no offense lads but i love hippo campus with all of my god damn heart!! every fiber of my mortal body aches with my overwhelming love and adoration for them and their music!!!! their music is just so beyond anything else ive ever listened to its so colorful and evokes such strong emotions and i want to somehow make their songs a part of me because listening to them just isnt enough!! not to mention they’re super nice dudes who are crazy friendly and put you at ease when you’re talking to them i mean!!! they’re good guys making good music and they exude talent and passion in everything they do and they’re seriously such a unique and special band and sometimes i cant believe ive been lucky enough to have found them or to have even been here while theyre out there creating and sharing things with us!!!!!!!!!! i love them!!!!!!!!!!!
Red I don't know where else to go so I'm sorry but I'm venting to you (I'm also hoping you might be able to understand a bit). But like. basically. watching svtfoe and specifically watching marco has made me realize I might be a trans girl? And like. I'm just. I'm having so many feelings. I'm excited and terrified. Like this feels like it fits for me. ANd that's so exciting. it's such an exhilarating feeling to finally feel like "yes this is me this is who i am im not a boy im not even (1/?)
amorphous genderfluid (which I thought i was for a long time) i am a girl and i want to be pretty and that makes me so happy!“ but also like, it’s terrifying? in large part because im in STEM and as im sure you know, STEM is one of those fields with a weird mixture of progressivism and conservatism? and so i feel like ill never be able to really be out, not completely 100%, and probably not at all at work until i’m established in my career (so not for years from now) and i just. it makes me(2/?)
want to cry? im having so many emotions? i feel like im a teenager again in all the good and bad ways and its really confusing and a lot of feels and im 24 and i dont want to go through this a second time and i jsut. i just want someone to hold me and tell me it’s all gonna be ok and that ill get to be me because i jsut want to be me and wear makeup and go shopping for pretty dresses and im jsut so scared right now that i wont get to do that for a very long time without risking the career (3/?)
that i want and that ive wanted since i was 14. Anyways I’m really sorry about venting all this to you but this has been building in me for a few weeks now and all day today i’ve just wanted to shout all of this out and I felt like i was gonna explode. im so sorry