that time. 

And then we have this JIMINTV video from which was posted in 2015 but actually was made during Danger/WOH era.

1st of all the awkwardness of the video. The tension in the video was so obvious somebody would be able to cut it into slices. In my opinion Jikook at that time even though they still were friends started to develop further feelings for each other and therefore the moments between them got more cringy and awkward in my opinion. The way Jungkook even looked down is showing he is kind of awkward around Jimin. 

For the 2nd of all and I really want to point this out because this is going to take a huge part of my analysis in the future.Can we talk about HOW Jungkook’s way of staring at Jimin changed? When I think about moments before yeah maknae is quite known for his intense stare and even me and my friend were talking about how Jungkook has this really beautiful eyes and intense stare towards people he finds interesting. BUT Jungkook’s way of staring on Jimin went from “let’s be bffs and make friendship bracelets btw i secretly like you” to “I had secretly a wet dream about you this morning” and I can really prove it. 

We can see the progression of his stare on these and I don’t think it is just me who noticed the change. I am not trying to say that Jungkook wasn’t staring lovingly at Jimin  before but I am just trying to point out the huge change.

Another thing that I noticed about Jikook during this era was that it was the beginning of the so cold tension between them that we are used to address mainly now. Many Jikook fans tend to say that the real blooming of Jikook was during Run era. But I have completely different opinion. The early blooming of jikook was actually in this era. 

The start of Jungkook checking out Jimin.

The grown affection and care from Jungkook towards Jimin.

The grown affection and care from Jungkook towards Jimin.

So I think I pointed the main parts of how I think Jikook progressed in this era and now I would like to talk about my kind of theory of what actually was going on at that time. 

In my opinion this was the time of the huge change in Jungkook’s thinking. I think he slowly started to realize what was going on and he kinda came to conclusion that there is no point to fight against it. Maybe he had some deep conversation with someone accepting or he just found it exhausting to fight his feelings. Of course I don’t think this was the era in which Jungkook came out to Jimin. I assume that even though he accepted himself he wasn’t prepared to talk about it with Jimin. That’s why he was trying to act towards Jimin. Yeah I was saying that Jungkook’s affection towards Jimin changed but that didn’t change the fact that Jungkook was still lil shit  and pulling Jimin’s strings most of the time. When it comes to Jimin I think in this era Jimin started to realize too that Jungkook might mean something more for him than his favorite dongsaeng. And now we have Jimin in his existential crisis. I think this was the point when Jimin went through a huge confusion and unfortunately he had not much time to think about it further because of their busy schedule. That’s why he was trying to act normally most of the times. But I kinda could sense the tension from his side and also him being a bit annoyed by all that Jungkook’s bickering sometimes.

Like we can see here.

To be honest I would really like to talk way further about this in the next part where I am going to make it sort of more like theory and personality analysis more than actual relationship analysis. 

Open Letter to Taylor Swift,

Thank you for…

Being such an amazing role model
I admire you and your ability to inspire so many people. You have taught me to never give up on things that I want most, and that sometimes it takes pushing through the really difficult times to reach the best ones. You’ve got the biggest heart and you’re constantly giving to people around you, and it’s inspiring to see the genuine acts you do, whether it’s surprising fans, going to visit hospitals, buying packages for fans and personalizing them, or just spending hours online with us. You show us the beauty in the small things and you never let negativity break you. Despite the awful things you’ve experienced, you’ve always remained grounded, mature, and professional.

Sharing your vulnerability through your lyrics
Your lyrics show the purity and vulnerability of your experiences. I am so thankful that you open up and trust us with sharing those times with us in the form of music. Not everyone is capable of putting their emotions and feelings into words, but your lyrics help captivate the feelings for us. Despite the backlash you get for being so open about specific experiences, we appreciate the songs you make out of them. Going through heart breaking experiences is painful in it’s self, but to share those stories with the world takes significant amount of courage. Thanks for being so brave.

Recognizing friends and family
Showing how important your friends and family are to you is something that is wonderful. I love that you have people that lift you up, support you and have a shoulder to lean on. You’re so caring towards other people and as fans who care so much about you, it makes us feel happy to know that throughout the obstacles you face, that you have people to reassure you of your worth, and to remind you of what you are not. Like you do for us.

Making concerts so special
You always go to extra mile to make things special for fans, and we always notice. Between your cute, creative, and beautiful outfits, every tour you always surprise and blow us away. You capture the songs perfectly with the outfit you assign to each. Your backset videos, speeches from friends, random videos and dancers, are all such a special touch. And never mind the uniqueness of always managing to elevate above the crowd in various ways over the years. And lastly, bringing special guests and surprising the crowds beyond everything you already plan. You put so much thought and effort into your performance and tours, and we love it all.

Making eye contact and smiling at fans while performing
There is no better feeling to me than making direct eye contact at a concert with someone that means so much to me. It makes us feel so special, valued and important during that moment to have you looking directly at us smiling and singing. I swear that I will never forget the moments that I lived this. It is a moment that filled me with such intense happiness that I will forever relive that moment in my mind.

Saying motivating and inspiring speeches while on stage
Sometimes hearing things from your role model directly is the exact push that you need. When addressing friendships, relationships, self worth, you seem to just beautiful express and say exactly what we need to hear. Your words of encouragement help us in ways that you might not ever understand. Hearing you, who we look up to everyday, say that we’re not the opinion of someone who doesn’t know us, or that we’re not going no where just because we haven’t gotten to where we want to go yet, is uplifting and I repeat it to myself so often. When facing hard times it makes it easier knowing that you’ve faced similar situations, and kept pushing through. We don’t feel like you’re talking to thousands of people. We feel it so personally. It’s so reassuring to hear what we are and what we are not, because in a world where so many of us doubt ourselves, it feels nice to have that reminder. Your motive to make the audience feel worthy, appreciate, valued, and loved in a world that is so hateful, is just beautiful.

For being so generous
Seeing how generous you are towards so many causes is truly inspiring. Whether it is a fan who is facing a life threatening battle and you’ve donated to their go fund me, or another situations where individuals are in need of financial assistance. You have made a huge impact in so many peoples lives through your donations to schools, hospitals, cancer, etc. You are a giving person and that is one of many beautiful qualities you hold. Alternatively, you’re generous with your time. The amount of time you’ve spent surprising fans and taking time to make it extra special shows how big your heart is, especially on days you could do anything in the world, you chose to go make someones dream come true.

Being our friend when no one else is
Whether you know it or not, you manage to give so many of us a sense of comfort and reassurance that we aren’t alone. We all go through experiences and fall out with friends, but despite the fact that we haven’t met, you’ve made me feel like I’m not alone. Your genuine attention to fans and how much you’ve done for us makes me feel appreciated. You have experienced so many things similar to us, so when life is hard, having your speeches and music to turn to, is an escape like no other.

Making your concerts feel like home
It’s not everyday that you can go to something and have all your problems and battles put aside/out of your mind for a while. Your concerts feel like a safe place and in that moment nothing else matters, except the focus on the concert. You make the entire night such an incredible experience that it not only makes the moment enjoyable, but it gives memories to continue to look back on and smile about on bad days. You give off such a good and special vibe that lingers on for days, months, and years.

Always showing how much you love and care about fans
Through your interactions with us while you’re on stage, following us on social media, liking posts on instagram and Tumblr, and being so sweet and smiley during meet and greets makes us so happy. Taking the time after giving your all on stage for hours, to go and say hello and thank you to ‘decked out’ fans in a post concert meet up is so kind of you. You truly take the time to make it known that you care about your fans and not every famous person does that. We love you and it’s reassuring to know that we are equally as important to you, as you are to us.

For never letting negativity break you
You have been the best role model in the world. Yes, the world. You have been through so many challenges throughout your fame. I don’t know why the world can’t appreciate and value you like we do. But despite the fact that so many people have tried to break you, you’re ability to stay true to yourself and keep going is the most inspiring thing in the world. Instead of speaking out and making huge mistakes that could ruin your character, you’ve handled everything so gracefully. The ability to go through the hardest of rainstorms, and keep walking, is what we’ve learned from you. Thank you Taylor.


With love,

Ashley

Cole Sprouse Opens Up About Growing Up in the Public Eye.

Cole Sprouse once left his Disney mouse ears behind for a cap and gown, but he’s recently pulled on another famous hat—or, should we say, crown beanie? Sprouse returned to the small screen this year as the lovably brooding Jughead Jones on Riverdale, the CW’s twisted take on the beloved Archie comics.

If you haven’t heard of the Gossip Girl–meets–Twin Peaks hit, you’re probably the only one. Since its premiere in January, it’s become a cult favorite. If he were any other member of the cast, Sprouse might be overwhelmed with the fame and recognition. But he’s been here before.

We talked to the 24-year-old about life as a child star with his twin brother, Dylan, weird fan interactions, feminism, and those divisive Riverdale ships.

A lot of the Disney cohort went on to major acting careers and projects right away—what made you choose to go to college and take a different route?

I think regardless of success, all those kids were dealing with a similar dilemma when it came to their maturity and their publicity and fame, and how they were viewed in the public eye. Some people choose sex, drugs, and rock ‘n’ roll to come to terms with it. Some people find religion. [College] seemed like the most productive way to prove to people we were coming into ourselves. I was finding out my identity and growing by going to an institution where I could evolve and become more adept at understanding why I was thinking certain things, and how society viewed me.

Acting requires a great amount of empathy for real lived human experiences. I hadn’t lived any real human experiences outside of homeschool and being in a sound stage, and there was really no other option. I couldn’t continue to live in a bubble and hope to be an empathic actor. It doesn’t work. I was really sick of the entertainment industry and wanted to step away. Dylan and I were nonstop—we were being recognized and it was overbearing, and I figured it would be nice to let that dissolve. I didn’t know if I was going to return, and then this project sort of crept up.

Are you enjoying it now that you’re back?

Yeah, it’s fulfilling, and I think that’s the only currency I am looking for right now. As long as it stays fulfilling, I will continue doing it, but the second it stops being fulfilling I’ll leave.

What does your brother think of 'Riverdale’?

He supports the show…. I don’t know if he enjoys it. This kind of programming has never really been our flavor of choice. I don’t really want him to watch anything I do and I don’t really watch anything he’ll do. We have a very easy time separating work and play and I wouldn’t really care less if he watched or if he enjoyed it. I don’t really have an easy time watching myself, so I guess I sort of imprint that upon my friends and family.

Originally, you you argued to keep Jughead asexual and aromantic, as he is in the comics. What did those conversations sound like?

When we got the parts, the creative team sat down with the actors and asked how they saw each character. I had argued for a super faithful representation of Jughead as he lives in the comics, which inherently was also me arguing for the aromantic, asexual Jughead. But [they] are two very different versions of the same character in two very different universes.

It’s very strange to me how much attention this [has received]. I am an actor. I have an idea of what I see for the character and I can express that idea and that opinion, but ultimately it is out of my hands. If this were a different kind of programming or it were my show, it would probably look a little bit different, but the commercial success of Riverdale and how people are talking and liking it shows that we’ve gone in a direction that makes a lot of sense and works.

It’s one of those things that needs representation but has not been properly represented. It’s something I still fight for and it’s something I fought for about the second season, but ultimately it’s not in my court. I guess we will see where the narrative takes us.

On a lighter note, once and for all, because the internet can’t agree, is the Jughead/Betty ship called Jetty or Bughead?

[Laughs] I think it’s Bughead. It’s the single strangest name for a coupling ever, but it works.

There seem to be two main Riverdale fan ships: Bughead and Beronica (Betty/Veronica). Which one are you behind?

I actually really ship Betty and Archie. When I would read the Archie comics when I was younger I was rooting for Betty and Archie way over any alternative. [I think I would have seen] that long-lived, childlike romance from two people knowing each other since youth as probably quite romantic. I am a sucker for that childhood romance narrative.

I know our fans take very specific camps with who they ship and who they want and all those camps are at huge war with one another. Riverdale is about to ignite into flames considering how the camps are at war with each other. I try not to involve myself too much.

I am sorry I just brought you into it.

[Laughs] Well, the question we get all the time as a cast is, 'Are you a Betty or Veronica person?’ I don’t like that. I think it’s hard and it also puts the cast members against one another in a strange and competitive way that makes me a little uncomfortable. So most of our cast don’t even answer it.

How did your fan-catcher Instagram account @Camera_Duels get started? Are you ever going to bring it back?

I was younger and just about to go to college, and very discontented with the way people were treating me in the public sphere. Sometimes you can read someone’s aura and actions—they’re shifting and fidgeting, and they’re fumbling for the phone. It’s a dehumanizing, very obvious kind of thing.

I would always be dissatisfied that people wouldn’t just ask, because I always say yes. So @camera_duels was born. It was a way of coping or trying to turn it around in my favor and give me more agency in a situation. I felt sort of like a man behind a glass wall. It ended up really helping me, so much that I stopped. I found the whole thing not to really disturb me anymore.

I am sure with Riverdale increasing ever so slowly in prestige, it will only increase in intensity and I’ll bring it back. But I think it deserves something a little bit more now. I’ve been thinking about getting a film camera with a quick auto focus and a nice flash to make it into something that could be found in a gallery space, which I think would be more enjoyable to me.

You recently subtweeted yourself, over a comment you made as an 11-year-old, where you said you like girls who don’t wear too much makeup. Do you consider yourself a feminist?

There is no question I consider myself a feminist, but I also think the term 'feminist’ has become a topical thing to say without backing it up with any real action. My satirical tweet about my old opinion doesn’t solidify me as a figure within a conversation that’s so much greater than my straight, white male opinion. My Twitter is a joke toilet and I filter all these old, cringe-y parts of my brother and my childhood through that, in an attempt to flush it down the drain forever. When you grow older, you unpack the way masculinity teaches you to view women.

Going back to the question of whether I am a feminist or not: Yes. I think the core of that question is do you support equality for women, and of course. It’s funny that it even becomes a touchy or sensitive thing for people to announce formally, it’s kind of fucking ludicrous. There is not a question in my mind. There are, of course, places and spheres where I wish I would have done more to make those actions back up the title, but I think that’s something that as I grow and I age and I get a little more agency within my society, I’ll always try and work towards that.

Angelic Soulmate

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Title: Angelic Soulmate

Characters: Sam x Reader, Dean, Castiel

Word Count: 809

Warnings: Fluff

A/N: This was requested by an Anon! I hope you all love this! Feedback is welcomed and appreciated! I love you all so much! <3 <3

Lately Castiel had been trying to get you out of heaven.  He swore to you that Earth was not this bad place most of the angels believed it to be.  When you agreed to meet these Winchesters Castiel spoke of you were very nervous.  He said they were the best humans he knew, but you had reservations.  You had met a few humans before when every angel fell from heaven.  They were the worst of humanity.  You weren’t sure you wanted to return to Earth ever again.

However, Castiel convinced you to go with him.  You trusted Castiel.  He had been your friend for as long as you could remember.  You never gave up on him, and he never gave up on you.  You were willing to trust Castiel.

Castiel took you to the bunker with him that day.  You looked around, noticing the amount of books inside the room.  It had to be a library.  There were no humans inside the room though.  

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[Ask RPedia] Anxious About My Writing: Help?

Anonymous asked: I know this is normal for writers and that there isn’t a real solution but I’m gonna ask anyway: Any advice on how to stop feeling insecure about what/how I write?

Oh man, this is gonna sound like such an asshole move, but my favorite way to help myself is to write to spite everyone else. Seriously. Write like you hate everyone else in the world. Write like they mean fucking nothing to you. Write because they’re gonna get what you write, and they’re gonna like it, if they know what’s good for them. Write to make that mental editor representing the ‘them’ in your head mad as hell.

It’s always energized me to flippantly declare to myself that if people don’t like something I like, they can go fuck themselves in some fancy new way, because I’m busy writing and I don’t see them getting off their ass! They’re reading anyways ain’t they? Then they god damn don’t have anything better to do than let me shove words, and ideas, and mental pictures into their heads rapidly. Them complaining? Hah, you mean leaving impassioned responses because I hit a nerve. I CONTROL them. 𝕀 𝔸𝕄 𝔸𝕊 𝔸 𝔾𝕆𝔻.

…ahem. There’s other things to think about. I just, really like getting pumped about that concept because getting pumped makes it really awesome. Lemme uh… lemme try talking about … other things… next. Instead of declaring my godhood, wow, that is so ‘famous last words’ material for a character to say.

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anonymous asked:

hi! this is a bit of a strange question but i was wondering: how do you deal with fandom frustration? when you love fandom content but frequently feel frustrated by a large portion of the fan base? i'm a fandom baby in a lot of ways and sometimes though i feel like a jerk, it's so hard not to let other people overpower my experience. i love hearing your thoughts on everything in general, but. if you have the time i'd love to hear your thoughts on this as well. hope you have a nice day. :)

hmm! this is a great question and one I’m not 100% sure of how to answer, because for the most part I have had very positive fandom experiences. but when it comes to making your fandom experience as relaxed & fun as possible, here are my tips:

1) accept right now and forever that everyone does fandom differently, and everyone is in fandom for different reasons and to get different things out of it. it doesn’t matter if people don’t ship what you ship. it doesn’t matter if they write stories of which the summary makes you recoil in horror. they are not doing this at you. accept that you are going to do you, and everyone else is going to do themselves, and unless their shit spills over into your personal space (see point 3)) then there is literally no point in trying to control the fannish experience that anyone else is having. fandom’s a large space! there’s room for everyone! 

so the thing to do is:

2) CURATE YOUR FANNISH EXPERIENCE. I’ve been doing this since ye olde days of livejournal and do it even more intensely now. essentially: find the people you like, and the parts of fandom you like, and carve out your own corners where you can hang with like-minded people. you don’t have to be right in the thick of it, reading everything, interacting with everything and everyone. you don’t have to track all the tags which are crammed full of stuff that annoys you. you can take it slowly, and be discerning.

if you want to read meta, find the people who write it and follow them. ditto art. learn to embrace ao3’s excellent search function, and to use a tumblr blacklist. if you want to read fic and are bemoaning the fact that none of it is quite what you want: write your own! enthuse about your ideas on tumblr! leave prompts on kinkmemes! befriend some writers! I have to admit I am still pretty lost when it comes making friends on tumblr because the etiquette is bizarre and variable, but hey: the messaging system exists, askboxes exist, comments on ao3 exist. sure, different people have different levels of openness to making new bosom friends, but nobody minds being engaged. we’re in fandom to be fannish, together. 

3) if people are being jerks in your space, block ‘em. ignore ‘em. delete ‘em. I am not even remotely internet famous enough to be at risk of being deluged by trolls, but on the rare occasions that I’ve engaged in good faith and subsequently decided that I was being concern-trolled, I’ve noped cheerfully out of there. the few accusatory or unpleasant anon (because they’re always anon!) messages that have landed in my inbox, I’ve deleted without batting an eye. sometimes I share it with a friend via chat or email and we have a laugh about it, and that helps settle any residual hurt or irritation that I might feel. I’m a grown fucking woman. I keep a calm sympathetic face while being shouted at, cried on, confided in, manipulated, and projected onto, for a living. and I have zero qualms about policing the boundaries of the spaces I’ve carved out for myself–the fun, creative, relaxing, incredible places–in fandom.

4) manage your entitlement. just remind yourself every so often that nobody owes you the next chapter of that story, or the exact piece of art you want to see, or the paragraph-long comment, or the attention you crave, or the whole-hearted agreement you seek. remember that everyone has their own lives, and you’re never seeing the full picture. be gracious. be kind. try to resist the urge to snipe and snark and finger-point and complain in public; I enjoy a bit of fandom bitching as much as the next person, but I inflict it all on my friends, in chat.

5) the flipside of this is: show appreciation of the things you like. comment on that story. reblog that art with a furious tag spiral of capslock (creators LOVE tag spirals). put together a rec list–this is also a great way to show people what kind of things you like, so people who share your tastes know who to gravitate towards.

if you are frequently frustrated by a large portion of the fanbase, anon, then ask yourself: are you reading the comments? ie. are you making yourself engage with parts of fandom where people have THE WRONG OPINIONS and are writing your beloved characters THE WRONG WAY? if so: just scroll past. don’t read it. unless you really enjoy an argument, don’t feel obliged to reblog it with a detailed explanation of why they’re wrong: you’re gonna frustrate yourself and, yes, maybe end up looking like a jerk. just shrug and move on. maybe this isn’t the corner for you.

I have been following my own advice in this regard for almost 14 years. I’ve kept a handful of enduring and awesome friends from most of the major fandoms I’ve been part of, and I’m still making new ones, and I’ve (mostly) managed to avoid wank. I write what I like, and I read what I like, and I try to communicate generously and enthusiastically with people who are creating the things that I enjoy.

tl;dr - seek out the things that make you feel good, and follow them. weed out the things that make you feel bad, and ignore them. it’s fandom. it can be as serious or unserious as you like, but it IS supposed to be fun.

Not That Different

Characters – Sam x Reader

Summary – A book brings the reader together with the youngest Winchester

Word Count – 1,858

Warnings – None!

A/N – Request from @nobodygottimeforthisusername: Heyho! I’m a really big fan of your imagines and the series, your style is so unique and amazing! I would be very happy if you could accept my request (please don’t rush, it’s not urgent). Could you do an imagine, where the reader is from an foreign country (preferably Germany - mainly because I’m German lol) and Sam likes her accent so much, that he’s always chatting with her and asking questions so she has to keep on talking and it slowly begins to annoy her? If you have any questions about German words and stuff you can always ask me, I’m a reliable source ;) thank you soooo much and keep up with the amazing work you do! ❤️

Also written for @jared-padaloveme’s Fluffy Birthday Challenge.  My trope was: #20: I’m in a bookshop and I really need that book can you get it for me?  Wait, you’ve read that book?  Let’s have an in depth conversation about it.

Originally posted by themegalosaurus

Your name: submit What is this?


The first time Sam saw you, it was at a bookshop in Pennsylvania.  You were trying to reach a book that was on the highest shelf.  After discretely watching you trying various different ways to reach the elusive book - including jumping up and trying to climb the bookcase - he was finally no longer able to hold in a chuckle.  You turned around, your face red.

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Bob Morley Imagine: Get To Know Me (Part 1)

Requested 

Part 2

Summary: Reader, famous singer, hooks up with Bob on Lindsey’s birthday party. Then she gets a role on The 100 and is nervous about seeing him again but everything goes better than she expected.

Word Count: 1808


Originally posted by paul-steroline-lover

I took a deep breath as I had parked my car into a parking spot for actors. Today one of my biggest dreams was going to become a reality.

Even though I would always be mainly a singer I had always wanted to try acting. So once I had gotten an opportunity to be casted in my favorite tv show, The 100, I had immediately agreed without hesitation. I had been more than eager to become a part of such amazing show and the fact that I would be able to work with my good friend Lindsey was just a bonus.

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The Long Distance Dissonace (10x24)

If you haven’t watched, SPOILERS ahead!!!

This is not the typical review/summary I usually do. This is more a venting platform and some random thoughts on this episode. Please note I am unspoiled so I have not had the time to process things that most of the spoiled fandom may have had time to process so I apologize for my feels which are everywhere right now.

1. I will say right of the bat that in terms of comedic value, this episode was gold. It had a very funny script, the plot made way for lots of funny zingers and the cast was spot on in their acting for these scenes. It may very well be one of the funniest episodes they’ve had. That being said, for the Shamy shippers, it may have caused some angst that made it hard to enjoy the comedy here.

2. Shamy flirting through their video chat is adorable. They are totally both flirting and Sheldon is going for it too. Notice Sheldon called Amy naughty again. 

3. As soon as I saw Ramona entering the cafeteria with Sheldon, I started to freak out. Because I knew she was up to no good. But I was more surprised that Sheldon would even entertain a “friendship” with her especially on the terms they ended last time. It just doesn’t seem in character for me and they never mentioned any reason for there to be this kind of time spent between them voluntarily. Can the writers at least make and effort and come with an excuse like that they had to work together on something? A “toblerone” isn’t enough.

4. Amy skyping with Sheldon and finding out about Ramona broke my heart. She was strong and kept it together although she was obviously jealous. She doesn’t argue with him because she knows how clueless Sheldon can be in these matters. I will say I am glad she found out thru him and not thru other people. It shows Sheldon had no intention of being deceiving. 

5. Sassy Amy arguing with Penny and Bernie was freaking hilarious. “I GAVE YOU ONE JOB. KEEP AN EYE ON HIM. HOW HARD IS THAT?” Mayim is awesome per usual in this scene. (Can the academy just give her the Emmy she deserves, damn it?) Best line all episode came here… 

I’ve been smacking that ketchup bottle for a long time. All she’s gotta do its tip it over and point it at her fries.

So while I was nervous for Shamy, I also just about wet myself with that line. 

6. Why would Sheldon bring Ramona to dinner with the gang? And why would he bring her to their apartment? It’s just inconceivable and out of character to me! The man who wouldn’t allow a woman in his room would allow a woman he hasn’t seen in years into his apartment. Come on, Sheldon? You are naive in some ways but you are also smart. This is the man that was concerned Penny would cheat on Leonard while he was away at North Sea. (S7E2). He should know at least a little bit.

7. The shamy shipping gang was all of us. It was awesome to see the whole gang banding together to protect Sheldon and Amy’s relationship. They were all of us. Bernie wedging herself between Sheldon and Ramona was AWESOME because I was about to throw a fit when I saw that bitch sitting in Amy’s spot. (Sorry for the B word but WTH?) Thank you for your service, Bernie. 

Nice save with the whole gang walking Ramona to her car, OMG!!!! It was so over the top it had me laughing out loud. Then Bernie once again with her sweet voice “excuse me”, followed shortly by Penny. Good on the girls to mark Amy’s territory and good on the whole gang who was truly concerned. They really care about Amy and Shamy’s relationship and that feels good to have everyone so invested.

8. We go to commercial break and I’m thinking we are almost at the end of the episode and have made it safely thru the season finale. Then we get back with Ramona bringing sandwiches to Sheldon’s office. Okay… Penny’s talk must have stuck with Sheldon but I think he refused to believe the obvious.

Are you seeking a romantic relationship with me? 

He has obvious doubts about the whole thing and has given Penny’s word some more thought. He starts naming the reason why that would create some problems; one that they are colleagues and two, he is currently in a relationship… He did have time to say this and that to me is important because it shows that Sheldon was willing to defend his relationship. BUT she kissed him…

And something in me about died. I cannot believe this is happening and I reacted much like the audience. Because Shamy are not your typical relationship and they have really guarded themselves against all this typical relationship crap so I can’t be okay with this. I also felt horrible for Sheldon because his face became dazed, he never closed his eyes while it happened and he is not exposed or used to this interaction with females, just Amy. So now I’m feeling like I’m about to puke because on one hand, he didn’t deserve this but on the other hand, he kind of brought it upon himself and should have known better. Sorry guys but come on Sheldon…

He was silent and stunned. I just saw him walking further and further away from Ramona and I had the feeling he would go to Amy because as I’ve said before, Amy is his safe place. I didn’t expect anything else but to him show up at Amy’s, kissing her and telling her he missed her and loved her. And that would have made it better for me. 

The three famous Sheldon knocks, Amy, Amy, Amy… and our favorite girl, too precious for this world, reacts surprised to hear her true love’s voice. Like me, she wasn’t expecting what would happen. Lo and behold she opens the door to a beautiful sight; Sheldon on one knee with the ring we have been waiting to see for 2 seasons now. The sight was beautiful because Jim Parsons was able to convey honest love and admiration as Sheldon for Amy in every single face muscle and the perfection and sincerity of his soulful eyes. And my heart dropped because I know he loves her so much. And I did gasp so loud I could probably be heard 5 houses down because I waited so long for this.

But something was lost and sacrificed in the process. I also felt sad that Amy didn’t know. And felt sorry that Sheldon may be doing this for the wrong reasons and upset he waited for this to happen to take this step.  The loveliness of their sweet relationship was tampered with. You see, this couple has taken every step with caution and care. Amy has waited a long time for this. Sheldon has come a long way. This moment didn’t need to be any part of Ramona’s sick interference. It was gratuitous and unnecessary of the writers. Because this is not the kind of story Amy deserved to tell her children… “I was away for a few months and your father befriended a woman who ended up overstepping her boundaries. Your father realized how much he loved me after she kissed him and he proposed to me.”

It’s ridiculous because we all know what Amy means to Sheldon and he has known that he loves her a long time. He could have very well given her the ring last episode which was beautiful. But it felt to me the writers wanted to have a cliffhanger or a hook. And that they did, leaving us a whole summer with questions of how Amy will react once she knows what happens. Will she say yes not knowing and then find out and be sad and mad or even call it off? Will she say no because she realizes something is not right about the whole thing? We don’t know. But there are my mixed feelings about all of this and in order to survive hiatus, I will just have to reset my memory to episode 23 and not think about this one because it will drive me insane.


Sorry for the rant. I may change my mind but this is how I feel right now. Some honorable mentions:

  •  I’m glad we saw Stuart again. As always he is pathetically awesome. 
  • Great to see the Amy and Penny drawing again. I wonder how Amy ended up keeping it?
  • Nice to see the cafeteria. Howie’s lines were so funny.
  • Penny trying to explain to Sheldon. “Amy has already taken me ut of my package and played with me”. Yes she has. And you’re right Sheldon, Lenny needs a marriage cousnelor. Glad someone said it. 
  • Where the hell is baby Halley? Should I call the Department for Children’s Welfare?
  • Lenny: “You got fingers and a mouth, you call her.” / “You got feet and legs you do it.” LOL!
  • Poor Raj… smh.

I’m out of hiding so you will see me around more. :) Ryl.

So I think it’s fair to say that Exodus has definitely been one of the better episodes of season 2. I wanted to get that out right away because overall, I really liked that episode and it felt very reminiscent of season 1.

Which leads us to the ending scene in Kara’s apartment with Kara and m*n el. There was a lot that I take issue with. Because every ending scene with those two, for the last several episodes, always erases what we’ve learned. The messages of those scenes completely go against what the audience learned that episode and they’re also the reasons I never play the last five minutes when I rewatch. Not that season 2 has many episodes I’d ever want to watch again.

2x11 Martian Chronicles: In the episode, Kara has valid points for not wanting to be with him and she lists them. They’re not compatible, she doesn’t want to date someone like him, etc. And everything she says is true. And at the end of the episode, we have a great Danvers sisters scene where Kara reveals her very real fears about Alex slipping away from her (something we see consistently throughout the episode) and that being the reason she wanted to go all out for Earth birthday (to remind Alex how much fun they have together). Kara’s fear of losing Alex is Kara’s plot the entire episode! And the fucking writers, two seconds after her confession, have Alex try to turn it around and say that the real reason Kara was so focused on her birthday was because she was trying to not focus for her feelings on mon ew? Does that actually make any sense? Because Kara’s sudden confusion about how she really feels does not. In canon, Kara knows what she feels. She knew she liked James and Adam. She knew she did not like Winn in a romantic sense. So having Kara say she’s confused, she doesn’t want to face her feelings for man pain and then being upset when he’s going on a date with someone else? It falls flat and I don’t buy it for a second.

2x12 Luthors: I love this episode. There is no denying at this point that I’m probably in love with Lena Luthor. For many reasons. And yet again, I’m never going to watch those last five minutes because it is just so wildly out of place. Just as every scene with Kara talking to/about m*nel in this episode. The entire episode is Kara defending Lena. Kara trusting Lena. Kara literally fighting for Lena. They are great scenes and it brought back a little bit of that self-assured Kara we love. So having all those scenes of Kara viciously protecting Lena the whole episode and the writers then choosing that same episode to end with Kara saying she does like m*nel and wants to be with him? It’s not only extreme emotional whiplash, it’s completely laughable and honestly this was the worst episode for the writers to have put that scene because after seeing the intensity Kara defended Lena with, Kara saying she wants to be with someone who isn’t the person she spent all episode fighting for is just ridiculous. Frankly, I’m still convinced the writers just had little snippets of karamew dialogue they wanted to use at some point, opened up any episode script, and just cut and paste scenes into random locations because that’s how forced and out of place it was.

2x13 and 2x14: I can group these nauseating episodes because it’s the same thing over and over again isn’t it? Kara asks Mr. Misogyny to do something, he completely disrespects her wishes and does what he wants instead, and the ending scene? Aw, all is forgiven and everything is okay and look at how cute they are?????? *vomits*. They don’t talk about the very real problems in their relationship, the fact that he has no respect for her and what she wants but who cares because his horrifying behavior is still rewarded by getting the girl every time! #relationshipgoals am I right? No.

2x09 and 2x10 could probably have their own discussion too but this is already too long and the more I think about him, the bigger my headache seems to get… I’m sure it’s a coincidence, though.

Which, finally, brings us to 2x15 Exodus.

Again, loved this episode. We’re finally getting back to an actual plot with Cadmus and even got to see more about the Alien Registration. We got a fantastic Danvers sisters scene, amazing Alex and J’onn scenes, some real cute Sanvers, reporter Kara was back, they remembered James existed, m*new was in the background where he fucking belongs (even though he should be off the show completely), Dean Cain and Teri Hatcher were in the same episode though sadly didn’t interact (as were Teri Hatcher and Brenda Strong), and Lena Luthor(!!!<3) was back and holy shit, am I still flailing over those supercorp scenes! So yeah this episode was awesome.

And then came the end scene in Kara’s apartment with Kara and m*nel. Are you sensing a pattern here?

First of all, I wanted it to be Alex at the door. It should have been Alex because those two almost lost each other again in a way that is incredibly similar to Kara almost dying in space after pushing Fort Rozz away from Earth and Alex going into space to bring her back. So yes, it should have been Alex. But I knew it wouldn’t be, not while m*nel is on the show.

The first line I have issue with is “Supergirl is what I can do. Kara Danvers is who I am.” And before you say anything, yes I know it’s an easter egg. I know it’s a famous quote from The New Adventures of Superman and when you have both Dean Cain and Teri Hatcher in an episode, how can you not have a quote from that show? And for Superman, it’s a great quote. It absolutely works for him because he has two sides that are so different.

It does not work for Supergirl. Because while Supergirl is what she can do, she’s not Kara Danvers. Not really. She is Kara Zor-El, a Kryptonian through and through. Kara Danvers is the persona she took on at 13 years old to make sure no one found out who/what she really was. Both Supergirl and Kara Danvers’ secret identity is Kara Zor-El. So her saying “Kara Danvers is who I am”? It’s false and out of character and the writers should have chosen a better quote but their laziness is not really a surprise anymore.

And now the line that got a lot of people heated: “Maybe being Supergirl and having you is enough” is just ludicrous. And good God, the writers truly outdid themselves here because not only does this sentence completely erase what they just established 10 seconds ago (I agree with Supergirl being what she can do but not who she is) but it goes against everything we’ve learned about Kara since the pilot. The whole first season, she’s trying to balance being Kara Danvers and Supergirl. She doesn’t just want to be Kara Danvers anymore and she doesn’t only want to be Supergirl. She wants both. And it’s difficult and we see her struggle throughout the season with those sides of her life but she keeps on going because to her, it’s so worth it. She gets to help people no matter which identity she’s under and that’s all she’s wanted. So no, her settling for being Supergirl just when she was really starting to make a difference as a reporter is not enough. It’ll never be enough.

And of course, the “having you” part. The only, ONLY person the writers could have ever justified Kara saying this line to (even though it goes against everything we know about Kara) is Alex. Because Alex is her rock, the only reason she ever started to feel like Earth could also be home. The reason she flew into space and nearly blew out her powers trying to stop that spaceship because she would not lose her sister. And before you say anything, even if she had said this line to Lena, I would have obviously been giddy for a few seconds before wincing because it doesn’t matter who Kara says it to when it’s not true. And to do it in this episode? An episode where it was proven once again that Kara and Alex are the heart of the show only for them to have the audacity to downplay Alex’s importance to Kara and have her say that she’ll be okay so long as she has man hell? How dumb do the writers think their audience is?

But the writers are making a habit of belittling all of Kara’s actions in an episode in order to make it all about man hell again. 2x11, 2x12, and 2x15 are some of their stronger episodes this season. But they’re also the ones where the writers are trying to make man hell seem way more important than he actually is in those last scenes. And the writers are so spectacularly failing at that since there is no way such a badly written character can ever be considered important in those great episodes because he’s just not. And they’re choosing to showcase it in episodes where it would be the most obvious. The only thing the writers are doing is weakening a good episode by turning around and making it about monew again.

I truly don’t understand what has happened this season. I don’t understand how the writers are sending one message throughout an episode only to have Kara act like a completely different person around man hell in every ending scene just so they can cancel out that message. I don’t understand why they’re still bothering to call the show Supergirl when they’ve destroyed her character.

TL;DR Do you think Amazon will give me a partial refund on my season pass if I just return the end scenes of every episode or should I just cancel my season pass because every scene worth watching is on youtube?

anonymous asked:

archaeology au???? i'm currently writing a shallura fantasy au in which shiro meets allura because he's an arch nerd so I'm listening

oh boy oh boy oK LISTEN

(ok sorry i’m adding a readmore. this got long. beware y’all this is ENTIRELY self-indulgent, like, 100%, and i don’t expect anyone else to enjoy it.)

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Miserable Lester, Part 16: Those Guys Meet Marius, And So On

Okay, so one fine day the Stanley Yelnats of this story, Bossuet, is chilling outside the cafe where the Alphabetters always congregate. He’s daydreaming, and thinking not-too-concernedly about how he got kicked out of law school the day before, and how this means he’s gonna have to change some of his plans for the future, sure, he guesses. This guy really is admirably zen about worrisome stuff happening to him, although I suppose with his luck the main alternatives would be to get all defeatist and bitter and self-pitying or to retreat into flat-out denial, so. Suddenly a cabriolet goes by, moving at an unusually slow pace, like, you could jog faster than this thing. It’s like whoever’s inside it isn’t sure where he’s going. That piques Bossuet’s interest, so he looks inside the cab (not hard, because it’s so damn slow), and discovers that it contains a Marius Pontmercy. Bossuet knows he’s a Marius Pontmercy because he’s clutching a big overnight bag with his name written prominently on the front.

“Hey,” Bossuet goes like, hailing the cab to a stop. “Marius Pontmercy? You’re Marius Pontmercy? I’ve been looking for you, man!”

Marius is all, “Who are you? Do we know each other or something?”

Bossuet is all, “Nope!”

“Then HOW DID YOU KNOW MY NAME??” goes Marius, still holding a bag with his full name clearly printed on it in large block letters facing out the window of the cab.

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Gyve.

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Member - Hoseok x reader

Genre - Angst, Fluff, (future) smut

Word count - 8.5K

Summary - On the occasion of your best friends wedding and high school reunion, you happened to meet once again, one of the richest heirs of the country, famous fuckboy Jung Hoseok.

While the world saw him as a cocky arrogant person and you, as a confident, strong woman, only the two of you knew the scars that were hidden, and things you both were unable to fix.

Only the two of you could see right through each others facade.

But could you and Hoseok finally break the gyves holding you back? Or were you the ones who shackled each other in the first place?

Originally posted by leojuseyo

The music was still blasting in the speakers when he reached out for his third drink on the night that was still young, holding hundreds of possibilities. Hoseok looked away from the crazy dancing crowd at the woman who was giving him company.

Her vision was fixed on the dance floor, a drink in her hand, while the other played with her hair that was in waves, draped over her shoulder. Hoseok couldn’t help but notice, among all the women who were here, how simple yet alluring she looked. She was fitted in a slightly shimmering black dress that was hugging all the curves of her body till her mid-thigh. Even with a turtleneck and sleeves that extended will her wrists, making her too covered for a cocktail party, she looked stunning, making it harder and harder for Hoseok to look away from her. She wasn’t drinking much though, not even attempting to mingle, and from his experience seeing different types of women in clubs all these years, Hoseok knew she was the kind who had to be physically dragged out of the house to party. He wondered what she liked. Books? Maybe drawings? She was doing some sketches when Hoseok had met her last night. Or maybe she liked adventure. Whatever it was Hoseok wanted to know and it surprised him as well.

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A (Printer’s) only son, and wealthy: an alternate Enjolras interpretation

A couple nights ago, @robertawickham and I were complaining that Hugo took so much from Charles Jeanne’s story to make his Ideal Barricade Hero (Enjolras) and then class-bent him to be a bourgeois student, instead of the working-class guy  Jeanne actually was. 

And then we realized Hugo doesn’t ..actually say… Enjolras is a STUDENT. Just “an only son and wealthy”.  And he LOOKS like a student (a ‘college escapee’)  but that’s in the same sentence that claims he looks like a pageboy and we’re all pretty sure he’s not that.  And hey, workers can BE wealthy! Class often correlated with income (very often) but it wasn’t dependent on that; it was dependent on what sort of work a person did– manual labor was working-class, intellectual labor was bourgeoisie, to oversimplify a ridiculously complicated social strata.  So after like five minutes of shouting TO HECK WITH YOUR CLASS ISSUES, HUGO, WE’RE TAKING ENJOLRAS BACK FOR THE WORKERS we realized we…needed a plausible profession? 

@amarguerite mentioned that printers could, depending on their job and position, be quite wealthy, and gave us a bunch of wonderful details and info which are included under the cut. And lo, IT IS GOLD.  All of it goes together to make Enjolras being the wealthy  only son of print-shop owning family work SO WELL?!? 

A SMALL  AND  ONLY  PARTIAL list of the ways   that Enjolras being the son of a printshop-owner makes Everything Better and Nothing Worse 

-As a printer Enjolras is a logical point of connection for many interest groups; people need printing done! I cannot even believe how easy this makes plothooks! 

-Also as a printer, Enjolras would be in a position to earn trust very quickly, despite his age and appearance, by printing illicit materials, serving as a message center, and so on. 

-Wealthy or not, he likely wouldn’t have the formal education needed to be student; but he would have access to a lot of books and a professional advantage in learning what he could. This explains his occasional slips with Latin and the like, as well as why he’s apparently managed to get an education that so much inspires his Republican convictions–he chose his own reading material, apart from the standardized curriculum. 

- He WOULD be in a position to have the kind of knowledge we see him display in Enjolras and His Lieutenants–awareness of who’s ramping up their revolutionary discussions, who’s getting cold feet, what the general mood of the radical groups in the city are. He’d know because THEY WOULD TELL HIM, with the kind of work they give him and how often and what the tone of it is. He’s  as close to an internet hub as they’ve got. A GREAT person to help organize your activist group! 

- Printers, whatever their more abstract politics, could hardly help knowing and caring about the various censorship and speech laws, which directly affected their business. A printshop owning family wouldn’t have to totally support Enjolras in his more dramatic views to agree with him taking dramatic action, especially in 1830; but they could still like Louis-Philippe, be more conservative– or very radical! So many options! (more on this under the cut)

- Printshop culture generally leaned heavily on the sort of jokes and teasing and goofing around the Amis are seen to love, and narratively applauded for, at least equally an evolution of working-class culture (which it really should be) as of student culture (which it still would be!)

- but as an expected heir and future manager of the shop he’d still be used to interacting with bourgeois clients and businesses! And probably dress quite well when out of the shop, in a subdued, professional way. 

-Gavroche is mentioned as doing the occasional odd bit of work in a printshop.  If anyone  wants, this gives a really easy hook for Gavroche and Enjolras’ interactions at the barricade. 

- Wait! (I panic.) Isn’t Feuilly the only workingman in this group of students?? **checks**! Wait, no, Hugo doesn’t actually say that! He only says that Feuilly IS a worker.  Enjolras ALSO being a worker takes away nothing from Feuilly; a wealthy shop-owner’s  only child and obvious heir will have dramatically more advantages than  an orphan. But it does acknowledge that the working class wasn’t a homogenous block or single sort of life experience. 

-Enjolras and Feuilly’s relationship is so much more interesting this way?? and it stops Feuilly being the Token Worker in a city full of workers in a worker-led movement.  Seriously, Hugo, screw your class issues so much. 

 -I have an excuse to draw Enjolras in a printer’s apron with his sleeves up. :Like, ALWAYS.   That is SO what I’m doing today. 

Below the cut: Longer discussion and more explanation, and some  Q&A with Amarguerite (shared with permission!)  for the use of anyone else who wants to adopt this headcanon/alternate reading!  (please consider sharing this headcanon it’s so great I am so happy right now)  Warning: VERY LONG. 

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THIS IS IT PEOPLE. We have finally arrived at La Fiesta Tech and are about to take over this shitty campus through the sheer force of our awfulness. Some technical info before I reveal adult Jojo to you aka the wonders of the Komei jaw: a) we’ll be founding the Union Greek House this generation (with whatever money we manage to scrape together by senior year) and then each next generation of kids will be pledging in instead of living in the dorms b) I have all colleges attached to the main hood so we’ll be meeting premades from all of them and c) the heir poll will be held at the end of the third year! SO. Ready or not, here comes the jaw..

…………………………………………….LMAO

Really wish you guys could have seen my face when I turned that camera around. The resemblance truly is striking:

What aren’t you telling us, Victoria??? Tg Daniel and Gunther look as ok as the spawn of Komei can be expected to look. OH WELL. Time to minimize the damage with some college makeovers!

First up, sexy Squidward Jojo, who is wisely concealing his jaw. I did a purple suit recolor for him and didn’t realize how shitty it looked till I edited the pics and was faced with this pixelated nightmare. Sorry boo!

-Useless. 

Classic as it was, the full-black-turtleneck look was getting a little old, so I modernized Daniel’s look with this communism-alluding shirt under a military vest. Work it Dan!

-No one works it like the working class ☭

And finally, Gunther, who is looking as ridiculous as always!

-Thank you :D

Loving this hoodie on you, I think it really encapsulates your spirit. Well, judging by the above pics, I can tell the boys are incredibly excited for the college experience!

Time to declare our majors and the fact that psychology has nothing to do with his top artist LTW apparently means shit to Gunther. It’s obvious he wants to major in psych to use these powers for evil. Well nice try, you little bastard, but you’re majoring in art. Daniel is obviously becoming *that guy* in every philosophy class, and I’ve decided that Jojo is gonna go the mad scientist path, so physics it is! Now that this organizational crap is out of the way..

..it’s time to catch up! 

-Hold on to your tits, Daniel.. VICTOR LOST A FIGHT TO ALEGRA

-ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

-I SHIT YOU NOT DEAR BROTHER

-WHAT EVEN IS THE POINT OF COLLEGE. NO PIECE OF INFORMATION WILL EVER TOP THIS.

Nice, back to our old tricks. Actually I don’t know how we can be ‘back’ since we never really left them. Here’s hoping that 4 years of college will be enough for the boys to find something else to talk about! Not holding my breath tho.

Jojo is definitely going through something. Hard as it is to believe, he’s actually BFFs with both his brothers and now that they’re all under the same roof, all he wants to do is interact with them! Can’t believe I’m using this word to describe something Jojo-related, but it’s pretty cute. Unfortunately, it causes some unexpected problems..

..because Daniel and Gunther have 0 relationship points, so the whole dynamic is now the two of them… legit competing over fucking Jojo’s affections. In what world is Jojo a prize to be won I don’t even know. God help us. 

It’s our first night on campus aka time to party! We hit the Wasteland Lounge, looking for some good times and some future spouses.

-Aaaah yes.. It’s been far too long since I unleashed my musical power into the world..

Could you go ahead and leash that bad boy back up till there’s a ring on your finger? We’re already playing on difficult thanks to our fucking Komei genes.

-Ugh who the fuck is this?

OMG THAT’S BRITTANY UPSNOTT AKA MY NO1 PICK FOR DANIEL’S FUTURE BRIDE. I CAN’T BELIEVE WE RAN INTO HER RIGHT AWAY WHAT LUCK!!

-LOOOL no way in hell that’s happening.

Stfu Jojo you understand nothing. She’s a rich sorority girl, he’s a broke communist. She has 1 nice point, he has 9. They’re both popularity sims and both suck ass at it. I mean this is not a pairing, it’s a fucking hit sitcom. Let’s chat her up!

-Oh yes please do. So glad I have a drink to enjoy during this trainwreck. 

IT WILL BE FINE IT’S MEANT TO BE

There we go!

-Hi, I’m Daniel Union :)

-I’m Brittany-

-Ok you got me. I’m no ordinary student.. I’m also.. A COMMUNIST. 

Oh no.

-This is what I’m talking about, look at yourself, so blinded by bourgeois greed that you’ve lost all touch with the struggle of the common man!

-God, I just asked you to get us some drinks YOU FUCKING FREAK

-WOW OK SO YOU JUST ASSUME I HAVE MONEY TO GET US DRINKS. UNBELIEVABLE

…..Jojo stop smiling immediately istg.

-Calm down, it’s something else I’m smiling about…

YEA THAT DOESNT’ CALM ME DOWN AT ALL. NO. JOJO NO. 

-Jojo yes ;)

CAN YOU FOR ONCE BE INTO SOMEONE WHO’S A REALISTIC PROSPECT. JUST ONCE. NOT MARRIED, NOT UGLY, NOT ONE OF YOUR MOM’S LOVERS. 

-Got you, loud and clear.

THANK YOU.

-How about this exact clone of my father? Finally, a version of him I can stand!

FML. I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. DO WHATEVER YOU WANT IDGAF

-Mark, your face is. incredible. Especially the nose and the jaw. Love them.

-Thank you! My name is Max though.

-Yea good for you. Would you consider dying your hair, oh I don’t know, red? I also have a wide variety of formal purple clothing that you would look stunning in.

JOJO YOU CAN’T DATE YOURSELF

-HA! Watch me.

And of course they have 2 bolts. Amazing. No stopping this train now but I might be jumping in front of it.

Man, this place is lit af. If La Fiesta is the party college I don’t even want to know what the other two are like. Probably literal monasteries. But two secret society members are here and we need that grim reaper phone to resurrect Ronroneo! Time to work the famous Union charm!

I sic Gunther on the redhead..

..while Jojo chats up blondie! For obvious reasons, Daniel has been excluded from the kiss-elitist-ass proceedings.

-I know, nothing better after a long day on the yacht than a nice glass of the blood of the poor! 

-Ha, quite! If I may ask, what’s your favorite year?

-Oh, good question! I’d have to go with the Belladonna Bankruptcy of ‘78.

 -Ah yes, amazing choice! Jojo, I’m going to let you in on a very well kept secret.. The rumors about a secret society on campus.. ARE TRUE.

- :O And here I am all this time talking to you with no ulterior motive! 

Everything is going suspiciously well with these secret society dicks so OF COURSE THE LOT SUDDENLY LAGS FOR 5 MINUTES:

GODDAMMIT FUCKING WITCHES POPPING UP IN COLLEGE BARS WTF. This bitch also hearfarted over Gunther so suffice it to say we’re getting tfo.

We return to the dorm where we eat and chat with this eclectic dormie bunch. ‘We’ as in everyone except Jojo who is eating alone and literally talking to himself:

-Haha, that’s hilarious, imaginary Stephen! Want a bite of my mac and cheese?

GOD. FINE YOU CAN HAVE MAX THIS IS TOO SAD.

We go up to our room for some much needed rest and this guy named Ti-Ning is there so I have Jojo try his luck! As seen above, the results are not promising.

-HOW DARE YOU REJECT ME YOU DORMIE RANDO. NOT ONLY ARE YOU IN MY ROOM AT 3 AM BUT YOU DON’T EVEN SHOW ME THE COURTESY OF SLEEPING WITH ME? IT’S CALLED MANNERS

Wow Ti-Ning is NOT having it! 

-I’M A WELL ESTABLISHED DORMIE AROUND HERE, RED. THE RANDO IS YOU, A FIRST GENERATION LEGACY SPAWN WITH CRAP TO YOUR NAME

-I’M SO ATTRACTED TO YOU RIGHT NOW BUT I’M GOING TO DESTROY YOU.

Well. Looks like we made our first enemy! Took us long enough. You’re slipping, Jo.

-NEVER AGAIN. MARK MY WORDS, I’M GONNA HAVE THIS ENTIRE CAMPUS BOWING BEFORE ME.

Ok Jojo I understand your pride has been slightly wounded-

-BOWING. BEFORE. ME

Meanwhile good ol’ Gunther is rolling wants to get his harem to college.

-No one deserves a college education more than the people who are into me!

Very true, you should look into setting up a scholarship.

And my heart continues to break for Daniel, the unfortunate recipient of the brunt of the Komei cat genes. #cursed

Gunther’s plans to work out shirtless in front of the girls are foiled by the lack of space! Tough luck boo.

-THIS DORM IS A HELLHOLE

How about a more direct approach with obvious business major back there? She’s ~thinking about you.

-How could she not ;)

Ugh.

And Gunther strikes out for the first time ever, ruining our perfect slut-o-meter score!

-I don’t understand. what. is. happening. 

You got rejected by this Young-Republicans-sis. Happens to the best of us.

-But I’m shirtless and everything! This is unacceptable!

 -YOU KNOW WHAT I LOVE. MONEY. I ALSO HAVE A LOT OF THEM. MONIES. THEY’RE THE BEST

God, give it up Guns, you’re throwing junk out there. Let her go.

-NEVER

-AND GOLD BARS. ANOTHER THING I LOVE. TOO BAD THE DEMS WANT TO TAX US TO DEATH AMIRITE 

Oh, YR is feeling it now! Nice Gunther, you might actually do this!

-EW NEVER THE FUCK MIND

Good to see there’s a limit to how low your standards can go. Now let’s find some poor soul to saddle with your term paper!

-Girl, those clothes would look so good on the floor of your room..

-Don’t you mean your room?

-No, no, yours. You should probably change into something more comfortable before writing my term paper. It’s gonna take a while.

ARE YOU LITERALLY BOOING HER WHILE SHE’S WRITING YOUR PAPER FUCKING BYE.  All this time I’ve been focusing on mega-villain Jojo and forgetting that Gunther here is also sporting an amazing 3 nice points.

-That’s great girl, let me know when you’re done so I can explain all the ways I’m not attracted to you!

-Aaaah… My future in college looks as bright as the sun hitting the desert…

Nop.

-That’s why I need..

Don’t say it.

-SUNGLASSES 

DAMN YOU TO HELL GUNTHER.

Calum Hood Imagine: Wait. You play soccer too?

Request: Popular!Calum, where the reader is usually quiet and shy but they play soccer and is pretty good, so he notices you because you are playing.


*Y/n POV*

“Excuse me. Can I get past please?” I said, while trying to get past a large group of boys in the corridor of school. After waiting a while, one of them glanced at me and moved out of the way so I could awkwardly squeeze past. “Thanks.” I muttered as I tried to pull my gym bag through the small gap between them and the lockers. The boy that made the slight and only effort to move out the way turned and grunted slightly before going back to his conversation with his friends. 

And that was the famous Calum Hood. He was popular, had a string of girls after him but he would always play hard to get, he was great at soccer, played for the school team and because of all of this barely had time to move out of the way for mere mortals like me. Actually he was kind of okay, he never bullied me or said anything horrible about me or my very few friends, he just kind of left me alone and ignored my existence and I am okay with that because I do not want to be noticed, especially by him, he has too many friends and that is a lot of people and I don’t like lots of people. I am too shy. This is why I like my social status at this school, I have a few friends and the rest of the people here just ignore us and leave us alone most of the time. 

I walked into the changing rooms where my friends were all getting changed for soccer practice. 

“Hey Y/n.” Holly (who was the loudest out of our group) shouted.

“Hi Holly.” I replied waving slightly, before putting my bag down and starting to get changed.  

“So I saw you have slight interaction with other people other than us today. I had to sit down I was that surprised. And it was with boys as well, more specifically Calum Hood.” Francesca said. 

“Oh come on, all I said was excuse me, it was not that exciting.” I replied while sitting down to put my shoes on. 

“Erm, you talked to The Calum Hood. This is the most interaction any of us have had with him. Plus nothing dramatic has really happened in ages at this school so I have to try and find something interesting, because the whole thing with Laura, Sam and Cameron is over. Apparently Sam is the dad not Cameron which shocked all of us, including Laura, so I have to find something exciting to talk about.” Holly said. 

“Really Sam is the dad? I never saw that coming.” I replied, shocked

“Neither did Laura.” Francesca said before standing up. “Come on, we better get to practice, we don’t want to piss off Jane by being late to her weird warmup.” 

“Oh great Jane, I don’t see why her insulting us before each practice is going to help me get better. It doesn’t make me want play the best game ever it just makes me want to sit in the shower and cry while drinking alcohol because someone has just told me all of the things I feel insecure about.” Violet said quietly while standing up. 

“She doesnt mean it she just wants to make us practise more because we have only ever won one soccer game and she thinks if we are mad and angry we will practise better.” Holly said while hugging Violet. 

“Come on let’s go.” I said while walking through the door as they followed. 

“GIRLS. I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DO NOT START PRACTISING HARDER I WILL MAKE SURE THAT EVERYONE ON THIS TEAM NEVER PLAYS SOCCER EVER AGAIN. IN FACT I WILL MAKE YOU ALL SCARED OF SOCCER AND EVERY TIME YOU SEE SOMETHING REMOTELY RELATED TO SOCCER YOU RUN AWAY SCREAMING AN CRYING. SO COME ON. FUCKING PRACTICE.” Jane barked at us. 

We all turned around and went off to practice with less motivation than we already had. Francesca was hugging Violet as they walked off. I went to practice in the corner of the field where there was a bit of wall I could kick the ball off as I couldn’t really be bothered to do any practice, especially after my I had been temporarily deafened by Jane. I was concentrating very hard on kicking the ball at a certain point on the wall when I heard a familiar voice on the other side of the wall.  

“Wait. You play soccer too?” I heard the voice say. I looked up to see Calum Hood looking over the wall I was attempting to try and knock down just by kicking it with a ball. 

“Erm yeah. I suppose.” I said awkwardly. 

“You suppose? Why are you standing on the football field with a football and the coach giving you a very angry stare for what I can only assume is not doing any actual practice?” 

“Yeah, I play soccer, so.” I replied still concentrating on the ball. 

“Cool, from what I saw before the coach was shouting you were really good.” 

“What? Erm thank you.” I smiled keeping my head facing the ground so that Calum didn’t see me blushing. 

“You’re welcome. Listen I have to go now, I was supposed to meet my friends 20 minutes ago, but I would love to talk more about soccer. Here have my number and text me later.” He smiled as he wrote his number on a piece of what I assumed was unfinished homework and handed it to me. “See you around Y/n.” 

“Yeah see you around. Wait you know my name?” I asked confused. 

“Of course I do. Why wouldn’t I do. How could I not know a pretty girls name, I am Calum Hood.” He smiled before walking away. 

“WHAT WAS THAT?” Holly screamed from the other side of the field. 

“WHAT WAS WHAT?” I shouted back as she walked towards me getting Violet and Francesca on the way. 

“You talking to The Calum Hood.” She said.

“Nothing we were just talking about soccer.” I said before Jane shouted at us to practice otherwise we are off the team. Something told me I should start listening to Jane from now on, as I now had a reason to stay on the soccer team, not just for my friends. 

Walgreens

I went to Walgreens tonight after going to the movies alone. It’s a sequence of events I’ve followed many times. Simply put (because I haven’t figured out the reason yet), solo moviegoing works me up, and minimal grocery shopping calms me down.

Walgreens is like the handjob to Walmart’s intercourse and Costco’s rough anal penetration. If you had a phobia of groceries you were working through, Walgreens would be a good place to start to ease you in. There aren’t that many cereals. The carts are very small. The frozen section is limited, but Digiorno is available.

Department stores are a brightly lit room full of things that are supposed to make your life better. Sometimes they do. Nothing makes me feel better than buying a new soap dispenser. Besides eating dessert. Maybe I could put pudding in the soap dispenser. I think the only reason we don’t get everything we need at once from the store is because we want to come back. Why don’t I just buy 20 giant packs of toilet paper and put them in my closet? Because I like pushing a shopping cart around and feeling like a human.

I still feel sort of nervous retrieving my shopping cart. It feels like a very serious move to make in life. It sends out the message to everyone around you that you have a home, and that home is in need of an amount of products that goes past the basket threshold. I’m always nervous that someone will point and me and say something like, “What’s that little baby doing with a cart? Is he stealing it? He can’t possibly have the funds to pay for all those sugar cookies.”

One of the two entrance doors to this Walgreens has a wooden board over it. I try to figure out why. Are they replacing the door? Sprucing it up? Did the Walgreens door budget increase and they are bedazzling it? But then why is the other door wood-free? Maybe that door’s bedazzling is finished, and this one is just taking longer. Why is this door resisting bedazzlement? Maybe it isn’t a door update at all, and this single door is actually undergoing repair after an incident. Maybe someone shot the Walgreens door. Did they do it from inside Walgreens or the outside? There is no metal detector at Walgreens. I know this because I haven’t heard any beeping, and I have keys in my pocket. If the shot was taken from the inside of the store, I can only imagine it was a result of the candy prices. They’ve gone up, to a fucked up extent. Maybe it was from a gang fight across the street. Someone betrayed someone else and got in a fight. They lost control of their gun and the nasty bullet went through the mystery Walgreens door. I wonder where it landed. Maybe on the pretzels. I need pretzels.

I do a few obsessive compulsive movements as I make my way in. My brain tells me to walk to the right of the skin lotion rack, but then plans are changed and I am notified that a left walk is the way to go. And just like like that, I prevent the death of a family member. I look to see if the cashier noticed what I just did. It’s undecided. Maybe I want her to, so someone will feel bad for me and the rest of my personality will be excused. In case we ever become friends.

I first go to my favorite aisle. I don’t know what you call it. It has cleaning products and things that makes your house smell better. There’s also usually light bulbs and extension cords, which I personally lack interest in but respect the necessity of. This feels like the most adult aisle to me. It used to be the “Family planning” aisle with the condoms in it, but condoms feel passe

to me these days. Condoms are for fucking teenagers. I’m 20 years old and I need some Lysol disinfecting wipes. Earth is wonderful.

What do you call those smeller things? They create good smells. Glade makes them. They are sort of shaped like a triangular soda can. You twist them open and reveal their wet, rubbery insides. It seems like a substance that would be fun to eat if it was edible. I buy four of those, all Vanilla themed because I’m sort of over having my apartment smell like lavender. I feel like if your home smells like baked goods, everyone who comes over will be happy and want to fuck or hug you. Earth is wonderful. I also contemplate buying one of those mops that squirts out spray, because they make me feel like a stepmom when I use them and that is what I want. Also, the only times I’ve ever used a mop has been a result of being told to by an authority figure. I feel like it would be nice to take back my mop power. But it’s 30 dollars and I’m just not ready.

I go to the soda aisle. I want my Diet Coke. I prefer diet because I fucking hate soda with sugar in it. It’s for people who have barbeques. It makes my teeth feel weird. It isn’t a health thing, obviously. I’ve heard the stuff in diet soda is worse for you than actual sugars. I’ve heard it kills you faster. But sugars make you fat. I guess I’d rather be dead than gain weight. I take a long time deciding whether or not to go with canned or bottled. I use the calculator on my phone in an effort to determine amount versus value, but then decide that it’s a few dollar difference. I have a few dollars, but this decision still feels drastic. I do prefer bottles, so I get the bottles. When you drink soda out of a can it gets warm faster. Warm soda is worse than anything on earth, besides soda with sugar in it. I can only imagine that warm sugar containing sugar would be my personal hell.

I approach the register. I feel intimidated by the cashier. She has a real job, and the only reason I’m here is because I had nothing to do today and needed a few reasons to put pants on. When she asks if I have a Walgreens Rewards card I say “Yes” with a pride I imagine she isn’t used to. When she tells me to “Have a nice day,” I wish her one back but wonder why she said it. It’s a little bit passed midnight. Was it a mistake, or did her day just start? Weird. That’s interesting. I think I could work at Walgreens.

A homeless man asks me for money and I tell him I don’t have any cash. This lets him know that I would give him cash if I had cash. I think that’s true. I don’t think it matters to him, though. He still doesn’t get any money, even with my implication of a hypothetical, cash-having interaction where he might.

I’m in Hollywood on Sunset Boulevard, so there are a few of those “Walk of Fame” stars outside of the store. People I’ve never heard of. Someone named Binnie Barnes. Who the fuck is Binnie Barnes? Maybe this is where they put the famous-but-not-like-super-famous people. In front of Walgreens. I wonder if Binnie Barnes was alive when their star was put here. I wonder if they stood in front of it and cried.

EXCLUSIVE: KEITH POWERS ON ‘FAMOUS IN LOVE,’ MANAGING THE SPOTLIGHT & WHAT’S NEXT

The 24-year old has been doing his thing in Hollywood for the past several years, but his major break came when he slid onto the scene in 2015’s mega hit, Straight Outta Compton. In the film, he starred as Dr. Dre’s late younger brother Tyree. Since then, Powers has gone on to star in several TV series including Faking It and Recovery Road.

However, it was his stellar performance as New Edition icon Ronnie DeVoe in BET’s The New Edition Story that catapulted him to new heights. With that role, the Sacramento native proved he can literally do anything.

Currently, the former football player is heating up our screens as Jordan Wilder on Freeform’s Famous In Love. From the mind of Pretty Little Liar‘s Rebecca Serle and showrunner I. Marlene King, Famous In Love follows an ordinary college student Paige Townsen (Bella Thorne) who gets her big break in Hollywood and is catapulted into the spotlight. On the series, Powers stars as the sexy, stoic movie star Jordan Wilder who is trying to manage his personal life along with fame.

Recently, JETmag.com caught up with Keith Powers to chat about Famous in Love, his career aspirations and the TV shows that he’s currently obsessed with.

JET: Hi Keith, thank you so much for chatting with me today.

Keith Powers: Thanks for having me.

JET: Of course. Let’s talk about Freeform’s Famous in Love, which is your newest series. I’m loving it so far. It’s very different especially coming off of The New Edition Story. What drew you to this specific project and this script?

Keith Powers: Honestly, what really drew me in is the fact that Marlene [King] was doing it, and I saw what she did with Pretty Little Lairs. When the showrunner is very confident, it makes you very confident in that project. Also, who doesn’t want to be a part of that teenage drama ensemble, like 90210, Gossip Girl, or The O.C.?

JET: Oh of course!

Keith Powers: I actually read the book once I booked the show. Rebecca Serle, the creator, did an amazing job with portraying and showing how it really is in the acting world, and I think that helps too, in how realistic it was.

JET: For sure. So has your experience in Hollywood been as messy and complicated as the ones of the characters in Famous in Love?

Keith Powers: It’s messy to a certain extent. The messiness is something that even you probably don’t even see all the time even when you’re in behind the scenes. But, Famous in Love it does not exaggerate it, that’s what I love.

JET: Wow.

Keith Powers: That’s how it really goes down in the industry. Shady stuff goes down, messy stuff goes down, and it’s dope because I feel like when Rebecca or Marlene write things in the script, it’s like, we get to learn from it being actors ourselves.

JET: Yeah, for sure. One thing I really love about Jordan is the fact that, though he’s in the spotlight, he really tries to take the time to protect himself. He’s also never truly, intentionally malicious. Do you relate to him at all? Do you try and protect your inner circle and protect yourself while still interacting with your fans?

Keith Powers: Well, now I’m starting to learn in real life that I’m the type of guy that loves to engage. My whole thing is to engage with all the fans and supporters. I want them to all feel close to me and relate to me and support me for a long time. That’s the person I am; I think humility and everything is so important. However, with the fame coming in now, I have to do it more strategically and calculated. I can’t just do it and then it’s a moment, it passed.

JET: Right.

Keith Powers: Everything I do is recorded, saved or shared. So it’s like dang if that’s the case if I know that every little thing is being recorded, shared or saved then I have to be mindful of exactly what I put out there. That’s how I deal with that. Dealing with the fans and dealing with my personal life and trying to still let my fans see that, but at the same time keep some things to myself.

JET: How did you prepare for your role as Jordan?

Keith Powers: Well one, you’ve gotta know your material, you gotta know your lines. It’s always good to take extra time and dissect your character. It’s important to create a backstory for them so that everything has more intention and everything is more truthful. So I think it’s always good to sit back and think about all the characters that are in the film or whatever. What do they mean to your character?

JET: So what is it about Jordan that you can learn from as Keith, and what are some of the things that he does that you would never do as Keith?

Keith Powers: One thing I can learn is that and I already know this, but he loves his craft so much. He puts it first. He’s serious about it, and that’s what I love. He reminds me that it’s all about the craft at the end of the day. However, he does get into things, and then he’ll say, “I’ll just deal with it later.” He handles it, but he just puts himself in more trouble, and I learned that I would never do that because when you put yourself into trouble like that, it affects your work. In the series, he’s supposed to be shooting this big film, but he’s going through all this stuff. You forget that he’s even doing the film because he has all of this stuff going on. So I learn from that.

JET: In recent years you’ve done, Straight Outta Compton, The New Edition Story, Before I Fall, and Recovery Road among others. As a black male actor, you’ve really chosen these really great diverse projects. Why is that important to you?

Keith Powers: I just feel like as an actor, you want to be able to relate to everybody. You want to touch all these different types of demographics. You want to be able to have other people of different races, different cultures relate to who you are. I think that’s important for me to pick these roles that are so different, especially different from who I am. Just so people can see that and be like, “Man, I can see his range.” That’s why New Edition was so important to me because you see me dance, you see me do different accents, you see me have all these different wigs on. I was totally a different person.

JET: I know that before getting into acting and even before you got into modeling you loved to play football, so what else do you do when you’re not on set?

Keith Powers: I’m gonna tell you, I’m not really a complicated guy. I just like to kick it, play video games, I hit the gym, I love going to the movies a lot.

JET: Is there one film that you’ve seen this year, or television series that you’re really obsessed with?

Keith Powers: One film that I really liked was La La Land. I liked Get Out too. I really love La La Land though, some people, a lot of people actually don’t get it, but I don’t know what people could not like about it, I really liked it. I’m also a big Game of Thrones fan and Insecure and Atlanta. Those are my shows.

JET: Oh perfect, yes, Game Of Thrones finally coming back! We’ve been waiting forever. Atlanta is not coming back until 2018, but at least we have Insecure to look forward to soon.

Keith Powers: Yeah, it’ll be dope.

JET: So have you met one celeb or a musician or anyone yet in Hollywood that has left you starstruck?

Keith Powers: Yeah, Dr. Dre.

JET: So dope. I know that you played his younger brother in Straight Outta Compton. Did you get a chance to speak with him a lot?

Keith Powers: It would just be stuff about his brother mainly, just to help with the character, ’cause I just knew that my main focus was to just to make him feel happy about it, before anybody else because that’s his brother.

JET: For sure, so what are your ultimate goals as an actor? Do you want to do a Marvel franchise? Are you looking to win an Oscar?

Keith Powers: I want to be able to inspire people with my roles, and also I want to start producing my own films. Of course, anybody wants an Oscar, Golden Globe, Emmy, stuff like that, but you know that’s something I feel like is out of my control. All I can do is be the best actor that I can be because all that stuff is politics. But if I ever to win an Oscar, or Golden Globe, Emmy, it’ll be the best feeling in the world. That would be dope.

JET: So what’s next for you?

Keith Powers: I’ve got #REALITYHIGH coming out on Netflix. It’s a comedy. Other than that, I’m just working on booking more movies. I might be booking something very soon; I don’t want to say it yet, But, if everything goes through, it’ll be huge.

JET: Fantastic, and congratulations and thank you so much for speaking with me, Keith, I really appreciate it.

Keith Powers: I really appreciate it too.

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