i know ppl say they were sick of them but like

yknow what. it’s in the am hours. ive had at least 2 alcoholic beverages tonighit. and i have decided that once im out of tech school im gonna get a degree in ye olde literature just so i can write a groundbreaking paper about how cu chulainn (the actual myth one not the anime one) is a fucking trans icon. my guy is incredibly trans. lets just take a good look at the facts here folks

-these stories were written down by monks with an obviously christian agenda they edited the story to adhere to, in some parts more obviously so than others. considering the roman catholic hatred of trans people at the time, it would not be unreasonable to assume that if cu chulainn was in fact trans in the originals that were being written down said monks would attempt to cover that up by making him cis.

-dude changed his name which is a very trans™ thing 2 do obviously

-the whole thing with the curse and how he was the only one ready to throw the fuck down while all the other men were in bed with the pains of birth like this is such a classic example of using gendered language in magic shenanigans to ur advantage

-often described as being small & beardless “this is supposed to show he’s young” but is it really??? it’s not uncommon for masculine women to be mistaken for young men and him being both notably small and unable to grow a beard is brought up several times in text. either way it’s not like being young and being trans are mutually exclusive. really makes you think.

-alright here’s the big kicker that really says Cu Chulainn Is Trans 2 me in big shiny letters: he had to prove himself as Really Being That Tough over & over again to a frankly ridiculous degree. multiple times (at least 2 in the tain bo cuailnge that i can remember rn) there’s some enemy fuck who knows god damn well the one in front of them is cu mother fucking chulainn who has been absolutely obliterating his enemies by the hundreds but the moment they see him & notice he’s beardless (again, this is usually interpreted as meaning he’s young but that doesn’t necessarily have to be the case) they’re like “nah I’m not fighting that get me a real enemy” and cu has to put on a fake beard to convince them he really is A Big Tough Dude Who Can Kick Your Ass. another time in the tain cu used his sick sword skills to make a fool of someone who was mocking him and the fucking idiot didn’t stop even after cu literally shaved the guys head clear & cut off his clothes with a sword. there’s one story (called bricriu’s feast) of a competition where cu easily beat everyone by a wide margin in everything they compete in but none of the other contestants wanted to accept the result so they kept bringing in other judges trying to get someone other than cu to be declared winner. 

there’s this really weird refusal of people in the ulster cycle to accept that cu chulainn is as good at things as he is (specifically things considered masculine like fighting) and idk about all yall but that really fucking screams good old fashioned transphobia to me lads. like trans folks are still dealing with this shit in modern day with athletes not being allowed to compete with their own fucking gender bc it ~wouldnt be fair~ or other such nonsense. this fuck shit with ppl absolutely refusing to acknowledge cu as possibly being good at Man Things is incredibly Trans Relatable™.

-ALSO i just remembered this but there’s also at least one and i’m pretty sure more than one time where cu talks to people who are like “yea we’re trying to hunt down cu chulainn” and they don’t realise he is in fact that very same cu chulainn or are even remotely suspicious of him which would make a lot more sense if they mistook him for a woman

in conclusion: hes trans

anonymous asked:

Can you do pynch for the ship thing please <3

YOU BET YOUR SWEET ASS I CAN 

(god FINALLY)

SEND ME A SHIP AND I’LL TELL YOU…

who is more likely to hurt the other?

I mean. Adam doesn’t usually get hurt by ronan so much as he gets annoyed. disappointed. pissed. He never lets ronan’s venom actually get to his veins, he’s too busy telling him how unnecessary the flash of fang is. ronan on the other hand. like. he’s easy to hurt. adam would never in his life want to hurt ronan (it’s his honest to god nightmare) but I think ronan works himself into such a despair at the smallest jealousies and perceived injustices that adam could make one careless comment and ronan would fixate on it

who is emotionally stronger?

ohhhh adam. it’s adam. He’s been dragging so much emotional rubble for so long that he’s built up a tolerance. strong is like The Most adam adjective that I can think of. ronan never had to get to adam’s level of detachment and dissociation bc the first 15 years of his life were gorgeous and easy, and he’s still growing into his protective shell. Adam had to be born in his

who is physically stronger?

it’s ronan tbH he has the upper body strength of a boxer and the broad shoulders of a lynch (but also adam has clever hands and muscular thighs from years of biking everywhere and he can handle himself)

who is more likely to break a bone? 

ouch. They’re both capital R Reckless when they’re together and they have some brutal years under their belts. adam has some poorly set knobbly fingers and ronan has an old snapped clavicle that took forever to heal and constantly bruised knuckles so like. idk. In the future, when adam parrish has escaped from his childhood prison, I’d like to think that they both get ugly minor injuries from doing joyful ramp and dolly and shopping cart type activities only

who knows best what to say to upset the other? 

surprisingly difficult question to answer bc I mean. It’s ronan. but is it? he systematically winds people up and adam is so deeply irritated by him that he straight up walks away, but also adam can be ice cold?? it’s so easy to get to ronan. They both fumble and call each other mean names when they want to compliment each other it’s a big mess

who is most likely to apologize first after an argument? 

holy shit would you believe neither??? the most stubborn humans on this earth!! record holders!! we got some emotional repression folks! hooooo boy

adam never starts arguments for no reason so he’s always thinking it through and coming to the conclusion that he’s in the right?? surprise he ain’t apologizing

meanwhile ronan can’t stop being cruel even though he knows it’s hurting people, it’s this vicious self-protective instinct that hurts so good and so wrong. and then his pride gets in the way once he’s cooled down. but he will come to st agnes on his knees and grab adam’s hand and try to make it clear that he’d step on his own pride on the way to adam’s door

who treats who’s wounds more often? 

sad & unfortunate :(( adam treats ronan’s solely bc ronan doesn’t know how the fuck to treat an injury and also ‘none of them wanted to hurt adam parrish’, so ronan’s got his stupid pointless anger related scrapes and adam’s got his anti-bacterial gel and they are a dream team

who is in constant need of comfort? 

neither of them come out on top here man. They’ve had some shared harrowing experiences, and some separate trauma that they’re trying to tell each other about (if their stories could just stop. sticking. when they try to say them out loud). in v different ways, neither of their families are families. Ronan doesn’t let himself fall asleep, and he doesn’t let himself go through things, and the repression starts to calcify into cruelty like it did right after his father died. adam can’t stop thinking about gansey on the roadside, and he can’t be touched some days, most days. he can’t stop swimming or he’ll die. He can’t keep swimming or he’ll die. The gangsey is a critical support system made of so many weak beams

who gets more jealous? 

are u fucking serious,,, it’s both of them pal. remember when every combination of his friends that didn’t include him made adam like. sick with jealousy. remember when ronan saw gansey talking on the phone with adam and wanted to put his hand through a wall. or when adam brought blue along on their quest and he spouted nasty shit the whole day. they both deeply want each others attention and they don’t seem to realize that they already have it? always?

who’s most likely to walk out on the other? 

ohh god. oh man. oh boy. Here’s the thing. adam’s gonna walk away from ronan, but he’s not gonna walk OUT on him. he’s going to walk away because he’s not on a leash, he’s gonna spread those beautiful fucking self-made wings. And ronan is too!! in his own time he’s gonna build his own spaces that aren’t the barns and he’s going to realize what home means to him and they’re both gonna walk out the door and back but never close it behind them

who will propose? 

a controversial topic! I’m on team adam for this one pals. I was on team ‘adam’s gonna kiss ronan first’ for a while before trk like a FOOL and I realized the error of my ways bc ronan is physical as fuck! and a risk-taker! of course he kissed adam smh. But a proposal? That’s a contract. That’s a speech. That’s a chess move. Ronan wouldn’t corner adam like that. Adam knows how ronan feels and more importantly he knows how HE feels himself, and I think one day ten years into their relationship the practicalities are gonna beckon and he’s gonna look ronan in the back of the head while he’s sleeping and roll over into the curve of his spine and tell him he wants a ring on his finger 

who has the most difficult parents?

omg… fuck off

who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public? 

tactile bastards! both of them! ronan especially wants adam’s hands…., any which way he can get them. I mean. He will kiss adam’s hands when they’re at dinner at nino’s and he’ll hook their fingers together even for the 20 second walk from the BMW to monmouth’s front door like he LIVES FOR IT (adam feels nervy and exhilarated every time it’s gay)

who comes up for the other all the time? 

i mean they’re always together so they don’t really bring each other up. if they’re not together they’re with gansey/blue/henry or even fox way babes/vancouver crowd etc and those ppl get real tired of it real quick. adam usually keeps his ronan related musings to himself though like he has self-control unlike… R.N.L. himself

who hogs the blankets? 

ronan does tbh adam has never hogged anything in his life and ronan is a shit

who gets more sad? 

an unfair Q, man. They’ve both had a super rough time, especially right post-trk?? those few months are hard. Ronan cries a lot. Adam gets numb and far away a lot. They have a lot to be sad about. (But more to be happy about. They made it. They honestly just stare at each other and laugh breathlessly and touch foreheads and hands and scars and can’t believe their luck)

who is better at cheering the other up? 

I sorta said this with ronsey but I think ronan is THE BEST at doing dumb shit to take his mind off of things. Like all that stuff about making adam quiet and turning off the lists and anxieties in his head so that they can do smth mindless and dangerous? yeah that. memes and songs and poor decisions. depression whom?

who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?

this never happens wtf they’re not really ‘playful slappers’ HOWEVER adam will glare at ronan so hard that it probably feels like a slap

who is more streetwise?

it reeeeally depends on your definition of streetwise?? Like if we’re talking survival it’s unquestionably adam. He can fix your car and bandage your wounds and figure out your taxes and make himself invisible and blend his accent into whoever’s around him. He’s wicked sharp and fast on his feet. But i mean. he can’t quite drive stick. and he wouldn’t be caught dead in the sort of underground that ronan ends up in. ronan is streetwise in terms of the actual street, and he knows the most brutal avenues a person can end up on, the real life nightmares that feel closest to the ones in his head. Ronan is smart enough to navigate the chaos, but adam is smart enough to avoid it altogether

who is more wise?

adam. easily. ronan is intelligent and instinctive and talented (or adam wouldn’t get him as well as he does) but adam is a genius and that look behind his eyes….. he’s lived about 1 billion times more than he should’ve by age 19

who’s the shyest? 

neither of them are shy exactly they’re just buried under 9 surface level personalities that you have to crack open with your bare fuckin hands

but if you met either of them in the hallowed halls of aglionby you would think adam was shy and ronan was a rampant fuckwad so based on appearance?? adam. he keeps his head down.

who boasts about the other more? 

as soon as adam is officially his bf ronan takes a ten year long victory lap he’s so embarrassing

who sits on who’s lap?

y’all. we all know ronan sits in adam’s. it’s a fact of life. he probably had a sexy dream about it when he was 17 and took his morning shower in holy water

weedstoner-archive  asked:

that post u made reminded me that i have a communism question for u. so whenever i talk about it with my friends they always ask me what a communist society would look like, how there would be jobs without money, etc and up to a point i can explain it but i quickly lose confidence once they ask about details like. in terms of who would do the "dirty work" aka the jobs ppl don't want, how would u "buy" things without money, that kind of thing. i know theres prob not a simple answer but ya

a moneyless system is easy to explain. you dont work for money in the current society, you work for the goods and services that money purchases, but it is not the thing that provides your electricity. power isn’t generated by how much cash they can funnel into the furnace. get rid of money and the exchange-value system for the much simpler use-value system that is already in place. if someone argues that people will consume inefficiently, then theyre suggesting that capitalism is somehow more efficient by throwing away billions of pounds of food per year and refusing to shelter homeless people just because they can’t afford it. we have the technology to produce a surplus of basically everything and market mechanisms as we understand them would generally be made unnecessary in any realistic model of human consumption (many capitalists like to come up with absurd quantities of such-and-such commodity [10,000 gallons of water per day, for example] being consumed by one obnoxious person that ruins communism for everybody else, as if thats actually a problem worth a serious investigation)

communist society can’t be drawn up and pointed at like “this is it” because its the future. we can provide a rough framework for how it could function based on how our current society is able to operate (like above when i said that we currently produce a surplus, so we know for a fact that people could be provided for in the future) but we won’t know what problems may arise in the future until we get there. this is absolutely something that can seem disheartening, but for people that are so goal-oriented that they will settle for the current conditions just because they dont want to go through the work of building a better society, they are generally privileged to the point where they dont understand the necessity of radical change. they aren’t the ones suffering every day, so its easy for them to dismiss something that seems like a lot of work, even if its the only chance of survival for a large portion of the population.

the dirty work thing is an easy enough argument to dismiss when you’re well-equipped with the knowledge to do so. it often takes the form of the doctor-janitor story, where a doctor shouldn’t be paid the same as someone that simply takes out the trash, but this is a misunderstanding (and actually quite a funny one. they couldn’t have picked two better professions to compare tbh because its so easy to refute). doctors are certainly important to a (literally) healthy society. they are the people we go to so that we dont get sick and die. janitors are considered the lowest of the low because they dont actually do anything besides mopping or whatever (???), but imagine a world without janitors (or perhaps a world without their function is a better way to put it). without them, we would all get sick and die, same as a world without doctors. all of the dirty countertops in the world would make us all rush to the doctors office as we caught each others illnesses (a funnier thing to think about is how the market would react by suddenly producing a large amount of doctors to meet the demand of sick people, essentially reducing them to just another profession, removing the elitism that surrounds them. this is actually similar to doctors in the early days of capitalism. they were no better than the local trader, butcher, etc because all of them were important to the well-being of the population).

its important to understand this because this is actually similar to the old marxist feminist argument that women’s unpaid labor (in the home) is just as important as mens paid labor (in the factories). this is perhaps a little dated in some ways since capitalism has directly included women in the process of production, but before that, [the western concept of] gender was a clear-cut system of labor, where men produced and women reproduced, both in the sense of reproducing children [again, in terms of western concepts of gender, not actually getting into trans politics here] and also in the sense of reproducing labor. by taking care of the husband and her family, the sole duty of the housewife, she was responsible for the commodity producer (and the future generation of commodity producers and labor reproducers), and by extension, production as a whole. if it weren’t for this process of reproduction of labor on the microscopic level, the production of commodities wouldve been impossible, and this remains true for the doctor and the janitor, two very different jobs that fulfill the same basic purpose: to keep society going. to argue that one is more deserving of pay because one requires more “skill” than another or that one requires more education than another isn’t actually a criticism of socialism, but a realization of the cruelty of capitalism, where only those with enough wealth can afford to educate themselves and sustain their wealth (not to mention that this completely ignores the absurd fact that healthcare is a profitable industry, which it shouldn’t be).

one of the easiest ways around this argument though, especially if you want to get more into what communism would probably look like, is to just say that most of these things would be automated or taken care of on a community level. healthcare could be almost entirely abolished if we were to get to a point where we didnt have competition and the profit motive preventing us from finding cures for diseases just because companies make more money from selling monthly prescriptions than they ever would by actually stopping illnesses in their tracks, and for many other cases, machinery could be introduced in the emergency room (as is already done today) to make the doctors job easier. i think its safe to assume that janitorial work would also benefit from the introduction of machinery into the cleaning process and this work would become less stressful and more accessible to the general public.

(also, on the job question, id be a bad commie if i didnt quote the bit in the german ideology where marx says “… in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening, criticise after dinner, just as I have a mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, herdsman or critic.”)

so there you go. hope that helps.

tbpdfw

Those Childhood behaviors & experiences that I now get knowing I have bpd like:

Oh yeah identity issues:

  • Not understanding why when actors’ spoke about a character they were playing they treated it like a separate person because for me playing pretend meant becoming that character, another version of myself
  • Transfixing on my friend’s TigerBeat magazines even though I didn’t care about celebrities and getting a subscription myself just for the quizzes 
  • Getting really attached to specific words or phrases that you thought fit you or that other ppl used to describe you (for me it was “unique”, “empath”, not “normal”)
  • Using others’ descriptions of you as the way to describe yourself and your role in your own life (has big eyes, has nice smile, intelligent, artist)
  • Going to the bathroom in school to escape and end up just staring at myself in the mirror and asking who am I? I don’t recognize myself
  • Taking in bad descriptions of yourself and mean comments as truth as well (annoying, loud, talkative, sensitive, judgmental; you interrupt too much, you complain too much, you always think you’re right)
  • Getting really attached to IPod Touch backgrounds and saving ones that I thought represented me
  • Saving screencaps of the results of random silly quizzes as if collecting “facts” about myself
  • Taking on personality traits from a TV show character I liked and wanted to be like, wanting to dress like them, and wanting ppl to call me by the character’s name as a nickname
  • Quoting “Forgive and forget, that’s my motto” from a TV show character because it sounded cool and Right even though it wasn’t at all true about myself
  • Trying to copy some self-harming techniques I had heard to make my depression feel more valid
  • Throwing out a chocolate with caramel inside even though I liked it because I had previously always said I hated caramel and couldn’t contradict that
  • Acting like moments between you and another person or you in general were part of a movie and you had an imagined script of what dramatic thing you should say

Wanting attention & validation:

  • Doing and saying whatever to make adults you liked laugh or give you positive attention 
  • Finished painting a picture I was proud of (around age 3-5), my friend/neighbor who I’m painting with just finished finger painting something as well. My mom praises her and calls her choice to finger paint creative. I immediately smear my entire picture with my fingers
  • Carrying around a book of writings that I covered the outside with notes about it being “top secret” and “do NOT read” in the hopes of attracting interest so that someone would try to read it
  • Telling my best friend I *insert suicide ideation here* to hear her reaction in the hope of concern and attention
  • Biting at my mouth and lips in attempts of (unsuccessfully) hurting myself and getting attention after reading the book Speak in which a girl does the same in response to trauma
  • Talking nonstop, loudly and quickly in attempts to be heard; Having problems interrupting people in conversation  as I was used to being ignored and having limited time to be heard
  • Oversharing in class about personal experiences

Black and white thinking

  • Seeing my darker shift in mood as the new “bad” me vs the younger happier idealized version of myself as the old “good” me
  • Drawing images of broken mirrors, broken hearts, and thorny plants to represent this Bad new me vs regular hearts and thriving pretty plants as the old Good me
  • Seeing ppl as either minor acquaintances or Best Friends, no inbetween  
  • Feeling like ppl, even best friends, couldn’t get me and therefore we shouldn’t be friends anymore
  • Getting mad at ppl for having different opinions because they were Wrong

Unstable moods; Depression and thoughts of suicide or self-harm 

  • Feeling broken, wrong and messed up constantly for not being as happy as I once remembered
  • Writing dramatic sad poems about a perceived loss of innocence aka growing up which I concluded was the reason for the change
  • Leaving class just to wander under the guise of going to the bathroom, linger at windows and fantasize about running away somewhere happy
  • Continuously thinking about and wanting to break the mirrors but knowing it would be messy and probably hurt and I’d get in trouble
  • Feeling like I wanted to die before knowing what that meant and feeling like no one could save me
  • Punching my desk and the school porcelain sinks to feel my knuckles sting; scraping my hands with pens by drawing rough repeated lines over the skin to “punish” myself for being “bad”
  • Self-harming before knowing what that meant
  • Prolonging eating to punish yourself with hunger but giving into eating eventually
  • Feeling weak about not being able to commit to doing serious harm to myself
  • Having episodes of loss of interest in all things I found fun; feeling numb
  • Erratic sleeping patterns
  • Wanting to call in sick from school or pretend your sick to stay home because you just feel awful and don’t know why
  • Wanting to die on the way to school, passively feeling okay with the thought you might get hit by a car or bus

Unstable relationships; Imprinting, FPs, (Perceived) Abandonment & Splitting

  • Getting super attached to my first best friend in kindergarten and being convinced we’d be best friends forever 
  • Coming home crying every other day the next year when she got new friends who all didn’t want me around them
  • “Testing out” a new friend group everyday to try and find a place I felt like I belonged  
  • Spending recess after recess walking around alone and watching all the other kids play together reasoning everyone has a friend but me
  • Not playing with other kids who invited me to because they weren’t my Best Friend (cough baby’s first FP cough)
  • Getting super attached to my new neighbor/friend and jumping at any chance to hang out with her even when she was mean to me or didn’t really want to hang out with me
  • When she suddenly started avoiding me and stopped talking to me after years of friendship I went from hurt to completely uncaring as if we were never friends at all
  • At my new school, I once again spent my time trying out new friend groups and dropping them when they didn’t fit me and ended up in the small assortment of “rejects” 
  • Going back and forth between being best friends, feeling better than them, feeling bad that they were putting energy into someone who really didn’t care
  • Feeling like I was pretending and didn’t care about them as much as they cared about me (none of them were my FP) and therefore we shouldn’t be friends at all 
  • Getting super attached to a new girl in school because I didn’t have any close friends and we were both Guyanese and therefore somehow connected; saying embarrassing things to her about how I felt detached from other friends and much closer to her in the span of only a few days
  • She told my other friend that I was like an annoying “dog” following her around and she switched schools within the next few weeks
  • I immediately into the “she never existed” mode of detachment 
  • Writing dramatically “I’m sorry I wasn’t a good friend to you when you were such a good friend to me” in my friend’s yearbook (knowing he wouldn’t see it until years later)
  • Getting super attached to and oversharing with teachers who showed me particular kindness and attention
  • Getting depressed when I noticed they showed kindness and attention individually to other students
  • Feeling not good enough or healthy enough to be in relationships

These are my personal experiences but maybe they are relatable to others with bpd.

((This is super long but I just felt like it needed to be said and shown that ppl with bpd often have signs of early symptoms in childhood that get worse later and that they often don’t understand until later. Hope this gives others with bpd some clarity.))

Feel free to share some of your own!

(EDIT: Remembered some more)

innocuous phrase trends come and go and I never know why ppl bitch about them like it’s the end of the world. like that brief sprig of 2016 when everyone said “my dude”….u woulda thought some people were poisoned every time I said it lmao ppl were like ugggh sick of ppl saying zhat….and now guess what no one says my dude. it ended. birth. life. death. Renewal. all things end in time. shut up

anonymous asked:

can you talk about the liveshow and what you think? im feeling really anxious cause it seems phil isn't staying at their place and like dan seemed really angry and short tempered? like he kinda insinuated he hated the presents phil got him, he barely mentioned phil, he threw his phone down and said 'apparently im phils PR agent', he very clearly wasn't a fan of the tinder video. idk maybe im over-reacting and you can reassure me but the entire thing seemed so strange and it has me on high alert

hi love!!! i’m going to be honest, i definitely didn’t interpret any of these things the way that you did so i will do my best to try and go through each of the issues you brought up and explain why i didn’t see them in this live show–hopefully that will help you, and i think it will give me the space to also talk about some of the things that stood out to me a bit!! so your first concern is that it seems like phil isn’t staying in their place, by which i think you mean that phil isn’t living with dan? i can’t even articulate how wholeheartedly i disagree but i’ll try hahah. what we know is that phil left for two days literally two weeks ago in order to go to what they described as a family thing, and that now he’s gone for “a few days” again, for another “family thing.” i don’t see why there’s any reason at all to disbelieve these explanations or take them for anything more than what they are on face? we know phil has quite a large family with many random cousins and aunties and since dnp have been traveling so much in the last couple of months and are set to travel again in a few weeks for vidcon, and moreover phil is someone who values his family quite highly, it makes sense that he would maybe use of this downtime to catch up with them. and it fits that he’s not taking dan to these things bc dan has almost never gone to extended family events w phil that we know of (family weddings and the like) and he’s been expressing for the past few weeks how badly he just wants to be alone and not see any more ppl in order to decompress and recharge and get his creative juices flowing. 

but let’s jst say for argument’s sake that the “family thing” is an excuse to cover up something else that’s happening–i still do not see why phil not staying with dan is a reasonable conclusion.  like, w most things to do w dnp there is sometimes room for discussion and it could be better to consider both sides. for this though, there’s truly ZERO evidence to support this and plenty of evidence to refute it including but not limited to phil’s tv box sets behind dan when he does his live shows, the numerous pics phil has posted of them moving and then of him in rooms w the same furniture, decor, and hardwood floors that appear in dan’s pics, and the fact that like, it just wouldnt make any fucking sense for them to go through all this effort to lie about them not staying in the same place? what would they achieve out of not telling the truth about moving apart? and also why would dan then even mention phil going to “see his family?” isn’t that just drawing attention to something he is hypothetically trying to keep secret? i honestly can’t even believe this is something i have to take the time to address but it’s getting frustrating to see it keep cropping up (and i’m not blaming you anon bc ik how compelling conspiracy theories can be, but in this case there is truly no reason not to jst go w the evidence of your own eyes and trust in the fact that dnp are just as disgustingly happy in their domestic bliss as they appear to be.) if there IS some reason that the “family thing” is an excuse or a cover i think there are any number of more reasonable things that they could be covering–e.g. it’s v possible phil has something negative happening in his family right now like a sick relative; maybe phil is working on a solo project that requires him to be out of the house a bit to film or work at diff locations; maybe they’re BOTH working on a joint project but phil is taking care of parts of it and giving dan the time and space to rest and recharge. so many alternatives that make more sense than them living apart. 

to your point about dan’s mood, i definitely did not read him as being angry or short-tempered, and let me emphasize that i am remarkably sensitive to him getting into those more negative moods. in my opinion from watching dan so closely for so many months now, when dan is upset about something he tends to turn most of that ire inwards and it leads to a live show ripe with self-deprecating comments, repeated mentions of wanting death or his life being a joke with zero accompanying smiles or laughs, a lot of notices of negative comments in the chat, long rambles about his feelings or the general lack of direction in his life, etc. i think this live show was a good example of him being tired and nothing more, and that seems understandable given the general activity and socializing of the last week. he seemed lower energy with a lot less yelling and flailing about than he is normally prone to, but i didn’t get any of those really strong negative themes that he normally gets lost in when he’s not in a good mood. on the flip side he pretty confidently defended his decision to change his yt banner and icon, even tho he read out negative comments he laughed them off and assured everyone the changes are temporary, he seemed eager to spend a few days thinking about his next main channel vid and excited to have the time to put more creative effort into it, he was passionate and didn’t even qualify his opinions very much when he talked about wonder woman and the importance of representation and uk politics and the vital role of young people in the electorate, he was full of energy when he was discussing nintendo and steven universe and his other random interests. there were plenty of moments where he could have gone down a darker route but i actually thought that on the whole he kept the content of this show quite positive and light.

regarding his presents, i don’t think anything he said made it seem like he “hated” them? i mean he wasn’t super enthusiastic but that,, makes sense? given what he showed us and what he explained to us about them? w the fidget spinner it was a literal gag gift that he was underwhelmed by bc theyre litro not fun to use at all. makes sense. w the glass bulb tht predicts the weather i thought his tone was gently teasing and fond about how phil so would be the guy to find a nerdy gift like that and think it was awesome but dan the cold-hearted cynic obvi has to point out the lack of scientific merit lmao. but he was quick to defend it as well and state that he still thinks it’s a cool-looking object that he can look at, which honestly reminded me of the xmas present phil got dan with the inky dots suspended in water, and how dan said phil rly understood his need for calming, aesthetic looking things in order to soothe his mind. re: the plastic bonsai and the dog shirt from his family, both of those also seem like gag gifts and he was reacting accordingly bc they’re funny so he’s playing the necessary role of spurned gift-receiver in order for the joke to carry. and then w the sunflowers, i mean i found that whole bit v entertaining? it’s just a fun quirky fact about dan. he appreciates the thought and he’s still going to display the flowers, but it’s  funny as fuck to think about this giant ass man being afraid of literal sunflowers. and tbh i dont think this is the full haul of gifts he got. he’s sharing the ones he feels comfy sharing, the ones that are more joke-y and less personal and that make more entertaining stories for him to share, and that makes sense. i don’t think it needs to be interpreted more deeply in order to speculate on his general emotional state or his relationship w phil. 

you next stated he barely mentioned phil, and i think that makes sense given that he had a lot of non-phil-related things to get through in this ls. it’s clear there was a list of topics he wanted to discuss in his mind or maybe even written down that included his new graphic design, his birthday/the gift haul, uk politics, wonder woman, the gaming channel, new dinof vid. he tends to talk more about phil when there are fewer general topics he needs to touch on–this gives him space to just share a few domestic anecdotes. but this time around there were jst a lot of other issues to discuss and i think that’s fine? he’s his own person, he has perspectives he wants to share, he had a busy week and imo it’s not weird at all if sometimes he doesn’t have that much to say about his partner lmao 

he definitely did not throw his phone down after reading out the text from phil. and the “apparently i’m just phil’s PR agent” comment seemed soooo joke-y and fond to me, i actually thought it was incredibly cute. i get how tone is subjective and i suppose it’s open to interpretation and if you were reading that w this larger context of feeling as though dan was in a very negative mood, i understand why the comment may have struck you the wrong way, but to me i really found it to be a playful bants-y lil remark that fits very much w the way that dnp tease each other when they’re happy and flirty and whatnot 

finally, with respect to phil’s tinder video, i actually was struck by how far out of his way he seemed to go to defend phil for his behaviors? he said like multiple times “it’s not that weird” and tried to make everyone feel like we’ve all “been there,” which like,,, no. we haven’t all been there. wtf. if anything it felt like a classic sidelong defensive comment that dan makes where he is responding to criticism without really explicitly mentioning the criticism. since there were a few ppl who found the video a bit uncomfortable both bc of phil admitting to catfishing a random person online and bc of phil recommending tinder to an audience w a significant percentage of underage ppl, it’s v possible to me that dan saw some of that criticism and was sort of heading it off without fully getting into it. he did kind of laugh when he said “what a partnership” referring to tinder and phil, but i thought that was completely valid and in good spirit–i mean it really IS the unlikeliest and most random of partnerships and i think dan being somewhat openly aware of that is kind of funny and cool. moreover, his tone seemed fond (again) when he was talking about how he was cringing while actually watching the video. i mean a bunch of ppl had full on intense secondhand embarrassment while watching so i dont find that odd at all, and i honestly thought dan’s explanation of his own feelings seemed mild in comparison. im also interested in the fact that he’s going to be making his own tinder video though not one like phil’s, which, if it is the same one that he is going to putting creative energy into in the coming few days, opens up a whole realm of possibilities about how dan is possibly going to connect tinder to any of his own experiences. i’m curious and a lil nervous lmao. 

all in all i thought this live show was actually pretty decent. i mean it wasnt the most interesting as far as dan’s live shows go but it also certainly wasn’t off-puttingly negative for me either. i thought dan was quite honest about his emotions w many of the things he discussed and although he seemed exhausted he also seemed a little bit grateful and excited to get the chance to actually be alone in the coming days and think about his new video. im excited for him to get that chance and looking forward to see what it will be!!! and who knows,, maybe the time alone will finally convince him his new graphic design is trash and he’ll be inspired to change his banner/icons to things that aren’t Ugly ;)))

anonymous asked:

Pls do the rest of the couples backstory pls Winnie I luv luv you 💕✨💕✨✨✨

aesthetic couple(namjoon): omg they met on set !!!! namjoon is super super super super super super lucky that someone else was sick n y/n was sent to the photo shoot instead. longest photo shoot of his life honestly bc he was hung up on her as soon as she wheeled a rack of clothes past him w/o even looking his way. and he couldn’t help but stare as he was getting his hair done and his eyeliner applied and completely ignoring whatever yoongi was complaining about this time bc the peach tones of her outfit n make up n aura were too captivating & his mind couldn’t rly be bothered to focus elsewhere. and y/n totally knew that he had been staring @ her the entire time bc hello this is y/n she’s always 2 steps ahead of namjoon (which he loves bc he’s always topped ppl intellectually n psychologically he’s never had to play catch up before) n so she continued to avoid his eyes as she smoothed out the collar of his shirt & joon was holding his breath bc her perfume that he recognized was really the icing on top of the cake. and namjoon wasn’t being his usual eloquent self omg he would only give nods in response 2 her questions n she wouldve assumed he was shy but her sister is like obsessed w bngtn so she knew he was supposed 2 be the ~eloquent one and she knew she wasn’t remembering incorrectly bc namjoon had always been the one that she payed attention to. y/n smiled when he was finally styled to her liking and patted his shoulder n said “you know my sister likes bangtan. she talks abt jimin 24/7, but i’m more into rappers” & joon finally woke up as she was walking away and he shouted out a v awkward “ur wearing chanel no5!!!” and y/n laughed @ his clumsy + cute attempt to impress her. n the fact that she was the smooth one during their first meeting still haunts joon 2 this day.

*namjoon & y/n talk abt clothes very seriously !!! and i was always worried that she came off a bit 된장녀 or something but uh this is why !!!!!! bc backstory :b also she’s mostly the one to initiate things n she rly keeps joon on his toes. (and omg sorry 4 talking to much but i rly rly rly rly love aesthetic couple so much they’re like ~soulmates 2 me)

ajae couple(seokjin): they met @ uni (have u seen the pics of seokjin @ school………..amazing…….)!!! seokjin is hardly ever on campus (he’s a v busy man) so he was super super lost n confused trying to find a restroom one day. and while he was wandering through the halls he saw y/n carrying a 50 ft stack (an exaggeration) of coloring books (there’s a reason ehehheh) and even tho his bladder was abt 2 explode he ran over to help her bc it really looked like she’d fall over if a spec of dust landed on top of them. but being suddenly approached by a tall n broad (n handsome) guy startled y/n so s he fell over anyway. and seokjin laughed his rly rly loud goofy laugh as he picked up the coloring books surrounding her and made a rly cheesy “wow i didn’t think you’d fall for me this quickly” joke & @ first y/n was completely appalled but then she realized he wasn’t laughing at her he was laughing at his own joke lmao !!!! not everyone is as confident n open as seokjin he has no problem talking 2 ppl but it was kind of not the case for y/n she didn’t rly know what to say or do so he did abt 90% of the talking as he carried the coloring books (he didn’t ask abt them) to wherever they needed to go n y/n did abt 100% of the laughing bc seokjin held back a little not wanting 2 overwhelm her and because he rly liked hearing her laugh for some reason. so they get 2 where y/n needs to go n seokjin puts everything down n jokingly asks if there’s a 50ft stack of colored pencils that he also needs to bring in n she laughs again so he’s satisfied n decides to quit while he’s ahead. before he leaves he asks 4 her number and also directions to the nearest restroom !!!!!!!

*y/n has texted him while she was @ uni before n also they always talk abt silly childish kinda interests n there’s a reason for that but it’s mostly seokjin’s personality + y/n’s indiv. backstory!!!

snow couple(jimin): they met…………@ the dmv hehehehehehh! jimin can’t drive yet but he really really wants to and in korea u gotta take one written test n two driving tests. mini is there for the first driving test n he’s sosososo nervous bc if he fails this he really won’t hear the end of it from the others……….especially jeon jeongguk. he’s gone over the procedure abt a thousand times in his head and he’s convinced that he’s ready but then the small waiting room door opens and in walks y/n dressed in all white & her hair in pretty bun (she looks like she has v important plans after this) and she’s reading the driving manual they gave him after his written test and jimin is surprised bc he for sure thought he’d get celeb privilege n take the test alone (plus its early morning who else would be here). y/n sits beside him and notices he’s not studying @ all so she’s like hey wanna share my book !!!! and omg shy jimin is like o….kay…….sure as she scoots closer to him. n jimin pretends to read the left page but rly he’s looking @ her through his peripheral n listening to her whisper the ~important things on the right page to herself and it’s kinda calming but also making him incredibly nervous. n when y/n notices he’s totally not reading she closes the book and introduces herself and jimin (v shyly) does the same n she tells him that she thinks she has a 3% chance of passing considering that her brother has been teaching her & it took him 3 tries to get his license n mini laughs @ this and says that he has a 2% chance of passing because bc he only studied last night and exactly 0 ppl have been teaching him how to drive. so they go out to take their tests and jimin cheers for y/n and she fails n y/n cheers for jimin & he fails but it’s ok and jimin’s like “it looked like u were playing v bad gta” n y/n’s like “well u looked like u were 8th place in mariokart” and while the instructor went to schedule another test for them they were talking abt the teasing they’d get from their friends n jimin was describing guk like he was an elementary school bully & y/n gave an elementary school reaction n was like “ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ he’s probably just jealous bc ur more handsome than he is” & jimin was gooooooone

*they can’t drive lmfkaksoaoa that’s why jimin is always running everywhere !!!! :b

anonymous asked:

You should write a whole thing about why Nikolai is the best.

at first i was like “okay no i’m too sick to do this rn” but then i thought to myself “yo this is nikolai….. pull yourself together” so there ya go:

- a kind and loving soul
- trapped in a terribly attractive body. a burden, truly… an actual literal curse… and he knows it. oh yes he does.
- sometimes i lie at night and think that he still could have sided with the darkling but he didn’t?? he still chose to do the right thing?? like okay hear me out: nikolai’s always been drawn to power and that was made very clear throughout the series, his mind is constantly spinning and thinking of ways to help him ensure ravka’s good status which, well, can’t happen without some kind of dominance/power. and the darkling had that (even if it was based on fear rather than true loyalty) and sure, nikolai was in his sturmhond persona but he still could have dropped the act and made a pact with him to help him destroy the fold and rule ravka? (which would have cleared nikolai of all responsibilities and he would have been granted a free pass to do whatever he wanted with his life) and he didn’t. he couldn’t. you know why?? bc he’s a damn good person and a mothereffin’ boss that’s why
- despite his royal bastard act and off-handed sarcasm, he’s ALWAYS been nothing but gentle and caring and JUST (especially towards alina but you already know that)
- attentive!!!!!! and not just bc he has some secret agenda to either use or demolish alina (or her powers)!!!!!
- never once tried to strip alina of her agency (on the contrary, he tried to emphasize it and bring out the best of her)
- RESPECTFUL AF (literally never even tried to get into alina’s pants… the farthest he went was that kiss by the lake but he never pushed her or demanded smth more of her bc he was well aware that he - or anyone for that matter S M H!!!! - didn’t have ANY claim to her)
- nikolai who was mocked and insulted his entire life - for being a bastard, for not being worthy of the throne, for being somewhat less than his stupid douchebag of a brother (when he was so obviously not), nikolai who everybody knew by a nickname given to him bc of his bastard status, sobachka, nikolai who later on was called ‘korol rezni’ bc of his scars and ppl never stopped gossiping behind his back, never!! N E V E R!!!! not O N C E!!!!!! lashed out at anyone
- “he’s been kind when he might have been cruel” is probably the realest, most important line in tgt history and i’m saying this with a heart over my heart bc alina has some GREAT ones ones but this?? 10/10 hashtag #i kNOW
- nikolai who remained calm and composed and fair when he found out how terrible the king really was
- gave genya the justice she deserved, gave her the life she deserved, gave her a place to stay and work and be useful and didn’t give a damn about her looks, made her a part of the triumvirate bc of her skills and not bc of the things she’s been through and the thought to undermine or pity her in ANY way never even crossed his mind
- smart as a whip (for real)
- always puts the life and well-being of others before his own
- literally sacrificed everything so his people could have something to look forward to, be grateful for, a better life for ravka
- never pressed alina for anything even when he saw she was slipping away from him and choosing a different life like?? he stepped?? aside?? bc that was the right thing to do /even if it wasn’t smfuckingh/
- hides his insecurities and puts on a smile bc he knows his role and duties and he knows he has responsibilities and yes the crown is heavy but he’ll bear it
- nikolai made sure none of the grisha who fought in the war were ignored, forgotten or left to live a poor life… even tamar & tolya who weren’t even ravkan citizens?? like yeah he knew them from his sturmhond days but they were free agents and yet he still wanted them by his side and welcomed them in his inner circle
- even :) after :) everything :) he :) still :) visits :) alina :))))))) so she’s not lonely :))) or sad :))) and i can bet my goddamn earrings he makes sure she doesn’t feel underappreciated or miserable or less bc he doesn’t want her to feel the way he has
- praised kaz (a kid he didn’t even know) for his wits and brilliance and was clearly delighted to see someone so smart and cunning a.k.a different classes who?? being condescending and acting superior wHERE???? what a Good
- truly the best king ravka could hope for :))))))))))))

a little washette thing for the 7sins au

@exadorlion

- they are the mind behind the 7sins au
- mari ur a blessing please keep drawing
- sorry if i messed up your otp i used part of your Laf’s route
- I think you’ll be spared if Tumblr doesn’t tag u in this lolol since I have like -23 followers on this blog


[so washington tried to write a letter the night he met laf]

“to you,

i am writing this with the coming of dawn. you are fast asleep on the bed besides me. that’s about all that’s keeping me grounded and sane.

i was fortunate to meet you in the prime of my time, my love.

i find myself desperate to relive this day. its entirety.

to see you again, in the midst of the drunken crowds, yellow flowers tucked in between the buttons of your shirt. i thought you were an angel, before realizing that i was the one coming from heaven. why you were equally feverish to come up to me, i still wonder to this very second.

to hold you again, behind the expand of these green woods, the lights of your town’s spring festival folding and unfolding behind us.

but time will cut through us like glass. they’ll come for me before the sky lightens up. somehow i am sure of that.

i do not know what they will do to me. throw me to hell, i suppose. rip my wings off. obliterate my soul. i see no reason why i am not shaking as i write.

but nothing aches me deeply than what you said after i explained everything to you.

‘then i’ll follow you.’ you said. ‘to heaven or to hell.’

it is engrained within me the look you had in your eyes. It’s the way a person who could not swim would look at the ocean.

listen to me.
please.
i beg you.

do not come for me.
do not go through with whatever is spinning into solidarity in your head.
i am not enough for you to ruin yourself.

i have all these memories of us. i’ll remember. i promise you.

you are the last person i held this spring.

g. washington.”

[of course laf never had the chance to read this lmao i’m guessing the ppl coming for washington burnt it]

-

[so lafayette tried out journaling after he met washington as a mortal]

“june starts today.

i knew they took him before i opened my eyes.
before i heard the birds were croaking outside and before i could pick up my clothes from the floor.

i can still smell him on me. like pine trees and ink.

/

adrienne came to see me.

‘why do you look like you’re in mourning?’ she said, her hair braided with the those same yellow flowers from the fields.

‘i was too clumsy.’

‘I’m sorry?“

‘i lost something, adrienne.’

she takes a good look at me.

’…judging by how you are, this “thing” certainly must have had a piece of your soul embedded in it.’

she was joking, but i felt sick to my stomach.

it’s going to rain before it’s going to get hotter. there’s dragonflies circling outside my window, around and around. at night they’ll be replaced with fireflies. it’ll look beautiful, if i can bribe the children with enough candy so they won’t come hurrying with their glass jars. i’ll feel the most relief in their lights. it’s what i believe heaven will look like. so i’ll feel a step closer to him, i guess.

/

after everything, i just really hope fingerprints will last a long time. not on glass or paper. on skin. i don’t wish to know the exact numbers or dates, but all i know is that he held my hand so firmly, it probably left a mark on my bones.

/

they’ve arrested the beggars near the market.
i heard their children screaming their throats raw.

i gave them these lemon tarts that i made. they crawled into my lap, begging for hugs and affection.

adrienne stopped visiting. actually, all of the virtues stopped.

the stolen money is rotting in my drawers.

/

i try to sit down and reason with myself.

then i remember your eyes and your mouth and your voice saying my name like something’s trying to take you away and i just can’t i’m so so sorry god

/

blood has a smell that sticks.

it’s useless trying to scrub it off.

if i just close my eyes, i can imagine the stars. instead of the faces.

/

i love you.

/

they’ll execute me tomorrow, then.

it’s decided.

god, it feels so cold in this cell.
i think i better get used to it.

i’ve done awful things.
i beg the lord to forgive me.

i’ve followed my promise.
i beg of you to forgive me.

may we meet again.

L.“

anonymous asked:

"I hope yall calm with this "everyone is out to use bts!" mentality during bbmas. don't make it awkward for bts to interact with other celebs maybe they met bts and discovered that they're lovely ppl so followed? or were interested in their music? stop assuming the worst every time" I understand Army's want to protect the boys from people like Bart baker and all but not everyone will be doing this to the boys. The only thing that matters is BTS having fun, enjoying their time (1/2)

Meeting their favs and everything. Army’s are the face of BTS so please be respectful to other western artists when they meet BTS. I don’t like chainsmokers but seeing BTS meeting them and they look so happy? I care about that a lot. (2/2)

Anonymous said: I’m honestly more annoyed by how whenever bts interacts with any American celeb y'all always accuse them of just using them (when half of them definitely don’t even need them for fame) Don’t you all realize that that’s only going to make artists keep a distance from them if every time army’s keep attacking them for dumb stuff like this. Kpop is still unpopular here so be happy that they’re possibly expanding their fan base by interacting with these celebs instead of alienating them

i completely understand everyone’s hesitance in trusting these celebrities true intentions… but you just gotta get over it. you want bts to get respected and recognized in the west, but then the second they’re pictured with someone well-known it’s “they’re leeches, just using our boys.” if you’re saying that a celeb can’t watch one of bts’ mvs and then become a fan, then how do you expect people to become fans of them in the first place? you don’t know maybe they were out there and chainsmokers saw dope, fire, or save me, and thought yo these guys make cool music and their dancing is sick – kind of just how we all did when we first got into bts. it doesn’t have to be automatically cynical. yes, there’s going to be opportunistic celebrities that try to get on with them bc of their fame, but people try to do that with every popular celebrity. it’s fine that bts are having fun and meeting their favorite artists. i just don’t get why people are jumping on them… especially an artist like chainsmokers who are plenty popular on their own, and if anything are introducing more people to bts than the other way around, by posting about them, and what’s negative about that?

Of Books and Dirty Cash pt 9

Please read part 1, part 2,  part 3 , part 4 , part 5 , part 6 , part 7 and part 8 so this will make sense

Librarian/gangster!Au

Yoongi x Reader

Before you moved to live on campus for college, you had never heard of a librarian who had a reputation for yelling. But not only does Min Yoongi yell, he’s also dangerous, and part of something much, much darker. When curiosity gets the better of you, you end up involved in much more than you bargained for.

You can also read part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18


You were half shoved into the backseat of the car, sandwiched between two men.

“I don’t understand, there must be some kind of misunderstanding…” You said, but your voice sounded far away. You reminded yourself to breath as your vision swam. The last thing you needed right now was to pass out.

“Sorry love, but there’s no misunderstanding.” The man on your left said, holding up a piece of fabric. “You’re best bet is just to cooperate.”

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nurse!yuta au
  • sooooooo, nurse!yuta
  • like imagine it
  • yuta in scrubs while wearing a cream colored cardigan i’m not dead you are
  • and he’s always smiling at the patients
  • them kiddies love him
  • when they’re like admitted and they’re assigned to him he always distracts them long enough so they don’t notice him getting blood and other medical stuff
  • and he always always makes the kid laugh 
  • but when they absolutely refuse to drink their meds or smth 
  • you bet yo ass he’s gonna bring out the sass
  • lbr we all know how sassy nakamoto yuta is
  • the poor kid will be roasted 
  • but as soon as they drink it yuta’s gonna be all smiles and jokes and sunshines and unicorns
  • ha actually had this patient once
  • it was a little girl that was so stubborn
  • nurse!winwin tried everything he possibly could
  • bribery, threats, flattery he even offered to give her 20 bucks if she just drank it
  • but guess what
  • IT DIDN’T WORK poor nurse!winwin
  • so winwin called for reinforcements…….
  • DING DING DING y’all are right it’s errbodys fave nurse
  • nurse!yuta to the rescue
  • and like the kid is so overwhelmed by how handsome he is that when he told her the consequences of not drinking her medication
  • sHE LITERALLY JUST OPENED HER MOUTH
  • and so winwin switched with yuta and the little girl got discharged after a day or two
  • YAY
  • but like yuta loves children but he loves taking care of old people more
  • like he always calls them grandma or grandpa and he handles them with the utmost care
  • and he doesn’t even know why he favors old people more
  • he just does
  • he always gets attached to his patients 
  • like it’s so bittersweet everytime they get discharged
  • he’s happy they’re healed but he’ll miss taking care of them
  • but like, even tho he’s really really perfect at his job he still has his bad days
  • he can get vital signs wrong too sometimes, and he gets grumpy with patients too
  • but he tries his best 
  • and really that’s all anyone can ask for from a nurse
  • soooooo how do you meet nurse!yuta?
  • well you, my dear sweet dumb reader had appendicitis
  • at first you thought you just had a stomach bug (or maybe your period was coming too soon?) so you went about your day at uni
  • bcos come on,,,,,,,,you hAVE fINALS neXT WEEk
  • and you couldn’t really afford to rest just cause you have a fever and your tummy feels bad
  • but then the pain got waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much
  • and when i say too much i mean your seatmate see you trying to crawl out of your desk with tears in your eyes
  • and thank god your seatmate is a pre med student 
  • and he calls the hospital rlly rlly fast and before you know it you’re on your merry way to the hospital
  • you get your much needed surgery and of course you get admitted 
  • gUESS WHO YOUR ATTENDING NURSE IS
  • sadly for you my dear reader, it aint nakamoto yuta
  • your lovely nurse goes by the name dong sicheng
  • but most ppl call him winwin
  • and well, let’s just say you’re really really stubborn when winwin tries to switch the iv to your other hand
  • your other hand was swollen af but, you’d rather it stay there than get pricked in the other hand
  • BECAUSE NEEDLES
  • and winwin tried rlly hard to hold you down so he could get the needle to the vein properly
  • but you wouldn’t budge 
  • so he called for reinforcements
  • and yes it’s yuta 
  • YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
  • so like winwin holds you down and yuta is the one inserting the needle
  • and like, your friend kun is on the side admiring winwin’s arms and wishing he was you bc hOT daMN
  • moving on
  • so when yuta was inserting the needle he tried to glance at your face and saw you trying to look away 
  • it hurt a lot ok
  • and well, he couldn’t help but smile bc he found it really cute
  • when he was done you were all like ‘i hate you so much’ with this rlly cute pout in your face
  • and yuta died inside
  • and like from then on he convinces winwin to like let him be the attending nurse instead 
  • and when he goes back to check your vital signs you’re all like
  • ‘please don’t stick needles in me anymore >_
  • he just laughs and says ‘and what if i do?’
  • and with the most threatening glare you have you say ‘fight me’
  • and he just lAUGHS
  • so now everytime he goes in your room you’re like ‘if you inject anything on me i will fight you’
  • and yuta always answers back with ‘okay. sure. but when you’re all better, i don’t fight sick ppl.’
  • but you’re like ‘your cowardly ass just afraid of losing to a girl. a sick one at that’
  • and it seriously becomes a thing between the two of you
  • before you know it y’all are rlly comfortable around each other and are friends sort of
  • because admit it reader YOU LIKE HIM~~~~~
  • like how can you not when he’s always taking care of your needs and he always eats at your room on his break bc you have no visitors
  • and he even sleeps in your room when he’s so tireddd
  • he’s just really there for you, like a lot
  • and you don’t really mind because you love his company and bECAUSE hE’S CUTE
  • but like one time you had to go to the bathroom to pee but no other person was there and you can’t really get to the bathroom so you ask yuta to help you
  • and he helps you get to the bathroom and was there to assist you while you pee
  • like you had trouble sitting up from the toilet so he held your hand while pulling you up gently so you could stand
  • but neither of you let go
  • even as you got out of the bathroom YOU.WERE.STILL. HOLDING.HIS.HAND.
  •  and it’s sort rough but soft at the same time and it also smells like alcohol
  • and y’all don’t really notice that you’re still holding hands until your friend kun walks in the door with food
  • like kun is so shookt
  • and when he shakingly points out your intertwined hands y’all realize and turn crimson
  • kun never lets it go
  • and while this is going on so well, unfortunately you get better and have to get discharged
  • and yuta’s the one to push your wheelchair
  • he helps you stand and bids you goodbye
  • and right when you turn away he’s grabbing your wrist back and pulls you into a kiss
  • when he pulls back, he says, ‘i can fight you now, you know.’
  • you: nah, i don’t fight before the first date.
  • and the boy has the audacity to smirk i CANOT MY HEART YUTA WHY YOU DO DIS
  • him: well how about some coffee after my shift? and then i can fight you after
  • you: mhmmmm maybe
  • and this is the start of a beautiful relationship

anonymous asked:

idk but i saw a few l@nce stans argue endlessly that he's a much better leader than ke!th and he should be the one piloting the b!ack l!0n... like okay i get the part about how ke!th is too impulsive but like??? shit??? ke!th had his moments of leadership too?? there's a reason why sh!r0 chose him?? arent we forgetting that that is what's happening for a reason why dont know yet???

ya kno ive rewatched v0ltr0n many times and i gotta say l@nce isnt qualified at all??? i mean i can point out a lot of stuff but im just so sick and tired of ppl shitting on ke!th bc sh!ro gave him the position to lead while he’s gone LIKE!!! LOOK HERE–sh!ro and ke!th were alone on a planet…tired and hurt and sh!ro chose ke!th bc HE FUCKIN TRUSTS HIM. he’s seen what ke!th is capable of i guess thats blind to the fandom’s eyes bc apparently they like focusing on the bad side of ke!th where he’s reckless but l@nce isnt any better.
whatever….im just glad that ke!th is piloting black and actually taking the position;;; hes gon show them haters

  • it honestly amazes me how well akaashi knows bokuto. besides the whole list of weaknesses + solutions to combat them, he really knows how to read bokuto’s body language and mood well. he tries his best to understand bokuto through his ups and downs and that just screams how much akaashi cares about him. but seriously, i think it’s cute how they hang out outside practice too bc it shows how akaashi thinks of bokuto more than just the “ace/teammate.”
  • maybe… when bokuto started getting frustrated that his cross-spikes were getting blocked, maybe that’s when all the endless spiking practices started and akaashi agreed to practice w/ him because a happy bokuto is a happy akaashi. he’ll help bokuto jump over any hurdle they meet.
  • akaashi knows bokuto is capable of reaching his full potential (and beyond) on his own. in ch.244 when akaashi says he can only draw out bokuto’s top condition for a short time, i’d like to think that akaashi knows that bokuto just needs a little push from time to time, but the rest is all bokuto. akaashi believes in bokuto.
  • several months ago, i said how bokuto has complete trust in akaashi and i’m screaming bc of they think so fondly of each other and i’m just :’))) please get together. the day akaashi directly compliments bokuto, i will cry. will it happen at some point during spring interhigh?? bokuto’s graduation?? /cries
  • sometimes i wonder how far fukurodani will make it in nationals (i’m on the empty boat that thinks fukurodani’s gonna win, mainly bc my heart is gonna shatter if they don’t) but i really can’t decide. 100% sure nekoma v. karasuno will happen soon, but WHEN lol… i’ll just let the manga unfold itself c:
in-universe ninja ship party drabble!

holy shit this turned into something huge,, i hope you like it @skyhillian!!! :0 

Prompts: (i ended up writing all three of these into one whole thing lol)

Ninja Brian was never in a good mood.

Like, ever.

As long as Danny had known him, which had been for decades, he couldn’t ever recall seeing him smile even once. And even when Brian was in a decent mood, he’d still snap Danny’s neck in a split second over nothing. But no matter what mood he was in, he never smiled. Ever. It was something about not showing weakness or some bullshit like that, Danny remembered Brian signing to him once.

But today, Brian was really fucking pissed. Why?

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i feel like all i’ve talked about is work lately but a) oh well and b) it’s better than endless eating disorder posts….although lets be real i make those too lol no shame and c) a lot happened tonight ! good things ! things that made me glad to work here ! side note!! i’m self conscious that this is going to come across as ‘holier than thou” now! but!!! i do not care!!! 

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Soulmate!Mingyu

Request: hi!!! can you make a mingyu version of the soulmate au? c: i loved the dino one! thank you!!!!

Note: mentioning of vomit (idk if it’s necissary but some people get nauseated of reading about it maybe?) 

  • You couldn’t wait to get your soulmate, several of your friends had their soulmate but not that many
  • but the ones that did have theirs all had these amazing stories on how they met 
  • you were slightly scared about meeting your soulmate though as the tattoo on your wrist said nothing but “I’m sorry for vomiting on your friend…”
  • like in what scenario would that be the first thing you say to someone?
  • you already felt sorry for your friends because when you have the happiest day of your life one of them will be covered in soulmate vomit, but it will be worth it you always promised yourself
  • also downside: your soulmate will most likely be sick at the moment they meet you
  • oh well 
  • they’ll feel better eventually
  • today was the day you were going to an amusement park with 3 of your best friends and you had the feeling you might knew what would happen there
  • some attractions inflict vomit
  • but eventually it could just end with you not meeting your soulmate because I mean there will be other days
  • the day had been amazing so far you’d been in a few attractions together and you got some cotton candy from a stand 
  • you saw a real cute guy there, you‘d been looking at him for some time
  • not only because he was handsome but he was wearing a shirt that looked exactly like yours 
  • and it looked like he was about to come over to you when suddenly one of his friends called him “Come on Mingyu let’s go to that ride! It’s so hot we might as well go to a water ride.”
  • there went your chance of seeing this cute guy
  • he didn’t need to be your soulmate because in several situations soulmates don’t even date, they just become best friends
  • you convinced your friends to follow them and they were okay with it
  • you stood in the line behind his group of friends and he was like in the middle so no way talking to him shit
  • so this ride you know was like a round boats going over a river with waterfalls so the possibility that you got wet was about 100%
  • it was hella hot so you were okay with that
  • when you got further it became clear that his group was gonna have to split since it was max 6 every boat
  • they were hella panicking because apparently they were with 13
  • one guy who was kinda the boss over them suggested they split in smaller groups and took other ppl with them 
  • they split themselves in two groups of 4, one of 3 and one of 2 I did the math guys honestly so they had to ride with other ppl they didn’t knoow
  • and your friend group seemed like one of their victims
  • so your group split as well to join them
  • the ppl behind you were getting pissed that is was taking so long and tbh the staff was too
  • you and your friend were pushed into a boat with the cute guy, one with a bob haircut, the one that was the boss and a short guy with dimples
  • the boss dude seemed to be having fun as he was also wobbling the boat, it’s like he barely noticed you weren’t part of his friend group
  • the cute guy starts getting real pale and you’re getting kinda worried
  • “Seungcheol could you stop I think Mingyu is-”
  • do I have to explain what went wrong?
  • your friend was screaming and looked close to crying
  • the ride came to an end quickly and your friend got out of the boat as quickly as she could to run to the toilet and get clean
  • The barf dude stumbled out of the boat and said the magic words to you “I’m sorry for vomiting on your friend…” 
  • “Do you know how much of a shitty sentence that is to have tattooed on my wrist forever?” and not only he but also his friends suddenly got your attention
  • “Holy moly I’ve been wondering what could be so horrible about a first sentence my whole life and I think I get it now…”
  • by now you were both smiling like fools and you wanted to hug him well more like kiss but shhhshhsh
  • but he was still kinda ewie from the vomit
  • of course you spent the rest of the day getting to know his friends and he got to know yours rip your vomit covered friend who was now wearing a shirt bought in a souveniershop
  • you owed your friend big time
  • and she reminded you often enough but you were just way to glad to have found Mingyu to care

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anonymous asked:

Why does everyone hate snape? Like I don't disagree with the hate towards him but I don't completely understand

ooooohhh honey lemme enlighten u to the HUMAN EQUIVALENT OF A VOMIT SOAKED TRASH BAG NAMED SEVERUS SNAPE

  • so like a lot of people hated snape and then had a dramatic change of heart when they got to the chapter the princes tale BUT LIKE HIS SAD STORY DOES NOT ERASE ALL OF THE SHIT THAT HE DID BEFORE THAT 
  • like the entire snape/lily “”“"love story”“”“ is complete bullshit and offensive to me as a person liKE lets review okay: 
  • snape stalks lily as a child/offends and alienates her sister
  • snape and lily are friends at hogwarts while hes like in love with her
  • lily tries to stand up for snape and SNAPE CALLS HER A RACIAL SLUR
  • ((and need i remind u that before that lily had mentioned that she was freaked out by the death eater friends that snape was hanging around and he like defends them???? ok))
  • ““No—listen, I didn’t mean—”“—to call me Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?””
  • THEN SNAPE JOINS A GENOCIDAL HATE MOVEMENT TARGETING THE SAME GROUP OF PEOPLE AS THE PERSON HE APPARENTLY LOVES????????????? LIKE THIS MAKES ZERO SENSE TO ME 
  • HE LITERLALY JOINS A TERRORIST ORGANIZATION LIEK 
  • HE BECOMES A NAZI THE WIZARDINGLY EQUIVALENT OF A NAZI I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY LIKE 
  • A   N A Z I 
  • and ppl are just like well he realized he was wrong!!! like okay but if u think about it 
  • snape switched sides when he heard the prophecy that was created AFTER harry was born and like assuming he joined right out of hogwarts thats still FOUR YEARS OF BEING A DEATH EATER 
  • the fact of the matter is that he //only// cared about lily and like how many other “"mudbloods” or muggles did he kill or do nothing as they were killed before that??? being brave and being a hero isnt about doing something for someone you care about (or have a weird obsession with) its about doing it because u know its right. 
  • “You do not care, then, about the deaths of her husband and child? They can die, as long as you have what you want?” Snape said nothing, but merely looked up at Dumbledore.“ 
  • HE DID NOT CARE IF JAMES AN DHARRY DIED IF HER HUSBAND AND CHILD DIED AS LONG AS SHE DIDNT??????? like that is not a healthy love okay if he truly cared for lily hed realize that like her son and husband are just as important to her if not more than her life
  • watch this video where jk rowling literally proves this point 
  • another thing that bugs me is that even after snape changes sides HES STILL A GIANT DICKFACE 
  • he verbally abuses the trio for 6 years like. i dont understand how people can just FORGET THAT 
  • HE TORTURED HARRY FOR YEARS LIKE HARRY HAD DONE NOTHIGN WRONG HE JUST LOOKED LIKE JAMES AND HE VERBALLY ABUSED HOW CAN U JUSTIFY THAT???????????? 
  • he was cruel to the point where he was NEVILLES WORST FEAR AT AGE 13 LIKE OH MY GOD WHO THE FUKC DOES THAT DO A CHILD?????
  • he was a bully plain and simple and he bullied CHILDREN who were just doing their best 
  • he constantly put down hermione for her work ethic and like MADE FUN OF HER APPEARANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE MADE FUN OF A TEENAGE GIRLS APPEARANCE LIEK WHAT THE UFKC I HATE THIS GUY SO MCH 
  • like i dont understnad if he loved lily soooo much like how do u think LILY would feel seeing her snape treat her child, the person she sACRIFICED her LIFE for, this way. if u think she would be anything less than disgusted ur wrong. 
  • also that can i just like so snapes patronus was a doe right??? the same as lilys. whereas james patronus was a stag and the stag the doe compliment each other and are eQUALs. like he has the same patronus as her like a copy u know idk where im going w this but u see it just like rubbed me the wrong way like thats not a true love u know
  • like his love for lily to me read as like the classic like friendzoned guy deal lIEK lily NEVER loved him and he spent all of these years weirdly obsessed w her because she rejected him (AFTER HE CALLED HER A RACIAL SLUR????????? OK) and then he hangs on to that for YEARS after she dies ???? 
  • snape is basically a fedora wearing douche and u cant convince me otherwise
  • one thing i see ppl say a lot is like bring up his childhood and like the fact that he was brought up w pureblood prejudice u know and like that argument is suCH bullshit to me like u know who also was brought up that way?????? both sirius and regulus black. sirius joined the order and like fought against that shit and regulus tried to take voldemort down from the inside. no excuses tbh. 
  • OH MY GOD U KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH in the third book snape tries at every opportunity to get lupin FIRED when lupin is basically the wizarding equivalent of disabled and hes been HOMELESS and weak and SICK hasnt had a job in so long and is poor and shit and like they were rivals when they were SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD and like snape still tries to get him fired like i dont care that u were enemies when u were teenagers thats abhorrent 

basically snape is the worst person ever and i hate that harry named his son after him i just ignore that that ever happened bc its gross and icK and gINNY WHY DID U LET HIM DO THIS i hate snape and so should u 

spyderinej  asked:

*pounds fists on table* give us fun facts about early manned space flight!!

YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND TBH strap yourselves in this is gonna get long bcs!! astronauts!! are!! so!! cool!!

- during the first american spacewalk, or extravehicular activity for all you nerds, ed white was So Floored by the beauty of space that he almost forgot to come back into the spacecraft. he had to get back in due to Reasons, but he tried to use tacking more pictures as an excuse to stay out longer until his flight partner managed to and i quote “coax” him back in. all white said? “It’s the saddest moment of my life.” (still less terrifying then the first russian spacewalk tbh) 

- the first song played in space was jingle bells on an 8 note harmonica during gemini 6 by wally shirra, one of the orginal 7 nasa astronauts. immediatly before that they reported an “unknown object”. they reported santa’s sleigh. because of course they did. 

- hey you know that feeling when you’re on top of a 111m/363ft tall rocket that could cause one of the largest non-nuclear man made explosions if it failed? and your heart rate never gets above 70? yeah me neither but john w. young does. (for comparison: usually it spikes up to around 130-150. neil armstrong who?)

- speaking of john young, that man is a Beast. flew gemini, apollo AND the first shuttle flight. he also smuggled a corned beef sandwhich into gemini 3 that almost fucked up their electricity. because the space food they got was terrible, which i mean frankly i understand.

- during the assembly of the lunar landing modules, people weren’t allowed to bring screw drivers into them because if they’d fall, they’d break the floor. those things were FLIMSY. when they pressurized, the window would bend towards the outside. 

- yuri gagarin was a Delight for multiple reasons not limited to: introducing himself as the “world’s first spaceman” to some very confused soviet children and village people who probably thought he was a spy when he landed after his flight, sitting on a cushion as a pilot because he was too small to see and couldn’t stick his landings right since he couldn’t see the runway, shouting “off we go!” while being shot into space. nice dude. 

- apollo 12 was hit by lightning pretty much immediatly after take off. their entire console basically went “whoop de doo you’re fucked” and decided to give them a giant light show of warning lights. the only reason they didn’t had to do a super risky abort was because john aaron, flight controller extraordinair who’d later play a big role in apollo 13, remembered some obscure as fuck switch that could fix the electrical system and alan bean, astronaut who now PAINTS WITH LITERAL MOON DUST, remembered said obscure switch from a training exercise. the entire crew broke out into what one author described as “nervous giggles” after that. my favourite bit is how they relay the information from flight controller to flight director to capcom to pilot and EVERY SINGLE ONE says “the what switch now?”

- speaking of the apollo 12 crew: besides being an absolute Gem in general, they were music enthusiasts. pete conrad brought along a bunch of country and western music that the other two didn’t like, but alan bean was into top 40 which led them to sing and “dance” to Sugar, Honey, Honey on their way too the moon. holding hands and gently floating around. IN SPACE. what dorks.

- other reasons why apollo 12 is the best: they had matching custom painted cars that they drove around houston. ask me for more if you’re into lovely flight crew dynamics for all your au and hope in humanity needs.

- so the americans used to land their crews in the ocean bcs u know you have it why not use it it’s convenient. the soviets/russians don’t really have any suitable ocean around so they had to settle for land landings. which not only brought about the already mentioned gagarin incident, but in general led to some… fun incidents (iirc one crew got stuck in the tundra for like two days and met some polar bears). on the second ever soviet space flight, cosmonaut gherman titov (who also was the first person to sleep in space and get space sickness so u know), was seen ejecting himself from his spacecraft (they used to do that bcs they were #hardcore) and almost landed himself on some rail tracks before landing backwards, rolling over 3 times and getting a face full of nice dirt. some very lovely lady saw this and in her rush to be a Helpful Human drove SO FAST over the bumpy terrain that she banged her head on the steering wheel and “jumped out with a bloody forehead”. so his first task post! landing from the then longest space flight in human history? as the then youngest person in space ever?? giving first aid from his Spacecraft Medical Kit to a local lady. 

HERE YA GO your daily dose of Fun Space Facts. and this is just!! the tip of the iceberg!! there’s so much more!! female astronauts!! john glenne setting his house on fire to impress gherman titov!!! grammatical errors on lunar plaques!! mORE MUSIC IN SPACE!! PRANKS!! HUMANITY BEING COOL!!