i just can't deal with any of shit

The Shit John Paul Jones Had to Deal With 

A share of all this was outside of his control but also know that he brought some of it on himself, probably could have avoided much of it if he wasn’t such an insecure, paranoid, isolationist, and was better at making friends instead of enemies, if he wasn’t so gullible, if he didn’t have such a fragile ego, wasn’t so quick to please the upper class, so desperate to have any sort of command, had better judgement of people’s characters, was capable of forgiving and forgetting, and didn’t complain so much buuuuut, yeah. Here we go (below the break because this is an incredibly long post followed by a reflective conclusion):

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I was having a good time but reality is coming crashing back again

dealingishard  asked:

Do you do the thing where you crave things you are allergic to in a self destructive way? When I am depressed I don't eat for a long time and then binge eat all the things that I can't eat and then feel even worse. I can't figure out how to stop other than not having the food around (which is hard because my roommate is allergic to nothing) do you have any suggestions?

I legitimately crave meat every now and then, and a whole bunch of other shit I know I can’t have. 

For me I’ve been able to Not Do The Thing because giving in can literally make me ill for weeks and I’d rather just not deal with that anymore or risk having to stabbing myself with an epi pen, but if it helps to know, there are some theories that when you have food intolerances and allergic issues certain things are going on in your body which make a batshit kind of sense. 

Allow me to paraphrase wildly here, basically the there was a study recently that suggested that eating small, tiny tiny amounts of the thing you are allergic to (usually done under medical supervision) can help boost your tolerance and eliminate the issue, so now some researchers are proposing the idea that when your body is craving things you shouldn’t have, it might actually be trying to “fix” itself. This is wildly under explained but yea, there’s some science to back up why we possibly crave foods we are allergic to, and it’s got nothing to do with “I’m a self destructive piece of shit, witness me!”

The body can also become addicted to cortisol, and get wired up wrong so that it finds the stress hormone soothing, so that might also be another reason, again this was stuff I read recently in a fairly new study so I dunno how concrete it is, but it makes me feel better about my body going “you know what we should eat, red meat slapped between two slices of wheat product, boy doesn’t death sound delicious

As for how I avoid it, I eat something else. Usually I’m just hungry and my body is just craving, so I go off and make some soup with far too much salt in it to try and sate the junk food craving, or I slice up potatoes and roast em real quick and have some salty starch to tide me over. Sweet things are more difficult at the moment because sugar is making me feverish, but I’m hoping, hoping, I’ll be able to start eating homemade jam again on some oatcakes or something. I can also eat fresh caramel sauce without issue, but not once it’s set…so that’s my excuse for drinking it out of the pan and none of you can stop me. 

When I needed to stop eating certain things immediately and was struggling to do it, I just stopped buying it. ETD had to put up with a barren wasteland of a pantry until my body stopped going “lick all the wheat things” and after about 3-4 weeks the cravings subsided and I’m back to making bread and other things and don’t feel the compulsion to shove them in my mouth for the quick easy carbs. 

You basically just have to make the conscious decision to stop hurting yourself, and to let the cravings work their way out. Your body is most likely addicted to certain things, whether it’s the sugars the salt or the easy energy you get from it, and you giving it what it wants every now and then despite the fact that it’s really bad for you in terms of allergies, is feeding into it and keeps you in the cycle of craving things you are allergic to. So take your time, and try not to punish yourself too much if you end up giving in.

Just be aware that once you do give up certain foods for good and ever go back to them, your reaction can be very very severe if not life threatening, especially if it’s a genuine allergy. So please just be careful and take care of yourself <3

anonymous asked:

lol i can't wait to check up on you in a few years! your ugly ass will probably be dating some super ugly man with a tiny dick and you'll still be holding hands and dragging him to pride while you celebrate being *bisexual* and not having to deal with any of the oppression that comes with being actually lgbt. have fun, jizz-breath

holy shit i can’t decide if this is like. creepy and ominous or just comical lmfao i’m changing my url to jizz-breath

nonotimetoulouse  asked:

Hello hello, I love all the things you make and I had a question you've probably been asked before. Lately I've been paralyzed by self doubt and fear of failure before I sit down to make creative things, and I can't get anything done. It's like I can't see the end product, and I just feel like it'll never be exactly how I want it to be. I'm not sure if it's lack of motivation or just a by-product of being in art school, but it's tiring. Hope that makes sense? Any advice?

not ever doing anything is worse than failing!!!! nobody cares if shit isn’t perfect. 50% of my entire job is just desperately trying to get people to pay attention to me at all. it’s not a big deal. especially if you’re in school. you’re literally paying out the ass to explore. so get shit wrong, get a bad grade (lol how do you even really assign specific grades to art other than for following instructions and acknowledging feedback but ok) and generally feel free to fuck up as much as you want because that is exactly the place to do it at.

also, “failure” is just research for whatever you do next. it’s only a failure if you never try anything new again. 

Alright before this discourse goes too far I’m just gonna clear this shit up right now bc I am so tired

- I can not emphasize how little respect I have for Alex H. I can not put into words just how much I do not trust him as a content creator and a fellow human being. So when he goes and implies that Ford should date a woman (the only non-relative woman he’s ever had any canon interaction with, I should mention), I’m HIGHLY doubtful that he’s aiming for good bisexual representation

- I headcanon Ford as gay, and there are some arguments that he is gay-coded. I also headcanon the Oracle as having more of a mentor/guardian relationship towards him. That being said, I really don’t give a shit if you headcanon Ford as bi or ship him with the Oracle. As far as I’m concerned, there’s nothing wrong with that or drawing fan art for it or thinking it’s canon or whatever. On the flip side, there’s nothing wrong with me complaining about Alex making cheap hints at it in a book that’s dubiously canon at best

- In conclusion, me thinking that Ford/Oracle is dumb doesn’t make me biphobic. What the fuck

Something wild that just occurred to me:

American citizens traveling within the US: Get scanned or patted down, basically have to surrender their dignity to the TSA.
Me, a filthy foreigner coming from outside the US: Had to deal with some robots. Spoke to a US customs agent for all of 15 seconds, mostly to confirm what I’d told the robots. Had no other interaction with US officials of any sort.

anonymous asked:

I really hate the high and mighty attitude a lot of 'woke' younger people have towards older generations. Like, there was a tweet that went something like 'we can't go without smartphones, big deal, you couldn't go without institutional racism', which completely erases the fact that older generations are also the ones responsible for ENDING institutional racism. Meanwhile, these brats just make smartass comments on their smartphones for brownie points.

Right? They give Baby Boomers so much shit, yet they (and a lot of the Silent Generation, who never get any credit) were at the forefront of so many important social causes. They were a lot more effective at what they did, too. Boomers were instrumental in the Civil Rights Movement, Women’s Lib, Roe vs. Wade, Stonewall, etc.

(Institutional racism is still a thing, but not to the extent that it was during Jim Crow)

strangcrthanfiction  asked:

kuwesper + ship meme :p

send me a ship! / @ghezenblessed & @daringcrow

who is more likely to hurt the other?

  • uhh i don’t think any of them would deliberately?  if anything happened it’d probably be down to a misunderstanding or maybe just an argument that went too far

who is emotionally stronger?

  • all of them have had to deal w/ Some Shit and they all came out of it relatively intact so

who is physically stronger?

  • ?????? i don’t know?  they’re all like.  distance fighters.  guns and explosives n shit.  they would all probably lose a close-quarters physical fight with someone else lbr

who is more likely to break a bone?

  • i feel like jesper is the most likely but somehow it never happens to him even though it really should have done by now.  jesper “never happier than when he’s in danger / someone’s shooting at him / there’s a fight” fahey

who knows best what to say to upset the other?

  • ……..i’m thinking about wylan and jesper on the ferolind and how wylan almost immediately came at him with “everyone knows you can’t keep away from a risky bet, why are you here anyway?  you think kaz really trusts you?  alright pal” and i don’t think he meant to but he really did touch on something jesper was insecure about soooo i.  think he has a way of hitting on that stuff sometimes?  or like, it’s deliberate but not with bad intentions?  like when he keeps bringing up inej to kaz in c/k and Will Not Let It Go, he’s not trying to make things worse but he knows it’s a sensitive topic

who is most likely to apologise first after an argument?

  • i have weirdly complex thoughts on this one?  bc people arguing throws kuwei off, he doesn’t like it  ( see: jesper and kaz fighting, when he asks if jesper’s angry with him, which actually makes me think it’s mostly if someone he cares about is involved but that still applies here and this post is long enough ) , but if he feels personally wronged by whatever happened, he’s not ending this until whoever it was apologises.  and jesper doesn’t want to be on bad terms with people he cares about  ( see: the whole thing w/ kaz )  so he’s usually in favour of de-escalating once the worst is over.  why do i feel like wylan is absolutely the “i’m not angry i’m disappointed” type 

who treats who’s wounds more often?

  • kuwei’s supposed to have the most medical knowledge after nina but jesper’s probably used to patching himself up after fights?  and i feel like wylan would learn fast bc.  jesper.

who is in constant need of comfort?

  • not constantly but after c/k they all are at times.  wylan’s moving on from years of living in an abusive home which ended in him being almost killed, kuwei’s been through multiple awful situations, jesper’s only just gotten his father out of danger and is also overcoming a gambling addiction
  • so y’know they all have their nights

who gets more jealous?

  • wylan l m a o 

who’s most likely to walk out on the other?

  • like during an argument, or…?  kuwei maybe with the i don’t have to listen to this
  • somewhere in my google drive is a ridiculously early college au draft where kuwei literally just gets up to leave and i think it’s wylan who pulls him back like your relationship, your problem too

who will propose?

  • i…….. don’t really see this happening?  50% bc i have no idea what ketterdam laws on polygamy would even be like but i’m pretty sure it wasn’t legal in 1800s amsterdam ( which is still what i say ketterdam is ) ( and i googled this but i just got a bunch of current news articles )

who has the most difficult parents?

  • WYLAN  ( m.arya hendriks excluded, she’s wonderful )

who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public?

  • jesper, mostly, but could also be wylan

who comes up for the other all the time?

  • i don’t, know what this is asking

who hogs the blankets?

  • i just have this mental image of wylan completely tangled up in blankets 
  • but jesper will compete for blankets when he has to 
  • apart from maybe three weeks mid-winter where kuwei’s just like fuck y’all get your own blanket i’m not dying like this

who gets more sad?

  • all of ‘em at different times but they’re good at looking out for each other n dealing with stuff together u know

who is better at cheering the other up?

  • depends what’s needed, they’re all good for different things
  • jesper’s good at the general bringing a smile to your face, making people laugh thing
  • wylan’s good for actually Talking about things 
  • kuwei’s the curls up with his head on ur shoulder just to be There one 

who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?

  • jesper makes ridiculous flirty jokes in public and wylan shoves him but then ends up hiding his face in his shoulder bc he’s a vibrant shade of red.  kuwei just laughs at this and is no help at all
  • in fact he joins in and wylan is ready to Leave right now immediately

who is more streetwise?

  • jesper bc he’s been with the dregs the longest out of the 3 of them but after c/k wylan’s slowly catching up and kuwei would pick things up pretty quickly?

who is more wise?

  • kuwei: knowledge is knowing tomatoes are a fruit, wisdom is not putting them in a fruit salad
  • jesper: philosophy is wondering if that makes ketchup a smoothie 
  • wylan: COMMON SENSE IS KNOWING KETCHUP IS NOT A DAMN SMOOTHIE

who’s the shyest?

  • varies a bit between wylan and kuwei but mostly wylan

who boasts about the other more?

  • have y’all met jesper
  • “it’s brilliant, just like you”
  • it’s totally jesper

who sits on who’s lap? 

  • ….kuwei does this of his own accord, sometimes jesper will pull one of them onto his lap bc they’re small and he can
  • also don’t tell me jesper hasn’t tried this himself
  • tried
  • he didn’t ask to be this tall, he’s doing his best
South Park: Bigger Longer & Uncut : Sentence Starters
  • "Now come on children, don't be shy, just give it your best shot."
  • "What is five times two?"
  • "OK, now lets try to get an answer from someone who's not a complete retard."
  • "I'm Sorry ________, but I don't trust anything that bleeds for five days and doesn't die."
  • "Dude, it's a lady getting pooed on!"
  • "You're too young for this stuff!"
  • "Hey! It IS ________'s mom!"
  • "Dude, what the fuck is wrong with German people?"
  • "Let's start by building a big statue of me, right over there where that fat kid is standing."
  • "Hey, don't call me fat buttfucker!"
  • "Respect my fuckin' authority!"
  • "You need to watch your mouth, brat."
  • "I know I was mean before. But don't worry - I can change!"
  • "Dog-shit taco!"
  • "Oh fuck."
  • "Who's a fuckin' bitch? ________'s Mooooooooom!"
  • "Blame Canada!"
  • "I don't listen to hip-hop."
  • "Haven't you heard of the Emancipation Proclamation?"
  • "I bet him he couldn't do it. I bet him a hundred dollars."
  • "I'm just fuckin' stoked I don't have to pay him."
  • "Oh, that's real nice! He was your friend, you fat fuck!"
  • "Remember what the MPAA says; Horrific, Deplorable violence is okay, as long as people don't say any naughty words!"
  • "Suck my balls."
  • "What the heck is a rimjob?"
  • "I transferred from Yardale where I had a 4.0 grade point average."
  • "It's this V-Chip, I hate it!"
  • "I can't say any dirty words."
  • "And you can't say Shit?"
  • "I'm warning you!"
  • "She's a mean old bitch and she has stupid hair."
  • "________, did you just say the F-word?"
  • "No, he's talking about "fuck". You can't say "fuck" in school, you fucking fat ass!"
  • "Why the fuck not?"
  • "What's the big deal? It doesn't hurt anybody."
  • "How would you like to suck my balls?"
  • "Holy shit, dude."
  • "Get the fuck out of here!"
  • "Notice, that nothing happens."
  • "Success! The child doesn't want to swear!"
  • "Go on, honey. It's all right."
  • "Let me have some candy."
  • "Like you really need all that chocolate."
  • "We accidentally replaced your heart with a baked potato. You have about three seconds to live."
  • "What would Brian Boitano do if he was here right now?"
  • "I'm sure he'd kick an ass or two."
  • "I just want my mom to stop fighting everyone."
  • "For ________, I'll be an activist too."
  • "Some people say that I'm a bad guy, they may be right."
  • "Any minute now I will be born again!"
  • "What if you remain a sandy little butt-hole?"
  • "Hey Satan, don't be such a twit."
  • "Mother Theresa won't have shit on me!"
  • "Man, this movie gets better every time I see it!"
  • "I'll bet you a hundred dollars you can't light a fart on fire."
  • "This stick is on fire!"
  • "Oh my God, you killed ________!"
  • "You bastard!"
  • "How come you always want to make love to me from behind?"
  • "Is it because you want to pretend I'm somebody else?"
  • "Who am I going to pretend you are, Liza Minelli?"
  • "Sure, hon."
  • "Wait, before we put a message out, do a search on the word clitoris."
  • "It isn't like this film is the first troublesome thing to come out of Canada. Let us not forget Bryan Adams."
  • "Now, now, the Canadian Government has apologized for Bryan Adams on several occasions!"
  • "Can I finish? Please, can I finish?"
  • "I think we're fighting Canadians."
  • "Canadians, Australians, what's the difference?"
  • "Fuck is the worst word that you can say."
  • "Fuck Canada!"
  • "Hey fuck you buddy!"
  • "Well, fuck my ass and call me a bitch."
  • "I want to know where you heard all this horrific obscenities, m'kay?"
  • "I seriously doubt that ________ ever said: "Eat penguin shit, you ass spelunker"."
  • "Well you fucked your uncle yesterday."
  • "Goodbye, you guys."
  • "You told us that windows 98 would be faster, and more efficient with better access to the internet!"
  • "What do you think this is kid?"
  • "The word is "forensics"."
  • "Cancer is killing, Texaco's spilling, the whole world's gone to hell, but how are you?"
  • "I'm super! Thanks for asking!"
  • "Looks like we may be out of luck."
  • "Don't kick the baby."
  • "Hold me."
  • "Why should we fucking have to spell forensics?"
  • "There is no hope now, you must get out of here."
  • "Were is your God when you need him, huh? Where is your beautiful, merciful faggot now?"
  • "We can't leave without you! We don't know where the hell we are!"
  • "I can't face my mother."
  • "Our freedom shall be won."
  • "Though I die... La Resistance lives... on..."
  • "SHIT!"
  • "What the fuck are they fighting for?"
  • "When did this song become a marathon?"
  • "Here I come, God. Here I come, you fucking rat."
  • "Is sex the only thing that matters to you?"
  • "I hope you've learned something from this whole experience."
  • "Wanna see the northern lights?"
  • "You burned yourself to death by lighting your fart."
  • "You MUST shut of the alarms!"
  • "I fucking hate guard dogs!"
  • "I heard you the first time you British piece of shit."
  • "This is worse than the time when I fell asleep and you put your dick in my mouth and took a picture."
  • "The sun is shining and the grass is green. Under the three feet of snow, I mean."
  • "It's been six weeks since Saddam Hussein was killed by a pack of wild boars and the world is still glad to be rid of him."
  • "That movie has warped my fragile little mind."
  • "What? Fuck you guys. I wanna get out of here."
  • "I saw the __________ movie. Now who wants to touch me?"
  • "Now keep in mind, 'Operation Human Shield' will suffer heavy losses. But don't lose your spirit men! Stay until the bitter end."
  • "Ah, you'd better get packing, bitch, we're running out of time."
  • "What? No? No! You can't do that! I have to go to Earth!"
  • "Thank you Clitoris!"
  • "Careful? Was my mother careful when she stabbed me in the heart with a clothes hanger while I was still in the womb?"
  • "Man, this kid is fucked up!"
  • "Last words? How's about: "Get me the fuck out of this chair!" How's that for last words?"
  • "Did you bring the buttfor?"
  • "What, is that like finding Jesus or something?"

If any of my followers are Muslim I would like to take the time to say I’m so very sorry that many people feel the need to always refer to all of you as terorists when they clearly dont know shit about you nor your religion. I’m so sorry that you have to deal with all these uneducated assholes blaming your entire religion for these terroristic acts that have taken place and that have taken place in the past. Terrorism has no religion.

  • What she says: i was busy
  • What she means: i didnt sign up for this, i thought this was gonna be like any other sports anime, but now it's like fuck m8, the episode hit me today and i just cant take it even though it's been four hours since, because all of these fictional boys are just precious and shit, and i can't ???? All this ice and they got no chill, they just PDA so much, he just confessed on national tv and fuck wth i can't deal with this, i cant exercise right now because my mind just cant deal with this????? their relationship is so healthy and beautiful and they've come so far and everyone is so supportive, i have never seen this before in anime, i jus
Does TS not know her privilege!!??

Taylor Swift is displaying the common case of mainstream white feminism by ignoring the bigger picture of the matter. PoC women and women with unconventional beauty standards aren’t shown any light or appreciation. Reducing Nicki’s statement down to being “women vs. men” is an act of misogyny.

anonymous asked:

Hi! Do you have any fics where Sam just can't deal with Stucky's shit anymore? Poor Sam Wilson deserves better than having to deal with two lovesick idiots all the time doesn't he?

My dear Sam goes through so much white boy bullshit with these two and this fandom I stg. Heres my faves where Sam is Done™ with James Barnes and Steve Rogers.

Ain’t No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) by spitandvinegar

It’s six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone.

For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don’t. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It’s very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters.

I AM SORRY FOR SHOOTING YOU.

Steve sits down hard on the steps.

Let Your Backbone Flip by hansbekhart

He’d been back from Afghanistan about two months when the Battle of New York happened. He had heard about Captain America getting pulled out of the ice a week or so before, of course - it had been all over the internet, in all the papers. Sam hadn’t really cared, at the time. Too wrapped up in trying to sleep through the night, surrounded by people who loved him but didn’t get it. Those were angry days where every hour was a challenge not to scream at his own family for all their petty, safe, day to day living, and Sam had felt pretty much the same about Captain America’s revival as he did hearing about the Chitauri invasion, which was basically that he could give a fuck.

sam deserves better than these assholes-series  by lazulisong 

IM SORRY BUT SAM WILSON STARING IN BAFFLED WONDER AT STEVE AND BUCKY AND HOW WEIRD THEY ARE ABOUT EACH OTHER

Sing Me the Alphabet by thesardine

When SHIELD finally releases Bucky from custody, he is not the man anyone expects him to be. The ruthlessness of the Winter Soldier is gone, replaced with a child-like wariness as he struggles to communicate his warped understanding of who he is and what was done to him. But with Hydra scrambling to regroup, SHIELD takes dangerous measures to secure Zola’s algorithm to use against them, and Steve is dragged back into battle, forced to weigh what’s best for Bucky against what’s best for the fate of the free world.

Then Bucky is abducted.

Steve races to recover his friend before the man who was Bucky is gone forever. When the rescue stalls, he starts to crumble under the weight of everything he has lost and everything the war has taken from him.

Meanwhile, Bucky confronts a terrible piece of ex-SHIELD tech that was in development long before Project Insight, but in order to survive, he must decide who he is going to be: the vulnerable Bucky Barnes or the indomitable Winter Soldier? It turns out there might not be as big a difference as everyone seems to think.

Rhetorical question, but.

Why can’t white people let us black folks have ANYTHING? Like, you literally dominate the entire superhero genre with little to no room for us and we can’t even have a dumb little CW tv show to enjoy without people shitting themselves that their fave won’t be white anymore (because, pro-tip: complaining that wally ‘won’t have red hair and freckles because Iris is black’ is an utter fail at coding your 'I’m mad because he won’t be white like he’s supposed to be).

When Grant looks JUST as little as Barry, honestly, and he’s pretty much the physical opposite of him. I’d even argue that Candice looks exactly how comics!Iris is drawn – at least Rebirth - New!52 Iris – just with darker skin, whereas Grant literally looks nothing like Barry, other than being white.

But, really, y'all can’t just let us enjoy anything without having a hissy fit or trying to fit it to fit your agenda and wants and it’s SO TIRING.

In what will likely be the only times ever, black women actually get to see themselves as the love interest to a MAIN superhero and people have to shit all over her for being… human??? In fact, in a lot of ways, I don’t see how Iris is THAT different than Felicity (how is Iris using her journalist skills to get info any different than Felicity’s computer skills?), but… one is pmuch universally worshiped.

And the other…

LOL.

It’s just so exhausting dealing with both the overt and 'subtle’ racism and the constant attacks on non-white folk in fandom.

anonymous asked:

my mum says i can't wear cis dude underwear cause i "don't have the parts, and because of that, you'll be uncomfortable." is that true? is there a way i can get around this? (trans dude, illinois)

Jay says:

That’s just… utter shit. Granted, men’s undies are not equipped to deal with any sanitary pads if they’re used, but I can vouch. Men’s undies are comfy as fuck. Your mum doesn’t seem to understand that underwear isn’t that big a deal.