i just really wanted to gif this video

Okay, so I didn’t want to post this yet, but I really really REALLY wanna show you guys what I’ve been working on for months. AND since it’s Aaliyah’s birthday… might as well post it lol. So SURPRISE!!! I’ve been working on an animation of Aaliyah! This was supposed to be for the 20th anniversary of her album ‘One In A Million’ in August, but let me tell you something… animating is hard, and it takes a lot of hard work. Even with my hand cramping right now, it’s all worth it. And that’s what Aaliyah taught me. My passion is art, and even though the work is painful, or it makes me bone-tired, it’s all worth it because just seeing something that I created come to life, it’s the best feeling in the world honestly. So, yeah it’s not fully finished yet, but I am planning to finish it by the end of this month or next month. Just wanted to show you guys what I was working on, and that none of this would be possible if it wasn’t for Babygirl and her music. I’ve been listening to her music for over 20 years, since I was little (and her music video, ‘One In A Million’ was the first video I’ve seen of hers on MTV lol), and she was the only artist I really admired, and her music helped me find what I truly love doing, and I thought an animation would be a perfect tribute for me to pay my respects and thank her for inspiring me and millions of other fans out there. 

Happy Birthday, Miss Aaliyah!! Love you and miss you always!!!! 😘💕

I made a little thing

Mark said the other day he likes to think there’s a Tiny Box Tim for all the characters. And since I’m really into all things Dark at the moment, I wanted to make my own little Tiny Dark Tim😊

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“It’s fucking great. It just saw it. It made me hyper, it made me want to dance around the room. I just want to bounce off the walls…  Everything clicks. It’s spooky too. It makes you pumped and it has this really great energy, but this energy that starts to get a little bit crazy and feverish and you see some of the faces she got. These frat guys bouncing around and they seem all too real and all too date-rapey. And there’s that danger lurking underneath it. But on top of it, it just makes me want to dance.”  –-Paul Thomas Anderson talked about Grimes’ “Oblivion” and its music video.

Falling into lava is the worst way to go: It’s all the most awful parts of drowning and burning mashed together like the devil’s slash fiction. But in reality, it wouldn’t be anything like that. Surprisingly, lava is really fucking hot. We’re looking at temperatures ranging from 1,295 degrees F to 2,282 degrees F when it first breaks the surface. A bed of lava is a giant liquid crematorium that is unlikely to gulp you down, if only because you’ll burn to death first.

But even if you cannonballed into a volcano wearing a heat-suit – because fuck cancer, you’re going out awesome – you still wouldn’t drown in it. Lava is over three times heavier and denser than water, with at least 100,000 times the viscosity. It’s borderline impossible for a human being to sink in it. You wouldn’t dramatically sink like Arnold at the end of T2 – you’d just shatter and burn up so quickly you wouldn’t have time to give a thumbs-up, much less the elaborate double bird you’ve been practicing.

5 Ways Movies Say You Can Die (That Science Says Are Wrong)

For those who want to know how I edit photos..

I didn’t edit much, I just ‘enhance’ the photo to make it more lively.

If you have a perfect base, you don’t need to edit much.

Basically what I did every times I edit photos

  1. Liquify the flaws
  2. Draw some hair strands/soften the hair
  3. Use brush to add shadow on skin/even the skin tone
  4. Use Burn Tool/Dodge Tool to darken/lighten
  5. Use brush to add soft black shadow on sims
  6. Blur out all the edges
  7. Sharpen the brows,eyes, lips and clothes pattern
  8. Decrease the scale on Vibrance
  9. Apply shadow on background

DONE!

I really don’t know how to explain in words. I want to make a video about it but I don’t know how to do and I don’t have time to do,so….

hi! I recently unfollowed a bunch of blogs and I feel like I just keep seeing the same stuff over and over again so I really want to follow some new blogs! even made a lame banner for it. Please give a like or reblog or whatever if you post anything of the sort :

  • Final Fantasy Series - i’m not really picky with a specific game,  whether it’s xv or vi, all good in my book
  • Dishonored
  • Bioshock
  • Skyrim
  • Kingdom Hearts
  • any video games really
  • IF Y❤U MAKE Y❤UR ❤WN EDITS/GRAPHICS  ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ 
  • ~~~aesthet!c shit~~~
  • fashion
  • nature/scenery/etc (anime scenery also counts)
  • ghibli
  • sailor moon
  • pokemon
  • art
  • animals (i love caaaaaaaatssssss!!!111!1)
  • food (sweets n stuff)
  • space

Also this is a sideblog and i follow from @articlemokneys​ just an FYI!

thank you so much!  ♡

Hey guys! This is just my reaction/summary post of the BTS Concert in Newark (Thursday, 3/23)! I’ll be going into a lot of detail, but bare with me. I’ve linked all the fancams I took throughout the post, so you can check that out :)

[Full Fancam Playlist]

BEFORE THE CONCERT

Alright so first things first…I’ve been following BTS since ~May/June 2014, and this was the first time I was actually able to go to a live concert. I WAS LITERALLY BEYOND THE MOON when I got tickets, and I was so excited that I was badgering everyone I knew with my fangirling. BTS means so much to me, they got me through some of the hardest times in my life, and they gave me happiness and hope. So getting to go to one of their concerts, see them and support them in person, was such a blessing.

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Booper dooper motherfuckers.

You’re an inspiration, Jack. Truly.
You inspire me to get up everyday and try my hardest. You inspire me to smile more and complain less. You inspire me to do what I know I’m good at and not stop no matter what. I know you’re just a little irish boy sittin’ in his room playin’ video games, but to me and at least 12 million other people you are so much more.
Despite the weight my mental illnesses put on me, your high energy and huge heart gets me going every single day. I want to be as successful and as inspirational as you someday.
What can I say that hasn’t been said before? I must’ve edited this a trillion times by now Lol. Secretly, I guess I wish you’d always remember this gif and every once in a while you’ll think, “wow. I really mean a lot to that person.” I hope you will always acknowledge your importance to over 12 million people, and I know it won’t go to your head if it hasn’t already. LOL
Thank you so much for being you. YOU’RE THE BOSS!!

@therealjacksepticeye

Imagine: Video chatting with Sherlock and him “comforting” you after a breakup with your boyfriend.

You: Sherlock! *sobbing* I just don´t know what to do. 

Sherlock: Oh for God´s sake! You´re better than him.

You: *stops sobbing* Really?

Sherlock: Of course! Just forget him, he´s and idiot.

You: *laughs* Thank you.

Sherlock: *winks*.

Want to request?

Thank you guys so much for the love and support of this blog, I wanted to make a blog for the dink fam on tumblr because there really isn’t a lot out there in our fandom and i’d say i’m succeeding thanks to you all!

Firstly, I’d like to announce that i’m opening gif requests so just send me whatever it is you want and maybe also the video its in? It will be much faster that way I swear :)

Secondly, I’m gonna give some shout outs to some dinks because i’m grateful for their support, and yours even if you’re not on the list!
@jennamarbles - thank you for finding this blog & reblogging something from it, knowing you’ve seen it makes my heart hurt in a nice way!
@philboyante - it won’t let me tag you but hopefully you see this as you were the 1000th follower!
@whywhyamilikethis, @jennamarbleswannabe, @scarlet-amnesia, @lethal-wisdom, @jayeles123, @echounsc, @i-oa, @fukyoudale, @the2emptiess - biggest fans in the last month, week, 3 days or 24 hours and I love you all!

Lastly, a reminder to upload any Jenna and/or Julien things you have to tumblr because I look through the Jenna Marbles and Julien Solomita tags almost daily and queue things so you’re basically guaranteed to end up on here!

thank you all so much, again, and from the bottom of my heart, dink dink <3

HAPPY SASUNARU DAY (03.07)/ サスナルデ

Here’s the HD version of the video I posted from last night (I hope I didn’t freak everyone out too much by making you all think it was real X3c)

Just married SasNar talking about….Well that’s where you guys come in

Since today’s a special day, I’m making a game. Come up with any dialogue you want these two to be talking about in the tag when you reblog this :3 I want to see some really creative dialogues from you guys so have fun~~~

PERFECT WORLD, by Rosamund Hodge

“Hello. My name is Claire Lewis. I had my bad luck removed at age ten, and it’s made a wonderful change in my life.”

Because ten year olds, such underachievers, am I right?

I glare at the bathroom mirror. My stomach is a knot of fear. It’s fine for Mom to stride onto the TV screen, wearing her stilettos and her pinstriped suits and that steely smile make everyone love and fear her. And Lara, my older sister, she’s got that warm grin, a double degree in pre-med and politics, and the Fulbright scholarship to Oxford. 

But me?

I try a smile. It looks way too full of teeth.

“I’m seventeen years old, I got a perfect score on the SAT, and there’s a full ride waiting for me at Harvard.”

Except I don’t have any of that yet, except the seventeen years old part.

Right now I’ve got a tutor, a load of AP classes, choir practice, soccer practice, and student newspaper duties. Also: bloodshot eyes, no boyfriend, and twelve extra pounds from all the stress-induced doubleshot mochas. 

And I’m supposed to walk onto a sound stage and convince the nation that early-intervention luck adjustment is such a good idea it ought to be mandatory.

I have to make Mom proud.

I take a deep breath and look myself in the eye.

“I know people say that early intervention puts too much pressure on kids. Makes them feel like they have to achieve. Doesn’t let them learn from their mistakes. But all it’s ever done is give me freedom! I’ve made plenty of mistakes—like the pink hair incident, ha ha—”

I pause. Try the laugh again. Give up on it.

“—but the procedure means my mistakes don’t have to define me. That the deck isn’t stacked against me. That I’m getting a chance to stretch my wings and fly.”

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The picture above is my own, and so is the gif version below!

I’m really peeved the gif above is terrible quality, but blame Tumblr’s gif size limit & i have no idea why it’s sped it-self up. But hey, let’s forget about the flaws.

Of course it’s of Dominic Monaghan (Drive Shaft Bass Player) & Amanda wait… I mean Matthias & Amanda Faye, sorry they look so alike! (Sorry Matthias xD)

Anyway, I just want to thank both of them from the bottom of my heart, or the top which ever is more important. Just for being so genuine in their videos, and vlogs. Matthias & Amanda have both inspired me to get into Photography, and I’m actually saving up for a proper camera and classes to get myself started thanks to them. I needed that extra little push of motivation, and they gave it me!

They’re two of the friendliest, and most genuine people on YouTube & on top of that are totally the cutest married couple & soon to be parents (yay)!

Hopefully one day I can just meet you both and thank you in person, and give you a hug too (if that’s not creepy, I don’t think hugs are creepy but personal space is vital for some people. I don’t know where this got off too.) Anyway, back to the point. Matthias & Amanda, thankyou for existing! Thankyou for making millions of people happy on daily basis, it really means more than you think!

From, @omgmysterybox & sorry for the mushyness I was going to go on longer but didn’t want to bore you both!

Matthias’ social media: 

Amanda’s social media:

Their joint daily vlog channel Matt & Amanda! Where they’re currently documenting Amanda Faye’s pregnancy, and waiting for their little girl to be born (Luna Eleanora) as well as doing other things in their lives, and trust me everyday is a new adventure for them. 

okay! mobox i really liked this part for some reason in your animation “purple” (by mandopony ((great song check it out)) ) and i wanted to make a gif outta it , if you dont apriciate it i understand compleatly! ill take it down if needed , i just thought this would be cool to do


animation by @mobox87 

gif made by me

 ——> original video: https://youtu.be/3NxEArlkAKU

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I DO NOT OWN FNAF OR THE AU ITSELF 

Hellooooooo! How aree you guys!? :D Hope you all enjoy this part and I love you <3 And soon, some suprises are coming that I decided to do for you guys :)) <3

Read previous parts here:
Part 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 


“I thought it was hopeless love” Taehyung story - Part 5 

Luke couldn’t wait to see you,even thought you guys saw each other yesterday.
He walked inside of your house and went to see if you’re in the kitchen.
“She’s not here?” he asked himself and walked into the living room and you weren’t there either..Thing that he spots is Taehyung’s black jacket on the couch.

Right away he clench his jaw and think the worse.To see you with him.
Since he met Taehyung,he felt like everything changed.
he walked upstairs to your room.He open the door and sees Taehyung and you laying together in the bed sleeping.

“I can’t believe this” he said to himself as he watched you together

Luke does truly love you.Seeing you do this to him makes him really sad.
He closed the door and went  home in anger and sadness.




“Wake up” you throw pillow at Taehyung smiling
“Nooo” he said trying to sleep more
“Wake up Tae!” you throw another pillow 

He smiled fixing his hair
“I wanna sleep more” he said
“But you need to wake up..Your phone was ringing like crazy” you said standing up
“Oh” he said putting his hand on his face
“Come on” you bit your lip smiling taking his hand sin your and made him stand up

Taehyung followed you downstairs to the kitchen.
“What do you want to eat?” you said looking at him
“Right now I am in a mood for pancakes with cream” Taehyung smiled
“Okay…So pancakes!” you waved your hands in the air 

You were making pancakes and Taehyung was checking his phone.
“Yeah..Okay..I know” he spoke over the phone
You watched him go back and forth around the kitchen..
“Don’t be stupid!” he shouted laughing

You finished with pancakes and put them on the table.
“I gotta go now…See you later” Taehyung hangs up and goes to the fridge
“You didn’t get the cream out?” he asked
“No,just the orange juice” you said pouring juice in the glasses

Taehyung got the creme out and looked at you.He looks at the creme then at you again.
He smiled and puts some cream on his hand,without you noticing.
“Pancakes smell soo good!” he said coming next to you
“I knooow” you looked at him with a smile
“LOOK Y/N!” he points trought the window
“Wha-” you started and you feel Taehyung putting cream all over your cheek
You laughed licking your lips
“No..You just didn’t do this” you said taking off the cream
“Oh yes I did” Taehyung was laughing

You laugh and take some cream off your cheek and look at Taehyung
“Y/N…Heeeey…We can talk,you know what I am saying” he was laughing stepping back slowly
“Oh we can talk?” you laughed coming closer to him
“Yeeah..You know…Forget about what happened and talk about something else” he laughed
“Naah” you said and start running after him

You two chased each other around your house.
“You’ll never get me aliveee!” Taehyung shouted running into your room and locking the door
You laughed and went to another room to hide and wait for him to come out.
Taehyung didn’t hear you so he slowly opens the door peeking
“Y/N?” he said still slowly looking around if you’re anywhere near

He smiled biting his lip and stepped out of your room.
“I WILL GET YOU!” you shouted adn Taehyung started to run downstairs
“Y/N PLEASEEE” he said and jumps on the couch covering his head
“Fine” you said
“I won’t do anything” you added looking at him
“You won’t?” he looks at you
“No…Let’s go eat those pancakes” you laugh and go to the kitchen and hide next to the door quickly
“Finally pancake-” he said and you put cream on his face and laugh
“PAYBACK!” you smiled and put your hands in the air
“Okay,okay” he said wiping off the cream and eating it

Both of you smiled at each other and ate your pancakes.





“I’ll see you” Taehyung said taking his jacket
“Byee Tae” you smiled and you two hugged each other and Taehyung went home.

You closed the fron door and smiled thinking how everything is perfect now with Taehyung.
“Oh God I am in loveee” you laugh and go to the living room

You take your phone and you got one message from Luke a while ago..
“Having fun with your other boy?” he said

Your heart started to beat faster,you felt nervous and not okay.Right away you wrote back saying
“What are you talking about?” hoping that he’s only joking with you
“I want to talk” he said
“When?”
“Tonight,at the park” 

You put your phone down,putting your hands on your head.
“Oh my God..He was here” you said
“He saw Tae and me” you added
“Shit,shit,shit” you said standing up

You bit your lip thinking about the situation.
But Taehyung and you didn’t do anything,just layed in bed next to each other.You won’t tell him that you kissed Taehyung few times already.
You need to but you can’t.
In a way you do love Luke,but also you feel like you are using him to just keep the pain away and try to feel some love again after when Taehyung and you broke the friendship.

“Oh God” you close your eyes 





“Y/N!” Taehyung said over the phone
“Yes?” 
“You will be in front row at the concert..I will give you the ticket when I see you again” he laughed a little
“Okay,cool…” you said
“Is something wrong?” he asked feeling like you’re not okay
“I…I’m going to meet Luke tonight” you sigh
“So?”
“I think he saw us in the bed laying next to each other and now he thinks I cheated on him”
“You did Y/N…” Taehyung said
“I know Taehyung,but” you sigh
“You love him?” he said taking a breath
“Well,yeah…“
“I..Gotta go Y/N..We need to go on a rehearsal” Taehyung closed his eyes
“Oh,okay…Bye Tae have fun at the rehearsal” you said
“Byee Y/N” he hangs up

Taehyung throws his phone and shouts in anger.
“How can you love him still!” he thought about you
“Why do you keep kissing me then?!” he was even more angry now

J-Hope camed in
“What is wrong did something happened?” he asked
“She happened!” Taehyung looks at him 
“Did you guys have a fight or-”
“NO we didn’t..But I feel like she’s using me” Taehyung cuts him off,pointing at himself
“Why would she use you Taehyung? I don’t think that is true” J-Hope looks at him
“But she..” Taehyung sits down 
“She still loves that guy” he added 
“Taehyung…Of course she’s gonna love her boyfriend” J-Hope laughed a little
“What should I do then? Stop doing what I am doing?”
“No don’t..I think you should just wait for a little bit till she understands what she really feels” 

Taehyung slowly nodded his head and looked down.J-Hope tapped his back.
“Don’t worry too much” he said and walked out of the room
Taehyung sighs and goes to the living room where the boys were..
He wanted to do something fun with them..Play video games or talk funny stories so he can get you off his mind for a little.




On other side you walked trough the park towards the place where you will meet Luke.You didn’t know what to feel at this moment..YOu didn’t know what will happen.

“Y/N” Luke called you and you walked over to him
“Hi Luke” you smiled but he still had a serious face..Your smile fades away and you both sit down.
“What do you want to talk about?” you asked
“You and your cheating on me” Luke looked at you
“Luke…No I didn’t cheat on you” you lied
“I saw Taehyung and you in a bed together!″ he shouted
“We were just laying next to each other! It didn’t mean a thing!” you said 
“You’re lying to me Y/N!” he shouted
“I am not..Luke pleasee don’t thinkk that! I would never do that to you” you looked at his eyes
“You don’t love me Y/N,you love him” Luke points
“I don’t Luke,I love you!” you lied again
“Please” you said

Luke looks around..Then looks at you
“Why was he there?” he asked

You couldn’t think of anything to say.You got really nervous.
“I..He was practicing whole night yesterday and he camed to my place because it was closest to his studio” you look at him
“You’re lying Y/N…He’s a star! He has drivers that can drive him to his place and to the studio” Luke said
“He was walking Luke..” you looked at him with a serious face
“Just trust me” you added
“STOP lying to me! I CAN’T trust you!” Luke shouted
“I am your girlf-”
“I DON’T CARE!” Luke shouted and looked at you 
You tear up and slap him across the face.
“I hate you” you said and ran away from him

Only place that you could go is Taehyung.You needed him to calm you down.
After 30 minutes of walking,you camed to his house and knock on the door..Jin opens it and sees tears in your eyes.
“Are you okay?” he asked letting you in
“I need Taehyung” you said looking down
“Okay…I’ll call him,stay here” Jin looked at you and ran to the room and told Taehyung you’re here.

Even tho Taehyung was mad at you a little..When he heard you’re crying,he needed to know what happened.
“Y/N” he said and rushed towards you and wrapped his arms around you
“I had a fight with Luke” you sobbed a little
“It’s gonna be okay…Just calm down” he said kissing your head
“Come with me” he said and took your hand in his and you two went to his room.

You sat down on the bed and Taehyung next to you.
“Luke and you will be fine Y/N” he held your hand
“He…Oh my God I hate him so much” 
“He’s an asshole who doesn’t deserve your love” Taehyung looked at you and you at him
“He is an asshole tho” you said and laughed a little
“See I can make you feel better in a second” Taehyung smiled kissing your head
“Because you know how to make me smile” you said putting your head on his shoulder
“Exactly”  Taehyung puts his arm around you and pulls you closer to him
“Thank you” you said 
“I am here for you Y/N” Taehyung hugged you
“I love you” you said

Taehyung sighs and right away he remembers what he has been thinking about the situation hours ago.
He moves away from you,you look at him with confused look.
“What’s wrong?” you asked
“Are you..Using me?” 
“Why would I use you Taehyung?” you were confused
“I mean..You say you love me…But you also love Luke” 
“Taehyung…” you said looking at him
“It’s just I am feeling like everything we do is lie,like that I am your side friend who you use” Taehyung got little angry
“No..I am not using you Taehyung please” you said standing up same as Taehyung
“Can you…Please leave me alone for tonight,I am not feeling well” he said looking down
“I…”
“Please” Taehyung looked at your eyes

You nodded your head and walked out of his bedroom.
“Y/N..Here is the ticket to the show! Can’t wait to see you there plus you will come backstage after the show” Jimin explains everything
“Oh thanks and okay..Can’t wait to see you guys!” you smiled 





You thought hard about everything.Taehyung is not telling the truth,you’re not using him.He’s your best friend,you can’t do that to him.
But one thing is true you love both of them.

Two days passed and you were getting ready for the BTS concert.
“Why can’t I gooo?” your sister was almost crying
“Because you don’t have a ticket to the show! I only have one and now get out of my room” you look at her
“Ughhh I hate youuuu!” she shouts and walks out

Only thing that was worrying you is that Taehyung and you haven’t spoke for those two days at all.
You don’t know what will happen behind the stage.





When you arrived there,again a lot fans were waiting in line..They were singing their songs,screaming…
When the show started you felt happy and excited to see them performing live.

To every song you were singing along and having fun.
At some time Jimin or one of the boys point at you with a smile and girls scream as they see that.
“You’re sooo lucky” a girl next to you smiled 
You just smiled at her and continued to be focused on the show.
Taehyung and you made contact few times..

“You guys are amazing!” Rap Monster shouts and all of you scream
“Thank you! See you soon!” Suga smiled and they go off stage

The place started to get empty and you stayed,one guy walks up to you and takes you to the back stage.
“Y/N!!!!” they all shouts in happiness
“YOU guys…DID AN AMAZING JOB!” you smiled and they all hug you except Taehyung.
“Was I amazing?” Jimin smiled
“Yeah you were” you tapped his back and smiled
“I know…” Jimin winks and takes a sip of his water

You look at Taehyung and he looks at you and licks his lips
“Come with me” he said and you nodded your head and followed Taehyung

You guys got away from the boys and sat down on some boxes.
“I’ve been thinking” Taehyung said taking a breath
“And I made a decision Y/N” he looked at you
“What decision?” you asked
“I’m sick of this I love him,I love you…Choose…Luke or me?” Taehyung looked at you and your heart stopped
“W-what?” you said being in shock


RUNNING OUT OF TIME

Sebastian Stan X Reader
Inspired by the song “Can’t stop drinking about you”- BeBe Rexha
Y/f/n- your friends name
Warnings: alcohol use, also language and depression, and attempted suicide. TRIGGER WARNING! PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVE HAD SERIOUS ISSUES WITH ANY OF THE ABOVE WARNINGS! I’m here for anyone who needs to talk to me!

The bright New York city lights are blinding as you stumble back to your apartment. For the past month and a half this has been your routine. Go to the bar, order the strongest drink they have, and get drunk off your ass, before stumbling your way home. You never planned on becoming this person. You thought that you had left the depression in the past, but obviously you were wrong. You were happy. Happy with your life, and happy with him. It had been the best two years with Sebastian, that is, up until about four months ago. You both started to grow distant, one work schedule always conflicting with the other. Before you knew it, you were fighting with him every night. And then one day it was over. He was gone, and that’s when you fell back down the rabbit hole. You’d told Sebastian about your past with depression, but you never really told him just how serious it was.

He had no clue of your downward spiral towards your own impending doom. One of his close friends told him that they saw you out walking around the city with a new guy, but that friend was mistaken. Sebastian thought you were happy. Even though he missed you and wanted you back, he didn’t want to ruin your new found happiness. So he kept it to himself. If only he knew what was happening to you.

You wake up to the sound of your phone vibrating. You sit up to answer it when you feel your head start to pound: hangover. The phone goes to voicemail before you have the chance to pick it up. “Y/n, I’m getting worried. I’ve called you four times now and you still haven’t picked up, and let me not forget to mention that you were photographed last night by the paparazzi! Call me as soon as you get this!” Your best friends voice comes through the little speaker of the phone, causing your head to pound even more. You decide to get up and get some asprin, before calling your friend back. She picks up after three rings and the loudness of her voice makes you cringe in pain. “THANK GOODNESS! I thought you had died or something! Why didn’t you answer?” “Hangover” you grumble, laying back against your soft feather pillow. “Well then,“ your friend says, “I’ll take it that you haven’t seen the cover of People Magazine?” You furrow your eyebrows in confusion, not remembering any photographers from the night before. When you don’t respond she continues talking. “Yeah, the cover says, "Sebastian’s girl going off the deep end?” and let me just tell you it’s not a very pretty picture. Y/n, what’s going on? This isn’t like you.“ The concern in her voice is completely obvious. "Come over. I’ll tell you everything.”

About 30 minutes later there’s a knock on the door. Already knowing who it is, you open it letting y/f/n inside. She wastes no time grabbing your hand in hers and pulling you over to the couch. She sits down next to you and turns, looking at you and waiting for you to speak. You close your eyes and take a deep breath. "When Sebastian and I ended our relationship it came back.” She nodded, knowing what you meant when you said “it.” She was with you through your first episode of depression and every episode after that. “He was always there for me when I started feeling down. He was my rock and now,” you say struggling to hold in your tears, the pain beginning to seep through the cracks in the inner wall you’d worked so hard to put up. “now he’s gone. I managed to push away the one person who was willing to put up with all of my shit. All of my flaws, my bad habits, my unstable emotions, he accepted all of them. He accepted all of me, and I pushed him away.” A few stray tears manage to slip out, cascading down your cheeks. Y/F/N pulls you into her side, cradling your head in her lap, shushing you as you begin to cry. “Hey, it’s going to be okay. I promise that I wont let you fall. I’m here and I’m not leaving until you’re better. Come on now,” Y/F/N says, “ sit up. How about this. You go take a shower, and get all of this makeup from last night off of your face, and I will pick some movies, go get some pizza from your favorite little restraunt and snacks from the store, and then set up the living room. s'that sound good?” Nodding, you stand and walk down the hallway to your bedroom. You hear the apartment door shut letting you know that your friend had left to get the food. After getting a t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants out of your dresser, you head into the bathroom shutting the door behind you.

You turn the shower on and sit on the bathroom floor with your back against the side of the bathtub as you wait for the water to heat up. Remembering what your friend had said earlier, you pull your phone out and go to the People’s Magazine website. When you see a photo of yourself pop up on the screen, you click on it and read the article. As you read, the blurry walk home starts to become clearer, and by the time you’ve reached the end of the article you remember almost all of what happened. At the bottom of the page there’s a video, and when you click on it you immediately regret it. "YN! Y/N! Where’s Sebastian?“ you hear one of the reporters call out to the drunken mess that was you on the small screen. Several other questions are being shouted at you as well, like "is it true Sebastian left you for Margarita?” or “is it true that you were pregnant with Sebastian’s child?” You see yourself trip, grabbing on to one of the men who was holding a camera in your face. You giggle drunkenly and tell the man sorry followed by an “oops. That was fucking weird!” Now that he had your attention, the reporter takes the opportunity to ask his questions. “Y/n, where's Sebastian? Why isn’t he with you? Are you still together?" You stop and wobble a little on your unsteady legs, before looking up and into the mans eyes. A drunken look of sadness appears on your flushed face, your makeup is smeared, and your eyes appear glossier than usual, while slurred mumbles leave your lips in an incoherent manner. "No,” video you says like a small child, “we aren’t together anymore.” The reporters get frantic at your revelation all shouting at you, wanting to know what happened. You responded to no one in particular, just letting word vomit escape your mouth. “We fought! I pushed him away. He was too good for me anyway. I really never understood why he chose me. I’m just a broken mess who destroys everything in its path. I’m glad he got out before I could destroy him too. He’s too good for me, and I was an idiot to ever believe that I could be fixed.” At that, you began stumbling away and the video ended. You lock your phone and stare blankly at the fogged up shower glass in front of you, praying that Sebastian hasn’t seen that video yet. Your mind goes into overdrive as you think about your secret being out there for the whole world to see, and judge. You think about the nasty comments that are probably blowing up your twitter and instagram feeds. Needing to prove yourself right you check your twitter and scroll through your mentions. After seeing things such as “if y/n is so depressed than she should just do all of us a favor and kill herself,” and several other hateful comments you decide that if that many people think that you should be dead than it must be true. You put your phone on the counter and put the plug in the drain of the bathtub, before filling it up and climbing in, preparing to end it all.

Unbeknownst to you, Sebastian has already seen the video several times, each time causing his heart to break a little bit more. He can’t stand the thought of you drinking your pain away, the pain that he caused you. He couldn’t take it anymore, so here he was in the backseat of a New York cab on his way to save you from yourself hoping that he’s not to late, but something in the back of his mind was telling him that he’s running out of time.


Should I write a part 2? Let me know what you guys think. (Sorry it’s such a grim story)