You know what ? I’m not just happy Yuuri and Viktor kissed.
I’m happy it happened in nice conditions. Like I knew they kissed before watching the episode. But I was afraid it would happen just as a “cheering measure” from Viktor. And it wouldn’t be the same. Like when he was like “should I kiss you ?” I was hoping it wouldn’t be here.
But no. They actually talked. Sure, the way Viktor is like “I don’t know what to do when someone cry / should I kiss you or something ?” may look a bit cold. But to me it’s really because he doesn’t know how to comfort him, especially that he felt he already did a lot. He’s a bit overwhelmed himself by the situation, awkward, and hitting his limit as an unexperimented coach.
But he didn’t forcefully kissed Yuuri. He suggested it more as a “what should I do ?” and he actually voiced it in front of Yuuri. Consequence ? Yuuri told him. Yuuri voiced his insecurities, the reason of his anxiety, and what he expected from Viktor. He called him on the bad stuff he was starting to do, telling him when he was wrong to do so. It’s communication and it’s so important.
I thought it was so important that the kiss happened after Yuuri’s program because :
- It was a true moment of happiness, an impulsive act, but not in the “it was just an impulse it won’t happen again” but a “I’m so so happy for you you’re awesome I just can’t hold it anymore”. It was so genuine and happy, it was healthy. Healthier than just a “cheering measure”.
- Yuuri finally put himself at Viktor’s level. He stopped idealizing him, realizing he also had his limits. He realized Viktor had his limits, that he wasn’t all perfect, especially on the coach side. And he put himself at his level by performing his signature jump. He reached to Viktor as he fully realized this “god” he saw before really was just human, a human he adores and love, and that he is able to equal and surpass too. Not just in a “I’m better than you” but a “I’m worthy of you and you are worthy of me”. They’re on the same level, and to me, that the kiss happened after that was important. Because at that moment their relationship is really balanced.
- Also the head poking. It was important it was before too. It showed how if Viktor can tease Yuuri, Yuuri doesn’t feel bad for teasing Viktor too. Like the first time he was all panicked apologizing ?? Here he does it willingly just as a bit “you tried to mess with me ? See, I’ll mess with you” but in the most innocent way ? It’s complicity here and I LOVE it.
I should be working and not writing meta on yuri on ice.