Miss Lin left early in the day. She said she needed some time alone, but I suspect her frustrations regarding the Crusade were growing. She’s a very action-oriented person, and though I know she understands the value of practice and preparation, it’s clear she loses patience with it. I hope she is well, wherever she has ended up, and comes home soon.
I admit it gave me joy to hear her refer to the Tournament grounds as home. I felt as though she was truly starting to feel she belonged, and that we accepted her. I certainly do, for whatever it may be worth. I pray daily that she will find the path of the Light and grow closer to it. After all, skill in combat is nothing without the will and discipline to fight honorably. We must strive to act with honor, even in the face of the perverse and malicious. Such dedication is the only thing that can truly end a conflict and stop the cycle of vengeance.
I should probably put such words toward my sermons instead of my private journal, but perhaps it would be useful in its own way to say such things privately before bringing them to others. Certainly no one would want to hear a half-baked lesson, much less enact it in their lives. Then again, my libram has collected proven wisdoms from many orders and many honorable people, and this lesson shows up time and again. Perhaps it isn’t so half-baked after all.
I pray for Miss Lin’s safe return and hope she is finding the excitement and discovery she hoped for. I look forward to seeing her again and hearing of the things she’s seen, what she’s done. Perhaps I should get out more, too.