i know ppl say they were sick of them but like

yknow what. it’s in the am hours. ive had at least 2 alcoholic beverages tonighit. and i have decided that once im out of tech school im gonna get a degree in ye olde literature just so i can write a groundbreaking paper about how cu chulainn (the actual myth one not the anime one) is a fucking trans icon. my guy is incredibly trans. lets just take a good look at the facts here folks

-these stories were written down by monks with an obviously christian agenda they edited the story to adhere to, in some parts more obviously so than others. considering the roman catholic hatred of trans people at the time, it would not be unreasonable to assume that if cu chulainn was in fact trans in the originals that were being written down said monks would attempt to cover that up by making him cis.

-dude changed his name which is a very trans™ thing 2 do obviously

-the whole thing with the curse and how he was the only one ready to throw the fuck down while all the other men were in bed with the pains of birth like this is such a classic example of using gendered language in magic shenanigans to ur advantage

-often described as being small & beardless “this is supposed to show he’s young” but is it really??? it’s not uncommon for masculine women to be mistaken for young men and him being both notably small and unable to grow a beard is brought up several times in text. either way it’s not like being young and being trans are mutually exclusive. really makes you think.

-alright here’s the big kicker that really says Cu Chulainn Is Trans 2 me in big shiny letters: he had to prove himself as Really Being That Tough over & over again to a frankly ridiculous degree. multiple times (at least 2 in the tain bo cuailnge that i can remember rn) there’s some enemy fuck who knows god damn well the one in front of them is cu mother fucking chulainn who has been absolutely obliterating his enemies by the hundreds but the moment they see him & notice he’s beardless (again, this is usually interpreted as meaning he’s young but that doesn’t necessarily have to be the case) they’re like “nah I’m not fighting that get me a real enemy” and cu has to put on a fake beard to convince them he really is A Big Tough Dude Who Can Kick Your Ass. another time in the tain cu used his sick sword skills to make a fool of someone who was mocking him and the fucking idiot didn’t stop even after cu literally shaved the guys head clear & cut off his clothes with a sword. there’s one story (called bricriu’s feast) of a competition where cu easily beat everyone by a wide margin in everything they compete in but none of the other contestants wanted to accept the result so they kept bringing in other judges trying to get someone other than cu to be declared winner. 

there’s this really weird refusal of people in the ulster cycle to accept that cu chulainn is as good at things as he is (specifically things considered masculine like fighting) and idk about all yall but that really fucking screams good old fashioned transphobia to me lads. like trans folks are still dealing with this shit in modern day with athletes not being allowed to compete with their own fucking gender bc it ~wouldnt be fair~ or other such nonsense. this fuck shit with ppl absolutely refusing to acknowledge cu as possibly being good at Man Things is incredibly Trans Relatable™.

-ALSO i just remembered this but there’s also at least one and i’m pretty sure more than one time where cu talks to people who are like “yea we’re trying to hunt down cu chulainn” and they don’t realise he is in fact that very same cu chulainn or are even remotely suspicious of him which would make a lot more sense if they mistook him for a woman

in conclusion: hes trans

Fuckboy! Kang Daniel

masterlist can be found (here)

Fuckboy x Wanna One:
Yoon Jisung II Ha Sungwoon II Hwang Minhyun II Ong Seongwoo II Kim Jaehwan II Kang Daniel II Park Jihoon II Park Woojin II Bae Jinyoung II Lee Daehwi II Lai Guanlin


“Here I thought I already had everything, but now I know what’s it like to wake up in the morning and experienced the best view.”

  • That fuckboy who works out A LOT and just goes clubbing very often 
  • Works out a lot mainly because that’s how he channels his stress from school & lots of ppl find him way too attractive when he gyms so bonus points for that
  • He won’t be the type to specifically approach a girl but will literally flirt/make out with any girl who approaches him first 
  • his logic is that they are interested in him and knows what’s going to happen so he’s not responsible if they get their hearts break over him
  • He’s the one everyone has their eyes on in the club, not just because he is drop dead gorgeous but he is one of the best dancers there 
  • Honestly, the only reason he goes clubbing is so he can win those dance battles and get extra $$$
  • & ofc get them ladies 
  • You weren’t exactly a party person but you knew how to get loose during the ideal time 
  • Seeing how you ended just finished your mid terms, you knew it was time to get loose and have fun
  • What better way than to go to the club your cousin owns?
  • You were dressed to kill and attracted everyone’s attention when you walked in with your friends 
  • You got yourself a drink to get yourself in the mood as you survey the environment
  • You could see a lot of new faces and wow that cutie at the dance floor was totally your type
  • But you knew from experience that boys like that were honestly the worst to be with as they did stomp on your feelings so you just dance with your friends, having the time of your life
  • While Daniel was busy with his dance battle, he did notice you considering you were one of the only few girls who wasn’t just grinding at some strangers but actually pulling off some sick moves
  • He would be absolutely lying to himself if he wasn’t physically attracted to you
  • Before he could make his way to you, the owner of the club who is good friends with him drag Daniel to a corner, saying how he wanted to introduce his baby cousin to him who was a dance major like him but in a different college and thought you guys would get along really well
  • He was like ‘…… okay’ although all he wanted was to walk to you
  • Little did he know, the owner’s ‘baby’ cousin was indeed you
  • When he made eye contact with you, his palms were getting clammy
  • It wasn’t that you were ‘different’, more like you look like you were having the worst time of your life talking to him
  • To be fair, you were just testing Daniel since well he wasn’t your usual boy-next-door
  • He was honestly freaking out cause it might sound crazy but he was really really attracted to your personality by the end of the night
  • You were a lot smiley later on as you two talked about his cats and you brought up how you were actually working part time at a cat cafe and you seemed to be very carefree when you spoke to him
  • You were just very open to him about your stuff and didn’t seem to actually try to flirt with him as you were more interested to know what was beneath him rather than making out with him 
  • You two exchanged numbers as you left and Sungwoo being the little shit he was, would tease Daniel for having a love struck expression 
  • Two days later, as you tied your apron to start your part time job, you notice how Daniel was waiting at the counter, getting ready to order a drink
  • You did be surprised cause who did expect a boy like to actually remember where you work & what time was your shift
  • He did spend the time playing with the cats in the cafe
  • It did evoke such a fuzzy and warm feeling in your chest 
  • You will probably bring him a complimentary cake on the way and he will thank you while petting a kitten
  • You were just like wtf did the clubbing Daniel go????
  • - He will message you photos of the kitten even if you see them every day
  • But those texts will soon turn into asking how was your day? To you sending videos of your dance practice  
  •  Expect him to come by EVERY single time you were working 
  • At this point, you were just wondering how was he not broke from the constant coffee and cakes he did get from the cafe
  • You decided to let him in for free cause he was attracting a lot of customers anyway  
  • That was when he asked you instead of charging it for free, could you go on a date with him instead? 
  • Of course you said yes and it was a date of the zoo where he did make fun of how his friends resembles a certain animal and you did laugh at all his jokes
  • That was when you realize you were super comfortable with him as more dates came by and although there wasn’t an official title, Daniel just didn’t see any point of looking at other girls when all he could think was making you his
  • When you guys are officially together, every girl basically stood 10m apart from Daniel
  • nobody wanted to mess with you the cause no one wanted to be on the blacklist of the hottest club courtesy of your lovely cousin who was basically shipping you and Daniel 
  • Expect a lot of workout dates and dance battle between you two and lots of cuddles with Rooney and Peter somehow squished in between

Requests are always open & Feel free to inbox me anything at all  ♡

anonymous asked:

Can you do pynch for the ship thing please <3

YOU BET YOUR SWEET ASS I CAN 

(god FINALLY)

SEND ME A SHIP AND I’LL TELL YOU…

who is more likely to hurt the other?

I mean. Adam doesn’t usually get hurt by ronan so much as he gets annoyed. disappointed. pissed. He never lets ronan’s venom actually get to his veins, he’s too busy telling him how unnecessary the flash of fang is. ronan on the other hand. like. he’s easy to hurt. adam would never in his life want to hurt ronan (it’s his honest to god nightmare) but I think ronan works himself into such a despair at the smallest jealousies and perceived injustices that adam could make one careless comment and ronan would fixate on it

who is emotionally stronger?

ohhhh adam. it’s adam. He’s been dragging so much emotional rubble for so long that he’s built up a tolerance. strong is like The Most adam adjective that I can think of. ronan never had to get to adam’s level of detachment and dissociation bc the first 15 years of his life were gorgeous and easy, and he’s still growing into his protective shell. Adam had to be born in his

who is physically stronger?

it’s ronan tbH he has the upper body strength of a boxer and the broad shoulders of a lynch (but also adam has clever hands and muscular thighs from years of biking everywhere and he can handle himself)

who is more likely to break a bone? 

ouch. They’re both capital R Reckless when they’re together and they have some brutal years under their belts. adam has some poorly set knobbly fingers and ronan has an old snapped clavicle that took forever to heal and constantly bruised knuckles so like. idk. In the future, when adam parrish has escaped from his childhood prison, I’d like to think that they both get ugly minor injuries from doing joyful ramp and dolly and shopping cart type activities only

who knows best what to say to upset the other? 

surprisingly difficult question to answer bc I mean. It’s ronan. but is it? he systematically winds people up and adam is so deeply irritated by him that he straight up walks away, but also adam can be ice cold?? it’s so easy to get to ronan. They both fumble and call each other mean names when they want to compliment each other it’s a big mess

who is most likely to apologize first after an argument? 

holy shit would you believe neither??? the most stubborn humans on this earth!! record holders!! we got some emotional repression folks! hooooo boy

adam never starts arguments for no reason so he’s always thinking it through and coming to the conclusion that he’s in the right?? surprise he ain’t apologizing

meanwhile ronan can’t stop being cruel even though he knows it’s hurting people, it’s this vicious self-protective instinct that hurts so good and so wrong. and then his pride gets in the way once he’s cooled down. but he will come to st agnes on his knees and grab adam’s hand and try to make it clear that he’d step on his own pride on the way to adam’s door

who treats who’s wounds more often? 

sad & unfortunate :(( adam treats ronan’s solely bc ronan doesn’t know how the fuck to treat an injury and also ‘none of them wanted to hurt adam parrish’, so ronan’s got his stupid pointless anger related scrapes and adam’s got his anti-bacterial gel and they are a dream team

who is in constant need of comfort? 

neither of them come out on top here man. They’ve had some shared harrowing experiences, and some separate trauma that they’re trying to tell each other about (if their stories could just stop. sticking. when they try to say them out loud). in v different ways, neither of their families are families. Ronan doesn’t let himself fall asleep, and he doesn’t let himself go through things, and the repression starts to calcify into cruelty like it did right after his father died. adam can’t stop thinking about gansey on the roadside, and he can’t be touched some days, most days. he can’t stop swimming or he’ll die. He can’t keep swimming or he’ll die. The gangsey is a critical support system made of so many weak beams

who gets more jealous? 

are u fucking serious,,, it’s both of them pal. remember when every combination of his friends that didn’t include him made adam like. sick with jealousy. remember when ronan saw gansey talking on the phone with adam and wanted to put his hand through a wall. or when adam brought blue along on their quest and he spouted nasty shit the whole day. they both deeply want each others attention and they don’t seem to realize that they already have it? always?

who’s most likely to walk out on the other? 

ohh god. oh man. oh boy. Here’s the thing. adam’s gonna walk away from ronan, but he’s not gonna walk OUT on him. he’s going to walk away because he’s not on a leash, he’s gonna spread those beautiful fucking self-made wings. And ronan is too!! in his own time he’s gonna build his own spaces that aren’t the barns and he’s going to realize what home means to him and they’re both gonna walk out the door and back but never close it behind them

who will propose? 

a controversial topic! I’m on team adam for this one pals. I was on team ‘adam’s gonna kiss ronan first’ for a while before trk like a FOOL and I realized the error of my ways bc ronan is physical as fuck! and a risk-taker! of course he kissed adam smh. But a proposal? That’s a contract. That’s a speech. That’s a chess move. Ronan wouldn’t corner adam like that. Adam knows how ronan feels and more importantly he knows how HE feels himself, and I think one day ten years into their relationship the practicalities are gonna beckon and he’s gonna look ronan in the back of the head while he’s sleeping and roll over into the curve of his spine and tell him he wants a ring on his finger 

who has the most difficult parents?

omg… fuck off

who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public? 

tactile bastards! both of them! ronan especially wants adam’s hands…., any which way he can get them. I mean. He will kiss adam’s hands when they’re at dinner at nino’s and he’ll hook their fingers together even for the 20 second walk from the BMW to monmouth’s front door like he LIVES FOR IT (adam feels nervy and exhilarated every time it’s gay)

who comes up for the other all the time? 

i mean they’re always together so they don’t really bring each other up. if they’re not together they’re with gansey/blue/henry or even fox way babes/vancouver crowd etc and those ppl get real tired of it real quick. adam usually keeps his ronan related musings to himself though like he has self-control unlike… R.N.L. himself

who hogs the blankets? 

ronan does tbh adam has never hogged anything in his life and ronan is a shit

who gets more sad? 

an unfair Q, man. They’ve both had a super rough time, especially right post-trk?? those few months are hard. Ronan cries a lot. Adam gets numb and far away a lot. They have a lot to be sad about. (But more to be happy about. They made it. They honestly just stare at each other and laugh breathlessly and touch foreheads and hands and scars and can’t believe their luck)

who is better at cheering the other up? 

I sorta said this with ronsey but I think ronan is THE BEST at doing dumb shit to take his mind off of things. Like all that stuff about making adam quiet and turning off the lists and anxieties in his head so that they can do smth mindless and dangerous? yeah that. memes and songs and poor decisions. depression whom?

who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?

this never happens wtf they’re not really ‘playful slappers’ HOWEVER adam will glare at ronan so hard that it probably feels like a slap

who is more streetwise?

it reeeeally depends on your definition of streetwise?? Like if we’re talking survival it’s unquestionably adam. He can fix your car and bandage your wounds and figure out your taxes and make himself invisible and blend his accent into whoever’s around him. He’s wicked sharp and fast on his feet. But i mean. he can’t quite drive stick. and he wouldn’t be caught dead in the sort of underground that ronan ends up in. ronan is streetwise in terms of the actual street, and he knows the most brutal avenues a person can end up on, the real life nightmares that feel closest to the ones in his head. Ronan is smart enough to navigate the chaos, but adam is smart enough to avoid it altogether

who is more wise?

adam. easily. ronan is intelligent and instinctive and talented (or adam wouldn’t get him as well as he does) but adam is a genius and that look behind his eyes….. he’s lived about 1 billion times more than he should’ve by age 19

who’s the shyest? 

neither of them are shy exactly they’re just buried under 9 surface level personalities that you have to crack open with your bare fuckin hands

but if you met either of them in the hallowed halls of aglionby you would think adam was shy and ronan was a rampant fuckwad so based on appearance?? adam. he keeps his head down.

who boasts about the other more? 

as soon as adam is officially his bf ronan takes a ten year long victory lap he’s so embarrassing

who sits on who’s lap?

y’all. we all know ronan sits in adam’s. it’s a fact of life. he probably had a sexy dream about it when he was 17 and took his morning shower in holy water

weedstoner-archive  asked:

that post u made reminded me that i have a communism question for u. so whenever i talk about it with my friends they always ask me what a communist society would look like, how there would be jobs without money, etc and up to a point i can explain it but i quickly lose confidence once they ask about details like. in terms of who would do the "dirty work" aka the jobs ppl don't want, how would u "buy" things without money, that kind of thing. i know theres prob not a simple answer but ya

a moneyless system is easy to explain. you dont work for money in the current society, you work for the goods and services that money purchases, but it is not the thing that provides your electricity. power isn’t generated by how much cash they can funnel into the furnace. get rid of money and the exchange-value system for the much simpler use-value system that is already in place. if someone argues that people will consume inefficiently, then theyre suggesting that capitalism is somehow more efficient by throwing away billions of pounds of food per year and refusing to shelter homeless people just because they can’t afford it. we have the technology to produce a surplus of basically everything and market mechanisms as we understand them would generally be made unnecessary in any realistic model of human consumption (many capitalists like to come up with absurd quantities of such-and-such commodity [10,000 gallons of water per day, for example] being consumed by one obnoxious person that ruins communism for everybody else, as if thats actually a problem worth a serious investigation)

communist society can’t be drawn up and pointed at like “this is it” because its the future. we can provide a rough framework for how it could function based on how our current society is able to operate (like above when i said that we currently produce a surplus, so we know for a fact that people could be provided for in the future) but we won’t know what problems may arise in the future until we get there. this is absolutely something that can seem disheartening, but for people that are so goal-oriented that they will settle for the current conditions just because they dont want to go through the work of building a better society, they are generally privileged to the point where they dont understand the necessity of radical change. they aren’t the ones suffering every day, so its easy for them to dismiss something that seems like a lot of work, even if its the only chance of survival for a large portion of the population.

the dirty work thing is an easy enough argument to dismiss when you’re well-equipped with the knowledge to do so. it often takes the form of the doctor-janitor story, where a doctor shouldn’t be paid the same as someone that simply takes out the trash, but this is a misunderstanding (and actually quite a funny one. they couldn’t have picked two better professions to compare tbh because its so easy to refute). doctors are certainly important to a (literally) healthy society. they are the people we go to so that we dont get sick and die. janitors are considered the lowest of the low because they dont actually do anything besides mopping or whatever (???), but imagine a world without janitors (or perhaps a world without their function is a better way to put it). without them, we would all get sick and die, same as a world without doctors. all of the dirty countertops in the world would make us all rush to the doctors office as we caught each others illnesses (a funnier thing to think about is how the market would react by suddenly producing a large amount of doctors to meet the demand of sick people, essentially reducing them to just another profession, removing the elitism that surrounds them. this is actually similar to doctors in the early days of capitalism. they were no better than the local trader, butcher, etc because all of them were important to the well-being of the population).

its important to understand this because this is actually similar to the old marxist feminist argument that women’s unpaid labor (in the home) is just as important as mens paid labor (in the factories). this is perhaps a little dated in some ways since capitalism has directly included women in the process of production, but before that, [the western concept of] gender was a clear-cut system of labor, where men produced and women reproduced, both in the sense of reproducing children [again, in terms of western concepts of gender, not actually getting into trans politics here] and also in the sense of reproducing labor. by taking care of the husband and her family, the sole duty of the housewife, she was responsible for the commodity producer (and the future generation of commodity producers and labor reproducers), and by extension, production as a whole. if it weren’t for this process of reproduction of labor on the microscopic level, the production of commodities wouldve been impossible, and this remains true for the doctor and the janitor, two very different jobs that fulfill the same basic purpose: to keep society going. to argue that one is more deserving of pay because one requires more “skill” than another or that one requires more education than another isn’t actually a criticism of socialism, but a realization of the cruelty of capitalism, where only those with enough wealth can afford to educate themselves and sustain their wealth (not to mention that this completely ignores the absurd fact that healthcare is a profitable industry, which it shouldn’t be).

one of the easiest ways around this argument though, especially if you want to get more into what communism would probably look like, is to just say that most of these things would be automated or taken care of on a community level. healthcare could be almost entirely abolished if we were to get to a point where we didnt have competition and the profit motive preventing us from finding cures for diseases just because companies make more money from selling monthly prescriptions than they ever would by actually stopping illnesses in their tracks, and for many other cases, machinery could be introduced in the emergency room (as is already done today) to make the doctors job easier. i think its safe to assume that janitorial work would also benefit from the introduction of machinery into the cleaning process and this work would become less stressful and more accessible to the general public.

(also, on the job question, id be a bad commie if i didnt quote the bit in the german ideology where marx says “… in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening, criticise after dinner, just as I have a mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, herdsman or critic.”)

so there you go. hope that helps.

tbpdfw

Those Childhood behaviors & experiences that I now get knowing I have bpd like:

Oh yeah identity issues:

  • Not understanding why when actors’ spoke about a character they were playing they treated it like a separate person because for me playing pretend meant becoming that character, another version of myself
  • Transfixing on my friend’s TigerBeat magazines even though I didn’t care about celebrities and getting a subscription myself just for the quizzes 
  • Getting really attached to specific words or phrases that you thought fit you or that other ppl used to describe you (for me it was “unique”, “empath”, not “normal”)
  • Using others’ descriptions of you as the way to describe yourself and your role in your own life (has big eyes, has nice smile, intelligent, artist)
  • Going to the bathroom in school to escape and end up just staring at myself in the mirror and asking who am I? I don’t recognize myself
  • Taking in bad descriptions of yourself and mean comments as truth as well (annoying, loud, talkative, sensitive, judgmental; you interrupt too much, you complain too much, you always think you’re right)
  • Getting really attached to IPod Touch backgrounds and saving ones that I thought represented me
  • Saving screencaps of the results of random silly quizzes as if collecting “facts” about myself
  • Taking on personality traits from a TV show character I liked and wanted to be like, wanting to dress like them, and wanting ppl to call me by the character’s name as a nickname
  • Quoting “Forgive and forget, that’s my motto” from a TV show character because it sounded cool and Right even though it wasn’t at all true about myself
  • Trying to copy some self-harming techniques I had heard to make my depression feel more valid
  • Throwing out a chocolate with caramel inside even though I liked it because I had previously always said I hated caramel and couldn’t contradict that
  • Acting like moments between you and another person or you in general were part of a movie and you had an imagined script of what dramatic thing you should say

Wanting attention & validation:

  • Doing and saying whatever to make adults you liked laugh or give you positive attention 
  • Finished painting a picture I was proud of (around age 3-5), my friend/neighbor who I’m painting with just finished finger painting something as well. My mom praises her and calls her choice to finger paint creative. I immediately smear my entire picture with my fingers
  • Carrying around a book of writings that I covered the outside with notes about it being “top secret” and “do NOT read” in the hopes of attracting interest so that someone would try to read it
  • Telling my best friend I *insert suicide ideation here* to hear her reaction in the hope of concern and attention
  • Biting at my mouth and lips in attempts of (unsuccessfully) hurting myself and getting attention after reading the book Speak in which a girl does the same in response to trauma
  • Talking nonstop, loudly and quickly in attempts to be heard; Having problems interrupting people in conversation  as I was used to being ignored and having limited time to be heard
  • Oversharing in class about personal experiences

Black and white thinking

  • Seeing my darker shift in mood as the new “bad” me vs the younger happier idealized version of myself as the old “good” me
  • Drawing images of broken mirrors, broken hearts, and thorny plants to represent this Bad new me vs regular hearts and thriving pretty plants as the old Good me
  • Seeing ppl as either minor acquaintances or Best Friends, no inbetween  
  • Feeling like ppl, even best friends, couldn’t get me and therefore we shouldn’t be friends anymore
  • Getting mad at ppl for having different opinions because they were Wrong

Unstable moods; Depression and thoughts of suicide or self-harm 

  • Feeling broken, wrong and messed up constantly for not being as happy as I once remembered
  • Writing dramatic sad poems about a perceived loss of innocence aka growing up which I concluded was the reason for the change
  • Leaving class just to wander under the guise of going to the bathroom, linger at windows and fantasize about running away somewhere happy
  • Continuously thinking about and wanting to break the mirrors but knowing it would be messy and probably hurt and I’d get in trouble
  • Feeling like I wanted to die before knowing what that meant and feeling like no one could save me
  • Punching my desk and the school porcelain sinks to feel my knuckles sting; scraping my hands with pens by drawing rough repeated lines over the skin to “punish” myself for being “bad”
  • Self-harming before knowing what that meant
  • Prolonging eating to punish yourself with hunger but giving into eating eventually
  • Feeling weak about not being able to commit to doing serious harm to myself
  • Having episodes of loss of interest in all things I found fun; feeling numb
  • Erratic sleeping patterns
  • Wanting to call in sick from school or pretend your sick to stay home because you just feel awful and don’t know why
  • Wanting to die on the way to school, passively feeling okay with the thought you might get hit by a car or bus

Unstable relationships; Imprinting, FPs, (Perceived) Abandonment & Splitting

  • Getting super attached to my first best friend in kindergarten and being convinced we’d be best friends forever 
  • Coming home crying every other day the next year when she got new friends who all didn’t want me around them
  • “Testing out” a new friend group everyday to try and find a place I felt like I belonged  
  • Spending recess after recess walking around alone and watching all the other kids play together reasoning everyone has a friend but me
  • Not playing with other kids who invited me to because they weren’t my Best Friend (cough baby’s first FP cough)
  • Getting super attached to my new neighbor/friend and jumping at any chance to hang out with her even when she was mean to me or didn’t really want to hang out with me
  • When she suddenly started avoiding me and stopped talking to me after years of friendship I went from hurt to completely uncaring as if we were never friends at all
  • At my new school, I once again spent my time trying out new friend groups and dropping them when they didn’t fit me and ended up in the small assortment of “rejects” 
  • Going back and forth between being best friends, feeling better than them, feeling bad that they were putting energy into someone who really didn’t care
  • Feeling like I was pretending and didn’t care about them as much as they cared about me (none of them were my FP) and therefore we shouldn’t be friends at all 
  • Getting super attached to a new girl in school because I didn’t have any close friends and we were both Guyanese and therefore somehow connected; saying embarrassing things to her about how I felt detached from other friends and much closer to her in the span of only a few days
  • She told my other friend that I was like an annoying “dog” following her around and she switched schools within the next few weeks
  • I immediately into the “she never existed” mode of detachment 
  • Writing dramatically “I’m sorry I wasn’t a good friend to you when you were such a good friend to me” in my friend’s yearbook (knowing he wouldn’t see it until years later)
  • Getting super attached to and oversharing with teachers who showed me particular kindness and attention
  • Getting depressed when I noticed they showed kindness and attention individually to other students
  • Feeling not good enough or healthy enough to be in relationships

These are my personal experiences but maybe they are relatable to others with bpd.

((This is super long but I just felt like it needed to be said and shown that ppl with bpd often have signs of early symptoms in childhood that get worse later and that they often don’t understand until later. Hope this gives others with bpd some clarity.))

Feel free to share some of your own!

(EDIT: Remembered some more)

Boyfriend Hyungwon

A/N: this was requeeeeested bc u can do that guys idk what to write give me ideas pls thank u also nsfw ahead mostly fluff but im always too thirsty for my own good


  • tall lanky bf thats way too good looking
  • Sucks when you got your period bc you cant look at him without crying bc hes so handsome
  • Dunno if youre crying bc youre so happy about being with hyungwon or crying bc hes too handsome and you feel ugly
  • Laughs when you get like that, hugging you against his body
  • Always smells nice so hugging his is really nice
  • So is kissing him
  • Sometimes you will ask for a kiss or hug and hyungwon will walk up to you like hes gonna do it then will dab and walk away laughing
  • Always come back saying sorry tho and making it up to you so you dont punch him in the throat
  • boy has got some nice ass lip they are so thick and pink and are probably soft as hell
  • Tbh makeouts with hyungwon are something that happens often
  • Just sittin on his lap grinding down onto him while his tongue is in your mouth and his hands digging into your skin
  • This got sexual so early whoops lmao
  • Lets keep this goin tho
  • Maaaaan i feel like hyungwon would willing to try anything
  • Like hes not that versed in kinky shit but is down to try anything you wanna try
  • So do ya boy and favor and introduce him to e v e r y t h i n g bc u know hes lowkey freaky he just dont know it yet
  • Or he does he just hasn’t had a chance ;) ;) ;)
  • But when its not like that hes slow and seductive using his good looks against you to turn you to mush
  • Its the worst but the best thing ever
  • Probably enjoys making you suffer aka either teasing the shit outta you and not letting you come or overstimulating you to tears
  • Laughs at you begging and whining pretending like hes doing nothing wrong
  • Highkey loves making you choke on his cock
  • Nice aftercare tho
  • Cleans you up and hugs you close and tries to make you laugh
  • hes so dumb will make stupid faces at you from across the room
  • And you gotta make them back ofc
  • So you two end up looking like idiots making dumb faces at each other and giggling and anybody who happens to witness is just like ?????? What the fuck??????
  • Its cool just pretend like nothing happened hyungwon is good looking so no one else believes it when they see him being normal
  • But then ur sitting there like gdi hyungwon now i look like an idiot by myself how dare u
  • And hyungwons just like mmm get rekt hun ;)
  • Dont take him on fancy dates dont do it he looks too good and will overshadow u
  • I mean do it bc he looks hella good but be prepared for everybody and their mother to be looking at him and forgetting about you
  • Like the waitress comes up all starry eyed focussing on hyungwon asking him what he wants and just being too much
  • And ur sitting like mm yes can i have some fucking respect back tf away hes mine knife emoji
  • Hyungwon laughs but promises to eat u out when u get home for putting up with it
  • Naaaaappppsss
  • Couple naps are a thing
  • Its gr8 bc some days when you dont wanna go out and youre tired hyungwons like yeah lets watch movies and sleep its a date
  • And youre like its not a date but fine im down
  • I read somewhere that napping with someone builds trust so there u go nap a lot with hyungwon and he might pour his soul out to you
  • You gotta take care of him bc hes lowkey useless and a whiny baby
  • I mean he works a lot so its not entirely unwarranted its just annoying
  • Bc when hes sick hes like noooo im fine i dont need u to take care of me im a man i can do it
  • And ur like u sound like ur dying i bet u havent eaten yet bc u dont want to get out of bed
  • He gets quiet at that so u go over and take care of him then he turns into the worst always whining at you and asking u to do things for him and its make u like ugh i knew i shouldve just let u die
  • Which makes hyungwon dramatically gasp that turns into a coughing fit and when its over hes like how dare u say that look i almost died you break my heart
  • And ur just like hyungwon…………. oh my fucking god
  • But when hes not being dramatic or dumb hes being super sweet bc he takes ur relationship seriously
  • Like doesnt forget things at all and always surprises you with nice things bc he has very high standards he holds himself at
  • And ur like hyungwon its cool you dont have to try so hard i really dont mind
  • But hes adamant about being the perfect boyfriend so will pay for you and buy you nice things and take you on nice dates
  • Its almost like a dream honestly
  • But your fave part is when its lowkey between the two of you
  • Like chillin at your place eating takeout with no makeup wearing sweats and talking about everything under the sun
  • Those are the nicest moments bc those are the realest
  • No need to be attractive or act a certain way toward each other
  • Just two people who love each other talking from the heart
  • Thats the first time he said he loved you was in a situation like because you guys were just talking about your relationship
  • Not being overly serious or expecting anything just talking about each other saying what you liked about each other and what annoyed you
  • He accidentally said that he loved the way you liked his stupid side as much as his idol side bc a lot of ppl see him as a pretty face and he does enjoy it but thats not all there is too him
  • And ur heartbroke a little for him but then u were like wait…. u love me?
  • Hyungwon gets all sheepish and starts to blush like ………. yeah i guess i do
  • It feels like your soaring through the heavens and u yell it back at him and accidentally spill your food all over the couch squashing it between the two of you when you go to hug him
  • He immediately tells you he wants to break up for ruining his expensive sweatpants
  • You punch him on the arm
  • Hes kinda the type to hold in his bad feelings so u always gotta break him out of that and make him comfortable so he will tell whats wrong
  • Always does. May take a while but always tells you.
  • Once he trusts you he really does trust you
  • Thats when he becomes serious with you and lets you know hes in it for the long run
  • This highkey made me emotional
  • HYUNGWON IS MORE THAN A MEME AND A VISUAL OKAY GUYS HE HAS FEELINGS
  • AND I HAVE FEELINGS AND THEY ARE MAKING ME SAD
  • VOTE FOR MONSTA X I WANT THEM TO HAVE THEIR FIRST WIN
  • ALSO APPRECIATE HYUNGWON GIVE HIM MORE LINES

Originally posted by kittyminhyuk

tioretrog  asked:

Hello tsumire, I am from the page of fb Comic Cartoon Latino, I just came to ask you to accept these apologies and I hope you have not offended or angry, because for me you are a good artist and I only did it because I love your art, That I did not ask permission to do it, anyway I ask you to accept these sincere apologies, I hope and you understand me :) greetings

Thanks for sending me this message.

But tbh I feel no sincere apologies in this message.

I said multiple times on my tumblr and twitter, even you do like my art, doesn’t mean you have the right to repost them without my permission, no matter you want to share my art because you love them, or want to do advertising for me, you didn’t ask me first, so you are wrong from the beginning.

Also you didn’t credit most of the artists’ art, how can your followers know who’s the artist if they like that art ??

Some reposters saw my post about repost, they came to apologize saying they will take down my art. I’m happy when people say they love my art, but even if you love my works it doesn’t mean you can repost them. What you did it’s not helping me, only hurts me.

Beside repost, you even edited, translated and add your own watermark on our art, you did too much, this isn’t okay. Those artists spent hours on their hardworks, it’s wrong to think how we reacted was bad and you even support those fans who thought what you did was okay and you were just advertizing us. That was not okay to us. There were people trying to help us, but you only pointed out who sent them or their identity, even ignoring them .

I don’t want my art to be reposted, so i haven’t authorized any other page besides my own ones to post my work. I don’t have time to look for every page, if you know some pages repost others art you can tell the artists about that to help them.

I’m still mad and I hope you can understand why, so I wrote all these things for you.

I suggest you take down the art you reposted without permission, some artists like @treker402, @jearwork, @kaiken23, @dement09, and @beautysnake, don’t like their art being reposted, you should ask them first.

If you don’t know who drew the art, take them down aswell, you don’t know the artists doesn’t mean it is free to use.

I sleep only 4 hrs a day because I want to draw for my friends and my own followers, ofc I’ll be mad when I see ppl use my hardwork without permission.

Asking for permission is not that hard, I hope you will do that for me if you really want to apologize.


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To my followers who dont know what happened, there was a FB fanpage called Comic Cartoon Latino reposted, edited and translated our art without permission.

They didn’t take down my art and other reposts, and deleted one of their post which we left some messages under it.

And the comments under this post really makes me sick,

Sick comments

No matter how you love the art or for other reasons, you cant reposted it without the artist’s permission, dont use it “sharing” as an excuse to repost ppl’s hardwork on your own page, you are not sharing if you do that, that’s stealing.

I should be asking kinder when someone steals my stuff ?? Whats wrong with these ppl ??

If you like ppl take your stuff away and show to others without asking then go ahead, I dont want to be like you.

At least I respect myself and other ppl.

#PLLENDGAME finale predictions

Please dont let marlene and friends “confirmations” keep u closed minded.

So they confirmed a time jump btwn 719 and 720.. bullshit
They also confirmed toby was “pure evil, bad intentions” and no they wont go the transgender route

They cant make a year later and the girls dont know who A is and Ezria still arent married.
It will most likely be after the reveal and answers then we get a time jump and see where the girls end up.

Mona is seriously ill. She ends up back in an institution face 2 face with A. Im so afraid she will die

Aria finds out something devastating about Ezra. Clearly she is the most distraught from all the girls. Even goes as far as to say they cant marry.
Too obvious to make him A. Could he be the sperm donor? Ie. Emisons baby daddy. He had a sick obsession with Alison, the book, the lair (with the creepy ass blown up photos), dating her. Mona was on track to find baby daddy and we know Ezra is tech savvy. Is this his sick way of fulfilling an even sicker Alison fantasy. After all his masters degree in American literature will help him with dead bodies (wtf was that about)

Melissa and Wren are back.

Wren.. sweet baby wren. I stand by my theory that he is Bethanys brother. He could know mona hit his sister and shoot mona. We know he plays a big part in the end. After all isnt bethany the basis of everything? It was her dead season 1 after all. Perhaps he knew about her drawings, jessica, mary, spencer, melissas involvement in ultimately killing her (dirt in lungs)

Melissa is here to please fans. Did she know about Mary? Spencer? ABSOLUTELY.
“I did this to protect u spencer, since before it started.”
Even garrett mentioned protecting Spencer on the train.

Jenna can see. We see that in the promo. But the question is, for how long?

Im all for a TWINCER storyline but how much more unrealistic can we get. There was already a hidden sibling (charles) a hidden  twin (mary) they cant do that again. Spencers moodswings addictions and odd behaviour could just be genetics. Her lineage has a history of mental illness. Take Ali for example, remember when she had a bloody lip? Crying and opening up then BAM back to bitchy Ali! Doesnt mean much except they have some issues.

If there is a twin i am all for it! I love Spencers character and Troians acting so i will take it… but i highly doubt it.

I feel like they went big, outside the box with charles… cece… charlotte. This reveal needs to be simple, clear, devastating.

Paige- no way. People will be pissed
Lucas- accused too many times. Cant be him
Melissa- already a killer and made to look like A too much already. Too obvi
Wren- will be involved in something but isnt A
Parents- is nothing sacred
Toby- we need spoby for endgame
Caleb- we need haleb for endgame
Ezra- too obvious from the promos
Charlotte- cant bring another person back from the dead
Bethany- same as charlotte
Who is left guys???

Jason.

My sweet, gorgeous Jason. He is the center of all things major on pll.

- he is a dilaurentis (raised)
- he is a hastings
- NAT club
- odd scar possibly from Halloween train never explained.
- always travelling
- has the money to be A
- slept with Ashley Marin yet A never told Hanna that yet?
p.s. he slept with pastor teds girlfriend.. charlottes birth father, was it revenge??
- dated charlotte
- really close to charles.
- Jenna was almost killed in his house
- gave Spencer a bag he found of alis things (even though mayas family owned the house alis shit was still around)
- he likes Arias pink hair. In the dollhouse she was forced to dye it.
- liked aria. Notice A always tried to break Ezria up and Aria was not physically harmed by A (wilden and meredith hurt her)
- NAT was his idea.

- cece and jasons breakup was complicated… ya learning your girlfriend is your long lost brother/cousin is complicated. - he paid lucas to find out who stole the body and acted shady ever since that day. Possibly when he joined Charlottes game.

In the vault there were 2 ppl. One was watching Ali on screen the other stood there and looked at Emily when the girls burnt down the vault.
The prom scene?? Why the hell would a transgender female dress like a man??? Spencer even said something seemed familiar like a cousin. Lmfao jason is her brother and her cousin.


Think about it. AD wanted to know who killed Charlotte. Why? Archer loved her, Mary was her mom, why would AD care? Another family member


Cast members said fans from day 1 will be pleased, it answers a lot of questions, you can go back to thr beginning and see hiw it happenned. Even if he joined Charlottes game. He has always been shady from day 1! If i had to guess right now. It would be Jason . Just putting him in the hoodie answers so many questions without actually answering them. Did he learn something back in his NAT days to fuel this? He started having people film for him watching these girls… over the years it escalated to this sick game of life or death with people working for him… watching and playing with these girls

“I never would’ve guessed it was you”

I would be very happy with this. Tell me what you guys think!!

Grim reaper binu

Listen it’s 1:31 am and I had a idea

-grim reaper!eunwoo and human!moonbin
-moonbin saw a cat stuck in a tree and climbed it to help get the cat out
-it’s a really tall tree
-and he falls
-binnie wakes up feeling really light and when he turns around he sees eunwoos face and gasps
-k but imagine eunwoo with like some cool as fuck black wings and a black buttton down shirt with the first few buttons popped mJHH
-moonbin: holy shit are you an angel
-eunwoo: what no I’m dressed in black and I’m a grim reaper what I don’t look like an angel those pricks are always dressed in white smh
-moonbin: Shit did I die
-eunwoo: uh yeah you fell out of a 40 foot fucking tree and didn’t even land on grass you landed on concrete
-moonbin: but I didn’t get to feed my cat shit shit
-binnie starts panicking and tears begin to fill his eyes
-what if no one checks up on Sir. Fluffikins? Mj hates his cat so he wouldn’t feed him and rocky is always so busy with dance
-moonbin is now hyperventilating bc of his cat
-eunwoo: Hey so um are you okay ?
-moonbin: I DIDNT GET TO SAY GOOD BYE TO SIR. FLUFFIKINS AND MJ WONT FEED HER IM THE WORST CAT OWNER
-eunwoo never really had to deal with someone that was this much of a hot mess (emphasis on the hot)
-like yeah ppl sometimes cried or asked to please not die but no one ever had a mental breakdown bc they didn’t feed their cat or didn’t get to say good bye to their cat
-eunwoo being the softy he is let’s moonbin say goodbye to his cat
-moonbin thanking him through the tears and snot leaking and promising that he will make it up to him
-when they get to moonbins apartment eunwoo is met with several cat toys and pictures frames of family friends and his cat
-it’s a mess but it’s charming
-moonbin rushing over to sir. Fluffikins and fussing over how much he lovers her and will miss her
-it’s rare to see a human have that much love for another human but to have so much love for an animal?? That’s extraordinary to eunwoo
-grim reapers are born when children were born into terrible lives pass away
-their parents didn’t love them or they got bullied from a young age
-they didn’t receive love as children so when they die they become grim reapers and deal with other children and people dying bc the universes is fucked up okAy
-so to see so much love for such a ugly cat… it warms eunwoo s heart
-eunwoo: hey so uh you love your cat a lot
-moonbin: yes ur point
-eunwoo: bc u love ur cat so much I’m gonna let you live
-moonbin is shook
-queue moonbin bowing to eunwoo and promising that he will take better care of his car and thanking him
-eunwoo waving it off but he is hella charmed by the cute human who loves his cat
-eunwoo is about to jump and fly out of moonbins window but Bin grabs his hand
-moonbin: wait when can I see you again
-eunwoo: why would u want to see me again when you see me again that means your dead
-moonbin: I gotta repay you
-eunwoo doesn’t really know what to say to that humans aren’t that nice to him!!! Humans always blame him for their deaths even though it’s their fault they put a toaster in the bathtub but what ever
-so when moonbin is being so kind to eunwoo!!! He is flustered as hECK
-eunwoo thinks for a moment until he swoops down and gives moonbin a quick peck on the lips
-eunwoo: you don’t have to repay me anymore just please don’t die soon you still have a life to live
-eunwoo quickly leaves and hides in a tree bC WHAT THE FUCKMSK AA I JUST KISSED A CUTE HUMAN IS THAT EVEN ALLOWED KAKZDH
-moonbin touching his lips and mummering how his lips were cold
-moonbin is also really flustered bc he got kissed by a grim reaper that’s fucking ripped and has ducking wings wHAT how cool is that
-moonbin tries everything to find eunwoo again
-he goes to the tree where he first fell out of, hangs out by the grave yard, tries going to the hospital but nothing works
-one day when Bin was hanging out with rocko he conveniently forgot about his peanut allergy and ate some cookies that had nuts in them
-One of them being peanuts
-fast forward a fun ride to the er and moonbin also dying bc rocko didn’t know what a EpiPen was or how to use it (same tho)
-moonbin doesn’t die but he was close
-when he wakes up he sees eunwoo sitting on one of the chairs with his hands in his hair looking vv stressed
-moonbin whispering hOLY SHIT
-eunwoo looking up with the most attractive scowl on his face wow he looks mad but hot AF
-eunwoo: I told you not to die anytime soon
-moonbin: shit did I die again
-eunwoo: no the doctors saved you pls teach ur ‘swag’ friend how to use an EpiPen
-moonbin: I’m sorry to inconvenience you, , , but why are u here if I’m not dead
-eunwoo tells him how he is drawn to near death experiences cause ppl most of the time die during them
-moonbin: wait so if I almost die but I don’t does that mean I get to see you again
-eunwoo: yeah I guess but why would u want death
-moonbin winking and being a cheeky little shit
-Bin has a few more encounters with eunwoo bc bin is dumb af and thirsty for some underworld dick I mean WHAT I AM A CHILD OF THE LORD
-nah but moonbin is vv whipped for eunwoo
-eunwoo being the dork he is finds it cute Bin is trying so hard to see him but also it worries him sick bc pLEASE Bin no why ARE YOU FLYING A KITE WITH A METAL WHISK ATTACHED TO IT DURING A STORM YOUR NOT BENJAMIN FRANKLIN
-one day eunwoo tells Bin how he used to be the prince of a kingdom long ago when he was human
-but his parents and the people of the castle neglected him and he was forgotten by the people
-he was never truly loved and got terribly sick at the age of 6
-the king and the queen didn’t even bat an eye to get him medicine or anything
-was a waste of time money and resources
-So prince woo died
-man it’s 2:13 idk now to make tragic back stories
-moonbin giving him a hug and telling woo that his parents are assholes and that he will love him twice as much as he does now to make up for the jerkbutt larents
-eunwoo being mushy in the inside cause moonbin loves him!!
- okay but like cuddling between eunwoo and Bin is the cutest
-Eunwoo is naturally cold and moonbin is a heater basically
-also eunwoo likes to spoon moonbin and wrap one of his wings around Bin like a blanket
-but eunwoo and Bin can only meet if Bin almost dies
-this really pains eunwoo bc bin is a fucking idiot and lowkey trying to kill himself
-eunwoo: WHY DID YOU JUMP OFF A CLIFF
-moonbin: I WOULD DIE FOR YOU
-eunwoo: dONT
-moonbin: TO BAD
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That’s it that’s my lol Drabble fic shit I hope u like it

anonymous asked:

Pls do the rest of the couples backstory pls Winnie I luv luv you 💕✨💕✨✨✨

aesthetic couple(namjoon): omg they met on set !!!! namjoon is super super super super super super lucky that someone else was sick n y/n was sent to the photo shoot instead. longest photo shoot of his life honestly bc he was hung up on her as soon as she wheeled a rack of clothes past him w/o even looking his way. and he couldn’t help but stare as he was getting his hair done and his eyeliner applied and completely ignoring whatever yoongi was complaining about this time bc the peach tones of her outfit n make up n aura were too captivating & his mind couldn’t rly be bothered to focus elsewhere. and y/n totally knew that he had been staring @ her the entire time bc hello this is y/n she’s always 2 steps ahead of namjoon (which he loves bc he’s always topped ppl intellectually n psychologically he’s never had to play catch up before) n so she continued to avoid his eyes as she smoothed out the collar of his shirt & joon was holding his breath bc her perfume that he recognized was really the icing on top of the cake. and namjoon wasn’t being his usual eloquent self omg he would only give nods in response 2 her questions n she wouldve assumed he was shy but her sister is like obsessed w bngtn so she knew he was supposed 2 be the ~eloquent one and she knew she wasn’t remembering incorrectly bc namjoon had always been the one that she payed attention to. y/n smiled when he was finally styled to her liking and patted his shoulder n said “you know my sister likes bangtan. she talks abt jimin 24/7, but i’m more into rappers” & joon finally woke up as she was walking away and he shouted out a v awkward “ur wearing chanel no5!!!” and y/n laughed @ his clumsy + cute attempt to impress her. n the fact that she was the smooth one during their first meeting still haunts joon 2 this day.

*namjoon & y/n talk abt clothes very seriously !!! and i was always worried that she came off a bit 된장녀 or something but uh this is why !!!!!! bc backstory :b also she’s mostly the one to initiate things n she rly keeps joon on his toes. (and omg sorry 4 talking to much but i rly rly rly rly love aesthetic couple so much they’re like ~soulmates 2 me)

ajae couple(seokjin): they met @ uni (have u seen the pics of seokjin @ school………..amazing…….)!!! seokjin is hardly ever on campus (he’s a v busy man) so he was super super lost n confused trying to find a restroom one day. and while he was wandering through the halls he saw y/n carrying a 50 ft stack (an exaggeration) of coloring books (there’s a reason ehehheh) and even tho his bladder was abt 2 explode he ran over to help her bc it really looked like she’d fall over if a spec of dust landed on top of them. but being suddenly approached by a tall n broad (n handsome) guy startled y/n so s he fell over anyway. and seokjin laughed his rly rly loud goofy laugh as he picked up the coloring books surrounding her and made a rly cheesy “wow i didn’t think you’d fall for me this quickly” joke & @ first y/n was completely appalled but then she realized he wasn’t laughing at her he was laughing at his own joke lmao !!!! not everyone is as confident n open as seokjin he has no problem talking 2 ppl but it was kind of not the case for y/n she didn’t rly know what to say or do so he did abt 90% of the talking as he carried the coloring books (he didn’t ask abt them) to wherever they needed to go n y/n did abt 100% of the laughing bc seokjin held back a little not wanting 2 overwhelm her and because he rly liked hearing her laugh for some reason. so they get 2 where y/n needs to go n seokjin puts everything down n jokingly asks if there’s a 50ft stack of colored pencils that he also needs to bring in n she laughs again so he’s satisfied n decides to quit while he’s ahead. before he leaves he asks 4 her number and also directions to the nearest restroom !!!!!!!

*y/n has texted him while she was @ uni before n also they always talk abt silly childish kinda interests n there’s a reason for that but it’s mostly seokjin’s personality + y/n’s indiv. backstory!!!

snow couple(jimin): they met…………@ the dmv hehehehehehh! jimin can’t drive yet but he really really wants to and in korea u gotta take one written test n two driving tests. mini is there for the first driving test n he’s sosososo nervous bc if he fails this he really won’t hear the end of it from the others……….especially jeon jeongguk. he’s gone over the procedure abt a thousand times in his head and he’s convinced that he’s ready but then the small waiting room door opens and in walks y/n dressed in all white & her hair in pretty bun (she looks like she has v important plans after this) and she’s reading the driving manual they gave him after his written test and jimin is surprised bc he for sure thought he’d get celeb privilege n take the test alone (plus its early morning who else would be here). y/n sits beside him and notices he’s not studying @ all so she’s like hey wanna share my book !!!! and omg shy jimin is like o….kay…….sure as she scoots closer to him. n jimin pretends to read the left page but rly he’s looking @ her through his peripheral n listening to her whisper the ~important things on the right page to herself and it’s kinda calming but also making him incredibly nervous. n when y/n notices he’s totally not reading she closes the book and introduces herself and jimin (v shyly) does the same n she tells him that she thinks she has a 3% chance of passing considering that her brother has been teaching her & it took him 3 tries to get his license n mini laughs @ this and says that he has a 2% chance of passing because bc he only studied last night and exactly 0 ppl have been teaching him how to drive. so they go out to take their tests and jimin cheers for y/n and she fails n y/n cheers for jimin & he fails but it’s ok and jimin’s like “it looked like u were playing v bad gta” n y/n’s like “well u looked like u were 8th place in mariokart” and while the instructor went to schedule another test for them they were talking abt the teasing they’d get from their friends n jimin was describing guk like he was an elementary school bully & y/n gave an elementary school reaction n was like “ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ he’s probably just jealous bc ur more handsome than he is” & jimin was gooooooone

*they can’t drive lmfkaksoaoa that’s why jimin is always running everywhere !!!! :b

innocuous phrase trends come and go and I never know why ppl bitch about them like it’s the end of the world. like that brief sprig of 2016 when everyone said “my dude”….u woulda thought some people were poisoned every time I said it lmao ppl were like ugggh sick of ppl saying zhat….and now guess what no one says my dude. it ended. birth. life. death. Renewal. all things end in time. shut up

imagine park woojin as your classmate

project partners to dating partners :’)

(( AS REQUESTED // omg since ure a woojin stan can i get a request where y/n and woojin study in the same course after his wanna one activities (before he debuts in brand new music) and got closer after a project andddd you can write whatever after that LMAO :^) THANK YOU ))

  • okay so ure a fan of wanna one
  • who isnt tbh
  • and lucky u bc it turns out tht ure going to college w the one and only park woojin!!!!!!! (srsly tho what r the chances)
  • u forgot tht woojins age is kinda similar to urs bc he always acts like a tough guy on stage or a little kid off stage and u forget that hes a student like u
  • anyways
  • its a little weird to get used to seeing him in person after all the pictures n videos uve seen of him online
  • like?? hes a Real Person??? what a wild idea
  • and even tho ure both in the same college course, u try to keep ur distance

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Of Books and Dirty Cash pt 9

Please read part 1, part 2,  part 3 , part 4 , part 5 , part 6 , part 7 and part 8 so this will make sense

Librarian/gangster!Au

Yoongi x Reader

Before you moved to live on campus for college, you had never heard of a librarian who had a reputation for yelling. But not only does Min Yoongi yell, he’s also dangerous, and part of something much, much darker. When curiosity gets the better of you, you end up involved in much more than you bargained for.

You can also read part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18


You were half shoved into the backseat of the car, sandwiched between two men.

“I don’t understand, there must be some kind of misunderstanding…” You said, but your voice sounded far away. You reminded yourself to breath as your vision swam. The last thing you needed right now was to pass out.

“Sorry love, but there’s no misunderstanding.” The man on your left said, holding up a piece of fabric. “You’re best bet is just to cooperate.”

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Taekook .

it’s 2.00 Am. What am I doing with my life?

Kim Taehyung is a prick.

Jung Kook can’t remember the last time he’s wanted to peel the skin off someone’s face just because they smirked. At least ,not a someone who isn’t Kim Taehyung. And here he is, with his arms around Jung Kook’s shoulders, leering at him and smirking at the blonde girl in front of them.

The girl, who had just been about to ask for Jung Kook’s number , blinks up at Taehyung with a bemused look on her face.

“Oh.. are .. are you guys… together?” Her face is flaming red, as red as Hobi hyung’s hair and Jung Kook opens his mouth in horror because, christ, the mere thought of being together with Taehyung is horrifying and of course they…

“Of course we’re together. Right sweetcheeks?” And he leans over , purring into Jung Kook’s ears.

Sweetcheeks? What the fuck was that?!

But the damage was done and the girl scarpers off before Jung Kook can voice his displeasure at the ferret.

“What the fuck are you doing? I was talking to her!” He hisses out in anger but Taehyung merely shrugs.

“Her nose is off center and she giggles like a fucking hyena. You can do better Jeon.”

Kim Taehyung is a sap ( when drunk )

Jung Kook watches the blonde as he tumbles over the back of the couch, his long legs hitting the coffee table in Yoongi’s apartment with a deafening crash. He winces. He doesn’t move to help him up because, God, that could go wrong in so many ways. Instead he waits till Taehyung has finally righted himself , apologized profusely to everyone in the vicinity and settled back against the dirty couch before making his presence known.

“You’ve had enough, Taehyung. Lets get the hell outta here.” He prods him at the base of his skull and Taehyungs head lolls forward, his chin hitting the edge of his collar bone.

“Jung Kook… I love you.”

Very few people actively react to the confession because its a standard equation. Kim Taehyung plus alcohol equals love confessions to all and sundry.

“Yes, blondie. I know. Now get your ass off the couch.” Jung Kook walks around to stand in between Taehyung’s legs, hands slipping around his shoulders in an attempt to yank him to his feet. It works quite well and he soon has a swaying , wasted Taehyung, teetering on his toes, one arm draped around his shoulders the other clutching a glass of champagne .

“Will you marry me?”

“Of course. I’m all yours.” Jung Kook is too amused to sound sarcastic.

“Forget about Eunha. I’ll make you happy.”

Jung Kook stifles a smile.

And then it happens. Taehyung kisses him. Its never happened before and Jung Kook is stunned. Too stunned to realize he almost, kinda , maybe a little , likes it. Likes it so much that he kisses back, their tongues tangling and hands getting frisky, right there on the balcony and only when Taehyung knocks one of the flowerpots to the pavement, Jung Kook comes back to his senses.

Taehyung doesn’t remember it the next day and Jung Kook sees no need to change that fact.

Kim Taehyung is an enigma.

“You won’t believe who I ran into today. ” Jung Kook exclaims excitedly , practically flouncing into their shared apartment, a bagful of Taehyung’s favorite snacks and a carton of beer held in his hands. Taehyung relieves him of the baggage and hums a question.

Jung Kook waits till he’s on the couch, pulling off his socks. He wants to share his big news in the most amazing way ever. Like a punchline or something cocky so that Taehyung would be like No shit ! Potter really?! Wow! That is totally awesome!

He glances at the blonde , who’s pouring a glassful of beer ( which is totally dumb ) and finally gives up. He’s never been good with words and he can’t wait to get the news out.

“Eun Ha. She’s back from Egypt.”

The sound of shattering glass has him on his foot, staring wildly at Taehyung who has blood running down his palms and is looking at him with a blank expression on his face.

“Oh, shit, are you alright, Taehyung?” He rushes to his side but the other is already swearing and kneeling right into the shards on the floor and Jung Kook rolls his eyes , slipping an arm underneath the guy’s armpits in an attempt to pull him away from the massacre on the floor. But Taehyung pushes him away. So hard that Jung Kook collides with the dining table catching himself at the last second.

“i.. I’m fine. ” Taehyung is shaking, his eyes flitting wildly between the shattered glass on the floor and the blood in his hand. He mutters something and without warning punches the dining table, nearly splintering the wood.

The pain seemed to bring him to his senses,

“Oh, fuck. I’m sorry, I-” Taehyung looks clinically insane and Jung Kook reaches out, stopping him from hurting himself further..

“Hey. Its alright. You.. you should take it easy. I’ll take care of this.” Jung Kook mutters.

He wants to take care of the cut on Taehyung, but he’s not particularly good at that.

He carefully cleans the cut on Taehyung’s smooth skin and tapes it up. He stops for a second to admire his handiwork .

“there, all better.” He places a kiss on Taehyung’s finger and feels his entire body seize up. Taehyung bounds to his feet and with a mumbled ‘goodnight’, disappears into his bedroom. The sound of the door slamming follows almost immediately after and Jung Kookis left blinking in confusion.

“You’re welcome!” He calls out to the closed door.

He doesn’t get a response.

Kim Taehyung is a life saver.

From : KTaehyung.

To : JJkook

Whr r u? Meeting starts in ten. They’re picking ppl for promotion exams in may. Don be late you fool.

From : JJKook

To : KTaehyung

Shit. 4got abt tat. Taehyung help me out. Promised  Eunha will take her out for dinner. Cover for me.

From : JJKook

To : KTaehyung

Tae?

From : KTaehyung

To : JJKook

K.

From : JJKook

To : KTaehyung

I love you, dude. You’re the best.

Kim Taehyung is the best roommate ever.

Taehyung walks into the apartment at the precise second when Jung Kook has managed to wiggle his hands underneath Eunha’s blouse. The blonde freezes on the spot and Jung Kook curses his impeccable timing , as always.

“Tar. I.. We..” He stops as Eunha scrambles to her feet, adjusting her clothes with disturbing quickness and smiling, wide-eyed and blushing .

“Oh, Taehyung. You’re home?” She moves forward but Taehyung is already shrugging his coat back on. He waves his wallet a bit.

“I was just here to get this. You guys.. you should.. you know.. continue with…”

And he leaves quickly , before any of them could be more embarrassed.

Eunha smiles at the locked door and turns to Jung Kook.

“He’s a lot more handsome now.” She says, running a finger up and down his jaw.

Jung Kook is too busy staring at the freckled skin of Eunha’s neck to make sense of her words.

“Who? Tae? Oh.. Yeah.. He’s awesome. Now, where were we?”

Kim Taehyung is an idiot.

“ Taehyung, why would you-?” Yerin looks stunned when she finds out that Taehyung is the blind date Eunha has set her up with. Didn’t Eunha know about how badly the guy was in love with Jung Kook??

Taehyung quickly shushes her and drapes an arms around her shoulder and squeezes. Jung Kook frowns, not sure why he’s manhandling the poor girl.

After dinner, Jung Kook moves to the rest room and Yerin goes to talk to some of her friends at the other table. When they return, Eunha is flushed and red.

“You’re still the world’s biggest git , Kim Taehyung. Jung Kook,I’d like to leave.” She gets up, prodding Jung Kook’s shoulder. Jung Kook catches the sneer on Taehyung’s face and automatically mouths what did you do?

Taehyung shrugs , calmly drinking his wine and making no attempts to apologize for whatever he’s done to Eunha.

Later, Jung Kook confronts him.

“What the fuck was that?”

“Maybe you should ask your precious Eunha.”

“She’s too nice to tell it out loud. She told me she doesn’t want to come between the pair of us. What the hell did you say, you moron?” Jung Kook snaps.

Taehyung looks stunned.

“Forget it, Jeon. Since you’ve already decided who’s mistake this is, I’m not going to hang around and justify myself.”

“You’re a fucking idiot!” Jung Kook screams at his retreating back.

The door slams shut in his face .

Kim Taehyung is heartless.

“I’m moving out.” Taehyung announces and Jung Kook works hard to keep his face neutral. Like it isn’t really a big deal. Like best friends ceased existing without warning and friendships dissolved everyday.

“Fine.”

Taehyung packs all his clothes and stops at a Mario figurine.

“I’m taking this.” He says , quickly picking the toy up.

“What-No! I paid half! And we bought it for the house. So its supposed to stay in the house.” Jung Kook snaps, holding his hand out. Taehyung sneers.

“Whatever. It getting a new house. I bet its sick of sticking around with you anyway”.

Jung Kook opens his mouth in shock and then pounces on Taehyung. They roll around on the couch, the carpet and the coffee table till their hair sticks up in odd angles and they’re both breathless and panting.

“I’m not letting you leave with that.” Jung Kookglares.

“I’m not leaving without it.” Taehyung glares right back.

“So don’t!” Jung Kook snaps. Taehyung looks stunned and then collapses against him.

“Fine.” He mutters.

Jung Kook fights to keep the goofy grin off his face.

Kim Taehyung is unpredictable.

“I proposed.” Jung Kook says casually.

Taehyung doesn’t reply. They’re both sitting on the stairs leading to the terrace and Taehyung is smoking .

“She said yes.”

The cigarette drops to the floor and Taehyung snuffs it out before turning to him with a smile.

Its wide and bright and blinding and so fucking artificial that Jung Kookis embarrassed.

“TAe, I…”

“I’ll kill you if you apologize.”

Jung Kook gulps, nodding.

“I might not make it to the wedding.” Taehyung says casually and Jung Kook feels a bit wronged. Maybe Tae was a little possessive of him but missing his wedding?

“What? No! Come on, Tae… I was hoping you’d be my best-”

And Taehyung explodes.

“Okay stop! Okay! I’ve had enough of you and your fucking obliviousness and God knows I’ve put up with more shit that any half-wit should but I’m not going to stand here and pretend I’m happy for you and that its alright for me to come and stand next to you in a big fucking church while you swear your love to some other …” He stops , glares and rushes out and Jung Kookis too stunned to do more than blink.

What the hell was that?!

Jung Kook doesn’t go after him but when he does reach home he finds that Taehyung has vanished. With his things.

And he has left the Mario behind.

Kim Taehyung is gay.

“He is what?”

“He’s gay , Jung Kook. Everyone knows that.” Hoseok gives him a look. Jung Kook tries not to have a panic attack.

“What- No! He isn’t…I mean.. I’d know.. I’m his best friend and-”

“He’s always hanging around with you and hugging you and holding hands and shit. How can that not be gay?” Namjoon snickers and Hoseok elbows him on the ribs. Jung Kook however is too mindfucked to notice.

“That-That’s just Tae. I mean its like me and Jimin, I mean its nothing new or different-”

“Me? When was the last time I got drunk and asked you to marry me?” Jimin rolls his eyes.

And the kiss.

And the hugs and the frisky hands and the lingering glances and the stupid nicknames and the home cooked meals and the way he would take a day off every time Jung Kook caught a cold and-

Taehyung likes me.

like, really really, likes me.

and maybe, kinda, just a little bit, I like him?

Jung Kook feels his breath catch. He isn’t … gay. He isn’t. He’s attracted to Eunha. even though he feels a little fake around her , like he’s acting unlike him but that’s expected. You can’t just be yourself with the girl you love right?

Right?

But his mind isn’t agreeing and he keeps getting flashes of being himself with  Taehyung.

He needs to get his head on straight.

So he goes right up To Eunha’s apartment.

And finds her in bed with some other guy.

Kim Taehyung is a smug bastard.

“ I’m sorry.”

Taehyung looks up from his place in Yoongi’s couch and raises an eyebrow. Yoongi is on vacation with Jin for a month and Taehyung is crashing here for the duration. At least that’s what Jimin says.

“That day at the restaurant. She came onto you didn’t she?” Jung Kook studiously stares at Taehyung’s face although he wants to look away.

“Does that make a difference?”

“I suppose not. I just.. I wanted to apologize. ”

“Apology accepted.” Taehyung doesn’t look up from his position, face down on the couch.

“I called off the wedding.”

There is just a tiny fraction of a pause.

“A simple sorry will do.” Taehyung shrugs.

Jung Kook curses the stubborn blonde and prods him on the shoulder.

Taehyung finally turns around.

“Jeon, I don’t have time for-”

Jung Kook cuts him off with a kiss. Its frantic and fast and over before Taehyung can even acknowledge it .

Taehyung blinks .

“What was that?” He doesn’t look angry . Just curious.

“I’m not gay!” Jung Kook blurts out. Taehyung raises an eyebrow and if he’s fighting laughter on the inside, it doesn’t show on his face.

“You aren’t?”

“No.. I mean not in general.”

“In general?”

“Yeah, but you, you’re like… different. An exception. Like an anomaly. ”

“An anomaly?”

“Yeah, you know, like the deviation from the normal. Not that you aren’t normal. Because you are. You’re normal. But not in a boring way. You aren’t boring.” Its a train wreck and Taehyung thinks that Jung Kook’s lucky that Taehyung’s already madly in love with him because there’s no other way he’d enjoy this confession.

“Christ, Taehyung. A little help here?” Jung Kook finally grunts looking heavenward in exasperation. Taehyung carefully wraps a finger around the waistband of Jung Kook’s pants and yanks him to the couch. Jung Kook yelps. Lands on the taller boy with a plop.

“You’re so clueless , ?Jeon its rather endearing.”

Jung Kook rolls his eyes.

“I just-”

Taehyung kisses him, slow and smooth and Jung Kook whimpers , the sensation new and frightening. He opens his mouth instinctively and Taehyung pushes his tongue in , the soft pink muscle exploring his mouth with relaxed patience. Jung Kook tightens his fingers on Taehyung’s shirt and groans as their hips make contact.

He suddenly realizes that he’s having a little problem down there and tries to rise up but collapses again when Taehyung wraps his arms around his waist and yanks.

“Fuck.” Taehyung hisses when Jung Kook’s arousal grinds into his hips and he cants his hips forward till they’re lined against each other, breath coming out in pants, grinding down between each exhale.

Jung Kook waits a bit, swallows the saliva pooling in his mouth and can’t bring himself to look up at Tae. Instead he shifts a bit more and tries to look for some reaction , anything that says this isn’t alright but what he gets is -

“Oh, fuck.. ” Taehyung’s eyes are glassy, his breath whooshing out in a gasp. Jung Kook wants to sit back up, suggest moving this to the bedroom but the moment he rises himself to his elbows he gets hit by a bout of vertigo and his blood rushes south, collecting somewhere around his belly button and he groans.

White noise fills his ears as Taehyung kisses him. Slow and deep, his fingers tangling into Jung Kook’s messy black hair, massaging his scalp. One hand slips up his shirt and traces his stomach muscles , fingers pebbling the nipple and eliciting a yelp of pleasure from his mouth.

Jung Kook feels fingers ghosting on the front of his pants and he returns the favor, shocked to find Taehyung equally hard.

At first it seems a rather pointless attempt at friction. Jung Kook can guess that this isn’t going to get them off, but a particularly forceful impact sets his nerve endings on fire and he grinds down , eager for more. Taehyung flips them over and even though their dicks aren’t aligned completely, they fall into a rhythm.

Its not perfect and its not something anyone would even consider doing but its them. And its fucking perfect.

And suddenly Jung Kookis hit by the thought that this is Taehyung and they’re doing this and he feels the familiar tug at the pit of his stomach .

“Shit, Tae I think I’m gonna-” He feels Taehyung’s fingers reaching between them, pushing against his cock through the fabric of his slacks .

“Yeah- fuck- Jung Kook…” Taehyung grunts and grinds down and in a frenzy of heated hips, they both come into their pants , shuddering .

Jung Kook tries to calm his pounding heart and collapses against Taehyung’s chest. His nose tickles as he burrows it into soft blonde hair.

“I’m good aren’t I?” Taehyung grins.

“Shut up, you smug bastard.”

Kim Taehyung is amazing.

When Jung Kook pushes into Taehyung he has a million thoughts warring inside his head as he pants into the pillow next to Tae’s head. The sensation surrounding his cock is otherworldly ; tight and warm and hot and fiery and he can’t help but wonder if his brains gonna be fried by the time they’re done with each other.

But the thought of this hurting Taehyung is keeping his pleasure at bay.

“Are you all right? Is this okay? Am I hurting you too much? Fuck Am I doing this right? Should I stop? I’ll stop.” He pants, staring into the blonde’s face.

But Taehyung reaches out, fingers curling at the base of his neck, his eyes squeezed shut as he pulls Jung Kook down for a kiss.

Jung Kook relaxes into the kiss, angles his hips carefully and pushes, brushing against the blonde’s prostate and enjoying the way he keens and shudders, back arching off the bed and mouth open in a 'O’.

“I love you Kim Taehyung. You’re so fucking amazing.”

anonymous asked:

can you talk about the liveshow and what you think? im feeling really anxious cause it seems phil isn't staying at their place and like dan seemed really angry and short tempered? like he kinda insinuated he hated the presents phil got him, he barely mentioned phil, he threw his phone down and said 'apparently im phils PR agent', he very clearly wasn't a fan of the tinder video. idk maybe im over-reacting and you can reassure me but the entire thing seemed so strange and it has me on high alert

hi love!!! i’m going to be honest, i definitely didn’t interpret any of these things the way that you did so i will do my best to try and go through each of the issues you brought up and explain why i didn’t see them in this live show–hopefully that will help you, and i think it will give me the space to also talk about some of the things that stood out to me a bit!! so your first concern is that it seems like phil isn’t staying in their place, by which i think you mean that phil isn’t living with dan? i can’t even articulate how wholeheartedly i disagree but i’ll try hahah. what we know is that phil left for two days literally two weeks ago in order to go to what they described as a family thing, and that now he’s gone for “a few days” again, for another “family thing.” i don’t see why there’s any reason at all to disbelieve these explanations or take them for anything more than what they are on face? we know phil has quite a large family with many random cousins and aunties and since dnp have been traveling so much in the last couple of months and are set to travel again in a few weeks for vidcon, and moreover phil is someone who values his family quite highly, it makes sense that he would maybe use of this downtime to catch up with them. and it fits that he’s not taking dan to these things bc dan has almost never gone to extended family events w phil that we know of (family weddings and the like) and he’s been expressing for the past few weeks how badly he just wants to be alone and not see any more ppl in order to decompress and recharge and get his creative juices flowing. 

but let’s jst say for argument’s sake that the “family thing” is an excuse to cover up something else that’s happening–i still do not see why phil not staying with dan is a reasonable conclusion.  like, w most things to do w dnp there is sometimes room for discussion and it could be better to consider both sides. for this though, there’s truly ZERO evidence to support this and plenty of evidence to refute it including but not limited to phil’s tv box sets behind dan when he does his live shows, the numerous pics phil has posted of them moving and then of him in rooms w the same furniture, decor, and hardwood floors that appear in dan’s pics, and the fact that like, it just wouldnt make any fucking sense for them to go through all this effort to lie about them not staying in the same place? what would they achieve out of not telling the truth about moving apart? and also why would dan then even mention phil going to “see his family?” isn’t that just drawing attention to something he is hypothetically trying to keep secret? i honestly can’t even believe this is something i have to take the time to address but it’s getting frustrating to see it keep cropping up (and i’m not blaming you anon bc ik how compelling conspiracy theories can be, but in this case there is truly no reason not to jst go w the evidence of your own eyes and trust in the fact that dnp are just as disgustingly happy in their domestic bliss as they appear to be.) if there IS some reason that the “family thing” is an excuse or a cover i think there are any number of more reasonable things that they could be covering–e.g. it’s v possible phil has something negative happening in his family right now like a sick relative; maybe phil is working on a solo project that requires him to be out of the house a bit to film or work at diff locations; maybe they’re BOTH working on a joint project but phil is taking care of parts of it and giving dan the time and space to rest and recharge. so many alternatives that make more sense than them living apart. 

to your point about dan’s mood, i definitely did not read him as being angry or short-tempered, and let me emphasize that i am remarkably sensitive to him getting into those more negative moods. in my opinion from watching dan so closely for so many months now, when dan is upset about something he tends to turn most of that ire inwards and it leads to a live show ripe with self-deprecating comments, repeated mentions of wanting death or his life being a joke with zero accompanying smiles or laughs, a lot of notices of negative comments in the chat, long rambles about his feelings or the general lack of direction in his life, etc. i think this live show was a good example of him being tired and nothing more, and that seems understandable given the general activity and socializing of the last week. he seemed lower energy with a lot less yelling and flailing about than he is normally prone to, but i didn’t get any of those really strong negative themes that he normally gets lost in when he’s not in a good mood. on the flip side he pretty confidently defended his decision to change his yt banner and icon, even tho he read out negative comments he laughed them off and assured everyone the changes are temporary, he seemed eager to spend a few days thinking about his next main channel vid and excited to have the time to put more creative effort into it, he was passionate and didn’t even qualify his opinions very much when he talked about wonder woman and the importance of representation and uk politics and the vital role of young people in the electorate, he was full of energy when he was discussing nintendo and steven universe and his other random interests. there were plenty of moments where he could have gone down a darker route but i actually thought that on the whole he kept the content of this show quite positive and light.

regarding his presents, i don’t think anything he said made it seem like he “hated” them? i mean he wasn’t super enthusiastic but that,, makes sense? given what he showed us and what he explained to us about them? w the fidget spinner it was a literal gag gift that he was underwhelmed by bc theyre litro not fun to use at all. makes sense. w the glass bulb tht predicts the weather i thought his tone was gently teasing and fond about how phil so would be the guy to find a nerdy gift like that and think it was awesome but dan the cold-hearted cynic obvi has to point out the lack of scientific merit lmao. but he was quick to defend it as well and state that he still thinks it’s a cool-looking object that he can look at, which honestly reminded me of the xmas present phil got dan with the inky dots suspended in water, and how dan said phil rly understood his need for calming, aesthetic looking things in order to soothe his mind. re: the plastic bonsai and the dog shirt from his family, both of those also seem like gag gifts and he was reacting accordingly bc they’re funny so he’s playing the necessary role of spurned gift-receiver in order for the joke to carry. and then w the sunflowers, i mean i found that whole bit v entertaining? it’s just a fun quirky fact about dan. he appreciates the thought and he’s still going to display the flowers, but it’s  funny as fuck to think about this giant ass man being afraid of literal sunflowers. and tbh i dont think this is the full haul of gifts he got. he’s sharing the ones he feels comfy sharing, the ones that are more joke-y and less personal and that make more entertaining stories for him to share, and that makes sense. i don’t think it needs to be interpreted more deeply in order to speculate on his general emotional state or his relationship w phil. 

you next stated he barely mentioned phil, and i think that makes sense given that he had a lot of non-phil-related things to get through in this ls. it’s clear there was a list of topics he wanted to discuss in his mind or maybe even written down that included his new graphic design, his birthday/the gift haul, uk politics, wonder woman, the gaming channel, new dinof vid. he tends to talk more about phil when there are fewer general topics he needs to touch on–this gives him space to just share a few domestic anecdotes. but this time around there were jst a lot of other issues to discuss and i think that’s fine? he’s his own person, he has perspectives he wants to share, he had a busy week and imo it’s not weird at all if sometimes he doesn’t have that much to say about his partner lmao 

he definitely did not throw his phone down after reading out the text from phil. and the “apparently i’m just phil’s PR agent” comment seemed soooo joke-y and fond to me, i actually thought it was incredibly cute. i get how tone is subjective and i suppose it’s open to interpretation and if you were reading that w this larger context of feeling as though dan was in a very negative mood, i understand why the comment may have struck you the wrong way, but to me i really found it to be a playful bants-y lil remark that fits very much w the way that dnp tease each other when they’re happy and flirty and whatnot 

finally, with respect to phil’s tinder video, i actually was struck by how far out of his way he seemed to go to defend phil for his behaviors? he said like multiple times “it’s not that weird” and tried to make everyone feel like we’ve all “been there,” which like,,, no. we haven’t all been there. wtf. if anything it felt like a classic sidelong defensive comment that dan makes where he is responding to criticism without really explicitly mentioning the criticism. since there were a few ppl who found the video a bit uncomfortable both bc of phil admitting to catfishing a random person online and bc of phil recommending tinder to an audience w a significant percentage of underage ppl, it’s v possible to me that dan saw some of that criticism and was sort of heading it off without fully getting into it. he did kind of laugh when he said “what a partnership” referring to tinder and phil, but i thought that was completely valid and in good spirit–i mean it really IS the unlikeliest and most random of partnerships and i think dan being somewhat openly aware of that is kind of funny and cool. moreover, his tone seemed fond (again) when he was talking about how he was cringing while actually watching the video. i mean a bunch of ppl had full on intense secondhand embarrassment while watching so i dont find that odd at all, and i honestly thought dan’s explanation of his own feelings seemed mild in comparison. im also interested in the fact that he’s going to be making his own tinder video though not one like phil’s, which, if it is the same one that he is going to putting creative energy into in the coming few days, opens up a whole realm of possibilities about how dan is possibly going to connect tinder to any of his own experiences. i’m curious and a lil nervous lmao. 

all in all i thought this live show was actually pretty decent. i mean it wasnt the most interesting as far as dan’s live shows go but it also certainly wasn’t off-puttingly negative for me either. i thought dan was quite honest about his emotions w many of the things he discussed and although he seemed exhausted he also seemed a little bit grateful and excited to get the chance to actually be alone in the coming days and think about his new video. im excited for him to get that chance and looking forward to see what it will be!!! and who knows,, maybe the time alone will finally convince him his new graphic design is trash and he’ll be inspired to change his banner/icons to things that aren’t Ugly ;)))

anonymous asked:

Why does everyone hate snape? Like I don't disagree with the hate towards him but I don't completely understand

ooooohhh honey lemme enlighten u to the HUMAN EQUIVALENT OF A VOMIT SOAKED TRASH BAG NAMED SEVERUS SNAPE

  • so like a lot of people hated snape and then had a dramatic change of heart when they got to the chapter the princes tale BUT LIKE HIS SAD STORY DOES NOT ERASE ALL OF THE SHIT THAT HE DID BEFORE THAT 
  • like the entire snape/lily “”“"love story”“”“ is complete bullshit and offensive to me as a person liKE lets review okay: 
  • snape stalks lily as a child/offends and alienates her sister
  • snape and lily are friends at hogwarts while hes like in love with her
  • lily tries to stand up for snape and SNAPE CALLS HER A RACIAL SLUR
  • ((and need i remind u that before that lily had mentioned that she was freaked out by the death eater friends that snape was hanging around and he like defends them???? ok))
  • ““No—listen, I didn’t mean—”“—to call me Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?””
  • THEN SNAPE JOINS A GENOCIDAL HATE MOVEMENT TARGETING THE SAME GROUP OF PEOPLE AS THE PERSON HE APPARENTLY LOVES????????????? LIKE THIS MAKES ZERO SENSE TO ME 
  • HE LITERLALY JOINS A TERRORIST ORGANIZATION LIEK 
  • HE BECOMES A NAZI THE WIZARDINGLY EQUIVALENT OF A NAZI I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY LIKE 
  • A   N A Z I 
  • and ppl are just like well he realized he was wrong!!! like okay but if u think about it 
  • snape switched sides when he heard the prophecy that was created AFTER harry was born and like assuming he joined right out of hogwarts thats still FOUR YEARS OF BEING A DEATH EATER 
  • the fact of the matter is that he //only// cared about lily and like how many other “"mudbloods” or muggles did he kill or do nothing as they were killed before that??? being brave and being a hero isnt about doing something for someone you care about (or have a weird obsession with) its about doing it because u know its right. 
  • “You do not care, then, about the deaths of her husband and child? They can die, as long as you have what you want?” Snape said nothing, but merely looked up at Dumbledore.“ 
  • HE DID NOT CARE IF JAMES AN DHARRY DIED IF HER HUSBAND AND CHILD DIED AS LONG AS SHE DIDNT??????? like that is not a healthy love okay if he truly cared for lily hed realize that like her son and husband are just as important to her if not more than her life
  • watch this video where jk rowling literally proves this point 
  • another thing that bugs me is that even after snape changes sides HES STILL A GIANT DICKFACE 
  • he verbally abuses the trio for 6 years like. i dont understand how people can just FORGET THAT 
  • HE TORTURED HARRY FOR YEARS LIKE HARRY HAD DONE NOTHIGN WRONG HE JUST LOOKED LIKE JAMES AND HE VERBALLY ABUSED HOW CAN U JUSTIFY THAT???????????? 
  • he was cruel to the point where he was NEVILLES WORST FEAR AT AGE 13 LIKE OH MY GOD WHO THE FUKC DOES THAT DO A CHILD?????
  • he was a bully plain and simple and he bullied CHILDREN who were just doing their best 
  • he constantly put down hermione for her work ethic and like MADE FUN OF HER APPEARANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE MADE FUN OF A TEENAGE GIRLS APPEARANCE LIEK WHAT THE UFKC I HATE THIS GUY SO MCH 
  • like i dont understnad if he loved lily soooo much like how do u think LILY would feel seeing her snape treat her child, the person she sACRIFICED her LIFE for, this way. if u think she would be anything less than disgusted ur wrong. 
  • also that can i just like so snapes patronus was a doe right??? the same as lilys. whereas james patronus was a stag and the stag the doe compliment each other and are eQUALs. like he has the same patronus as her like a copy u know idk where im going w this but u see it just like rubbed me the wrong way like thats not a true love u know
  • like his love for lily to me read as like the classic like friendzoned guy deal lIEK lily NEVER loved him and he spent all of these years weirdly obsessed w her because she rejected him (AFTER HE CALLED HER A RACIAL SLUR????????? OK) and then he hangs on to that for YEARS after she dies ???? 
  • snape is basically a fedora wearing douche and u cant convince me otherwise
  • one thing i see ppl say a lot is like bring up his childhood and like the fact that he was brought up w pureblood prejudice u know and like that argument is suCH bullshit to me like u know who also was brought up that way?????? both sirius and regulus black. sirius joined the order and like fought against that shit and regulus tried to take voldemort down from the inside. no excuses tbh. 
  • OH MY GOD U KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH in the third book snape tries at every opportunity to get lupin FIRED when lupin is basically the wizarding equivalent of disabled and hes been HOMELESS and weak and SICK hasnt had a job in so long and is poor and shit and like they were rivals when they were SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD and like snape still tries to get him fired like i dont care that u were enemies when u were teenagers thats abhorrent 

basically snape is the worst person ever and i hate that harry named his son after him i just ignore that that ever happened bc its gross and icK and gINNY WHY DID U LET HIM DO THIS i hate snape and so should u 

anonymous asked:

You should write a whole thing about why Nikolai is the best.

at first i was like “okay no i’m too sick to do this rn” but then i thought to myself “yo this is nikolai….. pull yourself together” so there ya go:

- a kind and loving soul
- trapped in a terribly attractive body. a burden, truly… an actual literal curse… and he knows it. oh yes he does.
- sometimes i lie at night and think that he still could have sided with the darkling but he didn’t?? he still chose to do the right thing?? like okay hear me out: nikolai’s always been drawn to power and that was made very clear throughout the series, his mind is constantly spinning and thinking of ways to help him ensure ravka’s good status which, well, can’t happen without some kind of dominance/power. and the darkling had that (even if it was based on fear rather than true loyalty) and sure, nikolai was in his sturmhond persona but he still could have dropped the act and made a pact with him to help him destroy the fold and rule ravka? (which would have cleared nikolai of all responsibilities and he would have been granted a free pass to do whatever he wanted with his life) and he didn’t. he couldn’t. you know why?? bc he’s a damn good person and a mothereffin’ boss that’s why
- despite his royal bastard act and off-handed sarcasm, he’s ALWAYS been nothing but gentle and caring and JUST (especially towards alina but you already know that)
- attentive!!!!!! and not just bc he has some secret agenda to either use or demolish alina (or her powers)!!!!!
- never once tried to strip alina of her agency (on the contrary, he tried to emphasize it and bring out the best of her)
- RESPECTFUL AF (literally never even tried to get into alina’s pants… the farthest he went was that kiss by the lake but he never pushed her or demanded smth more of her bc he was well aware that he - or anyone for that matter S M H!!!! - didn’t have ANY claim to her)
- nikolai who was mocked and insulted his entire life - for being a bastard, for not being worthy of the throne, for being somewhat less than his stupid douchebag of a brother (when he was so obviously not), nikolai who everybody knew by a nickname given to him bc of his bastard status, sobachka, nikolai who later on was called ‘korol rezni’ bc of his scars and ppl never stopped gossiping behind his back, never!! N E V E R!!!! not O N C E!!!!!! lashed out at anyone
- “he’s been kind when he might have been cruel” is probably the realest, most important line in tgt history and i’m saying this with a heart over my heart bc alina has some GREAT ones ones but this?? 10/10 hashtag #i kNOW
- nikolai who remained calm and composed and fair when he found out how terrible the king really was
- gave genya the justice she deserved, gave her the life she deserved, gave her a place to stay and work and be useful and didn’t give a damn about her looks, made her a part of the triumvirate bc of her skills and not bc of the things she’s been through and the thought to undermine or pity her in ANY way never even crossed his mind
- smart as a whip (for real)
- always puts the life and well-being of others before his own
- literally sacrificed everything so his people could have something to look forward to, be grateful for, a better life for ravka
- never pressed alina for anything even when he saw she was slipping away from him and choosing a different life like?? he stepped?? aside?? bc that was the right thing to do /even if it wasn’t smfuckingh/
- hides his insecurities and puts on a smile bc he knows his role and duties and he knows he has responsibilities and yes the crown is heavy but he’ll bear it
- nikolai made sure none of the grisha who fought in the war were ignored, forgotten or left to live a poor life… even tamar & tolya who weren’t even ravkan citizens?? like yeah he knew them from his sturmhond days but they were free agents and yet he still wanted them by his side and welcomed them in his inner circle
- even :) after :) everything :) he :) still :) visits :) alina :))))))) so she’s not lonely :))) or sad :))) and i can bet my goddamn earrings he makes sure she doesn’t feel underappreciated or miserable or less bc he doesn’t want her to feel the way he has
- praised kaz (a kid he didn’t even know) for his wits and brilliance and was clearly delighted to see someone so smart and cunning a.k.a different classes who?? being condescending and acting superior wHERE???? what a Good
- truly the best king ravka could hope for :))))))))))))

makeup and boys

so i was thinking of what i should write, because i was pretty much bored and then thought of richie and eddie using makeup for the first time. i believe there’s hella ppl that may have written this already, but i couldn’t help myself, so here’s richie doing eddie’s makeup!

ps. i didn’t really check my grammar, so yeah, bye, correct grammar.


“so then bill just stood up, like it didn’t even happen. eds, it was crazy, i’m telling you! you missed so much today at school.“ 


"yeah, yeah. sure" 

eddie said, lying in his bed as he coughed again, this time less than before, thanks to the tea with honey in it, that his mom has prepared for him. of course, she didn’t know richie is here. if she did, she would already be dragging him by his shirt outside the house, grounding eddie and making  a whole scene out of this. 

thank god, eddie wasn’t as sick as he was before, so he didn’t have to deny richie’s offer to entertain him, he would never forgive himself for saying no. 


eddie never said ‘no’ to richie. 

never. 

he has always been secretly looking forward to this, even though he didn’t let richie know that. 

richie was always teasing eddie about this, about him enjoying having him here, but so did eddie. tease him back by denying and calling him an idiot. 

god bless the person, who invented that word, honestly.


"what have you been doing here all day, alone? you poor little thing." 

richie teased him, leaning closer to him as he articulated the last sentence. eddie leaned forward too, hitting richie’s head, of course not aggressively, only little. 

"cut it, trashmouth. i have been doing just fine, even without you. better, actually.” eddie said, proud of his last words. 

(he was so lying.) 


“yeah? is that why your eye lids are slightly blue and your mouth looks like you just put a lipstick on?" 

richie laughed, expecting eddie to slap him again, or call him an idiot, but eddie didn’t. he froze, closing his mouth as he looked to the window. 


because his eyes were still slightly blue and his covered with mouth pink, he couldn’t take it off fully. 


richie stopped laughing, when he noticed eddie didn’t even respond. 

"eds, come on. it was a joke. i know guys don’t do th—”


“well i… i do, richie." 

eddie said. his heart was suddenly beating faster than before, he was blushing and couldn’t even move away, to look at him.


"what?” richie said, not perfectly sure if he understand, but then… he probably does. 

“oh… you did your, um…" richie said slowly, aware now.

 "makeup?” he whispered after a while of getting the word out of his lips, that’s when eddie turned his head to him.

 "no, richie, no. i didn’t do my makeup, i swear i didn’t even touch the rest of it, just the lipstick and the eye shadow, but that’s all, don’t-“ 

before he could continue, he felt a hand on his lips. it was richie’s. he let his hand fall down, back to his leg as he still sat on the bed, next to eddie. eddie was confused, he didn’t know why richie wasn’t laughing, it was richie. he was supposed to make a joke already, why wasn’t he… joking?


"can i try it?”

“what?”


“can you show me… the makeup?”


eddie could swear at this moment, he stopped breathing. his heart may have collapsed several times. did richie tozier just really ask him to show him the makeup? 


eddie didn’t know what to do, first. should he?

 isn’t richie just… joking? 

but he wasn’t laughing, 

he was staring at him 

and the weirdest thing he did… 

he was silent

he didn’t say another word after that. not even one single sound.

“um…" 

eddie got up, bending down and reaching for the small box under his bed, then slowly pulling it on the bed, looking at it. 


it was a small, pink plastic box, with a text that said ‘my makeup’ on it. no, eddie didn’t write that. it was his mother’s. and the font was too pretty, to be written by his mother. that’s why he assumed she didn’t write it.


"so… how do you do it?” richie asked.


“do what?”


“put it… all on.”


“oh, um…” eddie was so uncomfortable, even if it was richie, he was. he tried not to, but the blushing on his face and his sudden stuttering, he felt like another bill. 

it was so obvious he was uncomfortable, richie found it adorable, though. the look on eddie’s face, as he was lifting up all the things and describing them, his beautiful, chocolate eyes moving from lipstick to lipstick, as his small hands held it and his face was so focused, richie didn’t pay attention to the objects at all, his attention caught eddie, he always did.


“oh, yeah, great. thanks, eds. now i understand it." 

richie said, lying, as he stopped staring, because eddie probably noticed that.


"so… can i try it, then?" 


"yeah, sure. you can—”


“can i try to doing your makeup?”


eddie stopped talking, looking up, facing richie. he thought richie wanted to try it on himself, but he couldn’t but smile, when richie asked with serious gaze.


“sure." 

he said, having a hard time not twitching his lip corners into a smile.
richie slowly picked thing, by thing. he paid some attention after all, he obviously knew somehow, what he was doing. 

they were silent, the whole time. eddie couldn’t, but close his eyes as he felt richie’s hand on his cheeks, as he was holding him by that, so he can do his eye shadow. 


he opened the eyes again, seeing richie’s intense gaze as he was trying not to ruin anything, soon, he finished with using the lipstick, then putting it all back into the box, with the rest of the things. 

richie stood up, making eddie stand up by holding his hand, too. he looked at him, closely. he was like a doll, prettier than a doll. he was perfect, in his eyes. his features touching the sun that was shining into the window, at that time, he didn’t even need to contour. he was perfect the way he was, by the sun’s company.

you look so pretty.“ 

richie said with his mouth open, looking at every single part of his face, while eddie was looking back at richie, trying not to give it up to him and smile. they were so close to each other that when richie said it to him, eddie felt the goose bumps touch his body. it wasn’t uncomfortable, though. now, he felt safe, he truly felt home. 


they were so close to kissing, eddie didn’t know, if he should just kiss him, or not. but then, richie pulled away, speaking again, he suddenly looked as if it didn’t even happen. 

”…so, um.“ 

he said, before eddie pulled him back, closer to him, repeating.

"so um." 

he said, kissing richie.


richie was shocked first, but soon hugged eddie’s waist, as eddie connected his hands behind richie’s neck. richie was taller, but he still managed to get that kiss

and man,

 it was the best kiss he has ever received.