i just don't want to do any kind of work tbh this is much better

weedstoner-archive  asked:

that post u made reminded me that i have a communism question for u. so whenever i talk about it with my friends they always ask me what a communist society would look like, how there would be jobs without money, etc and up to a point i can explain it but i quickly lose confidence once they ask about details like. in terms of who would do the "dirty work" aka the jobs ppl don't want, how would u "buy" things without money, that kind of thing. i know theres prob not a simple answer but ya

a moneyless system is easy to explain. you dont work for money in the current society, you work for the goods and services that money purchases, but it is not the thing that provides your electricity. power isn’t generated by how much cash they can funnel into the furnace. get rid of money and the exchange-value system for the much simpler use-value system that is already in place. if someone argues that people will consume inefficiently, then theyre suggesting that capitalism is somehow more efficient by throwing away billions of pounds of food per year and refusing to shelter homeless people just because they can’t afford it. we have the technology to produce a surplus of basically everything and market mechanisms as we understand them would generally be made unnecessary in any realistic model of human consumption (many capitalists like to come up with absurd quantities of such-and-such commodity [10,000 gallons of water per day, for example] being consumed by one obnoxious person that ruins communism for everybody else, as if thats actually a problem worth a serious investigation)

communist society can’t be drawn up and pointed at like “this is it” because its the future. we can provide a rough framework for how it could function based on how our current society is able to operate (like above when i said that we currently produce a surplus, so we know for a fact that people could be provided for in the future) but we won’t know what problems may arise in the future until we get there. this is absolutely something that can seem disheartening, but for people that are so goal-oriented that they will settle for the current conditions just because they dont want to go through the work of building a better society, they are generally privileged to the point where they dont understand the necessity of radical change. they aren’t the ones suffering every day, so its easy for them to dismiss something that seems like a lot of work, even if its the only chance of survival for a large portion of the population.

the dirty work thing is an easy enough argument to dismiss when you’re well-equipped with the knowledge to do so. it often takes the form of the doctor-janitor story, where a doctor shouldn’t be paid the same as someone that simply takes out the trash, but this is a misunderstanding (and actually quite a funny one. they couldn’t have picked two better professions to compare tbh because its so easy to refute). doctors are certainly important to a (literally) healthy society. they are the people we go to so that we dont get sick and die. janitors are considered the lowest of the low because they dont actually do anything besides mopping or whatever (???), but imagine a world without janitors (or perhaps a world without their function is a better way to put it). without them, we would all get sick and die, same as a world without doctors. all of the dirty countertops in the world would make us all rush to the doctors office as we caught each others illnesses (a funnier thing to think about is how the market would react by suddenly producing a large amount of doctors to meet the demand of sick people, essentially reducing them to just another profession, removing the elitism that surrounds them. this is actually similar to doctors in the early days of capitalism. they were no better than the local trader, butcher, etc because all of them were important to the well-being of the population).

its important to understand this because this is actually similar to the old marxist feminist argument that women’s unpaid labor (in the home) is just as important as mens paid labor (in the factories). this is perhaps a little dated in some ways since capitalism has directly included women in the process of production, but before that, [the western concept of] gender was a clear-cut system of labor, where men produced and women reproduced, both in the sense of reproducing children [again, in terms of western concepts of gender, not actually getting into trans politics here] and also in the sense of reproducing labor. by taking care of the husband and her family, the sole duty of the housewife, she was responsible for the commodity producer (and the future generation of commodity producers and labor reproducers), and by extension, production as a whole. if it weren’t for this process of reproduction of labor on the microscopic level, the production of commodities wouldve been impossible, and this remains true for the doctor and the janitor, two very different jobs that fulfill the same basic purpose: to keep society going. to argue that one is more deserving of pay because one requires more “skill” than another or that one requires more education than another isn’t actually a criticism of socialism, but a realization of the cruelty of capitalism, where only those with enough wealth can afford to educate themselves and sustain their wealth (not to mention that this completely ignores the absurd fact that healthcare is a profitable industry, which it shouldn’t be).

one of the easiest ways around this argument though, especially if you want to get more into what communism would probably look like, is to just say that most of these things would be automated or taken care of on a community level. healthcare could be almost entirely abolished if we were to get to a point where we didnt have competition and the profit motive preventing us from finding cures for diseases just because companies make more money from selling monthly prescriptions than they ever would by actually stopping illnesses in their tracks, and for many other cases, machinery could be introduced in the emergency room (as is already done today) to make the doctors job easier. i think its safe to assume that janitorial work would also benefit from the introduction of machinery into the cleaning process and this work would become less stressful and more accessible to the general public.

(also, on the job question, id be a bad commie if i didnt quote the bit in the german ideology where marx says “… in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening, criticise after dinner, just as I have a mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, herdsman or critic.”)

so there you go. hope that helps.

anonymous asked:

Hey I was just reminded of talalay's tweet and I know she might not know of a special or the writers' intentions but her words annoyed me... it makes me feel like they dislike us, but if she thinks so i don't understand some of her directing in tst (like sherlock being revealed in the chair and mary=thatcher smashed). How do you interpret this whole thing, if you don't mind me asking? P.s. I loved your the ring meta!

Hi!

Thanks so much for the compliment about my meta! <3 Glad you enjoyed it. 

I only just learned about Rachel Talalay’s comment. I’m guessing you’re referring to this

I would say it’s worth disregarding, as is anything any creator has to say about work they’ve released into the world. 

Before I explain further, I just want to say that this in no way reflects any feelings or thoughts I have about Talalay’s skill as a director. I’m rewatching tst right now, and I think it’s very beautiful in many ways, despite the reservations I have about its reality status / the script / that wife / how we’re supposed to understand the episode. There’s nothing, I think, in the way it’s directed that gets in the way of the story that’s being told, and it has its own gorgeous qualities (that shark transition at the beginning is just…wow, really lovely.)

As for her comment, ugh. It was offered, it seems, spontaneously, in the context of answering a much more straightforward question about how a particular scene was filmed in Doctor Who, so it was unnecessary, to say the least. Now, I don’t know, I have no idea what has been said to her. I don’t know how much she’s had to deal with people coming at her for things over which she has no control, like the overall direction of the show. I don’t much care, tbh. Because I think that if you’re going to engage in social media interactions with people, you need to be cool about it. You should try to be gracious. Understand that people are excited about what you’ve made, which is, like, the point of making it? Isn’t it? 

The main thing for me is, I’ve been on both sides of the creator / critic spectrum, professionally as a writer (on a really small scale), and academically as a literary scholar (at the highest level one can go). So I’ve thought about literary interpretation a lot, and thought a lot about its role, relative to literature itself. Here’s what I know: 

When people make a thing, a creative thing, they pull on all kinds of stuff of which they may or may not be aware. It’s an art. There’s planning, and there’s purpose, and there’s the story they know they want to tell, and then there’s serendipity, and the intuitive ways in which symbolism builds, and there’s the mass of art and literature that came before yours, there’s the direct source material (acd canon) and there’s indirect source material (the tons and tons of Holmesian pastiche); there’s tradition (like the Gothic); there are brands (Hammer horror, Bond, and, weirdly, the Muppets). It all goes into the mix, and out comes a thing that works, or doesn’t. 

This is why authorial intention is garbage as a concept: because literary texts are made from a combination of conscious and unconscious content.

And this is why all creator commentary about what they meant to do, or didn’t, is rubbishy bullshit at best. Ideally, I think, a creator should ask, “What did you think of it?” Rather than, proclaiming, “Oh, that’s not what I meant.” 

(I know, I know. We want there to be a plan. We want johnlock to be part of the consciously crafted content of the show. I obviously do. I want mofftiss to be good. I want them to be clever. I want the clearly inferior quality of s4 to be part of a meta-level Reichenbach arg. I hope it is. But even if it isn’t, even if they meant tfp to be a totally straightforward end to s4 and possibly the series as a whole, there is still much we can do in terms of reading it, interpreting it, enjoying it. This is not reaching. The subtext is practically hanging off the text like ripe fruit, begging to be picked.)

It is up to the critic, the literary analyst, the audience, to decide what the thing they’re consuming means to them. The symbols, tropes, character arcs, plots, etc., etc., which the creator has put together–all of this interacts with you, your personal experience, the other texts you’ve enjoyed, the symbols, tropes, plots, etc., that are part of your cultural experience, and there, in you, is where they make meaning. 

You can emerge from the experience of a text and say, this is what it means, and interpret it in light of what you know, and what you’ve felt, and back it up using the textual evidence that made you think what you did, and no one–that is to say NO ONE–can tell you you’re wrong. They can tell you they think there’s a better reading. They can tell you they think yours has holes in it. You can, if you wish, engage in discussion about it. But you don’t have to. Above all, you should do what makes you happy. This is supposed to be fun–which, it seems, is something that Talalay, with her snarky comment about “rationality,” seems to have forgotten. 

Nonetheless, for those of us who do choose to craft arguments out of our favourite readings of this, or any literary text:

There are good interpretations–ones that really hold water when you interrogate them and subject them to argumentation. There are less valid interpretations–ones that fall apart if you so much as breathe on them. 

Johnlock is a valid interpretation. It is as solid as granite. It has a metric fuckton of evidence backing it up. The only thing it doesn’t have, right now, is an explicit confirmation from the text that satisfies much of the audience who supports that interpretation. (Right now, there’s sort of a johnlock light reading we can glean from the most superficial level of the text. In my opinion, there’s a much more intense johnlock reading possible via the subtext.) 

There are, of course, other readings. Of course there are! But let me tell you, having had a run-in or two with the dude who made that anti-tjlc blog, WELL, he is far from rational. He transforms into a squalling infant if you so much as push on one of his ideas. And then tells you you’re bullying him. Methinks he enjoys being fighty. 

THE BOTTOM LINE IS: Once a creator has released something into the world, their role is done. It’s then up to the audience to take the thing and run with it. I am so glad–SO GLAD–to be part of a fandom that voraciously consumes, analyzes, critiques, and otherwise shakes the thing we love until all the best bits and pieces fall out. That’s the fun of it! For a creator to turn around and say, NO! You’re loving the thing I made in the wrong way–well, that is really small.

So: thanks for this ask, sorry to go on for so long but I have LOTS of feelings about this, clearly. 

anonymous asked:

I think the big reason (there are others) reason I don't like Mary is because I'm realising she feels bad for what happened to Sam with the whole YED because of her deal but it doesn't seem like she cares/understands/feels anything for what happened to DEAN because of her deal with the YED. Like it only affected Sam; her whole this is what I want for you speech to go back to college. But where is care for DEAN in that whole speech? You know? Is anyone ever going to care about Dean????? EVER???

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anonymous asked:

I'm a little on the shlumpy side today. I can't look at your do's and don't's tbh ;-; I've been trying on mobile but it keeps opening in this app so I hope this is okay: how the RFA + Saeran help cheer up the MC who's having a rainy day

I have the same problem on mobile( in other blogs too)
This is strange and idk the solution
My rules are here (if you’re curious lol)

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Yoosung

  • He’s not the most clever person on the planet
  • But he knows you well enough to know that you’re not on your best day
  • You seem sad
  • Yoosung may not know about a lot of things
  • But he knows about you
  • And he’ll cheer you up
  • He doesn’t even go play LOLOL, you’re more important
  • He’ll give his entire time to you
  • You can talk about this with him, he just wants to make you feel better
  • While you’re talking, he’ll caress your hair while you’re laying on his lap
  • After that, he’ll get up and do something that always made you smile
  • His omelette!
  • It’s so funny how he always fails at it!
  • But he has only failed because he wants you to laugh
  • Yeah, he is a cutie

Zen

  • He didn’t see that beautiful smile on your face today
  • Not even when he shows you some of his photos
  • Something is wrong with MC.
  • So he skips the rehearsals of that day
  • His princess needs her knight
  • He’ll do everything to cheer you up
  • Food, hugs, kisses
  • You want? He gives.
  • I want a Zen
  • He will sing the cutie pie song!
  • And this time, you’ll see the entire performance
  • Have just one thing that it’s impossible in this world
  • Don’t smile and feel happy when he’s doing this
  • He’s embarrassed
  • BUT IT’S WORTH IT

Jaehee

  • She knows that face
  • In the past, she was with that face almost every day
  • She will ask you what it’s wrong
  • Listen to you, give your encouraging words
  • She’ll fill you with kind words
  • This is the first time she’ll take a break
  • Just to be cuddling with you
  • Do you want to see Zen’s performances?
  • No?
  • You two will watch a movie instead
  • She’ll be there until you’re good!
  • She wants you to get better!

Jumin

  • He doesn’t know what to do
  • He’ll cancel all the meetings
  • Jaehee will flip out
  • But who cares?
  • Jumin doesn’t
  • When he’s feeling down, he usually sees you and Elizabeth and is good again
  • But he’s there, and you’re not smiling
  • He’ll do what you want
  • You want to play hide and seek? Do you want to kill someone?
  • Everything, but not a puppy
  • JK
  • He’ll demand make a nice dinner for you two!
  • With the best bottle of wine
  • He’ll be trying to be the funniest person ever
  • And he’ll love declarations looking into your eyes
  • And Elizabeth will be there!
  • You’ll feel better, this is going to be the best night of your life!
  • He’ll also buy you a lot of gifts, like a lot
  • A truck filled with gifts

707

  • OMG
  • He understands you! Those days suck!
  • He doesn’t like this…
  • You know that he’ll do
  • JOKES
  • “I have a joke, a men went to the library and asked for a book on how to commit suicide and the librarian said “Fuck off, you won’t bring it back”
  • “Seven..This is not funny”
  • Depressing jokes help him out but doesn’t seem to work on you
  • He’ll make robot toys
  • And if this doesn’t work
  • You’re and alien
  • He’ll make fun of other people
  • “Hey, Saeran…I have a question…Please answer me brother,it’s a matter of life and death”
  • “Just say it Saeyoung!” He looks worried
  • “DOES JUMIN HAN IS GAY?”
  • You’ll start to laugh when you see Saeran running to catch his brother to finally kill him
  • He can die, but he made you better.
  • IT WAS WORTH IT

V

  • His smile makes everything better
  • Done
  • Ok,if his smile doesn’t work
  • He’ll hug you and kisses you, saying how much he loves you
  • He’ll show you all the relaxing photos he took in his life
  • Those were really relaxing
  • “They are so beautiful aren’t they?”
  • In the end, was a photo of you
  • “Every time i feel sad…I look at this photo, it’s kind of blurry for me, but work”
  • You laugh at that and pick his camera from his hand 
  • You take one photo of him
  • “Now i’ll have this too..”

Saeran

  • He would say “Kill yourself” to anybody that feels bad
  • But you, well, it’s different
  • He will not smile while picking ice cream
  • He will give it to you and sits beside you on the bed
  • He’ll cuddle with you WHILE eating the ice cream too
  • With a serious face
  • This was really nice
  • You two will spend a lot of time in there
  • “MC, I love you”
  • “What?” You say don’t believe he says this so spontaneously
  • “Nothing, I cough…”
  • You laugh, and you two will keep in that position
  • “MC..Did you know that kisses make people feel better..I think we should give it a chance..?”
  • You don’t fool anybody Saeran,PERVERT

anonymous asked:

Do you have any docs you'd recommend? Like, maybe in a, "YOUR LIFE IS NOT COMPLETE UNTIL YOU'VE READ THIS," kind of way xD

i’m gonna assume you meant fics? if not, let me know. 

I posted some Jason recs before, they’re here

Must reads? I guess Robins United by laceymcbain 

It’s gen, it’s bat boys, it’s very well written. Only thing missing are the girls, and Tim and Damian feature much less than Dick and Jason in it, so that may not be everyone’s cup of tea. 

I don’t really have a lot of must reads, tbh. I also just finished climbing a volcano so my brain is not working lmao. 

anonymous asked:

Hello!!! I don't play D&D so I'm sorry if this request sounds off but... The whole alignment sorting thing originated from this game, right? Would you be up for writing headcanons about RFA's + minor trio's alignments? (I'm a chaotic neutral ahaha)

It does originate from D&D! I waffled for a bit about whether I should do the actual character’s alignments or the alignments of the character’s they’d play in D&D, but I thought choosing alignments for the actual characters would give me a space to babble about their personalities.

As with all things alignment-based, please take these categorizations with a grain of salt. The alignment system is a pretty contentious one, as it’s hard to encompass an entire character’s moral system within a 9 block grid of choices.

Also this contains route spoilers so be warned.


Yoosung - Neutral Good

  • Neutral: Yoosung cares about the law, but I wouldn’t say he necessarily… sticks strictly to it when he thinks other methods can do the most good. He, uh. He’s pretty down with helping Seven in general, and Seven… doesn’t particularly care about the law lmao.
  • Good: Yoosung has strong moral convictions and an active desire to make the world a better place. This might be somewhat disguised by his depression, but he went into school wanting to prevent more tragedies like the one that happened to Rika’s dog. Not only does he want to do good, but unlike his cousin, he doesn’t want to harm people in the process. Yoosung is a sweet bean, he cares when people are in pain or in trouble, and at his ideal, he actively wants to help. (See: how gung-ho he is about helping Seven out in multiple routes, and how much he worries when Jumin loses Elizabeth III.)
  • tl;dr protect this sweet chick i love him

Zen - Chaotic Good

  • Chaotic: I almost feel like I shouldn’t have to explain this one, considering he’s all about doing things his own way. He was in a motorcycle gang, jfc. He totally would punch Jumin directly in the face, who gives a shit about battery charges. He rejects societal expectations and laws to accomplish the most ‘good’.
  • Good: He has a pretty strong moral system - treat women with respect, be kind/good to others (look at his treatment of his fans!) and doing good turns to other people. He also cares when characters are mistreated (see: his feelings about Jaehee) and he opposes things that he considers to be ‘actively making things worse for others’ (see: Jumin.)

Jaehee - Lawful Neutral

  • Lawful: She’s very strict, orderly, and regulated in her personal dealings. She considers society important and she wants to function as a model member of society - which is, in part, one of her problems, because it makes her too rigid to take chances and leads her to unhappiness. it’s also probably why she won’t admit she’s gay 4 u
  • Neutral: She… is kind of concerned with herself and her own dealings tbh and doesn’t seem to care much about having an overarching effect on the world. She doesn’t want to do bad, but she doesn’t seem to feel particularly compelled to do good either, unless it directly involves her and her friend’s interests. She has a self-contained mindset, making her… neutral.

707 - Chaotic Neutral-leaning-towards-Good

  • Chaotic: He does whatever he wants to further his interests, whether it be his agency work or his hacking. He makes viruses that spreads Zen’s youtube videos around to make him famous, and he in general flouts the law. 
  • Neutral: I think, at some point, 707 has the potential to be Chaotic Good. But in the story, his highest priority is the safety of his friends, which I would consider a Neutral leaning morality rather than Good, because Good characters want to better the world and it’s situation rather than just the circumstances of those close to them. (This, I would say, is more indicative of his circumstances than an active character trait, which is why I think - once he’s taken out of those circumstances - he’ll start to gravitate towards Good once he can actually care about things outside of his social circle.)

Jumin - Lawful Evil (l-look bear w/me here i’ll explain)

  • Lawful: Much like Jaehee, he keeps himself to a strict code of self-conduct. Get your work done, don’t slack, etc - and he expects other people to work within those rules. He obeys the laws of society (er… mostly…??) or, if not those laws, then he obeys the law of i’m filthy rich i can do what i want. 
  • Evil: Bolding this for emphasis - any evil that Jumin does is because of severe emotional repression and simply not understanding the consequences of what he does. This is not an active evil, and once he realizes the worth of his and other’s emotions, I’d put him at neutral. But I would say that he works, at the beginning of the story, for extreme self-interest at the expense of other people and the world around him. (see: POOR JAEHEE). He causes suffering totally without meaning to, which is why I put him at ‘evil’ (but a very sympathetic evil, and not one that’s deeply rooted in his own personality, but is a result of his inability to emotionally connect with others b/c of his upbringing.) Honestly, I could absolutely see a Lawful Neutral argument here, but I feel like he embodies the heartless aspects of capitalism enough to count as evil.

V - Neutral Good, but really, really bad at it

  • Neutral - I wouldn’t say that V has the free-spirited nature that Chaotic aligned people seem to have, but, uh, I wouldn’t… say… he’s particularly concerned with order and law, either. He, uh. Has Seven put a bomb in Rika’s apartment, for example. Which is……. pretty illegal…
  • Good: oh my god this man tries. he cares about morality, he cares about goodness, he cares about doing the right thing and about a better world, but jesus christ dude, you’re really ineffectual at it. His form of ‘doing good’ is martyring himself to keep people in ignorance, which allows problems to fester and grow rather than actually be solved. He wants to fix things, but he thinks the only way to fix things is to destroy himself… which means things get worse rather than better.

Unknown/Saeran - Lawful Evil (stick with me here again)

  • Chaotic: OK, Saeran doesn’t obey the law, but he is working for a ‘new world order’ underneath Rika. Though Rika rejects society, she wants to implement a new societal order, which I would claim is a Lawful mindset… and he’s so loyal to that goal that I think that, in turn, makes him “lawful”.Once Saeran is freed from Mint Eye though, I’d say that society just doesn’t matter to him, and he would lose that lawful categorization and become ‘chaotic’.
  • Evil: Saeran’s morality is so horribly fucked up that he believes ‘evil’ is good’. He has a casual disregard for lives, he’ll take people’s free will away, he’ll commit terrible atrocities to doll out the punishment he thinks is deserving of people (and to serve Rika) and while he’s at Mint Eye he’s pretty evil. Again, though, this is a product of his circumstances and of ignorance, and once he knows something different, I think he’d take to it pretty well. It’s not that he has a ‘me first, fuck everyone else’ mentality - he just… works towards terrible goals because that’s all he knows.

Vanderwood - True Neutral

  • Neutral - I think they’re an interesting example of being very meticulous and orderly in their allegiances (their very responsible outlook towards work and their ability to set personal feelings aside for that work) but they don’t really have an actual investment in those allegiances, it’s something they mainly do out of fear. So, I’d define them as neutral. (I would personally saw the agency counts as Lawful Evil.)
  • Neutral: They are extremely self-serving. There’s no drive to do good, but there’s also no desire to do evil either - they’re not like Saeran who will totally blow up a building or like Jumin who causes rampant emotional damage. If it’s orders, they’ll kill, but they won’t enjoy it, and they’re just kind of… trying to not die. I think, like Seven, they have the capacity to do a lot of good when it comes to their friends, but unlike Seven, I don’t think they’ll naturally gravitate towards doing good once they’re out of the agency.
a rellamy/braven/ravenbell manifesto


oh boy, anon, you have no idea what you’ve unleashed here. you are giving me an open invitation to talk about why i love rellamy and that is so dangerous. before i start, i do want to say sorry it took this long to get back to you! i’ve had a crazy week at school in addition to a 24hr stomach virus, but i have powered through and am here to give you the answer you deserve.

so let’s start with their first meeting, in 1x05. within seconds of them meeting each other, we already have beautiful, beautiful tension:

(gifs: ravengifs)

do you see that tension!! do you see it!! and then we have the beautiful moment where bellamy thinks he can hurt her??? which is laughable and is shown as such bc raven gets the upper hand SO quickly and bellamy’s face is like. “shit. fuck shit. this girl is good. damn. hot DAMN.” and he looks down at her and just !!!!! anon it’s so beautiful already they are CRACKLING and they’ve known each other for like. a minute. tops.

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anonymous asked:

that anon was so rude, don't listen to them, your imagines are the best <3 also there was that other anon who said they'd like more jealous grizi but i'd actually love it if you could make an imagine/smut where you're the one being jealous! ofc i know you're really busy but if you have some time to do it i'd be really grateful, thanks!

u are so nice, thank u so much!!! 

and i loved that idea, but hope u like the imagine more than i do. it seems a bit rushed i think??? i’m not good with writing jealousy tbh, i suck so much at it… 

i think i will re-write this imagine later today lol. (it’s one of those i haven’t had the time to work on as much, but i wanted to post something, and i will edit it asap)

(also i haven’t made it a smut one bc i have so many smut requests rn, but if u want me to, i can add a smut scene to this imagine later on) 😌💓


For what feels like the thousandth time today, you hear Antoine snicker on the couch next to you, his phone in his hands and his feet propped up on the coffee table. It’s relatively dark in your living room as it is past eleven already, the only sources of light being the TV flickering in the corner of the room and Antoine’s phone screen, which illuminates his face and leaves no doubt that he is, in fact, laughing again. 

With a quiet — hopefully almost inaudible — sigh, you roll your eyes ceiling-ward. Not that Antoine would have noticed anyway; he’s way too engrossed in that oh so funny conversation that he has on his phone. 

Of course his laugh doesn’t usually bother you at all. As a matter of fact, it is one of your favorite sounds in the world. There is nothing better than knowing that the person you love the most is happy. However, you know who he’s talking to, and that’s what gets on your nerves. Or rather, who. Whatever. 

“Y/N,” Antoine chuckles, leaning over to you and shoving his phone in your face. Even the fact that he has the screen’s brightness turned up so high pisses you off. And then you’re even more pissed off because of your own huffiness. “Check this out.” 

It’s a meme. A fucking meme. A pretty funny one, too, but you can’t bring yourself to laugh because there really isn’t any humor to be found in the current situation. 

“Hm,” is all you say. Another message pops up on the screen and Antoine is quick to retrieve his phone so that he can read it. If possible, you’re even more annoyed now. 

It’s Charlotte he’s talking to. One of his childhood friends from France, who comes to almost every match, flies over to Madrid to visit him more than just a few times every year, and always brings a nice bikini and a Griezmann jersey. Even if there aren’t any games scheduled. 

That doesn’t sound that bad. You’d thought so, too. At least until you learned that she’s not only his childhood friend, but his childhood girlfriend. The first one he’s ever had. And you hadn’t even found out from Antoine — no, it was Charlotte herself who had told you. Nice. 

Quietly, Antoine laughs again. 

“Would you shut up, please? I’m trying to watch this movie,” you hiss. Out of the corner of your eye, you see Antoine’s head turn to face you, his eyebrows raised and his blue eyes glistening with surprise. 

“I’m … sorry?” he mumbles slowly, like he doesn’t really know what to say. Like he doesn’t know what your problem is. You want to laugh. Or maybe hit him. “Didn’t seem like you were watching it.”

“What?” 

“I don’t know. You were staring at the TV but … never reacted to any scene. Sorry.” He shrugs. 

You snort. “How would you know?”

Again, Antoine’s eyebrows perk up. “What do you mean?” 

“You’re only paying attention to your phone, aren’t you? So how would you know?” 

At that, Antoine’s eyes study you intently, his body doesn’t move at all. He’s biting the inside of his cheek, making his cheekbones all the more prominent. It’s something he always does when he’s deep in thought. 

“Are you mad at me?” he asks after a while. His voice sounds careful and a little rougher than usual. 

“No.” 

Even though you are looking at the TV again (not really watching the movie, obviously), you can feel Antoine looking you up and down ruminatively. 

“It’s just Charlotte.”

You draw a deep breath. “It is never ‘just Charlotte’.” 

“Okay,” Antoine says, stretching the ‘a’ as he turns around to face you completely. He even has the good grace to put his phone down on the table. “I don’t think I’m with you.” 

“Forget it, Antoine.” 

He groans. “Just tell me. I don’t want you to be mad.” 

“I’m not mad.” The eye roll that follows your sentence probably tells a different story, though. Antoine seems to think so, too, because he slouches his shoulders in exasperation. “I’m just not as much of a Charlotte fan as you are, apparently.” 

“What?” he laughs, but it sounds confused. “I thought you liked her?” 

“I did like her. Until she told me that she’s your ex and … I don’t know. You just … you talk a lot, don’t you? And she knows you really well. And— she’s pretty, too.” 

You have never felt this dumb before. Of course you’re still annoyed but Antoine is looking at you like he still can’t completely see what your point is, and there’s still a small, confused smile playing at the corners of his lips. 

Also, admitting that you may or may not be jealous of Charlotte is kind of hard, especially since you know that Antoine probably won’t understand your point of view and definitely won’t change anything about his relationship with Charlotte. And it makes you feel like an asshole, in a way. You should be happy that he has people from his past who are still in his present, who support him and remind him of where he’s from, of who he used to be. 

It still sort of sucks, though. 

Antoine blinks twice before he answers.

“Yes, we do. But I also talk a lot to my physiotherapist. And my coach. And Koke. And my car workshop owner. But I’m not dating any of these people.” 

“That’s not funny, Antoine. I’m serious.” 

Antoine shrugs. “So am I. You’re my girlfriend and Charlotte is my ex who I happen to still get along well with. Who cares? I don’t have any feelings left for her. She’s not the one I want to wake up next to, or who I want to see every day, or who I want to kiss whenever I feel like it. That’s you, and you know that.” 

You look at him, digging your teeth into your bottom lip. Antoine is smiling now. Like, really smiling. Full mega-watt smiling. 

“You don’t really think I’d ever try to replace you?” With one swift movement, he’s got his arm wrapped around your shoulders and pulls you close to his firm body. Then, he presses a soft kiss to the top of your head. “I love you, Y/N.” 

“I know. I’m sorry,” you sigh, resting your hand against his chest. “I didn’t mean to be such a bitch to you.”

“It really wasn’t that bad,” he says. “Oh, and for the record; you look way better in my jersey.” 

He doesn’t touch his phone for the rest of the night. 

anonymous asked:

Could you write LevYaku? Fluff maybe? Or angsty fluff. Fluffy angst? Idk, really anything tbh. If you can't/don't want to that's fine too! Thank you!!!

My first thought was Make Yaku have cancer. Me: why? Brain: You gotta.

So…


The room was quiet save for the beeping of the machine. Yaku shifted in the bed and looked over at his boyfriend who had just entered. He was pulling books of crossword puzzles and Sudoku books out of his backpack, knowing that Yaku liked that kind of stuff.

Lev made himself comfortable in the chair and grinned at him, handing him a book and a pencil. Some days Yaku was too weak to even hold the pencil but today was a good day.

“Why do you still come?” Yaku asked a half hour later. They were always silent, Lev unusually so. Lev knew that Yaku just needed some support and talking his ear off wasn’t going to do a thing. So he sat by his side until visiting hours were over. He only came for this long on his days off. When Lev had work he would come later in the day and stay until visiting hours were over.

“Because I love you.” Lev said simply, flashing him a smile.

“But… But I’m dying.” Yaku said through grit teeth. “I’m not getting any better, I lose all my hair, I’m unbelievably thin. You have nothing to stick your dick into anymore so why-”

Lev placed a finger over Yaku’s lips to quiet him. He wasn’t actually touching him, in risk of giving him germs and making him sick but he came close.

“I don’t care.”

“You should just move on-”

Morisuke.” Yaku quickly shut up. “I love you. Just because you’re… sick doesn’t change that. I want to support you.” Lev sighed, his usual joyful demeanor gone. He looked tired, oh so tired. 

“I’m killing you. I can see it in your eyes.” Yaku said.

“Nothing you can say or do is going to get me to leave.” Lev said sternly. Yaku watched him. He didn’t know why he was trying so hard to push him away when he loved him so much.

“Okay.” Yaku relented. He knew they would have the same conversation tomorrow and the next day. IT was an endless cycle.

Time to talk about the trash baby

So I saw a post recently that humorously pointed out how all the characters in WBB want so badly to make friends, except for Nom Nom because he ‘doesn’t need’ them. He said so himself.

And I started thinking, “No, but wait…what if Nom Nom needs friends more than any of them?”

…..

I’m sorry, but I’ve just been thinking about this way too much and I feel like i need to get it off my chest…

I still feel like the whole “I don’t need friends. I don’t have time for that” line might have been a big set up. I feel like the writers are purposely making him as shitty as possible in order to set him up to fail. Yes, he’s failed before and was able to bounce back, but I don’t think he can keep doing that. There’s only so many times he can show his ass before people finally say, ‘Enough’s enough. Fuck this little shit’ and just forget about him entirely.

Making friends and fitting in seems to be the central theme of this show. And yes, Nom Nom appears to be the black sheep in all this. I mean, he doesn’t have any trouble fitting in since he’s loved by millions. He says he doesn’t have time for hanging out with friends and he doesn’t need them because of his fame, and I’m sure he honestly believes that, but…I feel like the more he interacts with the Bears in each episode and sees just how close they are to each other and how much they protect and love each other…it might make him start to feel rather small and insignificant, especially if he keeps losing more and more fans every time he fucks up, and I have a feeling he’s going to fuck up a lot more before this is all said and done.

So…if this turns out to be the case, then he would also fit in with the ‘desire to fit in and make friends’ theme that WBB has. The only difference is he’d be going in the opposite direction of all the other characters. While the Bears, Chloe and Charlie are all making huge strides in breaking through their social awkwardness and gaining new friends, Nom Nom is slowly losing all his love and support. And once he DOES lose it, he then finds himself in the same boat as all the other characters, except in his case it’s much worse, as now he not only doesn’t have any close friends, but he’s also hated by millions because of his horrible behavior, making him more of a social outcast than any of the other characters.

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The signs and romantic relationships (by me, a Virgo)
  • Aries: I honestly haven't encountered enough Aries in my life. Maybe I have, but I wasn't aware that they were around me. But from experience, I know they are passionate, hard-working, and restless. I can see hooking up with an Aries, perhaps maintaining a platonic relationship with one. I think that an Aries would get bored of me (a Virgo) in a relationship. I don't think that I am spontaneous enough to keep up with an Aries. The way to get to an Aries' heart is to be ride or die. Be by their side if they have $5 or $500. At the end of the day, they want to be unconditionally loved.
  • Taurus: What stubborn bulls they are! But don't worry if you are in a relationship with one, they're amazing. I click with Tauruses really well because they are so patient and willing to listen to what people have to say. They are willing to get to know people for who they are on the inside, and rarely judge a book by its cover. Tauruses want things their own way and will fight super subconsciously to get things their way. Like a Taurus could be priming you to think a certain way without you even knowing it. But I can see a relationship with one in the long haul. If you want someone who will be honest with you and stick by your side during rough patches, go for a Taurus.
  • Gemini: Oh dear god. They are extreme hits or misses for me! I don't want to perpetuate the "two-faced, attitude problem" gemini tumblr stereotype, but it does speak some truth. However, there are some geminis who are down to earth and just want what's best for their partner or friend. They will go the extra mile for the ones they care about and not stop at anything. But, they will do the same thing for themselves. Most of the time, they will be completely loyal to you, as long as doing so doesn't conflict with their own interests. But once they fall in love with you, they'll do anything for you. Once they get an idea in their head, GOOD FUCKING LUCK trying to get them to think a different way.
  • Cancer: Wifey material tbh. They are so intuitive, kind, and affectionate. The "moody, over-emotional" Cancer stereotype does hold true in many romantic situations though. If you disappoint a Cancer, they will take it very hard and most likely blame themselves, and eventually, you, for their feelings. In spite of this, Cancers make great partners to form firm, emotional, spiritual, and physical bonds with. Like Tauruses, they will take the time to listen to you and get to know you, and most likely accept you in spite of your faults. But don't mistake their kindness and acceptance for weakness. A cancer can drag your ass down the street if you betray them.
  • Leo: WHY DO LEOS HAVE TO BE SO DAMN SEXY?!?!?!?!? Maybe it's the way that they carry themselves so effortlessly! Like you guys can do anything that you set your minds to. However, you can be conceited... But usually for a good reason. When you're in a relationship with a Leo, don't be surprised if they're different around their friends than they are around you. They can't help it; they're like chameleons. They tend to feed off of the energy around them, and fit in with any clique they come across. Don't perceive this as them being "fake." It's just in their nature. However, beware of a Leo who does everything to blend in with everyone else, but doesn't know who they are when they're alone.
  • Virgo: My sign! Virgos get a lot of hate for being "nit-picky, neurotic, and critical." To some extent, this criticism is well warranted. We tend to over-analyze everything and our minds never stop racing. But when we're in love, we fall head-over-heels. Virgos notice everything, the good, the bad, and the ugly. When a Virgo you're involved with brings up one of your negative qualities, they aren't trying to bring you down. They actually want to help you improve. A Virgo is a healer by nature, and we'll do anything to help you grow as a person. And if you're ever sad or completely broken, a Virgo will do anything to make you feel better. They most likely know how to cheer you up, since they always notice what makes you happy! And they also know what gets you going sexually. However, Virgos can be blunt, and critical of themselves and project their insecurities onto other people. CALL A VIRGO OUT ON THEIR BULLSHIT. ALWAYS. We appreciate the honesty and we will work on our faults.
  • Libra: It's easy to fall for a Libra. They have the whole romantic package: extroverted, kind, romantic, charismatic... Hell, they're even ruled by the planet of love, Venus! A Libra falls in love hard, and will treat you like royalty. However, when times get tough, Libra can show a much colder, stand-offish, mean side to them. Like Geminis, Libras can have "2 personalities," and they absolutely HATE being told this. But once a Libra has shown their true colors, you know that they trust you. When you have mutual trust with a libra, you can have an amazing relationship. However, unlike Virgos, Libras are not blunt and do not like blunt people. Calling a Libra out on their bullshit can be hard, as they are very defensive to criticism and tend to take things very personally. Master communication with a Libra, and master your relationship.
  • Scorpio: COMPLICATED SHAWTYS. Scorpios are mysterious, sensual, aggressive, and vindictive. But if you can get to know a scorpio and accept them in spite of their temper, you can have an incredible relationship. Scorpios have a reputation for being able to hold grudges, and that reputation is absolutely correct! Screw over a scorpio, and they'll never forget. But on the flip side of that, if you warm a scorpio's heart, and make them feel loved unconditionally, they will always remember and have a "little thing for ya." Perhaps this is why scorpios have so many platonic flings. Whenever someone touches their hearts, they won't forget it, and they try and see if something good can come of it. Underneath their tough, introverted exterior, they are the sweetest, most vulnerable human beings who just need to feel secure, loved, and accepted. Like Virgos, it is okay to call Scorpios out on their bullshit. They may get mad at first, but they'll think about it, and realize that you meant well for them. They will forgive you if they know you were critiquing them from the heart. In this sense, they make great marriage material. But if you betray a Scorpio, or show that you are fake or two-faced...Kiss your relationship good BYE.
  • Sagittarius: My moon sign! Like an Aries, a Sagittarius needs a partner who is, to some extent, spontaneous. They need someone who wants bigger and better things, someone who wants to travel and experience everything. Being in love with a Sagittarius is magical- They always look for the positive in things and will help you see the glass as half full in the darkest times. Some claim that Sags are not suited for monogamous, committed relationships... This is simply untrue. A Sagittarius just needs their own space, and cannot feel tied down. Let a Sagittarius release energy by any means they need. It's always good to notice their restlessness, and let them blow off some steam, be it from working out, going hiking, dancing, drawing, etc. A Sagittarius needs to be trusted. If you don't trust a Sagittarius, you will misinterpret their restlessness for apathy in the relationship. If you have trust problems and constantly accuse a Sag of cheating, you will push them away. This is why Sags end up hooking up with many people, but only falling deeply in love with a few.
  • Capricorn: Above all, Capricorns are people with intention. They always have a plan, whether they know it or not. They always know what their next step is. If you're in a relationship with a Capricorn, they see a future for it. They don't want to be romantically involved with someone they can't picture spending the rest of their lives with. But this doesn't mean that Capricorns aren't ones for casual sex. If they just want to hook up, they JUST want to hook up. Having clear intentions is a good thing, but a Capricorn's downfall is that they sometimes don't communicate their intentions! They could hook up with someone, and be frustrated as to why that person keeps contacting them, when in reality, the cap didn't establish a boundary. They are rather secretive, and have a hard time asking for help with problems that they're having. But they are amazing people to confide in. They are the most trustworthy sign in the zodiac imo. When you're in love with a Cap, you will know all of their secrets and they will know all of yours. Unlike Scorpio, Capricorn isn't a vengeful sign. They won't use your secrets and weaknesses against you, but like Taurus and Virgo, they will fight with you subconsciously fight you from afar. Don't be surprised if things "mysteriously fall apart" after you screw over a Capricorn.
  • Aquarius: They are aloof and mysterious, yet so empathetic and humanitarian. They have fantasies of making the world a better place, by all means necessary. An Aquarius almost always has good intentions, and goes above and beyond to impress and help you. An aquarius loves hard, with all of their heart, even though they may have a hard time showing. People sometimes have problems getting Aquarians to express themselves. And when an Aquarius is confronted on this, they're confused; they feel that they communicate their feelings and their love normally. It will be difficult for them to shift their perspective, but once they do, it'll be magical. Aquarians LOVE to be sarcastic, and will bond with you over sarcastic humor. However, Aquarians will date someone out of spite. They often go for "rebound" relationships to prove to their exes that they are fine alone, when in reality, they are hurting hard from breakups. If you want to "test" their love by seeing how jealous or clingy you can make them, MOVE ASIDE, YOU HAVE THE WRONG PERSON FOR THIS. Aquarians don't get jealous easily, and they are very trusting people. In this way, they are great partners for Sagittarians. I notice as a Virgo that Aquarians are attracted to me. I think Aquas are attracted to a Virgo's healing power, as they are natural humanitarians. Unlike other air signs (Gemini and Libra), they don't have 2 personalities. What you see is what you get. Since they are aloof, people tend to underestimate Aquarians. And they get proven so so SO wrong.
  • Pisces: A Pisces is a true sweetheart. When they truly care about you, they're the ones who will take you out for pancakes and try to support you by any needs necessary. Not only that, they'll help you dream to escape reality. They're very intuitive and can have psychic qualities. They can read you and know when something is bothering you. A Pisces is the person who will listen to your story, and nod along when everyone else is engaging in side conversations and ignoring you. They can be a bit socially awkward, so if you aren't traditionally extroverted, they will be able to understand you and talk to you. However, they can be very whiny and over-sensitive. If they do not channel their emotions effectively, they can be aggressive or secretive. If a Pisces is building up their emotions, something seemingly arbitrary can send them into a trance. When you love a Pisces, you need to seek to understand them, and help them deal with their emotions. Like Sagittarius, they need to channel their energy, although they don't seem outwardly restless. As with Cancer, pity the fool who mistakes a Pisces' kindness for weakness. They will go OFF on you if you betray them. Overall, they are great partners.

anonymous asked:

I hope this isn't rude of me.. And you don't have to answer.. I was just wondering what chronic Lyme disease is?

It’s not rude at all, I welcome questions about my health conditions. :) Lyme is especially important to spread awareness about.

You’ve probably heard of Lyme Disease, though you probably don’t know much about it… neither do most doctors tbh. It’s caused by an infection of a bacteria known as a spirochete, the same type of pathogen that causes syphilis. It can be passed through blood contact (i.e. blood donation and pregnancy), but usually you get infected by a bite from a deer tick, which is extremely small, about the size of a sesame seed. Baby deer ticks are about the size of a poppy seed.

Sometimes when you’re bitten and infect, you get sick right away and so severely that you end up in the hospital. This is Acute Lyme Disease, and it’s usually diagnosed quickly and treated and cured with aggressive antibiotics. It may take a while for patient to recover fully, but they usually manage to get past it.

On the other hand, Chronic Lyme Disease happens when the disease incubates after you’re bitten. I have no idea when or where I was infected, it could have been ten years before I started getting sick. This causes a lot of problems because when symptoms start slowing appearing, it can take forever to get diagnosed. Doctors don’t know much about Chronic Lyme, and they’re also taught to look for and ask about the classic bullseye rash.

The thing is that only a percentage of people with Lyme, maybe 50%, actually get the bullseye rash, and if you didn’t get it doctors may disregard Lyme as a possibility. Another problem is that the blood tests that are used often give false negatives, and these spirochetes ‘like’ muscles and organs more than blood, so you can have it without it showing up in your blood. It can also masquerade as practically any other disease. Because of all this, it can take years of being sick before you get a diagnosis of Lyme, and by that point the bacteria have spread throughout your body.

Once you’re diagnosed, you’re given heavy antibiotics because that’s literally the only course of treatment doctors have. But they don’t work. The spirochetes have developed what’s called a ‘lipid barrier’ around themselves that prevents the antibiotics from killing them, and they’re deep in your tissues. I was on six-week regimens of antibiotics for more than a year, and only once did I test not positive for Lyme. The antibiotics wiped out the good bacteria in my gut and I gained around 50 pounds, and it just caused all kinds of problems. I always felt horrible when I went off the antibiotics too, as though I could ‘feel’ the bacteria coming out of hibernation and taking over my weakened system. It sounds bonkers, but at times I swear I could almost feel a presence swimming around inside my brain.

Eventually I went off the antibiotics, and pursued natural methods of fighting infection. Which might seem crazy to some, but I just couldn’t keep taking antibiotics. I’m still in shit condition, but not like I was then. Some people are better off than me, others are worse. I read a story of a young man who killed himself because he couldn’t take the pain anymore, so I’m definitely grateful I’m not in that kind of shape. I recently bought something called oil of oregano that’s a very powerful antibacterial some people claim have cured them, but I’m kind of scared to take it because the Herxheimer reaction (where you feel worse from detoxing) is going to be a bitch. Spirochetes produce ammonia when they die, so killing too many too fast could actually shut down your liver. Even a totally safe level of detoxing may render me not able to get out of bed.

If you want to know what the symptoms are… put on your reading glasses. That full symptom list is longer than my arm, and includes practically everything that can go wrong with the human body. Pretty much, if you have an undiagnosed chronic illness, get tested for Lyme. If you have weird mystery symptoms, get tested for Lyme. Even if you have a diagnosis for something else but you’re not getting better, get tested for Lyme.

This might be more than you wanted to know, but Lyme is an unacknowledged epidemic and there are probably people reading this right now who have it and don’t know it, so it’s really really important to talk about it. Let me know if you have any more questions. :)

mental health care be like
  • me: hello 911 my house is on fire
  • 911: oh is it
  • me: yeah it's like super on fire and I'm trapped on the top floor
  • 911: ...are you sure though
  • me: I'm pretty sure like it's been on fire for a while and I probably should have called when it was only kind of on fire but that's something else entirely please I need help
  • 911: have you considered the fact that you could just be smelling smoke because you're stressed
  • me: ...I'm not smelling smoke I'm serious there's like flames everywhere and I'm trapped upstairs this is a serious situation could you please send some firefighters or something
  • 911: ma'am a lot of people smell smoke from time to time it's normal
  • me: THE HOUSE. IS ON. FIRE.
  • 911: do you have a bucket of water have you considered using it
  • me: I'VE USED THEM ALREADY
  • 911: what about fire extinguishers
  • me: I DID THAT IN FACT I SPENT A LOT OF MONEY ON FIRE EXTINGUISHERS BECAUSE THE GOVERNMENT DOESN'T COVER THEM BUT THIS IS SLIGHTLY BEYOND FIRE EXTINGUISHERS THAT'S WHY I'M CALLING YOU I NEED FIREFIGHTERS HOLY CRAP
  • 911: alright... if you're sure... we'll send... some firefighters... in about... a week... make sure to follow up with us if they don't show up though
  • me: oh my god
  • - a week passes -
  • me: 911 it's me again the house is STILL ON FIRE and I'm STILL TRAPPED could I please have those firefighters now
  • 911: oh really oh that's too bad have you tried-
  • me: FIREFIGHTERS PLEASE
  • 911: we'll get back to you
  • - a year later probably -
  • firefighters: alright it's been made clear to us that you seem to think your house is on fire so we've come to see if you need our help now tell us is there any reason why you might be smelling smoke outside of an actual fire
  • me: THERE ARE FLAMES SHOOTING OUT THE BOTTOM LEVEL OF MY HOUSE
  • firefighters: that sounds serious have you tried fire extinguishers
  • me: GUYS PLEASE
  • firefighters: huh we see from your chart that this house has been on fire for a while it's very impressive that you've held out this long
  • me: THANKS OKAY COULD YOU PUT OUT THE FIRE
  • firefighters: here's the thing though we aren't actually firefighters who are familiar with house fires but we can refer you to someone who is
  • me: ...how long is that going to take
  • firefighters: well first of all we need to figure out what type of fire this is it's a very nuanced process I mean it could be a house fire but it could be something else
  • me: okay... that sounds fake but okay... as long as you put it out
  • firefighters: well we can't, that's really up to you in the end. so what type of fire would you say this is?
  • me: ...excuse me?
  • firefighters: if you were to diagnose this fire, what would you diagnose it as?
  • me: I'm not a firefighter though...
  • firefighters: sure but you know this house better than anyone so maybe try looking things up online for a while and once you've figured out what kind of fire it is get back to us and we'll try to connect you to someone who can help you extinguish it
  • me: holy shit
  • - a year later -
  • 911: yes hello
  • me: my house is still on fire I've now built a barricade out of ice packs it's very les mis and I've been researching and my conclusion is that IT'S A HOUSE FIRE COULD YOU PLEASE SEND THE APPROPRIATE FIREFIGHTERS
  • 911: alright okay but first is there any reason outside of a house fire why you might be smelling-
  • me: IF I EVER GET OUT OF THIS BURNING HOUSE I WILL PEE ON YOUR DESK
  • - a year later -
  • house fire specialist firefighter: so ma'am I hear you've had a rough day with this fire
  • me: IT'S BEEN YEARS PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELP ME OUT HERE
  • house fire specialist firefighter: that's why I came as fast as I could, these things take time you know. first some questions:
  • me: CHRIST
  • house fire specialist firefighter: is there any reason outside of a house fire why you might be smelling smoke
  • me: NO
  • house fire specialist firefighter: have you tried using water buckets to put it out
  • me: YES
  • house fire specialist firefighter: and did that work
  • me: CLEARLY NOT
  • house fire specialist firefighter: what about fire extinguishers
  • me: YES
  • house fire specialist firefighter: and-
  • me: THE HOUSE IS CLEARLY STILL ON FIRE
  • house fire specialist firefighter: what about a clean diet and exercise
  • me: WHAT
  • house fire specialist firefighter: have you tried eating healthier and taking up a sport like jogging
  • me: I FEEL LIKE THAT WOULD HELP A PROBLEM OUTSIDE OF THE ONE I'M HAVING AT THE MOMENT
  • house fire specialist firefighter: hmm, alright, well here's some fire extinguishers, call me again when you've tried eating vegan for a year and exercising five times a day and you might want to socialize more as well it's really not healthy spending all day at home
  • me: I CAN'T GO OUT THE BOTTOM FLOOR IS ON FIRE THAT'S PART OF THE PROBLEM
  • house fire specialist firefighter: I'll follow up with you in about a week or ten good luck really rooting for you
  • me: OH MY GOD
  • - ten weeks later -
  • news anchor: you know it's really surprising how many people die in house fires these days, when there's so much help available for them
  • me: *throws tv out window* hello 911 it's me again
  • 911: what seems to be the problem
  • me: my house. is. on. fire.
  • 911: oh is it that sounds serious
  • me: mhm
  • 911: now is there any reason you might be smelling smoke outside of a house fire
  • me: ...you know what nevermind I'll just try putting it out on my own
  • 911: alright ma'am just know help is easily accessible for people in your situation if you need it
  • me: bull. shit.

anonymous asked:

Seriously god bless your soul for doing all these reading rec lists and not getting annoyed! Thanks for all the hard work! If you don't mind do you have any recs for a DC comic newbie? I really want to get into dc comics but there are so many series out there are there any you would recommend?

im always happy to drag people further into comics hell with me so rec lists are actually p fun to do lmao, but thank you!! & yes!!! i have tons of dc recs, if there’s a specific character you’re interested in then tell me but for now i’ll stick to vague stuff that doesnt need that much background knowledge etc:

  • wonder woman vol 3: she’s a massive dc character obviously so reading about her is definitely something i’d recommend, but the current wonder woman title is really bad so this is probably a better bet!
  • also sensation comics ft wonder woman is a current digital series w tons of little stand alone stories 
  • gotham academy: this is a book about new characters so it’s super easy to get into. it’s kind of a ghost type mystery set in a prep school??
  • dc’s ‘year one’ titles are designed to retell the early stages of characters (like… their first year, literally) so they’re really good for new readers, such as green arrow y1, batman y1
  • justice league dark: this series probably isnt as good as i think it is but i love it?? a lot??? if u lean towards more niche characters and stories then this is great. basically the justice league but full of assholes with magic
  • whilst we’re on assholes with magic, constantine: the hellblazer, is only like 2 issues in and it’s centred around occult style antics and being a deplorable human being and its GOOD
  • blue beetle (2006-09): if you want loveable cinnamon roll characters then u cant do better
  • a lot of the current dc titles have literally just started and they’re only a couple of issues in so now is a good time to start, a few i’d recommend are doctor fate, secret six (actually all secret six stuff tbh) & we are robin (a lot of the current titles are aiming to be diverse in terms of race/sexuality etc so yeah!!!)
  • birds of prey v1: dc’s all female team, SO GOOD for female friendships etc
  • batgirl v1: both this and v2 are really good, but this is ??? the best batgirl run?? probably?? absolutely??

anonymous asked:

hi! hope you don't mind me asking, do you think you can give a summary of all your art supplies? i want to expand my horizon a bit more but i dunno where to start, all i have now is a sketchbook and pencils

My list of essentials:

1.Appreciation for the things you already have.
Let me just this first, because I think its a super important thing to have. Your art doesn’t have to be limited by your art supplies, you can make art with pretty much everything. When you appreciate what you have, you spend more time making art with it, rather than spending time thinking about what you don’t have and dreaming about all the things you could do with it. Often the dream is better than reality.

2.Pencils

3.Sketchbooks

4.Some sort of fine-liner
(I use Copic Multiliners because they are waterproof and marker proof, but there are plenty of good quality yet economical ones around)


Other stuff that can be groovy:

Impliments:

  • Ball-point pen
  • Gel pens (especially white ones for drawing on black paper or black areas)
  • Sharpies/Vivids
  • Markers (like Promarkers and Copic markers and their cheaper alternatives)
  • Highlighters
  • Colouring pencils (I use Cretacolor and Faber Castel, but I’m a bit reserved about pencils because they fade easily, even in the dark)
  • Water Colour pencils 
  • Charcoal pencils
  • Nibs & Nib holder (they take a while to get used to but in the end are better than fineliners for inking because you can get different line thicknesses and feelings)
  • eraser
  • kneadable eraser (great for highlights - you can mush it into any shape)

Brushes:

  • Synthetic hair (soft, gives you smaller/less brush strokes, smoother look, and the hairs don’t fall out as much)
  • Natural hair (coarser, textured - gives you brush strokes, I say they are very good for dry brushing)
  • Flat (I like these because they are great for detail, they are easier to control)
  • Round
  • Fan (good for doing textures)

Media:

  • Charcoal sticks (very expressive)
  • Oil pastels (less mess than charcoal, but gross on the fingers)
  • Gouache (Its like paint but it dries kind of powdery and matte)
  • Acrylic paint (Reeves is a good brand, it has rich colour, but if you use crappy cheap acrylic and put a gloss or satin coat or shellac over it once its done you could get much the same effect. I know that Reeves tends to stay wet longer though)
  • Indian Ink (if you want good black… Also Pebo is a good brand)
  • Instant coffee (if you dissolve it in a bit of water it’s great to paint with)
  • Food colouring (Just because I don’t have dye… but beware though, when you go over dry areas with water it will colour the water and blur, also its hard to get out of brushes)
  • PVA glue (a cheap alternative to varnish)
  • Satin or gloss varnish (really does bring out the depth of colour, you will not regret it)
  • Shellac (Basically a varnish, dissolve flakes in meths and paint over area. However it will stain the work browny yellow - good for a sepia effect)
  • Face make up products (for the lols)
  • Coloured paper
  • Glitter

Digital

  • Drawing tablet & stylus (I have a Wacom Intuos)
  • Corel Painter (great for digital painting, blendy pieces)
  • Clip Studio Paint (great for comic style, cartoon, has a good amount of brushes)
  • Artrage (I find this program incredibly frustrating tbh)
  • Adobe Photoshop (good for editing photos or pictures of your art for digital publishing)
  • Adobe Illustrator (good for creating digital images, logos, posters, typography - is all vector based, so anything that isn’t a photo will be infinitely scaleable)
  • Adobe InDesign (literally the best thing ever, great for laying stuff out and organising things for publications etc) 

But you know, be creative, think outside the box. Use random things that you haven’t seen anybody else use before. Explore.

anonymous asked:

Imagine Dan, Phil, Joe and Caspar doing a collab with the roommate/boyfriend [whichever works for you tbh] tag. [Also my Phan and Jaspar trash heart would really like to think of headcannons but I'm crap at writing those kinds of things. If you don't mind thinking about it, could you think of at least 6 headcannons/moments? Thanks. 🤓

ahhh this is all i want in life!!! i think ive said before that id really like them to do something where theyre competing against each other??? basically i want them to be lowkey fighting about which pair knows each other better/ works best together. like, imagine: 

  • caspar getting cocky about how well he knows joe (like he does in pretty much every best friend challenge they do. “yeah we can answer any question about each other! i know everything about joe!! his fav colour, the number of sugars he likes in his coffee, the exact time and location of his birth…”)
  • them doing something really silly like the binoculolz challenge; jaspar vs phan. i’d also really like them to do something where one persons blindfolded and the other person has to guide them somewhere, or help them complete a task. which seems kinda random just but imagine how much touching would be involved. ok thanks. 
  • also with this i need lots of insults towards the other team to try and put them off. like, dan bringing up the fact that caspar looks like a pineapple (actually i feel like most of the #bants would be between dan and caspar but i can imagine phil getting competitive and blurting out something insulting and everyone freezing and dan bursting out laughing) 
  • listen,,,they need do something offensive or kinda dirty like play cards against humanity or never have i ever. i feel like itd bring them a lot closer together as people. 
  • a room mate swap. dan and joe at the ‘phlat’, caspar and phil at the ‘jaspar pad’. i feel like this would be a skit, and i’d need it to include scenes like: joe walking into the glass kitchen door, dan showing him anime, joe being surprised/scared by the one direction poster on the toilet door, a shot where joe notices dan’s haru pillow and looks at it quizzically while dan glances at the camera and quickly gets joe to focus on something else. and: caspar getting phil to dj, the two of them playing fifa, phil finding the emma lee doll like stuffed in drawer or something and deciding that he is her father now, he and caspar then fighting over her. and a scene at the end where jaspar and phan reunite and they go on abt how much they missed each other and how they wouldnt really want to live with anyone else.
  • but really i dont care what kind of video they do bc im sure itd be cute and hilarious no matter what i just need this collab to happen already!!! 
Abience

abience
(n.) the strong urge to avoid someone or something.


It’s been going on for weeks now and she couldn’t quite put her finger on the reason why.

He was distancing himself majorly, his facial expressions were hard as stone and she could tell something had changed with him. She thought it was just a thing he was dealing with, but it wasn’t going away and she was afraid she was really going to lose him this time. Her partner, her friend, the man she loved deep down in the bottom of her heart.

She was still going to her regular therapy sessions and Burke had caught her spacing out. Maybe talking it out could bring some light.

“Kate?” Her head snapped in the direction of the male’s voice, her therapist looking at her patiently. “Tell me what’s on your mind right now. You can’t seem to focus on anything else.”

She was silent for a moment, forming words to explain her situation around her brain before she re-situated herself in the leather chair across from Dr. Burke.

“He’s fading away, distancing himself. He isn’t the joyful, theory filled man I know. If he gives any input into a case, it’s usually dry and emotionless. It’s never been that way. He can’t seem to even be in a room with me anymore, won’t talk to me unless it’s about a case..” She trailed off, shutting her mouth to take a quick swallow.

“He used to bring me coffee every morning, with a smile that is contagious but now, no coffee, no smile. His face is always in a frown, and if you’ve been around him long enough, you can just tell he isn’t himself. I don’t know what I’ve done wrong..”

“Have you told him?” She knew exactly what he was talking about, but saying it out loud was like she’d have to face it. That she lied to him about hearing him confess his love because she got scared of how she felt and ran, like always. She only shook her head as a reaction as she sighed.

“It was a bombing case that changed everything. One minute we were working on finding who dropped the bag and the next moment he was cold, and heartless-” She stopped her words as she pondered for a minute.

Wait, the bombing case. She had let it slip out that she had taken a bullet and remembered everything. He had mysteriously left the precinct when she came out from the interrogation that day.

She stood to her feet quickly, mumbling to the male watching her that she had to go and she was sorry. She didn’t take her time rushing out, hailing a cab and quickly making her way back to the 12th.


When she arrives, unfortunately Castle isn’t there. No, he had decided he was going to follow that beat cop around who’s other partners had mysteriously died on their first day. Letting out a sigh, she decided she’d have to wait until he came around to have the chat with him, this couldn’t wait any longer.

It was about half an hour and she was flipping through paperwork when she heard talking between voices, one that she instantly knew. Glancing to her right, she noticed Castle making his way in, along side Slaughter who was the cop her partner was following around. She couldn’t miss the chance to talk with him before he left again.

Standing to her feet, she hurried over to the two of them, knowing Ethan’s eyes were scaling her body.

“Hey, Castle. Can I talk to you for a moment?”

“Uh, can it wait? I’m kinda with Slaughter here, we’re going to need to use one of the rooms for-” His words were cut off as she shook her head.

“No, it can’t wait. Please.” She asked again, motioning him towards the break room. He let out a sigh, but before he could start moving, the male cop beside him nudged him, mumbling something before nodding towards her, as if expecting she’d be interested in him. Right.

Castle only glared at him before stepping in front of her as she led him into the break room. Only once the door was shut and the blinds were down did she turn around and step closer to him.

“Castle, what’s going on with you? You’re not the same nine year old on a sugar rush that I used to know. I could ask if it’s something I’ve done, but I think I already know, so just tell me what’s bothering you. We can’t keep avoiding each other like the plague forever.” His glare only deepened as she talk and she resisted the urge to step back as he stepped close to her, menacingly into her personal bubble.

“You lied to me, Beckett. Saying you remembered nothing of Montgomery’s funeral past being on the podium only, you remembered everything. But, instead of coming out with the truth that you feel nothing for me, you became a coward and decided to hide behind your walls. I would have dealt with the fact you don’t love me better than you lying. I wouldn’t have lied to you.” His cold eyes bore into hers as she didn’t dare break their contact.

She stepped closer, too close in her mind, but at this point, boundaries didn’t matter. The truth needed to get out now. “That’s what you think, Castle? I don’t love you? How can you be so oblivious to the fact that you are the one who makes me smile like you do, who I can trust with my life, and how it’s a different kind than I do with Ryan and Esposito. I love them too, but their love is brotherly. Yours? My love for you drives me crazy. All the way around the world. I know I shouldn’t have lied about hearing you, but I was scared. I’m a broken mess and I haven’t placed all the pieces back together yet, and I lied, not only because I was scared but also because I wanted to be better. For you. Not any other person, not because I didn’t feel the same. So don’t rule the excuse of me not loving you. Because I couldn’t stop loving you if I tried.”


She took in a deep breath after her voice had somewhat rose over how she was handling this situation. He stared back at her before he stepped closer, their noses were inches away from each other and their eye contact stayed constant. “That wall..that wall eliminating was for me? You were doing this for me..” She nodded, reaching up a hand to caress his cheek, smiling when he didn’t push her away.

“Yes, because without you, I wouldn’t have found my mother’s killer, I wouldn’t have be having as much fun as I do with you, like Roy said, and I wouldn’t have someone that I can lean on when I feel like I can’t stand on my own anymore. We have to stop this poor communication, I can’t run from things I’m scared of anymore and you have to trust me that I’m trying to right myself, let the wall down for you to come in.” Taking a leap, she leaned forward brushing her lips against his own.

His hand curled around her waist while the other grazes her flush skin as their lips locked in a soft, sweet manner. They pulled away for air to which Kate slid her hand into his, linking their fingers for the small moment. “Are we good now?” She asked, knowing she’d still have a lot to make up to him but he pecked her on the cheek in return and she knew that even though they weren’t perfect, they were getting there now and that’s what matter.

anonymous asked:

I love MG to pieces but do you think it's just a lack of chemistry between him & MD? Truthfully, I'm not sure Mary x Henry's writing was all that much worse than Mary x Matthew and Tom x Sybil post S2e1 but the couples had chemistry. Although maybe we were all bought in because of the groundwork in Series 1 and when the writing started to go south we overlooked it...

Goddammit I just lost half my reply. Here goes rewriting it!

I’ve been thinking about this a lot. I think the lack of chemistry is part of the problem. I didn’t “feel” it even in the first introduction in the CS though I really wanted to. However, plenty of people do find chemistry there and the reviews I’ve seen (though I haven’t seen any for the latest episode yet) have talked about how good they are together, so I think perception and appreciation of chemistry is pretty subjective. If it wasn’t, there’d never be shipping wars! (And wouldn’t that be nice…)

However, I think there’s more to it than that. I 100% take on board what you say about the writing both of their scenes and past romance. (I thought M/M in S03 was terrible, I was never much of a T/S shipper and I was so bothered about gaps in M/M’s story in S01 that I wrote Consolation Prize to try to explain it!) In fact, I like a lot of their scenes. And I quite like Henry. Barring the oddness of how that staircase scene came across, I like his confidence, his wit, how open he is about his feelings, his drive. We get as much of him as we do of any of the rest of Mary’s suitors really and there was just as much that was problematic about their interactions. And yet I fell for Charles Blake and not for Henry.

The problem for me was the construction of the story. It wasn’t what Henry said or didn’t say in any one scene because everyone says bad things occasionally (remember Matthew basically telling Mary it was their fault Lavinia died, right?), it wasn’t Mary choosing to move on, it was the way the whole thing was put together.

I’ve said it before but - Mary was never so convincing as when she said she didn’t want something. Now, I know Mary. She’s absolutely excellent at saying the opposite of what she means. She has been since S01. But what has always made her such a nuanced and sympathetic character has been that even when she’s saying something biting or shocking or emotionally reductive, there have been signs so that the viewer knows what’s going on under the surface. This has always been a strength of Michelle Dockery’s acting and it has been helped out by the direction of her scenes. Think of how many times all the emotion was conveyed by one shot of something behind her eyes, a glance down, a particularly deep breath - these are the things that tell us that even though Mary is waspish and snappy and dismissive, there is so much going on under the surface. This is why I spent years of my life writing her and trying to understand her! If we’d seen any of that at all going on during her scenes with Henry or when other people are talking to her, then I’d be able to believe the inner conflict we’re meant to assume was going on. But I saw none of it. All I saw was a miserable, bad tempered woman being harassed by literally everyone in her life to marry a man she continually denied she cared about more than finding him attractive and a decent human being. I got nothing else. Perhaps it’s me; perhaps I should rewatch and I would then find all these hidden signals of Mary-ness that I’m missing and all would be well. Then again, I can’t be bothered. There have always been gaps in the narrative in Downton Abbey but previously we’ve had material with which to plug them imaginatively. My imagination after episode 8 can be represented as, “????????????” So there’s that. 

Then there’s the issue of how little substance the relationship has. Like, I genuinely don’t know where it’s meant to go (perhaps that’s for the CS, IDK) or what it’s based on. With Tony, I understood that he represented somebody who understood Mary’s status and way of life, would provide a safe pair of hands to bring up George and would fit in easily at Downton at a time when Mary needed that stability and to find her feet as part owner. With Charles, I understood that his modern ideas challenged and matched Mary’s hopes for the estate moving forwards into the future and we saw this in practice on numerous occasions and we also saw that he was engaged and interested in George. I shouldn’t even count Evelyn on this list because I don’t believe he was ever in the running, but even with him, I got the appeal of a long-standing friendship. With Henry there is… he’s attractive and they talk about their feelings in a witty way. But, like, seriously, what else is there? That we are shown in their scenes and in how he presents himself. His passion is something she despises and fears. He has shown no interest in her son and while I don’t doubt someone with his levels of drive and intelligence could take an active part in running the estate, we have no on-screen evidence that he has an interest or aptitude for doing it. Blake we could believe could be a good father and a good partner on the estate because he was shown clearly in those roles. (I’m not saying this to push a Team Blake agenda which is irrelevant anyway, believe it or not, but the facts are self-evident!) The only thing Mary and Henry seem to have in common is, well, Tom. And that’s a bit of a problem. (I know I’m going to alienate people here, but I realise I feel for Henry/Mary similarly to how I feel about Ron/Hermione. I don’t dislike them as a couple who dates for a bit but I am really struggling to see them last as an end-game romance. Anyway, that’s just me.) And 90% of their conversations are about their feelings. Which isn’t actually very interesting if it isn’t supported by shared values and mutual interests and good chemistry. I just end up going, “BUT WHAT IS THIS GREAT LOVE YOU KEEP TELLING ME YOU SHARE?” Which leads on to…

The third and probably the major cause of my feeling that this relationship is just bizarrely constructed. It feels like it’s almost entirely based on other people’s opinions. There’s the continual interference of Tom which is… well, ridiculous. The shafting of Tom’s character to “Henry’s biggest cheerleader” even when that puts him over considering Mary’s happiness whom he apparently loves, I mean what. I suppose the kindest reading of it is that he knows Mary better than she knows herself and just wants her to be happy at the expense of, well, himself, herself, consistency and understanding. AND HE BROUGHT VIOLET BACK FROM THE SOUTH OF FRANCE PURPOSEFULLY TO TELL MARY TO MARRY HENRY. I mean. Let’s just let that sink it. IDEK what to say about that. As for the rest of the characters, none of it made sense. One minute they were talking about how Henry was unsuitable because he was a racing driver, the next they were saying Mary ought to marry him because she loved him! I mean, what? What changed? If Mary gave some indication using Dockery’s excellent subtle acting skills (see above) and there was some scene where she dropped her guard and let slip something that suggested she loved Henry and was terribly miserable about it, their turn-around would make some sense. Unfortunately there wasn’t. 

So I’m left with nothing but an entirely superficial reading of the relationship. Mary is attracted to Henry and quite likes him. However, his involvement in cars is an insuperable barrier and as they have nothing in common and his profession really distresses her, she would really rather just get rid of him because it’s never going to work, even though she feels kind of bad about it because, hey, she does like him and he’s super hot. Then everyone in her family keep telling she ought to marry him and how much he loves her and that she loves him too over and over again until she suddenly realises that love conquers all??? Including the fact that Henry’s profession will always remind her of Matthew’s death but she can get over it because love means being hurt over and over again apparently????? So she marries him in five seconds flat without having told him any of her scruples or fears or reached any catharsis. This isn’t just a gap in the narrative, this is the Grand Canyon of narrative holes!

And that’s not even covering the fact that part of the reason everyone seems to want them to marry is because a) Mary is miserable (because she loves Henry IDK); b) miserable Mary is a bully; c) Henry is a bigger bully therefore d) Henry can sort Mary out.  WHICH. IS. GROSS. GROSSSSSS. AND MISOGYNISTIC. AND DISGUSTING. AND A TOTAL AND COMPLETE BETRAYAL OF MARY’S CHARACTER FOR THE PAST FIVE SEASONS. I CAN’T EVEN. I’M REDUCED TO CAPS LOCK ON THE INTERNET.

And I’m a girl who happily ships Richard/Mary and can deal with the blackmail as something that needs to be worked past. 

In fact, you know why that’s okay? Because that is the characters. That is something the characters do and they can work out between them and move past. Just like Henry’s comments on the stairs. If I were a Mary/Henry shipper, I’d write fic in which they deal with that and talk about it and work towards an equal footing. Because these things are always achievable. Saying Mary needs to be stamped on by a bullying husband is 10000000000 times worse because it is the judgement of characters extraneous to the relationship itself making a commentary on the relationship that is proved to be valid because after hearing these comments they get married without them being addressed. This is the opinion of the show! This is the Greek chorus’ closing statement! JESUS CHRIST I CANNOT GET OVER THIS.

And that is why I think that while better chemistry would certainly wipe away some of my objections, I have waaay more problems with this relationship than the fact that their chemistry isn’t as great as it could be.

*drops mic*

anonymous asked:

I kind of want to get more into kpop because I really like the few songs that I've heard, but I always hear about how badly the idols work conditions are and I really don't know if I should support that? So I wanted to know what you think about it and how you deal with it, if that isn't too much to ask?

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