“You were the best thing ever happened to me, and I’ll keep on fighting just to make you believe…”
So this has taken me way too long to post but I did it eventually!! In my defence, I got ill after this show and had to recover in time for Birmingham and since Birmingham, I’ve been busy with appointments so.
This was 10th March 2017 and it was the best day of my life. I’ve been a fan of ATL for nearly 5 years now and one look at either this blog or my ATL blog (zacks-making-a-fucking-speech.tumblr) will tell you that I love these boys very much. I found them when I was in the darkest place I’ve ever been in, in my entire life and they helped pull me out of it. I know it sounds cliche but All Time Low really did save my life. When I found them, it was at a time where I always just felt so numb and they let me feel something through their music. About a month after I became a fan, I finally told my parents how I felt and that I’d been self-harming and I got referred to therapy and pulled out of school. In the build up to my first therapy appointment, I was so terrified and these men were the only thing in my life that showed me that people understood. I’d listen to Therapy non-stop bc I felt like it ripped the words from my throat. I’d cry myself to sleep at night with my headphones in, thanking god that there was at least someone out there that seemed to understand how I felt. ATL helped me go through with therapy and I’m so much better for it. I can’t thank them enough. It took me 3 years to meet them the first time and even though it was only a signing, I’m still SO grateful for that day. But I still so desperately wanted M&G one day, I wanted pictures with them and I wanted hugs and I wanted to get to properly talk to them. I love them so much and I’m so glad I finally got this opportunity. Thank you, The Hustler Club. Believe me, this has made my entire life. I now look at these pictures when I’m sad and remember the day Jack Barakat told me to stay clean of self-harm, the day Rian Dawson picked me first out of 30 Hustlers, the day I told Zack Merrick that he has helped me realise that shyness doesn’t have to stop me from getting what I want in life, the day that Alex Gaskarth called my ATL tattoos awesome, and the day that my absolute heroes signed their names for a new tattoo that I hopefully will be getting either in a couple weeks or in May. I love All Time Low to the fucking moon and back and that will never, ever change. ❤
PS. Jack and Alex wanted to take multiple photos, I didn’t ask them to lmao