i just want my sanity back


It’ll all work out in the end, I won’t leave your side

So, serious talk.

How is anyone supposed to both have a full time job and be a solo 1d fan?

Like… how?


Silken Pupdate

I actually have a little extra time today, so I wanted to put out an update about my new service dog in training (SDIT) Fawkes and answer a few questions I’m sure I’ll probably get at some point! :D 

This lil pupper is Clayborn’s Africa aka “Fawkes.” My husband and I drove from Virginia to Colorado to pick him up because I love his breeder and appreciate the type of temperament she breeds for (she has bred SD prospects previously). 

I’m self-training him to mitigate the symptoms of PTSD and panic disorder with some professional guidance. He will be trained in several tasks, primarily deep pressure therapy, blocking, interrupting stereotypic/harmful behaviors, medication retrieval, and guiding me to a safe place during dissociative episodes.

Although his main job will be working as a service dog, we will also participate in conformation events and hopefully will do at least one sport (though we still haven’t figured out what sport yet!). Assuming he matures well and clears his health tests, I will breed him at some point in the future, which is a very exciting prospect as it will be my first foray into dog breeding. :D

Those who have been following my blog for a while might be wondering why I got a service dog prospect so suddenly instead of going back to school after I left my job. The short version is, I’d been considering getting a SD for the past 2 years but didn’t think I qualified as disabled until after I had a conversation with my boss about applying for disability benefits because my mental and physical health became so poor that I had to leave my job much sooner than I originally intended. I had wanted to go back to school, but ended up in a psychiatric day treatment program instead due to my anxiety and bipolar disorder being very poorly controlled. After talking with my doctors and therapist, we decided that even though it would be a bit hectic having 3 dogs and a toddler at the same time in our tiny house, I would truly benefit from having a SD and it would help me regain my independence (and sanity) better than just therapy and medication could.

I ended up choosing a Silken Windhound after spending a lot of time with my friend Katie’s Silken SDIT, Sega, who won over my entire family. The breed is the perfect size for the type of work I was looking for (big enough for DPT but not too big for our little house ha), has the sighthound on-off switch, and is very affectionate, biddable, handler-focused, and intelligent. A couple months in and I couldn’t be happier with my choice. :)

I have to give a shout-out to @silkenagentsofcsbeck@doberbutts, @why-animals-do-the-thing, and @noodle-dragon in particular for giving me great advice which has been invaluable thus far. Rachel (of @why-animals-do-the-thing) actually stayed at my house for a week to improve my training technique which was amazing, and I highly recommend her as a trainer; she’s pretty much the only reason Fawkes has good leash skills now haha! I’ll write a longer review of her training services later, but I just had to give a big thank-you to all these folks for making my dream of having a SD come true. :)

American McGee’s Alice: Madness Returns Starters

feel free to adjust pronouns/names/items to fit the situation!

❝ Another day, a different dream, perhaps. ❞
❝ Memory is more often a curse than a blessing. ❞ 
❝ A flower’s purpose is simple and immutable. Human purpose is fickle because it is a slave to memory. Memories must be strictly managed, [ Alice ]. Unproductive ones must be eliminated. ❞ 
❝ Don’t try to bully me. I’m very much on edge! ❞ 
❝ It’s not a dream. It’s a…memory. And it makes me sick! ❞
❝ Perfect. When you’re not on edge, you’re taking up too much space. ❞ 
❝ Threats, promises and good intentions don’t amount to action. ❞ 
❝ Make your survival mean something, or we are all doomed! ❞ 
❝ The past must be paid for. ❞ 
❝ I know I’m guilty of something, but punishment hardly ever suits the victims of a crime. ❞ 
❝ My Wonderland is shattered. It’s dead to me. ❞ 
❝ Only the insane equate pain with success. ❞ 
❝ You’ve used me and abused me, but you will not destroy me! ❞ 
❝ There is no method in this madness! ❞ 
❝ A reflection sometimes exposes more reality than the object it echoes. ❞ 
❝ Authority must be obeyed, or it must be overthrown! ❞ 
❝ You shouldn’t ask questions you know the answer to, it’s not polite. ❞ 
❝ Only a few find the way, some don’t recognize it when they do - some… don’t ever want to. ❞ 
❝ Those who say there’s nothing like a nice cup of tea for calming the nerves never had *real* tea. It’s like a syringe of adrenaline straight to the heart! ❞ 
❝ The uninformed must improve their deficit, or die ❞ 
❝ I may survive here,but you are all finished! ❞ 
❝ The insolence, the arrogance the execrable table manners! ❞ 
❝ Forgetting’s just forgetting, except when it’s not. Then they call it something else. I’d like to forget what you did. I’ve tried, but I can’t. ❞ 
❝ A good guest does not overstay, a perfect guest stays home! ❞ 
❝ Save myself? From death? is that it? Is that why I’ve come here? I’m not afraid to die. Times I’ve welcomed death! ❞ 
❝ I am fine. I’m not mad. I am innocent, I mean, not guilty! ❞ 
❝ A secret is only a secret when it is unspoken to another. ❞ 
❝ Here’s a riddle: When is a croquet mallet like a billy club? I’ll tell you: Whenever you want it to be! ❞ 
❝ The law is just. Just a whisper away. Who knows how to measure rules? With a ruler! Cruel rules. ❞ 
❝ You don’t know your own mind! ❞
❝ Is there really so little hope? ❞
❝ Don’t speak of her! You didn’t know her… ❞
❝ Haste makes waste, so I rarely hurry. But if a ferret were about to dart up my dress, I’d run. ❞ 
❝ I’ll frighten myself when necessary, thanks very much. ❞ 
❝ Every picture tells a story. Sometimes we don’t like the ending. Sometimes we don’t understand it. ❞ 
❝ Everything’s a nail, is it, Miss Hammerhead? ❞ 
❝ Oh, there’s an infinite amount of hope, but not for us! ❞ 
❝ I’ve not come back here looking for a fight. ❞ 
❝ That’s a pity. [ A FIGHT ] is certainly looking for you. ❞ 
❝ I want to forget! Who would choose to be alone, imprisoned by their broken memories? ❞ 
❝ Every adventure requires a first step. Trite, but true, even here. ❞ 
❝ Different denotes neither bad nor good, but it certainly means not the same. ❞ 
❝ I know their pain. I would assist. But is sanity required for the job? ❞ 

Season one of Dirk Gently except that, just beneath the surface, all of the psychic murder children are eldritch horrors.

They seem just a bit too interested when their gaze flickers over you, and there’s something almost predatory in their smile (even Dirk’s too-toothy grin). There’s something in Bart’s careless movements, and the Rowdy 3′s hive mind, and the way that bizarre and frightening states of disaster follow Dirk wherever he goes.

(Just before the breakout RIggins finds a book about cosmicism, finds a name for what he’s felt for years, the sense that ordinary life is a thin shell over a reality that is so alien and abstract in comparison that merely contemplating it would damage the sanity of the ordinary person.)

There’s a reason why Blackwing wants them all back so badly.

Tease (Bruce Wayne x Batmom)

Request: “#45 with Bruce?” from anon.

A/N: I got your message anon, don’t worry. 

Warnings: *****NSFW!!! PURE NSFW!!! This is the first time I’m writing smut so please bear with me. I really need Jesus. I can’t believe I wrote this but for you guys i would write the most smuttiest fic ever if that brings you enjoyment. I’m a freaking virgin so idek if the sex was right. But for real though guys, don’t read this if you’re uncomfortable with NSFW.*******

Prompt: “Enjoying the view there?”

Tags: @wynterrobin @wannabe-weasley @queen-of-all-the-fandoms @tim-help @avengerdragoness


It didn’t take you that long to realize that Bruce was trying to make you want him desperately. 

The first time was when you came back from work. You were laying on your bed comfortably on your stomach, wondering what time your husband will be home that night.

You were so close to falling asleep when you felt the other side of the bed dipped in. Bruce kissed the back of your neck, “Missed me, sweetheart?” He asked, voice low and husky.

You hummed in response. He started running his rough hand up and down your upper naked thigh. You felt him scoot closer, pressing himself against you. You smiled when you felt him through your silk nightgown. 

He pushed your nightgown up just below your chest and slowly slid his hand down to your lower abdomen, but stopped when he had only two fingers under you panties.

He smirked when you started to squirm, “Goodnight, Mrs. Wayne.” He chuckled.

You whimpered, “You’re such a cruel husband.”

The second time was when you found Bruce working out in his gym. You were only going there to ask him what he wanted for lunch but you were completely thrown off when he was lifting weights. He was sweaty and shirtless, giving you a full view of his flexing muscles.

You bit your lip. How can a man be this perfect? The only thing you could think about was having him on top of you.

He saw you looking in the corner of his eye and smirked, he put the weights back on its rack and sat up to drink his water. 

He got up and swung a folded towel around the back of his neck, stretching his arms. You felt something tug in your lower stomach. Whatever he’s trying to do to you is defenitely working. Big time.

Enjoying the view there?” Bruce called out, giving you his signature smirk.

You growled, “Just tell me what you want for lunch so I can leave while I still have my sanity.”

The third time was when he finally broke you.

You were taking a hot shower, washing your hair and humming to a song that was stuck in your head. You sighed as you felt the hot water run down your back and rinsing the shampoo away from your hair. 

You felt a hand snake around you chest, covering your breasts, “I didn’t ask you to join me.” You said matter factly.

His shower had no curtain nor sliding doors since his bathroom is so big. So you didn’t hear him at all when he came in.

Bruce kissed your shoulder, “Shhh.”

You breath hitched in your throat when you felt his erection on your thigh, “Bruce…” You warned.

He ignored you and separated your legs, pushing you against the shower wall, letting the water fall on both of you, “How long has it been since we’ve made love, (Y/N)?” He asked, crossing your wrists behind your lower back.

You moaned when he placed his tip on your slit, “That’s your fault for being a tease these pass few days.”

He took a handful of your hair in his, pushing himself further in you. You let out a loud moan, “Bruce!”

He was slow at first, but once you begged him to go faster he happily obliged, “Oh my God!”

He turned you around, lifting you up against the wall and slammed back into you again, keeping up with the fast pace. You wrapped your legs around his naked waist, doing everything you can to bring him in more deeper, “Oh fuck!”

Bruce grunted, leaning down to bite gently on one of your nipples. You screamed with delight, arching you back, “Yes! Oh my God yes!”

He spent his time licking and sucking before he moved to the other. Pleasure exploded through your entire body when you felt him cum inside you. You were shaking in pure bliss when you finally released. Bruce moaned your name into your ear when you cummed all over his manhood, “Fuck, (Y/N)!”

He slid outside of you, leaving a trail of cum connecting the both of you. Bruce kissed you passionately, but when he pulled back he gently pushed you down to your knees. You grinned as he gripped his throbbing cock and slid it into your watering mouth.

 “You know what to do.”

Kas' 2.5K Follower Writing Challenge!

Thank you all so much for the 2.5K followers! You guys have been with me through thick and thin, you all are the best! My life has been insane this year, but things are settling down so I’ll be more active. You guys are so amazing, and I’m so happy to have all of you in my life! 

Originally posted by frozen-delight

Originally posted by hqfflepuff

So to celebrate this huge milestone, I’m going to be hosting my first Writing Challenge

Kas’ 2.5K Dialogue Prompt Challenge!


  1. You may pick only one prompt and pairing. If we happen to have extra then you can pick another if you want. Just send me an ASK with whatever prompt  you would like. Send me three choices just in case the one you want is taken and let me know what pairing it will be.
  2. There is no word length, I happen to enjoy long stories! ;)
  3. It can be anything from a drabble, one shot, mini series, whatever you guys want it to be.
  4. It can include angst, smut, fluff. It can also be an AU if you want whatever floats your boat
  5. All entries for the challenge will be due on July 1, 2017 12:00am PST.
  6. Must include Kas’ 2.5K dialogue challenge in the first five tags.
  7. And above all else please tag me! If I don’t like a reblog it, it’s probably because I didn’t see it.

After July 1, 2017 I will be making a masterlist for all of the submissions. That way everyone will be able to read all you amazing fics!

Let’s get this celebration started!

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A Mother's Rage

HEY HEY HEY. I’m back with another story in this Series! Can I just say that I fucking love this AU?

Cause I do.

It’s so amazing I swear to GOD.

@virus-arc-tracer is my partner in crime, and she has made designs for Amazon! Damian. (They’re amazing go look at them right now)

And, as always, @fishfingersandjellybabies because without me tagging her she wouldn’t know what happens next in this series and I don’t want that.


Anywaysn, here’s the summary!

When it comes down to Damian’s safety and sanity, Diana is not afraid to bloody up her hands with the blood of her son’s biological mother.

Diana doesn’t play around when it came to claiming vengeance.


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Epilogue after Reunion

The reunion went smooth as fuck everyone was so surprised that i changed into a rich and sexy stud. They don’t know that i took a cheat path by taking a stud’s body into myself.

Clean hair, ripped muscles, perfect beard, square jaw. But i felt something is missing. Deep down i wish i could be bigger. This might be the hidden wish of that person i absorbed long ago.

One day after work, i went to the gym. I’ve been a member and had a personal trainer before i steal a stud’s body. It was late at night and the gym was quiet. My personal trainer welcomed me. He was very surprised how my body changed so much in less than a year. He licked his lips, showing that he took interest in my body.

“I assume you took the infamous serum and taking someone’s body.” as he pushed me to an inclining bench and pulled my office tie.

Ah, he seemed familiar of the serum, then. I nodded in affirmation.

He gave me a quick kiss, “Naughty boy, let me give you a punishment for cheating.”

He took of my pants, using me as his fucktoy mindlessly.

“How do you fell, rich boy?! I really like you now… those muscles fits you… UGH… very fucking well. UNF..Fuck i… i might enjoying this more i did you last time!”

He fucked me through every hole i had. My mouth, my ass, his movements are wild as fuck i felt being ripped apart. He has trouble catching his breath while fucking. And i have nothing to do but moaning in pain and pleasure.

He pushed me back to the bench as he began fapping. He moaned hard and harder. He’s getting near to the climax.

“Ugh.. AAARGGHH… You like this man milk, rich guy. Tell you what, I’m offering you my own body to make you even more perfect!”

Did i hear that right? He offered his own body to be absorbed by myself!

“But no, i don’t want to be just absorbed… I wanted to become a part of your rich life. I want my mind, my memory, and my sanity intact. I wanted to live alongside you as a rich stud”

“But i… i don’t have the serum”

He laughed, as he cleaned himself off, “Don’t fret, i have the serum with me.”

He went off to his gym bag as he took 2 serum that has same color.

“This serum works differently that the original one. Instead the host absorbing another, this one literally merges two bodies while keeping their personalities intact, thus two minds in one body.”

He offered one of the serum to myself. I took off my office suit, as we went to the shower room together.

I kept looking at his shaft. I can feel it… It’s going to be mine soon… That manhood, strong veiny and manly…

He pushed me down to the floors as he unite our body into a much more perfect entity.

Our manhoods were colliding each other. Two treasures of studs merging together into a larger, stronger, and more virile weapon of man.

“Ohhhh… I can feel it, our body merging..!!!” He moaned as he kept pushing into myself.

His arms, his legs, his torso, it melts down into my own. My own body accepted the foreign power of man. Our lips met, our tongues wrestle, using little time to give deep kiss as our head meld together.

His knowledge, his memories, began to pour into my own. But his personality intact.

“I finally going to live with you, as a rich man” another voice echoed in my head.

As he finally melds into me fully, My body began to move. I pushed myself up into a standing position. My arm began to move on its own, as if it’s partially controlled by my personal trainer, he put his briefs into our own body…

But then another spark of pleasure rise up in every inch of our nerves. It’s having an AMAZING ORGASM… EVERYWHERE


We arched our combined heads. Our pecs began to inflate with power. Veins surfacing on our abs, biceps. Our strength combined, becoming the true being of testosterone!

Spines grew longer, our body increased in height

Our shoulders grow larger, our frame grow wider in size

Our abs stacks to each other, forming an amazing, large eight pack.

We moaned so loud in amazing pleasure. It’s the greatest growth we never felt before!

One ripped man, and one hulking man, together they become a large, powerful beauty made from muscle.

*Credit image goes to https://growboygrow.tumblr.com/

Suddenly our crotch felt really hot. As we feel blue inside our balls… The flaccid manhood began to grow enormously, two additional testicles were manifested into the scrotum. Forcing the briefs to grow obscenely large.

Slowly but surely the combined manhood forced upon our briefs, precums began flowing like crazy because all 3 sets of testicles working harder than normal.

Strange feeling flows up from our crotch into our pecs as our nipples grows and spurts out liquid. With a quick taste, it’s actually precum being shot.

The process was completed. A new, perfect man has stood in front of the mirror.

“We look amazing, isn’t it” As the voice from my personal trainer echoed through my mind.

“Indeed, we are.” As we flexed together our new large guns and posing a “most muscular” posture.

“I” took a new shot of myself in front of the mirror. Using it as the wallpaper of my smartphone.

Now I’m no longer the rich man, nor the personal trainer. But a new perfect entity of pure testosterone.

It is time to live together in harmony in form of perfect muscle. I pack all my things and wore my office suit.

Sadly, it seems i can’t button them. Because this combined body has larger frame and wider chest.

Oh well, might as go back home shirtless. At least my office pants is still wearable, albeit it’s too tight.

I might need new clothes, larger size.

This personal trainer named Thomas, lived happily alongside me. As two minds inside one perfect body.

As a man of strength, testosterone, virility, and of course… wealth.

Now, for a new selfie in my facebook.

I can’t wait to see my friends shocked upon my perfected handsomeness.

I would do anything for you if only you would hold me. But you told me to stop, so I did, for you. You told me to let go, but I couldn’t, for us, for me. My heart would shatter if I just let go of everything and I wish you would feel the same. Somehow I don’t see the pain I’m in reflected in you. You, with those big dry eyes and perfect face with pretty hair that falls around it. Did I love too much? Did I lose my sanity when I thought you were the best thing in my life? The worst part is that even with all my poems and late night crying, I don’t miss the hugs and kisses and hand holding as much as I miss you being a friend. Just talking about our days and sharing stories, that security and knowing you would have my back when I feel bad. And now that I feel the worst I have ever felt, you don’t want to talk. Forget romantic love, where is the reliable, consistent love we give our closest friends and family? It’s not about holding hands, it’s about holding hearts and you dropped mine.
—  I’m not angry, never angry at you. Just disappointed. I’m sorry

anonymous asked:

Hi, wondering how you're doing being off the ship and with the salt? I'm still salty and I'm glad that nothing has surfaced that made me go back to the ship. Quite the contrary tbh. I see so many things differently now, but being salty hasn't changed yet.

Oohhh anon…. how am I doing…? To be honest, I am confused AF. I’m off the ship and happy to be high and dry on land. As for salty, yes, I’m still salty! Trying not show it as much as I did a few weeks ago. Trying to be less negative on my blog. I watched the panel this weekend. I meant to watch it as sort of closure, to be done with it once and for all. But they were so cute and funny and I liked it. And I liked them again. I was happy about that. I thought if this is it, I’m fine with that. Be great friends and give us the best JC you can give.
But then this morning I saw the airport pics of the two of them…. the pics we’ve been waiting for for so long….. and then this evening I read Jess’ ex-anti-anon….. see where I’m going here?! 

I almost fell off the mountain I’m comfortably sitting on with @outlandish-blog! I was weak for a moment, but no! I promised myself, my poor little heart and my sanity that I would only climb back on board if there is a pic or video of SC kissing, holding hands, making out, whatever. I need solid proof! The clusterfuck of the past weeks is too big to ignore. I can’t explain MM and T. I just can’t. Don’t get me wrong, I want to!! REALLY want to, but I can’t! 
So until that solid proof shows up I’m off the ship. Always hoping SC will find each other (again) but for now it is what it is. 

Jerome Valeska x Arkham Doctor/Follower!Reader- Reese's Peanut Butter Cup

A/N: Words: 1,530. This was supposed to come out on Valentine’s Day, but I had so much homework I literally had no time. Enjoy!

Warnings: murder, language, guns, violence, mentions of rape

Originally posted by chloequinzel

“I know what you do at night.” A warm breath appeared on your ear. Of course it was obvious to you who it was. The white lab coat that you wore over your blue scrubs moved as you turned yourself to view the man who had whispered in your ear. “You go, and put on your little face paint hoping to catch my attention. By day, however, Doctor (L/N) you pretend that you want to fix me. You pretend to make me seem like my sanity is going back to what you folks refer to as ‘normal’, but, Sweetie, everyone knows there’s no way you can fix me. I’m not broken.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about, Mister Valeska. I would never support such riots. Now, how are you doing today?” you replied refusing to look him in the eye.

“Now, Beautiful, I’m doing just fine. I wish I could leave out of this place, but life sucks sometimes. You know what would be great though? If you could help me to get out there! The reward that you’d get would be tremendous,” Jerome told you attempting to reach out to you, but his handcuffs preventing the motion.

“Showing signs of being a megalomaniac and a compulsive liar, is there anything else you’d like to say before I leave out of here? It’s almost time for me to go home for the day,” you reply beginning to feel frustrated at the man for somehow finding out about her nightly outings.

“If what I said was true bring me a Reese’s for our appointment tomorrow,” he mutters as you leave out the door. 

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anonymous asked:

Request~ MM guys reacting to MC being kidnapped by Unknown! Not necessarily the bad end where it's also a MM guy that's also taken, but just MC. you can take it further if you'd like(how long are they missing, how they are found) doesn't matter

ooo i like this request! :) it’s a bit angsty, but honestly I like angsty MM imagines sometimes, it really shows you how much the characters care for the MC (you!) and it just makes me feel good :D hopefully this suits your request~

♥ He’d be the quickest to notice you were gone. He’d freak out so much when you weren’t joining chatrooms or answering his calls/texts.
♥ He wouldn’t know what to do at first, poor puppy boy would get so overwhelmed.
♥ He would cry so goddamn much, he can’t even think clearly. He doesn’t know where you are and he’s just clutching onto his phone hoping you’re okay.
♥ He can’t lose you. He won’t lose you.
♥ probably creates makeshift “MISSING PERSON” signs with college ruled paper and highlighters.
♥ After a couple days pass, he finally realizes you might be in grave danger and gets Seven almost immediately to help find you.
♥ HE’S SUPER SERIOUS NOW, HE IS READY TO KILL A BITCH (yandere yoosnuggle ooo)
♥ Once he finds out you were kidnapped by Unknown, he starts sobbing again.
♥ YOU WERE KIDNAPPED ALL THIS TIME AND HE DIDN’T KNOW? he’s screeching what if unknown held your hand?? HE IS THE ONLY ONE ALLOWED TO DO THAT!!
♥ After regaining his senses, he goes to Unknown’s place accompanied by Seven to help get you back.
♥ AND BOY, once he does get you back he’s so relieved.
♥ Constantly hugging and kissing you from that point on, he’s never letting you get into danger again.
“I will protect you always, I will never let anyone hurt you ever again.”

♥ tbh he’d probably be kinda slow to figure out you were gone. hE HAS LOTS OF WORKOUTS/PRACTICE TO DO OK
♥ When he realizes you’re missing, he doesn’t know what to do, he just starts screaming and crying. He probably picks up a cigarette or two.
♥ The one person that really mattered to him was missing and he had no idea what to do.
♥ He stops going to practice and stops working out. It’s not very fun when he doesn’t have you to compliment him.
♥ Seven would probably get on the case super quick. Zen wouldn’t ask for Seven’s help because he wants to find you on your own, but Seven knows that Zen wouldn’t be able to do it on his own so he just jumps in.
♥ He is so passionate to get you back, he can’t even think of another man loving you like he does.
♥ Once Seven gives him directions to Unknown’s hideout, Zen hops on his motorcycle and VROOM VROOM
♥ This eager bugger probably sucker punches Unknown in the face then steals you away.
“Nobody will take you away from me, nobody. I’ll always be there to get you back, my princess.”

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ImagineBucky: Reboot, Rebrand

Hi there, followers, Lucy here! Long time no talk, huh?

I’m thinking of bringing this blog back to life. There are a couple of reasons it died: life got busy, and I got bored after years of running it the same way. Well, the first point is never going away, but I figure the second point can be fixed with a little bit of a shake-up. So here’s the plan:

New name. When this blog first started, Cap fandom didn’t really have ‘imagine’ blogs in the way it does now. ‘Imagines’ seem to be very much their own genre, one that’s not what we’re really about here, so to save confusion I’ve snapped up @thecryofiles as our new url. It’s still the same blog and all our old posts are still there in the archive, so don’t get thrown by that.

Askbox is open again. It’s pretty much just me here at the moment, but please go ahead and send in prompts and I’ll do my best! For the sake of my sanity, I’m ditching the strict old posting schedule and the promise to answer every single ask that comes in. I want to relax and let the blog grow back organically.

On top of prompts, feel free to submit your own ficlets, or link me to headcanons/art/meta you’d like to see shared. If I love it, I’ll boost it! 

Stay Alive (Asa x reader)

Anonymous said: hey! idk if you are taking requests, so don’t know how long will take for you to see this buuut, i was wondering if you could write an asa butterfield imagine where him and the reader are dating and everything is weird at the tim, asa is always getting home late, and she feels kinda lonely and then one night the reader tries talking to him but they argue and he says something like he doesn’t even like her anymore and he regrets to death he said that, ok too long!! byee, thanks!

Hey! I hope you like this as much as I liked writing it! x

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“I remember walking back in the middle of Vegas, one foot bleeding all over the sidewalk, slightly drunk, feeling the pulse of a party I’d just left because I was utterly exhausted. I saw the sunrise over that bizarre town as I limped back to my hotel trying to figure out how I was going to get upstairs through the casino without trailing my blood everywhere. There was absolutely no lull in the people on the street or in the casino, in the restaurants or bars and I just went ‘how do you all live like this?’ Then I saw the smiles on some of the girls’ faces and realised they were all just drunk. They gave up their sanity for a night. They lost money to win some coins in a shiny bucket they’d puke into later. I went back outside with a wad of tissue for my foot and thought about how I wanted to escape the madness as soon as possible. Because it was alluring, I’ll give it that. But Vegas can only hold you so long before you drown in something nasty, like your own vomit, watching the pretty lights and the orange sunrise.”

Forever pt.3 (Saeyoung x MC)

Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Pairing: Saeyoung/MC -you
Summary: All of the desire that Saeyoung feels for MC leads to SMUT and SIN∠( ᐛ 」∠)_. 

And! He reassures Mc that he likes her just the way she is! (ෆˊ͈ ु꒳ ूˋ͈ෆ)

Author’s Notes
: Ok so this took me a while to write, like look at it, it’s so long…(that’s what she said) but..god..I hope you guys like it. This is actually born from a request (the desire from Saeyoung -> SMUT) + a new request I got (MC feeling insecure because of her body). So I really hope you guys enjoy reading this! (◍•ᴗ•◍)♡ ✧*。

Pt 1 PT 2  PT 3

The room was beautiful, bright and big. Let us change one thing though, the brightness – I dimmed the lights and set up the room while you were taking your long shower.

We arrived at the hotel a couple of hours ago and honestly it took me all of my strength not too take you in the car and I do think you noticed. Because you were playing the whole ride in the Limousine with your dress – pulled it up over your knees and started to take of your shoes and showed me your sexy legs, which looked stunning in white stockings. The hairdo you wore was now – because of all the dancing and your slight drunkenness disheveled, so you undid it and your shiny locks fell naturally and seeing you so messy yet seeing the whole you, made me uneasy, it made me feel unworthy. But I promised myself that I would prove to you that I can be the man that you deserve and need.

You looked at me, through all that messy hair and gave me a goofy lopsided smile and poked my cheek.

“I love you, you know?” you lulled, but I don’t think you even realize how much I love you, my sweetest. My body aches because off all of the love that I have stored up for you, it might be pouring out of me, if it was… would it heal the world and patch up all of its flaws? Would the love I feel for you save the world of all the pain?

Because that is how you make me feel – saved, healed and loved.

The messy, yet beautiful you leaned on my shoulder and you let out a small laugh. “I love you and all of your silly remarks, I love you, I love you so much Saeyoung.”

I let out a chuckle and tilt your head gently with my hand on your chin. Your lopsided smile is now gone and you are crimson red, your eyes are hazy and slightly glassy. Ah, look your eyes are completely swallowing me. You wait in anticipation and I pull you closer and give you a deep kiss, you moan sweetly in my mouth and leave me an opening. I softly and slowly prod my tongue against yours. Completely lost in all this lust, you melt into me. You are leaning against me, trying to be steady and you pull away.

Breathlessly you speak up “Your kisses always make me so dizzy.”

Beloved, you are the one who makes it so hard for me to hold back.

Finally we arrive at the hotel, we rush to our room, while holding each other’s hands. We are by now running, touching each other as we go, in your free hand you are holding your shoes.

My love, my beautiful space princess. While we are running the corridors you stop in front of the door and show me the number 707 and you start to giggle like a child.

»Was this your plan, cutie?« and you only nod and type the code and pull me inside.

But what you did next surprised me…you pushed me on the bed and smiled mischievously.  

Then all of a sudden you were on top of me, you came closer, slowly you were near my ear.

“Wait here, I need to prepare for this occasion.”

Dumbfounded you left me…alone on the bed.

Sometime later, I was still alone on the bed and I sighed to myself.

God darn it, she said she wanted some alone time, so that she could prepare for this night, but quite frankly I could take her with or without any preparations…No matter what she wore, how styled her hair was or how much make up she wore…to me she was perfect in every single way.
She said she wanted some alone time, so that she could prepare for this night, but quite frankly I could take her with or without any preparations…No matter what she wore, how styled her hair was or how much make up she wore…to me she was perfect in every single way. 
I often noticed how she fumbled with her clothes and hair, how hard she tried to look good…for me. It did make me happy that she worried but at the same time it pained me to see her that way, why wouldn’t she just realize that she didn’t need to worry about that.
Then I would even worry if maybe it was my fault, that she felt that way. 
Sometimes I even evaded touching her on the parts where she would flinch…but did she not know, how much I desired her?
Today and every day before that…I could barely contain myself, I always stopped myself before I could hurt her and make her hate me. But finally tonight she would become truly a part of me and I would be a part of her.
And then she makes it harder and wants to prepare herself?

I did know that it was her first time and I did want it to be special, that is why this hotel room is the way it is. Filled with flowers, the sheets made of silk and rose petal splayed on top of it, candles lit in safe distance…a sweet aroma filling the room.

I couldn’t take it anymore it has been 40 minutes and my groin is starting to hurt…what was she doing?!

In a frenzy I stood up and opened the bathroom door in which she stayed for all those painful 40 minutes

“MC, what is taking so long?!”

Then…there on the floor she sat with her bath towel covering her. She shuddered and seemed to be in tears?
Slowly I lean down to her and take her hands.
In a hushed voice and calmly I speak out “Hey, sweetheart, what is wrong? Are you alright?”

But she wouldn’t speak she only shook her head.
I came closer and she covered herself with her arms folded in front of her chest. Was she afraid?

I looked around to see if she hurt herself and saw….a bag from a negligee store and the contents of it thrown into a corner…
Ah…I understand.

In a second I came closer and picked her up and carried her to the bed.

“This ends now.” I exclaim as I put her on the bed.

A look of horror on her face.

“This. ” I point at her body.
“And this and all of this. And every small thing that makes you – YOU is perfect!”

As I yell the last part out I pull her closer by her waist then I lay her down, next I slowly hover over her. I gaze deeply into her eyes and try to say the next words with as much confidence as I can.
“You are perfect. In my eyes, every inch of you, your beautiful body, every small part of you, even those things you call flaws - you are perfect in my eyes. I love how you, worry about such things, but I don’t ever want you to think, that to me you are not enough. You are so much more, your body either with stretch marks, small rolls or whatever you call them, I love it all!”

By now I was almost yelling, but you, you wore such a goofy expression, your eyes were shimmering and you started to laugh and then you enveloped me in an awkward hug. Awkward, only because you were,…well for the most part naked.

Then you sighed out and pushed me away.

“Saeyoung, I do want you. I want you so much, my whole body is tingly and weird, but as I was in the bathroom all I could think of was how I wish that I was fresh and clean .That my body wasn’t filled with sin. So that there were no marks on my soul. My heart is crumbling and my lungs are heaving with every breath I take. And you pour all of your sweetness on my heart and it’s all sticky like caramel and soon my heart is covered with it whole. My brain is fuzzy and I can hardly think, all I see are my flaws and I don’t want to be like that, because before you I didn’t know what happiness feels like. But now, now I do.” As you finish you brush your hand against my cheek, but with all of those words…I can’t hold back anymore, I push your hands up above your head.

“No more words, no more explaining, I want you…NOW!”

At that I crush my lips against yours and you breathe me in, the passion has built up over the past few weeks. The longing we felt, how much we craved each other touch. I realize how hard I made it for you, to push you away, to make you feel like you were hated, but honestly I hate myself for it.

I release your hands and slowly kiss your neck, my sanity is long gone and I take a small nibble at your earlobe.

You are squirming underneath me, panting, begging me to continue.



Seeing Saeyoung above me, being dominant and his eyes filled with hunger, hunger for me … it awakened something in me. Something animalistic. As he starts to nibble on my ear, I can’t hold back anymore, I want him, I want him..I want him.

I push myself up and kiss him back, I don’t want to lead, I just want him to take of his clothes. I start to undress him and he only smiles against my lips. How cheeky, how adorable and sexy. He then gently pushes me away and in a painfully slow motion takes his shirt off. I don’t know why, but just that image of him on his knees above me, with his shirt off, made my mind go blank and my stomach make wild turns, it was starting to get hot and by now I was grasping the sheets. He bit his lip seductively and pushed me down so now he was only an inch away from me.

“Tell me, do you find me attractive, do you think I’m sexy?” He asked, while wearing the most seductive smile, I have ever seen. And as I was just about to answer, he let out a chuckle and started to laugh, which in itself made me laugh.

“This is going to be really hard.”

“You mean just as hard as you are?”

And then we laughed even more.

Finally we recovered from all the laughing and being us, we continued. But now, I wanted to lead. So I started to undo his pants and he helped me take them off, I kissed him and planted kisses from his neck to his belly. I slowly kissed him all around his stomach. AS I was just above his center I slowly kissed all around it, I kissed his inner thighs, I kissed near it but never kissed it directly.

Then I licked the palm of my hand and started to pump him, he was already wet just by himself, but I wanted to make sure I wasn’t hurting him. I slowly went closer with my head to the tip of his member and smiled up at him.

“D-don’t t-tease meee, ppp-please.” I enjoyed him, being so weak under my touch but I complied and licked his tip, he started to shiver, his head leaned back and he let out a “f-fuck” moan/noise. By now his member was twitching as I licked it teasingly, then I licked him from top to bottom, mischievously I licked him and it made me feel so good, seeing him like this. Suddenly his hands were resting on my head, at first he was only petting me gently in a way as if he was praising me, how good of a girl I was. But as I was probably, being a little too mean, he pushed my head and his member was in my mouth, he started to move his hips at first slowly and after a while more daringly and deeply into me and I loved it, I loved how he moaned, how loud he was and how I made him feel. I could hardly breathe but, as he heard how I moaned in pleasure, just by giving him head, he started to moan even louder, he was saying my name over and over again, then he looked down at me. Those hungry eyes, that desire, I felt it in my core.  Just that look felt so good that my whole mind began to turn hazy.

I held on to his hips with one hand and with the other, I tried to pleasure myself. I was feeling frustrated I wanted to feel him in another hole, throbbing and hot. As though he noticed, he pulled out and smiled at me. “Good girl. Now my turn.”

He turned me on all fours and without a warning started to lick at my entering, his hands were grabbing my backside and with the sounds he was making, like he was truly enjoying pleasuring me, well that was the thing that made me go even wilder, I held on to the sheets and moaned out his name “Sa-saeyoung, please…”

I was trying so hard, to tell him to stop, it was a feeling I felt for the first time and It made me feel as if I was floating.

Only his humming noises of appraisal could be heard as he was eating me out and enjoying every minute of it, then he continued while using his finger, gently pumping in and out, I heard him take a deep breath and he spoke up “You taste better than honey butter chips, sweetie.” At that moment I had to bite into the pillow, because I was starting to feel something in me built up and I felt how my walls were clenching his finger and at that he only let out a low growl and bit my backside.

He pulled his finger out, I looked back at him and let out a moan of frustration built he only teased me more, by licking all of me off of his finger.

“Well are you ready? Ready for me to take you to see the stars?”

He didn’t wait for my reply, he only positioned himself near me and rubbed a few times against me and then he pushed inside, slowly and it didn’t hurt at all.

It felt like all the buildup I had inside of me was being released, we both took a while to get back to planet earth, since just by him inserting himself into me, felt so, so good, we both only let out a loud “aaaah”.

Then he took hold of my hips and started to move, as he felt that I was very, very wet for him, he started to pound harder into me.

With every thrust I felt him near, there where it felt as though I could finally feel my release, as if he knew he only teased me. I pounded my hands against the mattress, with ever thrust he made, it felt good, but my body knew exactly what it wanted.

So I turned to him and pleaded

“Saeyoung, p-please, harder.”

He was all covered in a layer of sweat, his muscles were now more visible and the way his hands were grabbing me – all of the veins being visible, how his muscles were flexed and how he bit his lip in ecstasy, my whole body shivered from my back to my head. He winked at me and pulled me by my hair. He was starting to get rough, he yanked me up looked at me and said.

“Tell me exactly how you want it.” At that his thrust were just one sudden movement, but I needed for him to thrust in motion, deeper to hit there.

“Fuck me, fuck me deep, please.”

At that he growled, took both of my arms and started to pound in me, uncontrollably, hard and with so much build up frustration.

It was wild, I smelled him and myself, all of it mixing up together, I felt how wet we were all over our body’s how my hair clung to me, how I heard the pounding of flesh and him moaning.

Then there it was, that sudden movement, that sudden motion he made, finally made my vision go white and I became numb, all I felt was this lightheaded feeling and this sudden, yet blissful relief. Right after me I felt how he twitched against me and how his hot fluids poured into me. He plopped himself right down on me and started to kiss my head.

Breathlessly he cried out with a big smile on his face “To infinity and beyond!”

I only laughed and replied “I love you too, you dork.”

this gifest got me thinking about an AU where Loki starts working for a company where Thor is the Big Boss Man with this reputation of being a total hardass and just an all-around intimidating meanie-pants and Loki’s like “yeah, whatever. I am KING of Asshole Mountain you little pissbabies.” but then he has a meeting with Thor and he’s like, “shit maybe I’m not the king of Asshole Mountain after all….“ (but of course there’s a little voice in his head also going ‘too hot - hot damn’)

a few weeks later Loki happens to bump in to Thor outside of work and… he’s so??? nice???? like, he’s so completely different from Boss Man Thor that Loki wonders if he happens to have an identical twin who goes by the same name. he proceeds to talk Loki’s ear off and he show’s Loki all the pictures of his dog he has on his phone(all 500 of them) and goes on about how he’s gonna hang out with his mom later…

and Loki’s just ??? this puppy is not my asshole boss

the next monday back at work Loki starts to wonder if his meeting with Thor was all some fever induced hallucination because Thor is back in Business Mode - the only thing that makes Loki stop questioning his sanity is the brief moment where their eyes meet and Thor gives him a little smile…

(and after that Loki’s thirst goes from ‘Moderate & Manageable’ to ‘HOLY SHIT I NEED THIS DICK IN ME’ because somehow, knowing that Thor has a gooey caramel center inside that salty bastard candy shell is really, weirdly sexy)

Back with a Smile [Fairy  Tail Chapter 538 FF]

(I stopped studying just to write this chapter up for the sake of my sanity right now. My Wattpad for FT fanfictions is @CelestialSakuraa)

He gave his friends his signature grin as he tiredly approached them. Their smiles returned back to him as he wanted nothing other than to return to their home with prideful smiles to carry on the legacy that Mavis left behind, he felt his consciousness fading as they all turned away to walk to the fallen guild that they grew up and invested their love to.

His body growing weak, he looked down to his fading hands. What was happening? This shouldn’t be happening when the fight was finally over.

Not knowing what was going on, he closed his eyes to feel the sun’s rays brushing and warming up his bruised and tattered body. Hearing the giggles of a woman in love, he slowly opened his eyes to find himself standing in a field of flowers where it looked so peaceful - A place that he wished existed so he could bring his nakama to rest and enjoy their lives without worrying about the fights.

“You shouldn’t be here,” a voice chimed where he looked over to his right to see Mavis and his brother standing there before him with saddened expressions on their faces. “You shouldn’t be here with us - Not just yet… It’s too early, Natsu,” the first whispered with her hand in hold with Zeref’s.

She covered her mouth. “This shouldn’t… But how - It should be over,” she questioned, looking over to Zeref who was staring at his brother with a guilty look. “Zeref… It really can’t be avoided?” she whispered.

His brother shook his head in defeat. “I’m sorry,” he apologised where Natsu took slow steps towards them in confusion. “I don’t think I -”

“No! He can’t be here! He should be with everyone else!” Mavis interrupted as she grabbed onto Zeref’s coat. “It’s too early for him to be with us! He… He deserves to live on and keep the family striving without worrying about the past - Us!” she cried out.
Looking at Natsu, she shook her head. “There has to be a way… Makarov, he returned - He’s awake! Maybe we can help Natsu return,” she desperately proclaimed.

Without a word, the salmon-haired boy approached them closer. “Am I dead?” he questioned. He took another step closer when they didn’t say something. “Hey Zeref, tell me,” he said a bit more sterner where his brother said nothing where in agitation, he gently pushed Mavis away and grabbed his older brother’s collar. “I need to get back! To Fairy Tail! To Happy and Lucy!” he roared.

“We will do our best, dear youngest,” Zeref whispered, knowing all to well how his little brother cherished his family that Mavis spent so long to create and develop. “Let me fix this, as your older brother,” he said before pulling Natsu into a hug where his tears began to fall.
  “I’m so sorry. I ruined your life and even separated you from your family,” he said in which Mavis placed a hand on his shoulder before hugging them both as Natsu gritted his teeth, silently crying to all of the pain that he’s been penting up.

“Let us fix this. Let us make this right again,” she hushed as their bodies began to glow. “The next chapter of Fairy Tail is just the beginning of a new story… Carry on our stories, Natsu,” she whispered.

Natsu closed his eyes as the light began to warm up his body even more. The distinguished fire within his body - It slowly reignited, and when he blinked, he found himself standing where he last saw the first and his brother in the guild as he left them alone. The rays shining down to him as he stood there surrounded by the flowers that he saw when he was with the two in that other place, he looked up to see Lucy crying as Happy flew into his arms. “Natsu!” Happy screamed.

Watching Lucy lift her head to see him standing there, in front of the guild that was crying over the lost of the idiotic Dragon Slayer, she widened her eyes as she took slow steps towards him in disbelief. “No way…” she whispered as she reached out to him. “You’re back.”

He smiled to her while holding onto the sobbing Happy. Welcoming her into an embrace where she cried on his shoulder, he closed his eyes. “I’m back…” he whispered where Fairy Tail smiled.

“I saw them both… First and Zeref… Smiling and living together in peace…” he said to her ear.