i just love dorian so much okay

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OKAY. When I first started reading this, I thought, “YEAH BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW FUCKING FANTASTIC Manon realizing Dorian—someone who is not duty bound to her—loves her?! HOLY CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT MOMENT!” But then you brought up Manon not being an annoying “damsel” of a pregnant lady and my brain shifted to, “CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW SHE’D TRY TO HIDE MOOD SWINGS?! THE EXCUSES SHE’D COME UP WITH TO LEAVE THE ROOM TO GO CRY FOR NO REASON?!” She would be hilarious and HEARTBREAKING, okay?!

Manon: (internally thinking “I just love Abraxos so much I could cry…oh shit I AM gonna cry!” She gets up to go hide.)
Dorian: “Witchling, where are you going?”
Manon: “Nowhere. Leave me alone.”
Dorian: (internally: “like hell” follows her.)
Manon: (crying) “WTF is wrong with me?! I’m embarrassing myself and I’m alone…but… Abraxos was my first baby” 😭😭😭
Dorian: “Manon? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?!”
Manon: (iron out) “WTF DORIAN?! I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE!”
Dorian: (internally “yikes. She’s never pulled the iron out for me before…”) “I was worried about you—”
Manon: “You were?!” (Tears up again)
Dorian: (internally: “hormones. This has to be hormones.”) “of course I was. Why are you crying?”
Manon: (UGLY CRIES) “I don’t knoooooow.” 😭😭😭
Dorian: (hugs her) “awe, witchling. It’s okay. Everything is okay.”
Manon: “I just love Abraxos so much, and I don’t want him to think I’m replacing him and then you said you were worried about me and oh my god ive never cried before in my life what’s wrong with me are you mad?”
Dorian: (smiles) “I could never be mad at you, witchling. I love you (Manon sobs harder). Abraxos won’t feel like he’s being replaced.”
Manon: “DID YOU ASK HIM?!”
Dorian: (internally: “WHERE THE FUCK IS ASTERIN WHEN YOU NEED HER?!”) “No, I didn’t ask him, witchling. Would you like to go see him? We can ask him together? Would that make you feel better?”
Manon: (sniffles) “…okay.”

satans-armchair replied to your post“I looove Chaol and I agree he gets a shit ton of hate for no reason!…”

I think it’s vital that there’s a character that needs to grow to accept. It shows that not everyone is born accepting and it gives Chaol the massive opportunity for character development. Even if he doesn’t fully accept Aelin, he loved her and she will always have a space in his heart whether he comes to terms with what she is. I kinda don’t want it to be just “Chaol understands Aelin is okay and accepts her” I want it more steady and slow and meaningful if you get me?

I don’t understand why he gets so much hate either :/ I didn’t really like him because DORIAN but he is such a cool character and I want to know more about where he’s from and his family and his relationship with everyone he’s such a good man to his guards

Okay, okay I agree, I do, I really do but like…okay this is a point I’ve been wanting to make for a while so bear with me (I’m not going to get involved in the discourse Lauren said, Lauren lied) but Chaol is not the only one who has to change and grow with regards to his feelings towards fae and magic?  

Aelin reflects in ToG that it’s maybe for the best that her magic/magic in general is gone. Pretty much her entire arc in HoF revolves around HER not being able to accept that part of herself. That’s one of the biggest reasons she can’t shift/fully access her power - she’s afraid of it; which is natural after all the propaganda she’s been exposed to? 

Dorian too is terrified of his power because of what he’s been told/taught/the society they live in. He spends a huge amount of time fighting it, trying to control it, terrified of it. It takes them both a long time to accept their magic and themselves and they both spend pretty much an entire book coming to terms with it? 

Chaol has to figure out the same things too except he doesn’t have the benefit of actually possessing magic himself? He has no firsthand experience with it but he still spends all of HoF helping…both Aelin and Dorian deal with their magic? He helps Dorian in trying to find a way to free it/hide him better…and he ensures that Aelin can get to Wendelyn where she’ll be safe/won’t be executed if she’s caught because of what she is. 

I also think…and idk I don’t know if anyone else reads it this way so maybe i’m way off the mark but I think people misunderstand Chaol’s reactions towards Aelin in QoS? It is not just because of her magic/her fae heritage (he accepts Dorian’s magic, he accepts Aedion, and he works well with Rowan too) the problem is not what she is/that she has these things…it’s what she does with them. 

Like, okay, picture things from Chaol’s POV for a second? We as readers know exactly what happened in Wendelyn, we know Maeve is a piece of work and we know that Aelin didn’t actually hurt anyone. We see things from her POV, we are quite literally inside her head. Chaol is across the sea, all Chaol hears is that the queen of Terrasen decided to encircle an entire city with her fire magic…and that’s an entire city of her people, fae, people like her. He’s sitting in Adarlan at this point, suffering from PTSD after what’s happened to him, Dorian is enslaved and suffering and Chaol blames himself entirely for that and then he hears this. and he’s sitting in a kingdom that he knows full well what it’s done to Aelin and her kingdom and he justifiably gets a little bit worried that she might turn that power on his people, his kingdom, his king. (who…she spends…a very large portion of QoS………trying to kill. 

I feel like we forget this/don’t discuss it…and actually I’d like it discussed a hell of a lot more in the books as well, Aelin was flat out ready to kill Dorian. She refused to listen to Chaol. She refused to try. She was just like nope, I know best, he’s got to die, I’ve got to kill him. And I understand exactly where she’s coming from with her experiences but the fact of the matter is she was wrong. The point here is that there’s a lot of things going on perspective wise. Chaol is correct given the information that he has; Aelin is correct given the information that she has and this is why they clash because they can’t see past this, they both have solid, logical reasons that they’re right and they don’t understand things from the other person’s POV and neither does the fandom. This generates Problems. 

So I don’t actually think that Chaol clashing with Aelin in QoS has anything to do with prejudices towards magic users. At this point in the story the man is actively working as a leader of a literal rebellion inside the city. He has been working for weeks at this point repeatedly risking his life over and over again to help magic users. And he does this throughout the book. He doesn’t have a magician problem he has an Aelin problem…And it’s a reasonable one as far as I’m concerned. (I’m not saying Aelin is unreasonable but I’m saying that I understand both sides. And there is genuine merit to both sides. And fandom makes this look so much easier than it actually is) 

Chaol is, essentially I think, a good man. And what’s most poignant and interesting for me is that he is an incredibly human character. I mean that in the sense of him being..well literally human when there are all these fae and magic users running around but I also mean in his reactions, in his humanity itself. Chaol has always been, I think, what should have been one of the strongest voices for a reader/every day person to relate to? 

Chaol, for me, presents a really interesting kind of trope subversion actually? Because he’s presented to us as this big, capable guy, very disciplined, an excellent warrior, an elite guard with a position that carries a huge amount of responsibility despite being at a young age. He’s aloof, he’s very loyal, very duty orientated, very serious and sensible.

 But he’s also incredibly moral (I think a lot of these characters are presented to us as emotionless and unfeeling robots who just kill and do as they’re told etc and Chaol undermines that trope and that kind of toxic masculinity incredibly well) And this doesn’t show itself only in him looking down on other characters but he holds himself to those standards as well. Until the end of ToG Chaol had never killed another person before. And the way that he reacts to that is actually…incredibly human? He’s in shock. He seems to display a lot of the symptoms of PTSD in CoM (he stops wearing his sword, he struggles with the idea of him taking a life- even though it was in self-defence, even though he would do it again, even though he knows it was right- it still breaks something in him. He has nightmares about this, he reacts to it in short and it’s an incredibly visceral, empathetic, human reaction which is not something we’re used to seeing from characters like Chaol. 

He shows an incredibly strong incredibly human and incredibly down to earth reaction to violence. Like, I’m pretty sure if I stabbed someone and got covered in their blood and they died as a direct result of this I’d be pretty not okay with that.  And this is what I mean what I say that Chaol is a pretty good reader voice in these books? Because this is…realistically…how I and how I think most people would react to this sort of thing? He isn’t emotionless. He isn’t invincible. He struggles with these things and that’s human and it’s compelling and it’s interesting because we don’t get to see it. 

Usually protagonists just sail through this stuff. They have no qualms, they have no morals, it’s all about ‘whatever you have to do to get the job done’, they kill and torture and hurt people and it has no effect on them whatsoever because they’re Tough and Strong and capable of dealing with all of this. But people, you, me, Chaol, aren’t made that way. Killing bothers us, violence bothers us, we’re emotional beings and this is in our nature and Chaol reflects that nature incredibly well? 

He’s flawed, yes. He has a lot of prejudices that he has to work to unlearn but he’s more than that. He’s not just a lesson for ‘sometimes you think bad things and have you fix yourself’ he’s also a very compelling, very broken character in a lot of ways. 

I can make a pretty reasonable case for Chaol’s position in the castle being the way in which he escaped from an abusive household (the way that his father talks to him and treats him and emotionally manipulates him is not normal. Nor is the way that he talks about his mother. And repeatedly Chaol not being with his father is referred to as him having ‘freedom’ and giving up that freedom for Aelin’s sake. But it’s freedom. People with happy, healthy relationships with their parents don’t tend to think of being on their own and without them as freedom in the stark terms that Chaol does) 

And when you consider his story with that context..it makes a lot more sense. Chaol (a lot like Lucien’s position in ACOTAR at the Spring Court) doesn’t have anywhere else to go and he doesn’t have anything that isn’t this position. He’s dedicated his life to this because it was a place where he mattered, where he seemed to be treated well, where he was doing something that he wanted to do and that’s a huge thing to do if he’s leaving an abusive situation- the strength to step out and actually do something that is fully his choice, to claim his independence and know that if he fails, if this backfires, if he loses this, he’s screwed. He has to go back. And that’s a terrifying prospect for anyone in Chaol’s situation.  

So he clings to this and it’s not just blind loyalty, not after a certain point. I think it was when he was younger but he crosses a line. And it’s not just loyalty to the king or a corrupt regime it’s loyalty to Dorian - the first person who likely treated him fairly and with genuine love and compassion. It’s loyalty to the only thing that he has, quite literally, something that he’s given up everything for, something that he very seriously risked his freedom to attain and losing it is…not an inviting idea. 

So by the time you swing round to QoS Chaol has basically lost…Quite literally everything. His position, his honour, his king, his humanity. He’s thrust into this war, becomes a rebel leader, is trying to do what he can for people while shouldering massive amounts of survivor’s guilt and PTSD over the things that he’s been through. And he just..keeps going. And going and going and going in trying to do the right thing whatever that may be.

 I think that has always been Chaol’s driving force. I think it’s taken the guise of various different things, duty, loyalty, respect etc but it’s always been about that, it’s always been about trying to do what’s right. And before that was being loyal, it was keeping his word, it was doing his job to the very best of his ability. But it slowly becomes other things. It becomes fighting what he once defended, it becomes questioning everything that ever gave him a shred of safety and stability. It becomes taking on a war and a responsibility that is so much larger than he ever thought he would or could deal with and carrying it anyway because it’s the right thing to do. 

And that for me is Chaol and Chaol’s arc in a nutshell and I….Like that a lot. I like that we have someone who is presented to us as being so, damn human. Moral and breakable and flawed and scared and hurt by the things that he’s done and the things that he’s seen. But he embodies one of the things we so often see with deeply human characters - that perseverance, that will to survive, to go on, to just keep fighting, just keep living, just keep going because that’s what people do, that’s what Chaol does and it’s just…idk dude I like this character a lot idk what else to tell you. 

Okay, so first off I didn’t draw this. It was my parents’ older friend who, after going over my own sketchbook with shirtless buff Dragon Age guys tried to sketch his failed attempt version of that. I should mention he’s like a, really famous professional artist and photographer.

Kinda random, I know.

But what makes me crack me up the most is that I’ve just noticed…

He looks like @awaari ‘s Galathan Lavellan without his vallaslin

And I just

C A N’T

Dorian.

D O R I A N.

M A   V H E N A N.

H E L P  M E I CAN’T STOP LAUGHING


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KICKS DOWN THE FRONT DOOR I HEARD IT WAS BLACKWALL FRIENDSHIP APPRECIATION DAY

Sera: This is probably hands down my favorite friendship in the game??? They get along so well like they can just let loose and make silly lewd jokes together and I love how they get each other so much since they’re both from kind of shitty backgrounds and IT’S JUST THE BEST okay?? Sera’s probably one of the only people he can be genuine around when he’s still trying to be Blackwall and like ;_; their friendship is so important

Varric: I love these ridiculous grownass men losing their shit over jousting. I also think it’s super interesting that Varric likes Blackwall more once his secret comes out???? I also fucking love how he calls him Hero all the time and how low key annoyed Blackwall is by that nickname.

Dorian: LMAO well Dorian appreciates Blackwall in his own way… which involves a lot of soap. I love seeing their initially testy relationship grow into genuine caring!

Iron Bull: They punch things together and tbh I feel like Bull can understand where Thom Rainier was coming from idk

Cassandra: DO NOT EVEN TOUCH ME IF BIOWARE DOES NOT FIX THIS BROKEN FRIENDSHIP I WILL BE SO UPSET

Cole: I love that throughout the banters you can see Blackwall warming up to Cole even though initially he’s really wary and unsettled by him!!! I imagine Cole trying very hard to help him post-judgment and it warms the cockles of my heart

Blackwall deserves love and friendship!!!!! slowly… kisses this game….

JDox headcanon cause I ship it so much.

Okay imagine: JD and Perry getting married and hyphenating their last names, so when new interns start at the hospital they have no idea, and half of them are convinced Dr. Dorian-Cox is the nicest man they’ve ever met and half of them think he’s just the biggest jerk in the hostpital.

All the older staff love backing up different sides when the newbies ask them what they think of Dr. Dorian-Cox, and faking arguing with each other to back up the newbies and then laughing their asses off when both JD and Perry finally show up in the same room, and just watching realization dawn on their faces.

Lullabies

Dorian/Trevelyan, Post Trespasser.

For @daficswap​ round 5. Featuring @lateforerebor​ /  @trashwarden​‘s Vaxus Trevelyan, Dorian, and their adopted son Felix.

Also known as oops I tripped here’s a silly fic about babies and why can’t we just hate the people who were cruel to us for all the wrong reasons.

ANYWAY I loved reading  up on Vaxus, you have such an expansive history of character reference to work with!!! I hope you like, if you want me to change anything at all then please, let me know.


Dorian supposes that hating Halward Pavus would be easier if his father never loved him.

This is not a new thought—not a new thing to be churning around in his mind, this little bright and gleaming cog among all the filthy, jumbled clockwork that makes up Dorian’s memories of his father. The one that still turns right, when all the others would stutter and fail without it.

Sometimes he wishes it would tarnish. That he could find some long-repressed memory that will show his father’s to be a false thing from the start—and then he might wash his hands of the whole mess. Move on with his life, and let the name Pavus and a seat in the magisterium be the only things he takes from his father.

He almost—almost succeeds.

Then Felix falls, rather neatly, into their lives.

“Your son is still screaming.”

Dorian is certain that Vaxus’ response is, in fact, utterly inappropriate for young ears. Never mind that the beholder of said ears is but two hours into his fourth day on Thedas, or that the words themselves cannot be heard over his unending howling.

“What? Speak up, please, I cannot hear you over the sound of a very small despair demon.”

Dorian finds it utterly unfair that Vaxus still has the ability to laugh. All he’s been able to do is grow ever more snappish and disheveled the longer this goes on.

Vaxus is in bed, although he’s managed to sit up now. Blinking slowly, and a smile spreading across his features that is as equally vexing as it is charming.

“He’s a baby,” Vaxus informs Dorian, a level of amusement in his words that is simply ridiculous, for how little sleep they’ve both gotten. “They do that.”

Infuriating man.

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Guess whose still not over @cyber-fairie kid chargers? That’s right, me. Especially since there’s two more stories with them and I cannot handle how cute and wonderful the stories are. They Chargers such little troublemakers and absolute sweathearts, and Bull and Dorian as dads, I just don’t know what to do okay?! These were done over the course of a few weeks between everything else. I have a few more with the other companions I still want to finish. I love these stories so much. They’re some of my favorite kid fics and they just make me smile.

Kid Chargers fics : 1, 2, 3

Other kid Chargers art: 1

Little bit of rambling under the cut for some of the pictures because I put way to much thought into even tiny doodles.

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To the anon who just messaged me :)

First feel free to rant! I understand and I feel like I support/ed both Manorian and Malide (at one point). As much as I love manorian and ship it, I (hope and believe) that they turn out to be more then just a one time thing. But when I was reading QOS and (this was before manon even met Dorian so no one please get mad at me) 😬 I did like manon and elide together and to be honest I could have gone either way with how Sarah played it. When I read malide I was like “that’s some goooood shit” but I’m also cool with Manorian. 
Like that Manorian sex scene was fucking lit!okay I was reading it and I was FUCKING sweating. And yeah basically after the first manorian meeting and I realized how Sarah was laying this out I was like "yeah cool this is great” and I really loved how they interacted it made me like yeS and then after that I was hardcore manorian mainly because I really love elorcan as well and want them to be together.

So to summarize, I wasn’t picking a side until I read more about each and wanted to wait to see how Sarah went. But BEFORE I could have gone either way. However now I really like what she did. So I’m not against it but I just like they way they interact (and I also believe that manorian has some fate qualities as well, like manon was meant to be part of aelin and dorians lives) so that’s another reason why I love manorian and elorcan.