i just wanted everyone to remember this

I Wanted It to be Real

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Chapter 5

I’ve been through a breakup once before, with Agatha. It was right at the beginning of the school year, when she said she thought we loved each other as friends, not as something else. I didn’t have to think about the way I should react at the time, how upset I should be, what I should say, because I’d already known for years that we were going to be endgame.

It turned out I was wrong.

I don’t have to think about it now, even though I should. I haven’t done this before, breaking up with someone over a fight, going back to hating someone I should have hated all along. It’s not hard, acting like I’m mad at Baz. It’s not the first time.

Penny is unusually quiet when I tell her about the fake breakup. Agatha rushes to console me, offering hugs and extra dessert and a shoulder to cry on if I want it. I have to keep reminding her that we were never really dating, and the breakup was staged, so of course I don’t need any of those things.

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maybe we’re tired of tragedy maybe the world said: welcome home, it’ll be a beautiful ride. maybe the world lied, maybe the lifelines on your palms are no more than some ancient tragedy dragging its teeth on your skin like an animal that refuses to die
no matter how many times you shoot it.

maybe i’m applying lipstick in the front seat of my car and the leather smells like my friend rushing out to throw up. we are all rushing out to throw up because we live in a time of cataclysm, every day might be a new catastrophe.
nuclear apocalypse is the new black
and we are already putting shotguns in the trunks of our cars.


you blow a breath of smoke and i want to know why everyone tells me that cigarettes are bad for my health when the sky over my hometown is no longer the blue my grandmother remembers, and why you think that i am destroying myself when the world is being destroyed and you just throw the leaflets away. we are not trying to kill ourselves here, we were just born exhausted, and i don’t see people in the streets, i see moving muscles and bones. we all want enough breathing room but our lungs would break apart if we got oxygen.


there are people who have never even seen the stars and now you tell me that elon musk wants to launch us into space. to do what?
to destroy, which is the ancient tragedy, which is the only thing we know how to do right. i weep for the stars and for the galaxies and for some passengers two centuries into the future, the child with curly hair pressing her nose
to the shuttle window as Earth burns burns burns,
the only legacy we ever left.

I liked the hug.

I never expected much would happen in that scene. Do I want more? YES. But they aren’t going to do anything overt with other people nearby and a walker herd coming at them.

What I did like is that it felt natural, and she went RIGHT for him.

Remember when Daryl flinched before she ever touched him at the farm? Now he’s a hugger who hugs Carol all the damn time and I’m fucking proud of him for that.

And for everyone that thought Carol doesn’t want him, here she is initiating the hug, and the look on her face says she’d rather just stand in that alley a while longer and snuggle him.

That extra squeeze she gives him…she loves this dude, you guys.

No one else was hugging ya’ll…Morgan and Tara didn’t even fist bump, lol.  ;)

Personally, it does feel like there’s more than just a hug happening there.

Now, what DOES tick me off is that I don’t know WTF Daryl is saying.

I rewound that clip a dozen times and every time he sounded fucking different.

“It’s better than letting things be though, right?”

“It’s better to let things be though, right?”

These have two different meanings and I wanna know which one it is. It sounds like they’re talking in code and I need someone to take the marbles out of Norman’s mouth before I lose it.

I won’t even address the fact that it ALWAYS sounds like they’re speaking in circles and talking about nothing because this dialog situation is a show wide problem and the writers and gimple need fired over it.

If he said “it’s better to let things be though, right?” Then what the hell is he talking about? The look on her face when she replies confused me even more.

Dammit, Norman. USE YOUR WORDS.


You’ve heard of “think she’d settle?” now get ready for “better than lettin’ things be right?”

Sigh.

CONGRATS TO EVERYONE WHO MET TAYLOR TONIGHT! I HOPE Y’ALL HAD THE BEST NIGHT OF YOUR LIVES. I AM SO HAPPY YOUR DREAMS CAME TRUE!

To everyone else: Our time will come. I know it’s hard seeing everyone living your dream and meeting Taylor. We will get our chance we just have to keep loving and supporting her. We have to remember that there are billions of us and only one of her. She wants to meet every single one of us as much as we want to meet her. This girl goes above and beyond for us and lurks us on every social media accounts. She even made an app to keep up with us… she’s not real. Everyone says it happens when you least expect it. Don’t give up on your dream even when you feel like you will never meet her. This has been my dream for 10+ years and I know that one day I will get to meet her and it will be the best night of my life. Sending you all a hug and don’t forget that Taylor loves you and we will meet her one day💖

ya boy is back from the ICU and mandated subsequent psychiatric hospitalization

so uh, i apparently almost died from my suicide attempt. i don’t remember much after i got to the ER but i almost went into cardiac arrest and they told my dad at one point i was going to be put on life support if i continued to decline any further (my heart rate at that point was 175)

but i wanted to let everyone know i’m all right, i’m still alive for some unknown reason

i’ll be on later in a bit i just got home so i got a few things to do first

hey guys guess what??? ;w; remember how i was almost homeless a few weeks ago? well i just secured a new apartment!! the best part: my roommate has a kitty named sushi c: i just wanted to say thank you for all your well wishes and prayers!!! i really appreciate everyone’s kindness!!!

selena-taylor  asked:

lizzy !! my heart is aching for you. just try and remember that taylor loves you and wanted to meet you. don’t ever forget that. i know taylor will try extra hard to meet you during the rep tour. don’t give up, you deserve this !!

orla!!❤️ you’re right!! and i will remember that everytime i’m sad. it’s so amazing how it isn’t just heartbreaking to me, but to everyone else, that’s so heart-warming that people care. thank you so much love you!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

Taylor is unreal. I want to compare her to Michael Jackson or Madonna, but it’s simply not possible. Taylor is on a different level; so unique in her skill and character that I’m sure she’ll be remembered long past my lifetime. She’s not just a music legend, she’s the most endlessly generous and compassionate human being I’ve ever experienced. She’s brilliant, always one step ahead of everyone else, musically and otherwise. She knows how to stand up for herself with grace and eloquence. She knows her self-worth, and is devoted to teaching everyone she encounters about their own. Watching her mature and evolve musically has been something I wouldn’t give up for the world. I’m so incredibly grateful that we all get to experience her in real time. She will be remembered ;.)

just want everyone to know that i was talking about the les mis movie w my coworker and she didnt know that enjolras was “the hot blond one” and she forgot his name so she called him enchiladas, but did remember that he was played by aaron tveit and wants to tweet aaron saying she “loved his role as enchiladas in The Miserables”

if you ever feel bad about having no friends just remember how many fakes are around james cameron. “yeah man, everyone wants FOUR more avatar movies, just do your thing”… like.. i’d rather be alone 

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WHY I LOVE U

Venus in Aries: I heard your laughter before I saw you. And then I couldn’t take my eyes off you. And after everyone had gone home we were still running around, or you were running I was just trying to keep up. You work hard, play hard and love even harder, but you like to try on a couple of sizes before you find the right fit. It’s the way you make me laugh at the most ludicrous things, the way you know exactly what you want and are not afraid to go and get it. You make me feel like anything is possible. Our love was like a tickle war turned makeout session, and I still remember the heat when our skin touched. There will never be anyone like you. 

Venus in Taurus: Being with you is like coming home. Like a perfect dream. Like lavender candles and cuddling up to a marathon of our favourite show. You kissing me between every episode. You don’t like playing games and you don’t like being rushed when falling in love. You take your sweet time, worshipping my body and my mind so my heart can’t help but follow. I remember those lazy Sundays, strolling through the furniture store, your hand in mine and we would pretend to decorate our future house. But all we came out with were more lavender candles and a burning lust for each other. You turn the mundane into something truly magical. 

Venus in Gemini: You drive me crazy, I never know where we stand. We spend the most incredible nights together and then I don’t hear from you in forever. Maybe that’s your style, you wanna look me in the eyes and not read my words on your phone. We sit for hours and people watch, making up backstories for them. When I’m with you I have no sense of time, all I can think about is your mischievous smile and the way you play with my hair. Your love is all-consuming, like nothing in the world matters to you more. With you my sense of reason is completely clouded, I’m yours for the night and every other night. If you’ll have me. 

Venus in Cancer: My hero, my sensitive babe. Your heart on your sleeve, that look in your eyes and I was yours forever. When you kissed me I could see our lives flashing before my eyes. Sitting on opposite sides of the sofa. Your nose in a book but your hand on me, like you needed to be connected to me or else you’d die. Every time you catch me staring at you I can’t help the grin on my face. You are fragile and strong, creating this protective space around us where we can just be together. I love how you’re not afraid of your feelings, and how you already named our kids even though we need to discuss it lol. You make it feel so real, like you are the missing piece of the puzzle. 

Venus in Leo: I remember the first time I met you, it all happened so fast. At a party, my friend introducing you and before I knew it your arms were around me. I remember melting into your hug, and the electricity in the air when we finally let go. Everyone else thought it was weird but we both knew, there was no turning back. Being with you feels like running through a field of flowers, faster and faster. Your laughter and your moans echo in my head. My legs feel like giving out but your hand refuses to let go of mine. It’s that smile after you say something clever, and they way you make me feel like it’s just me and you versus the world. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this loved. 

Venus in Virgo: You make me feel whole. Driving down the freeway blasting our songs, I can’t sing but you don’t care. Your hand on the stick shift and for some reason I got all hot inside. It’s the way you wrap your arms around me at the checkout line, like I’m yours and you don’t care who knows. You’re thoughtful and observant, you make me feel like I matter to you. And it’s not an act, you are actually that kind. I’m trying so hard to describe you, but all I can think about is that night when my family fell apart. You drew a bath with bubbles and you held me until the water went cold. Then we ate raspberries (my favourite) and watched Modern Family. And then you loved me until I didn’t feel like I was falling apart anymore. I think that describes you more than words ever could. You’re the one I see sitting next to me on our porch doing a crossword puzzle, in our old bodies. But it doesn’t scare me because your spirit is forever young. 

Venus in Libra: Being in love with you is so easy. Our first date was to the movies. You gave me a red poppy and held my hand the entire time, gently playing with my fingers. My heart was about to beat out of my chest but somehow I was calm, because you were. I love the way you talk so easy, with that breezy confidence. Like you’d never tell me a lie. The way you were charming and kind to everyone from the bus driver to the server at the pizza shop. After talking to each other all night in the park, it was the only place that was still open. My mum still asks about you. I think she loved you more than I did, and that’s saying something. 

Venus in Scorpio: God, the way you tear me apart and then put me back together. Over and over again. You of all people know that life isn’t always chocolates and roses. You’re not afraid of the ugliness of human nature, instead you try to find the silver lining, the beauty in the madness. You demand that I’m honest with you, and in turn you trust me with your own secrets. It created a bond beyond love, or maybe it was love. It just felt different, like it was based in reality and not a love story. You’ve seen me at my worst and still think I’m beautiful, because you see people’s souls. Nobody can hide their true nature from you for you are an expert of reading between the lines. Your animalistic passion penetrates deep, and everything becomes a haze of lust and obsession. Because if you’re not obsessed it’s just not worth it. I would trust you with my life, because you would sacrifice your own for the one you love. 

Venus in Sagittarius: We had just gotten comfortable on the top of the mountain we climbed when you hit me with “Do you think out of seven billion that some people have the same personality?” And you packed my favourite sandwich, tomato, mozzarella and basil. A moment of breathless kisses and triumph. Your strength made me feel strong too, and your devotion made my heart swell. You never stand still but it doesn’t matter, because you take me with you and always make sure I’m alright. You make me feel included, showing me off and introducing me to all your friends. I’ve never felt more proud than when I’m standing next to you. When you told me how much you loved me I knew it was true. 

Venus in Capricorn: The true romantic. What drew me in was that calm stare, you looked like trouble I swear I was gonna faint on the spot. You could keep up with me, and when you took my hand and said “Trust me?” I somehow believed you. But what made me fall for you was how you kept all your promises. Your presence is honest and true, the way you make me feel like I would never be alone, like I would always have a friend. I love falling asleep in your arms to your heartbeat. You’re gentle with me, I can feel your love in every touch. Your love made me believe I could do anything, because I knew you would stick by my side. If I asked you to. 

Venus in Aquarius: Keep it cool, that’s how you roll. Almost untouchable, but you let me touch you. It was like the seasons changed in seconds. You finished that last drop of champagne and said “Let’s get wet”, then we jumped in the pool. And then you kissed me. It felt like breathing underwater, I don’t even think you live in the same world as the rest of us. I texted you at 2 a.m. and you didn’t hesitate. Trapped between your body and the wall, your lips on my neck and I was already in heaven. I never thought you loved me back, until you showed up on my doorstep, whiskey on your breath and tears in your eyes. After that I never doubted you, because I knew then that your love was more than words. 

Venus in Pisces: With you it’s all about the moment, and moments with you are plush and whimsical. Like sitting on a cloud. You are still the only person to ever write me a poem. And when you asked me if I liked it, how you let me see your vulnerable side even though the look in your eyes was sheer terror, you were brave. I was at loss for words so I just kissed you deeply. You see the beauty in the little things, like asking me about what I dreamt last night or giving me cupid earrings so they could whisper sweet nothings in my ear when you’re not around. Your love is poetic, you actually think of me and what makes me happy. Whenever you see something that reminds you of me you always let me know. I can’t help but think how lucky I am to be so cherished.

remember after the trial when taylor literally said that she recognizes how privileged she is and how she wants to help those who are less privileged and everyone just,, ignored it?

the signs as friends

aries: they will be direct about how they like you, but they’ll roast you to compensate. “i love you…. you dumbass.” when you first befriend them, their humor may come across as bold or inappropriate. the future of your friendship essentially depends on if you laugh or find it stupid. and if you do laugh, there will be plenty more where that came from. but when you need help, their serious, emotional side will emerge to support you.

taurus: taurus can be moderately social and gets along with many, but you will know if you are one of their close friends. they will find activities you both enjoy to spend time together. hell, they’ll even find activities only you like and take an interest to make you happy. they listen to your stories, even if they see pointless or silly and give sound advice any hour of the day.

gemini: gemini wants a friend who isn’t afraid to get in trouble or try new things. they’re the friend who always has something for the two of you to do, as long as you’re game. while they’re not much for staying in or having a quiet night, outings with gemini are often memorable and worth the trip. though at the end of the day, they’re willing to slow down and make sure you’re doing well. their advice may not be the most logical, but they know how to cater to your emotions and cheer you up.

cancer: you know you’re a cancer’s friend when you share a hoard of inside jokes. if they care about you, they tend to remember little details about you that you may not remember telling them. cancer and their friends will share sarcastic banter and teasing jokes. until the day you’re upset-then they’ll put their usual antics aside and be there for you. cancer is sensitive and will detect your true feelings, especially if you are close.

leo: leo loves a spontaneous friend, like gemini. friendship with a leo likely involves many fun outings. these probably include activities you would’ve never found had it not been for them. that being said, leo is often content to sit and talk for ages when you have a connection. just be sure to remind them of their importance to you, and they will be a generous, long term friend.

virgo: once you are close, virgo may take on the role of mom friend. they will joke with you, but also look out for you. whether you are hurt physically or emotionally, virgo will be there, often with verbal support. at times, they may seem like a lecturing elder, but it’s only because they care. you may have to encourage them to relax once in a while, but once they do, they are just as fun as anyone else.

libra: libra often take a liking to many people, though from afar. if you approach them first, you’re likely to get a friendly response. if you’re close friends, a libra will be grateful to have someone to open up to and laugh with. they can become someone to count on and share ideas with, no matter how silly your thoughts may seem. they are also genuine, kind listeners. as long as you give them the same in return, libra will be a sweet, caring best friend.

scorpio: scorpio needs a friend who probably likes them more than vice versa- at least at first. their sense of humor can be similar to that of aries, though they may continue to tell their brand of jokes even if you don’t like them. they are unabashedly themselves, and they need a friend who accepts that. and if you do, scorpio may view you as one of their closest companions. scorpio develops a deep love for their friends and would defend them in a heartbeat.

sagittarius: sagittarius often attracts friends rather than approaches them. potential friends may admire their sense of humor or independent spirit. though they seem independent, they always have room for friends in their life. they may not verbally communicate their appreciation often, but you will notice it through their texts or time spent together. if a sagittarius wants to befriend you, they may compliment you, or even seem jealous at first. (take this as a compliment too, and return the gesture. soon, you’ll get along just fine).

capricorn: this sign has two levels of friendship. you are either an acquaintance, or a treasure in their life. capricorn may seem to use friendliness as a means of social climbing, but when a friendship is real, they will give you all they have. this is why they usually only have a few close friends. if a capricorn shares a secret with you or looks to you for advice, it means you’re definitely doing something right. if you are a capricorn’s best friend, they may not say it, but rather show how deeply they care for you through gestures.

aquarius: aquarius probably considers anyone who hasn’t overtly offended them as their friend. that being said, there is a difference between their friends and the people they spend time thinking about. to be an aquarian’s close friend means being someone they may secretly admire. they love someone that can impress them in some way, but they are not superficial. their best friend must be able to support them in their vulnerable times, as rare as they may seem. in return, you will have an unconditional friend.

pisces: again, a sign that seems to love everyone. pisces is like a puppy that just wants some time with everyone around them. if you are on a deeper level with pisces, they will always be sure to let you know they love you, oftentimes verbally. they may be tactile and enjoy hugs/hand holding etc more than the other signs. a pisces friend is a friend for life, even if you do not speak for a while. they will remember your connection, though be sure not to take advantage of this and please remind them how you love them too.

hear me out.....

richie shows up one day with bleached streaks/highlights in his hair (it surprisingly doesnt look bad) and everyone is like wtf dude just why..? but he just shrugs and doesnt say anything about it.  for once in his life he isnt saying something… its almost a full week later when eddie remembers when all the losers were talking about crushes and eddie had just barely gotten away with saying he didnt like anyone but thought blondes were cute (a complete lie) and thats why hes now in the middle of history class blushing so much while staring at the back of richies blonde-tipped head with his heart pounding out of his chest

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It’s 4am I can’t sleep, so have a mini sketch dump of old Sasuke drawings.

yall remember when demi lovato released cool for the summer a couple of years ago and talked in interviews about liking girls and yet everyone kept complaining like “ugh straight girls are the worst” “she just wants attention” “she’s faking it” and just saying all the shit that people are always saying about bi / pan / queer girls who are in m/f relationships

and i bet some of those same people are going to be falling over themselves like “sapphic love uwu” now that it’s looking like she’s in a relationship with a woman ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

My heart just broke…

So, I was rethinking about the ending of WKM and thinking about it made my heart break once I took a deeper look into it and now I view the characters way differently then I did before.

The Colonel used to be a man who had much love and light in his life. He was a colonel, a freaking army officer, someone that children and adults would admire. But then he lost the love and light in his life. He went insane because he lost everything, and was no longer his real self. William then became Warfstache out if shear madness.

That makes me view Warfstache differently. I used to see a goofy killer that doesn’t seem to see he’s killing and hurting people because he’s just oblivious to everything. I thought that Wilford was a cold blooded killer who was just insane for a while. The way he speaks, the movements he makes, that silly mustache made me view him as a goofy character after watching more videos of him. But now I see a man who went insane because he lost his loved ones and thinks that everyone who dies will come back because killing them was just a joke, just an accident. He thinks that he can just kill people, just anyone as a joke. The madness swirling in his brain makes him think this way, because we came back. And I think that deep down in Wilford’s brain of madness, he remembers Celine and Damien. He still thinks that they will pop out of nowhere and share a laugh with him, because it was just a joke that they died.


Damien was a mayor, a trustworthy man, a man who wanted the best for everyone. He had a light aura, a shiny glint in his eye. He wanted to protect everyone, and wanted everyone to live as they wanted and to choose their own life. But that changed, once everything he had was taken away. He was forced to become the dark equivalent of Mark, and he didn’t have a choice. So he thought the only way to get everything back was to lead people into his trap, make people view him trustworthy again, and use it to make people love him again rather then Mark.

And that makes me view Dark differently. I used to view an evil man who takes people under his control to bring Mark down, this demon who would seduce people to take his side. I mean, he sent literal chills up my spine when I first saw him in ADWM. I actually didn’t like him for a while because of the way he spoke to the viewer, just the way he spoke as a whole and that he would seduce people under his wing made me not trust him, but ended up liking him as a cool ego after a while. But, now I view him as a man who just wants everything back, wants everything that he’s lost. He wanted everyone to live life as they chose, but he didn’t get to choose his life. He now tries to show people he’s trustworthy again by seducing them, by giving people want they want. He wants to be Damien again, to have the light aura and glimmer in his eye instead of the dark, glitching aura and the darkness in his eyes.


All of this breaks my heart over and over again looking into the depths of the background of these characters. I love that Mark made WKM, because the fans love it and it shows the origins of Wilford and Dark. But Mark also showed that these characters that seem to be heartless had feelings, had a life. But it breaks my heart…


I’m sorry if ya got emotional.