i just cant stop loving you

Hey :) sorry that I haven’t been active or posting much recently… I really wanna be making something funny or witty or clever for you but i just cant at the moment. I feel pretty crappy right now and idk when it will pass but please just bear with me! Also sidenote: Ive wondered about a more personal blog recently.. to get things off my chest and it would be more about my life, feelings, view and opinions. So you can expect to stop seeing that kind of stuff on here (maybe) .. i don’t think i post too much personal stuff but it happens occasionally and it’s not what this blog is about so. Cool :)

Anyway
Love you lots,
Sean

casual-fun  asked:

Can't believe I'm just dropped after making you what you are today...

Cant believe you dragged me thru the ringer for not messaging you 24/7 and trying my best to make sure you were okay and please you even though there are many people who would’ve loved to have spoken to me that wouldnt’ve taken it for granted. I tried my best to be nice and supportive and you kept cutting me down, what do you expect? Stop guilt tripping me I try to be fair and nice to EVERYONE I message and make sure EVERYONE I can is doing okay. I have no bad intentions for absolutely ANYONE. Also, its not fair to say you’re the one who made my account popular when its a ton of other people aswell who have been supportive. And it’s definately unfair to everyone who has been good to me and you’ve been unkind. Keep saying, “I made your account popular” as a way to feel like its valid to put me down. I love all of my followers equally. Im not going to think your better because you got me a 50 extra likes. I’m thankful for people who reblog me even if its just one reblog. Im thankful for EVERYONE who sends me polite and kind messages, without bad intentions at all. Always means the same to me (alot)

Also, im very very drunk and deleting this in the morning. So if I sound really messed up, I apologize

if you’re in the united states right now i hope you’re safe. i hope you’re with people you love. today has exposed just how much hatred there is in this rotten world and i hope that at least for now, you have people around you that give you hope. i am so, so sorry, this is not the kind of world you deserve 

To all my writers out there, particularly fanfic writers because I am one and I’m feelin this hardcore

  • It’s okay that you haven’t written for a while, you can take breaks.
  • You can start writing again whenever you want, you don’t need an excuse.
  • If you would still like an excuse, here it is: I want you to start again, you should totally do it.
  • It’s ok if you’re out of practice, you’ll pick up traction again.
  • We’re all learners and its good to have role models, but try to be better than the writer were before, and try less to be ‘as good as’ someone else.
  • It’s alright to abandon a piece if you have no enthusiasm or passion left for it.
  • It’s okay to be needlessly dramatic.
  • It’s okay to be needlessly ridiculous.
  • Write the crackfic, write the rarepair, or write the popular pair. Write what you want to write.
  • Yes someone has probably written this scene before.
  • Write it anyway if you want to write it.
  • Yeah that trope has probably been done a million times.
  • Use it anyway if you want to use it.
  • Probably there are people who are tired of reading about that AU.
  • Write it anyway, they don’t have to read it.
  • Respect your audience, but don’t let other people dictate what you create.
  • Reblog your own work. Be proud of it. You deserve to pat yourself on the back.
  • I’m proud of you, you’re doing great.
  • Keep writing, keep making stuff. People will care. 
  • Future you will especially care.

Aries: Let yourself heal. Drink enough vodka to clean out the wounds they left on your insides. It’s okay to shatter sometimes and it’s okay to stand for what’s right. Even if everything hurts, just keep breathing.

Taurus: sometimes making excuses isn’t good enough, how dare you deny someone else their pain. Sometimes a situation is just fucked up and that’s all there is too it. Sometimes it can’t be fixed, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.

Gemini: Think about yourself for once. Stop putting people before you, even if it’s me. Let yourself rest you can’t keep running ragged all the god damn time. I know you want to protect everyone but you cant. We love you for it, but you cant.

Cancer: Pain is going to end I swear it will. I know it feels eternal right now. If it’s all you can do to hang on then fucking hang on because you’re strong enough to beat this.

Leo:  Learn to keep your lips shut because some things aren’t meant to be shared. I know they aren’t told as secrets or at two am but they are still not to be talked about so damn casually.

Virgo: This time of year is always hard. Always scary. But you can pull through. I believe you. Believe that you’re past the hospital visits and all the scary parts of this. You are past it.

Libra: Sometimes cutting up yourself to give others isn’t the best solution. You are not always the missing puzzle piece. You don’t always belong and you won’t always be enough. That’s okay.

Scorpio: Wrap yourself up in bubble wrap if you have to. Keep yourself from getting hurt. Keep yourself from opening wounds again as hard as it is. I know you’re scared. I am too. But you’ll be okay.

Sagittarius: Sometimes recovery Isn’t linear. I know you’ve been fighting for progress but sometimes all you need is a backslide to get a little strength back. I know it’s not easy. But you’ll be okay.

Capricorn: What are you doing? Seriously. What the hell are you trying to do here? You need to say what the plan is so we can get on board. Because all we can tell right now is you’re exploding. We need to know how to pick up the pieces.

Aquarius: Stop being ashamed. Your scars, your wounds, your damage is nothing to fucking hide. If it makes them uncomfortable tell them to fuck off. This is your life and you should be proud.

Pisces: Learn to stop taking so many risks. Running right to the edge one day you won’t be able to stop. Learn how to pull back sometimes. I know it’s hard but it’s all you can do.

—  This week’s horoscope
“did you love her” he asked him
he nodded yeah more than anything
“so why did you keep leaving her?”
do you know what its like to be at war with your own mind?
to know you love someone but not being enough for them.
to know how good they are but being so scared to hurt them and hurt myself.
i was scared.
scared to feel so much for someone.
i never planned on loving her i just wanted to fuck.
it was the way she’d never get mad at me she’d just let me lash out all my anger with her there and she was never scared of me.
it was the way she was always so smiley even when you saw the pain in her eyes.
it was the way i could want to spend forever with her but fear losing her to anything.
i tried to not love her.
but everyday i loved her more and more.
now i cant face her. when i look at her pictures my heart man it stops for a second.
i tried to make her hate me i was so mean.
yet she never stopped being there.
sometimes i knew i was hurting her but i still said it knowing she’d forgive me and i hate myself for hurting her.
shes the first person ive been myself with
she knows me more than i know myself
she knew when i was sad
when i needed something
she knew me man.
now i tried making her hate me i picked at her flaws i brought her low. maybe i was overwhelmed that someone could be that perfect that i wanted to make her a little more like me a complete mess. but you see she never thought i was a mess. i could look my worst and she always looked beautiful fuck, she’d never care. she’d run her hands in my hair and touch my nose, have you seen its so big yet she loved it like it was a masterpiece.
what im trying to say i keep leaving because im scared, scared to hurt her, to fuck up or maybe even to feel this much for anyone.
i love her and i dont want to be 25 and regret this.

its been so long but im still trying to figure out how you could go from “i love you” to “i don’t care about you anymore” in such a short amount of time

I was doing well, and then one thing hit and after that I can barely lift my head up from everything thats crashed down onto me.
And half of it is because of you.
After you left, I hid my feelings so well that I even forgot I felt them. I used forgetting as a way to heal, I forgot to feel the emotions that come after a breakup and I was doing so well because of that.
But now I’m remembering. And since I’ve started I cant stop. I remember being there the first time our hands intertwined and I remember the way it felt to be so close to you. and I remember every single phone call that we had. And all that may sound nice, because it did make me smile, it did make me laugh thinking about the things you’d say but then it just hurt because your not here. none of that is here anymore.
You use to text me in all caps saying you loved me and now you don’t even look in my direction. You can’t even say hello anymore..
And it hurts, because now that I remember how it felt to be there, to have you, to love and be loved, I miss you.
I miss you so damn much and I can’t breathe because suddenly I’m reminded of when you ended things. and then the picture flashes through my mind of you with her.
And now I can’t even get out of bed anymore because life hurts too damn much.
Because I’m reminded of how people can wake up one day and decide that they don’t love you anymore. and I’m so scared that everyone I have ever known will leave.
.
—  you screwed me up

like ok

junkrat came up with the “you’ll hook em and i’ll cook em!” catchphrase when he first met hog, and he was so excited about how cool it sounded that he’s been repeating it non-stop

hog, not used to junkrat being junkrat, gets all huffy puffy about the damn line, because its so cornbally, and he cant stand listening to him say it over and over, and just tells him to shut the fuck up for fuck’s sake

one day, though, probably after months of teaming up with each other and getting to know one another better, they get in a real tough spot, and junkrat’s having a panic attack, not sure how to handle the situation, mumbling “i don’t know what to do???? what do we do??!?!? i dont have a plan for this!!!!”

then suddenly, a big hand rests on his shoulder, and roadhog is looking right at him

“I’ll hook ‘em…” he says, and then stops there.

junkrat’s still for what seems like forever, and then cracks the biggest smile he’s ever done his whole life, and just screams, “AND I’LL COOK EM!!!”

also

  • clint mcelroy forgets he’s a cleric literally within the first thirty seconds of the performance. later on the boys have to remind him that he’s their main healer. i don’t think clint mcelroy knows what a cleric is
  • taako’s commitment to Greg the Regular Dude is so fucking on point. he just keeps saying Normal Guy Things like comments about the weather and “you got greg on the horn here!” 
  • they mention in passing that they literally labeled their dad’s dice for him so he would know which one’s which
  • clint mcelroy still doesn’t know how to play d&d. he also doesn’t know where his character is or what he’s supposed to be doing most of the time. he’s been playing this game for years now. i love this show
  • i like that magnus is the kind of guy who already has a wrestling name picked out for himself. nerd.
  • fantasy john cena calls his dad every DAY
  • taako has to say nice things to people to banish an evil god and his first reaction is to start lavishly praising himself
  • catwalk jerry the catwalk boy is my favorite character in this entire series
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“Oh I swim pretty boy.”

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I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.

Do you guys know what I just realized?

In Viria’s official art, Leo is basically the only one sitting down.

All I can imagine is Leo is being forced to stand for his drawing but he’s having none of that shit.

“hell to the no i aint stressing out these long beautiful legs imma sit down and play with some wires u cant tell me what to do”

I’m laughing so hard. Viria, I love you.

3000 Follower Forever! (^▽^)

I’ve reached 3000 followers! A huge thank you to all of my followers every last one of them, and all of my lovely mutuals, I’m doing another follower forever because I think that it’s a nice way of showing my appreciation to the blogs that I have followed and made my tumblr experience so much more better <3 so here’s another follower forever of all of the blogs that are all really cool and are worth checking out:

@xss / @just-to-express-not-impress / @audio-medic-cant-stop / @psielite / @theonthehalfblood / @izachi-i / @assdare / @anime / @wakata / @sylferino / @juunkrat / @doujinshi / @zetsuubo / @waifu-defence-force / @emiria / @johnathon / @maddie-neko / @serendine-is-my-wife / @ahegao-infection / @dango00 / @mobpsycho100 / @thigh-high-senpai / @chilly-ashiteru / @fergzillar / @cthuwu / @jougasakis / @2-b / @jestix / @macmike-senpai / @seieiryu / @onee-samaaa / @basedkanbaru / @ryuu-ga-waga-teki-w0-kurau / @shokaku / @officialyasen / @xenodile / @sachi-komine / @literally-the-best-onii-chan / @ominous-misaka / @isucktoesforreal / @tsunderrated / @that-puckerd-my-butt-hole / @thewaifuwhisperer / @moekingdom / @dubstopped / @therootbeerninja / @shieni / @relife-project / @blood-and-pastry / @kawaiimouto / @otakuwolfknight / @danmachi / @skyholic / @justintaco / @dotshaft / @0ni-chan / @hiratzuka / @hakujiin / @simplykasumi / @shinobubu / @tsunglasses / @sqidimus / @ushinaki / @gurikajis / @narumeias / @ecchifortheplot / @ookazaki / @jyoshikausei / @janime6 / @alphastigma117 / @vergil03 / @hanekawa-san / @k-ui / @itadaki-italy / @spawn-senpai / @shiintan / @sherry-kun-wa-itsumo-kedaruge / @animeslovenija / @darkrai10 / @zsaber / @lolisarereligion / @more-moe-more-problems / @literallytheworstblogger / @shinobukaka / @shirobaka / @tippy-the-rabbit / @is-the-order-a-destroyer-new / @fuku-shuu / @theoneshotwonder / @xdeyuix / @coffee-shop-waifu / @cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga / @ipscell / @byzantine-love-machine / @erensjaegerbombs / @tachibana-marika / @xyzismywaifu / @kv3dia / @a-titty-ninja-with-a-water-gun / @aegao / @shokugekis / @cutegirlsdoingcutethings / @mirayamana / @kamidere-masochist / @medusalily / @deadecchi / @ama-neee / @topderpyanime / @mizukami-sakura / @uselessdragon / @toniaberry / @sophieicchi / @anime-is-my-lifee 

Thank you again to everyone who has followed me so far <3

Dispite Everything, It's still You (Original Sans Motivational Audio)
Dispite Everything, It's still You (Original Sans Motivational Audio)

I was inspired to write a short little Inspiration thing for New years when i saw this post made by @destiny-smasher

So i wrote a quick thing for it.

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i remember when i woke up crying one morning, how i wasn’t really sure why i was crying, all that i knew was that it just hurt. everything hurt. i remember sitting up and feeling my heart just shatter because it was as if everything painful i had buried six feet under, had resurrected all at once and the ghost-like screams were too deafening. i was disoriented. it felt as though i wasn’t even on earth, like everything i had loved and everything that made me happy was separated from my being and i couldn’t snap out of this trance. i cried that whole day. i remember when it clicked, that this is what being heartbroken felt like. i cant remember much else because sometimes when you go through so much pain your mind just blocks it out so you can’t reflect on it too much and i have finally put it in the past. because ghosts don’t stop haunting you until they find peace and what i hadn’t realized was that i wasn’t mounting a lover, i was mourning myself because i knew the second i lost you, but i kept holding on and i kept you alive within the deepest parts of my mind, i held on longer than i was intended too. and you knew this. and you tried to back away and all that did was hurt me because i never realized that you were supposed to and i know you didn’t mean to cause me any harm because your heart is so pure and i realized that today. i realized, you left because you saw all the damage you caused me to inflict upon myself and i don’t blame you because its not your fault. i swooped in and thought i could save you but really, most nights it was me that needed the saving and i’m so sorry that i took away the light in my eyes and tried to give it to you. i know now that you shine on your own and you deserve all the love that i tried to give you and more than anything, i hope you can find that someday. i hope you heal and come back alive from your precious decay. because i am finally starting to. and now i am back and strongly rooted and we can finally have casual conversations and i can laugh again and i want you to know that i’m okay. and finally, after all this pain, i hope you are okay too. because god knows that all i’ve ever wanted.

@coldharmonies (AN ANGEL) prompted: even twists his ankle! 

“stop wiggling.”

“i’m not!”

“you are,” and he says it with a heft of a huff.  “stop wiggling!”

even’s shoulders droop his body down, head drip-dropping back onto the nest of pillows isak has propped up behind him.

“isak.”

“it looks like it’s already bruising.”

he says again, carefully, with the corner of his lips twitching in the smile, “isak-”

“are we sure it’s not..? it looks bad,” and when he glances up, his eyebrows are worried furrows, cheeks a chalky pale. he sounds exasperated, but looks oh so concerned, and his fingertips are so gentle where they smooth the cloth-wrapped bag of frozen peas to even’s twisted ankle.

even just rolls his eyes. drama. “i’m fine. baby, i’m not gonna break.”

“you’re never dancing again.”

he flops a hand up, stabs the air in mock protest. “nei! i’ll never stop danc-”

“and especially not in socks on the wooden floors - what were you thinking?”

there’s a moment.

and then, he can’t help it. the laugh springs open in his lungs, bubbles up right out of him. and when it hits the air, fills the air, isak, oh, isak tries to narrow his eyes sharp and baleful at him, he really tries to, but. well.

they’re sitting lopsided on the bed holding frozen vegetables to even’s foot because he slipped and fell in his socks while dancing, and suddenly, that’s the funniest thing that’s happened all week and isak can hardly breathe through the hiccups of laughter his body is shivering loose from him.

shaking his head, he crawls up the bed. settles in even’s lap with one knee on either side of his hips snug.

“you’re so stupid,” but he’s grinning.

even slips his hands under the hem of his t-shirt to hold his waist gently, and he kisses the words to his lips: “i’m your stupid, though.”

and isak- he hugs him in, and he kisses him back, and he promises, “you are.”