I just love you so fucking much
(Zach Dempsey mini-series part II)
A/N: Here you have a second part, I think I’m going two more parts (like a mini series) so enjoy it :)
Warnings: English is not my first language.
REQUESTS ARE OPEN
It had been almost four months since Zach asked me out that wonderful day and I’m glad to say that I made the right decision because being with him was the best thing that had happened to me in a long time.
I already knew how kind he could be, but now it was something totally different, he made me feel like if there were no one else in this world but us, he always had a compliment for me in the mornings and the thing I liked the most was that he never tried to hide our relationship, in fact, there were times that it looked like he wanted everyone to know that we were together.
Nevertheless I didn’t like spending time with his friends, I have to say that Alex was my favourite and we used to talk in school, Justin was better than I expected, Monty thought he was better than everyone else and I didn’t even want to see Bryce, having him around made me feel uncomfortable.
Even though everything was ideal there was something around my head lately and it was the fact that we hadn’t done it yet. There had been so many opportunities, but we didn’t make it to the end.
We were taking things slowly and I loved it because that was one of the reasons why our relationship was drama free, bit when it came to that particular thing I couldn’t help but feel bad with myself because it was always him the one who avoided the situation and I knew he had been in other relationships and one night stands, so I couldn’t understand why he didn’t want to have sex with me.
“Oh come on love” he begged pulling my hand backwards in his direction so I could face him “come to the party, you never come to any of them” he was making a puppy face, something he knew that always worked.
“Maybe because I don’t like parties and because you always get drunk” I answered trying to stay firm.
“I promise, if you come I won’t drink a single cup” he said lifting his hand, like he was doing an oath.
“I don’t know Zach… I don’t feel like going to a party” I stopped looking at him and I lowered my tone “but that doesn’t mean you can’t go and have fun”
If there were something I wanted to avoid that was being a possessive girlfriend, one who deprives his boyfriend of things if she’s not involved, I didn’t want to make Zach stop having fun because of my insecurities.
“I would have fun if you were there” I looked at him in the eyes again, with all the love I had to give him with just a look and he brought his lips to mine immediately.
“I’m going to be late for math” I mumble between kisses.
“Then I’ll see you later” he said before giving me another kiss in my lips and other in my forehead, he let my hand go and left for his next class.
I walked to math where I sat with Alex, which wasn’t a great help because neither him nor me were good in this class.
While we were doing the exercises the teacher had said, and I had to say I was trying really hard to understand something in that paper, Alex talked.
“Are you going to tell me what the matter is?” I lifted my head to look at him, I didn’t get what he was talking about “You’re awfully quiet today and what’s even worst, you’re trying to do this exercises, something is really wrong” I sighed, resting my back in the chair; I didn’t think it was so obvious.
“Normally I wouldn’t say this to anyone, I’m not that kind of person who talks about her private life, but since you know Zach longer than me, maybe you can help me with something” I lowered my voice so no one could hear us, even though we were sitting at the back of the class.
“The thing is… Zach and me, we haven’t… you know” I didn’t want to say it out loud, but he got what I was trying to say “and it’s always him the one who makes some excuse to avoid the situation and I’m losing my mind trying to find a reasonable answer”
“Have you asked him?” he said it as if it was the most obvious thing to do.
“Of course no, I don’t want to scare him or something. I mean, it’s Zach, why wouldn’t he want to do it? I know his history perfectly”
“Do you think he’s cheating on you?”
“What?!” I exclaimed in a whisper “Not until now, thank you Alex”
I didn’t want Alex’s words to get to me, but unfortunately it was too late, they were setting a camp in my head and taking control of my insecurities.
“I’m sorry, I thought you were trying to say that” I couldn’t be mad at Alex for suggesting that, I’m sure that’s the first thing you think about in a situation like this.
The bell rang and I got my things really quick to get out of there before Zach came to pick me up like he always did between classes.
I didn’t want to overreact because I hated when that happened, but I couldn’t help the feeling inside me telling me to go home, so I listened to it and I left without saying a word.
There were no one at home, so I went upstairs to my room and once I was there I let myself fall on my bed with my hands on my face, like if that could make reality disappear, I was making a big deal of this.
My phone rang again, it’s been ringing since I left, calls and messages form the same person, Zach. I hadn’t read the messages, but I could imagine he wanted to know where I was and what was going on and as much I wanted to avoid the situation I couldn’t do it forever, so I took my phone and I read the messages, replying to them just with “I’m home.”
I didn’t get an answer, but I knew why and when I heard someone knocking at my door I confirmed my doubts.
I went downstairs and opened, when I saw him I noticed how worried he was, but he didn’t say anything due to the expression on my face. I step aside so he could come inside and I closed the door, going to my room again followed by Zach this time.
When I heard he closing the door I turned to look at him, trying to prepare myself for what I was going to say.
“Zach… are you cheating on me?” I pushed my lips together after asking that, I didn’t want to cry for this.
“What?! Of course not, why would you think that?” he asked sorting the space between us and trying to grab my hand, which I moved away.
“Because I don’t know what to think, I’m losing my head trying to understand why every time we’re about to do something more than just make out you stop and make some excuse to leave” his expression was confusion, he was going to say something, but he closed his mouth again “If you don’t want me you just have to say it, but please… don’t make me fall more for you” my voice was cracking more and more by the second “Because I will suffer more when you leave” He sighed and looked me right in the eyes, putting his hands on my cheeks.
“In what world I wouldn’t want you?” he asked looking from my eyes to my lips and back to my eyes again, like if he was doing a big effort by not kissing me right now.
“Because I love you” my heart stopped in that exact moment, he was the first of us to say those words “and I didn’t want you to think that you were like the rest, because you’re nothing like them”
I put my arms around his neck and I kissed him like I’ve never kissed him before. He brought his hands to my waist and kissed me back passionately making both of us breathless.
“I love you Zach” I said just a few inches from his lips just before he kissed me again.
I felt him smile widely while we were kissing due to my words and I couldn’t help but giggle and break the kiss.
With his arms around my waist he lifted me from the ground; I put my legs around his waist and laughed even more. He walked to my bed, tripping over my bag in the process and making us fall in the mattress.
“You were supposed to be the clumsy one” he said, still on top of me.
“We can share the title” I answered cupping his face between my hands and kissing him.
His kisses were different from the usual, this time they were more passionate and needed, which turned me on so much.
I put my hands on his shoulders, grabbing the neck of his letterman jacket with my hands and taking it off of him.
Then I slide my hands down his torso until I reached the end of his t-shirt and I got my hands under the fabric so I could touch his warm skin. He kissed his way through my lips to my neck making me moan a little and lifting his shirts quickly.
He sit himself straight to take the shirt off completely and I could look at his spectacular body, which a loved feeling on mine.
He put his hands in the sides of my head again, but before he kissed me again I enclosed my arms around his neck and made us roll on the mattress so I would be on top of him.
I looked at him, smiling like a fool when I saw his smile. I sorted the distance to kiss him, but this time slowly, just enjoying the friction between his lips with mine.
I stopped the kiss to look at him again, caressing the soft skin on his cheeks.
“What’s wrong?” he asked
“Nothing” I stopped for a second “I was just looking how lucky I am” I whispered.
He put his hands on my hips while he sat straight under my legs, in that position our faces were at the same height, but I can swear my heart was above the clouds.
“Oh god I just love you so fucking much” he said with a waspy voice before he sweetly kissed me again.