i just wanna know what they look like online

I don't wanna live forever (swifties™ version)

I’m sitting eyes wide open, behind this mobile phone, hoping you’ll log on

It’s just a great existence, excited looking forward to your lurk.

Taylor, baby, I feel crazy,

Online all night, all night and every day.

Give me a like, or will you say nothing?

What is happening to me?


I just wanna blog, forever.

‘Cause I know one day you might notice me.

And I wanna be on Tumblr, wherever,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.


I’m sitting eyes wide open and I’ve got one thing stuck in my mind.

Wondering where’s TS6 and if I’ll someday get a reblog, oh oh.

Shifty swiftie, I feel crazy,

Online all night, all night and every day.

Give me a mention, I’d be dead and screaming,

What is happening to me!?


I just wanna blog, forever.

‘Cause I know one day you might notice me.

And I wanna be on Tumblr, wherever,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.


I’ve been looking glad in all the nicest dashboards, (shifty swiftie, I feel crazy)

I see you around in all these creative U R L ’S. (Online all night, all night and every day).

I’ve been looking glad and making pretty cool posts (give me a like, or will you say nothing?)

Now I’m in my blog making efforts for your lurking.

My chill is lost and can’t be found/#WhatIsHappeningToMe?


I just wanna blog, forever.

‘Cause I know one day you might notice me.

And I wanna be on Tumblr, wherever,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh,

I just wanna keep calling your name until you follow me.

Oh oh oh… Till you follow me.

@taylorswift❤️🌈 I hope you like this💜

Tales From The Borderlands: Rhys Edition

Various lines that Rhys has said, feel free to change pronouns if needed.

  • Oh, trust me, we’ve got all the guns we need.
  • Hold on to your butts!
  • I will name my firstborn…Loader Bot. Well– you know. Probably not.
  • Looks like he had a…change of /heart/.
  • Hey, Grease Face!
  • (name), did you get stung by bees? ‘Cause you’re lookin’ swoll.
  • Oh, he was just the go between, the middle man.
  • Oh my god, who called the whaaambulance, here?
  • Mmm– capital.
  • No, it’s not (name), it’s your doom, stop squirming.
  • Look at us, we’re like best friends now.
  • A good pair of socks is an often overlooked detail of a gentleman’s wardrobe.
  • Two words. EAT. SHIT.
  • Your car is red, (name). I thought you wanted it in black.
  • To be fair, that was supposed to hit you.
  • Actually, that’s okay, you don’t know it yet.
  • This is IT! You can’t see that one day…maybe ten years from now, maybe ten months, maybe tomorrow…you’re gonna think back on right now and scream to the stars for mercy of death just so you’ll not have to live in the wondering of what could have been.
  • What if I had seized that chance by the throat, what if I had beaten my fears, taken what was so rightfully mine? What if…what if I had won?
  • Okay, s-so, I’m- I’m going to stick this on your head, a-and– and please don’t stab me.
  • Ohhhh, he did the thiiiing!
  • It’s just you and me, pal. Wouldn’t have it any other way.
  • Haha– great, a firing squad. I just hit murder bingo!
  • So. Much. Pain. Why am I…still conscious…I don’t understand.
  • We got answers and we want some questions.
  • You’re just weirdly buff, dude.
  • It hurts…inside my body.
  • I’m just peachy, (name), the world is my oyster.
  • Scratch your own nuts.
  • Do you mind asking yourself who you are?
  • You’re…really cool…I just wanted you to know that.
  • You’re not as smart as you think you are!
  • Maybe you should have read the manuaaaaaal, huh?
  • Who’s got two big thumbs and just had his finger guns come back online? This guy!
  • We’re going to be okay.
  • (name), I know that, I was lying to myself.
  • I did what I had to do.
  • I guess I’ll have to live with that.
  • There was no other way.
  • You’re a maniac.
  • Oooooh, oh. That just smells like happiness and garlic.
  • Don’t talk to me while you’re peeing, thank you.
  • What? You got a greasy face. Look! Get some lotion, get some gel, do a wrap or something. I mean, if you wanna lash out, you know, blame your genes, it’s not your fault.

ywdy0twhdy0ddnsbtssss4s  asked:

My first dating experience was when I was like 9 on Wizard101 and there was this guy called James (no last name) and he just saw me one time and added me like 'hey wanna date' whatever the fuck and I said no ('you don't know what I look like??') but he followed me around ages I just gave up and said yes, and we played together for a few days and I always turned my computer so my parents didn't see me talking to my online boyfriend. Later I came to my senses and blocked him. I'm a lesbian.

those last 2 sentences are all i could’ve asked for from any message ever

The Thoughts in My Head (M)

Pairing: Namjoon x Hwasa of Mamamoo

Summary: Hyejin hates her thighs, but Namjoon loves them.

Genre: shameless smut and a pinch of fluff

Warnings: teasing, oral, and face sitting

Author’s Note: I don’t know why, but I’ve always felt that Namjoon and Hyejin would make a great couple. Sure, they might not have had as many interactions personally as other members of both groups, but I feel that they have the perfect amount of similarities and contrasts to make a dynamic, power couple.

Word Count: 3.5k

Originally posted by itsrapmonster

Originally posted by mamamoos

Naturally, girls had many insecurities.

Ahn Hyejin’s largest insecurity was, by far, her thick thighs. With each calculated step she took, they jiggled, bounced, and flopped. To maintain her modesty, she always found herself pulling down at her skirts, pants, and shorts. No clothing in Korea seemed to cater to her voluptuous thighs; even her tailored garter belts couldn’t handle them.

Her other three members did nothing to make her curse obvious to others. On stage, her thighs seemed so out of place in comparison to their skinny, pretty legs; in a stark contrast, her fellow members pranced around stage flawlessly with less than a jiggle accompanying them. And their seductive dance moves always put emphasis on this dreaded part of her body.  No matter how hard she dieted or how much Moonbyul, Solar, and Wheein ate, she always weighed the most. They couldn’t help it, obviously, but she at times selfishly wished they could gain some weight and join her. 

Of course, her boyfriend Namjoon showered her with praise and affection. He loved her husky voice, which could lull him to sleep in a matter of minutes. He loved her laugh, which he set as her ringtone on his Ryan-decorated smartphone. He loved her body, which always left him in awe no matter the outfit or time of day. Betwixt and between the butterflies her lover’s comments made her develop, the worry that these were all lies always nagged in the back of her mind.

She knew what netizens said about her on the down low, wait, not even the down low; they were blatantly obvious about it. She hoped and prayed that these scathing remarks didn’t rub off on her Namjoon. Hyejin didn’t fear many things, but this was what frightened her the most.

Her insecurity always brought out the worst in her during their special times together. Their intimate interactions always started out right, with her self-esteem not affected in any way.

But when he reached to fondle on the lower parts of her body, she always recoiled like animal in danger. The first few times this happened, Namjoon didn’t blink an eye, simply thinking she wasn’t ready. But as time went on, her rejections began to knock at his self-confidence.

As silly as it sounded, she firmly believed that any amount of intimacy between the two of them would ruin their relationship. She didn’t want to know what he truly thought about her thighs, or at least not yet. She knew she couldn’t hide forever, but she would for as long as she could.

This time wasn’t any different from any other. Because of both their busy idol schedules, times in which they were both off were relatively uncommon. At times like this, they stayed at their shared apartment, locked in from the outside world. It was at these moments when a chance of intimacy was more frequent, and Hyejin readily kept her guard up.

For this time in particular, the couple was cuddled up in the refuge of their house, enjoying each other’s company. While some of Hyejin’s favorite jazz music filled the air, she stayed glued to her phone, and Namjoon, of course, stayed engrossed in one of his classic novels. At times, the male peeked from his book to stare at her. Before she could look up and notice, he would be back into the book, seemingly lost forever.

Annoyed with his little game, she lifted from her position on Namjoon’s legs to face him, straddling his hips. When he attempted to ignore her sudden movement, she pried his book from his hands.

“Hyejin, don’t,” Namjoon whined. “You’re gonna lose my spot!”

“No! I’m not,” she placed the book beside the two on the couch, leaving it open at the exact page he left on. “See, you won’t get lost. Now, why do you keep looking at me? It’s distracting me from my intense game of 8-ball with Wheein.”

“Because you’re so beautiful,” he said simply, staring looking into her brown eyes.

“I’m literally wearing Nike sweats and one of your old school sweatshirts,” she protested. “Plus, I have no makeup on, and my eyes look so small right now.”

“I know, but you look hot when you play games on your phone,” he said matter-of-factly, kissing her forehead.

She chuckled, but her laughter was stifled with a sudden kiss to the lips. Like usual, she melted into the kiss, drawing Namjoon closer with her arms.

It may sound cliché, but whenever Namjoon and Hyejin kissed, she felt as if she was floating on air. Though everyone in Mamamoo, including her, considered her the sexiest member of the group, she preferred gentle, innocent kisses over their more intense ones. They were like her personal drug, fleeting yet addicting.

But Namjoon, being Namjoon, wasn’t in the mood for such innocence. Suddenly, but gently, Namjoon grabbed his girlfriend’s hips and laid her down on the couch, making sure her pretty little head didn’t knock against the couch’s arm in the process. Their roles were now switched, and he leaned his taller frame over her smaller one. This sudden switch was too much for Namjoon’s novel, for it fell to the carpet with a light thud.

Oh no, she thought. Oh. No. She knew where this was going before it even started.

“The book…” she tried to distract him from her, not wanting this to progress any further. “You lost your page.”

“Fuck the book,” he muttered, leaning down to pepper her neck with kisses. “I already read it four times, anyway.”

Hyejin rolled her eyes. “Of course…”

She let her eyes flutter closed, losing her mind to the pleasure. She must have been lost for a long time though because before she knew it, her sweatshirt and bra accompanied the book on the ground. And now, Namjoon was slowly traveling down to her thighs. Hyejin immediately panicked and kicked upwards, accidentally making contact with Namjoon’s face.

“Ow!” He sat upwards immediately, clutching the sore part of his face. A bruise would probably be there soon. “Hyejin, what the hell?”

“Joonie, are you okay?” The female idol sat upright to meet him, bringing a hand to his abused face. “I didn’t mean to-”

“Do I disgust you that much?” His low voice cracked with frustration.


“Whenever I try to take it to the next level, you always end up pushing me away,” he explained, running a hand through his hair. “I can understand if you’re not ready, but when I ask you if you’re not, you always say, ‘It’s not that.’ If it’s not that you don’t like me, then what is it? Please tell me, because all I want to do is make you feel loved and appreciated. Plus, it’s hard always having to jack off in the shower.”

Other than his last snide comment, his words left her speechless. She never thought about his view on the issue; she always worried about herself and how he would perceive her. Personally, she never saw Namjoon as unconfident, but behind that unwavering leader hid a man who worried about what the world thought of him. And of course, he cared about your opinion the most.

She let out the breath she didn’t even notice she was holding. “No, it’s not that at all. It’s actually the opposite.”

Namjoon put a gentle hand to her face, caressing her cheek with his thumb. “Then what is it? Baby, you know you can tell me anything…”

Taking one deep breath, she finally confessed her worries. However, her voice had to have been too soft, for he only blinked in confusion.

“What? I didn’t hear you…” he said.

She sighed, saying it a bit louder.

“Baby, I still can’t hear you-”


Her face flamed up with the sudden confession, and she covered it up with her hands.

“Ever since I was younger, I’ve always had problems with my body,” Hyejin admitted, bringing her knees to her chest. “I’ve lost a lot of weight since then, and I’m very happy for that. But the fat at my thighs has never seemed to go away.”

Namjoon just sat there silently, so she continued.

“You compliment me all the time, I love it, but I just feel that sometimes you say things like that because you don’t wanna hurt my feelings,” she continued, looking down. “I’m scared that when we finally make love that my body will scare you away. I know what people say about me online, and I’m scared that you’ll eventually agree with them. It may sound stupid, but I’ve worried about this since we first got together.”

For the time she vented out her frustrations, Namjoon didn’t utter a word. Usually, he would accidentally interject during their personal conversations, adding something here or there, but he sat silent. His lack of words worried her.


But only a squeak could escape her. Before Hyejin could ask him for his opinion, Namjoon was lifting her into his arms. Now, Namjoon was carrying bridal style through the living room, making his way to their shared bedroom. She crossed her arms over her chest in an attempt to preserve her modesty, but this didn’t even work. While this all happened, he still didn’t say a word, ignoring her questions.

After kicking open their bedroom, he placed her gently on the bed. She didn’t know what surprised her more: Namjoon carrying her through the hallway without tripping over air, or him becoming so forceful without a word. The two of them have shared heated moments together with him taking the lead, but they had never done anything too sexual. Or at least anything that required the removal of Hyejin’s bottoms.

Suddenly, Namjoon planted both of his hands above her head, caging her in. Then, he leaned forward, and she found herself leaning with him, coming closer and closer until their lips met. Hyejin clutched onto his t-shirt, needing him as close as possible to her.

“I love your lips,” Namjoon breathed between between kisses. The male idol pulled away from the kiss with a nibble to her bottom lip, drawing out a moan from his girlfriend. After leaving a few kisses on her jaw, he moved lower, attacking the sensitive parts of her neck. “They’re so soft, and the sweetest melodies always come from them.”

As soon at she felt his plump lips on her neck, she sighed, craning her neck to allow him more access to the region.

“I love your neck, too,” he continued. After a dark spot blossomed on her skin, Namjoon tended to it immediately, kissing and sucking on the flesh even more.  “You’re so sensitive, especially where that sexy tattoo is. You always complain when I kiss your neck, but me and you both know how much you love it. You’re so fucking sensitive there that I wonder what other spots on your body would make you drip.”

Namjoon kissed from her neck to her collarbones, and before she knew it, he was fondling her breasts. In their heated moments, this has been the only intimate place that she’s revealed to his hungry eyes. So, he knew her little what made her moan, what made her toes curl, and he took full advantage of it. His hands moved to touch both her nipples, rolling the two buds between his fingers.

“I love your breasts,” Namjoon said matter-of-factly, licking his lips. “They’re not too big, but they’re not too small. And they get the sexiest reactions out of you.”

Namjoon’s fingers were great, but now his warm mouth was on them, making her twin peaks even more sensitive. Hyejin immediately arched her back, trying to get as much contact on her breasts as possible. So many noises fell from her lips, and they encouraged him even more.

The male idol left her breasts and kissed lower and lower until he met her lower body. Namjoon looked up at her with true wonder. Something else, however, overpowered this emotion. In addition, a familiar look also burned in his eyes, never as strong as it had been before. And it had her captivated, wanting more and more of him.

With his gaze still fixated on her, Namjoon reached down to dip his hands underneath the band of her black Nike sweats. Out of habit, she placed her hands over his, halting his movements.

“Baby, do you trust me?” Namjoon asked, staring deep into her eyes. Hyejin nodded slowly, biting her lip. She slowly let him go, allowing him to pull her sweatpants down her legs. Her thick, tan thighs were revealed to the his eyes, and she truly didn’t know what to do.

For a few moments, Namjoon lay in silence, scanning his eyes over her body. His gaze made her self-conscious, and she squeezed her legs together. Hyejin’s brain went into panic mode.

Did he think she was fat? Was he disgusted? Why wasn’t he saying anything? She asked herself so many questions, trying to find an answer.

“Hyejin…your thighs are so beautiful,” he observed, bringing her legs to rest on his shoulders. She must have a praise kink, she thought, because each of his comments went straight to her core, making a stain on her panties.

When his mouth kissed up her thighs, she whimpered. Each of his touches sent a spark of electricity to her center, and since they were so close to her nether regions, the pleasure was teasing.

“Before we started dating, I was only able to admire your legs from afar,” he explained between bites and sucks. “When you were dancing on award shows, performing at festivals, or whatever else, you always wore something that complimented those beautiful legs of yours. And I’d always have to suffer in silence, keeping my horniness to myself. Honestly, Hyejin, you don’t know how tempting it’s been for me to grab your thick thighs, throw them over my shoulders, and eat you out-”

His dirty words caused a particularly loud moan to escape from her lips. Please, just do that. I can’t wait anymore, she thought. Hyejin was never patient, and with her arousal on edge, her patience was at an all time low.

“Joonie,” her voice trembled as she shivered in anticipation. She just wanted him to get on with it. “Please, just…” If he kept holding on like this, she felt like she’d burst.

But she knew Kim Namjoon better than that.

He’d find some way to make her beg. No matter the situation, he always managed to tease her at every little change he got, innocently or sexually.

And she was right.

“Not unless you love these thighs like I do.”


“If you say that you love your thighs, I’ll give you what you need.”

She didn’t want to seem that desperate. So she pursed her lips together, letting little to nothing escape them. In an effort to break her, Namjoon began rubbing against her swirling his hand against her aching center. At times, his thumb would move up to slyly bump against her clit, causing her breath to hitch. These sneaky touches became more frequent as time passed, so she finally gave in.


Once Hyejin began to explain, Namjoon dipped down to use his mouth to stimulate her through her cotton underwear. He looked her directly in the eye while arousing her, his eyes twinkling with amusement.

“I… I l-love my thighs,” she said through whimpers. His mouth left her center to once again play with her sensitive thighs, nipping and licking the soft flesh. It felt good, but it just wasn’t enough. In an act of desperation, she reached down with one hand to touch herself, but Namjoon pinned it above her head.

She whined, grinding her hips forward. “Namjoon-”

“Why do you love them?” he asked, emphasizing each word with a rather rough nip to her inner thighs. When she opened her mouth to speak again, he reached one hand to rub her clit through her panties.

“Because… they’re b-beautiful,” she whimpered, moving her hips with his movements. “They make my other members jealous, and I… I never have trouble filling up those dresses that y-you love seeing me in.”

After a few more shaky statements, he hummed with approval.

“That’s my girl.” His hands peeled off her panties with ease. Namjoon could do nothing but unconsciously lick his lips and sigh in satisfaction. “Your body is so flawless…”

“Get on top of me,” he demanded, squeezing her legs.

The two of them switched places, and Hyejin was now on top, her supple hips straddling his narrow ones. Placing her hands on his broad chest, she looked down at him, her lustful eyes tinged with a hint of confusion. Namjoon only tsked with disapproval, bringing his fingers to make a come hither motion. The female idol began moving reluctantly up his body, but he apparently thought she was too slow. With his large hands, he stopped her movements and brought her hips forward to rest comfortably above his face.

This position put Hyejin in a state of panic, and she began moving back. But with Namjoon’s hands on her, her attempts were futile. She made a sound of protest, but her boyfriend was unrelenting.

“I don’t know why you’re so shy,” he said aloud, moving his hands down her hips to clutch her thighs. “I love what I see.”

With his strong grip keeping her in place, she could only whimper. In this revealing position, Namjoon had a front-row view of her nether regions and, unfortunately, her thighs. How could anyone, she thought as he lowered her onto him, enjoy being in such a compromised position? In his view, she swore that her thighs looked like sausages. And plus, she was dripping wet. Gross.

Her troubled thoughts were silenced immediately with a sudden experimental lick to her slit, causing a gasp of surprise and pleasure to leave her plump lips. The man beneath her moaned in delight, enjoying her natural, sweet taste. His sudden outburst made her pussy throb with arousal.

Over time, pure lust and desire clouded her silly insecurities. Throwing aside her worries, she reached down with one hand and spread herself apart to give Namjoon more access. Sure, it did show off more of her naughty bits to her boyfriend, but it increased her pleasure tremendously.

“Namjoon, yes, please…”

How could such heavenly feelings be deemed sinful? The only thing on her mind was the numbing pleasure, no, pure ecstasy of his touches, and she needed more of it.

Her prayers were answered when his warm mouth traveled upwards to her pulsating clit. Once there, he alternated between hard sucks and endless flicks to the tiny bundle of nerves. If it weren’t for his hands holding her in place, she would’ve collapsed on top of him. Her head lolled back, and her hands immediately flew upwards to grasp her breasts.

“Ba-Baby,” she unconsciously began grounding her hips downwards, trying to get as much friction against his welcoming mouth as possible. “Oh, God…”

Calculated. That was the only way to describe his technique. Because of this, Namjoon easily found whatever could have her shaking and dripping for him. And he took these reactions like a dog would treats, eagerly and energetically.

The wet sounds of his actions seemed to get louder with each passing second. Normally, such sloppy, erotic noises would have Hyejin hiding her face with embarrassment, but they only served to drive her sexual excitement to new heights.

That familiar pressure began to build up in her lower gut, and Hyejin was determined to not let it go. Her movements became more frantic as she chased her impending orgasm. Her thighs trembled, her toes curled, and her sounds of pleasure became more frequent. To prevent himself from completely suffocating, Namjoon had to hold her even tighter. His grip would probably leave bruises in the morning, and at this point, neither of them cared.

“Oh, Namjoon… Namjoon, I’m gonna c-cum soon,” Hyejin cried, pinching her nipples.

Namjoon hummed against her folds, giving his approval. But the vibrations of his voice became too much for her, and she came with a loud scream. To her surprise, Namjoon happily lapped everything up, not leaving any inch of her release unattended. In her current state, his actions made Hyejin shudder with arousal.

Totally spent from her orgasm, Hyejin moved down until her head laid on his chest. Her boyfriend brought his arms up to wrap around the female, cuddling Hyejin until she giggled.

They stayed together in complete silence enjoying each other’s company until she felt something hard against her thigh. His erection roused Hyejin from her tired state, and she rose up and began moving lower and lower until she was messing with the waistband of his sweats.

“B-baby, you don’t have to do that,” Namjoon stuttered. Now, he was the one to blush. “Besides, you’ve never done it before, have you?”

“It’s never too early to start,” Hyejin said, reaching into his boxers.

sukitte-ii-nayo98  asked:

Hey I don't know if you saw the afterbuzz TV Interview with matt but at one point he said that we fans should go online& look who from the cast booked recently some new things if we wanna know whos dying next &that got me thinking didn't matt also said in some fanmeeting recently that Harry couldn't be there 'cause he booked a really great thing (&hes proud of him) now that got me shooked 'cause what if&thats a big if but what if magnus is the one dying ??:o on the other hand matts a snake so

btw sry for my english -its not my first language and I just wanted to say that I really like your blog(∩˃ ᵕ ˂∩)

First of all, thank you so much, pumpkin!!! <3

Second, Matt is a snake. lol Honestly, you don’t have to worry about that. Harry always did other projects when not filming for “Shadowhunters”. Besides, Malec is their cash cow, they would be pretty stupid to fuck this up. And they might not always make the best decisions on the show, but they are not that stupid! This is probably just Matt’s poor attempt to cause some stress in the fandom since like 98% know who is going to die or better, how the season will end. Trust me, pumpkin, Alec and Magnus are safe. ;)

How to: Have multiple towns or restore corrupted data* using the online Save Editor

I was asked about this and I already wanted to write down how I do it, so I’m gonna explain what the Advanced tab in the online Save Editor is for. Remember, there may be an easier way to do it, but I feel safer following these steps everytime I’m gonna switch towns.

*You can only restore your town in case of data corruption if you have a backup save for it.

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Hi Signe!!! I was looking at cacti and succulents online earlier and I know you like them too so I thought I’d share it with you! I know you might not see this but, just in case you do I also wanna say hi and I love you and you inspire me very much.

Thank you so much for doing what you do, for being so sweet and making me smile whenever I see you post on instagram or when you upload.


anonymous asked:

but how did you know that your stuff was good so you kept posting and writing? I'm just looking for advice because i am not studying writing or something yet i write and sometimes i feel like what i write is good and other times that it sucks but either way i fear that maybe I'm the only one who thinks its good so i hesitate to post it online and i don't wanna make a fool out of myself

there isn’t much advice i can give that i haven’t already given. i’m pretty sure most writers feel the same way, i know i do. i still second guess myself all the time.

and in terms of what other people say or think.. do you know how much shit i’ve gotten for the “i am tired of re-writing tragedy without change” poem i posted last year? not even necessarily just mean comments (altho those have existed too) just people who don’t understand that the poem is about breaking habit and giving characters happy endings that are continuously held out of reach (especially lgbt characters) and feel the need to comment to tell me how wrong i am. 

“You do realize that tragedy is so we the audience learn, not the characters right?“ 

“Tragedies are Tragedies so that you learn from others mistakes or misfortunes.“ 


“I wouldn’t change the myths for anything I grew up with them before I met Percy Jackson and they taught me a lot so no“ 

“But they died so WE could learn a lesson. Letting them live cheapens the point of the story and nothing is learned at all.“

“But Its called tragedy for a reason…”

“Sorry we got a message from the authors of the past and future “HELL NO, NINE, ZILCH, NYET”“

(at the end of the day the arguments are all the same and they seem to ignore the fact that if we were learning so much from these tragedies we wouldnt need tragedies anymore and that they’re clearly not working as they’re supposed to so why not change the lesson but thats a conversation for another day)

you just push past it. if you want to post your stuff online you need to be brave and believe in yourself because otherwise the first mean or discouraging thing someone says is gonna rip into your self confidence even worse, and people will says mean things even if you write the most beautiful poem in the world, because at the end of the day people really suck sometimes and not everyone will understand you. but again, look at that poem. despite all the frustration i feel when i see comments like those people left theres also the elation of seeing the happy comments, and the love that it gets. the good outweighs the bad. 

that got a bit long winded whoops. tldr: the best advice i can give you is believe in yourself. if you want to post things online you’ll find a way to do it, even if that belief isn’t concrete or there 100% of the time. all it needs is one second to press “publish.”

lilypatch26  asked:

Once to get this you have to say 5 things you like about yourself publicly. Then you have to send this to 10 of your favorite followers! (Non-negotiable, positivity is cool!) ❤️

Hey thanks for sending this! I don’t really like sending people asks, though (I’m a pretty shy person lol) so if ya want to do this, go ahead and say it’s from me, if ya want.

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anonymous asked:

I'm just starting high school this year, and I am really into becoming an animation student. How exactly does it work?? Am I too young to get started, or am I old coming into something like this? How would you really get into it at my age? Sorry for asking you, I can't exactly find what I'm looking for online and I don't know who else to ask!!

You’re never too old or too young! If you’re just starting high school, the BEST thing you can do is start practicing now. If you wanna be an artist, draw. EVERY. DAY. I cannot stress that enough.

If you wanna be an animator or rigger or shader, do your best to get Maya (its expensive but if you go to your school they may be able to help you get it, because it’s for educational purposes) and then watch youtube tutorials, and do everything you can to teach yourself. Use as much of your free time as possible to be your own instructor. If you do this, it’ll take you REALLY far. 

Also, start networking! Tumblr is actually a great place to start. Find friends that are going into the same field, and talk to them about what works and what doesn’t. Send fanmail to people already in the industry. Find animators or artists on twitter or other social media, and ask them questions. Don’t annoy them or act like a crazy fan, but come off as someone who admires them and wants to one day be where they are. Networking and getting your name known will really help you in the long run.

Good luck friend!!! I’m rooting for you:)

Thoughts Had On Public Transit:
  • -If you saw me Instagramming a nude beside you, would you ask me on a date?
  • -I want you to meet my mom over dinner as I touch you under the table.
  • -A guy made direct eye contact with me for an hour on the Megabus, then switched seats so he's right behind me. Now his arm hair is tickling me as he leans forward to get his camera. Whatever. I'm going to sleep for five hours.
  • -I like you because you look like everyone else I've slept with.
  • -I'm aware that no part of my personality is unique. Thank you, you don't need to remind me.
  • -I'm trying to get better at sharing, but can we go to that corner and kiss alone for awhile?
  • -I get it. You want novels and rose petals and I consistently offer you notebook scribbles and dandelions. You gotta admit that's sort of charming though.
  • -Yeah, I want to go out tonight, just not with you.
  • -I'm currently trying to figure out how I can add rum to my Coke without the girl sitting beside me smelling it.
  • -At this point I've had to pee for four hours.
  • -I'm going to take a nap because I'm contemplating suicide but can't handle that sort of commitment.
  • -I'm nowhere close to cool, I just filter out the worst parts of my personality online.
  • -In theory, I want to be your girlfriend, but in practice I'm too nervous.
  • -I want to live in the parentheses of the questions I don't ask you.
  • -I can't take a compliment so if I just blush and stare off into space know that I'm thankful.
  • -I wanna love you internally, not eternally. I want the way I feel about you to live inside of me, just not permanently.
  • -Do I look like a poet sitting in the sun in all black, smoking a menthol and drinking gas station coffee? Or do the Cheeto remnants on my knees give me away?
  • -These will probably all be poems someday.
  • -I believe in resurrection in the form of poetry. I can't die because so much of me exists online.
  • -At what point does this stop becoming artistic expression and start becoming a problem of talking to myself?
  • -All your songs sound the same but that's okay because I keep writing the same poem and giving it a different name.
  • -We're not a good match but I need something to write about so let's keep doing this.
Chapter 62: Catch A Case


It started off with a quiet whisper, followed by little gentle kisses being placed all over my face. “Go on, kiss daddy” I heard her quietly prompt along, there was a small pause before another kiss followed, only this time it was wet, sloppy and full of what I could only imagine was dribble all down the side of my face. My eyes slowly fluttered open; I squinted as my eyes readjusted to the bright light and to the two identical faces that stared down peering at me.
“What y'all two up too?” My voice scratched my throat roughly as Jhene and Asia smiled cutely. I swear they were twins, Asia was sat up on my chest and like expected with a mouth full of dribble and Jhene was on her knees beside her.
“Morning sleepyhead, get up!” she giggled and then leaned down and kissed the tip of my nose. I couldn’t help but smile. Copying her mama, like she frequently would, Asia too leaned down this time putting her whole dribble mouth over my nose.
“Oh God damn Asia” I laughed pulling my head back
“Aww she’s giving you kisses” Jhene laughed clapping. Asia looked at Jhene and too clapped her hands together proudly. “Yay!” Jhene grabbed Asia playfully and then began kissing and tickling all over her body which resulted in Asia letting out loud, continuous heartfelt belly laughs. Her laughter was so contagious it was making me laugh, honestly I could get used to waking up to them everyday. It was perfect, just me, my girl and our daughter. What a way to start my morning. I was gonna make it my mission to start my morning waking up to them everyday

Music was playing in the kitchen as Jhene danced around and cooked breakfast. She really was in a good ass mood for some strange reason, but I weren’t complaining. I liked when she was happy; it beat her walking around with A. an attitude, B. Angry or C. Just straight up sad, I’d take happy, over active Jhene any day.“Ok, so what did you do to her last night why she’s so happy this morning?” Kyra asked as we watched her happy ass prancing around the kitchen. She couldn’t even hear us she was so in her zone. I said nothing, I just looked over at Kyra with a cheeky grin that said it all “Ugh forget it!” She laughed pushing me away. I shrugged chuckling
“You asked”
“I should’ve known” she murmured as she pointed towards my neck.
“What?”I picked up my phone and looked in the reflection at the two red bruise formed on my neck. “Oh damn, she’s wild”
“I see she likes to leave her mark huh? That’s my bitch!” Kyra quietly cheered. I just laughed rubbing the back of my neck. She damn sure left her mark alright.
“Sooo anyways, you know your 21st is coming up soon right? You thought about whatchu gonna do for it?” She asked changing the subject
. Yeah that’s right, My birthday was in less than two weeks away and so far I had no plans for it, I wasn’t much of a ‘birthday’ kind of guy. I didn’t like all that attention and fake happiness from other people. I preferred to just chill at home with the fam maybe have a couple people around, smoke some weed, maybe drink a little, but all in all just chill out. That was a perfect day for me, but I also knew I had friends that loved the ‘turn up’ and for my 21st I just knew they weren’t bout to let me do me.
“Nah I ain’t really thought about it” I answered Ky’s question.
“Well u know we throwing you a party or at least go to a club or something. Your 21 you gotta turn up and have fun!” She suggested.
“Nah I’m cool on that” I muttered like I said, I wasn’t much of a birthday guy person.
“Why you so boring!”
“I’m not boring. I’m just not tryna entertain niggas that’s all” I shrugged again. Kyra huffed. “But-”
“Baby, can you come get this for me please?” I heard Jhene ask halting our convo. Both Kyra and I looked over at her and she was on her tip toes, struggling to reach for the box of Grits that sat on the top shelf in the cupboard. I laughed watching her and then got up to go help her.
“Why you so short?” I chuckled as I got behind her and took the box down.
“Don’t laugh at me, it’s high” she playfully pouted taking the box “Thank you”
“Whatchu in here cooking up anyways?” I asked loosely wrapping my arms around her neck and kissing her cheek roughly.
“I can’t even say it without laughing” she giggled. I looked over at the stove and then chuckled myself.
“Ahh. Eggs, bacon, grits…” We both started laughing.
“Yo That song has just fucked everything up for me”
“Same here man”
“Nae please tell Chris we gotta turn up for his 21st!” Kyra shouted over to her, here she go bringing Jhene into the conversation.Jhene looked up at me and smirked knowingly. She knew me too well and she knew I weren’t interested in partying like that, it just wasn’t my thing. “I agree with you, but you know how he is” she replied
“Yeah boring” Kyra huffed and Jhene laughed
“Man I just ain’t got time for that shit” I replied in my defence.
“Time for what exactly? We’ll plan it, all You gotta do is show up Chris, come on!”
I looked at Kyra skeptically. She was going way too Hard to try and get me to do this party shit and it was leading me to be suspicious “Ohh I get it” I smirked at her.
“Get what?”
“Admit it, you just want a reason to fuck around, get drunk and then act like you ain’t know why you end up in Mijo’s bed again” I teased her with a smile on my face.
“Uh..Oh” Jhene burst out laughing. I squeezed her waist as we both cracked up even more as the look on Kyra’s face suddenly switched.
“You really tried it”
“Tell me I’m lying?” I smirked
“You lying”
“So y’all two not back fucking?” I laughed, she kept silent and rolled her eyes.
“Bye Chris, your so annoying” she waved me off
“You know Mijo my brother, he tell me everything”
“Babe stop teasing her, she know she luuhh her some Mijo” Jhene added.
“Jhene don’t your ass start over there!” Kyra warned her with a smile.
“Whaaaat? I’m just saying!” Jhene laughed.
“Yeah just saying my ass,, Cos you the queen of fronting on a nigga. Don’t play”
“I don’t front no more though” Jhene chuckled leaning the back of her head onto my chest.
“Yeah cause that nigga got you’re ass in check that’s why” Kyra pointed to me.
“I’m glad y'all know this” I chirped. Jhene looked up at me raising her left brow.
“Who you got in check?” Her attitude suddenly flipped. I smiled knowing she was bout to get all feisty nshit.
“Your little ass that’s who” I laughed
“Oh no you got me fucked up, ain’t no in check over here!”
“Yeah yeah, whatever everybody else knows what it is except you”
“.Exactly” Kyra chimed in smiling
“Wait, but how this turn onto me though? Kyra the one denying her boo.”
“I’m not denying him, I’m just not telling y'all nosey asses shit” she replied just as her phone began buzzing. Kyra looked down at it and then picked it up. “Hello?” She answered as she quickly got up and left the room. Both Jhene and I looked at each other. “Mijo” we said in unison and then began laughing. Of course it was.
“You seen the way she hauled ass”
“Definitely him” She chuckled. “But anyway, back to your birthday, you really don’t wanna do anything?” She asked as she began dishing out our plates.
I shrugged leaning on the counter as I watched her “Nah not really. I ain’t feeling a party I’d rather just do something alone with you. Take a trip somewhere or something”
“Aww baby, we can do that” she smiled and kissed my lips. “We can go to like Miami or somewhere”
“Nah I was thinking away, away. Like Cancun or something. Somewhere nice man. I think after all the shit we gone through we need a vacation”
“Ooh Cancun sounds really nice” she beamed “I can get all brown and come back cute” she chirped, she was so excited, I just laughed at her.
“D’you really think you can spend a whole week just with me alone?” I asked her as I took the bowl she had in her hand out and put it on the counter. I then pulled her body around so that she was now standing directly in front of me. I then pulled her arms up around my neck and held her waist.
“Uhh of course I can!” she replied in a’duh ’sort of tone answering my question.
“You realise we ain’t never really done that though right”
“Done what, spent time together?”
“I mean spent a whole week together alone, just us with nobody else around”
“That’s crazy, we definitely need to get away then”
“Yeah. I can have mama look after Asia for the week were away”
“Right well I’m down for whatever, wherever you wanna go baby it’s up to you, it’s your birthday”
“Word. You’re a girl so you know how to do all that planning shit. Go online and look for trips to Cancun or whatever place you wanna go and book whatever hotel or resort you wanna stay at I’ll give you how ever much you need for it”
“Ok” she smiled “Your gonna be 21 like, what do you even want for it?” She asked me.
“I only ever want one thing for my birthday Jhene”
“Yeah, what’s that?”
“Your ass…” I laughed.
“Really? You can get that everyday though” she screwed up her face.
“Wordd? EVERY day?” I beamed.
“Well yeah, if I feel like it” she shrugged
“Bet, well that’s all I want. I’m a simple man” I chuckled.
“Hmm. I gotta come up with a better plan for your 21st”
“Well You can wear something sexy with that ass” I suggested.
“Uhh Chris no that’s basic”
“Not really”
“Yes it is. I need something that’s gonna blow your mind” she laughed.
“Hmm blow my mind huh?”
“Yep something that’s gonna have you like damn! I’ll figure it out” she shrugged.
“As long as it comes with you naked ion really care” I said playfully. Jhene huffed looking up at me causing me to just laugh
“That’s all you think about yo, sex!”
“That’s not true” I chortled
“It really is that’s the sad thing”
“Don’t be acting like you don’t be thinking about the same shit I do”
“Yes but I’m moderate with it though”
“No sneaky. At least my shit be out on the table”
“Too damn much I think you got a problem” she shook her head as she tried to walk away but I moved my hand from her waist and put my hand in the back of her sweats pulling her back in towards me before she could “you see this shit” she laughed pointing at me “This is exactly the shit I’m talking about”
“Pull away then”
“Nah” she giggled
“See, you not tryna do anything about it though. You like it when I’m all up on you like this” I laughed kissing her neck. She weren’t slick, she low key loved it when I was all over her, she would never admit it though.
“Guys Mijo’s coming over here” Kyra revealed as she walked back into the kitchen interrupting us before anything could even start. Jhene pulled away from me just in time and quickly went back to dishing out food like nothing happened. I laughed at her and she playfully rolled her eyes knowing exactly why I was laughing.
“Aye, why you walk out the room though?” I smirked as I turned to look at Ky, she looked over at me with a straight face.
“Christopher fuck off”
“Damn that’s how you feel?”
“Straight like that, your cheesing me” She rolled her eyes
“Mijo coming right now Ky?” Jhene turned to look at her.
“He said the next half hour. He come to speak to angry bird over here” she looked at me.
“About what?”
“About last night, And you whiling, the whole reason I’m here!” Avoiding the conversation, Jhene turned back around and continued what she was doing.
“I spoke to that nigga yesterday. Ain’t nothing to talk about. The nigga put his hand on my girl so I handled it” I shrugged
“Chris please stop” Jhene pleaded before the conversation could go any further. I knew this whole conversation made her feel uncomfortable so I respected her wishes and put an end to the convo Ky did the same. She dished out some food for Kyra and I and then gave Asia who she went and got from watching her cartoons, in her high chair with a small bowl of scrambled Eggs and a spoon to feed herself. She was at that age now where she didn’t want anyone feeding her, she thought she could feed herself even if that meant the food going everywhere but in her mouth. Most of the time we just let her do her because weren’t nobody tryna hear her big mouth screaming cause you tried to help her. Once she’d set Asia up, Jhene walked over to me with a drink and then placed it on the counter top in front of me. “That taste good?” She asked looking at me as I ate. I looked at her Skeptically and I began chewing slower “yeah…it taste real good” I muttered with a mouth full. She smiled “Let me try a little bit” she asked as she sat on my left leg and took my fork from out of my hand and begun eating some of my eggs. I watched her closely. One mouthful turned into two, turned into three until I was damn near sure she was bout to eat up all my shit on my plate.
“Jhene why don’t you just dish yourself out some food? You steady eating off my plate” I complained as she cut into my sausage. There dead ass was a whole stove of food still left yet she wanna eat my shit up
“Because I don’t want a lot” she said with a mouthful. “Why you put so much syrup on your pancakes tho?” She complained cutting a piece.
“Because it’s MY food!”
“Yeah but all that syrup ruins the taste baby, you can’t even taste what kind they were now”she huffed, I could hear Kyra laughing under her breath at her, this girl was ridiculous. I grabbed the fork from out her hands before she had a chance to steal anymore food from my plate as I did this, shock rained her face .“Babe shareeee!” She pushed out her bottom lip pouting.
“Nah man you’ve had enough” I mumbled as I looked down at my plate which was now half finished.
“But I just want a little bit more” she went to grab my fork but I moved my hand again.
“Nah man. You eating up all my shit and complaining about it!”
“Fine be mean then” she cut her eyes and then got up.
“Jhene why don’t you just dish yourself some food!” Kyra laughed
“Because she wants to eat mine and then go eat hers! Greedy ass” I answered for her. Jhene started laughing and flipped me off.
“You should be happy I even made your fat ass anything!”
“Yeah yeah I’m very happy that’s why I wanna eat!”
Jhene rolled her eyes and went and dished herself a plate. Something she should’ve done from the beginning!

After eating I got up to go take a shower and get dressed to go and meet my P.O for this meeting I had at 1pm. It was every Thursday and had been for the past year and a half, lord knows I couldn’t fucking wait to get off these papers.


“Mhmm now I finally see why your ass is always so giggly around Chris" Kyra stated randomly out of the blue. We’d just finished up eating and were still sat in the kitchen chilling. Chris had gone to get ready for this meeting with his probation officer at 1 so it was just me her and Asia left. I looked at her with confusion waiting for her to elaborate. “Y'all real cutesy with each other, I peeped it when I left the room” she chuckled
“Girl stop it” I laughed embarrassed
“Yeah, yeah y'all ain’t slick. What’s up with you guys anyway, you back together now or what?” she smirked leaning forward for the tea. I laughed again and wiped Asia’s hands free of the food she was eating with a wet wipe “I dunno, were just chillin that’s all” I shrugged it off putting the wet wipe in the trash and then grabbing some apple juice from the fridge.
“Y'all ain’t put a label on it yet?”
“Nah, but I think it’s pretty obvious what it is” I walked over to the counter and grabbed Asia’s sippy cup and poured a decent amount of juice into it for her.
“Jhene now you know your my girl, and Chris is like my brother but I do think you need to demand more out of it. You know how these niggas be, they don’t understand nothing unless it’s written out for them. I ain’t saying it’s gonna happen but I would hate for you to get hurt cause Chris don’t understand what y'all are” she replied. I looked over at her and frowned slightly.
“What you mean like cheating?” I handed Asia her sippy cup.
“Chris ain’t really like that though. I can’t see him just going and fucking some next bitch just because. Not when he’s worked so much to get me to this point with him again in the first place”
“So you don’t think he could cheat on you?”
“No, I know he could believe me. I’m just saying I don’t think he would, not this time around, I have a little faith in my baby that’s all” I laughed shortly.
“Aw That’s cute girl. But just take on board what I’m saying though. I never thought Mijo would cheat on me and then look what happened. He was cheating for months and I had no idea. Just demand more from him ok, don’t settle to being cool without a title for too long Jhene, your worth more than that”
I understood what Ky was saying, and she was right, I should demand more but right now Chris and I were building ourselves to he back on track again. I wasn’t worried about a title because we both knew what we had and understood that it was special and we didn’t wanna loose it again. And as for the whole cheating thing maybe I was a little naïve but I just don’t think Chris would do that to me again. He’d be crazy to have wasted all this time trying to be with me again just to throw it away for some random sex with some random hoe.
“Yeah I feel you” I mumbled anyway .
“But don’t think I’m saying this to make you paranoid or anything babe, I know Chris really does love you Jhene, despite what I’m saying I just don’t want you to get hurt again”
“I know, but I love him too, soo much Ky, sometimes I think it’s unhealthy actually” I admitted
“Unhealthy? Why?” She inquired
“Because I’ve never felt this way about anyone before Kyra, like he literally is the only person I’ve ever given 100 percent of me to; he has all of me and he doesn’t even realise it and it’s like the more I’m with him, the more I can slowly feel myself drifting back into the old me and that scares me more than anything cause I know once I reach that point there ain’t no going back. He has that much of a hold on me, it scares me…”
“Your just deep in love Jhene, I get it. That’s how I feel when it comes to Mijo. As much as I may front like I don’t, I love that man so much it’s sick”
“Awww she finally admits it” I giggled teasing her. Kyra rolled her eyes jokingly laughing a little .
“We both caught up soo..”
“Word. I don’t even know when I let myself get to this point to be honest”
“When you got that D again that’s when!” Kyra said jokingly. I began laughing with her
“It might have been actually. Cause before then I really weren’t fucking with him” I admitted.
“Damn Jhene! I was Just joking!”
“Shit girl I’m not! I went 2 years without him I couldn’t stand him, I came back and he reminded me why I fell in love with his ass; I been caught up ever since ”
“Yo that’s the realist thing I think you’ve ever said to me!” Kyra was cracking up and, I just laughed along
“You know what I mean though! You ain’t fucking back with Mijo for no reason!”
“Girl I have not slept with Mijo since we been kicking it I’ll have you know” she revealed. Instantly, I gave her the bitch please face. “You are a bold face liar Kyra!” Who was she kidding?
“I swear to God” she put her hands up
“So you just chilling with him again for no reason huh?” I challenged
“Pretty much” she smirked. That smirk let me know everything! This bitch was lying!
“Mhmm! Well if y'all ain’t sealed the deal he done or is doing something to your ass that’s keeping you sweet”
“I ain’t saying all that, I’m just saying” we both began laughing again. For about half n hour we sat there and just discussed the details of our relationships, Kyra told me about her and Mijo working on building their relationship again and I told her about the conversation me and Chris had. All that. I could tell Kyra about things like this because she didn’t judge me or my decisions when it came to him, and plus she was Chris’ friend also so she stayed neutral most of the time, she also was going through the same thing with Mijo that I went through with Chris; the whole trying to make it work with an Ex again thing so she could relate. I could gush to her about him and tell her my true feelings and she just understood. Her and Rob were actually the only 2 friends I could do this with, I couldn’t do it with Tae or Alana cause they were way too extra at times and with Tikira she just didn’t like him so she didn’t really wanna know nor did she understand why I was still even bothering with him. Sometimes I wish things could be different because she was my best friend and there was things I only wanted to tell her but I just felt like I couldn’t. But for now I had Kyra so I was grateful that she understood where I was coming from, she understood it wasn’t easy letting go of someone who you had history with, especially not when you were still in love with them.
“Your really in love ain’t you"she gleamed once I got finished telling her everything.
"Yeah” i smiled. I couldn’t even deny it. “I know we go through a lot, and I know were literally up and down, up and down all the time but he just makes me so happy Ky despite it all”
“Well then that’s all that matters, as long as your happy”
“So what’s the deal with him and Jennifer then? They done for good cause the last time we spoke,you said they were still together?” She asked me, I just shrugged not caring which made Kyralook at me crazy. “Girl whatchu mean you don’t know?” she asked in disbelief.
“Well he says that their done and I don’t be seeing her around…”
“But you don’t know that for sure?”she questioned.
“I know he don’t want that girl!” I said defensively
“But you don’t know if their still together…?” She looked at me with the ‘really?’ Face. I sighed and just looked away. .
“I sound stupid don’t I”
“I mean if they are still together, he don’t be acting like it” I tried to justify, Kyra just shook her head at me.
“Jhene Carter. Now I know you better than that, I know his ass ain’t got you that damn open you turning stupid. You need to find out what’s really good! You just got done telling me how much you love him but you don’t know if he’s still in a relationship with another woman? Come on a Jhene!”
“I just don’t wanna ask him about that girl Ky it just makes everything go left all the time”
“Well You ain’t always gotta verbalise it” she hinted. I frowned my brows at her waiting for her to elaborate. Kyra picked up her phone and shook it. “Sometimes you just gotta go check for yourself”
“You go through Mijo’s phone?” I said so that only she could hear.
“Now I do. Listen I gotta know I ain’t the one outside of the loop. I played the fool before I can’t do that again”
“But I just feel like that’s me going to look for trouble if I do that” I said
“That means you think there’s trouble to be found. Your scared. If you know Chris ain’t out here playing, you should have no worries checking” Kyra replied
I sighed looking down. I guess she was right in a sense. I trusted Chris, I knew he wasn’t playing me but the whole going through his phone behind his back just didn’t sit too well with me. I just felt like it was me trying to find something and as the saying goes if you look hard enough sooner or later your going to find something.
“I guess your right…”
“Look Nae I’m not trying to force you into doing anything, I’m just speaking from an outside perspective. The fact that you ain’t really sure about what it is y'all got going on and the fact that you don’t know if him and Jen are still together doesn’t sit well with me; as a friend.. I just want you to go into this this with your eyes wide open okay. Don’t get your heartbroken again just because you wanna believe in his words”
“Nah I get it. Thanks for looking out for me Kyra I really do appreciate it…”


Damn. They didn’t know but I could hear every word of their conversation. I heard all of it, from her telling Kyra about how much she was in love with me to her not knowing what me and her were. I even heard the bit about her not thinking I’d ever fuck around on her again. I won’t lie, it felt good knowing that she trusted me and that she wanted to believe in me, but it felt shit at the same time because if she knew what happened with Jen only a few nights ago; I’m pretty sure she wouldn’t feel that way about me at all, in fact I knew she wouldn’t! Like I said before me fucking Jen was a big mistake! I regretted it like mutha but shit happens sometimes, shit we can’t change. I knew I had to tell her, I couldn’t allow her to just find Out on her own later on down the line cause consequence would be much worse, at least if I told her there was a chance that she would respect my honesty. Or maybe I was just wishful thinking.
After hearing their conversation I was planning on telling her everything tonight, the guilt was too much for me to try and brush under the carpet. I was gonna tell her, just after I took her and Asia out. I wanted to at least keep her happy and smiling for the day and at least get a chance to spend time with them as a family before I dropped a load on her tonight; cause I know telling her about Jennifer wasn’t gonna be an easy pill for her to swallow, not after I basically told her me and Jen were done and after I told her this I probably could kiss goodbye to the idea of us being a family together for a couple months if not forever.
In the mist of their conversation, I heard Kyra say something about demanding a tittle out of us, baddest thing about it was, Kyra was right. The reason I hadn’t actually asked Jhene to be my girl again was because putting a title on us when Jen was still in the picture just complicated things for me, so I just was kinda rocking with whatever it was that we were and plus she didn’t seem to mind. We both knew what it was and I was cool with it being that way. I was cool with me and her being together without me actually having to confirm it officially. Titles just complicated shit anyway. Jhene knew she was the only one for me, she knew my heart and that I loved her. I didn’t need to tell her that she was my girlfriend for her to know she was my girl, my actions and feelings for her should’ve already confirmed that. I didn’t want no other girl but her and that was the truth. I just hope after I told her this, she still believed me.
I pulled out my phone from my back pocket and text Jen. I needed to speak to her about the other night and make sure she didn’t go running her mouth out of spite or go running her mouth to Danielle before I could tell Jhene myself. Because I knew if Danielle found out, some way somehow it would eventually get back to her. Danielle was cool with Krissy and Krissy was best friends with Kyra and judging by their conversation Kyra would definitely tell Jhene if she ever found out some shit, it was that whole girl code bullshit. So I had to put a stop to anyone else telling Jhene anything. If she was gonna find out it needed to be me telling her. Period.

To Jenny:
Yo we need 2 talk.
I sent her a message.. Not even Moments later her reply came through.

From Jen

To Jen:
The otha night…

From Jen:
What about it?
We fucked.
It’s over.

To Jen:
Yeah well that shit can’t happen again Jenny.

From Jen:
Urm… You pursued me that night Chris. So u need to tell yourself that.

I sighed. She was right about that.

To Jen:
I know but it was a mistake.

From Jen:
Your talking like I ain’t your girlfriend. I still am even if u’ve forgotten Chris so sex is a normal thing for us to do. It’s not normal for you to be fucking Jhene Chris, cause I know that’s why u feeling some type of way right now. But don’t worry your bitch won’t have to find out just tell her keep it cute when she sees me and it won’t be a problem.

To Jen:
Why u gotta do all that?!

From Jen:
Fuck you. I told u the other night to just leave me alone. Unless it’s about our DAUGHTER do not text my phone no more Chris!

And with that the conversation was over. A part of me felt like calling her but I knew me calling her would magnify the tension. I could tell Jen was still in her feelings from what I said to her the other day about Jhene and that wasn’t a good thing. Jen in her feelings was liable to say some ruthless ass shit, she didn’t care either. When Jen was hurt she felt like everybody else should too. I was just hoping she didn’t run her mouth before I had a chance to tell Jhene myself cause that’s when shit would really pop off. Jen telling Jhene what happened would only result in one thing, and we know how Jhene get down when she’s mad I weren’t tryna bail her out for beating that girls ass for a second time.

Jhene walked in the room with Asia on her hip just as I was staring at the message from Jennifer. She walked over to the bed where she sat Asia down and then handed her, her phone to keep her occupied. “What girl got you so occupied on that phone?” she asked jokingly as she hugged my waist standing behind me.
“Huh?!” I looked back at her. She looked at me weird scrunching her brows. “Who you texting?”
“Oh um, Ty” I quickly lied locking my phone, I didn’t wanna lie to her but I couldn’t really tell her that I was actually texting Jennifer, I weren’t tryna have her in her feelings this morning about it. “He wanted to know what happened last night”
"Oh” She mumbled laying her head on my back.
“You good?” I chuckled at her.
“Mmhm” she nodded her head
“Where Kyra?”
“She’s gone to freshen up, I like this fit you got going on, you look sexy” she said smirking at me through the mirror in front of us. She pulled my shirt up slightly, peeked underneath it and then smiled pulling it back down. I laughed and unwrapped her arms from me bringing her around so that she was now facing me instead.
“So after this probation meeting I gotta take real quick I wanna take you and Asia out somewhere aight”
“Out? Like where?”
“I dunno maybe like the aquarium or zoo or some shit for Asia something she’ll enjoy in the day”
“Aww do you wanna have a family day babe?” She smiled cutely up at me. I swear I must’ve been a sucker cause just her little smile did something to me inside, I couldn’t help but smile back at her myself.
“Yeah. I wanna spend time with y'all. I promise you, I’m trying to make this thing work between us again”
“I believe you babe” she tiptoed to kiss me.
“Good. So where do you wanna go?”
“I don’t mind, uh anywhere is cool with me” she shrugged.
“Zoo then? Babies like animals nshit”
Jhene laughed “Animals and shit Chris? and Yeah okay, The Zoo is perfect. She’ll love that” she smiled looking back at Asia.
“Cool, you know Jaz works at a daycare so she got them 2 for 1 adult discount tickets as well we can stop by hers and pick em up” I explained
“Aight that’s cool" she mumbled walking back over to the bed. She laid back on it and then Asia went and crawled right on top of her. I smiled through the mirror as i watched them playfully interact with each other for a while. I loved my little family right here. It was perfect just the three of us. I wish it could be this way all the time
“She’s starting to look a lot like you now man” I said looking at Asia playing on Jhene’s phone. She was a splitting image of her mama it was crazy. Everything about Asia screamed Jhene, even down to her face expressions and temperament she was like a miniature version of her. Jhene looked up at me briefly and then back down at Asia and smiled. “Do you think so? I think she still looks like you”
“Yeah but she’s starting to get your features, like her eyes, hair and stuff that’s all you”
“Aw you starting to look like mommy baby?” Jhene cooed pinching her cheeks. Asia moved Jhene’s hand from her face as she continued to play with her phone.
“You see that attitude? That’s you” I laughed
“Ugh, that is” she giggled
“Don’t get excited though, she’s still my twin”
“Whatever, she’s like the perfect blend of us two” she added. I walked over to the bed where they were and then laid down beside them.



Chris had his PO meeting to attend at 1pm this afternoon so whilst he was gone I was gonna go back to my place and pack a few of mine and Asias things to bring back over here since Chris made it clear I Was gonna be staying with him for a while. I didn’t mind this time though, if I’m honest staying at my place was the furthest thing I wanted to do right now, not when Marlon could pop up at any moment. At least staying here he, A. Didn’t know where Chris lived and B. I felt much safer with Chris and plus I don’t think Marlon was crazy enough to even try anything after what happened last night. It was something that was still playing heavily on my mind but I was just trying my best to block it out and try and not let it affect me. I hadn’t even mentioned anything about it to Chris and neither had he to me. I guess we both knew it was something eventually we had to discuss but as of right now we were kind of avoiding it, well at least I was.

We were both laying on his bed with Asia just playing around with her when Chris’ buzzer rang interrupting us. "Don’t worry y'all I got it, it’s Mijo!” We heard Kyra shout to us and then her feet running along the hall way.
“This nigga here early” Chris said looking over at the time. It was only just turning 11am.
“He came to get her that’s why. You think their gonna get back together?” I asked him.
“Hell yeah! I know for a fact that nigga’s up to something” he laughed
“How do you know?”
“I just do. Certain things he does for her you only do for A. your girl or B. Your girl when you tryna get back with her” Chris smirked at me and winked his eye.
“Oh whatever” I giggled.
“It’s true, trust me I know” interrupting us again, Kyra knocked on the door and then peeped her head around before Chris could say anything.
“Umm Chris, you might wanna come to the door” she said with a worried expression edged on to her face.
Chris sat up and looked at her confused, I did the same. “Who dat, Mijo?” He asked getting up.
“Nah it’s the cops” she said lowly. Before any of us could respond, the door knocked again…louder this time. I swear in that moments it’s like I could physically see the colour draining from Chris face.
“Chris what’s going on?"I asked him
“I dunno, wait here” he said and then went to go get the door. I looked over at Kyra and she looked at me, both us holding worried but confused face expressions. What the fuck was the cops doing here!
I quickly got up when I heard the door pull open and then rushed out into the hallway past Kyra. "Christopher Brown?” Two middle-aged cops stood at the door. One was dressed in a black pin striped smart suit and the other wore a regular policeman uniform.
“Yeah, can I help you?” Chris replied blankly looking between the two hefty men.
“Christopher Brown, I’m DC Wallace, that’s Officer Grimms” they flashed their badges “Can we have a word?” DC Wallace spoke. Chris stared them down for a moment before he moved aside for the two men to walk in. “Good morning Ma’am” the officer in the suit greeted me with a gentle smile. Chris looked back realising I was standing out in the hallway with him our eyes meeting briefly before he turned his attention back to the cops. “What’s this about?” His voice was rough as he spoke.
“Mr Brown a warrant has been taken out for your arrest involving an alleged Battery and Assault case on a Mr Marlon Brooks, can you confirm that you know of this person?” DC Wallace asked. Chris tightened his jaw in the moment as he nodded but remained silent. My mind began racing at an uncontrollable speed, no way had that punk bitch really gone to the cops after he was the one that caused all of this; he could never have been such a pussy, if anyone should be screaming to the police about assault it should be me not him!
“Well a report was given from a young lady earlier this morning detailing a story of how you broke into Mr Brooks home early hours of this morning and assaulted him” DC Wallace explained as he read off of a small tablet. Chris quickly looked back at me with the exact expression I looked at him with. Young lady? What fucking young lady?
“As a part of the investigation it’s vital that we get both sides of the story and as a result a warrant has been issued for your arrest” he concluded
“So your arresting me over some alleged crime on a nigga who ain’t even file a report but some bitch?” Chris questioned
“Mr Brown I would like to just remind you that anything you do say may be held against you in the court of law. You do have the right to remain silent” the other Officer Grimms spoke.
“This is some bullshit” Chris shook his head and turned as if he was about to walk towards me but before he could move, Officer Grimms forcefully grabbed a hold if Chris arm preventing him from moving. “Man at least let me go and fucking say bye to my girl since y'all wanna arrest me over some bullshit allegations!” Chris snapped rudely as he snatched his arm away from Officer Grimms. Grimms looked back at DC and DC Wallace nodded his head giving him the it’s fine nod. He let his guard down and let Chris go. Kissing his teeth Chris made his way over to where I was standing.
“Baby please don’t have an attitude with them” I mumbled quietly to him once he approached me. I was crying and the last thing I needed was for anything fucked up to happen to Chris on his way to the station. I knew how Chris was and I knew his temper was something that could possibly land him in a detrimental situation if he allowed it to get the better of him. This already was a bad situation, it didn’t need to be any worse.
“I’m not. Do you remember where I showed you my money was at?” He spoke quietly so that only I could hear. Sniffing I nodded yeah. “It’s still there, go and get some of it and then come bail me out aight” he mumbled
“Don’t bother telling my moms anything though. I ain’t tryna have her worrying” he mentioned.
“I won't” I mumbled, with that he pulled me by my waist into a hug. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him tightly not wanting to let him go. It wasn’t fair that he was possibly about to land in a load of trouble all because he was trying to protect me. That pussy Marlon needed to pay for what he did to me and I was sure if Chris went down for this I wasn’t going to stop until that coward was behind bars for what he did to me. I had evidence and I had hospital reports. If anything happened to Chris, Marlon was going down!
“Go get ready, I’m still gonna take you and Asia out today” he said to me with a little smile. He knew like I knew that wasn’t going to happen today but the fact he still was being hopeful made me smile a little. “I love you aight” He kissed me
“I love you too” my voice was shaky.
“Okay Brown that’s enough time, we gotta go” DC Wallace announced. Chris sighed resting his forehead against mine briefly before he kissed me one last time and finally let go of me and went back over to the cops. I watched as they handcuffed his two wrists in front of him and then they escorted him out through the front door. DC Grimms shutting it behind him.
Soon I felt Kyra’s arms come and wrap around my shoulder and I just broke down and cried; one moment we were laying in bed discussing our day ahead, the next moment he was being taken away in hand cuffs! When was we gonna catch a fucking break! Every time we felt we was going to be alright, something was right around the corner ready to tear us back down! I was so tired of this bull, when was this roller coaster ride going to just end.

5SOS Preference : Your Child Takes On After Another Member

(basically your kid does something another member does)

Michael: “Chrissie, what the hell are you doing?” Michael asked mostly to himself as you came out of the bathroom with a towel trying to capture your naked daughter as she ran around the hotel suite having no worries about anyone seeing her. “She says she’s acting just like Uncle Calum.” you say and Michael turns to glare at his band mate who just shrugs his shoulders at him. “What can i say? I’m an idol.” You whipped him with the towel and he rubbed at his arm where you hit him. “Hey!” “Hey back to you. That was for having our daughter take after you.” You threw the towel at him, covering his head and he threw it off and looked at Michael, searching for a way to get you to stop your assault on him and Michael laughed. “She took after you, you go and capture her.”

Luke: “What are you doing Jonah?” Luke asked coming home from a day at the studio to see your son looking up some stuff online. “Drums. I wanna play them, they look like fun.” Luke smirked to himself. “Yeah they are.” Jonah put the laptop to the side. “Do you think that Uncle Ashton would teach me? Or would that just be too much?” Luke shrugged. “Well, he only has daughters who have no interest in playing the drums. I’m sure he’d love to teach you, knowing someone is taking after him in some way.” Jonah lit up. “Can i call and ask him right now?” Luke threw him his cell phone. “Have at it, invite him over for dinner tonight anyways, your mom said for me to do it, but you’re already calling him, you ask.”

Calum: “Dad! Dad! Look at me play this video game that Uncle Michael got me! Look!” Little Casey gripped at her father who followed her into the playing room and saw the pretty gruesome game she was playing. “Remind me to yell at your Uncle Mikey for getting you to play this kind of thing. I don’t really care for it.” Your daughter’s face turned upside down in a hurry. “But dad, i really enjoy it, it’s one of the first things i’ve been able to do and enjoy it all at the same time without hurting myself or others, please let me do it and i like hanging out with Uncle Mikey. He doesn’t treat me different because i’m a girl and i like playing video games.” Calum grinned. “Sorry for being judgmental. Didn’t mean to, i’d rather have you take after him then some people, just be careful.”

Ashton: “Did you seriously get that just because your Uncle Luke has one?” Ashton asked his teenage son, Joshua, as he came home from a day out with some friends of his. “Look dad, all the girls were all over Uncle Luke because of the piercing, i was thinking that maybe if i did, the girls would be all over me and besides, unlike you, i think i really have a chance to be punk rock.” You walked into the room laughing when you heard your son say that. “Yeah right, Josh, you’r baby sister is more punk rock then you and the only thing she can do right now is poop in her diaper!” Ashton laughed and smirked at your son. “See, you don’t need a lip piercing to get the right girl for you, all i had to do was bang some drums then her later.” “Ashton!” you scold as your son looked mortified at the words of his parents having sex.

more update feelings:

  • jack calls betsy “bitty’s oven” even though he’s technically used it for longer… because everyone knows the kitchen is Bitty’s Domain
  • so many cute hats!!! lardo in a cute hat! ransom in a cute hat! dex and nursey in cute hats!
  • I’m just gonna pretend that chowder & jack sitting next to each other at the picnic is proof that they became better friends after playoffs 
  • jack! has! his! camera! everywhere!
  • seriously though: jack with his camera at the picnic. jack taking pics on the roof. jack taking pics everywhere he goes
  • I’ll miss the flow forever but I won’t lie and say shitty doesn’t look good with short hair. a+ haircut skills, lardo
  • actually they all look good in this one!! lardo’s overalls. bitty’s preppy cardigan. shitty’s suspenders. 
  • also: shitty shaking when he asks lardo to cut the flow :(((
  • also also: so are his shitty grandparents on his mom’s side? or does she just really want everyone to get along? she didn’t strike me as the type to make him cut his flow, so I really wanna know more about that situation
  • bitty’s blush when jack puts the jacket on him! jack putting the jacket on him! leaning in while he sits down!
  • shitty being all indignant when no one knows his name!
  • also: do they really have no idea of what happened at the draft? like, they’ve obviously looked it up online and stuff, but it seems like there’s not a lot of info about it out there. (for example, tons of people seem to think jack overdosed on cocaine). do they have really inaccurate guesses? or do they just try not to think about it?
  • which secrets did the seniors share??
Kiss You With The Antidote

i. San Francisco, CA

“I can’t believe this, Kurt. We’re actually in San Francisco, this is crazy!” Blaine says, sitting down in the armchair opposite Kurt in a small, cozy, coffee shop in San Francisco.

Kurt looks up from the coffee in his hands, a small smile spreading across his face, unable to ignore Blaine’s contagious excitement, “Do you want to know a secret?”

“Always, Kurt,” Blaine replies, “You know that.”

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bangtan-angel  asked:

Again, here I am (^▽^)/ How would bangtan react to you being annoyed and they ask why and you answered you can draw a woman's body perfectly (because you know your own anatomy) but then you can't draw a man because you aren't accustomed to a man's body (/v\)

Jin : “Have you not studied the human body in school ? well, you can just look it up online” boring Jin, boring

Originally posted by btwjimin

Yoongi : “If you wanna take our relationship further you can just tell me” would think that there is no way she doesn’t know what a men’s body is like and thinks it’s an excuse

Originally posted by vminv

Hoseok : “You know, that’s a problem that can be easily fixed”

Originally posted by nekosshi

Namjoon : “well, isn’t it pretty similar… I mean exept theeese parts obviously, and men are taller, and more muscular and….. Okay, they’re nothing alike, care for me to help ?” 

Originally posted by parkthejimin

Jimin : “If you’re struggeling that much, I’d be more than happy to show you anything you need”

Originally posted by baebsaes

Tae : “first of all, we don’t have boobs, and down there we hav-” “I got that Tae, not the part I was confused about !”

Originally posted by jiminuh

Kookie : “let’s make a deal, I help you drawing men, and you help me drawing women” deal sealed, continues his meal

Originally posted by toomuchjams

Well, I think there’s a fine line. For us, y'know, we try to stay off of giving too much of ourselves out there. We try to stay away from all the personal, private part of our lives. But at the same time, there’s a fine line to where we obviously are VERY GRATEFUL for where we’re at and we KNOW that we wouldn’t be here without fans. I mean, what are we gonna do, play by ourselves on an empty stage with an empty arena? Or an empty club? No. So when we DO show a little piece of ourselves, we try to be as respectful and we understand where the fans are coming from. But at the same time, y'know, we’re not sitting on Instagram all day showing you what we ate for breakfast. Because there is a sort of mystique that you wanna keep. When I grew up, my favorite bands, I didn’t know what they looked like, I didn’t know anything. And when I DID see them, it was like ‘OH MY GOD!’ And now you get bombarded with every interview being knit picked for click bait online and that’s a little annoying to me because a lot of my favorite bands have been ruined in that way, where they just get OVER exposed.
—  M Shadows on RENMAN LIVE speaking on maintaining mystique as a band and staying away from overexposure via today’s media. 
Do you wanna write a program?

Do you wanna write a program?

C’mon, let’s go code.

You’re never online anymore,

Don’t go out that door,

It’s like you’ve gone outside!

We used to laugh and RP,

But now you won’t.

why won’t you answer me?

Do you wanna write a program?

It doesn’t have to be a program.

Do you wanna write a program?

Look at this C++ and Python,

I think some code review is overdue,

All I get is errors when I’m done!

*click, clack, click, clack, click, clack.*

Hey, I know you’re online, 

The team’s been asking where you’ve been,

They said ” E-mail works,”

And I tried Yahoo,

And Gmail, too,

But you won’t log in.

You left me here, all alone,

Just look at me,

What am I going to do?

Do you wanna write a program?

Version 2.0, written by beatriz-the-yarnie.

Do you want to chat on Skype?- Frozen Parody ((Lyrics by Odin-chan))
Do you want to chat on Skype?- Frozen Parody ((Lyrics by Odin-chan))

Do you wanna chat on Skype? Frozen Parody- Odin-chan

(Lyrics by me!!)

So I was MEANT to do Let it Go! but then I got sick…and today I got better-ish… and I asked Tou if she wanted to Skype today, and then she texted me back

Do you wanna go on skypuuuu (which is our name for Skype) *Do you wanna build a snowman music plays*" 

And so I sang this for her!

The original last verse was rewritten because they originally began with


I know you’re online…”

And I decided to change it up haha!


Do you wanna chat on Skype?
I’ve got plenty to say!
I hardly Skype you anymore,
My life is such a bore,
I wish that you would staaaaay!

We used to be Skype buddies,
But now we’re not.
I’m so bored that I could DIEEEEE!
Do you wanna chat on Skype?
It doesn’t hafta be on Skype…

Okay bye…

Do you wanna chat on Skype?
Or talk on the phone instead?
I’m sitting here and just waiting for you,
There’s no one to talk to,
It’s like your skype is dead!
(Come back soon!)

I’m getting kinda lonely in this empty chat,
Just letting the silence pass….

(Oh, hey.)
I know you’re online,
Your Skype Icon has gone green.
I’ve been trying to message you,
But nothing’s going through,
My words have gone unseen.

Thought you’d always be there,
No matter what,
But it looks like I thought wrong…

Don’t you wanna chat on skype?