no offence but how often do you think about what even felt after his manic episode? i think about this a lot when i rewatch that episode and when i read his text to isak. can’t even say how words ‘sorry if I frightened you. sorry that I have hurt you. sorry for not telling you that I’m bipolar’ tear my heart apart. how guilty did he feel for hurting the boy about whom he cares the most?
how unbearable was this feeling? he hated himself for who he was. he just wanted to be in the another universe where he doesn’t have a bipolar disorder and
where nothing can get in the way of him being with isak.
he hated himself for not being able to stay away from isak for isak’s sake. he let himself be with him and not only ruin everything but scared isak, made isak hate him /as he thought/. he just wanted to disappear and not feel anything.
I feel uncomfortable exposing any of my blogs as none if them have anything to do with being mer, sorry. I know that some boys are okay with being called 'mermaid'. It's just that too many people use it as the gender neutral and i cry about this a lot because I feel like no one acknowledges my existence. But I guess thats just cryptid life, huh? I hope your boy mermaid friend has a nice day. Sorry for being upset about his post - mer anon.