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Damn, I miss you.

Imagine where Sammy and yn are married with kids but then they get into an argument over something and Sammy says he wants a divorce but yn gets really upset over that bc she moved to LA to be with him in the first place, but then Sammy eventually apologises and says he doesn’t really want a divorce. Sorry that this is long and probably confusing! Love your blog! 💕

(Sammy’s pov)
I’m at home with the kids at the moment while waiting for Y/N to come home. “No ughh Cam please stop hitting your sister with the toy train” I say pulling apart the two kids “Daddddddy where’s mommy? I want her homeeeeee!!” My daughter Avery yells stomping and my son Cam adds on “Yea where’s mommy?”. I pick Avery up and sit her on the couch while Cam jumps on himself. “*sigh* she’ll be home soon ok guys? Mommy just has to wor-” I pause as I hear the door knob jiggling and the kids jumping off the couch running to the door as Y/N walks in. “MOMMY!!” They both yell hugging her legs. “Aww Avie and Cammy I missed you guys! How are my munchkins?” She says taking off her shoes and jacket but then bending down to their level to greet them. “Not good” Cam says pouting “aw why is that?” She asks. “Because you’re never here” I say intervening. She looks at me and gets back up then looks down at the kids. “Babies why don’t you guys go to bed so tomorrow we can go to the park” She says “Ohhh mommy can I get Ice cream?!” “Ohhh I want to go out for ice cream too!” The kids say. “Ok we will get you both your favorite ice creams, how about that?” She says. “YAAAAAYYYYYYYY” they scream running to their bedroom. She watches them run off and then looks at me smiles and walks up to me putting her arms around my neck. I wrap my arms around her waist and nuzzle my head in the crook of her neck. I then say “mmmm I miss you” “Sammy I’m right here what do you mean?” She says. I remove my head from her neck and say “you’re never home, you always come home so late we never spend time together anymore” “baby I’m sorry you know I actually work unlike some people” she says sitting on the couch as do I. “What’s that supposed to mean?” I ask “well Sam let’s just say I have an actual job and that’s why I have no time on my hands” she says standing up walking to the kitchen. “Y/N I do have an actual job if you’ve forgotten I get stacks everyday” I say following her. She grabs a water from the fridge taking a sip then says “ohhh because social medias sooooo hard” “what the fuck is your problem?! At least I’m getting paid!” I say raising my voice “yea well you can’t be nagging on me for not being here WHEN YOU KNOW I WORK” she says raising her voice also “IM SORRY?! YOU KNOW I DIDN’T MARRY YOU JUST TO NOT SEE YOU EVEN MORE THAN WHEN WE WERE DATING ALL IM ASKING FOR IS JUST A COUPLE OF DAYS OR EVEN HOURS JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU!” She then slams her water down and says “SAM I WORK IN A HOSPITAL!! PEOPLES LIVES CANT BE PUT ON HOLD JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT TO CUDDLE!” “ARE YOU SAYING IM NOT IMPORTANT?!” I yell getting in her face. “NO IM SAYING THAT SOMEONES LIFE IS IMPORTANT SAM” she says “WELL SOMETIMES YOUR HOURS DONT ADD UP Y/N!” I say “WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!” She yells infuriated “YOURE SUPPOSED TO BE HOME AT 9:00pm AND SOME NIGHTS LIKE TONIGHT YOU GET HOME AT 10:30pm!” “SAM I WORK IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM SOMETIMES I WORK OVER TIME BECAUSE INJURED PEOPLE NEED ME THERE LONGER THAN MY SHIFT! HOW COULD YOU EVEN QUESTION IF IM AT WORK?!” she screams “BECAUSE YOU START WORK AT 3:00pm AND END AT 9:00pm EVEN BEFORE THOSE HOURS YOURE NEVER HOME!!” I yell “BECAUSE I RUN ERRANDS FOR THE HOUSE! I HANG OUT WITH MY KIDS AND FRANKLY I CARE ABOUT THEM A LOT TO THE POINT WHERE ID SPEND ALL MY FREE TIME WITH THEM!” “OH SO NOW YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME?!” I yell offended. She then says “NO IM SAYING MAYBE ID LIKE IT IF I HAD A GUY WHO UNDERSTOOD WHAT I GO THROUGH AND DO FOR A LIVING!” I then feel so offended that without even thinking I say “OH YEA WELL MAYBE ID LIKE IT IF WE GOT A DIVORCE!” She backs up stunned. Before she could respond I hear a small voice coming from the hall across the room.
(Y/N pov)
“OH YEA WELL MAYBE ID LIKE IT IF WE GOT A DIVORCE!” Sammy yells. I back up shocked. A divorce? Before I could say anything back we hear a small voice coming from the hall across the room, our heads immediately turn to see the kids hugging each other in fright “Daddy please stop yelling at mommy.” Cam says “why don’t you love mommy?” Avery asks. Sammy walks over to the kids and crouches down to talk to them. “No babies I do love mommy so so much” he whispers to them but loud enough so I hear “then why are you yelling at her?” Avery asks. Before he could say anything I walk up to them while Sam looks at me then walks away to the bathroom. Once I hear the door shut I say “Um Cameron, Avery?” “Yes mommy?” They say hugging my legs “let’s go get you guys dressed we’re leaving for a little while” “REALLY?! WHERE ARE WE GOING MOMMY?!” They ask excited “to a nice hotel” I say “YAAAAYYYYYYY!” They yell running to their room. I follow them to help them get dressed.
I’m finish dressing Cam and I’m almost done with Avery, at the moment I’m tying her shoes. I finish then start packing about a weeks worth of their clothes. Once I’m done I run to my room and grab my already packed suitcase I have just in case something like this were to happen, right when I’m about to leave my and Sams room, Sam walks in the room. “What are you doing?” He asks sniffling as if he’s been crying. I look in his eyes to see that they’re really red and his face is a bit puffy, before I accidentally forget everything and comfort him out of instinct I roll my suitcase past him going to the kids who are in the living room waiting sitting on the couch. I take the kids hands walking to the door to get my shoes and jacket on. Sam follows. “Y/N answer me where are you going?” Sam asks his voice cracking. I slip on my shoes and put my jacket on then say “Sam we’re going to a hotel so I can have time to think and so can you.” I say grabbing my car keys opening the door and walking out with the kids “You can’t just take my kids away from me” Sam says coming to the door “Oh yea well you can’t just tell me you want a divorce!” I yell my voice cracking and I slam the door. The kids and I start walking down to the car then Avery says “why isn’t daddy coming?” “I don’t want daddy to come” I say unlocking the car putting them both Inside making sure they buckle up. “Why not?” Cam says I shut the back door and go to the drivers seat getting in. I start the car and buckle up. I look at the kids and say “because daddy and I need some time apart just for a little while and-” I’m cut off by a knock on my window.
(Sammy’s pov)
“Oh yea well you can’t just tell me you want a divorce!” Y/N yells and slams the door. “*sigh* GODDAMNIT!” I yell punching the wall repeatedly. “FUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKK” I say running my fingers through my hair pulling it slightly. I check through the window to see if Y/N and the kids have left, to my surprise they’re still here. I take this chance to run out the door not thinking about a jacket or even shoes and run to the car and knock on Y/N’s window. I see her turn around slowly then roll it down. “Yes sir? May I help you?” She asks “Oh come on Y/N please just come out here and talk to me , two minutes that’s all I need” I plead. She rolls up the window and I put my head down turning around, I start to walk back to the front door. Just when I think it’s all over I hear the car door open and close. I turn around quickly to see her leaning against the car looking at her watch “one minute and 45 seconds…..” I quickly walk up closer to her and start. “Y/N I’m sososososososo sorry for offending you in anyway but you can’t blame me for missing you” she then says “Sam you can’t just tell me you want a divorce, that’s insane! If we were to break up where would I go?! I have no one here besides you! I created a life here in LA for you! I don’t even know my way to fucking LAX by heart so how would I even go back ACROSS COUNTRY to my family. And yes I get that there is Über and shit but that’s not the point! The point is I’m in California for you! And even the thought of leaving you breaks my heart.” I then say “baby I’m sorry! You can’t get mad at me for missing the love of my life! It’s like you’re everywhere BUT with me! And I know I may seem selfish… Goddamnit I am selfish for you!!” I raise my voice a bit and continue “And- and I’m not fucking mad about it! I wanna spend every day you have off together and all your free hours should be with me and do all these things like when we first met like roller skating and bowling and going to Disney!” I then start getting so into my speech I start pacing and doing random hand gestures while I continue “when we were dating you barley had time for me and I understood that because you were in college pursuing your dreams. And now that you made your dreams come true and have your dream job we still never have time for each other! I thought marrying you would make it even better than it was! And it’s just like uggghhhhhhhh I wanna write ‘I miss you’ on a rock and throw it at your face so you can feel how much missing you hurts” she then chuckles and smiles. “Wow Sam you’ve really-” I cut her off “Missed you? Yea I have” she then engulfs me in and hug. I sigh in relief and we just stand there for a while, enjoying each others presence. She then pulls away and takes the keys out the car locking the door and we start to walk inside. Then she says “you know Mr.Wilkinson I’m gonna request to change my hours to something like 9:00pm-4:00am so we can spend more time together.” “Oh really Mrs.Wilkinson? I’d love that” she smiles and we walk in the house. She takes her shoes off and sits on the couch.
(Y/N pov)
“Hey did I forget anything?” I ask sam who’s grabbing a water from the fridge then he freezes. “Oh my god. THE KIDS!” We both yell. I grab the car keys and run outside as Sammy follows behind. I unlock the door and open the back seat to see both Cam and Avery sound asleep. I let out a long sigh “thank god” I say grabbing Avery and Sam gets Cam and all the bags of clothes I packed. I shut and lock the car doors and we start walking back to the house “well at least they’re asleep” sam says snickering “oh my god Sam shut up we are horrible parents” I say sort of laughing as we walk back inside and put the kids to bed. Once we finish and get to our room I quickly change and hop in bed as does Sam. We cuddle up and he then says “I’m surprised they didn’t wake up” he laughs. I stay silent, I then say “Sammy you know I love you right?” “Of course I do baby and I love you too” he says. I then add on “and I hope you know I’m just busy and would love to hang out more and I probably miss you just as much as you miss me” “maybe a little less” he says “haha ok maybe a little less” I say. He kisses my cheek “goodnight baby” “goodnight”.

Okay sorry to interrupt your blogging it's time for me to get emotional

I apologize in advance for my English or my lack of sense but it’s 1am and I have come across the pictures from Zoe’s book launch party and I just got a bit emotional and I just wanted to write down my feelings.

Zoe has been my role model for over 2 years now but that we already know so let me jump to the important part. I just realized how great Zoe actually is. Like don’t get me wrong she’s always been one of my favorite people ever but let me explain. I am growing up and maturing reading Zoe’s blog and watching her videos and I can’t tell how much it’s changed my life. Honestly 2 years ago I wouldn’t expect to be who I am today and I’m really proud and it’s part thanks to Zoe. A girl who started writing her opinions on fashion on a blog and started filming videos in her little bedroom IS NOW RELEASING A BOOK. Like Zoe isn’t just a role model, she’s real life proof that if you fight for what you love, you can achieve ANYTHING. All you have to do is put your heart into it. In a space of two years she has interviewed one of her favorite bands, done loads of shoots for important magazines, had her own beauty line, and now a book I don’t even know what to say anymore I’m just so happy because I LOVE ZOE SO MUCH AND IT JUST MAKES ME EXTREMELY HAPPY THAT ALL HER DREAMS ARE COMING TRUE AND I JUST WANT TO HUG HER