i just got severely distracted when i remembered seeing smth like this

i have no idea if this is possible or if it would even go well, but imagine jeremy and jean travelling to france, to marseille and what it would be like

  • no matter what happened with his family or the moriyamas, jean is still intensely fond of his hometown at least
  • when he was still a kid, he would sit at the sea for hours because he didn’t want to go home yet and listen to the waves crash against the shore
  • it always helped him soothe the pain a little bit and strengthen him enough to take the walk back home
  • so when jean first arrived at edgar allen he was angry, hurt, confused and stuck underground??? the entire time??? broken over and over without a ray of sunlight ever touching his abused skin for weeks, even months on end
  • and oh god did he miss the sea waves, the soft sand under his feet and the sun warming him up bc really, no one else ever did
  • the first time riko pushes him down the stairs is actually the one and only time jean tried to escape, tried to go back home and riko just keeps on doing it whenever he sees that faraway look in jeans eyes
  • so after his first year with the trojans passes and he has healed at least enough to wonder, what if?????
  • when he shares this thought, quite reluctantly though, with jeremy the what if doesn’t stay a what if for long
  • jeremy books plane tickets that same night after he’s sure jean is fast asleep
  • the next morning, jean wakes up with two plane ticket print outs being pressed in his face and a beaming jeremy
  • he needs a moment to register what this means bc oh my god jeremy you did not-
  • oh yes he did
  • so summer and the holidays roll around and while all their teammates slowly disperse, jean and jeremy pack up for 2 weeks in marseille
  • jean is really anxious and nervous because there is the high possibilty that he might run into his family or any people he knows and that thought is entirely unpleasant
  • he doesn’t want jeremy to notice tho because he is looking forward to it too
  • but of course jeremy notices but he wisely doesn’t comment and tries to keep being the support jean so desperately needs
  • they arrive after a rlly long flight and jean is just on panic mode 1000 because this is really happening oh fuck oh fuck why did i think i could-
  • and jeremy just takes his hand and quietly “remember what we practised? in - you’re going to be fine, out - because i’m with you”
  • jean isn’t feeling completely comfortable yet but he’s once again so glad to have jeremy with him?? some divine happiness distribution worker must’ve seriously fucked up the paper work because does this really belong to him???? this happiness??? with jeremy?? and it’s not going to get ripped from his hands anytime soon?????
  • anyway
  • they leave the airport and head to their hotel (jeremy had asked beforehand if there were any places jean wanted to avoid, to make it at least a little bit easier)
  • it’s small and cozy and they share a queen bed but it is going to be fine
  • jeremy is definitely the type of person to get excited over the little bottles of shampoo and soap that are scattered in the bathroom and he loves how soft the towels are!!! jean you have to feel this!!!!!
  • jean is the type of person to steal those towels for his boyfriend when they leave
  • so the first days they spend walking around town, holding hands and being generally adorable
  • jean keeps glancing at the people around them to search for any familiar faces, so he was a little distracted at times even when jeremy was talking to him 
  • with each passing day he visibly started to relax tho
  • and slowly but surely he would start to share little stories about his childhood here and there and tell jeremy everything he knew about the different places they’re visiting
  • like that time he was running home because it was already getting dark and he had lost track of the time sitting at the sea
  • but he fell and scraped his knee and he tried to supress his tears so much but of course he’s a kid so it doesn’t really work and suddenly this old lady walks over to him and helps him up and asks if he’s okay and he’s so stunned he just nods
  • the old lady then smiles and tells him because he’s being so brave, she’s going to give him these navette de marseille
  • jeremy doesn’t know what that is so of course he has to ask and jean’s just “….find out for yourself. i’m going to get you some tomorrow”
  • jeremy’s smile is brighter than the fucking sun and jean might or might not have to look away 
  • the two weeks pass so fast and surprisingly with very little incidents and jean is actually smiling and jeremy’s heart definitley stopped beating several times
  • seeing jean in his natural surroundings, finally walking with a little more ease and familiarity in his step (because marseille is easily such a huge part of who jean is), speaking french freely with these slightly unfriendly people and hearing his accent slip more and more into his english
  • jeremy is in love has always been will always be
  • but there’s still something missing
  • on their very last day they go down to the sea
  • of course they’ve seen glimpses here and there throughout the entire trip but they haven’t been there yet
  • after what riko did to him, jean’s feelings for big bodies of water are complicated and troubled and once again, he’s so glad to have jeremy with him
  • so on their last day they just. sit down on one of those big stones at the edge of the beach
  • jean’s hands are shaking but he’s taking a deep breath as if he’s only now able to breathe again
  • they sit in silence for a few minutes before jeremy whispers “it’s beautiful”
  • and jean has to take another deep breath before he says jeremy’s name and “i’m. i’m really glad you…..you took this trip with me. i don’t think i would’ve been able to come here on my own”
  • he doesn’t look at jeremy as he’s saying this, eyes instead on the ocean and jeremy looks up to him
  • jean’s green eyes and freckles and faint tan and jeremy smiles “I’m just glad you let me take this trip with you. i’m glad i got down your defenses enough that you were able to share it with me. and i mean, what would i have done without you, the greatest guide in the entirety of marseille?”
  • jean kinda elbows him and jeremy laughs and rests his head on jean’s shoulder and they’re happy