i just love angst you know

make it home 2

Yoongi’s POV

genre: angst


I stood at the door and put my jacket on, then strapped my gun to my side. “Yoongi wait,” she called after me.

I turned my attention towards her, trying to keep calm. If I said another word, I know I would’ve broken down right then and there. I can’t do that. I need to be a man and fight this ongoing war, I can’t just cry whenever I’m upset or nervous. Boy, was I nervous.

“I love you,” she said with a smile, “please come home to me.” She’s going to collapse in destruction any second, I can tell. This life of mine, it’s hurting her so bad. No matter what I do, though, she supports me. No matter what I choose to do in my life, she is right behind me, cheering me on. She’s smiling, but I know she’s breaking.

Responding to her wasn’t even an option, it was legitimately impossible. I can’t lie to her. If I told her I would make it home to her, I’d be bluffing and that would be obvious to both of us. All I could do was smile. In those three seconds that may be my last, I took in all of her. I looked at her, and I mean really looked at her. I may never get to see her ever again because of this.

There was word spreading around the streets about me. About me finally doing something with my life. The gang that killed my brother, they threatened to come to my home. My home, the only true safe place for my girl. They were never caught, mainly because they kept their profile very hidden. They never really associated with people outside of the gang. I’ve never encountered them, but I know how to identify them. They tie black bandanas around their right wrist and wear black face masks.

They threatened to hurt her, and the things they said they’d do to her made me sick. I couldn’t tell her about that, I didn’t want to scare her. Especially if I don’t come home to her, then she’d be extremely scared and mortified. I mean if I don’t make it, no one will be there to protect her. But if she knew what exactly was going on and the things they were saying, she would live in a world of complete fear and no safety. She didn’t need to know.

Keeping composed was a success, I made my way out without breaking down. Once I got outside, I took a deep breath and stood there for a moment. “I love you, mom,” I said, almost a whisper, “but I have to go. I’m sorry.”

I walked down the street, eyes peeled, completely aware of my surroundings. I had to keep an eye out for them, otherwise they’d shoot me without giving me a chance to fight back. Suddenly, a group of roughly six guys walked around from the side of a building. They didn’t look too suspicious, until I noticed something. Every single one of them had a black bandana tied around their right wrist. Their face masks were pulled down around their neck, so it took me a while to realize who I was dealing with.

There were no weapons in sight, but I knew each of them were strapped with at least one gun. I stopped in my tracks, as did they. The lead guy, he had three teardrops tattooed under his eye. To others, he’d be intimidated, but to me, he just angered me. When I looked at him, I saw my brother. My innocent brother whose life was taken way too soon.

I grew infuriated as we both stood there and just stared at each other. It felt like hours, but we were only standing there for 5 seconds.

“Hey Yoongi, remember me?” the leader asked rhetorically then chuckled, “I know you know of me, you just don’t know my name. Joon.” He spoke so calmly, as if he thought we were long lost friends. My hands were balled into fists, and he could clearly see. He chuckled again, “someone seems to be mad. What, is my presence making you mad?” He took a step closer to me. I swear, one more step and I pull out my gun.

“What’s your problem?” I spoke up. “Is there something wrong with me becoming successful?”

His taunting smile was replaced with a serious look. He looked me dead in the eyes, “Successful? There’s no such thing as successful when you’re from the streets. You won’t make it anywhere in life. The only reason your girlfriend sticks around is because she pities you. You’re not a true thug, you don’t belong here. You don’t belong anywhere,” his serious tone faded, and his annoying grin was back, “man, you’re just like your brother.”

I reached down for my gun, and before I could even reach it, Joon cut off my actions with his words, “you don’t want to do that, Yoongi.” And with that, I heard 7 guns clock, and in a matter of seconds they were all aimed at me. All of them had their guns out except for Joon.

How can I take on 6 guys? I can’t. I’m not physically capable of fighting them all off. My one gun can’t take them all, so what am I even doing reaching for my gun? Maybe he’s right, I can’t be successful. This background doesn’t appeal to anyone, so what made me think I actually had a chance? I’m not good enough for y/n, she doesn’t deserve to suffer like this every single day.

I let go of my gun and put my hands up. I surrender. “You want to kill me? Go for it,” I said calmly, “you probably want in on this Joon, so you should get your gun out.” He didn’t move, “so that’s how you want to play? Innocent, is that it?” he walked towards me, merely an inch away from my ear, “alright, if that’s what you want.”

He pressed his gun into my stomach and whispered, “3, 2,” bang.

I fell to the ground. My head started spinning, everything was changing colors. I looked up at what I could make out to be Joon, standing overtop of me. “Gave up so easily, Yoongi, I’m disappointed,” he sucked his teeth and sighed deeply, “I’m sure your girlfriend is too. You left her alone, as bait for us. Are you happy?” He stepped over my body that was drenched in blood, and disappeared along with his gang.

One shot was all it took. Why did I give up? Why did I not consider the fact that they’re still walking the streets, while my girlfriend is home alone, unprotected? I showed her where I keep my guns just incase something happens, but that’s not enough. I tried taking deep breaths, but I kept choking on blood. “y/n,” I called out, barely audible, “I’m so sorry.” I heard ambulances in the distance, and I knew I had to hold up until they got there.

I was fading away. I reached up to the paramedics arm to get his attention. I pointed to the officer that was first on the scene, hinting that I wanted him to come over to me.

“Son, what is it?” he asked calmly.

“Joon.”

My last word was the name of both mine and my brothers killer, but my last thought was my lover. God, y/n, I’m so sorry.

Hanahaki Disease - An illness born from one-sided love. Where the patient throws up and coughs of flower petals when they suffer from one-sided love.

You should know better than to fall for a Demon.

anonymous asked:

Hi lore! okay so I haven't watched 4x03 nor 4x04 and everyone's talking about Kane not being on the list (I know what the list is) and I'm major freaking out rn like I do not know what the hell is going on ahh!!! So can you please confirm if him not being on the list is canon or just a theory (because the kabby fandom does love their angst XD) Thank youu! <3

Hi dear! 

Unfortunately, Marcus not being on the list is canon (even though you’re right and the Kabby fandom does love angst) but we do know (by Ian’s tweets etc) that Marcus is still going to be alive at the end of the season so that’s something :) 

PSA

I am a ROLEPLAY WHORE in general. 

- SHIP WHORE: May it be platonic, romantic or hate ship, I’m definitely up for it. I want realistic relationships for my muses–people who challenge their beliefs and character–and it doesn’t just limit to romance. Specifically, I like ships that contribute to my muse’s character development and my partner’s muse’s development, too.

- PLOT WHORE: I have a lot of plots I want to write (you can see all them in my RP goals tag.) I’m very flexible with them, however, I do have some limits. If an idea makes me feel comfortable, I’d let you know, though. From canon plots down to anime-based plots and the likes. I’d be down with Werewolf / Vampire, Biblical, Apocalypse, Supernatural, you name it, and etc. 

- ANGST WHORE: I love angst. I’m a sucker for it. I live for it. It could be cute angst, dark angst, adventurous angst, or anything mixed with angst. I love to make my muses suffer and throw them into compromising situations. It’s a key to development.

- DEVELOPMENT WHORE: I’m very okay with pre-established relationships and fast-paced relationships, however, I want development to come with it. I want something to change for my muses; I want them to grow. They’re my babies, and as the mun, I want them to mature and change for the better .  .  . or worse.  

- THREAD WHORE: One thread is never enough for me. If I have one thread with you, chances are, I’ll want more. (May it be with the same pair of muses, or another set of muses.) I believe that it just doesn’t take one event/encounter  to make our muse’s relationships and characters flourish. IC asks are also included in the thread. I tend to send asks related to the event/encounter of our characters 

- ASK / MEMES WHORE: Once I get comfortable with you OOC, I tend to send a lot of them. Although sometimes, I’m very hesitant to send them, lest I’d annoy you. If it irritates you, though, please let me know. 

Harsh words sentence starters || Send one for my muse’s reaction

[[SEND “You don’t mean that” FOR ME TO PICK ONE FOR MY MUSE TO SAY TO YOURS]]

 "You’re embarrassing!“
"You act like a fucking child.”
 "Sometimes I can’t remember why I ever loved you in the first place.“
 "What did I tell you about trying to hold my hand in public?”
 "I don’t want people to know that I’m dating you!“
 "You’re pathetic…”
 "You make me sad. Just looking at you…“
 "I can’t be around you anymore.”
 "You’re not worth it.“
 "You’re nothing. Not to me. Not to anyone.”
 "Stop looking at me like that…like you’re expecting me to care. You should know better by now.“ "You’re useless.”
 "Loving you was the most idiotic thing I’ve ever done.“
 "Pretending to love you was excruciating.”
 "You thought I could really love someone like you?“
 "I’m just…getting tired of you.”
 "I have to get out. You’re ruining my life.“
 "I used to dream about you but now you’re the star of my nightmares.”
 "You’re a disappointment.“
 "I tried to love you..I really did.”
 "You’ll never be anything to me.“
 "I wished you realized how much I’ve grown to loathe you.”
 "You’re so ignorant.“
 "You look ridiculous!”
 "I’m not going out with you in public looking like that.”
 "Every one makes fun of you.“
 "You make me look bad.”
 "You’re a waste of time.“
"I’m not yours anymore!”
 "It’s not [her/him]! It’s anyone! I could love anyone more than I love you.“
 "You don’t deserve me.”

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DON’T LOOK AT ME PLS OMG
it gets a bit confusing to me coz i have a male oc that looks like how i draw zarya orz I FORGOT ZARYA’S TATTOOS IM SORRY

“At the moment, nothing”

FUCK YES. Sorry I know it’s all angst and sad and Malec are going to have to deal with a lot. But Let me tell you how much I love cold and calculating Magnus. It brings me life. Because everyone takes Magnus’ kindness for granted, they take his compassion and his love that he pours out so devotedly for granted. And when Magnus says ‘nothing’ you can look in vacated eyes and see nothing. I live for things like this, because it’s a reminder of what Magnus has gone through his immortality. Magnus Bane can be compassionate, loving, empathetic but he can also be cold and calculating and nonchalant if people push him. I LOVE IT.  

The Greatest Gift (Alexander x Reader)

Word Count: 9,279 (when i said it was long, i meant it…)

Warnings: SMUT, angst, swears

Authors Note: JUST FUCKING READ IT PLEASE. IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS FIC. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT, ALSO HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND ENJOY MY HOLIDAY FIC!

Request: this fulfills 2 requests but it will spoil it so i’m not gonna tell you…

Epilogue

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It was unfortunate. Of course you were in love with your best friend, and if that wasn’t bad enough, of course he had a girlfriend. You had met Lafayette through mutual friends, naive and young you thought you wouldn’t fall for the tall frenchman. You did eventually. At first it was denial. You couldn’t love him, he was your best friend.  You didn’t love him surely, but no. Every time you saw him, your world spun around your feet. You felt this way until he introduced Adrienne. She tagged along with everything you guys did and you had no choice but to be happy for them. For him. Because he was so in love with her it hurt you to see them together.

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K A I R O S | 04 | (M)

 /ˈkīräs/

(n.) the perfect, delicate, crucial moment; the fleeting rightness of time and place that creates the opportune atmosphere for action, words, or movement

An arranged marriage AU.

Paring: OT7.
Genre: fluff, angst, a lot of suggestive parts and eventual smut.
Waring: Mature content
Word count: 6.7k
Author’s note: Tell me what yall think!! I’d love to know what’s going on in your minds guys.

Parts: | 1 | 2 | 3 …

“But mom, I’m not going to live with a bunch of strangers-!”

“I had the maids pack your things last night, your bags are outside.”

//

Cliche is underrated.

Especially when you just got kicked out of your own house by your ever so loving parents to stay with seven boys you’ve only heard notorious things about.

Oh, and you’re supposed to pick one to marry by the end of next month.

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PART 1 PART 2

can you do one regarding really angst unrequited love? like confessing the day before the other’s wedding or something? can be for any member you like (i’m a sucker for angst and i don’t know why)

req by: anon

AHHHSDFGDFJGSL this made me so sad also hi im sorry ive been so lazy lately and not updating anywho im sorry this isnt a series its just a one shot request that was supposed to all fit into one post but it doesnt so thats why i split it up into two posts. i love yall. hope 2017 is treating u better than it’s treating me. XOXXOXOXOX

Affair of the Heart

Affair of the heart

Word count: 11.4k

Genre: smut, angst

You were in love with your roommate Hoseok. Jimin knows your secret and wants to help you make him jealous.

Happy Birthday to my world and sunshine! Im not trying to cry but I hope my angel has the best day ever!!


You got home, to your shared apartment, after your morning shift. You hated being a waitress but Sunday mornings did bring in a big crowd. You think people who just got out of church were supposed to be nice but no. Everyone is cranky and wants brunch. Either way people tipped you well this morning and you needed to go buy groceries for you and Hoseok.

Hoseok, you thought. You wondered if he was awake. It was about two in the afternoon so you figured not. You knew he went out for a night of drinking with his friends. You also knew he brought a girl home last night. Mostly because you could hear everything they had done last night, well technically this morning. His room was across from your room and down the hall, that’s how loud they were. You could hear the bed hit the wall, the way she was screaming out for him, it was all too much for you. Especially his moans, they sounded so dirty and needy. You just wished they were for you, aching for you. Here you were in the kitchen writing a grocery list and getting wet thinking about Hoseok moaning.

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Holiday Party - One Shot

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Summary: A holiday AU in which a very affectionate Bucky asks you a very big question.

Prompt(s):Request from that Xmas Prompt thing. Either all three, a combo of some, or just one. Please and thank you? “person a seducing person b into taking a few steps back/backing them against the wall (”oh look, how did that mistletoe get right there????”)” OR “PULLING YOU IN FOR A KISS WITH A SCARF” OR “i did that annoying thing where i put loads of smaller boxes inside one big box and you’re getting really mad but you don’t know that the ring is in the smallest box and i can’t wait to see your face.“

Warnings: Just one swear word. :) This is nonstop fluff are you kidding???

Word Count: 1497

Author’s Note: Fluff! @creideamhgradochas, Why do you send me proposal requests when I am an angst monster?? I love you but my teeth are falling out from the amount of floof here. Ok. Here you go, love. I’m trying trying trying to at least get the holiday requests out before Christmas XD We’ll see.


Originally posted by thejourney-so-far

Most people assume that James Buchanan Barnes, military man, ex-assassin, former Winter Soldier, is distant and reserved in a relationship, withholding affection except when you pull it out of him in quiet moments behind closed doors. Nothing could be further from the truth.

Bucky Barnes is an absolute pest. When you first started casually seeing each other it was exciting and fun. You loved how he’d make a show of swooping you into a deep kiss for absolutely no reason, only to return you to your feet bewildered and grinning like an idiot.

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I don’t want Alex Danvers to come out.

Er, let me try that again. 

I don’t want Alex Danvers to have to come out.

I want Alex to go to Kara and tell her about her crush on Maggie. In the ensuing scene, I never want to hear: I’ve never had a crush on a girl before or I’m not gay or I don’t know what I’m doing or It’s just her 

The gay panic story is getting old. It’s not the way many of us experience our sexuality. I don’t want wlw to be portrayed as something to be overcome or confusing or some exception. It’s not an earth-shattering revelation plot point that ends in tears and angst. I don’t want an emotional coming out scene with a thinly veiled it doesn’t matter who you love! I support you no matter what! good ally-ship moral. I’m sick of those.

I want Alex’s sexuality as a foregone conclusion.

She admits her feelings for Maggie and Kara is just like Wow, finally, I could see the sparks from space. Without super vision. And she’s so much cooler than your last girlfriend. 

So yeah. I don’t want Alex Danvers to come out. 

Because I don’t want her to have to.

To Be Close To You [P. 2] (Newt Scamander x Reader)

Originally posted by dmentr

✩ prompt: p2 of this and a request i had to write an angsty story about newt still being in love with leta lestrange. also i strongly recommend listening to “portrait gallery” by luke howard and “sparks” by coldplay whilst reading and after if you’d really like to wallow in melancholy.

✩ word count: the number of eddie's freckles

✩ warnings: melancholy angst and mild fluff 

To Be Close To You [P. 2]

She really doesn’t know how long they’ve been like this. How long they’ve been close like this. How long they’ve felt close like this. 

But, right now, in this moment, she’s allowed herself to be in love. Allowed herself to want more than just a freckled smile, or the glint of his eyes, allowed herself to indulge in the warmth of his chest and the heat of his breath on her skin.

She’s allowed herself, in these dissolving seconds to pretend they’re in love. To pretend that his closeness is not fleeting, that his touch isn’t out of friendship and that the kiss he plants on her forehead isn’t meaningless.

It seems like he’s everywhere and nowhere all at once. Because there are layers between them, that aren’t just clothing. 

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Crazy In Love

Originally posted by jeonbase

This is the full version of my mini fic, lil favor!

5.2k words. College!au. Min Yoongi. ft Park Jimin. Fluff.

Maybe making a deal with Yoongi to fake date for a month and do whatever he tells you to in exchange─ isn’t your brightest idea.


“Just so you know, I don’t like you.” You defiantly state.

The corner of Yoongi’s lips lifts up into a half smirk, gaze slanting your way, teasingly questioning your declaration. He tugs your intertwined hands to his side, yanking you closer to him as well until there’s hardly any space between the two of you.

“Likewise.” He says ever so calmly, it pisses you off.

You’re about to open your mouth to let a snarky remark put his smug ass in place but he beats you to it.

“You ready?”

The question brings you back to the situation at hand. Let’s see, you’ve made a deal with the devil, namely Min Yoongi who’s always been a tough competition in everything, you get the highest score in a test and he gets the highest score in your best class. Technically, asking your long term rival to pretend to be your fake boyfriend to ─how do you put it─ one up your ex, Jimin, whose presence is always graced by a group of female students after the rumor of the breakup made its way through campus, isn’t the best idea. But if it’s anyone that won’t judge you for your insecurities when you see those gorgeous girls Jimin is always seen talking to, or rather flirting with, then it would be Yoongi.

“Absolutely not.” You breathe out, eyes widening as if everything’s finally crashing down on you and hitting your square in the face with a stone brick.

“Good.” He smiles playfully, almost making you forget your purpose.

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You’re Not Dad

A/N: Not that anyone cares I’ve been hella busy and haven’t had time to literally write anything and I still really don’t, but I’m going to anyways bc I have some inspiration. Enjoy. Feedback is always appreciated(:

Characters: Dean x sister!reader, Sam x sister!reader

Warnings: swearing, angst, overprotective Dean, mention of death, yelling, very close relationship b/w Dean and reader? let me know if I missed anything

Tagging: @winchesters-favorite-girl because I think she might be interested and I really love and look up to her as a writer. I hope you don’t mind.

Originally posted by canonspngifs

Originally posted by zest-wincest

You loved your brothers more than anything in the world. I mean, you were practically raised by them. John was never around, your mom was just some quick fuck that John had on a hunt. As soon as demons got word that John Winchester knocked up some chick and he had another child, they came and killed your mother when you were only a few months old. Thankfully, your mom got John on the phone as they were trying to get in and he was in town so he saved you. Not your mom though. Dean had been 16 at the time, Sam was 12. You were by far the baby of the family and Sam and Dean made it their mission to protect you from everything. And when I say everything, I mean literally everything. You were never even supposed to have been born. But nevertheless, here you were seventeen years later, alive and kicking, living in the bunker with Sam and Dean, the two best brothers in the entire world.

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Weak- Cassian Andor

Originally posted by fuckyeahrebelcaptain

Pairing: Cassian Andor/OC

Prompt: #47: “How am I supposed to do anything when you’re looking at me like that”

Warnings: None, just kissing and angst. My usual MO. 

A/N: Okay so I know this has primarily been a Percivan Graves content blog for a while now, but I couldn’t resist. And I had a lot of encouragement so thank you xD I hope this turned out alright…he’s a difficult character to capture but I really, really loved writing this! Let me know what you think!


I heard footsteps coming up the ramp and turned to look over my shoulder. I smiled as Cassian poked his head around the corner. I should’ve expected him to turn up at some point. He seemed to know me better than I knew myself. I’d gone to the ship in an attempt to be alone, to gather my thoughts before tomorrow. Sleep was evading me, the way it always did before a big battle. Only this time it was different. I had a feeling about this particular battle, though it was a feeling I didn’t want to dwell on for too long. Cassian was about the only person I wanted to see right now anyways.

“Shouldn’t you be resting, Captain?” I asked, going back to cleaning my gun.

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boyfriend! sehun

- teasing each other a lot

- “jagiya why do you keep staring at me”

- “i was just wondering how someone could be so ugly

- “jagiyaaa”

- lots of cafe dates

- staying up late all the time

- getting jealous of vivi

- because honestly that sob gets more action than you and he knows it

- you could cuddle next to sehun on the couch but then that little shit will run into his lap

- and he’d look at you with a smirk when sehun takes him into his arms instead (or the closest thing to a smirk a dog can muster) bc he kNOWS  

- hugging you a lot

- like he’d come back home from practice and he wouldn’t say anything. you’d just be standing there pouring yourself some water and then you’d hear him sigh and just snake his arms around your waist

- neck kisses

- he’d love nuzzling his nose into your neck

- sometimes he gets emotional at night and you’d hold him tightly bc even tho he’s a tall, broad-shouldered guy, he’s also a real softie

- “jagiya?”

- “yes, sehun?”

- “i know i don’t say it much…but i love you. you know how much i love you, right?”

- “yes, sehun”

- he’d love seeing you wear his clothes

- idk why everyone says sehuns against pda bc i see him being VERY touchy feely in public

- he’d randomly hold your hand and sit you on his lap when you’re out with friends

- he’d cheekily run his hand down your back

- and squeeze your ass when no one’s looking

- then he’d smirk and lick his lips when you hiss his name

- "you don’t have to say it so angrily you know you like it”

- “can you stop?”

- “thats not what you were saying last night”

- super cheeky bastard

- he’d think of you all the time

- if he’s walking home one evening and he sees something that reminds him of you he’ll buy it right away

- and he’ll be so excited to give it to you

- he’ll hide it somewhere you look often, like the fridge or next to the tv and then watch your reaction when you realize he got you something

- he loves seeing that little smile that lights up your face and the kiss that he knows will follow

- you’ll be the type of couple that’ll be sitting right across from each other at a cafe on your phones, tagging each other in memes

- “hey sehun?”

- “yes, babe?”

- “this looks like you”

- “can you not”

- randomly catching him looking at you

- then he’ll turn away shyly before you crawl into his lap and hug him

- his hugs are super warm and cuddly

- he’ll take you into his arms and wrap himself around you and press his cheek against your neck

- he’d love making you laugh. he thinks your laugh is the cutest thing in the world

- he’d make fun of you and you’d go “sehun!” and hit him but then the two of you would burst into laughter together

- he doesn’t smile much without incentive but he’s all smiles around you

a/n might turn into a series?? idk but this is what i imagine when i picture sehun as a bf :’) hope you enjoyed!