i hope you like it at least a little bit :')

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Jellybots started as a number of character designs back in 2011- (which started as an attempt to prove to a friend that Beard Holograms are a sweet idea) then some more designs, and eventually a mini comic and a longer comic pitch (very just *almost* a series of GNs) and persistent dreams about wanting to do something bold and colorful and sci-fi/fantasy about growing up and mixing in major personal influences in a very particular sort of way that haven’t left me alone (despite never feeling like I have enough time or followthrough to do it justice). A quick googling should fill in some of the details but suffice it to to say: Jbots is my little personal project about kids and monsters, and a story world I’ve been taking trips to for years. Most characters are based, if loosely, on my irl friends. #DailyJellyJam is a month long attempt to take some of my own advice: one push-up is better than no push-ups! And a little bit of dreaming a day is better than no dreaming at all. So, at the suggestion of @erkshnrt, I’m making time to do some low-stakes worldbuilding at the glacial pace of no money, and I sincerely hope you guys are enjoying it! :)) Above is a sampling of some of the work that’s come together across the last few years- it’s all evolving and much is outdated and likely to be revised, but hopefully it gives you more of a sense of The Thing, or at least how gelatinous sausage gets made ;) new art momentarily!

Daily updates and process videos on Instragram:
https://www.instagram.com/nicholaskole/

What The Signs Mean to Me

Aries: My very first best friend. I love how you never let anything hold you down. You’re brave, artistic and a bit immature, but that gives you that child like flair. I hope you’re happy wherever you are, and I’m sorry things had to end the way they did. 


Taurus: Everything comes back to you. The rock solid foundation of my life. A beautiful chaos, art in every sense of the word. I love how you love, and I’m sorry for your pain. No one can find your light for you, but when you do you illuminate the lives of everyone around you. 


Gemini: You little rascal, mischief unmanaged. You don’t always have a plan, but at least you have a pla-. The way you navigate the world with your emotional intuition makes me want to be more like you, always true to yourself no matter what. Learn to forgive and let go, your life will be so much easier. 


Cancer: You always do what you need, and what you need is not always legal. You always showed me kindness, and calmed me when I was restless. Your love was brotherly, and I hope the fog lifts over your life soon. Something tells me it already has. 


Leo: I hate that I love you. I hate how powerless I am around you, how all logic goes out the window and I’m standing in front of you, naked, with nothing to offer you but my heart. But here’s the thing, everybody loves you. And the way you look at me tells me you’ll wait for me, but I’m terrified that you’ll leave me behind. You deserve all the happiness in the world. Please don’t lose sight of who you are. 


Virgo: You amaze me. How you handle everything so effortlessly, surrounded by your adoring friends. Sometimes I can’t believe we’re related. You will always be better than me. But in those moments when you don’t feel perfect, please know that you’re never alone, and that we will always be here for you. I swear you’re not human, you are an angel on earth who’s just visiting.


Libra: You are the coolest, most chill fucking person. I’m so grateful for everything you’ve done for me, you are one of those rare people who are truly selfless. Your humour is everything, and how you always seem so at ease calms me down on the most stressful days. You love the world and it loves you right back. 


Scorpio: You know me better than I know myself. Your soul will be forever wrapped around mine, co-existing. You taught me what it means to be a friend and what it means to be the enemy. I hope you realize what your power is some day, because your wrath is beyond unparalleled. 


Sagittarius: If I would die tomorrow I would be content, knowing that I truly experienced what it means to share a bond with another human being. Why the universe decided to have us cross paths I will never know, but one thing I know for sure is that I would not be me without you. You are a nomad, child of the world. You searched it and found home. But it wasn’t easy, and it took time and a lot of pain but it was all worth it. You give me hope. That no matter how far down I fall, something beautiful will rise from the ruins. You just have to believe. 


Capricorn: With you I can just be myself. You never judge me, you see me when I don’t see myself. When we’re together hours pass by in comfortable silence. Or, they used to. You never say much, but when you do it’s always pure genius. I wish you would be kinder to yourself. I know I’m responsible for your broken heart but you never made the burden mine. I will always respect you. I just hope you’ll someday let someone thaw your frozen heart and let yourself be happy. 


Aquarius: You are everything I want to be. You are absolutely hypnotizing. I never know if you’re flirting with me or just being friendly. An ice queen, everyone always envies the one that has your love, even if it’s just for a night. Eloquence and elegance, and so much passion. It is scary how well you do what you do, and how your body moves with such grace. Everybody is intimidated by you, and yet you treat everyone as an equal. Your insecurities are crazy to me, if I were you I definitely wouldn’t be this humble. 


Pisces: You’re two faced and completely insane, but you’re such a bad bitch wearing either mask that I can’t help but worship you. Your voice could stop wars, and you can make the most absurd things sound completely reasonable. I wish you wouldn’t take everything so personally, sometimes it gets tiring to walk on eggshells around you. Empathy is a virtue worth cultivating. Make sure your integrity and morals are well placed, because if they are nobody can stop you. Not even if they wanted to. 


This was originally a post by @kanyenoodles, and I really wanted to make my own version of what the signs mean to me.

BTS reaction to overhearing other members talking about their s/o

Seokjin: Jin overheard Jimin talking about you. “Have you guys seen y/n round an juic- OH HEY JIN!?” Jin is the type of guy that doesn’t get jealous that easy on the surface so he’d start joking around to mess with Jimin while dying on the inside.

“You mean her butt? Ahh yes, my jagi is beautiful but you better stop talking about her like that. You wouldn’t have even a little bit of a chance considering that you’re so small, you can’t even reach the things on top of a shelf”

Originally posted by jungkookiescookies

Namjoon: The most jealous guy ever. He’d hear Taehyung talking about you in your dress that you wore the other day. “Hot! Smoking hot!” Being angry as fuck he ran towards him. After a little talk he’ll eventually calm down.

“Smoking hot? Are you talking about yourself after I set you on fire? She is MINE, you know that.”

Originally posted by yoonseok

Yoongi: He’d be the most annoyed but also really subtle about it. He’d overhear Hoseok being pervy as always talking about how much cleavage you show. “It’s really hot. I mean I’d be a bit concerned if I was Yoongi, probably a lot of guys are hitting on her” Yoongi would just sit casually besides Hobie and change the subject after his comment.

“You’re right, but I was hoping at least my best friends would not talk about her like that.” 

Originally posted by minshoot

Hoseok: Hoseok is a weird ass guy. He’d be kinda proud of being your boyfriend and ignore the fact that Jungkook just talked to the others about you. “…and her hair! All around from top to bottom. She’s bomb.” Like Yoongi he would just join the conversation.

“I know kookie, this is my girlfriend how did I deserve her? Anyway aren’t you a little bit to young for her?”

Originally posted by myloveseokjin

Taehyung: Tae knows what’s his and he is very protective of you and… JEALOUS. But only when you aren’t around. He’d overhear Namjoon’s kinky comment. “I’d like y/n to call me Daddy.” Jealous Taehyung mode on. 

“Well I guess it’s good to know that she SCREAMS Daddy while I eat her out and doesn’t have time to think about you.”

Originally posted by taemybae

Jimin: Cute mochi would be angry as fuck. Jin wanted to make one of his jokes but it turned out quite unpleasing for Jimin. “..to see him like this we need something better. I know! Y/n needs to get naked starts laughing” 

“Hell no, Jin. You better apologize.” 

Originally posted by bangtanroyalty

Jungkook: Usually Jungkook is the typical cocky and jealous type but his hyung Yoongi accidentally said that your his type. “I’d do her. Oh, I’m sorry Jungkook I forgot.” Kookie would get so angry on the inside but remain calm on the outside

“Of course… No, no problem. Even though it was quite inappropriate.. What, no I’m not mad”

Originally posted by theking-or-thekid

YOUR BITCH IS BACK!!! And I’m better than ever.. not. Thanks for still liking and rebloging my posts. The school year is practically over so I have more time now, yeay!

anonymous asked:

hi viria, i was wondering what brand/kind of make up do you use? i get so overwhelmed looking at youtube videos because it feels like you need a lot like foundation, concealer, powder, primer, etc. and i'm worried it'll look really obvious/bad but you make it look natural and subtle

on wwh, thank you!

Personally, I don’t feel like myself with heavy make up and I think it doesn’t quite suit me, so I’m happy to know what I do is liked by someone! 

But I feel like I might use a lot of stuff too? A year ago or so I happened to get myself into korean skincare/makeup, so ended up getting a bunch of stuff, mostly for skincare, but still. My foundation, highlighter, a few lip tints and blushes are from there. I think from what I use on a regular basis I only have loreal concealer and some cheet eyeshadows that are mass market. 

Generally tho, everything I have is mass market because cool things american youtubers use in their videos are. very. expensive here, so korean ones are good alternative for me. Like, usual maxfactor foundation probably costs around 200 grn, korean be a bit more expensive but I feel like the quality is a bit better would be around 200-400 w hile something like mac or nyx (and those are the most affordable) are 600 and up to 1500 or so…

ANYWAY! I drew a tutorial of what I tend to do on a regular basis as in my go to makeup! 

For step 2, I tend to use soothing/brightening cream right after I wash my face, so I don’t use it right before I do my make up (unless it’s sunscreen)

3. I LOVE BEING DEWY okay, I try to find the good balance between dewy and looking oily, but so far I think it works. My last fave is secret key tattoo cover cushion foundation, but I’m running out of it.. it’s what I used for the past 4 months or so. As for concealer, I use loreal with brush that you have to swirl to get the product out which I don’t remember how to call but it’s subtle, covers bags quite nicely and doesn’t look heavy:3

to be honest mostly I just use my blush as an eyeshadow..Unless i use something brownish. I don’t know the brands I have but they vere like 20 grn back in the day, so. very. cheap stuff.

as for lips, I mostly use matte or semi matte lipsticks or tints, they are easier to smudge and my hair doesn’t stick on it which is very important! 


Generally, from what I learnt, you don’t need a super excessive amount on a daily basis? I don’t have a single bronzer or contour palette or specified brow products and I only use what I have in eyeshadows for that. same ashy brown somehow looks nice as contour and as my eyebrow shadow.

I think it’s hard not to get overwhelmed at the amount of products a lot of people use in their videos, but…I’m not sure, maybe it’s just the quality of what I buy here, but I can’t say primer EVER changed anything for me. Like my foundation still lasts however long it can, with or without it. Or those fancy glowy or moistrusing essanses instagram beauties drop all over their faces, i’m not even sure what are those and how necessary those kinds of things are.

I guess focus more on the products you actually need instead of those people say you absolutely have to purchase.

I’m sorry I don’t know if it helps but I hope it does at least a little bit! 

PS I think there will be many typos and I’m sorry for them, but for some reason I can’t fix them without deleting every single letter in front of my typo:( tumblr text is hard

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Anonymous said:
Thanks for your tutorials, they are so simple to understand even for someone quite dumb about arts (me)! If you’ll have time and mood, can you, please, create tutorial for making lineart. I’m fairy bad at that.


Thank you! That’s really great to hear that! :D
If you browse my gallery you’ll notice that lineart isn’t something I use often (so that’s why I digged in my old drawings a bit to get some examples u_u) Anyway, I think there are more competent and skillful people out there whom you can ask about it but this is what I do. Just study other artists’ art, it’s helpful. Try to use different brushes and see what works best. Also things I think are important:
⁎ use bigger canvas (mistakes are less visible)
⁎ don’t use smal brushes with smooth but very defined edges because the lines will seem very jerky and ragged
⁎ vary thickness of your lines to make everything more dynamic but try to make it natural (it’s a little bit like calligraphy)
⁎ practice! lines will be smooth and flowy if you make your hand confident:
- draw traditionaly
- excercise with drawing straight lines and curves
- make quick, long strokes instead of drawing short lines (they’ll look sketchy) or doing painfully precise, slow moves
- don’t zoom in too much
- turn off the stabiliser (at least sometimes))
(Aaaand… you can always use vector drawing tools as a last resort :))

things you should know (and i wish i knew before discovering kpop)
  • don’t force yourself into voting or streaming every day for your faves, you’re not a fake fan if you’re not voting for them in every award show
  • you shouldn’t feel like you are abandoning or betraying your faves and fandom just because you voted for another group. so what. you like that song? vote for it! you like the mv? vote for it! you don’t have to vote only for your faves
  • kpop isn’t that serious, don’t make a mountain out of a molehill
  • so what if you didn’t saw the comeback the exact minute it came out? the video is still the same even after hours, days, and you will be surprised, even weeks!
  • being a fan for 1 year doesn’t make you any less important (from fans that been there for 5 years) for the fandom! just the fact you support the people and you like their music is something they are grateful for.
  • and also don’t feel forced to do something for the fandom, like, drawing or editing videos or making gifs and having blog or writing fanfics etc. again, by supporting them you are doing enough and they are grateful for the smallest things.
  • don’t be fooled or idolized too much by kdramas and the way idols behave. that’s not the real world. it’s their job.
  • don’t bias South Korea and Koreans too much. and most important: don’t sexualize them. 
  • don’t let kpop consume your whole life. again, it is not that serious.
  • don’t feel pressured to buy albums, it’s your money.
  • you don’t have to see every show, video, variety show they attended, movie they were starring in etc. to be considered as a real fan. (i’ve been ((hardcore)) bts’s fan for 3 years and svt’s fan for 2 years and i’ve missed so many interviews, i didn’t see so many shows they’ve been at and guess what, my world didn’t crush down - i am fan of these two groups but i am also that big fan of marvel and no i didn’t see every marvel movie, i’ve never read marvel comics etc. and guess what again, my world didn’t crush down this time either) it’s completely normal, because ain’t nobody got time for everything.
  • don’t force your ships to everyone and especially not to idols themselves. it’s just your fantasy. just because -idol- and -idol- are close to each other more than to someone else doesn’t mean they love each other romantically. yes, they maybe love each other. but in a friend/brother/sister/bestfriend way. i bet you know that feeling too, if you have a close friend you love them, right? “if you and your bestfriend doesn’t have gay moments are they really your bestfriend?” i’ve seen this so many times and yes i agree because i love my bestfriends so much but yet when it comes to kpop… it doesn’t apply suddenly? that’s gross and sexualizing. i’m not saying you can’t ship someone but everything has its limits.

I’ve been in kpop for 4 years now and that’s what I learned on the way. And I felt like this or I did these things when I was a newbie but you have to make mistakes and learn from them. How else you want to grow up?

Of course, it’s not everything and I don’t know everything but it’s not like I don’t know completely nothing. Guys, just chill. Don’t fight. Enjoy the music, the fun idols provide. I really wish someday in the future kpop will be happy places for me to come back and that I will be proud to say that I was part of an amazing community of people. People, not animals.

I just hope my message will somehow open someone’s mind at least a little bit. 

ACHING

PAIRING: park jimin x y/n

GENRE: hardcore fluff

WARNINGS: none

WORD COUNT: 1734

A/N: i really like this! i hope you guys do too! send me suggestions and ideas please! also, if you would like me continue this please say so!

SUMMARY: due to his girlfriend who drove you crazy, you hadn’t spoken to jimin in months. he had also distanced himself from you, and he didn’t seem to mind too much… or at least you thought so.


You and Jimin had split ways for a few months once he had gotten a girlfriend. He spent less and less time with you, and you were more than just slightly jealous. You had liked him since the two of you met, a little bit over a year ago. At times, you believed that he felt the same, but at others you didn’t think so at all. Jimin was a confusing creature to you, and you never could understand him. Especially when he called you in tears, apologizing and begging for you to come by the dorms.

“Jimin, I’m busy studying,” you sighed. Although you desperately wanted to go lay in his arms and hold him, you had priorities. Jimin whimpered, obviously sobbing about something that had absolutely tore him apart. “I can’t, okay? Plus, we haven’t spoken in months. Why would I come over even if I could?” You heard Jimin continuing to cry on the line, and your heart ached. He was your soft spot, and no time away from him could change that. If someone hurt your Chim, then they had hurt you worse. Sitting on your bed surrounded by textbooks, you let out a sigh. “Jimin, answer me.”

“I miss you. I’m sorry that I ever abandoned you to hang out with her. You should have been over her on my list of friends, and I’m sorry. Forgive me, please,” Jimin choked out the words. You bit your tongue, glancing at the time on your phone. It was an early Thursday morning, meaning you had classes at eleven. “Y/N, I left you and the boys to hang out with her. She didn’t even treat me good, so I’m a fool. I should have just spent my time with you guys, because you’re far more important.”

“Jimin, I don’t have time to hear you rant. Go talk to Taehyung…”

“Y/N! Don’t you hear me!” Jimin cried out, and I ran my hand through my hair. He was in pain, and he knew that he could get my attention. He cried on the line, his hiccuping sobs in the background. “Taehyung told me to come to you. All of the boys want me to talk to you. I messed up our friendship, and I want to fix this. The boys said that you haven’t been the same since I started dating that witch. I’m sorry that I ever did that to you. Please forgive me; I don’t want you to ignore me.”

I replied, “Jimin.” He whined softly, completely shattering me. He wanted me to come over, and that was clear. He wouldn’t be calling me if he just wanted to repair his mistakes. I let out a deep breath, not realizing I had held it in. His voice sounded familiar, although he was not in the best condition. He was familiar, and I had missed him dearly. “I understand you’re upset about what you did, but I can’t just forgive you. I want to —I really do— It’s just that I can’t. You… You weren’t there for me, and why should I be there for you?”

“You shouldn’t,” Jimin hiccuped. “I’m an awful friend and I didn’t appreciate you like I should have. You should yell at me and hang up the phone. You should block my number and tell the boys to never bring me around. You should avoid coming to the dorms whenever I’m here, and try to have the boys over at your apartment instead. You shouldn’t listen to me cry and beg, but you are. I love you, Y/N. You are the best person possibly in my life, and I don’t know why I ever pushed you out. Y—”

“Jimin, I’ll be over in a few minutes.”


It didn’t take you long to arrive at the dorms, and when you knocked at the door, Namjoon instantly opened it. His eyes were wide, and he let out a well deserved sigh. You could hear Jimin crying, and you watched as Jungkook waved at you over Namjoon’s shoulder. You had remained close to the rest of the boys, but nothing compared to what your relationships were like before. Namjoon moved out of the way for you, and you slipped off your shoes as you entered the dorms.

Jungkook led you around the corner, and you saw Jimin lying on the couch, covered in blankets. He hugged a pillow, not even realizing your arrival. His sobbing covered up all noise in the dorms, and you saw Jin trying to cheer him up. Jin held soup in his hands; soup that made you feel better anytime you needed it. Jin saw you and smiled, believing that you could help get Jimin out of his funk. Whatever had happened, it was probably regarding his girlfriend. Yoongi rested his body against the doorway of his shared room with Jin, his eyes showing his exhaustion. The boys were desperate, and they all knew your visit would help phenomenally.

“Jimin, Y/N is here,” Jin stated, standing up. Jimin immediately stopped screaming, and he looked over in your direction. He looked exhausted, and his face was red and puffy from the tears that left his eyes. Seeing him in that condition, you felt yourself breaking. You couldn’t leave him like that, and you wished you came sooner. “Will you let all of us sleep now? She’ll stay here as long as she can.” Jimin nodded faintly, and Yoongi backed up into his room.

Namjoon placed a hand on your shoulder. “Just get him to sleep and then you can come join one of us if you’d like. Or you can head home, but make sure to tell one of us beforehand. Thank you, Y/N. We’ll repay you in someway one day.” You nodded, seeing how thankful he was in his eyes. You and Namjoon had a weird understanding for each other, and that was probably caused by your work ethics. You were similar in how hardworking and goal-stricken you two were. The boys all thanked you before disappearing into their rooms.

You walked over to the couch where Jimin laid, hearing him whimper out in agony. He was the most vulnerable you had ever seen him, and that hurt like hell. You sat on the edge of the couch, and watched as Jimin’s bottom lip quivered. Tears stained his round cheeks, and you took a deep breath. He needed you, and just sitting beside him wasn’t going to help. When it came to Jimin, you knew that he was craving the arms of someone he cared for.

“I’m sorry,” Jimin whined quietly.

“N– no, don’t cry,” you stuttered, scooting closer to him. Jimin did exactly the opposite of what you asked of him, tears beginning to roll down his cheeks again. If you hated anything, it was making Jimin cry. “Jiminie… Don’t cry because you’ll make me cry. I don’t want both of us to be crying and disturbing the boys. You all need to rest, Jimin.” He sighed, his hand crawling out from under the blankets. He reached out for your hand, and you didn’t hesitate before latching onto him. You missed his touch. “You’re not going to sleep unless I’m here, are you?” Jimin shook his head.

Jimin scooted over, closer to the back cushions, allowing you to have space next to him. You slowly lifted your feet onto the couch, and felt your heart racing as Jimin covered you up with blankets. He wrapped his arms around you, sniffling. You placed your head on his shoulder as he shuffled down and hid his face in your chest. He intertwined your legs, squeezing at the back fabric of your shirt. He had missed you more than anything, and your presence had calmed him down already. He hadn’t realized how much he needed you until then.

“Jimin,” you breathed.

“Please,” Jimin whispered. “Just tonight. Forget about everything I did, and pretend that we are still really close.” You nodded faintly, placing your hands in his hair. You rubbed his scalp, making Jimin sleepy. It wouldn’t take long for him to doze off, but you lie awake, wondering what had gone wrong between the two of you. You had been so close, once upon a time. A girl had ruined all of it, and you wished that you hadn’t allowed her to. Jimin was your world before she came along.


The next morning, Jimin woke up before you. He smelled the fragrance only possibly belonging to Jin’s food. You were wrapped in his arms and fast asleep, and he knew that you wouldn’t wake up as long as he was there. Jin was clearly trying to be quiet, a smile on his lips as he stood in the kitchen wearing an apron. Jimin glanced down at you, seeing you holding onto the fabric of his shirt. He loved every moment of you being engulfed by him, and he realized that he would do anything to keep it that way. He loved you, and he wish he had known sooner.

“Aw,” Taehyung cooed, walking out of his room. Jimin sent a glare in his direction, and Taehyung quickly shut up. Jimin wanted to let you sleep for as long as you could, because once you woke, you both had to face reality. He was in pain because of his ex who cheated, and you were simply being a good friend. Taehyung smiled, leaning over on the couch to get a better view of you two. Taehyung had always had his suspicions about you and Jimin, and he seemed the most pleased out of everyone. You two were happy together.

“Don’t bother them,” Jin pulled Tae away from the couch. Taehyung frowned, and Jimin mouthed thank you to Jin.

You were ever so slowly coming to your senses, but you didn’t want to wake up. You had missed everything about Jimin, and laying there made you regretful for ever letting someone get in the way. Of course you had cuddled with all of the other members, but that was different. They were not Jimin. You felt your eyelids slightly shaking from wanting to open, and Jimin seemed to notice.

“Not yet,” he whispered in you ear. You smiled faintly, knowing he did not want to get up either. Jimin squeezed you lightly, placing his head on your shoulder. “I’m sorry, Y/N.”

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Grantaire rhymes with “anniversaire”

So it is (was) @deboracabral‘s birthday, so here is a little piece about Enjolras and Grantaire celebrating Grantaire’s birthday! (Featuring Enjolras being a Good Boyfriend™)

Grantaire shuffled slightly, sleepy noises companying his quest for the cold spot of the pillow. Even with his eyes closed, he knew the sun was already up, but he couldn’t bring himself to acknowledge it just yet. Just one minute. Just one hour.

Something touched his cheek, pressing against it ever so gently. Grantaire’s eyes fluttered open, stuggling against the light.

“Joyeux anniversaire,” a familiar voice sang softly. Grantaire could feel a warm little breeze blowing againt his ear. “Joyeux anniversaire. Joyeux anniversaire, Grantaire. Joyeux anniversaire.”

His vision was blurry, but he could still make out the outline of a face surrounded by a golden halo of hair. A dopey smile lazily stretched his lips. Above him, Enjolras smiled as well.

“I would have slept in a suit, if I had known,” Grantaire said, his voice made somewhat raspy with sleep.

Slowly, his eyes adjusted to the light, lifting up the blurry veil hanging in front of him. Enjolras was still in his pajamas, looking down at him with a bright smile. Many strands of hair had escaped his ponytail during the night and now flowed freely on his shoulders, sticking out in every direction. They shone in the sunlight like a thousand golden threads.

“How are you feeling?”

“A quarter of a century old,” Grantaire yawned, settling comfortably against the pillows.

“I can’t relate,” Enjolras teased.

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This post talks about Depression as one of its main topics, heads up!

I wish I had chosen a happier topic to write about, but this it very important so I think this text might be needed.
I myself have been diagnosed with depression almost three years ago, and have been dealing with it ever since. It’s influenced practially every part of my life, but most importantly it’s had a huge impact on my school life. Such as recently:

I had to write my Seminararbeit, a ~30 page paper that determines whether I’m allowed to do my Abitur or not. But because of depression I felt unable to start it or finish my art project or anything, so I procrastinated for up to two weeks. And because of procrastination my work didn’t reach my expectations, which again feeds into my depression. Sounds great right? I think this might feel familiar to some of you. So I wrote down some of the things that kept me from writing my paper (or anything else that you just can’t get yourself to do) and how I dealt with them. I hope I can help at least one person, then this wasn’t a waste of time.

  • Unrealistic expectations: I hold myself to ridiculously high expectations, especially when it’s about my work. Whenever that happens I sit down, take out a paper and write down the exact situation I’m in right now. It doesn’t even have to be on paper but it helps me groud myself and get back to reality, so that I can evaluate what is possible for me to reach and what isn’t.
  • Unhealthy levels of procrastination: STICK. TO. A. SCHEDULE. On the worst days I seriously set a timer on my phone for every single thing I was about to do. This takes a lot of discipline, which is the best weapon against procrastination and is easiest to train on your better days. Ofc a journal helps tons but that’s a no-brainer.
  • Do the bare minimum: On some days doing the bare minimum for myself is taking a shower, on others it’s writing a 6-page essay. And on the worst days I can’t even do the minimum. But doing one little thing makes the day feel like it wasn’t wasted. And on the better days, work ahead so that you have a bit of a puffer for the worst case, such as cleaning your room for example (I can tell how bad I’ve been doing by how dirty my room is).

I hope these three little things help at least someone, I’ll be posting more again the following weeks, but slowly so that I don’t have to force myself.

🥄Spoonie Devotional Tips🥄

I’m sure a lot of us have had days where we’ve wanted to make an offering or spend devotional time with our gods but couldn’t find the time or energy. I’ve been getting a lot of asks lately on ways to honor your gods when your spoons are running low so I thought I would share some of my favorite tips. I hope this helps at least a little bit! As always links are in italics.✨🥄

  • This may seem pretty obvious but praying is a great option. I do this fairly frequently when I’m bed ridden, it’s a good time to talk to the gods and tell them of your love and devotion for them. Or you could just tell them a cool story you think they’d like, however praying works for you.
  • Audio books are amazing! You can find readings of so many mythology books on youtube. Alternatively, if you have the energy you can read a book about your religion/gods!
  • Light an incense or scented/colored candle that reminds you of your god. If your god loves oranges light an orange candle and when it’s lit keep it as an offering to your god. Plus then you get to smell lovely things.
  • Hang a sigil or rune that reminds you of your god next to your bed, if you’re a secret witch you can slide it in your pillow case or in a drawer! It’s something small you can have out as an offering but it’s also good to pray too or make you feel a little witchy. You can also just have some spoonie sigils out!
  • If you haven’t already make a playlist of songs that remind you of your gods or ones they might like! Or you could just listen to one album or artist that makes you feel this way, whatever floats your boat really.
    • If you’re curious I have a few for the Norse gods I’m closest too but it’s all pretty much UPG. Thor. Odin. Frigg. Freyja. Freyr. Hel. I’ll probably start ones for Sif and Skadi soon!
  • Movies! This is more pop culture than anything but I find it can help. When I’m wanting to worship Hel for instance I’ll watch Corpse Bride, Book of Life, or something along those lines. It’s all pretty much upg, whatever you think your god would enjoy!
  • Other things you can try are doing your best to take care of yourself by hydrating and eating a snack! I’m not sure if every god would be completely down with this but those I worship tend to appreciate self care so take care of yourself as a way to honor your gods. For instance if I want to worship Hel I like apples because they’re fruit I relate to our Lady of the Dead .
  • If you like tea or coffee have a cup with flavors that remind you of them! Another example with Hel, I like to use chocolate creamer in my coffee or stronger black teas usually mixed with vanilla, chai, or lavender! Whatever you think is best!

I wrote things about you because you gave me the slightest bit of hope in this world, that despite the hurricane, there’s some good in this life. I wrote things about you because you gave me a little bit of love, or at least what I thought was love, and I wanted so much more. I wrote things about you because I wanted you to be different, I wanted you to give me the love that I gave you, I wanted you to stay…

But like all things in this life, the truth starts unraveling and all of sudden it hits you like a freight train - what was once there might’ve been just your imagination this whole entire time. And you feel foolish, because you gave your all and he gave you nothing.

And so I still write things about you, not because I still love you, but because I remember what it felt like to have someone drown you, scratching at the air just to catch a breath without even laying a finger on you. I remember what it felt like having all this faith in the world, but slowly one by one, physically seeing it start to get smaller and smaller until it’s just a piece of dust sitting in the middle of your palm. I remember what it felt like to see the light in your eyes, what it felt like to hear all those never ending promises, what it felt like to be loved.

And I remember how you left; not a word, not a sound, just footsteps out the door leaving me with a burning throat and cracks in my heart to carry on with.

Yeah I remember all of that. Doesn’t mean I love you, doesn’t mean I still want you. It just means you let me live, and it just means that I know how to survive when people like you come around next time.

—  c.f. // “i don’t love you anymore, but you’ll always carry a piece of me with you”

xovvo  asked:

I very much want chickens, but something I don't know is how to tell when a chook is enjoying something vs tolerating something vs quietly seething and waiting to take revenge

one of the great things about chickens is that they don’t seethe (quietly or otherwise) or take revenge - they just don’t have much of a concept of either of those things. for the most part, if a chicken doesn’t like something, it will tell you right away by yelling, struggling, or both.

for example, if a chicken doesn’t like being held, it will yell and struggle when you pick it up. it may scratch you or even peck you in the process, depending on how unhappy it is. if you can manage to keep ahold of it until it realizes you aren’t letting go, it will probably quiet down and tolerate being held. if it isn’t too distressed, it might realize “hey, i’m not dying, this isn’t so bad,” and calm down and enjoy some nice neck skritches (or even fall asleep in your arms, my hen does that once she’s done kicking me with her sharp feet).

as for chicken body language, i kind of read it subconsciously so i’m not sure how to explain it very well, but i’ll do my best!

  • a happy, relaxed chicken who is enjoying skritches, a dustbath, a sunbath, or just a nice hangout, will often blink their eyes slowly and sort of squinch their eyelids. this video is a good example of this behavior: x
  • if a healthy chicken is voluntarily lying on their side, that means they feel extremely calm and secure. example: x
  • in this video (x), my pullet dynamite is drowsing while i pet her head. i’m not restraining her; she sat down on my stomach because she wanted to, and she is free to go anytime. the first time i touch her ear, she shakes her head because it tickles. the second time, she starts to get annoyed with me. you can see how she wakes up, moves around, and rejects my attempts to continue to pet her. right after i stopped filming, she stood up and left. also notice how she opens her eyes all the way, indicating that she’s no longer all blissed-out and snoozy
  • in this video (x), the pullets are anxious and on-edge because they spotted a potential “predator” (in this case it was probably a crow or an airplane they saw out the window). notice the jerky movements and the outstretched necks. this is the body language of a moderately agitated chicken
    • if a flock of chickens are scared of something, you WILL hear about it. the call that they’re making in the video is a typical alarm call and it’s quite loud. chickens may stay quiet if they’re hiding from a hawk, but otherwise, they make a big fuss about a predator or a potential predator
  • in this video (x), the pullet doesn’t like being held and she’s telling us about it, but she’s not unduly distressed. she’s not enjoying being restrained in midair and she would prefer to be set down, thank you very much
  • hens are quiet when they’re happy, for the most part. if they’re yelling, they’re worked up about something. the thing they’re worked up about may or may not be serious. hens also make a big racket after laying an egg
  • chicks peep and trill all the time, sometimes even in their sleep. if they start peeping very shrilly and loudly, it means something’s wrong. they might be cold, or hungry, or one of them might have wandered away from the others and can’t find its way back. if chicks are shrieking, you should check on them asap
  • roosters crow, and talk to their hens. they have a special call that they use to tell the hens they’ve found food. i don’t have a ton of experience with roosters, so you’d be better off asking someone else about them

it looks like i just spent an hour or so hyperfocusing on this so i’ll wrap it up since it’s getting kind of long. i hope it helps at least a little bit!

i’m still quite new to chicken keeping, so more experienced chicken keepers feel free to add on!

EVAK FANFICTION RECS / PART 10

Halla! So, as time comes and goes, I’m here with another masterpost of some of my favorite Evak fanfics for you guys. As you can see, I’m trying to be a bit more creative and make these posts look at least somewhat more appealing, so I hope you like this little header I made (even though I suck at Photoshop).

As always, the list is divided into oneshots and chaptered fics.
My personal favorites are tagged with a “ ★ ”.
Completed chaptered fics are tagged with a “ ✓ ”

Without further ado, all the fanfics can be found under the cut. Enjoy!

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Ten Years (Part 13 - End!)

Summary: AU. When a major account is on the line at work, reader is forced to revisit some old connections at her ten year high school reunion for a chance at success. Will she let the past consume her, or will she see the future in her grasp?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: 4,380 ( I mean…)

Warnings: language, fluff, excessive sweetness

A/N: I hope you guys love the fluff. Thanks for sticking with me, and for reading, and for all your sweet messages. <3

Part: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13

Originally posted by e2barryallen

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You're My Future

Request:  can I request a harry hook imagine where reader is now with harry but she used to date jay so when the vks come back to the island harry is afraid past feelings can resurface but reader assures harry not to worry and all fluffy please!!

Warnings: Swearing, fluff, a tad bit of angst

Words: 970

A/N: Jay seems like the type to cheat on his girlfriend (at least when he was on the Isle) so I kinda added that little tidbit in for a bit of spice! I hope you enjoy!


Isn’t it funny how your past just never seems to leave you alone? It doesn’t matter how long ago it was or how much you try not to think about it, but it’s always there. And your past happened to be standing right in front of you. 

“Hey [Y/N]…you look good. How are you?” Jay asked as he stuffed his hands in his pockets, shifting awkwardly from side to side as he looked at you. He kept looking over his shoulder, and for good reason. He and the others weren’t exactly welcome on the Isle anymore, so he had to watch his back.

You crossed your arms. “Oh, I’ve been great.” You said bitterly, you’ve always been one to hold grudges against someone. And you felt that him cheating on you was a very worthy reason to hold a grudge. 

Jay sighed and ran his hand through his hair and looked at you. “[Y/N], please let me explain-” He started to say when suddenly your name was called from elsewhere so you both looked over as your current boyfriend made his way over to you both. “Hook.” 

“Jay. What are you doing with [Y/N]?” Harry asked, putting his arm around you and pulling you in for a pretty heavy kiss, pulling back after a moment to look back at Jay, and you knew that Harry was trying to get the point across: you were taken. 

Jay frowned as he looked at you, then his eyes went on up to Harry where the sad look turned to a glare. “I was just talking to her, catching up. She’s her own person, you know.” Jay snapped, crossing his arms as he glared at Harry, who kept his calm composure, even though you knew good and well he was itching to hook someone.

“Harry. Let’s go. Now.” You said, giving him a look and not wanting this to get out of hand. “You need to save your energy for the fight.” You said, pushing him away and looking back at Jay. “It was nice to see you.” You said as a formality, pushing Harry away. You hoped that was the end of that, but it seemed to you like it was only the beginning.

Harry barely looked at you after that, and if he spoke to you it wasn’t his normal self, it was more one or two words to acknowledge the fact that you said something. 

After a few days of this treatment, you got sick and tired of that real fast. “Harry, what the fuck is going on with you? Ever since Jay-” You began to say, only to be cut off. 

“Ever since Jay what? I’ll tell you what. Ever since Jay came back you’ve been looking out towards Auraboredom all longingly, do you miss him? Come on, flat out tell me! I’m a man, I can fucking take it!” Harry snapped, finally looking at you and letting it all out. 

“Harry, what the fuck are you talking about? One, I’ve always wanted to go to Auradon, you know that, and two, I can’t believe you’re insinuating that I actually miss Jay! You know how I feel about him.” You said, glaring at Harry and crossing your arms, feeling extremely hurt by what he was saying. 

“How you feel about him? What, like you miss him?! Like you want him back?! Why else would you be so quick to pull me away from him, [Y/N]? I always told you if I ever saw him again I’d hook him for you, for what he did to you. Yet when given the chance you pulled me back!” Harry screamed, glaring at you and you looked up at him, tears filling your eyes. 

“I pulled you back because I didn’t want you to do anything in the heat of the moment. I never said I wanted you to hook him. Do I like him? Fuck no. Do I want him back? FUCK no! Does that mean I want him hooked? Fuck no. Because I want you, Harry. I don’t want anyone else. I could never want anyone else, Harry. And I can’t believe that you would even think that I would ever leave you for someone who hurt me so badly in the past.” You said, finally breaking down and letting yourself start to cry, putting your head in your hands. 

You stood there crying for a little bit, and after a couple moments, you felt a pair of strong arms wrap around you awkwardly. After letting you cry it out for a few minutes, Harry pulled back and tilted your head up with his hook so you’d have to look at him. “[Y/N]… my love…I’m so sorry. I…I didn’t mean to make it sound like that. I just…” He sighed. “I know how much you used to love him. Because you did. And I’m just…I’m afraid that since he came back, you’re going to realize that you still do.” He said, his voice cracking some on that last sentence, and you saw a tear fall down his cheek, some eyeliner going with it so you reached up and wiped his eyes. 

“Harry, I don’t love Jay. I love you. I used to love Jay, but I don’t anymore. You can’t change the past. But that’s just what Jay is…my past. And you’re my future.” You whispered softly as you looked up at the crying pirate, you unsure of how to console him because you’ve never seen Harry cry before, so you just stood up on your tip toes and gently pressed your lips to his, putting as much intimate passion in the kiss as possible to ensure that he knew just how much you loved him and that he was your future. 

Here Comes Trouble (Bendy's Theme)
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Here Comes Trouble (Bendy's Theme)

(From the man who brought you the Sammy Jam reprise, I present to you: Bendy’s Theme! Or “Here Comes Trouble”. Like, you  know, for his stats screen. Completely original Lampblack music! (To definitely play on a loop because the developers never expect you to spend as much time as you do on those screens, and then it’s stuck in your head forever. At least it’s brilliant!)

Seriously I’m so thrilled with this, it’s perfect. It’s definitely got Bendy’s life in Lampblack all wrapped up. It’s a little bit circus-y, impulsive and the tune switches up just a little bit every time. Keeps you on your toes, just like Bendy! Not to mention the high energy! I hope you guys love this as much as I do. -HG)

EXO Reaction: When you storm out after a fight

||| Anon asked: I was wondering if I could request an exo reaction where you have a fight and you storm out but then after a while they go looking for you when they notice it’s cold and/or raining and/or you’re in a dangerous situation |||

A/N: I changed it up a bit! Hope you don’t mind~


Park Chanyeol

Originally posted by baekhyunsama

You quite literally slammed the door to his face, so you had to come back yourself to check up on him.

“Jagi~~,” he cried out, holding on to his nose. “No need to get violent.”


Xiumin/Kim Minseok

Originally posted by baozzis

He waited for you to come back for three hours before giving in. When he went outside he noticed that you hadn’t gone far, still standing by the entrance.

“It’s too cold after all?” he teased. “Come here you, I will warm you up.”


Chen/Kim Jongdae

Originally posted by deararchimedes

You were sitting in the park alone, rain pouring down on you when somebody lifted an umbrella above you. You looked up to see him.

“Jagi, I’m sorry. Please come back home.”


D.O/Do Kyungsoo

Originally posted by kyungsuhos

He was used to your sudden outbursts and just continued to follow you till you calm down, making sure that nothing happens to you. After a good hour you turned around and came up to him.

“I’m sorry, I know your sorry too, so let’s just go get something warm before we both freeze to death,” he said, taking your hand.


Kris/Wu Yifan

Originally posted by wuporn

He was determined not to be the one to give in first but when he noticed a storm brewing outside he went looking for you immediately. By the time he found you he was soaking wet too.

“I wanted to find you so badly, I completely forgot to take the umbrella with me.”


Tao/Huang Zitao

Originally posted by pocky-soo

You left him alone and went to grab a drink by yourself. He was by your side immediately after other guys started flirting with you.

“I’m not with you for a few seconds and they stick to you like flies,” he said, wrapping his hand around your waist.


Kai/Kim Jongin

Originally posted by jonginssoo

He would chase you around, hoping to at least throw his jacket over your head to shield you from the rain.

“Jagi slow down~! Please forgive me, I don’t want you getting sick.”


Byun Baekhyun

Originally posted by porkdo-bi

He would start whining and acting like a little kid, begging you not to leave him alone, so you would have no other choice but to come back.

“Annoying you till you forgive me works every time.”


Luhan

Originally posted by okayluhan

He hoped you won’t be stupid and don’t go out in this weather but you did it anyway. He found you after a few hours, freezing in the rain.

“At least think a bit before you storm out, you dummy.”


Lay/Zhang Yixing

Originally posted by yixnig

He would be a bit annoyed, having to almost carry you back home. 

“I said I was sorry, now you got yourself all wet and that means more laundry for me.”


Suho/Kim Junmyeon

Originally posted by kyungsuhos

He caught up with you as soon as you went outside.

“Jagi, don’t be stubborn, you will catch a cold out here,” he said, putting his jacket over you shoulders.


Oh Sehun

Originally posted by sehunicorne

He watched you getting further and further away when some other guys approached you from another bar. He walked up to you in quick steps completely forgetting what you two were even arguing about.

“If you want to have any business with her, you have to go through me first.”

Two Nights Stand Part 9

Summary: (Modern Au) After a bad breakup, your roommate insists that you need to a one night stand to end your dry spell. Following her advice, you have a bad one night stand with Bucky Barnes, but what happened when you are forced to spend time with him?

Paring: Bucky x Reader

Words: 1722

Warnings: This is vaguely inspired by a movie of the same name.Aganst and cliffhangers 

A/n: Thanks to @drinkfantasy for being my beta.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8

Credits to the gifs owners

Originally posted by littlemisssyreid

“Well, well, well what do we have here?” You hear a woman’s voice saying. You pull away from Bucky, feeling embarrassed. You look at the woman, you recognize her from the pictures, it’s Peggy one of Bucky’s roommates, behind her is her fiancé Steve and they have a strange look on their faces. It was a mix between pride and confusion.

You feel like a teenager girl who was caught making out with her boyfriend by his parent’s.

Bucky sits up making you sit as well “What you guys are doing here?” He asks, he is still holding you by the waist, this small gesture gives you comfort and makes you feel less weird about this whole situation.

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