i know the quality is awful but i dont even care

So about my rare-pair....

For @thinkoutsidethelovesquare


Peering into the spot-streaked (ugh, school bathrooms were the worst) mirror, Chloe frowned as she took stock of her mid-day makeup. Don’t ask her how she’d managed to leave her touch-up bag at home; She couldn’t begin to tell you why she’d suddenly decided to leave her fifth most prized possession sitting on her vanity, but at this point she would have honestly rather given up a kidney instead. 

At least that way she would have looked glamorous as she died a slow, organ-failure-related death, instead of going out cakey in a dimly lit public restroom.

 Sighing, she ran one manicured fingernail along the edge of her lips, hoping to salvage what was left of her icy pink lip stain, however it wasn’t looking promising. The color bunched unevenly to the small grooves of her lips, concentrated around the perimeter and nonexistent in the middle. And her foundation? In this August heat? 

Oh that was a goner. 

A splotchy, splotchy goner. 

Chloe held in a groan, balling up a handful of paper towels before thrusting it beneath the faucet. Leaning towards the mirror once more, she dabbed furiously at the worst of the damage, and had just began contemplating whether the eye shadow was worth saving or not when-

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                     1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY. ya’ll know me, i hate making things serious and sappy but i really did want to get around to writing something more for my one year on this babe because she means so much to me ( and so much more now that i’ve been writing her for a year ). ontari is such a wonderful and complex character, and it’s a shame given the show she was given she was only in there for one season it’s always an honor for me that ya’ll are willing to accomidate me into your lives, rp timelines, and plots ! i’ve honestly adored spending this last year with yall. with so much that’s happened irl in this past year it’s been such a blessing to have a steady place where i felt comfortable and identified to be able to hang out and write creativly, plus the bonus of enjoying my bbies ( that’s you lot ).  and i know i’ve done some pretty shitty shit in this past year. and this is deffiently also a thank you letter to everyone that’s stuck by my side despite everything i’ve done not to deserve it. so this is my personal way of saying THANK YOU for being here, for wanting to write with ontari, for wanting to write with me, thank you for those 2AM movie nights, for the 4AM rush replies because a thread was just addicting, thank you for bringing a smile to my face for introducing me to friends new and old and freinds i wouldnt have been able to make if not for this blog. thank you so much. ya’ll don’t understand how much this means to me. and i dont think you will. so here’s a small little thank you notice for those of you that care:

if you were to LIKE & REBLOG this post ( * yes both ) you’ll be entered to win the following provided to you by YOURS TRUELY examples including ( all my rp blogs legit just look at any of the rp blogs ): a THEME BG + CODE * only if u want a custom code by me ofc it’s up to you, a PROMO SET, a DASH ICON, a MOBILE HEADER and !! an AZGEDA EDIT of your character because how tf would you not want more azgeda around !! 

now that we’ve gotten that out of the way and i’ve given ya’ll a small thanks, i want to give you an even bigger thanks ! and wanted to give a big shout out to my fave babes whom have stuck by my side through a whole lot of shit that is hella undeserved ! but yet you’re still here ! despite it all and i owe you all the world so thank you. so much. 

@murhys - MOON !! love of my life. cas to my dean. actual other half. salt king husband to our salt kingdom. moon you’ve been there for me since day 1 and are probably the only person on this website i’ve never had a disagreement with. you wormed ur skaidad into my baby icekids heart which i thought would be impossible and it’s magic how much i enjoy ur presence really. you’re deff like my other half babe. ultimate husband. ily

@azgona / @braverstars - HANNAH !! b to my v. actual partner in crime when it comes to like anything ! legit we write anything and theres so much perfect chemsitry between the characters that i think we were meant to b babe. like legit anything we do its magic and you really need to have more faith in this community because we need u man. we need you. 

@kiingbuilt - LENEE ( STARS ) !! actual babe. positivity queen lenee. honestly ur so sweet and so perf and idk what you want me to say bc ur awesome in every way ? you put up with me who’s like the dark hole to ur sunshine but like i’m always so greatful i don’t think there could be a better person i’d want to play tari against than you, roan and her have such depth and it’s so wonderful to be able to talk at lengeth about our ice siblings and what could have been like ! ily so much thanks for legt taking care of us all better than what we deserve

@leyosgona / @saviorbuilt - SOCHIE !! my babe sochie waht to i say about you. well lets start with the fact i don’t think i’ve ever become trash for a ship quite as quickly as i became trash for catari like wtf man. i’m going to second that with sayig ur clarke is presh and i love her to death ? and top it all off with the fact hat you legit always put up with me spamming u wit random af things without ur permission and are a okay with it all the time which makes u way too cool. 

@humansympathies - CHARLES !! legit one of these days im sealing u away form ur wife just u wait ( * hamilton an american musical plays in the bg  )  honestly i still need to thank you for making me so goddamned comfortable with being okay to write something i had been so nervous to write before because of the context of th show. you are the reason i was able to come out of my bubble and im so fucking thankful for that sitll am going to add #actualjohnmurphy bc nothing u do can change that

@ginatcnic - LAUREN !! gg lauren ur always around to help me when i need it and i really think i dont deserve you as a friend you’re amazing and always there for me and put up with me ranting @ you about the randomest bullshit and being vauge af about it and whatnot. ilysm babe dont forget ever that you are one of the most important parts of this fandom and we’d be lost without you. 

@foxofthe100 / allofthe100 - BRITT !! things i never expected i would do: ship with britt. things i’m super thankful happened: shipping with britt. not that we needed it to be friends bc w were friends beforei. but i deff think that foxtari has brought us closer and i’m so glad that it did !! you’re such a fun and acomplished person, and your view on things are always so well balanced and lovely to hear ! being who i am i love understanding things and you always put things in prespective. just in time to drop an angst ball on me but yknow. 

@si02built / @rainkiing - CHUCK !! yo you. yes you. i love ya man. like i do love you so much i don’t think you understand how much you’re amazing. you’ve been there for me since day 1 and i know that it dosn’t matter if i havent spoken to you in a day or in a month we’ll jump back into things just as they’ve always been meant to be and i think there’s a sort of treasure in that tat can’t be sahken. i love you man. kisses. take care

@damnleader - NIKKI !! i dont know where to start with you man. i started off as ur biggest fan and now look at us. we’re trash and i love it and you legit need to get ur ass back onto this account so i can yell at you about how presh u are and how much i miss talking to you and ranting and bless. 

@youngcst​ - MOO !! moo. legit i never knew whether to call you that or lois but you know what it don’t matter much now does it. waht i will say however is how thankful i am that we were bros for such a long time, and how much it means to me what nova and tari built toether and their relationship like i sob over our babies so often you don’t even know ! please always keep bringing us babe characters. 

bonus shoutout - @ CONSQUAD because yall put up with my ass for 4 days and if anyone can do that i think they deserve like a gold medal or smth like pls yall are honestly some of the best people keep being you !! @banishhim ( black hole ) / @algaenotwar ( milky way ) / @stellarstolen

bonus bonus shoutout - @ icesquad because AZKRU BEST KRU - some of ya’ll are inactive and need to get ur asses back here just sayin’ @icymenace / @azhaihefa / @aznofi / @azkeyva / @azgedaechoes / @azgada / @aznontu / @komashdaun /  @azenblida / @dubiousloyalty / @challengedloyalty / @shudameika / @aiopgona / @zosimekomazgeda / @wintamnontu / @deathwants / @icebuilt / @icebitxh / @leyosgona / @kiingbuilt / @haihefaroun / @firraun / @rcyalscars / @acrownofice / @youngcst 

i also wanted to make a sort of like FOLLOW FOREVER ? like ? idk how you make a solid one of these but just like all the blogs ? i’m in awe of whenever they come on the dash seemed like a good idea ? like these are all so quality all the time eve if some are inactive i refuse to unfollow just because of the chance they’ll come back, they should be a shoutout bc they are my inspiration to write they make me a better writer every day ! and love the hell out of them: @wolfsouled / @rattledbybullets /  @ragnarsscn / @princeubbe / @belomi / @soldiiermade / @imqetuous / @everyturnanycost / @noximperator / @lionoffrance / @praycd / @redempticnarc / @bloodshedbound / @allvanquisher / @murdocksredemption / @damnmechanic / @leaderbuilt / @casuistic / @headstrongblake / @crimiinalchemiist / @noukru / @starxbcrn / @arroworn / @survivorbuiilt

anonymous asked:

hey there. i wanna buy something from FE clothing on storeenvy, and i checked your FAQ and you've said it's legit but i'm still a little nervous. i dont really ever use storeenvy, and all these clothes seem too....good? to be true. is this a case of you get what you pay for where its awful quality and 8 weeks shipping or something? id appreciate the information. thanks in advance!

Hi there!

What item were you looking at purchasing? I’ve personally only bought from FE Clothing once it was one of their most popular items, so I though I’d give it a try to test their quality. You can see the review of it here, I’ve been meaning to do an updated review but every time I have some $ spare something pops up (vet bills, etc) but my aim is to have one done within the next few months or so.

Anyway, I’ve written a How to Spot a Scam Store on Storenvy post before which details some things to look out for when shopping online. This isn’t exclusive to Storenvy however I know a lot of scammers do decide to use Storenvy as their main platform. 

FE Clothing, there aren’t a lot of reviews on this particular company. You have to be careful when looking up reviews thought because people also use the term FE clothing when speaking about Foreign Exchange Clothing - which isn’t related to this store at all. I don’t know if FE Clothing is a drop ship company, but you could e-mail them asking to send more photos, details or measurements of items you’re interested in. If they can’t give you this information for whatever reason, I’d skip them and move on. I have spoken to the owner/operator of FE Clothing before and they take a few days to reply and can have broken English at times, but this shouldn’t be a huge red flag straight up.

Shipping: it will take several weeks. Half the reason the products are so cheap is because the sellers use the slowest shipping method possible (often by ship) so that they can offer free shipping to their customers. Which in turn, allows them to lower the product price since they don’t have to account for expensive world wipe shipping. Often you won’t get a tracking number, or they might give you a one but it’s just their receipt number and won’t work in any tracking agencies you find. I really don’t think there’s an issue with this, being from Australia most of my packages take weeks to get to me no matter what. I understand in America you can get next day delivery, but never even expect same week delivery when ordering from these types of places - it’ll never happen. Doesn’t mean it’s dodgy, it’s just what you paid for. Don’t bother buying express shipping unless you’ve made contact with the owner first and understand what express truly means. There’s A LOT of things that get lost in translation, so do keep an eye out for that.

Quality: You get what you pay for yes, but it’s also sort of a gamble. One reason I don’t like online shopping (anywhere) is because you can’t feel for the quality of the material. I’ve often seen such cute pieces in store, then felt the material and have been so let down. This happens online too. Thin material with loose threads doesn’t mean it’s poor quality, it just means it was a little cheaper but will still hold up. Let’s be honest, your local mall probably gets the same clothes from the same factory but ups the price since they have to cut all the loose threads off themselves, then pay somebody to fold them up or put them on display. I’ve bought really cheap pieces off Storenvy before, like this gingham dress - I think it was $25 in total but I worn the heck out of it before finally retiring it. I’d say any place is hit and miss, their stock is from all different factories and warehouses so the quality and standard of each piece may vary but that’s just like any physical store you walk into. The only pieces I would avoid purchasing are ones that are clearly rip offs of popular brands or designs like RipNDip or Tommy Hilfiger.

In short:

  • Check for social media posts, reviews, photos, etc.
  • Pay with PayPal 
  • If you are really having concerns, email the store and ask if they can send you any more pictures or measurements of the items. 
  • Try to keep your first order under $50
  • Take photos of everything once they arrive (when they are still in their package as well) - if you want a refund this is the only way you’ll get one. 
  • Give them a review! It’ll help future buyers in the same situation you are in now :-) 
  • If you still feel uncertain about them, don’t buy. 

I know this is super long, but there’s so much to cover when shopping online from stores like FE Clothing. I hope this helps!

alright heres the damn fanfic dot net spring awakening rec list so u dont know the hell ive witnessed

ok its organized by category (usually the pairing discussed most, i’ll still list all the pairings anyway) & listed by rating (least to greatest), also graded on quality from my pov out of 10 and i bolded some of my faves

i wrote some crappy summaries?? theyre ok

marked w/ warnings like this: //warning, other warnings 

brace urself its long itll probably crash the app

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finished season 1 of gravity falls!

so what are my current thoughts on it?

gravity falls is an entertaining, really funny show. i find that there are many parts where i am laughing my ass off. it’s also visually great, one of the most well-animated cartoons i’ve ever seen especially compared to what CN produces.

my favourite characters are mabel and stan. i find mabel the most entertaining, and stan the most interesting. the other characters are great too but im not as fond, especially cos dipper’s conflicts are so… awkward…. i guess that’s the point, but its just not for me. that was what made the worst arc of adventure time after all :P im thinking dipper might be better in season 2.

speaking of adventure time, i couldnt help but make a lot of comparisons. i expected the show to remind me more of steven universe with its conspiracies and lore, but its wackyzany qualities are far, far more ATish than SUish. from the supernatural species roaming around the world to the brother-sister bond between mabel and dipper. 

i think adventure time pulls off presenting its world far, far better than Gravity Falls. i’m not just saying this because AT has been running for 8 years; even back in season 1 it was showing a type of realist humor that made Ooo feel way more interesting and… real than whatever the world of Gravity Falls is. in the land of ooo, candy people can behave like normal people. in fictional oregon, normal humans always behave like candy people at their worst. and it doesnt pull off the absurdist humor as effectively, so i tend to dislike any scenes that involve the citizens of gravity falls. they kinda break my immersion and entertainment. its like the show wants the main cast to be real, but the world to be exclusively cartoonish, which doesn’t do great when the entire thing in gravity falls is discovering the mysteries of… well… gravity falls. if your setting is shit, your show is going to suffer.

but when it comes to the dialogue and the jokes and even the more tense moments, i think Gravity Falls… quite ironically… might be the funniest of the batch. Like, my favouite moments of the show are absolutely when they throw jokes at you out of nowhere and you just keyboard mash into the stream chat. 

so, i found myself enjoying the random stuff more than any of the recurring plot or mysteries. i saw my friends reacting to stuff like reveals, and realised that they had years of history of overanalysing it, just like i did with adventure time. but i was in no way at all intrigued by these mysteries. who made the journal? i don’t care! i know already, but i dont think id have cared anyway.  

at the same time…. with a finale ending like that? it’s no surprise that season 1 left an impression. once again, grunkle stan is by far the most interesting character on the show. i think he might be the only interesting one? i dont care about old man mcguckets mysteries, maybe cos he is literally ice king but worse, and the other characters dont have any mysteries apart from Wendy who reminds me of marceline quite a bit in the way she hides her thoughts  and acts casual :P wendy is also bit of a dick, but also suffers from awful boyfriend problems

anonymous asked:

"im a really famous person and you dont recognize who i am and im vaguely pissed off with you" AU if you have the time i hope you can fill in this i trust your magic fingers to work wonders and serve this prompt justice c:

i will do my best, anon!!!! /salutes

warning: this somehow also turned out to be some sort of coffee shop au…why

sugakookie; 3.3k
yoongi doesn’t want to brag, but he’s kind of famous.

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Home - pt 4

genre; supernatural au where dan is a vampire and phil is a neko

rp’d with; phantasticphanshipper

previous chapters; 1 , 2 , 3

a/n; holy fucking shit i accidentally posted this on my main for a split second JESUS CHRIS T okay well have this i dont even care it probabl y has errors oh ym go

Phil had been thinking about what he was going to do the whole ride back to Dan’s house. He was thinking about if he should tell Dan about his plans of not staying long, but why would Dan care? At first, from Phil’s perspective, Dan didn’t really like him. Phil got why; he would feel the same if his father brought someone random into their house. Someone of a different race included. But by then Phil was not so sure, earlier that day Dan seemed nice and he tried the things Phil asked. Phil decided he was going to tell him, just explain that he felt weird staying there and that he shouldn’t be there. It was around nighttime when Phil decided this, he was back in the spare room he slept in the day before. He put on a pair of pyjamas he had just picked out earlier that day. He also knew Dan wouldn’t have a reason to come into the room to talk with him, so Phil would have to go to Dan’s. He wasn’t sure if he was going to remember where Dan’s room was, but as he was walking though the hall it was familiar and he found it quickly. When Phil finally gained the courage to knock he did it lightly, hoping Dan didn’t hear and he would just to back to his room.

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anonymous asked:

i need some truth knocked into me, if i have a boyfriend and i get too jealous of every little thing he does even if he looks at a girl or focuses his attention on porn or something i dont want him doing even though weve been together for 4 years now does that make me a bitch? i get jealous to the point where i feel like crying even if he sees a pretty girl on the street and it makes me feel evil and trapping

Learn to feel good about yourself. Most feelings of jealousy come from feeling insecure and thinking that someone else can make your partner happier or bring more to the table. Remember that your partner chose you, not anyone else. Stop obsessing over your weight, height, or looks; your constant negativity is draining… for you and your partner both. Worse yet, an overactive attitude of insecurity can drive people away, turning into a self-fulfilling prophecy that drives you deeper into the hole of fear and self-neglect. Accept yourself as you are. Your partner is with you for a reason and obviously finds you attractive, but even if he weren’t and didn’t, you should never let anyone else’s opinion define or validate yours.

Deal with past hurts. Most people have them – and many let them spill over into new relationships by either re-enacting the same unhealthy dynamic over and over again or by looking at their wonderful new partners with a skeptical eye. If necessary, learn how to cope with emotional pain so that you can feel better about yourself and be able to see your current relationship for what it really is.

Learn what it means to have a healthy relationship. Whether you’re new to the game or have been at it for years, it’s not always easy to know what a relationship is supposed to be and feel like. Many people don’t grow up with good examples of healthy relationships among their friends, family, or even parents. What’s worse, having one awful relationship can completely throw off your sense of balance and self-trust, making you second-guess your every move for years to follow. 

Reassess your current relationship. Once you’ve done some soul-searching and have a clearer perspective on things, it’s time to look at your relationship with a fresh eye. Do your jealousy, doubt, and fear stem from your own issues with self-worth… or is that something you’ve been telling yourself to justify your partner’s unsatisfactory behavior? Even if you haven’t been as stable a girlfriend as you should be, that doesn’t mean you should overlook or write off your partner’s transgressions to over-correct for your own feelings of guilt; it’s always possible that your out-of-control feelings were the result of trying to suppress your own gut instincts – or, at the very least, that you both have played a hand in making the relationship what it is today. 

Give your partner space. If you’ve been dogging his footsteps, confronting him with accusations, stalking his social media profiles, or exhibiting any other desperate behavior, your first order of business is to back off. Take a few deep breaths, detach, and play it cool for a while. Find opportunities to be with friends, go to an event you’ve been interested in, and turn him down for at least one get-together. Be very careful not to act vindictive about this; the point isn’t to punish him, give him the cold shoulder, or manipulate him into begging for forgiveness, but to give the both of you a break so you can blow off a little steam, get some perspective, and hopefully save the relationship.

Breathe new life into the relationship. Before you can do any in-depth work on yourself or as a couple, you need to do damage control on your strained relationship. Start by striking a healthy balance between giving your partner space and increasing the quality of your time together. Pursue your own interests in a meaningful, enriching way: after all, part of what attracts people to one another is mystery, and if you spend all your time checking in on your partner with calls, texts, emails, and Facebook posts, there can hardly be any intrigue left in what you do. Split your time more evenly between your partner and your friends and allow your partner to do the same. Rediscover your interest in a former passion or, if necessary, find a new hobby that will make your non-romantic time more meaningful. Then, when you both have remembered what it’s like to miss one another, improve your time together by going on a vacation or staycation, trying something new like taking a partner dance class, or lightening the mood by being playful and maintaining the romance.

Build your communication. This is something the two of you need to work on together; many relationship woes could be cured, if not avoided altogether, if couples simply learned how to truly and effectively communicate with one another. A big part of communicating effectively is knowing how to broach an unpleasant topic without putting your partner on the defensive (or, worse yet, the offensive). Start by curbing your accusations: learn to state what you feel (ex. “I feel afraid when you stay out late and don’t tell me where you are or how long you’ll be there”) instead of what you fear (“I’m worried you’re cheating on me”), which can be come off like a slap in the face. Be honest about your thoughts and concerns while you’re having them instead of stockpiling them for later and letting them explode one day out of the blue. 

Learn to trust. Trust issues can make you go crazy. Ask yourself who it is you really mistrust: your partner, your partner’s friends… or yourself? Coming to the realization that you still don’t trust yourself in love or that you’re simply threatened by other girls is a good thing; both stem from the same issue, can be worked on, and are totally within your control. Learn how to trust your boyfriend again for his and your sake both.

  • He didn’t text you back? Big deal. Obsessing over things like this will only come across as annoying; if you are laid back and don’t expect instantaneous replies to everything, etc, he will not get irritated. Don’t call him to see if he’s still there - take a deep breath and let it go. He will reply when he can.
  • Don’t ask him to stop going certain places. Part of jealousy is the desire to control others, and by giving him freedom, you show that you trust him and make him more likely to respect you.
  • Don’t write a blank check of trust. If you are genuinely concerned about something, do not be afraid to (gently) broach the topic. Mention that it makes you feel uncomfortable when he talks to certain girls, or tell him honestly about a behavior he has that bothers you. Don’t overreact or make accusations. Simply state how you feel and, if he respects that, he will try to work it out.
  • If your boyfriend simply isn’t trustworthy, it’s his turn to roll up his sleeves and match some of the hard work you’ve been putting into the relationship. If he can’t or won’t do it, dump him and start looking for someone who will.

Tips

  • When you’re not together and it’s you who’s out, don’t be afraid to let him know you miss him. He might also get used to texting you at those times, and message you when he’s out.
  • Convince yourself by telling yourself that you aren’t jealous. Say it enough times to yourself and it may be a self-fulfilling reality.
  • Don’t automatically hate his female friends. Most likely, they’re perfectly nice and even potential friends for you too.

Warnings

  • Anger is the worst reaction to have in this situation. Don’t insult the other girl or him. Keep your cool.
  • Do not try to play the jealousy game to get back at him. He probably has no idea he is making you feel this way, so it is futile and probably harmful to try and make him jealous.
  • Do not spy on him to make sure he’s not cheating on you, etc. If he were to catch you, it would only exacerbate the problem or create new ones.
hotness is a science; f1 edition

now for the completely useless shit-stirrer i’ve wanted to do for a long time: analysis why the drivers are attractive, if they’re pretty, and how are they pretty

going in number order and starting with everyone’s favourite teeth exhibition daniel ricciardo

Originally posted by myfourcade

is he pretty: HE IS NOW. the boy was a disaster when he was younger but now he’s a fucking fertility god. honey badger more like HONEY GALAXY EYES like dangggg what colour are they. can i look into them forever. also that nose, it’s weird and ridiculous but so cute and def the biggest fertility god trait (that we know of WHAT WHAT). also that mouth. everyone loves that mouth. you know those fountains that have statues that pee? how the statues are hot dudes on steroids? daniel ricciardo is a live version of that.

what shade of attractive: beautiful fertility god.

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anonymous asked:

*whispers* NIno~

I’m going to give a guide on my early chapters of WTaS Nino where I hadn’t developed him personally yet and was just going off of what I got from the show. 

Nino is a bro, he’s a dude bro, the dudest of dude bros. He’s a very good friend, supportive, encouraging and good for distraction. He will often try and help by distracting or getting a laugh, but is totally willing to listen even if he isnt always sure what to say. he hates not always having the right words, but expressing himself with words doesnt come naturally to him. His advice is usually pretty blunt and straight forward, and ultimately correct but others often dont see that till way down the line because he couldnt really explain it well. He’s smart but school isn’t his strong suit, but it isnt a major weakness either, its mostly a nuisance. He tends to think “When are we ever going to use this?” in class, but can also get pretty invested when something catches his interest. He never takes things as far as Alya might, he doesnt have obsessive tendencies like that and is often interested in many things at once while having a few favorites. When something interests him he excels without having to try too much, but when something doesnt he struggles to keep average grades even if it isnt totally hard just because it bores him and he gets distracted. It takes a good bit to piss him off, but if you manage it he holds onto it for awhile. He doesnt let things go very quickly, not quite a grudge but he will stew on it for awhile. He’s the sort that would get crabby if one awful thing happened in the morning, and stay crabby for awhile instead of only feeling frustrated when thinking about the awful thing. He tends to be whiny when tired, and is very excitable. When he gets pumped he is PUMPED, and will have a lot of energy on short notice if he gets excited, which doesnt take a lot to achieve. He thinks superheros are rad and likes action games and movies, liking to think about crazy adventure but not really imagining himself in those situations, just cool action characters. He tends to keep out of conflict and keep his head down, but will express his distaste for something when addressed directly and will always back up his bros even if he doesnt want to be in conflict otherwise. You screw with his friends and you are on his bad list, and it doesnt matter if you bring him a cake the next day or new headphones, you still have a bad mark. You cant be cool to him and crappy to his friends, it doesnt show a redeeming quality for him to defend to his friends, but rather a negative quality he will use to write them off. When he gets an opinion on somebody something pretty big has got to come up for him to consider altering it, and will be skeptical of someone with a bad mark instead of immediately giving them the benefit of the doubt. His homies always have his support, and while he has plenty of friends he has his ‘group’ which is usually very few people, in this case his three buddies. Even if something scares the crap out of him (he isnt the run into a fight type) he will if it means being there for his buds. 

He is the type of friend who will probably be at home and think “adrien had a really crap day today man… i wonder if he’s cool. Maybe he’s better now? I’ll check” and text him. It might not be point blank like ‘how are you’ but that will be the purpose of the contact. He isnt great about expressing himself, but the people he cares about know it based on his actions and his enthusiasm. If he is sad, everybody notices because if Nino is being too quiet something is probably up. 

teaandsunflower  asked:

i love your writing! here have a prompt! sterek, one of them has been pining forYEARS but the other is in a relationship with someone TOTALY DIFFERENT from them, so obv even if the other will break up it wont be relevant. and then the other one breaks up and then hits on the first one whos all like Me??? But u like em blond/female/quiet/fragile etc. and the other's likeDID U NOT NOTICE HOW THAT ONE DIDNT WORK I WANT U. then, fluff. thanks anyway even if u dont write it!*brings u sunshine&smiles*

Aw thanks man! Sorry if this isn’t what you expected, but this just kinda happened? Also I’m sooooo sorry this took so long, I started off writing this completely differently, but that didn’t follow the prompt so I had to start again… Anyways, I hope you like it ^^

The door creaks when Stiles opens it, just like it always has. He’s been telling Derek they should get it fixed some time, but Derek never does anything about it and neither does Stiles. It’s not urgent or anything, but it’s another thing to add to the list of minor annoyances.

He toes off his shoes as he steps inside, hanging up his coat as he cracks his neck. He loves his job - don’t get him wrong - but spending seventy percent of his time staring at a computer screen does nothing to alleviate minor aches, or the fact that he should probably buy glasses some time soon.

“Honey, I’m home!” he calls out when he opens the door to their living room. They’ve been living together for - what - three years now? Since Stiles decided to get his Master’s anyways. They’ve certainly had enough time to build their own little quirks and rituals, and Stiles has had more than enough time to pretend the thought of Derek doesn’t send his mind reeling, doesn’t set his heart alight.

“Hey, I’m in here!” Derek calls - predictably - from the kitchen. Stiles can’t even remember the last time Derek didn’t cook a meal for both of them.

“What’s cooking, good-looking?”

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Artist!calum

anonymous asked: Can you write a blurb with calum about art? Maybe him taking art classes?


“Art is a feeling, the quality of a painting isnt what to look for. It’s a way to express how you feel. A sketch of a flower can be calming but for some it brings out anger, or even sadness.” the professor explains, Calum sits in his desk writing everything he said, as he always does. 

“Make something that appeals to both love and sadness, maybe even anger. I’m not looking for quality, but how you explain your piece.” 

love and sadness?

Calum pondered for a couple minutes thinking of things that made him feel that way. He’s felt sadness plenty of times but love was something he never experienced, especially at the same time.


Calum tapped his pencil on the blank sheet, 45 minutes passed and still nothing came to mind. Everyone sketched different moods, some were self portraits while others were nature. 

“Having trouble.” a girl whispers next to him. 

He sighs putting down his pencil, “Yeah.” 

“I cant think of anything either, I’ve just been doodling the whole time.” Calum glanced at her sketch book with a drawing of a beach. 

“You’re great artist..” he blushes not knowing her name. 

“Y/n, and thank you.” she smiles, “Maybe something will come to you soon, isnt due til next week.” 

“Yeah, hopefully. I’m Calum by the way.” he introduced. 

“I know, I’ve seen your work hanged in the halls, you’re a natural.” 

Lots of people complement his work, but hearing it from her meant something special. “Thank you.” 


Crumbled paper scattered around Calum’s bedroom, he drew everything that could appeal to him as both love and sadness but it all meant nothing. 

Realizing he was late for class, he gathered the supplies he needed rushing out his dorm. Calum walked along campus admiring the dying leaves that lay on the ground and some still hanging off branches, it was quickly becoming dark with daylight savings making nights longer. Wind blew in his face sending chills to his spine, forgetting to grab a jacket in 40 degree weather. 

A girl was on a bench, hair covering the side of her face with notebook and pencil in her hand scribbling things. She looked familiar the more Calum walked closer by her. “Y/n?” 

“Oh, hey.” she smiles faintly, there was a slight shiver in her voice knowing that she was cold, only wearing a thin sweater with a scarf wrapped around her neck. 

“What are you doing.” 

“Drawing the campus for that project due in two days, its the only thing I can come up with.” she explains. 

Calum holding his book close to his side, shivering a bit. “So-you’re skipping?” 

Y/n giggles continuing to fill in details for the trees, “I guess you can say that.” 

Calum lets out a faint ‘oh’ taking a seat next to her on the bench. “Then I guess I will too.” 


They sat together in a comfortable silence, Calum watched y/n draw every detail from her point of view onto this paper, outlining each individual leaf as if they were different and etching out the buildings as life like as she could. Calum saw the inspiration in her eyes, noticing how she could layout almost every detail without thinking twice. “You’re great at this.” 

“You told me.” she laughs, Calum blushes embarrassingly. Y/n places her  pencil down looking at Calum. “'Arent you cold?” 

Siting next to y/n, he didnt feel cold, almost as if she was a fireplace. “No.” 

“Have you thought of anything yet, you know, to draw.” 

In sudden realization Calum became inspired to paint something, her. “Actually-yeah.” he became nervous in wanting to tell her. 

“I want to draw you.” 

Y/n was baffled, not really sure how to take it. “Me-? I appeal to love and sadness to you?” 

“Uh-yeah.” feeling his cheeks burn up, feeling beyond embarrassed.

“I’m honored.’ she smiles.


Calum invited her back to his dorm where he could work on the painting. There was an awkward silence between them, not sure what y/n had to do. She watched Calum bring out his giant canvas and some paint colors. He dressed in an old olive green tee and gym shorts knowing it was going to get messy. 

“So-do I pose or something?” y/n asks, taking a seat on his couch. The canvas was faced away from her with Calum in front of it. 

He chuckles dipping the thin paint brush in dark green paint. “No,  it’s your presence that inspires me. You give off this-” Calum pauses as he begins laying out the design. “I cant explain it. You’ll just have to see when I finish.” 

Y/n blushes in excitement wondering what his art will turn out to be. “I want to get to know you y/n. And you can help yourself to whatever’s in the kitchen.” 


The more y/n talked about herself, the more Calum can envision about her.  They shared laughs and Calum told her about himself to. He could feel himself blooming into what people call love, something in his heart said it was. 

Almost an hour and a half later, Calum was finished, but there was something missing. He stood for a couple seconds thinking of what could be added. 

“Can I see?” y/n curiously asks walking up to the piece. 

“It’s missing something-” he pauses. Y/n gasps at the artwork, it was something surreal. 

She agreed with Calum, “It needs something-big. Like fireworks.” 

“Fireworks?” he glanced at her, “I dont feel-” 

Y/n leaned herself against Calum not caring if she got paint on her nice sweater. She went on her toes slowly kissing him. At first Calum stood in shock but he kissed her back soft and with passion feeling her warmth on his cold body. Calum felt fireworks exploding everywhere and the aurora she gave off-he wanted it to stay like this forever. 

“Feel it now?” she giggles letting the kiss go.

“Oh yeah.”


Calum stood nervously in class having to explain to art piece to the class. He places the canvas on the stand revealing his work. Everyone’s eyes widen in ‘awe’  with whispers going around. 

Two flowers, a pink carnation intertwined with a budding flower hanging low in despair. There was a background color of pink, blue, and black with of course fireworks. 

“For the first time, I think I’ve experienced love. That budding flower attached to someone who gives nothing but love and kindness to the world and acceptance to everyone. But that budding flower who only sees sadness and despair in the world fallen for someone who gives them a sense of hope. And for the first time, I know what fireworks feels like, an explosion in your body when something magical happens.” 

Calum glances at y/n who was almost in tears then at his professor who was speechless, then everyone started clapping. “That was beautiful Calum.” his teacher complimented. “And may I ask who is that special someone?” 

Calum’s cheeks turns a deep red looking at her, smiling. “Y/n y/l/n.” 

MUSIC BANK IN MEXICO BRuUuuUuUUHHhhH (long ass post)

FUUUUUCK FUCK FUUUUUUUCK FUCKK OK CHILL im chill


Ill start from the beginning. I got sooo fucking lucky u have no idea when i got there I was like in 3rd or 4th row and then idk how but i ended up in front row in like the floor zone and I COULD SEE EVERYTHING.  My friend and I 

(follow her ayee)

 made some friends but mostly her I was too busy trying to get to the front and i did eventually lmao. I have bruises bc I was between the crowd and the metal bar thingy but I don’t even care, the crowd was actually pretty decent compared to Teen Top’s. I HAD SO MANY MAGICAL MOMENTS BUT IM DUMB AND I CANT MAKE GIFS SO ILL SOME ADD SCREENSHOTS KEEP IN MIND THAT MOST OF THEM ARENT EVEN ZOOMED IN 

OK ILL START the concert began with a cool ass introduction of bts, ailee, bap, girls day, exo, infinite and beast DAMN and then they started singing La Bamba CUTE AS FUCK IF YOU ASK ME. Sunggyu, Chanyeol and Doojoon started doing their hosting n stuff awww babies they also spoke spanish awawaww.  

aND THEEEEENNNNN IT WAS TIME FOR ASDFGHJKL BTS ISDHFOIADSHFIDOAS  I SWEAR IT WAS THE HAPPIEST MOMENT OF MY FUCKING LIFE ADFIDOIUFHDWH I STILL CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY SAW THEM, LIKE THE BOYS THAT I LOVE SOSOSOOOO MUCH AND I THINK ABOUT 24/7 WERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES. THEY ARE SO TALENTED THEIR DANCING IS ON POINT AND THOSE VOCALS MAN WHAT THE FUCK KOOKIE SENT ME TO HEAVEN TBH AND LETS JUST SAY THAT I ALMOST HAD A SEIZURE WITH THEM RAPING SKILLS LIKE SHIT SON GET IT. THEY DID WE ARE BULLETPROOF, DANGER, BOY IN LUV, THEN THEY TALKED FOR A BIT AND FINALLY :(((((( THEY SANG ATTACK ON BANGTAN. I REALLY WANTED TO SEE HORMONE WAR LIVE BUT ITS OK ALSO LOOK MY BABIES LOOKED SO FUCKING HOT 

JHOPE STARING STRAIGHT INTO MY SOUL PLANTING UNHOLY THOUGHTS THEEENNNNNN MY BABY JIMIN, MY SUNSHINE JIMIN SAT AT THE EDGE OF THE STAGE AND I S2G TEARS WERE FORMING IN MY EYES I MEAN THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WAS SO CLOSE TO ME OMG



PPPPAAAAAARRRRRRKKKKKK JJJJJJJJIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMIIIIIIIIIINNNNN


IIIIIIIMMM IIIIIIIINNNN LLLLOOOOVVEEE WWWIIIIIITTTTHHHH YYOOOUU Ok next is Girl’s Day DAMN those girls can put on a show. They sang Expectation, Darling and Something (HOT AS FUCK IM SURPRISED I DIDNT FAINT LMAO). I dont know why they only did those songs i mean later they did “Suerte” by Paty Cantú BTW WHAT THE HELL THEIR ACCENTS ARE SO GOOD but I honestly wanted to see more still those girls are SO BEAUTIFUL LIKE HOLY SHIT I HAD MENTAL BREAKDOWN and they have the sweetest voices. 

Concert Tip:

 don’t try to do girl group choreographies, your butt will land in strangers’ hands and ppl around you will be very mad. 

YURA PLS TAKE ME I WILL BE A BETTER HUSBAND THAN JONGHYUN

Then it was Ailee’s stage. HOOOOOOOOOOOOOLYYYY SHIIIITTTTTT THIS WOMAN. THIS WOMAN. She’s truly a godess. I had no idea she had that voice, like I knew she had an amazing voice but SHE KILLED ME AND BROUGHT ME BACK 2 LIFE WITH THEM VOCAL CORDS. She sang Don’t Touch Me DAMN GURL, U&I DAAAAMN GUUUURL, and DAAAAAAAAAAAAAM GUUUUUUUUUURL. THAT BALLAD DOE no joke i had tears in my eyes. She is soooooo pretty and cute. She said she was surprised that we sang along and she genuinely looked happy aw bABYYY.

lmao the quality here sucks but u get my point of her holy being 

Then Yoseob, Sunggyu and Youngjae came out and sang “Corre” by Jesse & Joy AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL MAN im still not over their spanish its so good THE FUCK then like I said before Girl’s Day came out again and sang “Suerte” CUTE AS HELL. Then a dance group did a cover of No More Dream and BTS came out again and danced together it was so cool honestly but Jimin didnt lift his shirt what the hell man pls think about me the fans. 

These guys seemed familiar and the I REALIZED THEY ARE MY FRIEND’S FRIENDS AND ONE OF THEM IS HER COUSIN WHAT THE FUCK WE COULDVE HAD BACKSTAGE OR SOMETHING BUT THE DUDE CALLED KEN DIDNT TOLD HER FUCKKKK SHE WAS SO MAD IT WAS HILARIOUS BUT STILL FUCKKKK

okokokokok then BAP CAME OUT AND OH MY GOOOOOOOD OHHHH MYY GOOOOOD I think their stage was the one i enjoyed the most. They just went off, like full power u know I was ready to fight someone, it was glorious. They started off with 1004 (Angel), No Mercy DAMN I lost my shit so many times bc FUCKING MOON JONGUP AND FUCKING BANG YONGGUK CAN NOT CONTROL THEIR THRUST DANCING RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE LOOK

I DONT THINK YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND THIS ISNT ZOOMED IN I WAS THIS CLOSE OF THE POWER OF THE D I WILL LEARN TO GIF JUST FOR THE SAKE OF IT ok so yeah no mercy and then One Shot, maaaaaaaaan bap deserves all of the awards ever bc every single one of them is sososo talented I fell in love even more than before FUCK

lmao look at yongguk’s arms

Anyways, after bap it was EXO’s time, DUDE people went craaaaazy (i dont blame them tho) They looked fancy af in their white suits. I really tried to get a pic of Sehun’s ass but the guy never came around where I was DAMN IT, there was also a KAISOO sign and I thank the lord for giving that girl a cardboard and a sharpie. They sang Overdose, Growl and Lucky ,dude, during Lucky i had some magical moments with Baekhyun im not kidding ill upload the videos later the guy was right in front of me and didnt move at all but then Chanyeol… this fucker came walking straight towards me looking at me and posed for a pic or something and GODDAMN IT I WANTED TO PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE HE IS SO FUCKING CUTE 

BAEKHYUN PIERCING MY SOUL WITH HIS BLUE CONTACTS U AINT FOOLIN ANYBODY BUT KEEP THEM ON A+ QT AND MY SHITTY PHONE COULDNT FOCUS CHANYEOL WELL BUT HES STILL CUTE AF 

That phone is blocking Sehun’s ass damn :((((((

Ok now Infinite HOLY SHIT their high notes got me good, i was ready to get my ass to church and join the choir. Everything was super chill as fuck and then BAAAMMM everybody was singing and dancing like maniacs, they started with Last Romeo, The Chaser, Back, and Destiny. They did such a good performance honestly everybody was so TURNT

Now let me tell you something, DONGWOO, THIS MAN JUST LOOK AT HIM, HE JUST WENT AND KNELT DOWN IN FRONT OF US AND GRABBED MY FRIEND’S HAND WHAT THE FUCK KAORI U LUCKY BASTARD

LOOK AT HIM HE LOOKS SO HAPPY TO BE HERE AWWW BABY

After Infinite’s performance Ailee came to stage again awww she looked beautiful and sang “Donde Voy” I swear this woman had me in tears, EXO also came out again and sang “Sabor A Mi”. Chanyeol took out his guitar and he didnt rap he sang IN SPANISH it was so beautiful. I dont understand how can their accent be sooo good the fuck. 

When Beast came out they began with 12:30 so everything was nice and chill but then they sang Good Luck and Beautiful Night AND EVERYBODY WENT CRAZY SHIT SON IT WAS WILD PPL WERE SO CHILL AT THE BEGINNING BUT WE WENT OFF WITH THEM THERE WAS SUCH A FUN VIBE HONESTLY WE WERE ALL DANCING AND SINGING V NICE V NICE

u ok there boys?

OK SO THE ENCORE BRUH, SO MANY MAGICAL MOMENTS I SWEAR MOSTLY BAP YAASSS YASSSS YAAAAAASSS they obviously sang Run To You and then left but they came out again like 3 times more #THANKYOUBASEDGOD but look at some pictures from the whole thing REMEMBER THESE ARENT EVEN ZOOMED IN AHKJDFHIADJKFHIAKSDJFHKJVBDKSJHIUDAHSFKJHADFAJKHFLAKJ

okokok lets start with Himchan he was being super cute n shit and then he noticed that I was recording him or something and started doing funny faces aww hes so dumb i died on the spot WHY CANT I GIF HOLY SHIT

THIS MAN. THIS LITTLE MAN NEVER LEFT MY PART OF THE STAGE I HAVE LIKE 3 MINTES WORTH OF HIM JUST DANCING AND BEING A CUTE LIL SHIT WHICH IS LIKE 30 HOURS IN A FANGIRL HEART BUT 

LOOK AT THIS HE WAS POSING FOR MY FRIEND TO TAKE A PICTURE (THE RIGHT ONE IS THE ONE SHE TOOK) BUT SHE TOOK IT WHEN HE STOPPED POSING LMAO SHE IS SO DUMB IM SO HAPPY 4 HER HE IS HER BIAS AW SHE IS STILL V DUMB I LOVE U KEYO

JIIIIIIMIIIIN KEEP THAT TONGUE IN YOUR DAMN MOUTH BEFORE I RIP IT OUT FT. CUTE SMILING BABY HOBI N SUGA CAMEO ILOOVEEYOUU

OK NOW THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY NIGHT: FUCKING YOUNGJAE OUT OF NOWHERE KNELT DOWN IN FRON OF ME FOR LIKE A MINUTE REMEMBER THAT NON OF THESE ARE ZOOMED IN HOLY SHIT

I S2G I WILL LEARN HOW TO MAKE GIFS PJOAOUHOFOJADJNJNSAAD

YYYYYYOOOOOUNNNNNGGGJJJAAAAAERRROIHFJODIHFJDFJJAFP

I will upload the videos on this youtube channel later but keep in mind that i recorded with an iphone so they are a lil bit shakey and some times I recorded things sideways, and then the right way and then the other way and stuff idk im really dumb

a lot of cute and funny stuff happened like ppl were throwing their bras at exo and bap so staff came out and told them to stop or they would stop recording the concert aND SPEAKING OF RECORDING I AM 200% SURE THAT I WILL BE ON THE OFFICIAL VIDEO BC THERE WAS THE MEXICAN CAMERA CREW AND THIS GUY KOREAN GUY WHOM WERE ALWAYS FILMING MY FRIEND AND I LIKE TEHY NEVER STOPPED IT WAS ACTUALLY KINDA AWKWARD BUT WHATEVER BITCH HELL YEAH

So yeaaah HELL YEEEEEAAAAAHHH that’s how it went, I think this was the best day of my life tbh words can not explain how happy I was I CAN LEAVE THE EARTH IN PEACE . Im sorry this long ass post and im pretty sure made a lot of mistakes writing this but im too lazy to formulate sentences decently bye

Now You've Got To Breathe: Texting

Submitted by: keep-yourwingscas

Description: After the accident that took his parent’s life, Stiles locked himself in his own dark and private world, alone with his demons. When a certain strawberry blonde enters his life, there’s nothing he can do but watch as she breaks his walls.

Rating: K+

Genre: Romance, Fluff, Comedy

[Prologue] [Chips] [Starting Sessions] [Hold Your Tongue] [Needing a Break] [Hard to Breathe] [Changing of the Seasons] [No Secrets] [Rainy] [Waffles and Grease] [Stop Hiding] [Texting]

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identity, belonging, and why this is all check please’s fault

So I’ve been wanting to write a post for a while about how I kind of got sideswept and have descended rapidly into hockey hell over the past few months. I think that this has opened a door for me that I never thought could be opened. 

I mean I’m Canadian and clearly we love our hockey, like my hometown is pretty big on it, people talk about it all the time, I know so many people who have played in different capacities over the years, from rec leagues to the AHL. My family was never into it though, my lil immigrant mother has never worn a pair of ice skates in her life. So I didn’t grow up watching or knowing anything much about hockey. 

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anonymous asked:

i love you so much and i try so hard to make friends with you and other vegans on tumblr because i want friendships that you guys have but there feels like there's a sort of international vegan click that so many people want to be a part of and it just feels so exclusive :( i wish i didn't feel this way but i feel like i'm not the only one that does. i want more like minded friendships and i am a wonderful person, i talk off anon a lot but i'm sad that idk maybe i'm just not liked? :(

This makes me so sad because this is a really common theme in my inbox. 

I can’t speak for any other  “vegans on tumblr”, but I will answer this from my perspective.

Let me preface this by saying that if I had the power, I would spend my time travelling the world just so I could hang out with all of you. I have undoubtedly the greatest followers of all time, and meeting some of you this year or over the years has always been such a special experience for me. Heck if I could I’d throw a giant slumber party with everybody invited and we’d eat vegan food (cobs popcorn, obviously) and braid hair (someone would need to show me how to french braid because i never learned) and share life stories and make new friends. That’s the ultimate goal pipe dream.

Okay. 

I am so, so, so, so, so, so unbelievably grateful for the support you all give me on here and across social media. I am incredibly lucky to be in the position I’m in, and I haven’t done anything to earn that. The downside however, is that things can often feel one-sided. lexielombard explained it really well in a recent video, the viewers/subscribers/followers get to have this intimate connection receiving content from a person online, but that person isn’t able to receive content and connection (true connection, not just a follow or comment online but an actual genuine i’ll-support-you-in-the-hard-times-as-well-as-celebrate-the-good kind of relationship built on mutual respect and love) back to that same amount of people. It’s a huge bummer, because that would be awesome, but it’s just not emotional possible to maintain. At my camp earlier this year we learnt about the “monkey sphere”, (aka dunbar’s number) which explains that the average amount of people we are able to have in our life (as close friends, family members, acquaintances) that we can care for, is 150. Sometimes a little more, sometimes a little less, but that’s the average. Our brains and hearts just couldn’t possibly handle any more than that. So if you’re ever feeling like a favourite blogger or someone online doesn’t like you, doesn’t want to be your friend or is ignoring you on purpose - it’s not you. There is nothing wrong with you at all. 

Sometimes it can just be overwhelming, and it genuinely breaks my heart even saying this kind of thing, because I get so mad at myself when I can’t answer all my messages or reply to every request. I wish that I could do those things, and form strong, close bonds with everyone who is nice enough to follow me online and consider me a friend, but it’s just not humanly possible. I’m aware of how absolutely disgusting everything that I’m saying sounds. I am not better than any single one of you, not more worthy of love, friendship or attention. The only reason you want to be my friend is because you’ve seen me, but you haven’t seen the other tens of thousands of people who are way cooler, closer to your age, closer to your location. have more in common, have less in common and can learn from each other, etc. There are people out there who share your favourite band, want to do the same hobbies, will support your goals. Just because I’m vegan doesn’t mean I’m someone to strive for. I don’t think that is coming out how I want it to, but I’m trying to express that there isn’t anything special about me - there are so many of us vegans now, and I totally 100% know how it feels to think you’re alone, I still feel that way at times even with the amazing friends I have, that’s part of being human I think, or maybe it’s just an INFJ thing haha. 

Essentially, I don’t want you to feel disappointed that we haven’t connected yet, because there’s nothing about me that you can’t find ten times over in another really special human being whose soul will perfectly compliment yours. It is so incredibly flattering to feel a huge amount of support from others and knowledge that you could call them friends (again, I am beyond lucky), but it’s not always possible or realistic.

My requirement for making friends isn’t if someone is vegan. Many if not most of the online friends I’ve made were formed before I was. I just don’t want that one (let’s admit, fantastic) factor of me to become how you see my whole identity. You might hate that I have a dreadful memory and become selfish when I’m struggling, or that I’m so much of a morning person I force it upon others in the most annoying way possible, or that I’m pro choice, or that my religious faiths changed, or any number of other things about me. I just don’t want you to put me on a pedestal and then feel unworthy or disappointed that we don’t hang out or talk each day, because in reality you may not be at a loss - if that makes sense?

Most importantly - I don’t get to read all of my messages. If I haven’t replied, the most likely reason is because I just physically couldn’t. Like I mentioned before, my inbox is filled with messages like this (and that is the BIGGEST compliment I could ever receive and I WISH so badly I could reply to every single one of you and say hey yes let’s become friends and play huge roles in each others’ lives, but sadly that’s not something I’m able to do). This is not personal, it’s not a reflection of you, it’s just a sad reality. It’s not me rejecting anyone or saying I don’t like them, it literally just comes down to numbers. You and I probably would hit it off and get along great (and hopefully sometime you’ll send me another message and I’ll reply and it will be wonderful) but I don’t want you thinking this is anything to do with you. For me, it also comes down a lot to how I decide to manage my time. Many messages are lovely like yours, explaining how much we have in common and detailing our shared love of X,Y,Z, which always warms my heart so much, but the real majority are people reaching out for help, asking for advice, feeling lost or seeking answers that I’ve found somehow in my own life. When I read those messages and don’t reply, I feel absolutely awful. Knowing that some of you guys are suicidal, self harming, struggling with depression and eating disorders, living in toxic environments or just feeling alone, that breaks my heart. Knowing that I can’t reply to 1/10th of those messages, and therefore those people will think I don’t care or have time for them, that breaks my heart even more. When I’m on here and have the mental energy to really dedicate time and effort to responses (this hasn’t been very often lately, hence while I’m usually more likely to reply to quick questions that I can give an easy response for), I feel it would be wrong of me not to respond to the “most desperate” situations first. I don’t know if any of that makes sense, I guess I’m just trying to give a raw and authentic look into how my mind words in this situation, because it’s really hard getting these kinds of messages (or the ‘why haven’t you answered me’ ones), knowing that there’s nothing that would make me happier than to make this my full time job and spend all my time talking to you, or even just having more time and mental capacity to open up and let more people into my heart.

I’m not sure what you mean by an international vegan click :( I do agree that with friendships, sometimes you do just “click” and that’s that. You aren’t going to be friends with every single person at your school just because you share the commonality of going to the same school, but you may run into someone in a grocery store and just hit it off. It’s not a personal reflection of you, it just means you haven’t found your people yet! I’ve been on this big old website for like 5+ years now and the friends I’ve made started years ago and have grown and grown since then. The people I’ve made friends have come from me following them and getting to know their life and personality while they learned mine, so it was a mutual friendship-free-trial if you will, a period of seeing one another and knowing that the other exists, before being drawn together. This took time. Don’t feel down on yourself if it’s taking a little longer to find those connections.

If it’s any consolation, I think this is (sadly) a pretty common experience or feeling right now. I know after my last meet up I got a message from someone who was upset I hadn’t spoken to them more or made time for them that day, which honestly really hurt and I still wonder who it might have been and how I could have managed my time better. Social media is interesting, I see the same thing with YouTube. There are people I watch on there who I just feel so close to and we have so much in common, but they don’t know that, and there are 400,000 other people feeling the same way and telling them that same thing. But to me, it’s such a personal experience. It’s just them talking to me, and I view them as a friend already.

Everything I’m writing here is making me cringe. I don’t want to sound like I’m saying I’m ~~famous~~ or anything at all like well known content creators, but I think there is a verryyyyy tiny similar experience that goes on in the tumblr and instagram world. It all just comes down to the monkeysphere, and someone not being able to connect strongly with that many people at once.

If your “goals” currently are to befriend the ‘vegans on tumblr’, am I right in assuming there is a specific group of us? Or is your desire to make friends with simply, ‘vegans on tumblr’? I see that as two very different things. Ignore follower count, quality of photos, height, weight, hair colour and any other superficial element. Strip that back. Look at whose soul aligns with yours. Look at who you could call up and hang out with after school. Look at who is going to give you the reciprocal support that you deserve in a friendship. 

I understand whole heartedly wanting to connect with others, especially through veganism since eating is something we face all day long and it can feel incredibly isolating and disheartening to be surrounded by people whose views and actions directly contradict yours.

I promise I am going to film a video very soon on how to create like minded friendships, I’m still saving up for a camera (click here if you’d like to help me) and it’s at the very tippety top of my list. In the mean time, go to vegan meet ups, keep messaging/commenting to people who you think you gel well with, put out those positive vibes that you want to attract good friendships, and know in your heart of hearts that you are an incredible person. It made me so happy to read when you said that you are wonderful, I’m so glad you know that. Don’t ever forget it. 

“Your value doesn’t decrease based on someone’s inability to see your worth.” 

<3 <3

I’m really annoyed at myself because I feel like this whole answer is going to come off so douchey and it’s not at all what I mean. I hope some sense can be made of it. 

Sending you all of my love,

hopefully, a future friend x

(PS If you want to be my friend, comment on or reblog my posts with your thoughts!! I look through notes all the time and go on people’s blogs there, whereas my inbox is mostly an overflowing sea of anonymous questions)

(PPS If anyone has any comments to add, disagreements to make, additional thoughts, please do reblog this and share your own feelings)