Anti is still on the brain, sorry xD Really wanted to try and animate glitches into my drawings. This October was the most fun I’ve had in a really long time and it was just an amazing experience that got me on the edge of my seat every time something new went online. So, thank you. :)
This is another small moment I really like. When Yuri makes a mistake, Victor reacts very negatively but then shakes himself and goes back to being stoic.
Considering Yuri had just earlier been very uncertain about his own performance and stated that he needed Victor to have faith him, to me what happened here is Victor telling himself a) to not show any outward negative body language to not impact Yuri should he glance Victor’s way and b) to have faith in Yuri and thus not act so pessimistic over one small mistake.
He paid attention to what Yuri needed and wanted, and adjusted to it.
Hold it! Before you get to my throat, I’ll explain why:
The scene in ep 1 where Yuuri cries alone in the toilet really got to me….because I could relate to it so well. The way he behaved like an emotionless robot when he was outside with Celestino, the way he made the fake voice while talking to his mother on the phone, and the most heartbreaking of all was when he cried…
Here are the things which struck me the most :
1) Yuuri’s own mother didn’t realize exactly how upset Yuuri was……this leads me to believe Yuuri never allows himself to cry even in front of his closest family and friends….Sure he whines when teased by others or cries when he gets physically hurt, but actual full blown crying just to let out his feelings? I don’t think he’s ever done that
2)Yuuri was trying to hold back his voice……as far as Yuuri knew, there was no one in the washroom, he could have been louder if he wanted to…but the way he choked back on his voice makes me feel this isn’t the first time he has cried like this….silently, so that no one knows. How many times must he have cried into his pillow? Just to muffle his voice and hide his tears?
Yuuri has subconsciously conditioned himself that crying in front of others is wrong, showing his vulnerability, even when with his own family , is wrong…….and now, even if he wants to cry his heart out to someone…….he won’t…no, he can’t
He just can’t bring himself to do it….
And I’m saying all this as a person who goes through the same thing……I’m starting to open up…..just a bit, enough to trust two friends to not look at me weirdly when I have a silent cry……but to this day I haven’t found someone I can trust myself to simply bawl my heart out to without being judged or being told ‘don’t be such a crybaby’ or ‘don’t cry over something so silly’
So just once….just once, I want Yuuri to cry.
I want him to stop holding up that dam he has built up over these years and just let his emotions out. And it doesn’t have to be over something great like losing a tournament……. it can be something as stupid as falling on the ice exhausted…..when he’s just practising, alone in the Hasetsu castle’s ice rink…
And when the dam does burst, I want Viktor to be there for Yuuri.
I want Yuuri to be able to break past his conditioning and trust Viktor enough to cry as loudly and messy as he wants to.
And I want Viktor to simply plop down on the ice next to Yuuri, give him a shoulder to cry on, to gently run his fingers through his hair and wait for Yuuri to calm down and just tell him,
#okay i’ve been trying to get this into words like #even looks really happy when sonja approaches him #and greets her enthusiastically but when she leans in for a kiss his face immediately fells #and i just really want to cry #a lot
What inspired you to get involved with The Ally Coalition?
I was aware of the work that these guys had being doing for a while and the other guys in the band weren’t in town initially so my friend Joey is going to play some cover song withs me. It seems like a really nice way to get a lot of people together and raise money for a thing that is really important, especially in the stressful political times in which we live.
Who has been an ally in your life?
In the kind of work that we do, you find who your friends are quite easily, and I’m lucky enough to have some long term friends from Home who are always ready to tell you when you’re being an asshole, and also always ready to tell you when someone else is being an asshole.
What’s a takeaway that you want people to have?
I think one of the most important things especially right now is that just because something doesn’t affect you directly doesn’t mean you don’t have to care about it, and more people talking about things and supporting each other is incredibly important and I think that something like this raises awareness and makes people hopefully feel less alone, but also hopefully galvanizes people to work together and make change.
So this is like one of my favorite moments in Fantastic Beasts–I know, it’s tiny! But hear me out:
What Newt does and says and his body language says so much!!!
First off, he, out of anyone in the world, knows fullwell that this isn’t a good place to release the Swooping Evil.
He spends all his time studying and working with animals that wizards don’t appreciate and couldn’t care for (and even want to kill), and he does this all alone because he doesn’t really fit in with people.
Then here comes Jacob, who knows like nothing! Newt has no problem just scooping him up and inviting him along, even though it’s illegal. And now, he finally has someone to show his lifelong passion to, who will find it interesting and wondrous, instead of unusual or weird.
You can tell by Newt’s body language in this scene, that he’s (very privately) been internally dying to show the Swooping Evil off to someone–though he would never voice or acknowledge that out loud (probably because of previous negative reactions). But you can tell, even just in this gif, that he’s daydreamed about it for weeks or months. His inner (perhaps childlike) self thinks this thing is sick!! And he’s been dying to share it!!
But Newt is not a boastful or loud person. He wouldn’t draw attention to that fact (he’s a Hufflepuff and also has been stigmatized in his society). No. But look at his body language–his back is to Jacob and he flings that beast out at him. It’s like he’s daydreamed about and yearned for this moment so much, he’s staged it!! That’s not the body language of someone who wants to gently show Jacob a Swooping Evil, that’s the body language of someone who thinks this thing is freaking sweet!! And has been internally, perhaps subconsciously dying to show it off. And if you don’t believe me, look close and you can see that tiny little smile/smirk he’s sort of hiding from Jacob.
Newt totally eats this thing up, but it’s like he doesn’t want anyone to know just how much so.
And then he says (sort of trying to hide his smile), “Probably shouldn’t let it loose in here.” When he knows full well he shouldn’t have, but he just feels the need to say that to downplay the reality that he just really wanted to share this thing with someone. Because to be so openly passionate about it is too much of a risk, too vulnerable, because of past rejections. No, he needs to almost play dumb so he takes 0 risks at being made fun of for loving this–even with Jacob, who is his best bet who won’t make fun of him (because he doesn’t know better)
The subtext is this like three-second moment kills me with it’s perfection. It’s freaking brilliant.
P: (…) I also want to channel my creative energies into something, I’ve been writing down loads of ideas and I’ve got a load of ideas for some kind of creative project, I just don’t know how to make it yet. That’s really vague ‘cause I don’t even really know what it is yet, but there is something brewing in my brain which i’d like to do.