i just feel like this video is really underated

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Maybe I should make a video on this… or maybe not… I’ve reached the point ajere I think people don’t even watch my videos anymore.

Is not like I don’t make it clear that I don’t want spoilers like this out there, or that this exact same spoiler was what caused this whole Problem I’m in right now.

It also doesn’t take more than 1 second of using of brain to be like “wait, I am uploading someone else’s work without permission. If I upload this I’m just getting views off something I didn’t do, and that the creator probably wants to keep as a secret”

But NOPE, these dumb donkeys that act like a human do not think about that. AND THEY THINK IS COOL! Like they’re being a hero or some shiz by uploading a video that got deleted!

I haven’t been able to progress in my animtion at all this week, because I feel so uninspired to do anything because of this. Between the copyrighr strike, between the constant re-uploads of a full minute of animtion of my next wpisode without permisions, between my really crapy health condition at the moment (which gets worse and worse out of stress) it just… feels like it defeated me.

Makes me think, if people are clearly not watching my videos that don’t have the word Glitchtale plastered on the title (because if they had they would’ve realised that I don’t want spoilers somewhere) Then … crap man, I’ll be able to keep up woth this job for like another year or two and then what. I’ll probably live under a bridge or something.

I’m sorry I’m ranting ONCE AGAIN about this whole issue, but I have no one to share this with and I feel like if I keep it to myself I’m gonna break down.

But I find this spoilers in a daily basis right now. And I don’t feel like a video will fix it, people just don’t care, or they’ll do it anywaus regardless because they think is funny.

anonymous asked:

Leela, oh man I can't wait to read your response to this video, tbh while I was watching it, half of my brain was just thinking about how much I was looking forward to your reaction

this is so unbelievably sweet and i can’t believe that you look forward to hearing my thoughts so much!! i’m going to be completely dead honest with yall (when am i not tbh) … i was not one of the people who was super jazzed about the idea of a pastel edits video. i totally sided with dan in his past live show responses about the idea–that there’s no cohesive culture or stereotypical tropes around “pastel” that they could try to imitate, and also (though he didn’t say this) that it’s basically just a product of a sort of sexualized trope that tumblr seemed to make up out of thin air. i think i generally felt that at worst it would make them really uncomfortable, and at best it would just be a video of them putting on random pastel clothes and maybe wigs and making fun of the whole concept and that’s about it. so like. god damn, i was not prepared for how good this was nor the boundaries that it pushed, especially coupled with the tweet from dan preceding it. and even though there was still a lot of mockery and grumbling about it, especially from dan, i was not prepared for how much they would genuinely enjoy it and have fun with it. i think that’s just a testament to them and their connection/chemistry more than anything–it seems like there are very few scenarios and situations they get into together that they don’t end up completely loving and enjoying almost purely bc of how much they’re able to make each other laugh and bring each other joy. but also, in this case, bc they were so visibly enjoying the opportunity to touch and flirt and see each other wear a totally different look to their norm (and incidentally those exact things were what made punk edits irl such an incredible video too).

that being said, it wasn’t all just flirting and softness. there was some unexpected depth to this, or at least, a lot of room for me to speculate about what it might mean for them to be making a video like this, speculate about how they might feel about it, etc. and in order to do that i’m going to discuss a whole bunch of things that happened in the vid in three general categories: soft things, sarcastic things, and sexual things lol. one overarching observation to begin though: um. not to objectify but. phil is lookin damn fine. idk if his running/gyming are already having an impact but he somehow looked really well built in that t-shirt in a way i don’t think i’m used to seeing, so. ok. just had to get that out of the way.

1. soft things:

obvi, deeper analysis aside, there was a lot of genuinely sweet, wholesome, lovely shit happenin’ in this vid and it all had me close to tears. first of all. the brief and gut-wrenching return of the music from the blindfolded cat game vid and the dan and phil do poppen kookin vid, aka the softest videos known to mankind. thx phil. also interesting bc that means he def associates that music with softness and maybe he thinks about those videos as being soft and adorable and pure in the same way that we do. then,,,, phil going so high pitched when he talks about dans curls and saying that he’s ‘obsessed’ and dan getting all flustered when phil touches his hair and forgetting how to talk lol. “am i consenting you?” same. just generally, this was a video full of phil being rly into dans neck tattoo and dans curls and,,,, dan. just generally lmao. ik they lie all the time about preparing for videos and make it sound like phil does all the preparation even when dan has a hand in it, but in this case i really want to believe that phil actually went out (or online) shopping for dan and picked out that sweater and dungarees mostly bc he thought it’d be rly cute to see dan wearing them, which is why he also seemed to expend less effort on shopping for his own outfits. i loved his emphatically positive comments about the various elements of the get-up like when he was putting the tattoo on dan’s neck and told him that it would look amazing in such an earnest completely non-sarcastic way!!!! and a bit earlier when dan decided to also compliment phil out of nowhere, ALSO in such a genuine and emphatic and non-sarcastic way, regarding his “accurate cutting out” skills. the way that dan was instinctively so happy with phil’s arm tattoo and his first thought was to tell phil it matches his eyes before he naturally diluted it by slipping into a sarcastic tone of voice. and the way that he was so supportive of phil’s blue wig in a way that went beyond “u look good,” but rather was more along the lines of “u look good AND this fits with this deeper thing about you that i love so much and that shows how deeply i know you, namely the way that you want to make an impact when u enter a room” ahhhhhh goodness i think they both really found each other to be very pretty in these outfits, and doing a video like this is is as much a fun and exciting thing for them to experience as it is for us to watch.

one thing that really stood out to me was the moment when dan talks about feeling like he wants to do some ‘soft’ things after assuming this new persona and then he lists some examples of what those might be: writing a poem, cloud gazing, buying some sorbet, and then phil pitches in with surfing off the edge of a waterfall … which like,,, what? lmao. but the reason this moment hit me so hard is because it was the first point in watching the video that i realized that they were completely avoiding associating the concept of “pastel” with some more generalized concept of “femininity” and rather, just associating it with softness and aesthetic choices, both of which they proceeded to discuss throughout the video with absolutely no gender typecasting attached. so in this exchange, it really struck me that even when they were listing ‘soft activities’ they didn’t say anything about wanting to do activities that are stereotypically girly, nor did they shy away from talking about embracing things that could be perceived in that way like writing poetry or hugging unicorns or eating sorbet or whatever else. really the only mention of gender at all during the video was when phil talks about finding male underwear (on dan’s laptop btw, i just need to point that out) and even then they were just bemused at the idea that men would *want* to embrace the pastel but feel the need to hide it under their jeans lol. idk,, i’ve written about this before at great length (especially last year when dan bought the rhinestoned gatorland hat) but it’s just so lovely to see both of them progress to this point of total comfort with how they might be perceived and give absolutely no mind at all to any nasty stereotypes that people might launch at them for being two men in an extremely close relationship deciding to dress up in pink and touch each other and hold rainbow umbrellas and light up unicorns. like. the very THOUGHT of that happening a few years ago would be totally absurd especially with dan’s own seemingly internalized homophobia and both of their enforcement of gender binaries/heteronormativity. and yet, it’s a point that i will never stop making bc i can’t adequately express how happy it makes me: dan and phil have grown so much. we’ve watched them blossom into these self-assured people who are confident not only in themselves but in their relationship with each other, who are proud not only of themselves but of their relationship with each other, and who no longer feel such an innate need to hide.

2. sexual things:

in a similar vein, there was so much surprisingly overt sexual flirting and innuendo in this video that absolutely was not demanded by the situation at all. with last years halloween baking, one could make the argument that it’d be hard to mess about with melted chocolate and poke sticks into balls without making a lot of innuendos and giggling at them. but,,, there’s nothing in any way sexual about phil clipping on dan’s overalls for him….like. it was a completely innocent thing for phil to do. but dan decided to say “strapping me up on camera there’s a certain audience for this sort of video” while it was happening, as though *inviting* us to interpret this sexually, putting the thought into our heads on his own terms. the same applies to the tweet teasing the video. first of all he didn’t need to tweet at all but he did, to promo a video that wasn’t even on his own channel i want to point out. and if he wanted to promo it he could’ve just done a generic “just got done filming with phil” tweet or even a “wow just got done filming with phil and now we’re so messy” tweet but instead of leaving it there he took it to an explicitly sexual place of his own accord and, again, on his own terms. i can’t think of an explanation for this besides the notion that dan wants us to get used to thinking about them in sexual contexts, and he’s trying to push back a little on the strictly platonic and g-rated image they’ve built for themselves and their interactions. of course one could easily point out as a counter-argument that this isn’t the absolute first time they’ve made sexual comments about themselves. a good fairly recent example, but still pre-baking universe, was when they did the 3 legged ddr video on dapg and dan kept making comments about bondage and whatnot. but that still seems so different to me than many of the examples from this video for two reasons: first because, as mentioned before, the situation in the 3 legged ddr vid, in which they were literally taping themselves together, kind of demands innuendo in a more immediate way than like, strapping on overalls does. and, second, because the comments in that vid still seemed a tad uncomfortable, somewhat like dan envisioning the way that people would be screaming about these moments and sexualizing them anyway, and feeling forced to acknowledge the sexual overtones of the situation himself to get out in front of it. in this video, the difference is that dan truly and happily *went out of his way* to make these sexual and flirty comments, about the overalls, about tattooing phil’s penis or his ass, about phil biting him if he (dan) mentions cotton candy. and on and on. like,,,,, totally unnecessary, totally comments that dan made of his own volition bc he *wanted* to and *chose* to and that is so so important to me.

at the same time, phil, while less vocal in his flirting, broke the g-rated boundaries in his own ways, especially, and probs most memorably, by unzipping his trousers plainly in view of the camera and then plainly in view of dan. i was really shocked to see that and felt like i’d been totally transported back to 2008 lol. they’re both making these conscious decisions to unravel certain parts of this veneer they’ve had in place for so long and it’s something so exciting and monumental to me.

3. sarcastic comments:

as exciting as all of the above is, there hasn’t been a total transformation yet. there was still some visible discomfort with aspects of what they were doing, mostly on dan’s part, but a bit on phil’s as well, and to me it came out mostly in the form of super sarcastic comments sprinkled throughout the video. at 2:38 when dan says “it’s just like so pastel,” in the most mocking voice of all time. pretty much the whole time they are looking thru the example pics and trying not to make fun of the edits, but then basically openly shitting on the whole concept of aesthetic moodboards and whatnot. the “this is so stupid” comment that dan makes around that time. at 5:38 phil saying, “wow dan you look so soft.” this one is less clear but to me it definitely sounded sarcastic and mocky. at 6:59 the voice/face dan uses when he says “these soft knees. woowwwww.” at 9:07 when dan asks, “what is my life? why do i keep agreeing to these stupid videos? … do you deserve this?” and then at the end, phil saying “the things we do for you guys” and promoting dan’s channel, with dan quickly reassuring people his content is “not like this.” there are just these threads of self-consciousness and self-awareness that i don’t think they were fully able to shake, and an awareness specifically that this video seems/feels a lot like pandering, or at least specifically responding to something that was so vehemently requested by the audience and that they’re pretty clearly doing it just to “give the people what they want” (even though of course they ended up appearing to love it and have so much fun with it). this whole aspect of video-making for an audience is always going to be a tricky one for them, because they both pride themselves on originality and creativity and a so-called quality threshold and all that other bullshit, so choosing to make a video that is such a fervent fan request and that doesn’t involve the same creative energy that they’d normally want probably makes them somewhat uncomfortable (esp if that video is one where they have to literally dress up as a popular fan fantasy and touch each other a lot). that’s why it was so particularly interesting to me to hear phil say “well we’re on my channel there’s no integrity here,” because from *our* perspective it’s true that phil seems to care less about the quality threshold that dan talks about, and that he’s happy to put up fluff content (with dan) quite frequently whether it be a phil is not on fire or a day in the life or a baking vid or whatever else. phil’s clearly speaking in amusement and jest when he says his channel has no integrity but undelrying the humor is a clear separation they seem to see between the purpose of their channels and i was surprised to hear it reiterated so directly. this coupled with what we know about phil being more business-minded, having an on-camera presence that seems to be more different from his real self than dan’s, censoring himself, keeping his thoughts somewhat reserved, ,,, there are lots of connections here that i’m seeing but not finding the best words for in this moment. i think what i mean is that phil views his channel as entertainment in the most literal and fundamental way: the purpose is to please the audience, make them feel good and happy, and give them what they want to see. that process doesn’t necessarily require him to put a lot of himself out there. on the flip side dan sees his channel and his content as true artistic endeavors that are representative of who he is, his value as a creator and maybe even as a person since he connects so much of his self-assigned meaning of life to his career. all of this is shit we knew, but. i’ve never heard phil comment so glibly and cavalierly about that divide. the comment felt super important to me.

overall: there’s such a strongly purposive quality to everything dan and phil choose to do. even amongst all of the sensory onslaught of this video, the scenes of dan stroking phil’s arm and phil cooing over dan’s curls and both of them referencing sex and sexual situations so much, it’s this mindfulness, the transparently premeditated nature of it all, that hit me hardest and that i cannot stop thinking about. they’ve made so much progress in such a relatively short space, with their comfort levels and their confidence and their ability to disregard audience perceptions or, if they do regard it, to at least not let it dictate their behavior so damn much. ultimately with a video like this, when so much seems to have shifted, my mind always goes back to the frame-by-frame way in which videos are edited and the consequently frame-by-frame way that dnp watched this video back, looked at every joke they made, every touch they shared, and decided to leave things in as they were. decided to sit and maybe draft a tweet together that very consciously broke down their carefully constructed walls. it all is very deliberate and that matters. this video could definitely in my opinion be remembered as a turning point much like halloween baking if it is followed by more behavior that pushes boundaries, more conversation about defying gender roles and stereotypes, more sexual humor, etc. it was so exciting to watch and i’m so proud of them on so many levels.

(dan and phil pastel edits irl

The thing about Quan Zhi Gao Shou is, it’s a story that really seems to get what playing an action-based mmorpg/moba is like. Sword Art Online is neat in concept but mechanically weak, getting weaker every iteration; Log Horizon is pretty generic and economy-based rather than combat-based; and as much as I love the original .hack// series, it explains zero on the gaming side of things, veering more on the side of eerie philosophy.

On top of that, those three I just mentioned are all under the conceit of ‘trapped in a video game, so the game is reality now, so no limitations on experience’ - which is great and all, but those kind of high stakes really lose the ‘game’ aspect of the story. 

So, even though I’m just a casual gamer, I really appreciate how QZGS manages to capture and convey how playing a really good game feels to a player. I can even backtrack, mentally re-translating everything in-game on the show into what actual game visuals might look like and how it might feel to see that as a player. That’s neat, and I’m loving it.

Also, it’s an engaging character-driven story, and I can appreciate that. I like how the protagonist is an adult and how the story has humorous moments without going over-the-top with comedy, like ½ Prince does. Though, that’s not fair - they may both be mmorpg settings, but they’re targeting different demographics.

What I’m really appreciating is the absence of fanservice though. A game anime without fanservice but with skilled female gamers. Well-appreciated, I hope it keeps it up.

hey how do you tell if a horse is engaged? I can feel it when i ride, and i can see the difference between side by side videos of engaged vs un-engaged movement but when i’m actually watching a horse move, i’m just like ??? I don’t know what to look for really… I try to go by a round back (hard for me to tell mostly), how far the horse steps under itself and if their back legs stretch back far or stay close to the body but honestly i’ve just been pretending that i know 

Black Honey: Pt. 1

Summary: Starfire and Robin are officially an item, but what does that mean when the resident empath is stuck living between their respective bedrooms? Finding a new bunk buddy in Beast Boy was certainly not her first choice, and when she engages in a strange, night time activity, how long before the changeling notices what she’s up to? 


The Titans were happy for Robin and Starfire.

Genuinely happy.

It had been a long, long time coming, after all. The couple had been dancing around one another for as long as anyone could remember, neither ever bold enough to act on their genuine feelings for each other. Robin had been too thick headed, and Starfire apparently too subtle and unsure. So, when they had finally established their new, romantic relationship, every other Titan had been thrilled with the news.

That is, until their incessant romping sessions.

No one could blame them; something vague about teenagers, hormones, and pent up sexual frustration while living in close quarters. Not to mention, the bubbling sexual tension that had finally culminated into one hot, passionate affair after all those years. It was well earned, well deserved, and perfectly understandable that both the Titans leader and the alien beauty couldn’t keep their hands off each other. Once they’d tasted that forbidden fruit, it was near impossible to go back to anything else.

When the ‘sleepovers’ grew in frequency, and often throughout the wee hours of the early morning, the other Titans put up with it. They dealt with the lust filled cries, the sound of the creaking bedframe, of the steady banging against the thin walls while the mattress springs squeaked beneath their weight. It was all sweet in the beginning, and it was always nice to see the usually tense boy wonder unwind and relax after spending a relaxing evening with his girlfriend.

However, eventually, it became grating.

Most especially for Raven.

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(GOT7) where you're in your home country and there's an earthquake and they get worried because they're in Korea [I]

Requested by anon… (I’ll do three: four members each post)

Let’s start with the first three. 

Jinyoung:

Jinyoung is someone who will be worried to sick. Once he hears about the earthquake in your home country, he will freeze for a few moments, many thoughts running in his minds before taking action. Which would be calling you right away. 

And when you do not pick up for the first time, his worry will only get worse. Many plans of taking the next flight to your country filling his thoughts as he tries again and again until you pick up your phone. 

“WHY ARE YOU NOT PICKING UP YOUR PHONE?” Jinyoung shouts, panicking when you finally pick up the phone. His heart hammers in his chest as he already can feel cold blood running through his veins. 

“Are you okay?” He finally asks calmly, grateful that he could hear your voice again. 

“Yes, I’m fine.” You assure him as you feel sorry for making him worry, explaining that you were sleeping when the earthquake happened, and you are fine.

“Don’t scare me like that again.” He scolds. 

“I’m really sorry, Jinyoung.” 

“I need to keep you by my side. You are giving me a heart attack.”   

The gif says it all Basically, you will never travel again alone.

Originally posted by jypnior

Bambam: 

Basically, the earthquake would happen when Bambam is texting you. Because he always texts you. He the kind of boyfriend who would always text you when you are away, just to make it feel like you are closer to him and the distance is nothing. 

- Bambam, everything is shaking. 

* Sweet heart, I’m not ready for this kind of texts. The members around me. 

 - BAMBAM!!! I think it’s an earthquake. 

You send him a video of you shaking chandelier. 

*Shit, babe. Get out of there right now. 

-I’m scared, Bam. 

*Don’t be… you will be alright. Just hide under a table or something. 

one minute later. 

*Babe, are you okay?

- Yeah, it stopped. I survived. That was scary. 

*Glad it is over. If it happened again, you better come back here right now.  

3 minutes later

*I’m really worried about you, babe. Are you sure you are okay? Nothing happened?

- Perfectly fine. 

You send him a picture of you smiling with a thumb up so he would stop getting worried. 

Originally posted by bamethyst

Yugyeom:

When he hears about the earthquake, his heart drops, his hands shake and he can’t stand still. He would go to Jinyoung or Jaebum to tell them about what happens and ask them what he should do. 

“Did you call her?” Jinyoung asks, trying to make the younger member calm down. 

“She probably has classes now.” 

“Yah, you should call her to know if she is okay or not.” 

He basically will be lost. being worried to death will make his brain work slower. He’s trying to find a way to reach you, but he can’t as seas separate you apart. 

Doing as Jinyoung tells him, he would calm down a little when he hears your voice. 

“I’m telling you that I’m really fine.” 

“But an earthquake…” 

“Gladly, it wasn’t in the area I live in. You don’t need to worry, Yugyeom-ah.” 

“But…” 

“I’m honestly alright. More than fine. Just missing you.” 

He blushes as he looks at his Hyung who is sitting next to him. Looking away, he puts his hands over his mouth as he whispers to you. “I miss you too.”

Jinyoung rolls his eyes as he leaves Yugyeom to talk to you comfortably. It is all Yugyeom needs at this moment. 

 

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OBLIGATORY 666 FOLLOW FOREVER // BIAS LIST.

when i made my first blog last year, i never  ( in a million years ) would’ve guessed i’d ever accumulate this number of followers. ever. with my on and off activity, n’ mass shitposting, i’m surprised i ever even surpassed 100. way more important than numbers, though, are the people who i’ve met & interacted with here, and who have inspired me – or encouraged me to stick around, when i wasn’t feeling it.  ™

i’ve said it countless times – & i’ll say it when i’m on my deathbed : i love cloud strife. he was the first muse i wanted to pick up, but i decided against it because he was already such a popular character and muse. finally making this blog back in october of 2016 wasn’t a mistake. despite being painfully awkward, i’ve met a ton of people ; some i speak to regularly, and others  ( – my bad  not so much. 

all the same  ( gross i appreciate everyone sticking around. ffvii has been a part of my life quite literally since the year i was born, and having some means of conveying how much it (& cloud ) means to me is pretty therapeutic, n’ relaxing. i won’t ramble much more, anyhow. i’m not gonna tag most everyone in the list below, obviously, but i’ll make some mentions. the usual stuff, right ?  cloud voice: let’s mosey.

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anonymous asked:

these pride month foods are really half assed and it would have been better if you didn't bother at all because no matter what you can't cover all the different "identities" out there now. if you want to do the same thing next year, just stick to the LGBT and you'll have hit the umbrella's that everyone in the community can fall under

I don’t really appreciate this, because I’m trying really hard here. I understand your point but I would like to try and include as much as I can, so hopefully you’ll respect that and just appreciate the videos for what they are. If you can’t do that, feel free to block the “pride” tag so you don’t have to see them.

•Talk to me. (Ethan Dolan Imagine) ~ Requested

-Summary: Ethan isn’t himself and Y/N tries to get him to open up to her.
•Sad!/fluffy Ethan
•Requested by @t-rexexcuse
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Ethan was a worrier, even if he didn’t show it. Compared to Grayson he was much quieter about his emotions. He was always someone who viewed being upset as being weak, this led him to bottle up whatever worries or negative thoughts that he had inside of him. Because you have been with Ethan for just over a year and a half,you could usually tell when there was something bothering him. Today was one of those days.

Weirdly, it was bucketing down rain in L.A.

“I do not plan to move from bed at all today” you mumbled to your boyfriend as you looked out of the curtains at the rain that was hopping off of the ground outside. Ethan was awake but he was distant. He was just staring blankly at the ceiling above him, playing with the purple rubber bracelet around his wrist, an anxious habit of his.

“E”

“Hmm?” He still hadn’t really acknowledged you yet, which was weird for him because you normally would have to peel him off of you in the morning to even just go to the bathroom.

“Ethan look at me” the seriousness of your tone of voice must have snapped him out of his daze as he looks at you. His eyes are bloodshot and have dark bags underneath them. He looks like he hadn’t slept a wink.

“You know you can talk to me about anything right” you say as you search his eyes for any sign or indication of what is bothering him.

He lightly lifts your hand to his face and grazes his lips over your knuckles before placing a gentle kiss on the back of your hand. “Yeah I know Y/N”. You let your hand linger on his cheek for a few seconds trying to decide whether to push him to open up or give home some space.

“I’m going to make some breakfast, I’ll be back in a few minutes” you kiss cheek and climb over him to make your way to the kitchen. Maybe you could cheer him up a little with some pancakes?

About 15 minutes later you place the food on a tray and go back to the bedroom. You place the tray on Ethan’s lap “thank you babe”
Ethan must have taken maybe two bites out of his food until he gave you a sympathetic look. “Im sorry I just don’t have an appetite” he says and and put down his fork which makes a loud clank against the plate. You quickly move the tray off of the bed and put it on the floor and sit yourself on Ethan’s lap over the blanket. You have one leg on either side of his waist while you sit there hoping he would explain to you why he was so down. The sight of him so unhappy was unbearable to watch. All you wanted was to make him happy again but you needed him to open up to you. You place both of your hands on either side of his neck, gently stroking his jawline with your thumbs.

“Baby please just tell me what is wrong so I can fix it. I can’t fix it if I don’t know. Please just let me help you”

Ethan looks into your eyes properly for the first time that whole morning. His eyes are glassy and are brimming with tears. Seeing him so defeated made your heart shatter into a million pieces, all you wanted to do was make him better.

“I - I just I-” were the only words that could escape his lips before he completely broke down into sobs. You instantly pull him into your chest to comfort him. You move so that now you’re lying with your back against the headboard and Ethan lying on your chest with his arms around your torso holding onto you. You gently stroke his hair as you shush him. “It’s okay E let it out”. A few of your own tears slip from your eyes from seeing him like this. He continues to cry for a few minutes before his breathing calms and slows. He lifts his head up as faces you, you wipe some tears from his face with your thumb “talk to me. Please”

“I just feel under so much pressure. I want to make videos because it’s what I love to do but I feel like I never get to spend enough time with my family. I feel like I don’t spend enough time with you. Don’t get me wrong I love where I am right now, I just feel as though sometimes we work so much we don’t get to take in what we have at the moment and really enjoy it. And also lately I’ve felt so much guilt about leaving our mom and dad for months on end without seeing them. Cam is gone to college and Gray and I are out here in L.A, within the last year they’ve both lost their three babies. I just hope that one day in the future I don’t look back and regret not spending time with them while I have it you know?” He lets out a sigh as he finishes and bows his head again. You lift his chin up with your finger so that he’s looking you in the eye again.

“Okay. First of all, you’re right. You and Grayson are in L.A doing what you LOVE. And I know for a fact that your parents are so proud of each and every single one of you. E if they wanted you all at home with them they could’ve easily stopped you, but they didn’t. Because they love you. They are the happiest parents in the world because they are watching their babies living their dream and being happy. That is all they could ever want. Tell you what.. why don’t we just go see them? Me, you and Grayson will get on a flight in the morning and go. Second of all, I don’t think you could spend more time with me if you tried babe.” He smiles at you, which causes your chest to feel like it’s exploding with relief. “That’s the E I know” you say as you boop his nose.

He just looks at you in awe. “ thank you so much. What did I ever do to deserve someone as amazing as you? ” he pulls you into a bear hug and now you’re lying on his chest. His entire body even feels less tense than what it was only an hour ago, you feel him relax and drift off to sleep.

“I love you so much Y/N”

“I love you too E”

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A/N - Hiii✨ I just wanted to say thanks for the support, I’ve literally only been back writing two days and everyone is so lovely. Send me any requests because I’m really enjoying making these✨✨

anonymous asked:

I feel like everyone in the Phandom just fell off from the face of the Earth. Like my dashboard used to be filled with stuff and now after refreshing it all day, I've maybe seen 20 new posts from all the people I follow. It's so sad :(

i know it’s really frustrating esp as a content maker because all of a sudden no one really cares. the main tags are often filled to the brim with posts under 1k on days they don’t post videos and it seems like not as many people are creating anymore. everyone moves on eventually i gues

How the Signs Say ‘I Hate You’

Aries: “You can go to hell”

Taurus: *doesn’t even tell you, just stops communicating with you completely*

Gemini: “I’m not exactly saying you’re toxic, but I’m definitely slipping under”

Cancer: *Gives one-word answers*

Leo: *won’t, will talk shit behind your back*

Libra: “The way I feel about you now, it’s just not the way I felt about you then”

Virgo: “You’ve become a problem to me”

Scorpio: “I don’t wanna say I find you annoying, but you’re pretty fucking annoying”

Sagittarius: *2838123728709580 eye rolls*

Capricorn: “I like really, I mean REALLY, don’t like you”

Aquarius: “I’d be totally ok with getting coffee with you, but if you were to fall into a pit of fire I’d take a video of it”

Pisces: “Oh sorry I can’t go with you today!  I uh…my grandpa who I haven’t seen in 71 years is coming and he needs help grocery shopping because he uh…lost his legs during the civil war started by donald trump!”

takedasangel  asked:

In your opinion what films do you consider to be the modern day video nasties.....?

Ah, now this is a great question.  I still plan on touching upon the areas of extreme cinema that I haven’t yet covered, but I feel like this narrows it down even further to those which would certainly be the modern equivalent of yesteryear’s “Video Nasties”.

I want to say that “modern” would equate to after the Video Recordings Act of 2001, but I may sneak in a couple from the mid to late 90′s just for the hell of it (note: I won’t be adding any films that were previously covered here under New French Extremity, Tokyo Gore Style (which is really too comedic for consideration anyway), CAT III horror, or avante-garde/surreal/experimental/short format, as the list would become far too long).  I will, however, be including a couple of choice films from the list of shot-on-video horror.  Some films will be grouped together by director, as some directors push the envelope with most of their work.

In no particular order:

  • Antichrist (2009)
  • A Serbian Film (2010)
  • August Underground (2001), August Underground’s Mordum (2003), and August Underground’s Penance (2007)
  • Green Elephant (1999)
  • Funny Games (1997)
  • The Human Centipede 2 (Full Sequence) (2011)
  • Cannibal (2006), Meloncholie der Engel (2009), and Reise nach Agatis (2010)
  • Schramm (1993)
  • Slaughtered Vomit Dolls (2006), ReGOREgitated Sacrifice (2008), Slow Torture Puke Chamber (2010), and Black Mass of the Nazi Sex Wizard (2015)
  • The Burning Moon (1992), Premutos - Der gefallene Engel (1997), and Dard Divorce (2007)
  • Ostermontag (1991)
  • Nekro (1998)
  • Man Bites Dog (1992)
  • Pig (2010)
  • Fetus (2008)
  • Schizophreniac: The Whore Mangler (1997)
  • The Necro Files (1997)
  • The Bunny Game (2010)
  • Scrapbook (2000)
  • Murder-Set-Pieces (2004)
  • Family Portraits: A Trilogy of America (2004)
  • Snuff 102 (2007)
  • Burglar from Hell (1993)
  • Red Spirit Lake (1993)
  • Violent Shit III: Infantry of Doom (1999)
  • Urban Flesh (1999)

Lastly, I don’t think they can be considered “movies” as much as video mixtapes, but I think I’d be remiss not to mention Most Disturbed Person On Planet Earth (aka MDPOPE: The Movie), and its sequel.

I feel as though this should be a lot longer, but there are honestly several notebook pages filled with potential entries that I haven’t even researched yet, plus many more from earlier decades that could have easily fit the bill as well (not to mention non-horror films based around disturbing subject matter), so there’s still quite a bit of soil for me to till in the realm of extreme cinema.

anonymous asked:

Why do you think did Eric like Brandi?

‘Like’ is a strong word when we talk about Eric’s relation to Brandi.

In my opinion, Eric wanted to be noticed by girls but not just by any girls! He wanted to be noticed by girls that would push his self esteem. Brandi was fairly popular, she clearly was not ugly either. To put it shortly, she had a certain standard in high school that Eric idolized and he wanted to bang her, I don’t think that he had deeper feelings for her.

I think Eric would have just needed some more time (and some sex) to find out and actually realize which girls he really liked/needed.

Dylan on the other hand clearly wanted to have a girl that was rather the opposite, someone that was not popular, someone who was not ‘endangered’ to become a victim to all the fame and instead remained autenthic, even under the preassure of high school. To me it’s clear that Dylan was just much more mature than Eric!

If you have seen the video of Eric in Columbine then you for sure know the scene where Mike talks to Eric about Brandi.

Mike: You know you wanna tap that, you know you wanna.

Eric: Well of course. Who wouldn’t? Most people would. 

That shows once more how he is expressing that many boys would want to have Brandi. In general, apart from obviously wanting to have sex, I think that he wanted her because he simply thought that he would be more respected if he’d have sex with her and not just any girl.

anonymous asked:

So did Ouma enjoy telling lies? I remember reading one of your older metas saying that lying wasn't something he necessarily enjoyed, but him doing it as often as he did made me sorta think otherwise? Also could you go into detail about "gentle lies"?

I’ve been getting quite a lot of questions about this particular subject later, so I thought I might answer them altogether like this!

The short answer to “did Ouma enjoy lying” is—well, yes and no. The long answer is a bit more complex, because it all depends on what kind of lies, who he’s lying to, and his own desire to construct and maintain a very carefully crafted façade so that no one would ever get close to him or figure out “the real him.”

One way to put it might be that Ouma very much liked the idea of lying, as long as it was used the right way, for the right purposes. He’s very much a prankster at heart, and like any good prankster, he’s pretty open about enjoying deception in the small scale. Tricks, jokes, pranks—all of these things when done right are relatively harmless and they’re all various forms of lies. And most importantly, from Ouma’s perspective, they’re all fun.

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anonymous asked:

3:20 of Dan's October 4th 2016 liveshow is what you're looking for i think

dan mentioned phil being the spooky skeleton man in the October 4th, 2016 live show at 3:16. but idk if you’re talking about this one

Dan saying Phil is the pumpkin dancing man happened in Dan’s October 4th 2016 live show. Someone said he looked like the pumpkin dancing guy to which he says “you mean Phil. Little known fact about amazingPhil. Phil is the guy in that dancing pumpkin gif, which is one of the most under appreciated pieces of AmazingPhil trivia, in my opinion.”

yessssss!!!!!!!!! yall are lovely and incredible and i love you. this live show happened soon after phil posted the quizzes video so dan could just be carrying forward the joke from the video, and perhaps it really did originate there. but i do still partly think dan is referencing an older joke, like i still feel as though there was some mention of this at some point in a video or something a couple years ago, bc otherwise this joke is just completely out of nowhere, like smth the we are unicorns people just made up for that psl or phil lester quiz and that would be so absurdly random??? but for now this does satiate my curiosity about the existence of a moment in which dan gets in on the joke himself hahaha thank you all so much! 

{Reaction} When EXO’s younger sister is crushing on other idols.

Can you do a reaction for EXO where their little sister (younger than 10) has a crush on one of the members of Big Bang and is super embarrassed whenever they tease her about it. But they are also secretly upset because they don’t want her to grow up. Thanks!

Note: I tweaked your request slightly to make the reader a little bit older (teenager instead of under 10), just because I thought under ten was a little bit too young considering BIGBANG are nearing 30 now. I hope you don’t mind too much, I just didn’t really feel comfortable writing for such an age gap. I hope you enjoy either way. ~ Mami x

Disclaimer: I don’t own the gifs/images used.

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Park Chanyeol

Originally posted by yuseols

Chanyeol rolled his eyes as he say you, his younger sister, watching BIGBANG videos on you tube again. He’s not over powering, but he is a protective brother, and since you’re a lot younger than BIGBANG, he doesn’t like the fact you’re already looking at them in a romantic sense. 

Chanyeol: *Takes your phone out of your hand.* “And that’s enough of that.”


Do Kyungsoo/ D.O. 

Originally posted by kyungception

Kyungsoo isn’t usually that over protective, but when he finds out that you’re crushing on G-Dragon, he isn’t happy about it. 

{y/n}: “But G-Dragon is so amazing, Soo”

Kyungsoo: “G-Dragon is about to be G-Gone.” *Satansoo unleashed.*


Byun Baekhyun

Originally posted by byunbaekoppar

Baekhyun wouldn’t really care that you’re crushing on BIGBANG, mainly because he knows it’s natural for teenagers to start crushing and having feelings like that, but that won’t stop him from being at least a little upset that you’re growing up. Despite all that, you’ll still always be his baby sister. 

{y/n}: “It’s true love Baekhyun!”

Baekhyun: “I know, {y/n}, I can see how lovingly that poster of Taeyang stares at you.” 

{y/n}: “You’re an asshole.” 


Oh Sehun

Originally posted by chutizk-blog

Sehun watched as you and your friend talked energetically in the kitchen about BIGBANG’s Seungri. He rolled his eyes, pushing past you both to get to the fridge, making an offhanded comment about how he’s old enough to be your Dad.

{your friend}: “Old enough to be her dad? Well it’s a good thing you don’t mind a Daddy, eh {y/n}” *Smirking*

Sehun: “I’m not crying - that isn’t just the most disgusting thing I’ve ever heard in my whole life.”


Zhang Yixing/ Lay

Originally posted by getlayd

Yixing watched you with a puzzled expression as you watched BIGBANG perform ‘bang bang bang’ on TV. You were grinning widely, and blushing every time one of the members made eye contact with the camera directly. Afterwards, you commented on how you loved BIGBANG.

{y/n}: “T.O.P is so manly and fierce.”

Yixing: “I am really fierce and manly too.”

{y/n}: “… That’s different, Yixing. Very different.” 


Kim Jongdae/ Chen

Originally posted by mainexing

Jongdae looked at you with a look of horror as he walked in just as you were telling your friend that your bias was Taeyang and that you’d like to be his. 

Jongdae: “I don’t know where you got that idea from, but you better forget it now.” 


Kim Minseok/ Xiumin

Originally posted by milakalaschnikov

Minseok looked at you with raised eyebrows as you told him that you were into Daesung. Considering your age, he didn’t think that you’d like bands like BIGBANG in that way. He shook his head.

Minseok: “I don’t think so baby sister, stick to men your own age.”

{y/n}: “And what if I don’t want to?”

Minseok: “Well, I might have to prove that I’m more than just the strongest member of EXO.” 


Huang Zitao/ Tao 

Originally posted by monalunasimone

Tao wasn’t supposed to hear you confessing your love of T.O.P to your friend, but when he did, he burst into your bedroom, a look of irritation crossed on his features.

Tao: “T.O.P, huh? I guess it’s time I put my martial arts skills to use.”


Kim Junmyeon/ Suho

Originally posted by bemineinseoul

Suho pulled a face as he watched you reacting to a BIGBANG interview on the TV. You were grinning and giggling onto it, acting in a fashion that was much to old. Even though you were sixteen years old, Suho still saw you as his little baby sister. 

Suho: “Okay, I’ve made a mental note to never let you anywhere near BIGBANG.”


Lu Han

Originally posted by elaysium

Luhan started off by telling you that it was wrong for you to have a crush on G-Dragon, but Luhan isn’t as smart as you, and is pretty much easy to manipulate. 

{y/n}: “I might be crushing on G-Dragon, but you and I both know you have done much worse than just crush on Minseok.”

Luhan: “That was-”

{y/n}: “Speaking of Minseok, isn’t he into Jongdae these days?”

Luhan: “How dare you! This is none of your business!” *Storms out, forgetting that the original argument had been about you liking G-Dragon.” 


Kim Jongin/ Kai

Originally posted by junyeol

Kai laughed as you told him that you were crushing on Daesung, that was until he realised that you weren’t joking. H ewatched you leaing the living room with his louth gaping open. 

Kai: “You’re not serious, right? He’s 27 and you’re 17! That’s ten years of an age difference!”


Wu Yifan/ Kris

Originally posted by krismehard

Kris glared at you as yo told him that you had a thing for G-Dragon. You were far too young for that, in his opinion. 

Kris: “No way, get those stupid ideas out of your head right now.” 

how to prevent sensory overwhelm

The downside of being autistic is that our nervous systems tend to be very sensitive to sensory input, and tend to go into overwhelm, causing meltdowns or shutdowns. (AKA “sensory processing disorder”.) That’s a simplistic explanation, but this piece is aimed at people who already know what I’m talking about :-D

The beauty of being autistic is that we come with built-in ways to calm our nervous systems. I think of these as autistic superpowers (and not the only ones we have, imho). But a lot of allistic people play a kind of “unless you’re a savant/genius, autistic people aren’t worthwhile human beings” game with us so some of us are not into the idea of having superpowers. If that’s you, just think of it as a handy built-in tool.

The downside (again) is that many of us are forced out of using those built-in tools by people who don’t want us to “seem autistic.” So, often, we never discover them, or are viciously forced to suppress them. Additionally, each of us has slightly different tools. For example, rocking might help me, but make someone else feel seasick.

The following is a short guide to how to find the tools that will get YOU out of overwhelm, or prevent you from even going into it.

First, you need some options for what your tools might be. I’ll put a bunch of suggestions at the end of this post. You may also have some things that have helped you in the past.

My experience was that I had a handful of things that I knew helped, but I didn’t use them consistently. Part of the purpose of this piece is to encourage you to be aware not only of what works for you, but of when you need to use it. It is A LOT easier to do this kind of self-care when you have a sense that it will actually work consistently, and a sense of how well it will work for you!!

Also, if you are the parent of an autistic child: this is the shit you should be teaching them. Thank you. Sincerely, a former autistic child.

STEP ONE: On a scale of 0-10, where 0 is “perfectly calm,” 5 is “getting overwhelmed,” and 10 is “already having a meltdown/shutdown,” rate how close you are to sensory overwhelm. 

Autistics, please note: it does not matter if you “get it right.” There really is no objective gauge for this. It doesn’t matter, because we are measuring how much (or whether) this number changes.

So if today you say you’re at a 7, and tomorrow you feel the same way but you have a better sense of how overwhelmed you can get and you now call the same feeling a 3… it doesn’t matter.

All we care about here is how far you currently feel like you are from 0, and then, how close we can get the number to 0. So just pick something that sounds pretty accurate. 

STEP TWO: Write it down. Please and thank you.

STEP THREE: Pick a thing to try.

STEP FOUR: Set a timer and try it for three minutes. UNLESS you hate it. If you hate it, or even just find it really annoying, please stop immediately, pick something else, and try THAT for three minutes.

(Please note: three minutes is a little bit of an arbitrary number. I find that it’s a pretty good amount of time to actually shift things, while not taking too long to try something else. But if you want to try it for more or less time, go right ahead. I do recommend trying everything (that you don’t immediately reject) for the same amount of time - it just doesn’t have to be three minutes long.)

STEP FIVE: Stop doing the thing, and gauge where you are on the same 0-10 scale.

STEP SIX: Write your current number down.

STEP SEVEN: If you have found something that significantly reduced your overwhelm, you can stop. I mean, you can stop any time anyway, I’m not the boss of you. But you don’t have to go through and test everything on the list below. Just find as many things as you want; or spend as much time doing this at once as you want. You can always do it again later if you want more tools.

That’s it!

anniegst served as my guinea pig for this method yesterday. Thanks, Annie!

She rated her overwhelm as an 8 initially. I found a no-talking, crinkle-sounds ASMR video and handed her the headphones. She almost immediately was like, “this is reaaaaallly annoying, sorry.”

I asked her if there were other sounds that would not be annoying. She said that she thought even white noise would be okay, like rain or something. I switched to the white noise app we both use (Relax and Sleep, which is awesome bc you can play more than one sound at once – it’s free on both Android and iOS) and put the fountain noise on.

She listened to it for about three minutes, and re-rated her overwhelm. As a 2!!

She said that she thought if she kept listening (or if the dog in the other room stopped barking) she would be able to get down to a zero.

I didn’t check in with her to see if she did. But I did get the dog to stop barking!

Here is the list of different things people said helped them, when I requested your “autistic swiss army knives”. There are A LOT OF THEM, and there are likely far more out there. I think this gives a great overview of the possibilities though, thanks everybody!!!!

I’ll give you the summary first: By far the most common ones were rocking, and pressure from blankets/sheets, either weighted or wrapped tightly. Flapping and music – in general or loud, or on repeat, or specific pieces – were also extremely popular. I’ve mostly tried to only put each of these once when many people suggested them, but I’ve included a few variants below.

There were also multiple people mentioning echolalia, chewing on things (gum/chew necklaces/toys/fingers), singing, playing with one’s hair, reading, drinking tea, playing with textures, drawing/coloring, and showering!

Try whatever you like, and enjoy!

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anonymous asked:

I get really annoyed when big companies sell "feminist" cloths or i see a "feminist"add on tv because i feel like they dont really care for it and are just using it to clean their name and/or profit on the causes that they dont really help or care about, but i dont know if it ultimately can help change the common sense of some people or help more people get into these causes...what are your thoughts on this? (is this pop feminism?)

I think this could fall under pop feminism or corporate feminism. I made a video about this awhile back about FCKH8 if you’re interested in my thoughts on it! It should be under my Feminist Fridays playlist :)

I’m so sad. seeing harry’s, liam’s, niall’s and even zayn’s promo really puts into perspective how bad louis’ was. everything louis did this past year feels like…. second best idk some sort of damage control. 

he only got his own website when fans wanted to buy him one. and he only did the photoshoot now when the fans complained about it. that all should have happened when jho came out. I know it was rushed, but they had a month between the release and promo and still haven’t done a photoshoot or given him his own site. he’s the only one who uses old photo for his profile on spotify, he still has 1d in his twitter bio. he’s the one that’s the closest to syco and is constantly used to promote syco artist. and yet syco/sony/simon don’t do anything for him.

harry ignored him for years, hadn’t wished him happy birthday, hadn’t expressed his condolences, nothing, but when it’s time for promo he has no problem using him to get louies on his side. 

james was louis’ friend first, but he always talks about harry and how wonderful he is. when louis and steve were on his show he couldn’t even be bothered to do an actual interview, but harry gets a week on his show. 

louis and steve did what? 5? performances while harry gets to perform + do a tour and niall’s performing every major festival and award show there is. and even liam is going on tour and he hasn’t even released a song yet. how nice.

everyone gets to actually be in the music video except for louis. jho mv has 12 million views. imagine how many there’d be if louis was actually in it. the video should have been released during promo not after. louis wasn’t even in it, they could have shot it whenever. 

this feel like sabotage. this feels like giving louis and his fans just enough to make them happy to support the rest of the boys. there is no efford put into anything louis does. I’m not talking about louis, I think he does the best he can under the circumstances, but everyone around him is shit. they’re using him for something and he never gets anything from it. 

I don’t really know why I am doing this but here goes...

Ok. So. Who has seen “In a Heartbeat?” If you have no clue what I am talking about, go watch it right now. Look it up on youtube. You may cry. I cried. And I am going to do a review of it. Right here right now. 


Okay. So. Overall, 10/10. Or 3/2 @destinycreate you know this ahah. Ok but seriously. Best thing I think I have seen in a VERY long time. 


Summary/Synopsis/What I think it was really about: 

So as I was watching, I kinda noticed a crap ton of symbolism throughout the 4 minute animated video. I noticed how one character’s heart “beat right out of his chest from nerves,” and went to the other character, immediately, and how before then, the character had been too scared to approach the other boy. He had been thinking with his head instead of his heart, and when his heart led the way, he began to “think with his heart,”/ “follow his heart.” You can tell that the red haired boy is terrified of his heart getting “broken” or “hurt.” The “heart” tries to bring the two boys together to the point where it does get broken from the red haired boy (the owner) pulling it away from the dark haired boy. One half of his heart ends up with the red haired boy, the other with the dark haired boy. 

Later on, the black haired boy approaches the red haired boy, and tries to take his hands that are hiding his half of the heart, but he pulls away, “trying to protect the only part of his heart he has left.” Finally he gives in and the black haired boy “heals his heart,” and they sit together under the tree and their hearts glow with happiness. 


What I liked: 

First of all, I ADORED that it was a silent video. No words, no sound, nothing. Just the music. I feel like this was a great way to go about it for multiple reasons. 

1. A lot of the time, the LGBTQ+ community feels “closeted” or like they can’t be open or voice who they are, which I feel is somewhat represented through the silence of the film, and more so with the actions. 

2. With a silent film, the audience is forced to really focus on the visual things, and that leads us to analyzing and understanding more. 

I also loved that it did show a kind of dark part of being different in sexuality. There is a few seconds where the two boys fighting over the heart are seen by a group of students who stare at them judgmentally. I loved that. Because it showed that even though we may have rainbow decor, not everything is rainbows and happiness. 

I LOVED how different things (such as the heart and “fighting over the heart”) actually meant different things. I found this video not long after my first girlfriend broke up with me, and said to myself “This is exactly how I feel, and I wish she would come and return that half of my heart she stole from me.” Overall I just thought that was a great way to represent the animator and storyteller’s points. 

I thought it was amazing, that even though I am a 85% lesbian woman,15% straight woman who has only dated two women in my life, I was able to connect so deeply with the storyline. 


What I want: 


MORE. I WANT MORE OF THIS STUFF. I wish I could contact the creators and request a bisexual storyline about the struggles of bi-erasure and liking both genders, or a lesbian storyline, or an asexual, transexual, pansexual, transgender, literally anything. I wish there was more of this out there. In books, movies, tv shows. This is the sort of thing I wish Disney would do. But these brilliant people did instead and all I can say, is Thank you.


Thank You. Thank you for creating this amazing film. Thank you for pouring your heart, soul, time, energy, and effort into this project and making it a reality. Because before now, I had nothing to compare my love life to, and now - now not only me, but so many more people have something to look up to, something that represents an extremely accurate relationship, no matter the sexuality, and something that shows the goods and bads, ups and downs, happy times, and depressing times of being a minority in a world of majorities. 


I tag anyone who feels like they need to say something about this video to say anything (it does NOT have to be nearly as lengthy as mine). But to start the ball rolling here is just a few:

@destinycreate @loveforpride @sherlock @fuckyeahgaycouples @lovegaygirls @ladiesinlovee @her-exgifriend @aelin-and-feyre