-Great expectations- (part 6)
Warning: fluff, lots of it. A bit of smut too.
Again, thanks to everyone who read all the previous chapters. Hope you enjoy this one. I know I enjoyed writing it. Kisses!
Alex had held to his word over the next few weeks.
We spent a lot of time together getting to know each other, and I grew fond of every little thing I came to know about him. Sometimes we would have a movie night, sometimes we would cook a meal together (I would cook, Alex would eat). Sometimes it was just a walk, or a coffee. They already started filming season 5, so sometimes he would come home too tired for anything.
But he always made time for me. And those times I had with him became everything. He became important to me. I felt like a little school girl in love. I looked forward our dates, because I couldn’t wait to see him. I would read a book, and I would have this urge to hear his opinion about it. I wanted to hear his opinion about everything that surrounded me. I wanted to listen to him talk about things that inspired him. I wanted to listen to him talk about less pretty things that are a part of this horrible thing we call reality. I wanted him to always be there.
I wanted him. But I never told him that. I never had the courage to. Besides, I think it could be noticed from my behavior that I am head over heels in love with him. He would do me a huge favor if he did notice, so that I won’t have to explain myself, but man can be so stupid sometimes.
Today will be the first day I won’t see Alex. He will come back from work really late, and I have to go out tonight. September was almost over, which means that a new semester is starting in 2 weeks and something. And that meant that all of people I go to UNI with were back in town, and that actually means-there’s going to be a party tonight.
Cassie is coming at my place in fifteen minutes so we can both find something nice to wear.
‘’We look boooomb.’’ Cassie was singing those words while checking her butt in the mirror.
‘’Yes, we do.’’ I couldn’t deny that. This dress looks good on me.
‘’Best friend handshake.’’ She put up her hand in the air with a huge grin on her face.
‘’Cassie, we don’t have a handshake.’’
She was surprised. We never had a handshake, why does she look surprised? She was so weird sometimes.
‘’Oh…then just give me five.’’
‘’You look like you need a hug.’’ I opened my arms for her.
She looked at me with that ‘You stupid?’ face. ‘’I prefer chocolate, thanks. Save your hugs for your boyfriend.’’
‘’He’s not my boyfriend.’’
I rolled my eyes on that. I really hated when someone made comments like these about the two of us.
‘’We should get going, we’re already late.’’
‘’But before we do that, we should take a picture. Alex has to see how good you look.’’
Rolling my eyes again I said: ‘’Are you ever going to stop?’’
‘Nah, probably not.’
We both laughed at that.
‘’Cassie! Y/n! Heyyy! Long time no see girls.’’ the blonde guy named Chris greeted the both of us as soon as we entered the place. When Chris said those words, all the heads turned in our direction.
‘’Well, it was about time. Everyone was waiting from you.’’ a voice behind me was heard. When I turned around, I saw Liam, my favorite person from UNI.
‘’Hey stranger.’’ I said hugging him.
I loved hugging Liam. He was taller than me, so when we hugged, my head would always end up on his chest, and he would lay his head on top of mine.
‘’I missed you.’’he whispered in my hair.
‘’I know you did.’’ He laughed at that.
‘’Liam, please, can you get me something to drink?’’ I asked, pulling away from him.
‘’Of course.’’ and with those words he left.
In that moment Cassie put her phone in front of my face to show me a picture.
‘’Look, you two look so cute.’’
We did, the two us were hugging, my face was hidden behind his arms, but Liams face could be seen. He looked beautiful. His face was so relaxed and so full of love. For once, I thanked Cassie for stalking me with her phone camera.
‘’Is it a bad idea if I post it on Instagram?’’
‘’Why would it be a bad idea? Liam is your friend.’’ Cassie looked confused.
‘’Because of Alex, C. I don’t want him to get the wrong impression.’’
She made that face she had when she was extremely annoyed.
‘’Jesus Y/n. If he makes a problem about it, then just explain. If he doesn’t trust you, then you don’t need him in your life. And, besides, he’s not your boyfriend. You can do anything you want. ’’
I nodded. She was right. I posted the picture with a caption ‘’finally with my favorite person after two months’’.
‘’Here you go.’’ I heard Liam from behind me.
‘’Thank you. You were fast.’’ He smiled.
He reminded me of Alex in that moment. To be honest, every guy around me reminded me of Alex. Especially now, when he was not around.
The following day
I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing. There was this huge pain in my head, and my stomach felt like it was on fire. Oh wait, I know what this is. It’s a hangover. Bravo Y/n!
I searched for the phone in my bed and found it…under my ass. Okay. This is getting better and better.
‘’Hello.’’ I was shocked at the sound of my own voice. It sounded like I had my voice strings burned.
‘’I can see you had fun last night.’’ it was Jordan.
‘’Oh.my.God. Jordie, not today, please.’’ I begged.
‘’It’s not my fault you got drunk.’’ He played dumb. He was so annoying.
‘’You could be helpful for once in your life and come over with some food.’’
‘’I see you’re not in the mood. Okay, I’ll be there in 20. Love you, and please check if there are some people in your apartment whom are actually not supposed to be there. I don’t want surprises.’’ He teased me. Of course he did. What are brothers for?
‘’Asshole.’’ I hung up.
I sighed in frustration. My head was hurting so bad. But I had to get out of the bed to at least take a shower.
But before I do that, I need to check my phone. I had plenty of notifications on Instagram. Liam commented on the picture I posted saying ‘’I knew you missed me’’. I laughed at that. He always knew what to say. I should check my snapchat story just to make sure that I didn’t make a total fool out of myself.
Okay, a few videos of people dancing with the music in the background. Another video of me and Cassie singing with Liam and Chris jumping in to sing with us. A few group selfies. Okay. I did good.
And then I entered my messages, only to see a few texts messages from Alex.
1st text :’’ Hey little one. Just came home from work. I’m so tired, can’t wait to go to bed. I hope you have fun tonight. I miss you.’’
2nd text:’’Today,Katheryn had to play this scene where while talking she was feeding an owl. I thought of you in that moment because I know how much you like owls.’’
3rd text:’’ Y/n, you look beautiful on that picture with Cassie. I won’t text you anymore because I assume you’re already drinking and dancing and not thinking about me. Text me when you get home so I know you’re safe. Kisses.’’
How was I supposed to not be in love with him when he was so caring and so kind? I imagine him in a relationship if he is like this now. I wish he was here now. I texted him saying:
‘’Morning sunshine. I didn’t see your text until now, sorry about that. I hope you had a good night sleep. I’ll see you tonight? P.S. I miss you too. ‘’
After locking my phone I got out of bed to go and take a shower. And I did that avoiding the mirror at all costs. I was too scared of my own reflection now.
I heard that overly energetic knock on the door.
‘’I’m coming.’’ I yelled.
After 10 seconds the annoying presence of my brother invaded my apartment. For some reason, he was in a good mood.
‘’You got some last night didn’t you?’’ I tried to guess.
‘’A true gentleman doesn’t reveal this kind of information.’’ he said with a cocky grin on his face.
‘’You definitely got some last night.’’ We both burst in laughter.
He even made me some coffee. Okay, maybe he wasn’t that much of a pain in the ass after all.
‘’Did you, sister, get some last night?’’ He was looking at me. Mostly to see if I would lie to him.
‘’Not that I remember. And there were no strangers in here, so definitely not.’’ I said. He laughed at my response.
‘’It seems like you had fun last night. And I didn’t know Liam was back? I haven’t seen that guy in what seems like ages.’’
‘’I know. I missed having him around.’’
‘’I saw that too.’’ he commented ‘’And just so you know, Alex is not going to be happy about the picture you posted.’’
I wanted to say something, but he interrupted that attempt.
‘’He will not make a big deal about it. But, if he seems colder than usual, you should know it’s because of that.’’
I nodded. I wasn’t in the mood of talking about that. And just like he knew we were talking about him, I got a text from him.
‘’Hope the hangover isn’t that bad. I’ll come at you place with some food tonight at 8 p.m.?’’
I checked the clock. It was 1 p.m. I smiled at the thought of seeing him in a few hours.
‘’Okay. I’ll see you soon then.’’
I locked my phone and started talking with Jordan about some stuff of ours. He didn’t stay long though. He saw that I needed sleep, so he left me to rest. But before he went out, he wanted to talk to me about me and Alex.
‘’These are the facts. First, you’re in love with him, and he is in love with you. Second, You gave each other some time to see how you get along, and from what I see it is working out. Please sister, don’t complicate things when there is no need to. It’s complicated enough to find someone who feels the same way you feel about them. Do him a favor and tell him how you feel. I know it’s scary, and I know the last time you did that it didn’t end well. But Alex isn’t Jacob, and that’s a good enough reason to let yourself have this. And trust me, even if we man act cold sometimes, we still love to hear warm words from the ones we love.’’
He stepped out of the apartment when he finished his little speech, then he turned around to give me a hug.
‘’Have some sleep now, and good luck. Love you!’’ He whispered this in my ear. He let go of me and left.
It was 7:35 p.m. when I woke up again. I jumped off my bed in fury, and started running through my apartment to get everything ready. Thank God I was a tidy person so I did not have to do much. Then I went in the bathroom to get myself ready. I got scared of my own reflection. Damn it! Now I have to even put some make up on.
At 8:05 I heard a knock on my door. While trowing a few quick glances In the mirror I unlocked and opened it.
He was standing there with two pizza boxes in his hand. He was wearing my favorite black t-shirt, with his black jeans. He looked stunning. It took me a moment to process this and get back to reality. And when I did, the emotions hit me.
I threw myself in his arms, and he immediately put his free arm around me. I squeezed him tight around his waist while resting my head under his chin. He planted a soft kiss on my temple, then rested his head on mine.
‘’I missed you.’’ He muttered.
‘’I missed you too.’’ I whispered back.
I let go of him, and when I looked into his eyes I saw something was wrong. ‘’Are you okay?’’ I asked him, sincerely concerned. I don’t like seeing him upset. He must have seen that I was worried, because he smiled at me and said:‘’I am, but I need to talk with you about something later.’’ I opened my mouth to say something but he was faster. ‘’No need to do that right now. Let’s enjoy our meal first.’’
I gave him the last worried look, but he didn’t look at me, he just entered in my apartment with no words.
‘’This isn’t going to be good’’ I thought to myself.
I stood up to get us something to drink. ‘’Give me something very unhealthy, please.’’ Alex begged, and we both laughed. I took two sodas from the fridge and walked up to the place where Alex was sitting on the dinning table. I put the drinks down, and leaned forward to hug him from behind. I put my arms around his neck and shoulders, and he put one of his hands over mine, squeezing it slightly. I rested my face against his hair, breathing him in. God, how I love his smell. I closed my eyes for a second, thinking about how pathetic it was that I’ve missed him so much after just one day of being apart. His sudden laughter was what brought me back from my trance.
He was laughing at something he saw on his phone, he showed me the picture, it was some joke the fans made about Ivar on Instagram. Then he continued scrolling down until he came over the picture I posted last night. He fell silent. I think he was trying to stay calm, but I could feel it was stronger than him. His breathing became deep and heavy, and his grip on the phone hardened. Now, he turned his face to me. I could see the anger in his eyes, and I think this was the first time I saw him angry. But here was something else too. He was…hurt? He opened, and then closed his mouth. I sat on a chair next to him, and I was looking at his face, trying to read him. His face was dead serious, his lips in a sharp line. I could see how his chest moved up and down as he breathed deeply, trying to stay calm.
‘’Say it. I won’t bite.’’ I tried to joke it off, but he didn’t laugh. He was looking at me now with a cold face expression.
‘’Is he the reason you’re having second thoughts about me?’’
What? What is he talking about?
‘’What are you talking about?’’ I said with shock evident on my face.
‘’Is he the reason you asked me to give you some time to consider me as your boyfriend?’’ His face was still cold, unreadable. I was in shock. Why was he saying this?
‘’Why are you silent? Answer me!’’ He stop up now, raising his voice. ‘’How could you do that to me? Let me think that you were capable of falling in love with me if I just gave you some time? How could you/ Why did you do this? Do you not know how I feel about you?’’ He said this last sentence in a lower tone. He looked like a injured puppy, and that killed me on the inside. I never wanted him to get hurt.
‘’Alex, please, let me explain.’’ I stood up to grab onto his hands, trying to make him look me in the eyes.
‘’Liam is my friend. I have known him for three years now. He is one of the few people from UNI that I actually like hanging out with. But he is only a friend. I/’’
‘’Then why didn’t you mention him before?’’’ he interrupted me.
‘’Why didn’t you mention all of your girl friends from work to me? You also posted some pictures with some of those of who I knew nothing about, but still, I always asked you about them, and you would say they are your friends. And I believed you. Why are you not believing me?’’ I asked him, trying to stay calm.
‘’It’s different. They are not that important to me. But he clearly is important to you.’’ His voice was trembling now. I could see that he was really hurt by this. But why?
Then the realization hit me. He didn’t know. He didn’t know, and he didn’t notice. Man are really stupid.
I tried to restrain my mouth from growing into a wide smile, because that would only make this worse.
‘’Alex,’’ I started ‘’ it is not different. Do you know why?’’ I paused. He wasn’t responding, but I kept going anyway. ‘’Because nobody else is important to me when I am with you. Because you poisoned my mind with yourself, I can’t think of no one else but you. You make me enjoy everything. You broke down the boundaries that I have set for myself. You make me feel alive. You make me feel awake. You make me feel like I can do anything, as long as I have you by my side.’’ I cupped his face with both of my hands.
‘’I’m in love with you Alex Hogh Andersen. ‘’ I brought my face closer to his. ‘’I’m so in love with you even the blind people can see that. And that’s why you should believe me when I say there is no one else in my life, but you.’’
And then I kissed him. He was shocked at first, then he put his hand on my waist and moved his lips against mine. His lips were so soft, softer than I imagined them to be. His grip around my waist tightened as the kiss grew bolder. Then I pulled back to get some air, only to earn a protesting moan from him. But fast enough I moved my head to his neck, leaving open mouthed kisses there. He reacted by moving his hand to my ass, giving it a light squeeze. I moaned against his skin, and I felt he shivered in response.
He put his hand under my chin, moved my face up and kissed me again, closing the space between us. Then he surprised me when he broke the kiss to lower himself, only to grab my tights to pick me up. He carried me to the kitchen counter, while leaving wet open mouthed kisses on my neck. I run my hands trough his hair while a moan escapes from my mouth. He moves his hands on my ass again, now squeezing it harder. I lowered my hands to his core and started pulling up his t-shirt. He moved his hands up in the air and when his chest was finally naked I throw his shirt as far away as possible from us. He was looking at me now with mischief in his eyes. ‘’I thought you liked that shirt?’’. I put my hands on his chest and started moving them up and down, at the same time moving my head closer to his. ‘’I changed my mind. I like it more like that.’’ He smirked and lowered his head to bit down my neck. I moaned again, and then another sound was heard.
My phone was ringing.
‘’Dammit!’’ I cursed, and Alex sighed and moved away. This was irritating the both of us. I reached the phone, and saw it was Jordan. Again.
‘’This better be important.’’ I answered the phone.
‘’Oh, did I interrupt something?’’ I could hear him chuckle on the other side.
‘’You did, actually.’’ I sighed, and I felt Alex coming closer from behind, only to put his hands on my waist and leave a kiss on my neck. I threw my head back, resting it on his shoulder, while putting my free hand in his hair. ‘’Do you need something?’’
‘’I just wanted to know if you two wanted to come over. I’m here with Sophie and Marco.’’ I turned my head to Alex, who heard what Jordan said and made a face that said ‘Do we really have to?’’. I nodded, and he sighed in frustration.
‘’We’ll be there in 20 minutes. Love you!’’
‘’Love/’’ I didn’t hear the rest of it because I hung up on him.
I turned myself to see Alex. He was putting his shirt on.
‘’Can’t you just stay without it?’’ I whined.
He chuckled at my words.
‘’That would be inappropriate.’’ He said, but I saw my words made him shift in his place. I came closer to him, put my arms around his neck and said :’’It would be. Very much. But I wouldn’t mind.’’
He smiled at me, then gave me a short kiss.
‘’We have to go, you told your brother we were coming. Besides, I can’t wait for you to meet Marco.’’ I nodded, then let go of him, and went in my bedroom to change.
He was waiting for me where I left him. He smiled when he saw me, straighting himself up as I got closer to him. I put my hands on his chest, and he in response curled his arms around my waist, bringing me closer. I looked him in the eyes, only to see how happy he was now. And for some reason, it made me happy seeing him like that.
‘’Do you believe me now?’’ I asked him.
He was looking at me with a soft face expression. ‘’Yes.’’ was all he said.
‘’Good.’’ I kissed his temple.
He moved his hands from my waist all the way to my face, leaving them on my checks. He caressed them with his palms, while resting his forehead on mine. We remained like that for a few seconds. Then I moved away from him, hinting him it was time to go.