i know its shitty i made it on some shitty website what do you want from me

→ a way to cure sadness is through gratitude

Originally posted by bangsongguk

I was having a real terrible day and I was moping and feeling sorry for myself when someone I love very much told me I should make a list of things that I love and I’m grateful for and focus on them instead on what was making me sad, since one way to cure sadness and self-pity is through gratitude. And one of the things in my list was this blog and all the wonderful people I’ve met through it. So excuse my emo words, but here they come!

Recently this blog turned one, reached 2,5k followers and over 50k views. @writings-by-cl also recently reached 1k followers and 10k views. So I would like to thank you, my lovely reader, from the bottom of my heart! I don’t mean to brag about my follower account, if you have been here for a while you know that I don’t do things that way. 

What I want with this post is to show love, gratitude and appreciation towards all the amazing people that have been reading my stories and making this journey worthwhile, and if you are here, following my blogs and reading this, you are included among them for sure.

My goal has always been to become a better writer and to have fun while writing fanfic. Along the way I also felt the need to give some space in my blog for those who are underappreciated. It’s not something I can say I achieved yet; it’s more of a ‘compass’ to keep me on track on why I started this blog in the first place and remind me what I’m still doing here whenever I feel down.

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So I’m just gonna have a tiny positive rant in this post for the start of 2017.

tl;dr of this entire post is pretty much ‘If you’re thinking of making a blog for writing, do it right now. Don’t do it for followers for notes, do it because you want to do it’ essentially. What’s below is a really long and passionate rant on my opinion on the topic. Like, I get if people don’t agree with me, but this is how I feel.

Also there’s loads of swearing because I am very passionate about this.

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30 Seconds To Mars experiment

There’s no need to introduce this band. Most of you probably heard their songs, some of you probably know the frontman - Jared Leto. 30 Seconds To Mars is this kind of band that everyone knows, but most prefer not to talk about it. You can hate it or you can love it or maybe make fun of it, but you can’t pass by without noticing.
I need to tell you, I’m not a music critic. I never had any education in this direction, I’m just a simple music lover, a fan, a normal person like you.
I’ve decided to make a social experiment to explore the 30 Seconds To Mars phenomenon.


The band is nothing special, their music is a simple mix, something between pop and rock. Perfect combinantion for all the radiostations around the world. Following the band’s discography I have to say that in my opinion they downgraded their music and it’s really visible. On the beginning their songs, now called “old school Mars” were great rock, maybe it wasn’t really great rock, but it was harsh, loud and not mainstream. The new album, Love Lust Faith + Dreams is totally mainstream, hitting the charts with pop-rock beats and very good vocals. They went into totally different direction and somehow, someway they lost the special something. I’m not saying they don’t have talent. They do. Jared’s voice is amazing and to hear it loud and clear you have to attend the gig. But still, for me this is not right.
So what’s the big deal? Why they are so different? Why people love them so much?


The answer is very complex. I want to show you what I’ve learned during the past year.
Jared Leto found the perfect way to get new fans and keep the ones he already had. His amazing PR is to show people that he cares. He’s doing random mini gigs in different cities. He’s using social media such as Twitter to invite everyone to join him. People have free gig and he has them to think he cares. Of course he was doing this just before and right after his band’s new CD was released. It’s so funny to see how easy people are believing him. He has this huge affection on them and he’s like a puppet master.


The next thing is VyRT. A website created by Jared to connect with fans.
The concept is amazing, gathering fans all over the globe and show them gigs they can’t attend or some small talks with the band for everyone. While I was hanging out in there I’ve heard people talking about how great he is that he’s taking his time to talk to people and it’s so amazing.
Yes. It’s amazing. I can appreciate the fact that he is hanging around with people, chatting or doing video chats. I don’t know how it was before, how did it look like a year ago or so, because I never saw it, but when I joined it all looked like one giant PR action.
The tickets to see the show and hang out with a band via web cam were not really that expensive, only $10. To sell as many tickets they could, Jared was hanging out with people doing random chats. Perfect, right? Not really. All he was talking about was tickets. People who bought the tickets had little stars near their login so he could’ve easily notice who bought it and who didn’t. For those who had their stars he made private chat and he basically blew off the main chat, writing from time to time about how great fun he was having with people in his VIP room. During other chats he was asking people to buy the CD and the tickets. To get more people to actually pre-order his new CD he was doing competitions such as call from him and the song dedication during VyRT which he never did. People were buying, some bought over 20 CD’s. This way even before the CD had its premiere it was already gold. Amazing PR. And don’t forget about the sleepover contest which was the most stupid idea ever.
The same was during other VyRTs. This time, Jared, knowing that people gonna buy anything he wants he was spending time with people doing so called VyRT Violets. He was playing songs, chatting with people, all the time talking and almost begging people to buy tickets. This time was funny because they didn’t sell as many tickets as they wanted so he was showing up on chat very often because then people were buying tickets. It was funny mostly because of people who were buying hundreds of tickets just to keep Jared happy, because nobody wanted to disappoint him.
Andd don’t forget about the newest onventions such as VIP rooms for the wealthy ones who have not only separate room but also special features. This is totally not fair since calling people a “family” separating the ones with money is just a shitty move. All I can think about is “greedy bastards”.
VyRT is the whole long story, not a good place or topic to actually talk about it right here right now.


The next thing I saw was the infamous Meet and Greet thing.
Obviously to meet celebrity and pay for it is a very stupid idea. You can easily meet them on the street. I paid for it because I was going to check everything.
For a little bit over $400 you have ticket to the show, early entry, shitty merchandise, poster signed by a band and individual photo. Of course there are also more expensive packages worh $900 where you can be on the stage for the entire show or recently added hang out with the Mars crew.
Obviously Mars are not the most expensive band or celebrity, some are charging more. I have no idea how it is with others but with Mars the thing is weird. The whole “meet” thing is depending on Jared’s mood. Some are really great and some are shitty. I’ve attended few and I had 50 shades of Jared Leto. Basically this is all not worth the money. Mostly because they don’t care about the fans who have paid for this not really awesome experience. Shannon Leto is not talking at all, sometimes when he is forced to talk he is able to answer one question with one sentence or sometimes with one word. Tomo Milicevic is there, talking from time to time, but it’s all about Jared. He’s choosing people to talk, he’s answering the questions. all of that lasts around 30 minutes. Then you have very quick picture and the experience is over. Doesn’t sound nice, does it? So let me tell you one more thing. The band is trying to sell as many M&G packages as possible. So you can go to this thing and have 50 people and you can actually hear and see anything and maybe if you’re lucky, Jared will pick you to ask the question or you can have 200 people where you won’t see anything at all. This is totally greedy and not really fair. Some bands have this M&G experience but the packages are limited. With Mars is different because they’re selling upgrades and giving the great occassions just to sell as much as they possibly can. So basically, if you aren’t outside the venue since 6am you have no option to see or ask question. And you just paid 400 dollars.  
There are more reasons to write about the band being greedy. Ignoring people and just ask to vote or buy tickets. RT-ing or answering tweets about voting or tickets. I can go on and on.



The most important part of the band is Echelon. Not fans, family as they like to call themselves.
In one of the band’s videoclips we can see the words “This is a cult”. Jared likes to say that their music is not for everyone, only for those who believe, who understand. And this is quite dangerous.
Joining the Echelon I’ve seen a lot. I have to say that 30STM fans are people who belong nowhere. You can find there all kinds of people, young, old, those who are there because they love the music and those who just want to f-ck Jared, gays, bisexualsm straight. Mostly people with problems and thanks to Jared they have someone to talk to.
Hanging out there I know now that the whole “family” is a totall bullshit. People on VyRT are different. Usually they have a small group of friends and they just don’t want anyone else to join them. So newbies, be prepared to be ignored.
The most common topic in there is “Leto porn”, where people are throwing links to one of the Leto brother’s pictures.
The main group on VyRT are people who are calling themselves “Dirty VyRTies” and they are the most known group of people who like to talk about sex and what they can do to any of the Leto brother. Doesn’t matter if you are boy, girl, old or young, married or single. All the people love the “Leto porn” and all kinds of sex talks.
No matter how hard Jared and the Echelon are trying to prove they are family, they’re not. They may be friends, they may talk, but it’s so far from the family. If you’re lucky to get into their group you can be kicked out even faster. Follow the crowd, don’t speak your own opinion and you’re in the right place.
The people are following Jared blindly, without a word. Whatever Master says they’re doing it. And it doesn’t matter if he just posted a phone number to some crazy fangirl and asked to call her and ask why she was writing to him. They’re gonna find the explanation for his actions. He’s rude? So what, maybe he had a reason. He didn’t show up to M&G? Maybe he had a reason. Doesn’t matter that you payed for this. He doesn’t care, but the Echelon will find an explanation always.
I feel so sorry for those people. They are trying to fit in so hard that they just don’t see clearly that this skinny vegan guy is using them. They have the delusions that he is so good for them because he cares. No. He doesn’t care about anyone. He showed it so many times and he keep doing it.
People should know the truth. For a year I’ve been there and hearing him saying the same stuff over and over again just to kiss people’s asses is boring. He’s not honest at all. So wake up and stop blindly following him.