i know it's not the thing of the week

Wings Chapter 32 on AO3

hi. i cant sleep and i need to talk about something. it will be unde r a read more

im going to try taking ir easy on the vocabulary and things because i want this to be directly from my heart so i dont care about spelling abd typos and things like that

today is my qpps birthday. who went missing on july 1st whike we were having a conversation; backtalking his mother

he completely just left and i dont know what to di. its been a month abd a hakf and we have never veen thiscseperafe in almost 5 years

i live everyday waiying fir him to come back but i feek like he wont and i am lying to myself. first everyone promise a few weeks : and then a month : and then august first. now everyone is saying he will be bsck around his birthday nut its just not true i dont think

his mom is so avusibe but i never expected it to go this far and i really think a piece of me is lost witg him. i donr kow when hes comibg back. he probably wont. i cant form relationships abd he was my impulse control. So many things have jappened abd i have no way of telling him

teres no way i can ever love someone the way i love him and within a few minutes 5 years of love got completely stolen

i wish i could tell myself to move on abd stop waiting and crying over this but its impossible and its to the point im so extremely emotionally closed off i cant ecen form proper crushes and i am so oblivious to romance

this is something extremely serious to me and i feel like im stucj in this spot or something Nd i wuestion my own sanity. Maybe he was fake and i made him uo in my head/ maybe i died and im just a trapped soirit without him / maybe he committ suicide since that was something we would have done years before without each other. He probably hates me

i am nor going to be able to hold on much longer without him and my health has deteriorated so bad its hard to function now

this was the most important person in my life and hes gone. i dudnt dven get to say goodbye to him. hes gone and i am alone and there are some things i wanted to say to him that i will never het to say now

I literally feel my heart breaking ovet and over and over because i keep convincing myself he will come back and things will be okay. i turned to religion ad to my friends and advice websites and youtube vudeos but nothing is working and nothing is going to work. the more i keeo living like this the more it hurts

we wrre so dependent on each other i am so scared something happened to him and theres no way i could kos or find out

Tgus is extremely long and hard for me to out all my enotions into this but i cannot keep internalizing everything when i t just makes me more suicidal af I literally feel myself falling apart at the seams

I have attempted suicide seriously once since he left and i know i am going to try again soon but i am so tired. Im exhausted. I cant keep doing this and i just dont want to kive anymooew especially withour him

he turned 18 today and i missed it. i missed one of the most important days of the most important person in my life. im going to miss him started college. i an going to miss everything from this point out abd i cabt axxept it abymore. i feel like i need to sleep abd not wake uo until hes back abd has his phone

maybe he does have his phone abd he just hates me. i have ni way of knowing anymore

anonymous asked:

Confession: I'm not republican but for whatever reason I really want to angry fuck Mitt Romney. Especially when he's talking about the economy.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH OH MY GOD WHAT DID I DESERVE TO GET THIS IN MY INBOX ANON 

STRAIGHT UP FUNNIEST, WEIRDEST, I DUNNO I FEEL SO CONFLICTED RIGHT NOW ASK EVER. WHAT DO I SAY. IS THIS A POLITICAL STATEMENT? I DONT KNOW. 

l a u g h s weakly 

you’ve made my week and it’s only monday. 

its shark week and michael phelps is about to race a shark but how do we know this is the fastest shark were there shark prelims set out underwater to test this i think this is an unfair process discovery u cant have a world class human and just regular jeff the shark do u know how humiliating its gonna be for jeff and his family when he gets beat by  michael phelps™ cuz hes just a normal average joe accountant shark why u gotta do jeff like that man

Me, through tears: Fuck, dude, you sure are…

Hi my name’s amanda and I’m real messed up about Davenport. Catch me in your local broom closet crying about this gnome. You’re welcome to join me.

“We can escape to the great sunshine

We made it out to the other side…”

“You’re rescuing kittens now?”

“Look, it’s got such lovely eyes.”

“We have places to be - though…you are right.”

so guess who loves ineffable idiots

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Frank Frink and Inspector Takeshi Kido // just wanted to sketch my faves from The Man in the High Castle

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Bellarke Week - Day 6: AU
▶ Post-Praimfaya: Bellamy gets drunk and hallucinates Clarke.

Pillow Talk

Summary: While at Vidcon, Phil can’t seem to fall asleep, even after the whole ‘missed flight’ ordeal. His mind begins to drift, and his thoughts start to be filled with pride for his most favorite person.

Genre: don’t let the title fool you, it’s all FLUFF

Warnings: umm none that i can think of

Word Count: 1486

a/n: apparently my brain always comes up with stories about people who can’t sleep. also pLEASE DON’T JUDE ME i couldn’t think of a good title so i named it after zayn’s song and yeah i wrote thing while waiting in lines and legoland and universal studios and finished while at dinner so yeah ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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It’s been a long two days. Phil still couldn’t believe they had made it to Vidcon. He thought, for sure, that they’d miss it. He still couldn’t believe they they had gotten so lucky with that flight that had two seats left, perfect for him and Dan.

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pride parade

so. gay pride. we all know about it right? colors, gay love, parades, rainbows everywhere. a way to celebrate who we are freely.

but the thing is, its not true. its just a fake, hypocritcal appearance.

 i tried to attend my first gay parade last week, but i was  immediately told to get out  (even if the parade was in a public space) because i didnt fit the criteria to join. There was a 10 feet tall hairy butch lesbian meticolously inspecting everyone who wanted partecipate. i tried to get past her but she stopped me with a huge hand on my shoulder.

‘’scuse me miss’ she said in a threatening voice ‘this parayde is for wombyn who exclusively loyve and want to fyck other wombyn and myn who exclusively loyve and wyant to fyck myn. no turbovirgins allowed.’

i didnt know how reply. ive been an out and proud demiromantic panplatonic hetero-adjacent asexual for years, and now this woman was telling me i didnt belong. i wept and quietly walked home, my heart broken. 

og paladins + language barriers bc i’m tired of photoshop

  • i imagine the og paladins had to learn each other’s languages and Nutbutton.png
    • alfor probably took the initiate first bc he’s a nice guy and a good diplomat. he started learning from his translator and then blaytz would not be one-upped and gyrgan and trigel sort of got sucked up in the excitement.
      • coran, showering:
        blaytz, opening the curtain: coran, would—stop screaming—would you teach me altean?
    • zarkon was the hardest to convince bc damn do the galra have pride.
      • no but really he only did it because he felt that the other four were gossiping about him behind his back.
  • Not Saying they get together each week to watch altean novelas but you know they did 
    • “why do we always watch altean things” “have you seen galra tv it’s 95% propaganda”
    • yes there’s a Galra TV Drinking Game bc holy shit is it all repetitive
  • trigel almost stops midbattle bc she can’t remember one goddamn word and it’s driving her crazy.
    • “hey, blaytz what’s the name of that large animal that nearly ran you over last week.” blaytz, dodging enemies, “i’m not answering that.” trigel, effortlessly causing two opponents to crash together, “come on!” “do you really think i stopped to ask for its name while it was chasing me down?” 
  • “gyrgan c’mon i know you and your people have some of the best curse words out there leak them
  • Some Magical Shit Happens and the og paladins somehow lose the ability to speak each other’s tongues and it’s just one really long and frustrating game of charades and zarkon drives his lion straight into a cliff out of sheer frustration.
  • drunk paladins switching between languages and laughing and having a good time
  • the og paladins vs the galran language: a saga
    • “what does that say, alfor” alfor leans in, shrugs. “i don’t know” “but you speak galran” “yeah, doesn’t mean i know how to read it have you seen the galran alphabets”
    • trigel: zarkon why is there no galran word for lesbian you need to fix this immediately
    • “zarkon, why is it that there are ten different galran phrases for ‘glorious death in battle’—each with a slightly difference connotation, mind you—but there’s no direct translation for ‘pillow’?”
    • zarkon, trying to learn all the different names for all the different articles of clothing alteans wear: alfor your people are so soft
      alfor, struggling through the tenth volume of the galran history of war book: yeah that’s fair
  • they sometimes borrow phrases from each other and since they’re sort of heads of state the phrases get disseminated down and it’s like a really risky game of telephone that might cause an intergalatic war
  • blaytz: and then gyrgan took the robot’s head clean off with his hands, and—
  • zarkon: we have a phrase for that
    trigel, without hesitation: of course you do
  • coran, to allura, immediately after learning that not only are the new paladins all the same species, but they all speak the same language: holy shit this is going to be so much easier we might actually live through this
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PART 1 // ???

i have slaved away at this damn thing for 3 weeks and now im tired and regretting everything.

this is my dadsona noah and im gonna be spitting out a comic about him for god knows how long and i can only hope this hellsite likes it.

theres cult shit and i guess romantic relationships idk its gonna be fun i have a big story planned out pls follow and stick around so i know you actually want to see more. :’)

note: im not following the canon plot. the canon plot will be the base of this story but other than that expect it to be bent to get a more interesting viewpoint/adventure out of it. My ask box is open if you have questions!

anonymous asked:

Nah. It's usually fairly offensive and coming from the sort of people who say things like "the blacks" or call all latinxs "hispanics". Personally, I'll only accept it from older trans people since that (and transexual) was what was used during their youth).

(re: “transgendered”)

I don’t know.  The events of the last few weeks are starting to make me really feel like I’d much rather have “I support the transgenders!  Transgendereds are just people trying to live their lives!” over the sort of people who use absolutely perfect up-to-the-minute gender studies terminology but don’t actually like anyone.

(I mean, not that those are the only two groups, obviously someone can use correct terminology and be supportive and that’s great, but if they’re not willfully misgendering an individual, terminology is like 0.5% of someone’s Trans-Friendliness Score in my book.)

Maybe the difference is whether someone’s just unfamiliar, or whether they’ve been told “transgender is an adjective” and doubled down on “I’ll call you what I want to call you!”  But I see the mere-unfamiliarity more often, and I don’t have a problem with that–it means they’re a new supporter, and new supporters are good and valuable to have.

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I love her videos, I love her music, I love her soul, I love her face.

Youtuber appreciation post (1/?): dodie lockscreens
Please like or reblog if you save/use them! :)

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this is my take on grown up terumob.

they have never been in the same school, not even once. they just magically bump into each other at random days in the week and just hangout. this happens until their freshmen year in college and then they become a thing. no one knows that they’re dating (only ritsu and reigen). they are currently juniors so they’ve been dating for about two years???

shigeo was the first to realize his feelings for teru after teru got his hair cut. (their’s a story behind this but i’ll tell it another time maybe)   

RANDOM EVENT TIME!

it has been a while since our last random event ewe but today we are gonna have a large and lasting random event that is meant for everyone!

todays theme is

in this event we all split up into 3 different squads

the PINK squad (pink hairs) [you can have any shade of pink as your hair color]

the ORANGE squad (orange hairs) [you can have any shade of orange as your hair color]

the BLUE squad (blue hairs)  [you can have any shade of blue as your hair color]

you can all choose to be whichever squad you prefer to be at the start or even move over to the other squad,or as i’d like to say “recolor yourself”.

so here’s how it all goes 

color wars have 3 different ways to play the game

the first one is 

with this method you can paint your friends and strangers with your color if they desire by just asking them to join your squad. ask anyone you like on any social media even!

the second method is

with this method you can pull over people from other squad to your squad. surprise attack them with art or some nice letters or anything creative you can think of so they become your color buddy!

the third method is

with this method you can challenge people from other groups to any kind of game (cards,video games,dice rolls,coin flips,etc [anything that has to do with two players really]) if the other color person loses then they have to transfer to your squad as a “punishment” and they will not be able to transfer back to their original group for however long both of the persons bet. you can also challenge your group to a game with other groups,almost like a group fight! 

every color squad can have their own group of 6 inside and they must have different kind of things to wear. anything works in this really,as long as its noticeable and colored. 

the groups cannot have same colored (same) items though

the squad with most people at the end of 2 weeks will be the winners! (though i cant think of any prize for now-since theres a lot of people to reward with- ) 

there can be squad members that arent in any groups so you dont have to be in any group if you dont want to!

also for people to know which squad you’re on you can put the color of your squad on your icon like this 

hope ya’ll will join and have fun you guys! nwn 

and remember 

dont hurt each other! i’m trying to make this so people can have fun!~

if you do have questions please do leave me a message!