i just want to improve my coloring

・Altean Prince Lance
[I’m sorry I don’t really like this drawing so I’m trying to post it and not delete it this time]

wardengrey  asked:

Hey there! Absolutely love your art, your rendering abilities and compositions are incredible. Do you have any tips from someone trying to improve their painting? Artists who want to transition from relying on lines to improving their color and painting skills? Ramadan Mubarak and thank you!

Hey sis, Ramadhan Mubarak to you too!

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with relying on lineart because I’m still doing it O:

First and foremost, I am a class A hoarderrrrr. I love to save a ton of classical paintings to my library. If you want to practice rendering stuff more realistically I suggest doing material studies >

Just take any material you can think of and imagine it as a 3D sphere. My lecturer introduced this practice to me when I struggled with my paintings. I needed more tutorials and most tutorials I found were too advanced for me. (Most of them just straight away paint and I already suck at painting so why man why)

And then I found THIS tutorial! It helped me a whole lot during my college struggles.

It basically copies the step-by-steps of rendering a 3D model but it can also be implemented in Illustration as well! I really liked this tutorial because it’s an actual “step-by-step” so it’s like painting training wheels. I stuck with this process for quite some time and after awhile I grew more confident in painting and THEN I started exploring styles.

I don’t know what sort of art style you’re going for but the artists above that I’ve listed have helped improve my paintings even further. If you wanna be good at painting, then you should look at great art examples. I can spend hours just looking and studying their pieces. I’m no master but I would like to paint as good as they do someday ( ;^^)

I hope this helps and good luck! :D

Flowey Is Not a Good Life Coach - Chap. 3, page 1

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A new chapter has commenced! ok. So uh colors are the bane of my existence I’m pretty sure. I tried to go with a color palette, but then I deviated away from that, and then I took a break to cry on the floor in fetal position because COLORS DON’T LIKE ME! Well uh they aren’t actually that bad, but I do struggle a bit with them. And that’s part of the reason I’m doing this comic in color; it’d be much easier to just make it black and white, but I want to improve my coloring.

Also I hope you like Undyne’s little invoking of Mettaton :)

Btw if you want to make a comic dub of this, please go ahead! I totally encourage it. Just please give credit to me and unrestedjade.

♥Guess I was just on a roll today with drawings! Here is my dark,tall and electrifying Hei from Darker Than Black ♥

~*Commissions are still open~*

Is it hot in here, or is it just me?

My lack of color is thanks to the fact I’m terrible with shading so I’m trying to make that my primary focus. I took this pose from an older piece of art I did last year so I can see the improvement.

Plus it’s been awhile so I wanted to give you all yet another naked Turian *more confetti *

THANKS <3 let me just clarify this is a 5 month difference and I don’t know how to feel about it anyway I pretty much just figured out what I want to go for I’ve been having style issues actually but this is smth I’m ok with, idk why I couldn’t mess w different brushes or go anything above flat colors BUT I HOPE I KEEP IMPROVING WOW

yeah I’m trying smth different! they are softer but mostly bc I use alot of blur, which really smooths everything out and makes it look nice.

believe me it makes me question my morals too. everyone needs to look like a kpop boy haha

I can’t believe my self-indulgent doodles are able to insp you IT’S NOT WEIRD AT ALL if anything it’s sweet & ily, thanks sm I’m still not used to being anyone’s insp & idk I’m just glad I could be that for you!

I LOVE YOU are you sure bc all I draw is bad memes ok but once you finish smth I’d love to read it, if my art was insp I bet it’s super funny haha

Commissions are still smth I have to figure out but it means alot that you’re willing to do that for me! idk I just think I should get better first before commissions, so I’ll keep holding them off until I improve a bit.

that pink sand beach in bermuda

SWERVES

mood

so just a reminder that i’ll write up to 150 words in my attempt at calligraphy if you buy me anything (doesn’t have to be just an ink) off my amazon wishlist of whatever you want, with the parameters that i would just not write something i find morally reprehensible

translation: i’m going to hate myself for this but if someone wanted to buy me shit and then asked for me to write sections of my immortal i might cry but i would still do it

here are some samples and colors of things i’ve done in the past week–and i’ve been improving! so it would be better an better tbh if you’re wondering why certain letters look better they’re probably more recent

Apps to Help You Destress

Hey there friends! Here’s a list of iOS apps that will help you sleep better and relax. Studying hard is great, but your body needs rest, as do you! So go ahead, take a deep breath, and get the relaxation you deserve. xo!

*Pillow: (FREE) This is a sleep-tracking alarm clock; you leave your phone by your pillow/next to you when you sleep and it records you n stuff and helps you determine when it is best for you to wake up to feel refreshed!! I highly recommend this, it’s amazing and the design is so pretty!

*Binaural: (FREE) Yo this app is rad. It helps you relax, meditate, sleep, and even concentrate!! You pick a certain beat, frequency, and just listen. It has color themes (which are so pretty btw) and you can set a timer! 

Sleepio: (FREE) This app is a sleep-improvement program, meant to teach you to overcome poor sleep! I haven’t tried it yet, but it looks very nice. These apps have a minimalist, clean design, my fave thing ever!

*Thunderspace: (FREE) This is the best I want to cry I LOVE this app. It’s like rainymood, but there’s different types of rain sounds. The ambience of the sounds is stellar. Seriously, it’s free, get it!! P.S. you can set the flash on your phone and there’s lightning! Feels like you’re in the tropics if you choose that rain sound, it’s amazing. 

To Bed: (FREE) This app is like your momma! It reminds you, based on your age and wakeup times, to go to sleep. It’s your bedtime alarm, basically! For those of you who don’t really have self-control when it’s time to sleep, this is perfect! I’m pretty good at falling asleep quick because I’m always so tired, but I would definitely recommend this app.

*Sleep Better: (FREE) This app is similar to Pillow, but it’s another option for a sleep monitoring app. You can track your daytime activites and see how it affects your sleep cycle! The design is clean and contemporary and neat. It’s pretty rad!

TaoMix: (FREE) If you would like to create your own ambient sounds, this app is for you! Pretty darn cool. You can add bird sounds, rain, thunder, wind, water, and even other animals. There’s more than 45 high quality sounds you can work with to make thousands of mixes. Have fun with it!

*8tracks: (FREE) You may know about this app, but it’s the best thing ever ever ever. I can only listen to music when I’m cranking out essays for whatever reason, otherwise I can’t concentrate, so I love using 8tracks for that, and for chilling before bed. 

* means I currently use the app and love it! the others are ones I plan on trying!

I hope you all enjoy these apps! Feel free to ask me anything, whether it be study related, you’d just like general advice, or someone to talk to!

Please feel free to request more!!! 

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Star Boys ⭐ ~ step-by-step process of >this< piece (^   v ^) <3 click through for minor captions!

since Tumblr can only hold eight photos, here’s my process reduced to eight steps. there’s a lot more fussing and changing and adjusting that goes in, but this feels like a good overview.

and here’s some bonus back story! X3 hehe~ i was really frustrated with my work last week… i honestly felt like maybe it was just time to move on and do something totally different. like it was just time to pack in my character work and go back to being a graphic designer. i kept starting new things over and over and over again and throwing them away. i felt very defeated. i was drowning my sorrows in coke zero and k-pop videos when i decided to just draw some self indulgent garbage to make myself feel better, regardless of how it might turn out looking. and i had no idea that it’d turn into this! XD

so when you’re thinking~ “why Pidgy… why did you dress those beautiful boys so stupidly?!?!” (7O  [  ]O)7 it was the k-pop dood! i was under the influence! have you seen the ridiculous/awesome clothes they wear?!?!? it’s FABULOUS! and i didn’t start drawing this thinking that i’d ever post it! HAHAHA!!! but it just worked out so smoothly! (O  v O) <3 and i felt myself feeling again like i knew i could - and new i wanted to - improve! I AIN’T GIVING UP YET!!!! (>   A <)

so yeah… (^   v ^);;; it’s a bit silly, and very colorful! hahaha! but~ i really tried my best to do new things and put my best foot forward… so i hope some of you enjoy it! i still have so much more i want to do! (O    w O) <3 <3 <3

mutantgurls  asked:

How about an au where lance is galra and has to deal with prejudice from the people he's saving.

How about just stabbing me right now

Lance was proud of his heritage, he was Galra. He was part of one of last pure blood in the entire species. Lance was proud of that. Growing up he thought that being Galra was the best thing that could’ve happened to him. He was mistaking. 

-

Lance was around 14 when he realized that the Galra wasn’t what he was taught in school. By ready journals from his father (who was a high ranking soldier) Lance learned that he had been lied to his entire life. Lance couldn’t believe what he read. They killed people. They destroyed planets. For what? Zarkon?

Lance didn’t sleep that night. 

-

Lance was 17 when he ran away from home. He couldn’t deal with the lies anymore. He couldn’t deal with the fact that his father was the only in his family that knew the truth. He couldn’t deal with listening to one more ‘proud Galren’ speech. 

-

After bouncing from planet to planet Lance found himself as the Blue Paladin. He could tell that Allura wasn’t happy that Blue chose him, but no one had ever seen a stronger bond between paladin and lion before.  

Lance eventually learned to deal with Allura’s hard stare and unapproachable personality. At least Coran eventually opened up to him. 

Allura wasn’t the only aliens to jump the gun on Lance. It was not uncommon for Lance to have to dodge weapons from people that they saved. It also wasn’t uncommon for people to run inside the nearest builden they saw when Lance walk down a street with the other paladins. 

Lance eventually broke. 

-

Lance was flying back from a particularly hard mission. The city that they saved held a party in Voltrons name, however they “forgot” to invite the right leg. 

Lance sat in Blue while the other paladins have fun at their party. He was the first one to take off when the other paladins reached their lions. 

Allura’s voice blasted through the coms, “Great work out there paladins! Shiro you did an ex…” 

Lance tuned her out, she did this after every mission.  She would compliment everyone on what they did right but only criticize Lance on what he needed to work on. 

“Lance? Did you hear me? You can’t fly that rough with the blue lion. You’ll end up damaging her.” 

“Yes Princess.”

“I do not wish to schedule extras practices for you, but I will. You need to improve your skills so you are a valuable member of Voltron.” 

Lance snapped. “With all do respect Princess but can you stop? Every mission I have to deal with stares and people running away from me, all because of my skin color. They see purple and immediately run or treat me like garbage.” Lance swallowed. “What did I ever do to hurt you? The only people I have ever hurt is my family. That’s only because I left them without an excuse. So yes Princess I will fly better and continue to improve myself so I can kill Zarkon and leave you alone just like you want.” Lance turned off his coms. 

A few minutes later Lance landed Blue in her hanger and just sat there shaking. Allura enter the hanger but Blue activated her barrier. She wanted to protect from her pilot from anymore pain. 

*Cries* 

I love Galra Lance tbh 

I hope you like it!

Thank you for this!

Help get me home

So despite the politics of the nation, I need to get back home to America. I moved to Sweden to be with my fiancé just over a month ago and the way things are going here, I don’t think it’s going to work out. Relationship is now bordering on the abusive side, and since I have no income (I’m unable to get a job with the temporary residence permit I have), I’m coming to Tumblr for help. Any support, even in the form of reblogs would be appreciated. I have not drawn in quite some time, so I apologize in advance for any inconsistencies with the samples.

Commission prices (lineart/flats/shaded)
Bust/icon: $5/$7.50/$10
Halfbody (anywhere from waist to knee): $10/$15/$20
Fullbody: $15/$22.50/$30
Colored Lines/Lineless: Not currently offered* 
Multiple Characters: Multiply price by characters, price can increase depending on complexity (any price discrepancies from what is listed here will be discussed after seeing the request and determining if any extra cost is necessary)

*You may have one single background color and color for lines per character free of charge (if you want one character with green lines and another with blue lines with a grey background, you would not factor colored lines or backgrounds into the price)

✔️ Females
✔️ Males (please note mine tend to look a bit feminine but this is improving)
✔️ Fanart
✔️ OCs
✔️ Gaia avatars

✖️ Furries/Animals (can draw ears and tails without issue, paws and faces are the difficult areas)
✖️ Mecha
✖️ Guns
✖️ Muscular characters
✖️ Backgrounds
✖️ NSFW/Gore
I think pedophilia is my only hard limit, everything listed above are just subjects I’m not yet confident in and therefore less likely to accept.

If you need clarification or want to ask about something not listed, please ask! I can be reached at Simply.Indescribable@yahoo.com (also my PayPal email) or through Tumblr. Please note I am currently in GMT +1 (I’m awake during the shitposting hours lmao) and my fiancé is a bit controlling with my schedule and time on the internet, so it may take a few hours to a full day to get back to you, depending on when you contact me (please don’t mention anything about my situation in any contact you have with me so I don’t have to worry about opening messages with him sitting next to me). Thank you for any and all support!

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anonymous asked:

I just wanted to say, as a black woman who doesn't see much cosplay by POC in general, I'm really happy to see you show it doesn't matter your skin color, you can cosplay anyone. One day I hope to be as amazing as you and cosplay whoever even if my skin is too dark.

yeah it doesn’t at all, I’ve found some other black cosplayers who are literally amazing at what they do and give me hope that i can improve and that there will be this inclusive community that’s accepting 

The Message Board

Description: The boys get worried when their little sister stops a usual activity.

A/N: This is my first one so I hope you all enjoy! Let me know if you want to be tagged, or if you just have tips on how to improve in general!

Readers Age: 11 or 12

Tag(s): @winchesters-favorite-girl

Warnings: None

   In an attempt to stop your bad habit of writing on walls, when you were five, your brothers had attached a small chalkboard to your door. You became so fascinated by the chalk and the way the colors looked on your door, you had stopped drawing on the other walls in the bunker. However, this did not stop the smiley faces on the furniture. Even though the habit of marking everything in your path with marker stopped, your doodles on the board did not. You grew up drawing sketches, or putting messages on the outside of your door.

   You were a pretty positive kid, considering the life you were growing up in. The messages on the board normally reflected your happiness. Your brothers daily routine involved checking the board as well. The image and saying changed daily. You would have it up before Sam came back from his run, and before Dean woke up in the morning. An assortment of colors and fonts would show the boys what mood, and what the day would be like with their little sister. It was never, ever left blank in the seven years you had had it.

   Sam walked past your room, glancing over to see that last night’s message was still the same. He decided to shrug it off, thinking maybe you were tired from staying up and studying. He went about his morning just as usual, giving it no other thought.

   Later, Dean passed by your door after having lunch. He looked over towards your door, seeing that the message was still the same as last night’s. He stopped and gave the door a good, hard look. He walked down the hall, trying to shrug the strange feeling off.

   When it came to dinner, the boys sat at the table. You were nowhere to be seen. They waited for you, when finally Sam decided to go get you. They both hadn’t seen you all day, and it was unlike your normal self to avoid them. The message board was changed, but this time it had a little rain cloud drawn on it. He squinted as he read the little caption.Leave food outside the door. He quickly went back to the kitchen.

   “Dean, I think there is something wrong with Y/N,” he said.

Dean looked up from his plate, “She’s probably just out of cherry lip gloss again Sammy,” he smirked .

 Sam rolled his eyes, “No Dean, the message board has a sad little sketch. I think something is seriously wrong”.

  Dean dropped his burger, and stood.They both went back to your room, but this time the board was completely blank. They glanced at each other, both showing looks of worry and furrowed brows. Dean opened the door slowly, and Sam followed. They came to find you laying face down on your bed. Books were scattered everywhere, along with lose papers and pens.

   “Y/N, what’s going on in here?” Dean asked. You didn’t respond, just stayed put.

“Uh, Y/N, would you mind facing us at least?” Sam asked.

 You groaned, and pulled yourself up. When they finally got a look at your face there were tear stains and red, puffy eyes.

 “Y/N/N what’s wrong?” Sam asked, giving you his classic puppy eyes as he hopped over the little piles on your floor.

   You sighed, and wiped at your eyes. “I can’t think of any more quotes for my board,” you replied. You played with the ends of your sleeves as a smile cracked across Dean’s face.

 “Baby girl are you telling us you’re crying over the chalk board?” he tried not to laugh.

 You nodded, “It’s not funny!”.

Sam also cracked a smile, “It is a little bit”. They both started chuckling as you groaned and laid back down.

   “Y/N why don’t you just look online?” Sam asked.

 “Yeah, use that phone for something other than texting,” Dean snickered.You sat up again, and gave a small smile, “I guess I could try that. These books are kinda useless,” you pushed a piece of hair from your eyes. Sam almost fell off the bed. Dean sat on the other side of you, and gave your hand a little squeeze.

 “You know, if you start feeling pains in your-,” Sam started but both Dean and yourself gave him a horrified look.

 “Okay, okay, just making sure this wasn’t caused by mother nature’s gift. I know it’s usually an emotional time of the month”.

 You rolled your eyes, “I’ll make sure to put it on the board if it happens.” “Please don’t,” Dean squawked.

   Your brothers helped you clean up the mess, and from then on the message board was never empty again. It did every once in a while inform them on when you needed some ice cream and the heating pad however.

Some stuff I would love to see in Sonic Forces

I HAVE IDEAS AFTER THE HYPE SO HERE WE GO

-Along with Eggman having basically destroyed the world, I would love to see the concept of roboticizing brought back from the SatAM series in some form. I think it would fit in great with this new post-apocalyptic thing we’ve got going! And we already have the idea of a “resistance” built up similarly to the Freedom Fighters in SatAM so roboticizing would be amazing to see, and build up Eggman’s villainous deeds as even more threatening to our heroes.

(Would also love to see the name Robotnik brought back but let’s face it, it ain’t happenin)

-Some decent writing for the plot. I have high hopes, but the Sonic franchise isn’t exactly known for good writing. I really want to see some good dialogue and development for everyone in the game and while some may disagree and say that gameplay matters more, these characters are so beloved and amazing and I think Sonic and friends have way more potential for good storytelling than they are given credit for! (See the Archie Sonic comics pls). As good as Sonic Generations was its story was REALLY underwhelming for what was presented and I think that it should really be worked on for Forces. I’m pretty sure it’s been made clear that the world has become like this because of Sonic’s failure to stop Eggman. I really want to see some character development around this!

(i.e. please dark SEGA give me that angsty Sonic ;P)

-SILVER. THE FRIGGIN HEDGEHOG. C'mon now yall. Burning post-apocalyptic world, alternate timelines, this is quite literally Silver’s territory! I think he’s a great character and with more work done on him he can potentially have great gameplay too! I’m so done with this wasted potential of a character to just become an “IT’S NO USE” punchline (as funny as it is hehe). And we’ve already seen improvement in his boss battle in Sonic Generations, I really think that can be built upon and redeem Silver in a way that he deserves.

-A decent final boss. I’m a bit wary of this one. Generations, Lost World and even Colors in my opinion, had some of the weakest final bosses to come up in the franchise. Personally I’m expecting the final boss to be on the magnitude of Unleashed and the Adventure games.

-I do not want a third entity to be a major contributing factor to Eggman’s success and general villainous actions. We’ve been seeing this a lot lately. The idea of the “true” villain being something like Dark Gaia, Time Eater, etc etc. I think these concepts really steal Eggman’s spotlight away. What I’m saying is, let Eggman be a villain to his fullest potential. The guy has an IQ of 300 after all, let him put that intelligence to better use! I want to see him truly outwit Sonic all on his own (like the opening cutescene in Sonic Unleashed, which I LOVE by the way), and succeed in taking over the world without some third party helping him and eventually turning on him.

-An interesting hubworld. I dunno about you guys but I’d love to casually traverse that apocalyptic clusterfudge of a universe the gameplay trailer showed us! Just keep it small like Unleashed’s hubworlds and maybe add some interesting inhabitants or sidequests and you’re golden! I wouldn’t mind not having a hubworld but I would still like one :D

That’s about all I’ve got for now! Feel free to add your thoughts!

A Blue Prince To Own, Chapter 6 (Part 1)

The next morning passes almost uneventfully, with of course some scolding from my behavior the previous day, all except for Hunk pointing out my faults. He knows how deep it runs now and hopefully, he’ll know even better once I leave my position to Matt. Which, when he pulls me aside with his droopy, ichor colored eyes and lopsided smile, I can’t help but just grind my teeth. He’s a perfect fit for the Blue Paladin, he’s all my good qualities and more, without the parts that nobody wants. A mirror reflection of myself, but better, improved. Goddamn it, does Sam Holt only grow awe inspiring seedlings?

It’s worse even when he begins to tell me how even though it was funny to watch me make Shiro so red, it was wrong of me and I should learn from that, to hold my tongue. I don’t muster up a pretty little, obedient, apologetic response like I did with all the others who believed they could get through to me. Matt isn’t nearly as short as Pidge, but with the universe granting me so little in strength, they had to make a comeback in height so I step closer. He steps backwards and so our game presumes until his back is against the wall and I’m relishing in the couple of inches I have on him. This is the man who flows like poison through my life, infecting all the good parts. How can he stare so innocently up at me, like a deer caught in headlights?

My eyes narrow on their own accord and I trap him there with my hands flat on the wall at each side of his head. I have no clue how but I growl at him and I see his hands tighten into fists at either side of his hips. Whatever, take a hit, Keith freaking Kogane already beat me up last night, don’t think many people can fair against that. “I hate you.” I say simply, smiling just like usual, except less forced. Let’s pry another burden off my chest. “I hate everything about you. You’ve made the people I once wouldn’t hesitate for a second to call my slightly awkward space family doubt my abilities, begin to lose trust in me, and neglect me. Leave me in the dust. Do you understand? You are replacing me. They think you’re the new Blue Paladin.”

“Lance, I didn’t - I never intended to - ”

“Shut up!” I snap and he flinches beneath me. “I wasn’t done talking, Matt. So, I will continue getting my point across, and if you still feel the need to respond, feel free, okay?” He nods shakily and I feel so violent because he’s right here, why shouldn’t I make him hurt like I have, every day, since he arrived? But, I don’t. That isn’t what I’m doing here, in my last moments as an honorable Paladin. “I’m fine with everybody telling me that what I did was wrong. It was wrong. I don’t care, but nevertheless, I know it wasn’t the right thing to do because contrary to popular belief, I’m not fucking stupid. But, I will throw myself into a black hole, wailing my love for country music and pineapple on pizza before I let the one who has turned my life into a sad, sad abyss tell me how to behave. I’m fine with you ruining my life, but I will not take orders from you, pretend to enjoy your company, or ever want to speak civilly with you. It’s making me sick just being this close to you. So, do me the only favor I will ever allow you to do me, and piss. Off.” I end the rant with a slow hiss.

So, that’s supposed to be where the conversation ends, but he’s too much like me to not have adapted the same big, impulsive mouth and now I’m understanding why Pidge was drawn to me while he was still captive. “I thought you were a good guy, Lance. Maybe you still are. But, you’re doing bad things and I know that disrespecting Shiro is just the tip of the ice burg.”

The blood floods from my face. No. He can’t - he doesn’t know right, about the plan? He can’t, the only one who knows is Lotor and I. And. I jerk away from Matt to smash my knuckles into the wall with a frustrated shout. Blue knew, and Matt’s supposed to be her future pilot, so of course Blue told him, she thought he could stop me from ‘making a mistake’, but she’s wrong. Now, I just have to act more carefully than before.

I don’t spare the older Holt shrimp anymore of my time, I don’t have it to waste. I return to Blue’s cockpit and nap for exactly fifteen minutes before she wakes me up and I enter the coordinates in the escape pod, so that it’s ready for my leave.

The ideal time waster until it’s time to go would be to lounge about in Blue, alternating between napping and talking to her, however I know it’ll draw suspicion if I don’t continue my pattern of pointless efforts in socialization with the other member’s of the little team. So, I go about my usual schedule, dragging my feet, feeling unwanted and seeing which doors in the castle open. I stumble upon a large room with infant cribs and foam mats, some semblance of a toy bin, all in pastel colors. It must have been… some sort of nursery. And it’s plucking all of my heart strings.

The castle had some sort of self perseverance setting that automatically went off when Coran and Allura were frozen, so it’s as good as new, like everything else on the ship. No bacteria would settle in and no weird alien mold would begin to grow, because the advanced Altean technology allowed it to be kept safe and hygienic for 10,000 years. I… was the baby of my family. The youngest. The one who didn’t usually have the pressure of setting an example because I was the impressionable baby that everyone just wanted to protect. I did, however, have little cousins that would visit often. They’d come over and the sound of baby’s shaking their rattles and the joyous shrieks of toddler’s would echo off the walls. I always found them so annoying and got jealous when my Aunts and Uncles would pay them more attention.

I was such a brat. I’ve been begging for attention from a young age, even when I already had everyone’s on me at all times. When it was ripped away from me so quickly at the Garrison, where I was hardly average, it felt like a chunk of my soul had been ripped out as well. I tried as hard as I could to become better, but among great minds, I was foolish to think I could ever succeed them. Most talented to my department, however, was Keith. I grew a crush on him immediately, only adding to the self loathe festering inside me. It grew and grew, until I shattered and cried as hard as I ever had right after another failed simulation, right in front of my entire class.

Seeing as how I had tested into the Garrison and was surviving on a scholarship, I couldn’t afford to go to the school’s psychiatrist. But, I could afford to switch roommates, so that I could live with another kid who struggled with mental illness. At the same time I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder that wouldn’t be treated, Hikialani Garett had been diagnosed with anxiety. It was a program that ensured students who couldn’t afford therapy would have someone to relate to and wouldn’t go crazy from being constantly surrounded by neurotypicals who thought they were weird. And so, I met my best friend through me humiliating myself in front of my class. Which, I might’ve been placed in another one (with Hikialani), but everyone still knew. I was the kid who cried when I failed. And I couldn’t really ever change that.

“What’s wrong, buddy?”

“I’m so - L- Lance, you wouldn’t understand, you’re so skinny, and I’m so not and I’m - ”

“Dude, bro, stop talking and stop panicking. Because let’s get one thing straight. Skinny is not better than thick. Do you know how easily I get my ass kicked? And remember, I’m a cryer, so then I bawl about it afterwards. But, dude you, you’re a total hunk! You’re not fat, you, my dude, are thick and your muscles are bigger than my torso. If I wasn’t hopelessly pining after Kogane, I’d smash.”

He sniffles, wipes the tears beginning to form at the edges of his waterline. Then, reddens. “Really? You… don’t think I’m fat?”

“Dude. You’re so hot. The most hunk person I’ve ever met. In fact, new nickname, Hunk.”

He chuckles and everything’s okay. We couldn’t afford therapy. But, we have each other and for now, that’s enough.

I miss those times. But, they’re buried now. They don’t even matter. I pretend today is another normal day, go about my annoying the others, stray from Keith and Shiro because that’s what a wimp scared straight would do, and once it has all passed uneventfully, I leave with nothing. I tell Blue I will miss her. She says she’ll alert the other lions of my escape. I tell her that I don’t offer anything anymore. Go ahead. Would they even want me back?

As I’m sitting in the escape pod, getting ready for take off, I sit back and let out a final sigh. I’ve had so many great adventures with them, Shiro, Keith, Pidge, Hunk, Allura, Coran. I’ve had so much fun, been more active than ever, even struggling so hard with my insecurities, even being slowly pushed away. As much as it all hurt, it’s a hurt I’ll inevitably miss because with that hurt came something akin to familiar, with the sadness came the bouts of happiness that meant so much more, being so rare.

“Goodbye, Voltron.”

The times change, I’ve come to realize. They’re not changing in my favor here. I leave, hoping they’ll change better with my Prince.

Chapter 6, Part 2: https://langst-mccpain.tumblr.com/post/163479926145/a-blue-prince-to-own-chapter-6-part-2

I’ve been trying to improve my gifs/coloring style sooooo I decided that the best way to do that was by making a giveaway!!! And I have so many amazing followers, I just wanted to do something nice for you guys 💛

RULES:

  • mbf me :D 
  • reblog this post (likes count as bookmarks)
  • must have a shadowhunters related url (tv show or cast related)
  • be patient cause I’m a bit slow

you can check my gifsets here

**I will be making a gifset only for the urls that inspire me, so not everyone who enters this giveaway will get a gifset (sorry guys)

anonymous asked:

Hey, I'm a growing illustrator, but I'm struggling to develop my own style. How did you come up with your style and decide that you liked it?????

it just formed itself naturally really. i know thats like, the least helpful response but in reality your style just comes with time and improvement, and its constantly going to be evolving. occasionally i’ll notice myself changing something about it just to suit what i’m going for but i haven’t been giving it a lot of thought recently. 

try different things though, even just the way you line can make a difference. recently i’ve been using brush pens to line my traditional art and i’m really enjoying it, so thats added a small touch to my style. 

think about features, do you want to have a rounder, soft style or something with more corners and edges? pastel-y colors or vibrant, colorful palettes? or even have all your colors lean towards a certain tone? detailed or minimalistic? thin or thick lineart? 

or perhaps the way you color, do you want it to be cell-shaded or have the shading blend a bit more realistically? or maybe you want to use flat colors and no shading at all? are you going to be using watercolors, markers, paint,  etc.? 

all these things and more are what make up a style. pick out an artist you like and see what features their art has. try out different combinations of these features for your own art! 

anonymous asked:

Okay so: I'm a teenage girl and I want to be a youtuber so and. But I'm not a guy, I don't have an accent, and I'm not "conventionally attractive", and I feel like that's three strikes right there. Any advice to combat insecurities and just go for it?

Who cares. Simple as that. There will ALWAYS be something that someone doesn’t like about you. I’ve actually been discriminated because of my skin color. People will hate you for anything. Please stay strong and keep going. Because you’ll be sad later that you didn’t do what you love because of something “out of your control”. You never have to fix something that someone else doesn’t like about you. As long as you are comfortable and willing to want to improve yourself in whatever way you personally feel is fine, who cares what anyone else has to say. 💜

Mob High School hc

lately I’ve had a MP100 hc that I just love, and it’s that Mob ends up going to high school with another member of the body improvement club and they keep working out together until they graduate.  I’ve just really been wanting to draw older Mob, probably because of all the quality ageswap AUs I’ve been seeing.

This is what I have so far and I’m definitely going to redo it as a finished color piece.  The perspective really kicked my ass so I’m going to change that up a bit.  If anyone has any critiques or things they would like to see in a Mob HS AU let me know and I’ll add to it!