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Valentines: Saeyoung

A/N: ffs you guys im ready to sleep for days lets have a cuddle/sleep party right here and now bring all the plushies, thank you ~Admin 404

He’s very excited but also very confused by Valentine’s day.

Since he met you, he’s shown you how much he loves you every single day!!!

Okay well once he got past the whole “stay away from me I’m dangerous” portion of it all he was extremely loving. Never once left you wondering just where you stood with him. Since he’s so open about his love, what is the need of celebrating this holiday? He gives you silly presents all the time! Whatever you want, he’s gotten it for you! So why bother with Valentine’s Day?

But, on the other hand!! He’s very excited that he now has someone special in his life he can celebrate with! He can spoil the one he loves and get spoiled right back! Not to mention, he now has his brother back! Can he celebrate brotherly love on this holiday as well?

He had no ideas what to do for you though. He wants it to be special, and fun! But he also wants to do something for his brother. Is he allowed to combine the two? Would either of you mind? Is it wrong of him to do that? HE JUST DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THE RULES WERE!

After searching everywhere on the internet, he still had no clue what was okay and what wasn’t okay to do for Valentine’s Day. How could the internet let him down like this?! He’s spent days trying to think of something for all three of you.

One day, he’s gotten so frustrated that he’s slammed his head against his desk repeatedly for a solid 5 minutes. Vanderwood came in to the sound of banging and stood with their arms crossed, watching as the younger man smacked his head against the table.

“As much as I’m loving this, what is your problem?” they asked, watching as the red head shot up, pushing his chair away from the desk.

“I!! HAVE RESEARCHED!! FOR DAYS!! AND I STILL HAVE NO ANSWERS!” he complained, stomping his foot like a child. Vanderwood raised an eyebrow, questioning his temper tantrum.

“Answers foooor…? What, exactly?” they asked, as Saeyoung threw his hands in the air in a huff.

“For what to do for Valentine’s Day! What to do for both MC AND Saeran! What am I supposed to do?!” the pitch of his voice rising with each word he spoke, running his hands through his hair. “I want it to be special for the both of them!! But also I don’t want it to get awkward or creepy either!! All the ideas I’ve seen online are romantic which I mean is great for MC but what about Saeran? What am I supposed to do for him?!”

“I’m pretty sure your brother is fine without celebrating Valentine’s Day with you,” they threw at him, throwing their hip out to the side. “It’s more of a romantic thing anyway, isn’t it? Why bother trying to do something for your brother then? That’s just weird.”

“I have to show Saeran I love him too!!! Strong brotherly love!!!” he sighed before sitting back down in his chair, leaning his chin in his hand. “I just want to spend every holiday with the two of them! Holidays are for the people you love, and I love the both of them very much.” He looked at his mouse, staring off into space. Too many thoughts were running through his head at once, he couldn’t focus on anything, let alone listen to whatever Vanderwood was telling him.

“Hello?? I’m talking to you!” they shouted at him. They tried to snap their fingers by his ear, but when they realized that wasn’t working, they smack him up-side the head. “Hey!! Will you listen to me when I’m talking to you!?”

“Hm? Oh, Vanderwood, what did you say?” he looked at them from the corner of his eye. He was only half listening to them, so he didn’t bother to make any effort to turn to them.

“I said, why don’t you all go and do something together like at an amusement park, or the beach, or hell, even something cliché like a picnic in the park?” they suggested. “You could all just spend some time together, then later on in the night you can spend some alone time with MC, make it romantic.”

“That’s…..actually a good idea! Yeah! I’ll plan like a day trip sort of thing!” he declared, jumping from his seat a second time. “I’ll plan something all of us will love! Maybe I’ll gear it a little towards Saeran, then I’ll spend the rest of the night romantically with MC…. Yes! That should work!” he turned Vanderwood around and began pushing him out of the room. “You gotta go! I have planning to do! I have to think! Go go go!” he called before slamming and locking the door behind him.

The rest of the day was thinking and planning everything. Where to go, what to do, and what to do later on, for you! He even waited until both you and Saeran were asleep and packed over night bags for the three of you.

He risked his life waking up Saeran the next morning. He was able to coax him into the backseat of one of his babies, wrapped up in a blanket, asleep across the seats. Waking you up and getting you dressed was way easier! You tried to tell him “Happy Valentine’s Day” when you sat up but he refused to let you? You tried again, thinking maybe he was just too excited to let you speak, but he covered your mouth- making it fairly obvious he didn’t want you to say it yet. So, you went along with his antics, knowing that it would more than likely turn into a great time.

The three of you were on the road in less than an hour, Saeyoung cranking the radio up, the two of you singing along terribly, and Saeran cussing the both of you out the entire ride.

“PLEASE. PLEASE TELL ME WE’RE ALMOST THERE. I CAN’T TAKE THE TWO OF YOU ANYMORE. NO! DON’T TURN IT UP! HEY- I’M TALKING TO THE BOTH OF YOU! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA” Saeran started screaming at the top of his lungs, as the both of you sang at the top of yours. After hours in the car, you look around to see snow all around you outside. You turn to look at Saeyoung, who’s trying to stifle a laugh because Saeran was sitting in the backseat with wide eyes, and his face practically against the window.

The moment Saeyoung parks in front of a cute, homey looking cabin, Saeran practically rolls out of the back seat while his brother shoots out of the front seat, not bothering to shut the door. You calmly get out, and watch as the twins already started building snow forts, throwing hastily made snowballs towards each other’s faces.

“Um, you guys? Maybe you should bundle up in warmer clothes before getting too into your game? You don’t want to get sick!” You called out, laughing at how their faces went from determination to a pout, both grumbling as they walk back towards the car. “Wait, do we even have warm clothes? I didn’t pack a bag because ssoommeeoonnee didn’t tell me what their plans were,” you sassed, raising an eyebrow towards your boyfriend.

“Hey hey hey, I came prepared!” he defended, opening the trunk of his car, “I packed overnight bags for all three of us!” He dished out the backpacks before grabbing the keys to the cabin, leading you all inside. With bags haphazardly thrown into their respective bedrooms, and everyone bundled up in winter coats, scarves, and gloves, you sit on the porch, watching as the brothers resumed their snowball war.

You knew how much it meant to Saeyoung to spend any and every holiday he could with his brother, so it didn’t bother you that he was in the snow with him. You enjoyed your time watching the two of them, keeping score, and being the referee- calling one or the other out when they play dirty. But you never let them figure out that you were the one throwing a few when they least expect it.

Hours went by, and once the sun went down, Saeran is asleep on the couch, and Saeyoung is coaxing you back into the car. He drives to a drop off high on the mountain, and lays a few blankets over the hood of his car. Once the both of you are cuddling close on top of the car, there’s only silence between the two of you while you watched the night sky. Shooting stars flew by constantly, and he kissed your forehead every single time he saw one.

“MC, I’m sorry I didn’t take much of a romantic route this Valentine’s day. It.. well it was my first one so I wasn’t sure what to do, but I also didn’t want to leave Saeran out of it completely, you know? I just wanted all of us to enjoy our day as a mini vacation and celebrate our love for each other collectively,” he whispered against your forehead, pulling you closer as he gets further into his explanation. “But I’m hoping laying here, in my favourite spot- the one I used to run to every time work got too tough or I couldn’t handle my feelings- the one place that meant the most to me, is romantic enough for you.”

Your heart almost jumped out of your chest, and when you pulled away to look at his face, you could tell how sincere his words were. One hand on his cheek and one tangled together with his, you pull his face back to yours, capturing his lips in a soft kiss.

“You said it meant a lot to you.. why? And why did you say ‘meant’ like it was in the past?” you asked him once you pulled away, and you watched him smile down at you.

“It’s always got fresh air up here, makes it easier to think. You can see the stars perfectly at night up here too, lots of shooting ones, great for making wishes. But now I have you and Saeran, I don’t need to wish on them anymore. Wherever you are is my new favourite place,” he said, giving you the biggest, sweetest smile he could. He may be a big goof but he’s such a sweetheart and you couldn’t help but bring him in for another kiss. Then another, then another. After a while, he pulled away from you and looked you dead in the eye, a thick layer of seriousness flooded his face.

“MC, do you think the aliens can get us up here? Hey what are you- Hey!! Don’t push me off of the car! MC! It’s cold! Let me back into the blanket please I’m sorry! I won’t ruin the moment again!”

ok but louis probably changes his whatsapp icon quite often and im dying over here thinking about all his soft pictures we are never gonna see

I am ready to tear my hair out.
I. Don’t. Feel. Like. A. Woman.

I am just so frustrated. I’m looking back at all this stuff I’ve been through and realizing some things and I’m fucking terrified. I’m so scared. My brain is on overdrive and all I want to do is be free, just fucking free.

And I don’t know what that means.

This gender crisis fucking sucks. I found a place for therapy, a good place, reputable and it’s a therapy center specifically for gender. It was started by a trans man so I have faith.

Please, I hope they help me figure it out. I’d cry if the antidepressant would let me.

anonymous asked:

How Would BB react if their s/o (also an Idol) writes a Song about them (everyone knows that it is about them) and their s/o would performe this Song live at an award Show?

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- Admin B


I think GD would be really surprised at first that you were going to perform it. Maybe he knew you’d written it, but thought it would only be between you. Nevertheless, he is so proud. And when you sang it infront of everyone, he couldn’t help but fall in love with you even more.

Originally posted by cheonjaes


He would be so proud for the fact that you had written a song about him, but also that you were performing it. He cannot help but blush, and he enjoys your performance to the fullest loving you even more if possible.

Originally posted by thesoshisone


Dae would also be so proud of his girl! Totally see him being all happy, clapping and all just watching you perform the song. Both touched by it, and all excited he probably would want you to sing it for him a million times more.

Originally posted by daesungstrash


Proud proud proud!!! He would totally just show you off like - “That’s my girl”, loving the song extremely much. And he would too feel the love for you entirely more.

Originally posted by fantastic--babies


He would be a little shy about it at first, not because he didn’t like the fact that you performed a song about him. But because he is used to swoon you over with his songs. Now it was your turn. But he still loved everything about you, and the song and was really touched by it.

Originally posted by peaceminus8ne

anonymous asked:

Do you have, like, a list or chart of your Overwatch ships (and please tell me you won't judge if I disagree with any)

Oh gosh well… Most I’m neutral towards. McHanzo, Pharmercy, Genyatta, Roadrat, I’m happy with all of them, just not especially passionate. 

The ones I’m passionate about? Gotta be Reaper76. It’s just such a juicy ship with loads of juicy canon background and a whole loada potential. It also helps that I have a big fondness for grumpy old men. Like dang, that’s a ship I super love. The other one I really dig is Ana and Reinhardt, because with their interactions they just seem like the most perfect couple ever and I wanna see em live happily and awesomely ever after. 

Some pretty popular ones I don’t like are Meihem and Gency. Meihem seems to be built on what is so far a one sided relationship being seen as adorable, and I can’t get behind that much. A lil’ too true to life for me. Gency just doesn’t offer me much, and the two often work pretty badly on teams together xD I’m not against anyone enjoying these ships though.

how andreil got together aka an excuse for another hc of my icos au:

  • andrew and neil have to do an undercover mission for a like a year
    • in like russia maybe bc they both speak russian canonically
  • they have to change their appearances so no one can trace them back to the Agency
    • andrew now has black hair and green eyes and neil has brown eyes and blond hair and no this is totally not based off hsin and boyd shhh
  • for the first few months they don’t really see each other bc they’re out trying to find jobs according to the bio of the profiles they were given
    • andrew works as a bartender and neil works at a nearby uni’s bookstore
  • then they start finding leads on their target
  • some low level drug dealer who’s been scamming a mafia boss who’s getting po’d or something and got the help of the Agency in return for some files about a janus op
  • one day they get the chance to track the guy down and send andrew after him
  • he follows the guy into some building and manages to take an employee’s key card
  • he’s in the middle of downloading some files to send to neil when an alarm goes off and he’s stuck in the room
  • of course he could just kill everyone and get out but they’re trying to be discreet
  • so he’s kinda just waiting in the room furiously whispering at neil to shut the security down
  • and then a bomb goes off
  • fortunately andrew was only like 3 or 4 floors up so he books it tf outta there
  • his comm busts bc he was thrown back and it fell out so there’s no way he can reach neil
  • there’s another explosion before he reaches the front doors and the entrance is blocked
  • at this point neil kinda realizes that andrew is either unconscious or unable to reach his comm so he runs to the building
  • he gets there about 10 minutes after the second explosion and there are a bunch of people scattering and ambulances coming
  • and he doesn’t see andrew at all
  • and he’s thinking fuck what if andrew didn’t make what if i was too late to get him out
  • all he can think is that andrew lived through so much just to die like this and it’s so unfair
  • and then a hand grabs his shoulder and turns him
  • and neil’s first thought is to punch whoever it is but then he sees andrew’s face and he’s just so relieved
  • andrew’s body is littered with bruises and scratches and neil’s pretty sure a piece of glass cut his side pretty deep but they decide to go back to the shared apartment they’re staying in
  • and neil is helping andrew with his injuries and at the same time he’s also confused as to why he always feels so weird around andrew when it’s never happened around anyone else before
  • and he finally figures out that he’d been scared that andrew might have been dead
  • which ?? didn’t make sense to neil because he never really seemed to care about andrew’s near death experiences on their previous missions
  • anyways flash forward to a few months later when the mission is winding down and they’ve gathered all they can even with the loss of the files bc of the explosions
  • but they’re just sitting in their apartment one day watching tv or something an exy game probably
  • and andrew shifts so he’s turned towards neil
  • and he reaches out and lets a hand hover over neil’s cheek and asks “yes or no”
  • neil of course says yes even though he doesn’t know exactly what he’s saying yes to
  • and andrew starts leaning in slowly
  • and neil finally gets it and his eyes go wide at first before he closes them and bridges the gap between them
  • they just sit there for a few moments with their eyes closed and lips touching
  • then andrew pulls back and continues watching the tv
  • they don’t speak about the kiss until after they get back to the Agency but for the time being both are content with just leaning against each other
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You guys are fuckin’ fantastic

I love all of you, and I hope you all are having a great day!