i just made them all black and white

wicked in her veins.

pairing: jimin x reader

genre: fluff, minor hints of sexual tension / demon!jimin

word count: 1,460

prompt: Getting to dress your demon boyfriend up for Halloween

note: october prompts masterlist

“Hell no. Not happening — fucking ever. Not in your wildest dreams, princess.”

His response was immediate as you made your way down the hallway with the costume in hand. The look on his face as he realized the certain… entity that you were holding was beyond priceless. It was of course the exact reaction that you had been expecting. His brows furrowed while his top lip curled in disgust, the physically aversive response to something as simple as a Halloween costume only causing your amusement to run thicker. No, not even your boyfriend’s harsh refusal could deter your mood, or your powers of persuasion for that matter.

“Oh, is that so?” You replied to Jimin, your brow arched in a way that told him how so far from over this conversation was. “I seem to remember that a certain someone lost a bet to me a few weeks ago? Remember that game of poker? The deal was—”

“—This is what you want to use your win from that on? Baby, c’mon anything else. You’re not this evil, I know you aren’t… Are you?” He was pleading a little, his bottom lip jutting out to try and tug at your heartstrings. Admittedly you felt a tiny pull, but it was quickly overtaken by the image of Jimin wearing the costume that was still dangling from the hanger in your hand.

Your mouth curved into a sultry smile as you made your way closer to him. He was sitting down on the living room couch, a look of despair flooding his eyes as he realized that there was no way in hell that you were backing down from this. You sat the costume onto the open space next to Jimin, his reaction a harsh flare of his nose. However, the tension soon dropped as you went to straddle his lap, your hands swiftly moving to take their place on either side of his face.

“You know, I really thought that a demon would be a lot better at a game all about lying and deceit.”

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dear //the signs//,

dear //aries//: why do you move so fast? you’re so caught up in yourself you’re missing what’s around you, slow down and look around. one day you’re going to be old and on your death bed unable to breathe, not because your lungs are failing, but because you regret taking everything for granted. stop thinking about yourself and being so impatient. things don’t grow under stress, they die. 

dear //taurus//: you cant buy your own happiness. sure, it makes you feel better but it doesn’t fill the emptiness in your chest. stop expecting everything to happen for you, being lazy isn’t going to get you anywhere and sure isn’t going to help the situation. fixing the problem isn’t losing the fight, it’s putting everything else beside and showing you have a heart of gold you didn’t need your money to buy. 

dear //gemini//: using people’s weaknesses against them and using your underhand tactics isn’t winning. you’re so superficial you come off shallow, you need to let people in, just like how they let you in. but doing what you’re doing isn’t going to get you there. you cant expect everything and give nothing in return. telling someone your favourite colour isn’t going to kill you, let them in even in the smallest ways. if you don’t you’re gonna end up alone, and no one is going to care. not everyone is going to hurt you.

dear //cancer//: feeling sorry for yourself isn’t going to make it better. not everything is intended to hurt you and making it a big deal is going to cause unnecessary problems. you can be oversensitive but that doesn’t mean your feelings are invalid, it’s just that person didn’t mean to insult you, it was only a joke so instead of pouting, laugh along and maybe everything will stop being so hurtful and you can see the world isn’t revolving around you, you can hopefully see how beautiful it all is.

dear //leo//: not everything about you has to be a grand gesture or so goddamn pretentious. we already know how much you’re worth and so many people already want a piece of you. you’re giving it to them so much, you’re changing yourself to be the most known person in the room. you’re better as your true self. if you show too much, people are gonna see the gold in you and try to steal it. being the talk of everyone comes with just as many insults as it does compliments. you don’t need to do all that shit to be noticed.

dear //virgo//: being fussy over what you want and then being cold once it’s been given to you isn’t okay. people try hard to please you and its so hard for them. they’re just trying, why cant you see that? why does everything have to be so perfect for you? people don’t try forever, and i know you’re inflexible from changing your opinion, but you cant keep this going. being so cold. people are going to leave and not even your bed is going to be warm anymore.

dear //libra//: changing your mind at the last minute all the time is going to get you left out of plans and events. you’re unreliable and indecisive. the weight on your back from the foundations you built are going to crack if you cant keep your mind on one thing and you keep going along with different ideas. i know you just wanna follow all the paths your mind makes, but if you do that, your towers are going crumble and you’re going to be sitting on the rocks alone rather than in skyscrapers with your friends. you can’t keep rebuilding forever, make up your mind.

dear //scorpio//: why couldn’t you see they loved you and only you? why did you have to trick them into something they already were doing? they weren’t going anywhere, they didn’t want to. keeping them locked up like a possession is only going to make them want to be further away. you have to start trusting them. they only ever wanted you to do that, why couldn’t you? the saying “if you love them let them go” doesn’t always mean break it off with them, it can mean don’t watch their every move and let them have some freedom. trust. them. before you lose them completely.

dear //sagittarius//: people can’t assume what you’re feeling. being unemotional is only going to make people leave. warmth is physical love and if you’re cold everyone isn’t going to give you the love you need, you need to give it back. it isn’t philosophical to be so unresponsive to emotions. you cant keep this up forever, your walls will break and no one is going to be around to pick up the pieces because you would’ve made them all leave. they just wanted to know how you were doing.

dear //capricorn//:  talking to you is like talking to a brick wall, you’re living in a black and white world with your lacking of imagination. people wanna live in colour, it isn’t the 1970′s anymore. bossing people around isn’t going to get them to listen. don’t be proud of making everyone listen to you. that’s how uprisings happen. listen to what people have to say, let them inspire the ideas i know you have in your mind somewhere. if you don’t change, your empire is going to fall and all your friends are going to be the one’s knocking down the door.

dear //aquarius//:  being so far away from everyone on earth isn’t going to get you any closer to the aliens that might not even be out there. you don’t need to hide your emotions to come off cool and distant, if anything they’re just making you seem unwilling to show affection or establish connections with anybody. i know you like to be alone, but sooner or later you’re just going to be lonely. and when you come back down from the atmosphere, no one’s going to be around for you to call home.

dear //pisces//: feeling sorry for yourself isn’t going to make everyone else around you do the same. you cant escape all your problems by hiding the truth or playing innocent. you need to face what you’ve done and stop acting like everyone else is in the wrong. people aren’t gonna feel sorry for you anymore if you’re so self-pitying, you already do that enough and people are going to grow tired.


**check your moon as well**

anonymous asked:

Sorry I know that you are busy but how do you think about James and Lena dating?

Hey there! No need to apologize, I’m always happy to answer questions.

I actually spoke to a mutual about this earlier today, so I’m essentially just going to break down the same points I made with her.


First off, based on what we know, I don’t like it. And before people check my URL and bio and shell out the accusations, no it’s not because I’m all “🚨👏🚨👏🚨👏BUT SUPERCORP IS ENDGAME!!11!!! RIP!!! FIGHT ME!!!🚨👏🚨👏🚨👏” So miss me with that. No, I’m gonna be objective and critical about this, and also throw in my opinion. Keep in mind, that yes, some of these points are quite critical to James as a character in certain situations. But only because, realistically, these arguments all point to why a romance is probably not a good idea. -Deep breath-I hope they don’t do it and here is why:

James vs. Kara & Lena 

1) Last season Kara and James spent a decent amount of time being at odds. Because of Guardian, because of him being childishly jealous that SG got more love and appreciation than Guardian, and because of the fact that James spent a healthy amount of time talking trash about Lena. He hadn’t even met her and that’s all he could do – judge her because of her name, condemn her to being just like her brother (”They grew up in the same house!”), and talk crap/whine. Now yes, this is how James is. Things are usually black and white with him – but that only furthers the point that throwing them into a relationship doesn’t make much sense.

2) When Kara made the valid point of saying all Lena has done is help, the incredulous look she got from James was very telling. Even when Kara showed that she trusted Lena in Luthors, James whined and made it about him, “I don’t understand why you keep defending her!”

Relevance? He literally tried to wedge himself between a strong, healthy, female friendship because of his hurt feelings, bruised ego, and prejudice. Who does that? Not impressed, James. Earlier, in that same episode, Kara set out and did everything she could to try and convince her friends and prove Lena’s innocence. But…

James puts himself in harms way in order to prove she’s guilty? Even after acknowledging that she was Kara’s friend. That isn’t something a hero or a friend does and was entirely out of spite. Again, not impressive, Mr. Olsen.

Cliche! Cliche!! Cliche!!! 

3) So due to those two points alone, the idea of throwing them together (for what reason??) is a bit ridiculous. If you stand back and take a look at it, all it does is recycle a bit of the K*ramel romance pattern: Throwing your prejudice to the wind and turning it into romance. In general, there is nothing wrong with that sentiment, but again, it’s recycled and therefore tired in the SG universe. Doing it in back to back seasons is lazy. Forcing and rushing the romance, is equally so.

4) Again, for what reason would this romance happen? Other than the writers’ need to seemingly pair up every character with someone, anyone? The idea of James being so venomous and childish when it comes to Lena in S2, only for him to take a bullet for her in S3, which leads me to the speculation that the writers (due to their lack of creativity and innovation) will start out the romance this way, is once again, lazy and predictable. It turns James into a self-sacrificing love interest cliche and it turns Lena into the fawning damsel love interest – the “My hero!” cliche. It ‘dumbs them down.’

This, on top of the sentiment mentioned in point 3 just turns their whole romance (or at least the beginning of it) into a walking cliche. Because clearly we need more…😴🙄

James, Who?🤔

5) James had very little development last season, despite the Guardian arc. A lot of people became pretty bored with him because of that or just ended up with a sour taste in their mouth because of how things changed from the point of him pressuring Kara to tell Lucy she’s Supergirl to the point of him being jealous because of Supergirl’s hero worship. Everyone has their own reasons for liking, loving, disliking, or just being indifferent to James. Nothing wrong with that. But the fact remains, his character was sadly underutilized in S2. So at this point, they need something (or apparently, someone) to make him more relevant again. The idea of using Lena to do this is kind of gross. Where am I getting that thought?

That first little spoiler kinda points that out. Because let’s face it… there is nothing “amazing” about him doing essentially the same stuff he was doing in S2 (being Guardian and being James at Cat Co). So that line of ‘teasing’ is a bit transparent. In order to develop him further and better, let’s try to make it more interesting than using a romantic subplot, shall we?

Lena Would Never…

6) OOC Lena, much? We already know Lena is feeling guilty for building the device that caused Mon-El to forcibly leave Earth, thus leave Kara. Thanks to Katie, we also know that Lena will be putting forth a strong effort to remedy this and keep their friendship going strong. So in what universe in attempting to do this, would Lena also think it’s a good idea to date Kara’s ex? The Lena we have so far wouldn’t do that at all.

Do It Better! 😡

7) Concurrently, let’s not turn Lena into a plot device to serve a male character’s desperate need for development, yeah? If they can’t find a way to bring Lena into the Super Friends other than her A) Being Kara’s best friend B) Doing everything she has done thus far, that’s a gross injustice to Lena as a character and kind of, for lack of better phrasing, shits on Kara too. Kara fought for Lena all of S2, and yet everyone still doubted her.

So to those saying that this is a good way to introduce Lena to the Super Friends, no. Think of this – the idea essentially being:

“Oh, Lena can’t be that bad. Look James is dating her! Kara must have been right!” Forget about her friendship with Kara, forget about her doing what she can to make National City better simply because she feels it’s her duty to do so, forget about her building rapport with Winn, forget about her saving the lives of thousands of aliens, forget about her taking a role in attempting to take down a terrorist organization (despite the fact that it is run by her mother), forget about her playing an incredibly strong role in pushing back the invasion. Forget all of that. Forget all of the good she did on her own. Let’s give her a chance because James is dating her all of a sudden. Bad. Bad. No. Stop.

In a Nutshell…

It’s wrong. Yet, the writers have not placed themselves above that kind of character injustice and complete lack of sensibility. So I wouldn’t be shocked, just disappointed if they prove me right (and I like being right most of the time!). I think it could be great for them to start off/remain as friends. Lena could definitely use more of those!

And yes, people can have changes of mind and heart, which is great. But there is a need for that before anything romantic happens. It shouldn’t be simultaneous. It’s bad writing. James needs to step off his high horse when it comes to Lena, and Lena needs to personally address her need for validation. But having James do a total 180 and using Lena to further his development while forcing Lena to continue to seek that validation and prove herself to the one person in the show that has shown her the harshest judgment, pushing them together in a short amount of time is something I really do not want to see.

The N word...

Let me just say this and then I’ll go back to that blog that just reblogs other people’s shit.

The excuse “Well nobody should say it. Not even THEM (black people)” that nonblacks use against the N word is well played out.

Black people reclaimed this slur. Like men calling females bitches and hoes, women began calling their friends the same. “I’m going out with my bitches”. We claimed that shit and put a more positive stigma on it. You can’t be mad at us for that. If I want to chill with my niggas, I will. Cuz that’s my nigga.

Now if I were an internalized racist and were to call other black people the N word negatively it’s a problem, but me referring to family or close ones this way isn’t an issue unless they don’t want me to (bc some black people don’t like it at all).

But don’t tell a black person “Yeah I know my ancestors called you that while they were beating, raping, enslaving, hanging, lynching and murdering your ancestors while they thought of them as property. I know racist people this day still call you that too. And you made it more positive. But I feel like if I can’t say it, Nobody should say it because somehow it offends me too”. The statement is invalid as fuck. And if you use this when I ask you not to say the word around me or at all, you might get socked.

AISHA DEE GIF PACK

Under the cut you’ll find roughly 113(132 counting lighted gifs idk how that happened but okay) gifs of the beautiful Aisha Dee as Kennedy in Sweet/Vicious season 1 episode 1 “The Blueprint”. Dee is an actress known for her roles as Desi Biggins on The Saddle Club, Mackenzie Miller in I Hate My Teenage Daughter and she also appeared in Chasing Life as Elizabeth “Beth”  and Baby Daddy as Olivia. She is also a musician, in her own band called Dee Dee & the Beagles. Ethnically, she is of Black (unspecified) and White (also unspecified) descent, so please cast her accordingly. The gifs are all small/medium, textless, and mostly hq. Any repeats were to just make her face bigger or to lighten the scene in case some thought it to be too dark. I made all of these gifs so credit to me and please if you decide to steal them or edit them in some way, although I’d like so say don’t do it (but some of y’all won’t listen) at least please give me some sort of credit. Please like or reblog if you plan on using. Thank you! 1/?

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7.27.17 // 1:30pm // beginner’s adobe illustrator pt 1

hey friends! as you might have noticed, i’ve gotten really into adobe illustrator (ai) recently and i wanted to share some of my newfound knowledge with you. i literally had no exposure to anything like photoshop or ai until about 3 weeks ago so here’s a guide for beginners written by a beginner! (this is also partially a compilation of things i wish i knew when i started) xoxo, m

ok this is super long so if you’re interested, the tips are under the cut!

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I think back to when i was a practicing muslim and find it really sad and frustrating how many times i got down on my knees to pray, bow and grovel to a god that I feel shows no respect towards me or women.

A god i covered my body for, a god i would starve myself for, a god who taught me my virginity is one of the most important things I can give a man, a god that allows men more freedom than women, a god that tried to teach me to be homophobic and ignorant, a god that allowed mass genocide in order to spread religion, a god that expects constant forgiveness for sins I haven’t even committed, a god that speaks with so much hypocrisy saying ‘you be to your religion and i’ll be to mine’ when he clearly states non believers and apostates will go to hell, a god that believes apostates deserve murder, a god that allows and encourages stoning, chopping off hands, murder and violence, a god that cares little about the age of young girls being made wives, a god that values a women’s innocence more than he wants to protect it. 

I could go on… I think about all these things and I think about how my family would disown and treat me if they knew I didn’t follow Islam anymore. Just knowing the god I see through my eyes is more important to them than me, their flesh and blood is really hard. It doesn’t have to be so black and white but that’s how Islam is, if you leave islam you’re treated like scum. If you’re a non believer you’re going to hell. If you speak out about any injustices and abuse you’ve experienced at the hands of Islam you’re automatically ‘islamophobic’.

It makes me really angry when people call it a “religion of peace” because I’ve never experienced that in my life.

Humanity before religion.

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jensoo (matching or not) layouts <3

i think all the headers are interchangeable but i put the ones who match the most under the icons i think it would look better with them :] plain headers would als look nice~if you’re looking for colours, i suggest  #ff9999,  #ffbf80,  #ff704d,  #ffe6b3 or just plain white (maybe black for jisoo’s icon..?)

disclaimer: icons were made by me but the headers weren’t so credits to those who should be credited. unfortunately i do not remember the orginal source so if you happen to know, please let me know so i can add it to this post :] if you happen to be one of them and don’t want me to repost your work, just tell me and i’ll remove it from the post

hope you all find the jisoo/jennie to your jennie/jisoo <3


(as of credits, just like this post!)

anonymous asked:

do you have any tips for learning to stylise animals? I have a habit of drawing them too realistically, and want to learn to style them more simple & effectively. Yours are awesome so I thought I'd ask the best :')

I took half an hour aside to hopefully make something which might help you (or might confuse you further) .

Alright, so you need to start thinking of animals as shapes, and not so much as animals. Here’s a bog-standard but ugly as ass pony for you.

You need to start seeing this pony as this. Mr Pons is showing his main shapes. His head is circles and connecting lines. Every part of him needs to be some sort of polygon which you can envision with your head.

All of those shapes can be pulled or pushed to make something new. I took our ugly ass Mr Pons and made him into some hunky warrior horse. So you’re wondering, what the hell Velle, how the heck did you get him there. Well, his shapes are still the same.

I just made them larger and pulled those lines out. Every straight line that connects the dots can be bent, every shape can be pulled, misshapen or distorted. You can also squash elements. As you can see, I moved his legs up, I gave him shorter limbs. Shorter and stockier can mean stronger which is what I was aiming for.

Alternatively we could pinch those lines in and make a pretty weak looking animal. I mean look, he has basically no ass. This is kind of where your foundations in anatomy start to play a major role, even though I pinched this animal a lot you can still look at it and think “That’s a horse.” His neck is still long, his withers are still prominent, it still holds himself with a good posture.

Anyway, moving on… I find the best way to get a good but unique sort of characterisation of a animal is to pull, push, bend and pinch. I will distort each part. This horse is a combination of strong characteristics, and weaker characteristics. He is pretty balanced, but he ended up as strong horse who might have some speed which his light limbs. I want a fellow like this one to pull me in a carriage as I drink Champagne or some fizz or something.

Another good way to characterise an animal is to exaggerate areas which stands out to you. So this is a quick sketch of my cat Winnie who is currently asleep next to me. She’s a pretty standard looking cat to most people.

Working on that image I made something which is more of a play on how I like to describe her to other people. When I describe her to other people I usually revert to, “She has large ears, chunky cheeks, kind of skinny with a saggy belly, long black tail and teeny white toes.” There we go, we have our aim. If look at that description and look at the image below you can see where I forced out those characteristics.

I quickly slopped some colours in for you guys because my cat is adorable ok.

Also being cruel to their image can make you draw a really good representation of them. Here’s my brothers pug bitch Frankie. As you can see, I was not kind at all in drawing her. I made her wall eye really obvious, squished her face since pugs are just a big squish, chunked her neck out since she has a shit tonne of skin there and gave her these long ass legs. Seriously, this dog has the longest legs I’ve ever seen on a pug. However taking how mean I was, it works in a representation of her. She is a just a big happy wrinkle with a lot of quirks.

Anyway, I hope this is helpful, if at all. It’s not an easy process to explain and I glossed over it, but yeah… Enjoy!

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Harry returns to his hometown where he meets his first love- Louis. And realizes that he missed him and Louis- all that he ever needed
//I was younger then, take me back to when I
Found my heart and broke it
Made friends and lost them through the years
And I’ve not seen the roaring fields in so long,
I know I’ve grown
But I can’t wait to go home 
//And I miss the way you make me feel,
And it’s real
We watched the sunset over the castle on the hill

On Pride, and being Ace/Aro/Agender

As pride month slowly comes to a close I take a second to look back at my queer ass journey, self discovery and what it really means to be a part of a community that doesn’t always acknowledge you exist, and sometimes directly excludes you.

I am Asexual, I am probably Aromantic (as I have an extremely hard time holding onto any romantic feelings despite wishing I could), and I am trans because I am Agender.

These are all things I’ve come to discover along the road. They were less big revelations and more “Oh shit that’s something you can be?” moments. For a long fucking time I felt like I didn’t exist, or that I was wrong for being the way I was. Because nobody talks about these identities. We have no representation in anything. The media that even acknowledges us often brands it as “too boring” or “hard to understand” and wont put us anywhere in their work. But through this oh shit moments, I realized that if there is a bunch of other people out there that feel the same way, maybe I’m not broken.

Maybe I DO have a community of people like me.

But LGBTQIA community can be very off-putting to people with my identities, In 2014 I went to Pride in Savannah, my first Pride ever and I was so excited, but I didn’t see a single Asexuality flag. I saw maybe ONE Trans flag. I didn’t see anything for Aromantics or Agender people. I saw more flags and positivity for people who love pot than people like me.

There were pride flags for people who love bears, for twinks, for furries, for bdsm, for all sorts of things except none for me. It was never something that was done maliciously, and it’s good that all those things exist and you can buy them and support people who do love those things, that’s fucking great. But when I can search an entire fairground for one purple, white, grey, and black flag and come up with nothing, but I can find about fifty different pot pride flags it’s disheartening. It’s exclusionary.

It made me feel like I didn’t exist again.

There’s been a lot of times in my life where I wished I could just be normal. Have proper feelings like everyone else. But I’m not that person. I don’t have, and probably wont ever be able to interact with people on that level, and while it makes me feel very disconnected from humanity as a whole.

So often Love is equated with humanity. “We love people, we marry people, we kiss, we flirt, we have sex with people because it’s what makes us human.” But what does that mean for me? Am I some alien species because I don’t find that enjoyable? Obviously no. There is plenty of support out there if you look hard enough for it. But holy shit I just wish it was louder some days. Because it’s so easy to miss. It’s so easy to listen to the back of your head that just tells you you are broken. Wrong. Never going to be loved the same way as anyone around you.

Asexuality is a funny thing. Often times people have such a hard time removing their own experiences that they can’t fathom someone thinking and feeling a different way.

Aromanticism is even weirder because half the time I don’t even fucking understand how I work. But I can’t force myself to think a certain way any more than anyone else. I know, I’ve tried.

There comes a point where I just have to step back and accept that this is who I am.

I’m different.

And while that’s not a bad thing,

Maybe one day I’ll be able to feel good about it.

are you falling or flying, clarissa?

you know, as always, i’m really irritated when people call clary by the name morgenstern because she doesn’t use it, it’s not the name she grew up with, and most importantly she doesn’t like it, like don’t be fucking rude. so when the angel raziel called her clarissa morgenstern i was really annoyed, and then i got to thinking and this fits really perfectly into this shadowhunter fic i’ve been planning so what if:

the morgensterns are an old, wealthy, and powerful shadowhunter family, right? they have such an odd name for their profession, such a specific one – morning star, the name of lucifer before he fell, the name that jesus uses to describe himself in the bible. are they referring to one, to both?

who knows.

but what a powerful name, what an important name. that’s not a name you take for yourself, not when you’re a servant of heaven like the shadowhunters are. it’s a name you earn.

then there’s the name clarissa. clarissa means bright and shining. so her name translates to the bright shining morning star. and it must have been valentine who gave her that name, because it’s such a heavy name for a baby, for a young woman, for anyone. and valentine calls her clarissa morgenstern because that’s what she is to him, a bright shining star. but that’s not a name you’re given, not really. it’s one you earn.

so i really like the idea that raziel calls clary by the name clarissa morganstern because he thinks she’s earned it. i like the idea that all the reasons clary chafes with the clave and other shadowhunters and the downworlders are the same reasons that the angels love her. she falls into the role of holy soldier in a way that’s so much cleaner and straightforward than most of the people around her.

i talk here and here about why i believe clary is a blossoming little general and about her sharp take on morality (some of these opinions are out of date because WOAH BOY some people have had hella character development, but i stand by the general idea of them). but in summary:

clary is crazy charming when she’s wants to be. she’s not manipulative really, she’s too straight forward for that. but especially in the first season she did impossible things so casually, and i don’t mean in magic or power. i mean in getting mortal enemies to die together for her cause, getting loyal subjects to break oaths to their queen for her, getting the aid of people who once professed to hate her or even tried to kill her. i once wrote that clary is dangerously charismatic and i believe that. she doesn’t have to be right, she just has to convince everyone she’s right, and she’s kind of scarily good at that.

secondly, clary has a very black and white view of morality. there isn’t really any grey area where she’s concerned. i’m just going to copy and paste from my other post here, so:

she’s really big on forgiveness. which seems odd, considering how completely ruthless she can be at times, but it’s true. it’s one of my favorite qualities of hers, the dichotomy of how readily she forgives and moves on from past hurts against how completely and thoroughly she’s capable of hating and cutting down those who stand in her way.

clary basically forgives everyone who’s ever lied to or wronged her – she doesn’t hold a grudge against magnus for taking her memories in the first place, against raphael for any of the actions he’s taken against her, never holds onto any hurt or resentment for any of the cruel things alec has said to her. jace ignores her for weeks and she doesn’t take it personally, only wants him back in any way she can have him. when luke abandons her in her time of greatest need she doesn’t blame him, is only happy to have him back. when luke’s sister returns she insists that they give her a chance, and even after cleophas has proven herself to be a betrayer and a liar, even when clary has every reason not to trust her – she does. when cleophas says she’s changed her mind, she’s ready to betray valentine even tho moments before she would have declared herself one his most faithful servants – clary believes her. clary believes and trusts a murderer because that – that’s part of clary too, i think, even her positive qualities circle back to her ruthlessness.

holding onto grudges and hurts will only hinder her, so she doesn’t. she has a goal and she has enemies and those are immutable and unmoving but everything else is negotiable.

clary is not a woman that deals in grey areas. either something is right or it’s wrong, either you’re with her or against her, and she has little patience for anything or anyone that tries to stay in the in between. this is most perfectly shown with that quick back and forth between her and cleophas in the alley. cleophas says that hurting an angel goes against everything being a shadowhunter stands for, and clary shoots back oh, and killing downworlders doesn’t? cleophas says it’s different, but the thing is for clary it isn’t. she deals with absolutes. killing downworlders and torturing an angel are the same for her because they are both actions that heaven’s warriors shouldn’t be taking, and in her mind if you’re capable of one you’re capable of the other.

so in conclusion: clary has a stunning capacity for both compassion and forgiveness, is ruthless down to her bones for better or worse, and treats morality as far more black and white than is probably healthy.

look at her relationship with jonathan and how that fits into all of this. when she’s on his side, she’s moved by compassion, is willing to forgive all manner of atrocities because she believes in him. when she’s like this, her dangerous charisma comes out in full force, and she nearly turns him to her side without even trying to. then he crosses a line, and all that compassion disappears, at least on the surface. clary has made her judgement – her brother is no longer worth saving, and she’ll kill him with her bare hands when necessary. compassion and forgiveness. black and white morality. utter ruthlessness. clary’s interesting, i think, because she has all these qualities at once.

and … i just feel like all these qualities make the angels really like clary. she is like them, ruthless and caring and with an unmovable certainty for what she believes to be right. on top of this, a charisma and presence that pulls others to her side in spite of how her other qualities grate on them or get them in trouble. she’s a leader, more last season than this one, but she still has those qualities.

they look at her, raziel looks at her, and calls her clarissa morgenstern. she is the bright, shining morning star.

will she fall like lucifer? is she a messiah like the son of god?

who knows.

but both of those people brought change, brought revolutions, for better or worse.

clary has earned her name. when change comes, as it inevitably must, people will have her name on their lips.

for better or worse.

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So i got really bored these past couple nights and been really in the mood for Gold Gavin so i decided to make mood/aesthetic boards of each different type of Gold Gavins. Reg, Black Gold, Rose Gold and White Gold.

Each of them have art pieces by the loveliest of peoples (in order) @a-simple-note @fahchaus @samijen and @ryan-the-dark-god-haywood please go follow them if you don’t already bc they have great art and deserve all the praise and follows. Thanks you guys for allowing me to use your work! 
Links to posts/blogs: Gold Gav , Black Gold Gavin, Rose Gold Gavin , White Gold Gavin

Im still taking aesthetic/mood/stim board requests over on @specially-made-boards And I will do anything whether it be an OC or a youtuber or animated character - i just ask if I need to have you give me a description of who they are (especially if its an oc or something/someone i do not actively watch) that you please do bc that will help me out a lot. 

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Luke Hemmings - My Dirty Little Secret

Pairing: Luke and Y/N

Word Count: 5.6k+

Rating: smut smut smut

Requested: Nah

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Before-After Series #2

This one I made last spring and is my very first outdoor scenario ever, thus, I didn’t succeed with is as well as I wished. One thing for sure: I procrastinated making this pic for weeks. I was damn afraid to do something I’d never done with sims 4 before and the fact that I’ve got extreme expectations for myself did not help.

First things first, I don’t/didn’t have Reshade. (never used it to be honest).

1. I began by exploring what I can do with the sims 4 world. I attempted to find a lot that might have a large meadow with a horizon far away. Well, I could not find any such lot.
I’m so used to open world from sims 3 (where you can openly mod outdoors to your liking) so the sims 4 world restrictions are not easy to get used to. (At least the outdoor lighting is much better in ts4) So, I settled on a lot that could give me the illusion of a meadow from a right angle. This is what I had in the very beginning:

2. I build a meadow which was just spamming flowers on the field with moveobjects on. I went with these cute cc daisies, and to match the realism of the flowers I also modded the sky. Then I tested poses and various camera angles.

3. I soon realized I did not like the realistic flowers and sky, it just didn’t feel right to me. I adore the cartoon style of sims 4 so I needed to get it back asap. So I switched the cc flower to maxis match flowers and tried different colors with the whole scene.

4. Once I chose my favorite screen shot, I then began to edit it. My editing methods aren’t fluent, I just try different things to see what I like and I use a lot of adjustment and mask layers.

  • First I used unsharp mask at 60% just to bring out some detail
  • Then I used Topaz noise reduction on 0.04 to get a bit of softness because I don’t like sharpness with sims 4, I want to stay close to the clay style
  • Then I tried out topaz clean basic blemish removal preset just for the surroundings because it made the grass, flowers and sky look nicer. I used mask layer to softy brush the effect off of the sim (that’s what that weird black-gray blur indicates in the picture below, haha)
  • after all that I needed to brighten up the big white flowers and the model to balance them with everything else. So I used Curve adjustment layer. Most importantly I used it with mask layer to paint the flower and the model visible only. Nothing else was affected by the curve adjustment.
  • Then I used dodge and burn tool to shade the sim model. I darkened the shadows on her and added a bit of highlight for depth.
  • Next I applied slight amount of Gaussian blur on whole image but used the mask layer so the blur was applied onto the front flowers only
  • Then Brightness and Contrast: brightness 8 / contrast 17
  • Then Selective color: RED +9 +17, GREEN +16 -25and BLUES +12 +11
  • Gradient map of #f4dbf6 and #d05ed7 with Soft Light mode 40% opacity
  • Color Balance: Midtones Yellow/Blue -18
  • Lastly I created a simple radial gradient layer with overlay mode and used free shine brushes to stamp sun rays on the pic with soft light mode and finally added dust speckles with a free brush as well. For what reason? I dunno.

Well, that’s all the randomness it took me to get the image done. It’s a big mess of adjustment layers for sure (〃∀〃)ゞ I Didn’t know what I wanted, just kept testing. So in no way is this a tutorial but just how I made this pic with some description.

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Just sketching.

So far I can not draw on a tablet, so I draw on paper :с I did not draw on paper for a very long time, it’s very unusual. I do not like watercolor, 99.9% of my drawings on paper made in pencil in black and white. But I somehow liked this sketch (I wonder how long it will be before I start hating it, a day or two? :D).  I want to make it in digital in the future!

I liked drawing such eyes and nose. Perhaps I will paint them like this in all my works 

anonymous asked:

adena actually does start a new project starring kat (i'm not creative enough to come up w what that project could be so i'll be that in your capable hands), and kat's reaction when adena shows her the proofs

Kat is sitting cross-legged in bed, comfortable in a soft gray t-shirt and cotton panties while she sips at her coffee, when Adena walks back over to the bed with her own mug.

Kat sets down her drink and reaches her hand out for Adena, pulling her toward the warmth and comfort of the duvet.

“Wait,” she says, smiling when Kat pouts and tugs at her shirt. “Can I get my camera and take your picture?”

“Right now?”

She looks down at herself and then gives Adena a look, knowing her curls are all over the place and her face is still free of make-up.

“Please.”

Adena looks so happy and excited that it’s impossible to say no.

She’s on the other side of the room, getting her camera, when Kat says, “These better be just for you.”

“I promise.”

—-

“Can I show you something?”

Adena is nervously holding her laptop and Kat frowns, patting the spot on the sofa next to her. “Of course. Everything okay?”

“Yes. I, ah, I may have found some inspiration for a new photo series.”

Kat’s eyes light up, suddenly excited. “Are you gonna show me?”

Adena stares for several seconds, biting at her lip, and then sits down, handing over her laptop without a word.

There are three images in black and white, lined up together on the screen, and her breath catches.

Adena…”

“I know. I know I promised they were just for me. And they can be. I don’t have to share them with anyone.”

All three of the pictures are of Kat, from that morning in bed a few days ago. In the first picture, her face is relaxed, eyes smiling and legs crossed in front of her on the bed. In the next, her head is tipped back, laughing, from when Adena had made a joke and distracted her. In the last, she is laying down, hair splayed out on the bed around her face while she looks into the camera with quiet intensity.

She knows exactly the moment that Adena took this one. She’d kneeled over her, knees on either side of her hips, and Kat had forgotten the camera entirely, too focused on the passion and affection in Adena’s eyes.

“These are…these are so beautiful.”

She doesn’t know that she’s ever seen Adena look this vulnerable, giving Kat a soft smile and saying, “You like them?”

Kat holds her face, brushing a few stray hairs behind her ear. “I love them. Thank you for sharing them with me.”

Adena smiles, full and genuine, and Kat kisses her, just because she can, laptop trapped between them.