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Alternatives to cursing someone who means harm

This post is not intended as curse/ill-intended spell shaming. This is for anyone who is uncomfortable using a curse for any reason. In my case, I don’t like to curse people I live with, and the deities I worship are very specific about when curses are appropriate, so I have to have alternatives on hand.

All associations are based on my personal practice and research.

I do not write my spells down when I create them (I am a fountain of bad witchy habits), so most spell links are from natural-magics lovely collection.

1. Cast a protection spell

The first step to handling someone you cannot curse should always be to increase your personal protections. If you can’t interrupt the flow of harm, you can build up your protections to at least make it less painful.

Runes: Elhaz (to protect and maintain dignity without a fight), Thurisaz (to resist/fight passively), Dagaz (to hold back darkness)

Spells:

2. Cast a ward

Protect your living space from them as well, particularly if they are likely to attempt to approach your home/room.

Runes: Inguz (the protection of the hearth), Dagaz

Spells:

FOR THE NEXT THREE SECTIONS: I tend to work by feel on the fly, so I had a hard time finding written spells to accomplish these tasks. I encourage writing your own, but linked spells to give you an idea of what you’re working toward.

3. Cast a spell of understanding/teaching

If you don’t feel right cursing them, making them understand what their actions have caused might be more your speed. It’s important to the healing process or creation of remorse.

Runes: Sowulo (stark illumination in the dark), Kenaz (the light shed upon new knowledge), Ansuz (the truth)

Spells:

4. Cast a spell of remembering

I especially like to have people who’ve harmed me consider their past, how much kinder they once were, and all of the good people they have left in the dust. I know such instances of rememberance make me more compassionate, and hope it has the same effect on them.

Runes: Gebo (gratitude/love for those that have helped you become who you are), Eihwaz (endings and beginnings, the doors of choice)

Spells:

5. Cast a spell to call their better traits forward

This is what I go for when nothing gentler works, and there is no way I can remove them from my life.

Runes: Mannaz (support from shared experiences), Berkana (rebirth/revitalization). If they come from a tradition of service or goodwill, Othala (inherited cultural wealth) could also work.

Spells:

Dysphoria Tips

To start this post off, not all of these tips will work for everyone! Everyone’s dysphoria is different and everyone has different things that help! 

Also, I am not a doctor or anything like that! And I am a trans guy, so that’s what this is all coming from, I can try to look up how other genders deal with dysphoria, but I think a lot of these ones will also help other genders


- Showering (I know this doesn’t help everyone)
Okay, so I know it may seem like confronting your physical form may not be the right thing to do, and it might not be, but for me taking a shower/bath really helps because I focus more on the routine and what I’m washing than my actual body
Also! Using products that match your gender might really help!! I use the more “masculine” smelling products for my body and it’s super nice ^^ They also have products that are more “gender neutral” if that’s more your thing

- Do something distracting that you enjoy
For example, I love going on walks, drawing, writing, and gaming and any of things things could be distractions from things that you don’t want to think about! You of course don’t need to pick one of the things I enjoy doing, there are lots of things you could do like sports, blogging, listening to music, hanging out with your pets (they aren’t going to judge you!), etc.

- Find someone who won’t judge you!
I know this might be hard for some of you, but I know that I have at least one person to talk to every time I get upset about this sort of thing! My friends will not misgender me, and they will reassure me that I am a guy and I do pass, and all that good stuff! If someone is hurting you and misgendering you and not respecting you, you can cut them out of your life! You are not obligated to keep these people around because of their feelings
Pets can be used for this too! Your animals will never judge you :3 Hell, they probably don’t even know what gender is :D

- Find things about yourself that you like
This doesn’t have to be about your body, but it can be! If you take the time to think about positive aspects of yourself, you might feel a little better. And if you can think about the positive things about your body, like the color of your eyes or the shade of your skin, or how great your smile is, or how cool your hair was in that one selfie, it might make you feel a little better about how you’re feeling about yourself right now c:
If you don’t want to or can’t think about positive things about your body, try thinking about things you’re good at or things you like about your personality! Like how great of a person you are, how nice you can be, how cool you are, or how dedicated you are! Something like that!

- Treat yourself
I know not everyone can go buy themselves their favorite dinner or anything like that due to money, but you can do simple things like watch your favorite movie! Or just let yourself eat that expensive ice cream you bought last week :3 Curl up in your favorite blanket with that one pillow that’s just right, or put on that makeup/outfit that you love! It’s in the little things

- Try not to think about “passing”
I know this is extremely hard, but “passing” is just a social construct. Nobody “looks like a boy” because boys can look like anyone, and the same goes for other genders as well! This is definitely a hard thing to tell yourself, especially since a lot of people don’t get it, but it might help some of you!

- Find inspiration!
Find someone who you look up to, or who is transitioning/has transitioned. Some people (like me) might feel resentment at them for being further into their transition than them, but other might (and should try to) be filled with hope and positivity by seeing that things get better and that it is possible to change yourself into how you want to (or do) see yourself

- Look back
If you’ve already started your transition, look back to months, or years ago! You will be surprised at how far you’ve come
You might even feel more hopeful about the future after having seen how much you’ve changed since before

- Find people to talk to
Find people who are, or have been, in the same or a similar scenario; they know what it’s like and they may be able to help you! They can share what it was like for them and what helped them

- Just. Stop.
Seriously, if you can, don’t do anything that day. Sometimes, people just need a break or some time alone. So, if you’ve been saving up those hours at work, take the day off if you can! If you know there’s nothing important at school the next day, try to stay home and not put yourself through more stuff
Keep yourself safe and comfortable during your break! Maybe use this time to use one of the other techniques at the same time ^^

- Keep a diary
This might seem silly, but I keep a diary off and on and it really helps me! Sometimes people just need to open up, but not to a person 
I named my diary Tina, so it kind of felt like I was talking to a person, though haha
Also, just getting all of this down on paper (or on the screen) might help

- Wear your favorite outfit!!
Find that outfit that makes you feel like a hundred bucks and wear it! It doesn’t matter if you’re staying in your house or going somewhere, wear that outfit and own it! Take a lot of pictures if you like the way it looks c:

- Selfies
Take selfies when you look hella good and how you want to look, so that when you’re feeling down and dysphoric, you can look back at your selfies and be like “damnnn I look hot”

- Workout
This might seem like a horrible idea, but I’ve heard that it works wonders! Just go get beefy or run into your legs feel like jelly
This might also help you sleep, which might help by getting rid of your thoughts

- Sleep
If you can take a nap, or just crash out, do it! You don’t have anything planned and these thoughts won’t stop? Go to sleep. You won’t be thinking of anything if you’re unconscious

- Avoid negativity
If you know someone is going to bring you down, avoid them
Same goes with places! If you know that a certain place is going to be negative or bring negative thoughts on, it’s probably best to avoid that place

- Drink ice water
I find that the painfully cold liquid can really wipe the mind with it’s shocking temperature

- Meditate
If you’re into meditation, or want to try it, I hear it does wonders to find that inner peace and just forget you have a body or end up thinking more positively about that body

- Watch your favorite show
Focusing on something you love, like a series filled with interested characters who aren’t you and find themselves in lots of situations can really take your mind off of things

- Burn incense or candles
Burn it right next to your bed (carefully tho) and make sure it’s a scent that you love! This way, if you don’t get out of bed, you can still have something to enjoy

- Read
Read a book, or a fanfiction, or anything that will capture your full attention, so that you have something better to focus on

- Modify your body!!
Like piercings, and hair dye, and stuff! Hell, even those temporary tattoos are pretty cool :3 This way, you can feel like you’re doing stuff to your body on your own terms
You can even just draw on yourself with a sharpie or something!

- Clean
Maybe just do some laundry or put things in neat little piles! Any amount of stress taken off will feel super good and also you might find that one outfit you lost months ago! (if you’re anything like me haha)

- Name and pronouns
Write down your name and pronouns on things to make you feel a little better seeing that that’s what you want to be called, and it can just be written down like that!
You could also ask some supportive friends to read them or just call you by them for no reason at the moment haha

-  Take up a new hobby
You could spend the time you spend being dysphoric, doing something you enjoy! Learn a new language, or learn how to do arts and crafts, or buy some gardening supplies!

- Save up money
Just stick some coins from the dryer in a jar and start saving up for your transition! It’ll make you feel like things are going faster than they are

And remember: You are valid! No matter what anyone tells you, or how you feel, you are valid! <3

anonymous asked:

dicta do you have any larry fic recs? nothing specific but just any fic that you loved a lot? thank you, your opinion on fics means a lot to me, and i feel like you'd probably know the really good ones!

Oh my gosh anon I love the wording of this ask so much. I’ve been meaning to make a larry rec list for going on a year but it just feels so official/overwhelming? But this, fic I loved a lot??? I can absolutely do that!!! and aaaaah there are SO MANY!!! I am not as organized about larry fic as drarry fic so this is, basically, like, a list of fics that stuck in my brain and/or heart and that are all so so good. SO GOOD! (and tbh there’s a whole other list of stuff that i’d rec but would want to reread before attempting commentary, and I have so many things marked for later and like….yeah….there’s a lot of good fic out there) And really, what better rec is there than “this is a fic that stuck in my brain and/or heart”?? Everyone should read them all!!

an act of faith against the night by @elianefics- M, 65k - It’s a clear path, drawing itself in Harry’s mind – where they began, how they ended up here. It’s not hard to convey all the events that led them to this very moment, with all of their twists and turns, not when Harry has been going through them again and again every night, albeit searching for something else.  “Did you know?” When Harry replies, it’s a question, not an answer. “Did you know, that it would end like this?” [Harry and Louis had never imagined that, when they would finally go back to New York, it would be as spies.] (part two of the landscapes of war series)

  • The war from ‘a prayer for which no words exist’ (recced below!) is over, or at least as over as war can be for the people who were there, which is to say….not all that over, just taking different shape. I have endless love for the way this fic treats that aftermath, the way it shows how deeply and irreversibly harry and Louis were shaped by being fighters, and it is a stunning mix of beautiful prose and important ethical questions. It also does some really fascinating meta work with Simon Cowell, the Azoffs, and the Cordens taking on central roles in the post-war nation-building project. It’s a lot for one fic to do, and this one manages it beautifully, and throws in some more beautiful NYC cityscapes, heartaching and conflicted nostalgia, and taut but unwavering H/L love, you know, just for good measure.

another hazy may by deLILAh - M, 41k - louis is a terrible poet and harry lives in the now and they have six weeks to fall in love but, really, it only takes six seconds. bookshop meets military meets summer romance au ft. marlboros, the backstreet boys, and underrated literary devices.

  • It’s been over a year since I’ve properly read this all the way and I can still see parts of it as vividly as if it had been last night. Harry’s hair, cigarette smoke curling upwards, hardwood floors, the rhythm of Harry’s feet as he runs to stay in shape for the job that will take him away from Louis, the feeling of seconds slipping away, and each of them more precious for being so few in number. This is one of those fics that made me nostalgic for somewhere I’d never been - except who hasn’t felt as though time was moving simultaneously quickly and too slowly, as though there is something precious that could fall apart at any second? And that’s one of many things this fic does beautifully: gives us the universality of their story, and reminding us of our own.

Auf Wiedersehen, Sweetheart by @conscious–ramblings - M, 19k - Louis and Harry had been childhood best friends, but had been separated by evacuation as the city they grew up in was destroyed around them. Now, twelve years later, they are both back in London, and through chance they meet again. In a time when you can’t admit to being gay, for fear of arrest, admitting to your best friend that you love them seems like an insurmountable obstacle.Featuring boxer Harry and mechanic Louis, much pining, and a lot of post war Britain

  • There’s often a moment in fic where they’re trying to figure out if the other one is gay and/or available, that’s full of a certain kind of tentative hope because there’s some kind of attraction there and what if, what if it was everything they think it might be? This fic takes that to 11 in the most meaningful way, because it’s the 40s, and being gay is a crime, and it’s not a question of whether they’re reading the right signals - neither of them can afford to send any - but of trying to accept that it could never, can never be. Set against absolutely simmering chemistry (the moment Louis first sees Harry in the ring is a thing I’m still not over) and wonderful research and settings (loved the feel of it, the way it all came to life, how present the remnants of the war were as they went about their lives) and fab secondary characters (Niall is a gem, and Liam is so how I think of him, and really everyone was just perfect) and this incredible click where you can feel the ease and understanding between them, feel the sense that they are destined and absolutely belong together…it takes that tension and longing, already at an 11, to a 12, and the ending is cathartic and beautiful and means so much more for knowing how rare and lucky and precious that moment is, and how much they’re willing to risk, and how it’s kinds of risk that are sometimes very specific to being queer in a moment when it’s illegal and how many of them are universal, and how incredible and enormous and moving a thing it is when both kinds of risk pay off.

Don’t Look Down by zarah5 - M, 92k - AU. In which Louis is a solicitor at one of London’s most prestigious law firms and Harry happens to apply for the position as his trainee. And everyone else is around, too.

  • Harry is unbelievably charming here, and it makes total sense that Louis falls for him, and as the story unfolds the clarity and meaningfulness of their connection gets more and more apparent even as Louis is fighting it tooth and nail. But it’s not miscommunication and it’s not self-loathing, it’s that Louis’ reasons are genuinely thoughtful and important (professional ethics!!!!!! With real implications!!!!) and that they’re genuinely in a difficult position and can’t be together without betraying things that mean a lot to both of them, which made me love this version of him even more and root for them that much harder. And I was already rooting for them pretty damn hard. They fit together beautifully from the first, understand each other on so many levels, are drawn together just magically…and then there are these beautiful moments (Venice omg) and heart-wrenching moments (after that dinner and that one morning and then that other one omg) and hold-your-breath moments (what is Louis gonna dooooo) and heart-pounding momebts, and I could not put it down.

Fake you’re full and feel tomorrow by theglitterbee - NC-17, 21k - Louis is a high class prostitute and the best at what he does. Harry is a hard to please 17 year old who wants to give himself completely to another man. [It contains prostitution, d/s, daddy kink, silly banter and two idiots in love.](The one with the text messages.)

  • listen this is gonna sound like a weird rec but bear with me. this fic was one of the first 1d fics I read, and on face is almost entirely made of things i don’t like, and yet, here it is. It did that alchemical thing where it just worked and it did all these things really well - like daddy kink was 100% squick for me before this and it’s still like 80% squick but this fic explained it in such a way that i got it and could understand it and see why it worked for them and what it meant for them and that psychology made it work (and made me get why it was hot? which is pretty massive for something in the squick category). and i was hesitant about their ages but it wound up being (i think not unrealistically) part of a fundamental kind of self-discovery that was part of why things between them felt so critical and important. and i was v skeptical about social media stuff in fic but this one did it so well that i got it and felt like it really enriched the story and showed a particular kind of progress and dynamic in their interactions that needed to be done that way (and wound up being really cool and impressive). and i was nervous about the potential for the dynamics to not work but they are both full people who needed each other in this very specific way and fit together beautifully and it did some of the best stuff kink fics do imo, where the kink reveals something about who they are and what they need and why they work and who they are individually and together, and so here we are, a fic with tags i wouldn’t usually touch, reccing away and considering a reread. this kind of rec can be kind of ~, i know, but the tl;dr is that this fic is so good it overcame every hesitation and left me totally engaged and impressed and invested.

Hold Me Closer by balanceds - NC-17, 36.5k - Louis Tomlinson is one of the most promising dancers of the English National Ballet, on track to become the youngest principal dancer in the company’s history. That is, until forces conspire to significantly complicate his life, including: a surprise ballet, an unfairly attractive guest choreographer, and being pushed into a rivalry with his best mate. Featuring lots of wine, dancing, pining, and a happy ending.

  • I was so surprised when I looked up the word count for this bc I would have sworn it was at least twice as longc there is so much story, and so much development, and so many moments that stick that. Watching Louis come to terms with who he was as a dancer and and person was this beautiful process that was so rewarding to read, and it was unusual and fresh in this way I really want to talk about but really don’t want to spoil. Along the way there is spectacular chemistry, zayn and Louis taking on gay swan lake, so much yearning and despair and happiness and reckoning and growth, an amazing and deeply satisfying Simon moment, and one of those h/l relationships where they make each other strong.

like a boomerang by @youwilll- M, 52k - AU in which Harry gets trapped in a lift, Louis gets stuck in a Wednesday, and it’s always February 2nd. Until it isn’t.

  • This fic is so so utterly charming in like nine different ways. Harry and Louis slot together so beautifully you can practically hear the click, and then they do it again and again and somehow every time feels fresh and important, and through it all the stakes get bigger as Louis contemplates the meaning of their repeated day and all of these deep questions sneak in, and a bit of a mystery, and a bunch of self-discovery, and a bunch of personal growth as Louis learns and thinks, really thinks, about what he needs to do, and realizes how willing he is to do it. It was so perfectly balanced between being gentle and exciting, between destiny and action, between grand gestures and quiet moments, and it settled like a warm blanket and I looked forward to every chapter so much.  And then, at the end…it was one of those stories that made me want to add and place to my travel list because the relevant moments are so well located and satisfying that you just want to be there, and it captured this particular instant - the way it wound sound and smell and how the air would feel and the electricity of it - so vividly. Lovely through and through.

Love Is A Human Right by @conscious–ramblings- M, 41k - The one where Louis has spent years getting over his ex, Harry Styles, and was almost successful. That is until Harry is elected as an MP, and Louis is given the task of getting him to support an Act of Parliament. Through tears and arguments and a heavy dose of LGBTQ+ politics, their lives finally line up. Will Louis be able to forgive? Will they still want the same thing? It’s difficult to let go of five years of hurt, but even more difficult to be close to the love of your life and let them walk away again.

  • This fic is basically everything I want in a fic, but together so amazingly well that I would never be able to put into a prompt because it’s the *how* that makes it so perfect. I mean, politics, check, LGBTQ politics, check, larry, check, vivid settings, check, emotional stakes, check, pining, check, everything, check. But the kicker is the beautiful complexity to all of it, that the story really truly understands the complexity of coming out and why people  do and why they don’t and what it mean and how it works and the ways it plays out in queer communities, and these gay leads aren’t incidentally gay, but engaged in identity and politics in a way that feels true and resonant, and that manages to both say really important things about queer communities and tell a beautiful love story about coming to terms with who you are and what you stand for and how love shapes (but doesn’t always determine, and I love that about this fic too) your priorities. Then add some simmering UST and simmering RST (hot damn i mean really) and viscerally, deliciously painful pining and hilarious side plots (SGIL!! Ziam!! Nick’s guessing games!!) and a background story that had my heart twisting for them from the first and settings that felt so real they were popping back into my head for weeks and just…superb. Superb.

a prayer for which no words exist by @elianefics - M, 65k - “Louis is a few seconds away from blowing up a rather important section of the New York subway when he sees Harry for the first time.” (part one of the landscapes of war series)

  • War!AU in NYC! Another one that I will admit fit my interests beautifully but it’s the execution that makes it work so beautifully. From the second they meet, there’s an urgency and fragility to Harry and Louis’ relationship that is a perfect fit for the politics and the newness of it all. At the same time, their connection is so certain and solid, and whether they’re waking up in the Brooklyn penthouse loft that I am still not over or getting ready to run into battle, their love casts everything else into relief and brings out some of he human consequences to why people fight and what they have to gain or lose, and shows what all they’re risking. Left me breathless in the best ways, and so glad to have gone on this journey.

Pull Me Under by zarah5 - NC-17, 140k - AU. As the first British footballer to come out at the prime of his career,  it helps that Louis Tomlinson is in a long-term, committed  relationship. Even if that relationship is fake. (Featuring Niall as Louis’ favourite teammate, Liam as Louis’ agent, and Zayn as Liam’s boyfriend, who just happens to be good friends with one Harry Styles.)

  • This was the fic that tipped me right over the precipice and properly into the fandom; how could I not rec it? Even if I wasn’t personally attached, how could I not rec it? It’s so bloody beautiful, watching Louis come to terms with the idea of being out, and to take steps towards it, and to see how his interactions with Harry change that and what develops between them. The pacing is amazing, the depiction of internalized homophobia is chest-tightening in the good illustrative moving way, the world is so immersive (like I went to get the link and 20 minutes later I was still reading and totally entranced), and their relationship 100% made my heart sing, in both the big triumphant moments and the little ones.

things have gotten closer to the sun by starseas - M, 49k - it’s strange, making the choice to face his past—it almost feels like he’s heading for the sun straight on, like he’s screaming come on and burn me, i deserve it.-when a solar flare is announced to end the world in twelve days, harry reunites with the people that he used to know better than the back of his own hand.

  • I’m not even entirely sure what to say about this fic that won’t give it away or send people running because here’s the thing: it is heartbreaking. It is worth it. It is sad, yes. It is also exhilarating and beautiful and about why love, platonic and romantic, makes the risks worthwhile, and how we know, viscerally know what is important to us. Real talk pt. 1: read it because I had terrible pms and really needed to cry. Real talk pt. 2: it worked, in that very particular way thar also made me sit and think about who and what is really important and had me sobbing in the best, most cathartic way. That lasting, deep way that’s making my chest a little tight just thinking about it, but that also means that I can smell the snow and feel the frost and see the brilliance of the sun and feel the boys’ love as - more - constant than the sun, and what the heck else could you ask for?

These Inconvenient Fireworks by mdasch and everydayslike - NC-17, 190k - Future AU in which nobody tries out for X Factor but the boys end up finding one other eventually anyway. Louis is a jaded bastard who owns a cat named Duchess and teaches drama to teenagers, Harry is an idealistic aspiring photographer/part-time footy coach, Zayn teaches English lit and wears leather jackets, Liam saves people from burning buildings, and Niall is Niall.

  • this is one of the top ten most affecting things i have ever read in my life. i don’t know how. i don’t know why. i do know that i couldn’t put it down for days and wound up finishing it in a blanket fort on a friend’s couch at 4am, literally doing that feet-kicking thing where you’re so full of feelings you can’t actually physically contain it but have to be quiet and still because the rest of the world is asleep during your emotional revelation. it restored my faith in love and hope. i am still not recovered from the thing on the soccer field at night before the train or the star tattoo or harry taking picture after picture or basically anything about it. clear your calendar if you have to but read this fic and then pls come talk to me about it because like i said i am deeply affected and possibly forever changed.

walk my days on a wire by sunshiner - M, 38.5k - Harry hums, staring at his hands in his lap, and Louis can still feel their smoothness, how solid they were in between his own. “Do you think it’s the same for us? Are we here only because of the likeliness of our jobs? Of our lives?”
“We’re here because we have inventive managers,” Louis says, giving Harry’s leg a little nudge with his knee, but all that’s going around in his head is, I think I’d be in the same spot in every possible universe.  or, when actor Louis Tomlinson used to daydream about dating Harry Styles, this is not what he had in mind.

  • There’s this one moment in Cannes when they kiss and I both really want to talk about it bc it is amazing and really would not dream of talking about bc you have to go read it yourself. So like the summary suggests, they’re in a fake relationship, and they know that that’s what it’s supposed to be, but of course - of course - there’s more to it than that. Like instantly more in this way that you can feel rolling off the screen, that is about sexual chemistry but also a certain kind of very precious fitting together. Watching them see themselves through each others eyes is beautiful, as is seeing how much it means to them to have someone else who understands the pressured of this rarefied, panopticonic world of celebrity, and who loves and validates the ott celeb performer and the human underneath the facade. It’s interesting to read in the context of this fandom, and entirely universal at the same time - who doesn’t want a partner who can love them at their most extreme and most mundane, most accomplished and most afraid, right in the middle of a stadium or right in the middle of taking up the whole damn bed?

whispering of fields half-sown by @elianefics- PG-13, 7k - “And how ironic is it that even now, at the end of all things, Louis’ mere presence makes Harry want to believe that anything is possible again. That the earth isn’t close to collapsing on itself, that the tomorrows are bright and shining and full of promises. Harry hates Louis for giving him something to look forward to when the sky only keeps getting darker. Harry loves Louis for it. ”[All of his boys come back to him in the end, but it’s Louis, Harry has been waiting for all this time.]

  • heartbreaking, lush, moving apocalypse!fic wherein it is absolutely the case that through fire and water and earthquakes and ice, there is one person Harry needs by his side. There’s Liam and Niall and Zayn, too, and what it would mean for all of them to say goodbye, really goodbye, who they all are and what those friendships mean. And Louis. Oh, Louis. My eyes got mysteriously damp in the really good way, and it made me want to sit down and write just to make words like this. The conversation at the end of this stayed with me like whoa, and my chest is getting a little tight thinking about it again. That may make some people want to X it off the list; think twice before you do. This is worth it.

Young & Beautiful by velvetoscar - M, 227.5k - Louis, to his horror, attends an elitist university in which the name Zayn Malik means something, Niall Horan doesn’t stop talking, there are pianos everywhere, and Harry Styles, only son of a drug-addled, clinically insane ex-rocker, has a perfect smile and empty eyes.

  • absolutely beautiful. so vivid i dreamt about it and then went and got a whole bunch of flowers and spent a while wandering around in fancy clothes just because it felt as though i was already living in the story so why not? And how could you not want to be part of this world that is complex and nuanced and subtle and gorgeous (which is not a way i expected to feel about a fic about rich kids btw but this fic makes them so full and the story so engaging that it happened and not only a little). Dimensional characters, wonderful tension, simmering slow burn, complexity, believable and complex psychological motivations,  theme parties, a falcon named cleopatrick, long nights, loaded touches, meaningful subplots, love, resilience. The only possible complaint is it made me want a champagne fountain, and that is not any sort of complaint at all. (lmk if you have a champagne fountain though, it’s been a few weeks and i am really still about wanting to live inside this fic, and also champagne)
Here's to BTS.

Here’s to Rap Monster, who has dreamed of this moment since his debut. Who used to perform as an underground artist as a student and who led his group so well despite his young age, despite of his uncertainty and fear for the future. Who makes sure to always be there to talk to his members about their feelings and thoughts. Who gave up entering a good university for his passion for music and has spent nearly every night writing lyrics and making songs even till the early morning, even while waiting to go up on stage and even when they are on the plane flying to their next event. Who always writes such thoughtful tangents on loving ourselves, trusting our youth and our passion, forgiving ourselves, and appreciating everything that we have in this world. Who shows us every side to him even though he’s scared of the vulnerability. Who never forgets to thank those around him even if he does not know them personally. Who always thinks of us wherever he goes and who is always rooting for us in whatever we do. Truly without him, BTS would not be the BTS that they are today. And I really hope that he knows that; I hope that receiving this award was able to take all his stresses and heavy thoughts from his shoulders. And even more, I hope that he has learned to love himself- flaws and all- just as we love him. Thank you for always showering us with love and thoughtfulness even if we may not deserve it, thank you for never forgetting about us. I hope that you never doubt yourself and your pure heart. You are more than deserving of this award.

Here’s to Jin. Who has shown us that hardwork and self-confidence is everything. He was accepted into Konkuk university, which is a prestigious Seoul university, before entering Bighit. He got into the film department with absolutely NO special admissions. He studied hard with plans as to become an actor but when Bighit changed his career path, Jin practiced every single day to become the amazing performer that he is today. I think of how he called his vocal trainer at 4am to show her that he has improved and I get so proud. Here’s to the oldest member of the group. Who constantly showers his members and his fans with love. Who was the one that cooked for the members, borrowing food and tools from his own family when BTS could not afford to, who made sure that every member became comfortable in Seoul when they first arrived at BigHit. Who is unbelievably intelligent as well. Who is always there to make us laugh with his silly gags and jokes, who is always there to make us feel loved. You worked hard to improve, you worked hard to be where you are right now. You deserve this.

Here’s to Suga. Who learned what it meant to be an adult at such a young age. Who used to perform for audiences of two and not have enough money to even buy ramen. Who used to listen to people constantly tell him that he would ruin his family. Who came up to Bighit as a trainee to become a hip hop artist and still worked hard and did not falter when that goal changed; learning to dance and what it means to be an idol, studying and working part time, fighting with suicidal thoughts, depression, self-hatred, a broken shoulder, and more. Who spends countless of sleepless nights working on music and lyrics, even on the nights that they are on vacation or when they just come back from a performance. Who truly showed us that though the start may be humble, the end will be prosperous. Thank you for teaching us what it means to live with passion, thank you for always working hard even if you don’t need to. You may not believe it, but this award is real and you deserve it. You’ve achieved all of your goals now! You’ve worked hard to be where you are. Thank you for showing us that hardwork and determination will never, ever betray us.

Here’s to J-Hope. Who was a street dancer and came into Bighit planning to become a vocalist and dancer. Who, when everyone doubted his skills, practiced even harder to become the well-rounded artist that he is now. Who taught himself how to rap and how to write lyrics despite having little experience in that area and is now one of the main creators behind bts’s music. Who practices every night, working on his mixtape and working on his dance skills, because he loves to do so. Who shows us what it means to live with hope and who never fails to show us happiness even in the most difficult of times. I hope you know that we are aware of how thoughtful you are, I hope you know that our love for you is eternal, and I hope you know that you too are more than deserving for this reward. And I just hope that you know that your existence to us gives us strength, that you do not always have to put yourself behind a happy facade and force yourself to hide your true emotions. We know the wide range of thoughts that you have running in your head and we absolutely care for and love all of them.

Here’s to Jimin. Who was a diligent student that studied dance so passionately. Who spends nearly every night in the practice room because he thinks “who am I to be resting right now?” I think of how you cried when people doubted your skills and I hope you know that those people are completely wrong. Your voice is something that touches our hearts and moves us and your skill in dance never fails to amaze us. You belong on stage. Here’s to Jimin. Who also showers his members with such adoration and affection, who is always there to comfort them in the darkest of times. Thank you for showing us what it means to be a good friend and brother. Thank you for showing us what it means to be kind. I hope you know that we love you just the way you are and that it’s okay to rest and to make mistakes. Please don’t ever doubt yourself.

Here’s to Taehyung. Who had to get the help of the Bighit staff to convince his family to let him begin training. Who wanted to be a farmer so that he could help his grandmother in Daegu. Who has been so strong throughout this difficult and painful year. Who still performed passionately for us even when he lost one of the most important woman in his life. Who put up a joyful front for so long even though he was actually in so much pain. Who constantly shows us new sides to his personality. Who constantly works hard in all that he does. Thank you for never failing to put a smile on our faces even when you were going through such a low point and thank you for teaching us what it means to be a filial child. Thank you for loving bangtan just as much as we do and thank you for always being so kind and bright. You share so much with us even when we aren’t deserving of it, Your stage presence and skill never fails to amaze me as well. We will remember your grandmother and we will always thank her for her blessings. You are more than deserving of this award. We know how wide the spectrum of your thoughts are and we know how intelligent you are- no matter what type of expression you might have on your face, your existence is always one that we will love.

Here’s to Jungkook. Who started training at such a young age, who was so shy and insecure about himself. Who left his family in Busan to come up to Seoul when he was just 14 years old. Who sacrificed the chance of making so many important memories for his dream, who sacrificed his youth for us. You gave up so many childhood memories- school romances, field days, school friends- to be on stage. Thank you. I think of how you cry when you think of the hardships that his members are going through and I thank you for trusting your brothers and your future, you deserve all the love in this world but please realize that you, also, have been through so many difficult times and have dealt with hardships. It’s okay to not be strong all the time. Thank you for showing us your growth and your endurance and passion. Thank you for showering us with love in so many ways  (whether it be through your detailed song covers or your concert ments), thank you for becoming the person that you are today. Please know that even when your thoughts are cluttered and messy, we are always here to support you and love you. You are more than deserving of this award, thank you for sharing your youth with us.

Lastly, here’s to BTS. This whole entire post of mine is incredibly cheesy but they really do mean a lot to me. Not only do they brighten my every day with their humor and antics but they each have taught me so many things and they constantly inspire me in all that they do. They have taught me to dream, to be diligent, to be loving, to be humble, and to trust my future. More importantly, they have taught me what it means to be young. So here’s to BTS and their first daesang. You deserve it more than anybody in this world and you each are deserving of all the love in this universe. Thank you for showing us that we never are alone and thank you for understanding us and showing us what it means to achieve your dreams and to live with passion. We hear your voice.

Here’s to the first of many more :)

Fanfiction Recs - KuroKen <3

Originally posted by itomorimachi

Hello friends! I promised I’d be back with more Fic Rec posts and here I am! :D

I read through a bunch of KuroKen fics this week, so here are some of my faves! <3


1. How Kuroo Found Kenma by suggestivescribe (37641 words)

“Oh my God,” Kuroo said, eyes growing wide. He slowly turned to fully face Oikawa, “I’m in love with Kenma.”

Oikawa brought his tea to his mouth. “Yeah,” he said, smiling through the steam rising in front of his face, “I know.”

2. Principles of Chemistry by freckleder (32419 words)

In which Kenma ends up being sorted into the wrong group and has to endure his new, exhausting lab partner for the next month.

3. Curiosity Kills by newamsterdam (41426 words) 

Kenma rescues a cat.

Later on, the cat saves him in return.

4. Saltwater Room by hipster-yams (60640 words)

Kenma had been perfectly happy just attending class half-asleep, secretly practicing cello, and occasionally getting his hand stuck in the vending machine but certain people refuse to let his quiet bliss go on and force him to think about everything he’s been trying to hide away in the depths of his mind for years.

5. Dial 119 by nimbus_cloud (13923 words)

Based on faiyuuhi’s HQ fireman!AU

The very kind and talented faiyuuhi commissioned me to write a Kuroo/Kenma get-together fic for her fireman!AU and how on earth could I possibly say no?

6. Cat Slippers at Midnight by jojotxt (5509 words)

Kuroo wears comfy slippers and makeup and Kenma is just a disgruntled librarian. Let him live.

7. There’s No Tutorial For This by sinata (21500 words)

“I think maybe Kuroo-senpai likes him, and that’s why it was hard for him to tell us.”
“On the fucking nose, Lev.”

Kuroo likes Kenma, but he can’t figure that out for himself. Kenma likes Kuroo, except he’s never had a crush on anyone before and has no idea how to cope. Hopefully they can both figure it out by the time their summer vacation ends.

“…I swear to god I’m going to die Bokuto, he’s so cute and I’m so fucked.”

8. Color In The Rain by esmaewrites (11865 words)

Kuroo is leaving for college. Surely that’s why Kenma furiously sketches him to the point of obsession. Why Kuroo catches himself staring at Kenma for perhaps too long. Or why both of them can’t shake the feeling that somewhere along the lines of their long friendship something got tangled along the way.
But that’s because Kuroo is leaving.
Right?

9. The Wedding Hall Shuffle by icespyders (17604 words)

Box steps for a waltz are easy, even if you’ve never done them before, even if you learned at a strangers’ wedding from another stranger, even if you’re not quite sure what you’re doing. But love? Love is something else, something without regimented one-two-three-four patterns, without rules.

Maybe it’s silly, but Kenma thinks he might be figuring it out.

10. Rough Draft by shions_heart (16186 words)

Kozume Kenma’s a novelist tasked to write a romance into his action-adventure stories in order to attract more readers, something he has no idea how to do. At a loss, he recruits his attractive next-door neighbor Kuroo Tetsurou to assist him in experiencing what a relationship feels like.

He should have anticipated the way things grow more complicated.


I hope that you like these as much as I did, and I’ll hopefully have more Fic Rec lists coming out soon!

Lesson 18: Pop Culture Witchcraft

By: Helper Faye

Live class date and time: 2/02/2017 at 8:30pm CST

Disclaimer: This will be about using pop culture in your witchcraft practice, not as a religion. I know we have some members who worship pop culture gods, I do not however and know very little about it, so I’m going to just talk about how to use pop culture in your actual practice. (manifestation.)

So what is pop culture magick?

Pop culture magick can take many forms: using the lyrics of a song as a spell, using sigils from tv shows or books, using tools from movies and so on. Pop cultures is, for the lot of us, part of our everyday lives, so it’s easy to incorporate into our magical lives as well. It can help with focusing or describing things. It can help to give power to a spell. You can use pop culture to drawn power from different characters or channel them. I’ll go into some more detail on that in a moment.

Why should I use Pop Culture in magick?

Well like most magickal practices, they come from cultural ties and where you’re from. In today’s modern day world, it’s very easy to use pop culture because frankly, it IS a part of your culture. Most people watch tv or get online multiple times everyday. It’s become a part of our life style and a witch can easily utilize that in his or her practice.

How do I incorporate Pop Culture into my Practice?

There are endless ways to use pop culture in your magickal practice. Like I said, I’m going to stay away from Pop Culture Deities as I know very little about them and stick mostly to how you can use pop culture to help in your witchcraft and your magickal practices.

We can start with manifestation.

Pop culture can help you focus and imagine things a lot easier because you have something to go by. This is especially helpful for those who are teaching themselves witchcraft or are solitary witches. For example, I’ve never seen a real life witch use a wand before because I am a solitary practitioner. However, I have seen the Harry Potter movies, so what I do is I use the wand movements from the books and movies in my own practice so I don’t feel like I’m just waving about a stick. Harry Potter can actually be used a lot in pop culture magick. If you’re having trouble connecting or “seeing” your astral familiar, you can use your wand or imagine your familiar as you would a patronus. Some people even call their familiars a patronus because it’s easier for them to connect with that term.

Another example is a shielding spell. For most people, they imagine a sphere surrounding them that bounces away negative energy or so on. For me, that’s really hard to imagine and form around myself. But I figured out an easy way to help myself envision a bubble around me. In the TV show Steven Universe, Steven has the ability to manifest a shield from his gem, but also a bubble around himself to keep him safe. If I’m needing shielding on a particular day. I sit down for a moment, I imagine that there is a gem in me that creates this bubble around me like Steven’s does, and I haven’t had any problems since manifesting a protective shield.

Spells and curses can be amped up with pop culture ties as well. Emoji spells and curses can be created and charged with reblogs. You can use spells or curses from popular TV shows like Charmed or Witches of Eastend that are already written for you. I like to use lyrics from songs and music as a spell in itself. For example if I’m wanting to bring myself power or ask the spirits or gods to guide me on my journey, I might sing the song “Steady as a Beating Drum” from the movie Pocahontas. If I’m doing a strength spell or a spell to keep people from hurting me, I’ll sing “stronger than you” from Steven Universe. Music has always been a really powerful tool in magick and can be used in substitute for a spell.

In addition to spells from pop culture, you can use words or phrases as well in your practice and spells. Again, Harry Potter is a good example. If you’re doing a spell to unlock information or unlock someone’s heart, you could use “Alohamora” in your spell. Also, if you work with Mantra’s, phrases from various movies and books can be used as mantras. A mantra I use a lot comes from the new Star Wars movie: Rogue One. Anytime I feel drained or I need energy or protection, I take a deep breath, close my eyes and say, “I am one with the force, the force is with me.” I repeat it until I feel like it’s helped. If you’re feeling particularly depressed or maybe you have someone who is sick. You can use the doctor who quote, “everybody lives, for once everybody lives.” Or “I have been and always will be an optimist. Hope of far flung hopes and dreamer of impossible dreams.” This can also be used in a spell to create happiness. Even using the phrase, “I can do zat” from Star Trek’s Chekov, may sound silly, but can give you the boost of confidence you need to complete something.

Sigils and symbols can also come from pop culture. If you believe in demons and want to keep them away from you, you can use the anti-demon possession tattoo from Supernatural as a sigil. Really any sigil or symbol from Supernatural can be used. Also if you read the book or watch the movies/tv show of the Shadowhunters series: the City of Bones, you can use the symbols from that as their various meanings. I’ll post an example of those in the reply to voice.

Pop culture magick is incredibly inclusive and can be done in so many ways.

Having a hard time making a book of shadows? Make or buy one that looks like the one from Charmed.

Can’t have an altar because you’re in the broomcloset or you just don’t have enough room? Make an altar in a video game.

If you have a hard time connecting with any tarot decks and meanings, you can easily make your own tarot cards with images of movie characters that help you remember meanings. I made my own pop culture tarot deck with artwork I found on Pinterest and Tumbr.

Tools can also be something you incorporate from pop culture. I myself have never really been able to find a wand I like or feel comfortable using until I went to Universal. I found a beautiful and very well made Sirius Black wand from Harry Potter. Its made out of fine material and has a heavy rod in the center of it to give it a good weight. I find that the metal in the center helps me channel my energy when casting a spell, and imagining I’m a witch from Harry Potter makes me feel less ridiculous waving it around. 😃`

that’s about it! I’ll open it up to questions now and here’s your homework!

Homework: Write a spell based off of a tv show, movie, or book that you really connect with.

BTS reaction to their S/O receiving hate

@canyounotbro said:  BTS’s reaction to their S/O being bullied by ARMY and receiving hate?? Thank you❤❤ I love your blog!

Hi love! Hope you enjoy, I love you too 💋


Kim Namjoon

Originally posted by rapnamu

Namjoon would want to deal with this as calmly as possible. After he found out about the hate his first priority would be to comfort you. He is very protective of the people he loves so he would want to make sure you are okay before doing anything else. Afterwards, he would talk to his managers asking what the best plan of action is. He would post a selca of you two with a caption about how important you are to him and how much you care for him and support him when he needs it the most. He would ask the fans to love you as much as he does because you play a big part in his health and happiness. 

Kim Seokjin

Originally posted by syubbie

In a lot of ways Seokjin’s reaction would be similar to Namjoon’s. He would want to make sure you are not hurt by the comments and would try and make you feel better if you are. He would talk to you about how he wants to deal with this issue but only after your approval would he go through with his plan. He would film a video and tell the fans that you are his rock and that because of your support he is able to keep performing so well and working so hard. He would ask the fans to stop the hate and to accept you into this family because you are a wonderful person that brings a lot of love and happiness to his life.

Min Yoongi

Originally posted by jeonbase

Yoongi would be so disappointed. He would not understand that the people that adore him so much could be so cruel to the one he adores most. He would shut himself off, not knowing how to deal with it personally. He would try his best to not let the words get to you and to hide you away from the hate. His brothers would want to help him write a statement but he is not one to go public with this as he wants to respect your privacy. Instead he would go to the studio and write his emotions out on paper. This would result in a new song being released unannounced and it having a title connected to you.  

Jung Hoseok

Originally posted by hohbi

At first, Hoseok would try and play the issue off as nothing important, not wanting you to worry about the hate. He would want you to laugh about it because in his opinion, those comments were nothing but lies told by jealous people. If it got too serious and he saw it was getting to you, he would not hesitate to step in. He would feel betrayed that the people he once called his fans could do this to someone he cares about. He would write an online statement talking about how important you are to him and how sad he is that his fans cannot understand how much he needs you and how happy you make him. 

Kim Taehyung

Originally posted by saintminyoongi

Taehyung would be so sad. He would blame it on himself that you were getting hate because they were his fans that could not stand him being in a relationship. He could not stop apologizing for the comments they made, thinking it was his fault. He would comfort you and show you just how special you are. He would want you to get off social media for a while so you could not see the cruel comments anymore. He would film a video talking about how badly he was hurt by all the hate you received and that he could not understand that his fans would not allow him to be happy after everything he has done for them.

Park Jimin

Originally posted by fullfangirling27

Jimin would have a similar reaction to Taehyung’s. He would be very sad that his fans could stoop so low and hurt the person he loves. He would comfort you and apologize for the hate, doing everything he can to show you just how beautiful you are to him. He would want to shield you away from the outside so no more comments could come your way. He would post a silly picture of you, wanting the fans to see you as the beautiful and fun person you truly are. He wishes they could accept you and learn to love you just as much as he does. He would tell them that he can only be happy if you are too.

Jeon Jeongguk

Originally posted by jengkook

Jeongguk would be kind of lost in the beginning. This would be his first serious relationship and he would not know how to handle the hate you started receiving because of it. He would go to his brothers for advice since they are older and have all been through the same thing before. Of course he would comfort you and try to cheer you up.He would ask you to pay no mind to the lies the fans told, to him you were perfect. He would post a short video compilation of all your moments together with a comment asking the fans to understand how you keep him happy and healthy and how much he cares for you and needs you.

 What is annoying me about Lúcio representation in Overwatch lately is this:

I saw it around here and on twitter non-brazilians cheering this small bit of Lore but for me it’s “Ah a stereotype”.

It’s just Blizzard sweeping under the rug they changed Lúcio nationality before the game released, because who knows? maybe they noticed they didn’t have any character that could represent Latin America.

I said it and I’ll say it again: He doesn’t represent Brazil. He doesn’t have any skins that ties to Brazil’s culture. BRAZIL’S CUTURE, NOT STEREOTYPES.

Yeah, soccer is a national sport, but you can’t tell a story about an entire nation through a sport. A sport that was brough here by a brazilan guy when he visited England back in 1800.

You simply cannot.

Then we have a bit of his background and his relationship with Symmetra that instead of cement who he is, actually make us look at his design with that feeling of “can’t relate”.

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

Pls share any thoughts you might have on Barry Allen (you always have such wonderful thoughts about every character and amazing grasps on their characters and poor Barry has been falling victim to mischaracterisation at every turn for the past eight years)

he calms me down. superman symbolizes the good people can achieve and be even in their darkest moments but flash makes me feel that people are already good, in a way? he’s like the exact opposite of an anxiety attack where everything looks scary but the silly kind of scary where you know it’s all just in your head. he’s the guy who doesn’t get fazed by something you thought was the end of the world so you catch yourself thinking “hey? hey. this isn’t bad. yeah this isn’t bad”

he brings so much positivity to the table and it’s not the annoying kind, it’s the “i can make the day better” in a very chill, matter-of-fact tone, which could so easily sidetrack his character and make him be a bit faster than life, yet he cares and will go out of his way to slow down just to show it. he’s so genuinely kind and that’s only multiplied by the flash family who are, to date, one of the most lovable families the dcu has had on such a big, extended-members basis

every flash is so laid back in their own way, but the reason i consider barry “my” flash is because i always found a hint of something more in his character. i can see the sacrifices he’s had to make in the way he carries himself but i can also see the crystal clear acknowledgement that he’s one of the very, very few people who hold the power to change the tides so monstrously. so he accepts it. he accepts that responsibility. he more than readily accepted it when he very first got his powers because he knew he was now the only person who could finally find his mother’s real killer and drop his dad’s charges; he accepted it when he tried to keep his mother from dying in the first place just to have the entire timeline completely turn around because of his actions. and instead of being okay with this new reality, instead of turning a blind eye which was so much easier to do than to actively try and do his duty (and possibly die in the process), he did what was right for literally everyone else except for him and lost her all over again so things could be the way they were

he’s so invested. it’s the only appropriate word i can use to describe him. you can see how much he inspired everyone who met him just by the legacy he left after his death, by how the other heroes talked about him in near reverence. the respect they had for all he had attained, how they held him as the gold standard for others to achieve (not just the justice league but the entire world). he’s had one of the most heroic deaths in Crisis on Infinite Earths, one of his last few words literally being “there is always hope” even as he was willingly getting torn apart to save everyone he loved and knew, and the people he’d never met or would likely ever meet. why? because he could. so he did

the reason i began by putting clark and barry side by side is because i consider clark to be one of the most human characters in the entire dcu and yet barry still has something more, however small the difference might be. he’s in every sense of the word a real hero and a genuinely good human being

anonymous asked:

I was salty about the changes in art styles in su until I read the tags in that post you reblogged. Thank you for educating me that they are VISUAL INTERPRETATIONS of the characters, rather than INACCURATE DRAWINGS of the characters. As an artist, I would feel awful if a lot of people criticized my art because they want it to look a different way than I had portrayed it. Sorry for being ignorant before. Yall work hard, and do an amazing job with the art on the show tbh

thanks! i mean i don’t work on the show, but i am pretty tired that nobody considers that boarders all have their own style and draw the characters in that style pretty darn consistently. i know who does “chibi steven”, who gives lapis what hair, and who makes peridot taller than others. none of that is a big deal to me - that’s how they interpret the characters, and there is no “on-model” version. it’s just your favorite vs least favorite boarder. 

it’s an annoying discussion, because it always turns into double standards: giving earlier seasons a free pass, comparing completely different boarders, or comparing it to shows that aren’t storyboard-driven. none of that is fair to me. i’ve even seen people - friends - get hate because they *gasp* had the audacity to show that “hey, this is kind of a thing with storyboard-driven shows, it’s not some scandalous, new ~crossing the line of animation quality :’( </3 ~ that su is doing”. 

people are allowed to not like ~inconsistency, even if intentional. i don’t care. but if animation “quality” matters that much to them, even when everything is intentional, even when each storyboarder is consistent in their own style, then, yknow… ok. keep raging on for another year, i hope it’s fun. 

i don’t say “get a life” often, but… geez. if they’re so focused on the fandom they either A) let a rage-bandwagon define how they feel B) focus all that time on something they legitimately hate, then… idk. i just feel bad for them. i’m not gonna answer asks about this topic anymore, though, whether positive or negative, cause here’s the thing: once you decide it is, every show is bad. literally anything can be accused of being shit, because this standard that you’ve decided is the “standard of quality” is defined by you. anyone can draw a line in the sand - i’ve done that with shows too. i just want people to be honest with themselves, on whether going out of their way to “prove” something su has always done - intentionally - suddenly makes it bad now is worth it or not. or whether they’re getting any enjoyment out of this at all. 

anonymous asked:

wonwoo as a boyfriend (bulleted post). thanks!

rip tumblr’s full of amazing posts about this but I hope you enjoy my attempt ♥


  • in short, Wonwoo would be a loving, warm boyfriend
  • like he’d make sure you know he loves you, whether it’s with small kisses or taking care of your well-being whenever he can
  • as in, he takes care of you whenever you’re sick, wants to comfort you when you’re upset and all that
  • also never misses the chance to walk you home when it’s late, or at the least to the bus/train/subway stop
  • okay he’d do that a lot even if it’s not late but you know
  • “I just want to know you get home safe.”
  • and if it has indeed been pretty late and he’s walked you just to a stop, he’d ask you to give him a call/message when you’ve gotten home
  • aka definitely the type to refuse to sleep until he knows you’re home safe
  • good morning and good night texts too!
  • wouldn’t say no to some couple items
  • like I feel like he wouldn’t necessarily opt for the overly obvious ones, but something small that you’d share that still shows that you’re dating
  • altho ok you might be able to talk him into couple outfits a couple of times if you really want to
  • perhaps he’d be into maybe a small piece of jewelry, like a necklace or a bracelet, or a phone case or something like that, just something that he could adore every now and then and think about you
  • and something that would let others know that you’re dating him, because he’s that level of possessive
  • otherwise I don’t think he’d be too possessive, but he does want people to know that you’re not available in that sense
  • while Wonwoo wouldn’t be into excessive PDA, he’d often hold your hand in public or have his arm around your waist/shoulders and wouldn’t hesitate to hug you, either
  • but kissing and anything more than that he’d feel is something between the two of you, so he wants to keep it private
  • (okay maybe quick pecks on the lips or cheek if one of you is taking the other to like a train station or something like that would slide, but otherwise he’d stick to the slightly more platonic displays of affection)
  • at home it’s very different, of course, and he’d really enjoy cuddling you and just holding you close in general
  • enjoys sleeping with you, with you cuddled up to him or holding your hand or spooning you
  • the big spoon would change from time to time; he enjoys both, although he probably would have a slight preference for being the big spoon
  • couch cuddles too
  • like imagine reading the same book with you sitting up against him or cuddled up to him
  • or him cuddled up to you really, depending on the day
  • and when you’ve gotten tired of asking “Are you done?” after every spread, you’d develop a small sign to give whenever you were done
  • maybe a small tap on the other one’s body or something
  • which would result in you absentmindedly tapping Wonwoo’s chest after 10 seconds into a new spread and him jokingly being all “Already? That was fast.”
  • also. so many lame jokes.
  • you know the type that are so lame that you only laugh because he ends up looking really self-satisfied or really amused by it himself
  • nothing wrong with it tho you love his jokes anyway
  • if his behavior towards Mingyu is anything to go by, chances are you’d occasionally get to hear, in the most loving way possible and with a soft smile, “You’re such an idiot, why do I love you again?”
  • but it’s always obvious he doesn’t actually question it
  • whenever you’re upset, whether it’s because of him or something else, he’d notice is pretty fast
  • and he’d quickly ask if it was something you wanted to talk about; if yes, you talk, and if not, he’d let it go and would just squeeze your hand or something
  • “If you ever do want to talk about it, I’m here.”
  • he reads a lot, and he’d like some of the more classic romantic things
  • like nothing overly cliche or grand, but flowers every now and then, candlelit dinners on special occasions and all that would be a thing
  • also anniversary presents!
  • he probably wouldn’t keep track of the smallest ones, so if you expect him to remember the day you first held hands or something like that… probably not
  • but the day you had your first date and the day you agreed to start your relationship would be pretty enmeshed in his memory and always written in his calendar
  • chances are you’d get a few random presents in general, too, but they’d be more the “I knew you wanted this and it was on sale so I got it”, or something silly that made him think of you and thus he had to buy it
  • and when the time comes he’d talk to your parents before proposing but that’s for later
  • would want to know your friends and for you to know his, because it means a lot to him that you get along with his friends and he with yours
  • dates with Wonwoo could be anything between just chilling at his or your place and going out for dinner or to an amusement park or heck the beach in Busan
  • would want you to feel as comfortable as possible at all times, but also encourages you to get a lil out of your comfort zone at times, in a good way
  • in general he’d really enjoy doing things together
  • like if he had to go somewhere, you’d be his first choice to ask to go with him, and he would always suggest to join you in cooking, cleaning etc
  • he’d also enjoy just talking 
  • he’d enjoy it a lot, really, whether it’s books, movies or for example current events that you’re discussing
  • just being able to voice his opinions and hearing yours, learning new things about the world and you is what he enjoys
  • Wonwoo would really value your opinion, at all times, and always wants to take it into account
  • for example, if he’s done something himself, such as written something or cooked something by himself for the two of you, he’d always want to know your opinion (and be nervous while waiting for it)
  • like he’d try to appear all calm and collected, kinda fiddling with his fingers while he waits for you to be done reading/eating/etc, but in reality his heart’s beating faster than normal and he’s got a hopeful smile trying to make its way to his lips
  • honestly just imagine the shyest “So, how is it?” coming from him in such a soft voice and you can hear the smile in it
  • and similarly he’d always make sure to give you small compliments that come from his heart, whether it’s “You look great” with a small smile, or telling you how delicious the food you’ve made is
  • lots of deep convos and pillow talks and holding hands while laying in bed
  • relationships are rarely just a joyride, and yours wouldn’t be an exception, really
  • you wouldn’t fight for the sake of fighting tho
  • it’s more like you’d have arguments whenever there’s been miscommunication/you haven’t understood each other or you feel like he’s being too distant etc
  • or honestly just if one of you has done something the other one doesn’t like, whether it’s big or small
  • naturally bigger things lead to bigger arguments, but it would rarely if ever blow out of proportions
  • most of the time you’d work things out pretty fast, because he hates it when there’s conflict between the two of you, and you wouldn’t exactly enjoy it either
  • and whenever you’ve made up, he’d cup your cheeks, rub them a little with his thumbs and smile at you before giving you a slow, soft kiss before quietly asking if you’re good again
  • when you presumably smile and nod and possibly hug him, he gets that happy, wide smile that makes his nose crunch
  • now we get to the Rated part
  • because sex
  • honestly with him it could be anything
  • like one night it might be very slow and sweet and another night it might be needy and on the kinkier side (within your comfort zone of course)
  • he’d want to be pretty open about sex-related things with you
  • as in, he wants to know what you like and don’t like, just like he wants you to know what he likes and doesn’t like
  • turn-ons and turn-offs and all that
  • a big fan of kissing during sex; even if the position makes it difficult, he’d steal a few quick ones
  • I feel like he’d be into some lowkey bondage, which he’d definitely suggest as long as you’re comfortable with it
  • it wouldn’t even matter if it’s on him or you, he’d still love it
  • would also have a huge thing for your moans, which is one of the reasons he loves making you feel good, besides the fact that he loves you
  • as for where you have sex, he’d essentially prefer the bedroom, but would rarely say no if you get needy in the car for example, or if you as much as suggest having fun in the living room, shower etc
  • while he doesn’t like PDA that much, semi-public sex would be a story of its own; he’d find it exciting
  • I leave that to your imagination
  • not that it would be a frequent occurrence, really
  • morning sex!!
  • he’d definitely love the slowness, intimacy and sensitivity
  • I feel like there wouldn’t be a very excessive amount of sex, but whenever you’re both in the mood or just decide to go for it, it would be some very good stuff
  • but he’d be very loving in bed, too, and even if it happens to be a needy session with one of you lightly tied up or something, you’d feel safe and loved, which would only make it all so much better
  • a big note: in case you’re asexual or just don’t particularly enjoy sex, he would be very understanding and pretty happy with just kissing and cuddling and talking and just about everything else that you are comfortable with
  • all in all Wonwoo would honestly be a very considerate, loving boyfriend who always wants you to feel good about yourself and know that he loves you more than anything else

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BTS Reaction To Finding Your BTS Meme Account

This request has been in my inbox for so long…I hope you guys enjoy

*gifs are not mine* requested by anon


Seokjin: One day you were over at the dorms and you were hanging out with Jin because he finally had a free day. You left your phone unlocked, when you hurried to the bathroom. As you finished your business, you heard Jin shriek. Your heart jumped and you ran to where he was, to see him holding your phone. “Why do you have this? Is this yours? You make fun of me?!” You roll your eyes and tell him to calm down. He’d be a little upset to know you posted pictures of him not looking his best.

Originally posted by theseoks

Yoongi: yoongi was trolling Twitter one night, when he came across a particular account that caught his attention. He noticed that some of the memes created were actual situations he had gone through with you. He’d immediately call you. “Y\N? Is this your account (Y\T\N)? It seems like they know so much about things that were supposed to be private.” You’d say nothing. he’d go on about how disappointed he was in you because you couldn’t even make then funny enough. You guys argue throughout the whole phone call trying to determine if you were actually funny.

Originally posted by sugagifs

Hoseok: He noticed that sometimes when you got together, you’d be secretly doing things on your phone. He didn’t want to accuse you of cheating, so he waited until you left your phone unattended, which was rare. The opportunity finally presented itself and he snatched the phone going through your Instagram only to find a meme account. When you came out to find him holding your phone, you’d rush to get it, but he was too quick. “So you like to post memes about me? That’s not very nice (y\n).” He wouldn’t be upset because most of them were funny and entertaining.

Originally posted by jhope-ah

Namjoon: Whenever you were with Namjoon, there were never any dull moments. He constantly had you laughing because of what he’s say and do, which led you to create a meme account. He noticed that every time something embarrassing or funny happened, you scramble something down in your phone. He’d ask what you were doing and you said, “ Writing this down for my BTS meme account.” He’d feel betrayed because his own girlfriend wants to make fun of him behind his back.”How could you?! Are you not woman enough to do it to my face?” Dramatic af. He’d get over it, eventually.

Originally posted by leojuseyo

Jimin: To be fair, you told Jimin you had a BTS meme account but he didn’t believe you, so you didn’t bring it up again until the traitor, Jin, let Jimin know again. Some of the memes included Jimin’s small hands and he blushed in embarrassment. “Yah! You think my hands are small too?!” You’d cover his face in kisses, letting him know you don’t care that his hands are small because that’s what makes him even more adorable. He’d still be a little salty, but if it doesn’t change your opinion about it, he’s okay with you having the account.

Originally posted by park-jimizzle

Taehyung: Tae saw your account but he didn’t know that it belonged to you. Everyday he’d check to see what new memes you posted so he could show the boys. He had liked one in particular, so he had screenshot the meme and showed you. “Babe look at this. Isn’t this person funny,” he says laughing. You see the picture and crack up laughing. “Glad to know you think I’m funny.” Confusion spread across his face. “Wait. This is your account? Why didn’t you tell me you had this?!” You shrug and he pulls you into a hug. “You love me so much you have to post about me everyday.”

Originally posted by suga-com

Jungkook: He knew you had a meme account and he would purposely make derp faces, shooked faces, just so you could have something new for your account. When he noticed how happy you got when people liked your posts, he’d confess and tell you he did those faces for you. “What! You knew I had a meme account this whole time?!” You would hug him and thank him, causing him to get hella cocky. When asked in interviews why he makes those silly faces, he says it’s for his favorite meme account.

Originally posted by bangtan

Request are always open so send some in guys.

anonymous asked:

any fics where Jily is being shipped by family/friends/fans/ECT.

Here are a bunch, and I think we haven’t recommended the first one before!

Title: Snap Me That
Author: wearingaberetinparis
Rating: Not rated
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: ~
Summary: University AU

Title: Shipped by the Public
Author: doopilydo
Rating: Not rated
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: ~
Summary: Prince James and Princess Lily are shipped hardcore by the people. They’ve never met. The strength of the will of the public brings them together. 

Title: Undercover
Author: thequibblah
Rating: K
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 2,861
Summary: “Who said we had to be subtle? It’s not like either of us works for MI6.” “You won’t fool me into snapping into spy mode by bringing it up!” “Are you asking me to step up my game?” “Prick,” Lily says through gritted teeth. “Challenge accepted.” Muggle spies-posing-as-high-school-teachers AU. 

Title: Untitled
Author: thornfield13713
Rating: Not rated
Genre(s): Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: ~
Summary: It is a truth universally acknowledged that Professor Evans and Professor Potter are the one true OTP of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. However little known the feelings or views of the professors may be to the student body of Hogwarts at large, this truth is so well fixed in the minds of their students that it is considered almost sacrilegious to ship either Professor Evans or Professor Potter with anyone but each other.

Title: Blind Dating
Author: MPPmaraudergirl
Rating: T
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: ~16,000
Summary: Jily Muggle AU: After being set up on a blind date neither agreed to, Lily and James decide that fake dating and staging a horrendous breakup would be the perfect pay-back for their friends’ scheme. But after a while, who can say what’s real and what’s fake?

Title: Untitled
Author: fetchalgernon
Rating: K
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count:~
Summary:“our asshole mutual friends set us up on a blind date and didn’t tell us it was a blind date, so instead of getting to know each other we spent the entire ‘date’ scheming against them and decided an awesome way to get back at them would be to pretend to date and then have a horrendous breakup but now that we’re two months into this charade we’re not sure what’s real and what’s fake anymore” AU

Title: Untitled
Author:
thejilyship
Rating:
Unrated
Genre(s):
Romance, Humour
Chapters:
1
Word Count:
~
Summary:
19. Our Grandmother’s are trying to set us up AU

Title: Christmas Lights
Author:
potting-lilies
Rating:
Not rated
Genre(s):
Romance, Humour
Chapters:
1
Word Count:
~
Summary:
Got stuck on the roof putting up Christmas lights AU

Title: Meeting the Marauders 
Author: PoppyPotter
Rating: T
Genre(s): Romance
Chapters: 10
Word Count: 49,864
Summary: Or how Mr Evans was forced to spend Christmas with four raving lunatics, had his life turned upside down and was forced to make his precious daughter go on a date.

Title: Give Me Some Time
Author: takeharryandgo
Rating: Not rated
Genre(s): Romance, Humour, Muggle AU, Modern AU
Chapters: 1
Word Count: ~
Summary: Modern AU. I got the idea from one of those posts with multiple AU prompts–hope you enjoy my version of rockstar/groupie (+coffee shop ;))

Title: A Dying Wish
Author: pupparoux
Rating: T
Genre(s): Romance
Chapters: 15
Word Count: 47,781
Summary: Lily Evan’s grandmother wants only one thing from Lily before she dies…she wants to meet Lily’s boyfriend. So Lily rises to the occasion, and who does she bring? Why none other than our favorite… James Potter.

Title: Arm Candy
Author:
Chie (Chierafied)
Rating:
T
Genre(s):
Celebrity AU, Muggle AU, Humour
Chapters:
1
Word Count:
997
Summary:
“I really don’t need a date,” Lily had protested to her agent from the start, biting out the words from between her gritted teeth. “It’s the twenty-first century. My value should be determined by my performance, not by my ability to land a man.”  But Mary, stubborn as she was, had not come around. “You’re getting an award, Lily, you can’t well go to the ceremony alone.”

Title: #Jily
Author: Chie (Chierafied)
Rating: T
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 2,991
Summary: Twitter seemed awash with the hashtag Jily. Lily blinked at in confusion, until she realised it was one of those silly couple monikers people had bestowed on her and Potter. …Though there was a small dissenting crowd following a tweet from Potter’s bandmate Sirius Black: Jily? Hah! More like LAMES.

Title: Key Limes
Author: cgner
Rating: T
Genre(s): Romance, Humour
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 24,695
Summary: In which Academy Award winner Lily Evans discovers the periphery of internet fandom and the existence of Prince James’s gold star system.

Title: Upside Down
Author:
Bob_The_Other_Zombie
Rating:
T
Genre(s):
Romance, Drama
Chapters:
1
Word Count:
6,722
Summary:
Lily’s pop star career seems to be hitting a rut, until her publicity team comes up with the perfect plan- a fake relationship with James Potter, frontman of the hot new boyband The Marauders. Lily’s less than enthused- last time she and James were in the same room together, there was vomit involved, all over her nicest pair of shoes. After a few dates, however, lines begin to blur, and suddenly things between them don’t seem to be just PR anymore…

Title: Sovereign Affairs
Author: BookWorm77071  
Rating: T
Genre(s): Family, Romance
Chapters: 20
Word Count: 57,543
Summary: Modern Jily AU for the Jily Royalty Fest. Lily is the illegitimate sister of Duke Sirius and Prince Regulus, and is summoned to the Slytherin Palace to take her place by Prince Orion on his deathbed. With the help of her new friends, Lily learns what it means to be a Princess, and just what it is that makes a family.

shooshoo96  asked:

Hello~☆first of all may I say that I really love your blog~♡can I ask for hcs for chūya, aku & dazais reactions upon knowing that their s/o is a popular gaming youtuber (like markiplier & jacksepticeye) .. thank you (=^-ω-^=)


[Chuuya]

• He stumbles across your YouTube channel after deciding to look up a few of your games he knows you’ve been playing for a while just so he can know what the hell you’re talking about and actually do something other than nod his head. At first he thinks it’s just one cute video of you fangirling over your game and then he checks that subscriber number and chokes on his wine.

• He spends the next two hours watching every single one of your videos with the cheesiest smile on his face. Not to mention the bottle of wine he goes through but still he can’t believe how damn charismatic and funny you are on top of looking absolutely adorable.  All of a sudden things start adding up like how you afford all the gifts you spoil him with—not that he ever cared—but now he’s a bit upset you never told him about this.

• Instead of bringing it up the next day he waits for a few days when you’re out and converts a spare room into a gaming and filming room. There’s a brand new Mac waiting for you for editing purposes and an upgraded gaming desktop as well as professional lighting and a few things he bought that matched your original filming aesthetic.  He does give you a little shit for not telling him how great you are on camera and acts hurt until you give him the kisses he wants.

• Chuuya usually watches from behind the scenes and doesn’t want to be on camera with you solely because of his position in the mafia, but if you pout for .002 seconds he’ll agree to voice over some horror game play through videos. Of course if you don’t warn him he ends up cussing a lot and his reactions are pure amusement and hilarity. He’ll try and keep his composure but after he gets done with the voice over he tackles you onto the bed and tickles you mercilessly for payback.

[Dazai]

• Got curious and ended up snooping through your computer room when he was ditching work and decided to come surprise you only to find you out of the house. Boredom and Dazai-ness got the best of him so he strolled to your computer hoping to ~maybe~ find something he could tease you for (innocently of course) and viola your newest video edit popped up after he input your password.

• Immediately Dazai is scouring your entire YouTube page with a fine-toothed comb. He is absolutely ecstatic about this hidden part of your life that he accidently stumbled upon; it was on the internet so of course it was an accident! The part of you that shines through in your videos makes his heart swell up, and he mentally pats himself on the back for finding such an intriguing person to be with. He saves a few of his favorite videos on his phone for when he feels lonely and ends up scrolling through the comments until you get home.

• If there happen to be any negative, sexist, derogatory, or perverted comments posted he writes down each of their names and secretly finds them through their IP address (if they live within driving distance) and mafia Dazai gives them a little visit and lesson on internet etiquette. They may end up a bit bruised, but they all end up scared and pissing themselves as he flounces off with a warning smirk never to comment on your channel in such a way again.

• The moment you get home Dazai dramatically falls to your feet with big, fake crocodile tears asking why you hid such a thing from him and never invited him to your show or mentioned him by name and how could he possibly go on knowing his lover was such a mega-star and keeping it from him. After his dramatics and a few reassuring kisses from you, Dazai accepts your apology and asks very sweetly if you would give him the honor of being a guest on your channel even if it’s something silly like a couples challenge.

[Akutagawa]

• Catches one of the faceless guards roaming the Port Mafia HQ watching a video on his phone. He pays no attention until he hears a very familiar laugh and practically slams the poor soul through the wall because why the hell would he have a video of your laugh on his phone? The video is shaky (because he’s literally strangling the man) but there you are bubbly and sarcastic while playing through one of your many games with that damn headset you spent so much money on. Akutagawa drops the guard and stalks off to find you without saying a word.

• Akutagawa doesn’t entirely get what exactly he saw but with a quick search he realizes there are a ton of videos of you and a ton of people following, commenting, and subscribing to your channel. It more than irks him that you’d been leading this double life under his nose and he’s pretty snappy the minute he finds you and confronts you. Once you explain to him what exactly is you’re doing and that he was never interested in your games to begin with so why tell him about the channel he feels pretty stupid, but of course won’t admit it. Instead he clips at you not to hide anything from him again then seals it with a very deep kiss.

• Over the next few weeks Akutagawa finds himself enthralled in watching you record the game-play to voice over and even laughs at your commentary especially when you surprise die or get scared shitless by a random enemy popping up out of seemingly nowhere. While Akutagawa can enjoy a good horror game he is terrible at it and refuses to play, but he likes having you sit on his lap while you record your videos.

• Akutagawa watches your weekly uploads religiously and usually when he’s bored at work and missing your voice or your smile. During the days that you edit Akutagawa lays on the couch near the computer and reads or naps even if you’re up till three am editing because he doesn’t want to feel that separation again, even if that means a few neck cramps from sleeping awkwardly on a pillow.

Lost Dog - Trevor Van Riemsdyk

Originally posted by so-hockey-eh

Notes: Hi again friends! Here’s a requested Trevor Van Riemsdyk, but I wasn’t given a specific plot so if the requestee doesn’t like it, just shoot me a message and I can write a new one. Thanks for the requests guys!! Also I feel like I’m spelling Riemsdyk wrong even tho I’m not and its screwing me up.

Mentions: James Van Riemsdyk

Warnings: None!

Requested: Yes | No

Up Next: Jamie Benn

Teaser: “Fine, if we find him and you move out, I get joint custody.” You looked at Trevor, confusion evident on your face, “You don’t even like him.” “I still want joint custody because I helped try and find him.”

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hithering  asked:

Joy do you have any advice on how to make yourself sit down and write? (I couldn't find a post you might have made about it, but if you made one sorry for asking!) I have five different things outlined and fiddled with, and a fair few projects that got started and died around 20k words. I can't seem to keep myself interested or focused, and I have a very hard time forming habits enough to write daily. Any advice?

I go through this a lot, either due to mental health stuff (I can literally be screaming internally at myself to do something and my brain just…doesn’t do the thing, like I’m fully capable of it but the message gets lost somewhere between thought and action) and also just plain creative burnt out.

The latter is easier to remedy because I allow myself to rest and let my brain reset by doing something like reading a book, playing a game or visiting somewhere interesting.

The former…not so much.

The thing that helps me the most when I am well and truly struggling to write (so most of the latter half of 2016) is to set myself realistic goals. While some days I can churn out a 5000 word chapter, there are other days when I will struggle to write 5. And on those days five whole words can seem like a god damn epic.

So what I do now is I set myself a goal, every day, of achieving 500 words. 

It doesn’t have to be a good 500 words, or even words that end up in my book, just so long as it is 500 words. Even if you never use them, they still count towards the developmental process of your manuscript. It’s engaging your brain and getting you into the mindset you need to be in in order to turn out the work you want to finish. One of my favorite exercises which I’ve talked about before, is the cafe exercise.

If a story stalls or I start to lose my way with a character, I take them out of their world, and drop them into a cafe somewhere in the world. Doesn’t have to be anywhere interesting, London, Paris, the Starbucks two streets away where the tea tastes like pond swill but the wifi is free*. I let them people watch, I let their senses meander through new experiences, the smell of coffee, the copper tang of their change lingering on their fingers from the coins, the sharpness of their tea, the mellowness of the flowers behind them, the way the light makes things look like they’re not quite real, the sound of traffic, the ugly sweater that person is wearing, the way they feel right then and now. I let them have silly conversations. I do all the inane little things with them that humans enjoy doing without the stress of over arcing plot (and we wonder why there’s so many coffee shop AUs) and just generally…gives you a break from your own world, while still letting you develop your characters and practice writing. And that’s the main thing.

And you do need to be in a habit of writing every day. It’s a skill that needs to be used every day, and it has to become habit otherwise it withers and dies. Great plot was never completed by talent alone. Even Stephen King, master of writing entire novels in mere days, had a dry spell where he thought he’d never write again.

It doesn’t have to be prolific and it doesn’t have to be profound.  The wheel is already invented. Fire is discovered. You’re not trying to be original (I hate that word) what you are in fact trying to be is interesting. You are trying to engage and light up the parts of the human brain that says “hey do you know what would be cool, if the wheel was on fire.”

And if the 500 words isn’t going to be achievable, well, I allow myself 250. Because any progress is better than none, and tomorrow I will try again.

(*If you suffer like I do at the mercy of your own inability to focus, fucking turn wifi off. Just, don’t let yourself get bogged down by shiny. Don’t start writing then go “oh actually I should look that up”. Make a mark in your document to go back to it later during a rewrite and insert the relevant researched info afterwards, it doesn’t fucking matter on the first write, you’re just trying to tell yourself the story and get the lay of the land right now, you can fill in the interesting tourist info spots after we’re sure we’re not about to walk off the edge of a cliff.)

What it’s like to be autistic

I posted this on reddit in reply to someone asking about what it’s like to be on the spectrum. It ended up being really long so I thought I’d repost it here just for sharing’s sake. Slightly edited for formatting, but otherwise untouched.  Also if this actually ends up getting reblogged, this post is SFW but be warned that my Tumblr is often NSFW and I don’t tag shit, so remember that if you get curious and look at other posts.

As always, individual experiences will vary, and no two autistic people have the same life experiences or symptom expression. These are my own.

— (begin post) —

Different person here, but still on the spectrum (aspergers).

For me, in description rather than just declaration of the actual diagnosis, it’s many things.

It’s having no social intuition and relying on consciously analyzing social situations in order to navigate them. Constantly being unsure if you’re saying the right thing, or if you understood what the other person was saying if they were being figurative. Having extreme issues telling the difference between what’s literal and what’s a joke. Accidentally offending people by saying something you thought there was nothing wrong with, but was actually a major social faux pas. Rarely having the right words to say when you’re supposed to be speaking, and always having too much to say about things that it is obvious that nobody else seems to care about. Also, it is difficult to learn and understand and continually interpret appropriately when you’re socially expected to be dishonest. Until countless bad experiences broke me of it, I assumed the average person was far more honest than they actually were - it took until my early 20s (I’m 25 now) to start to clue in to the fact that neurotypicals lie constantly, and that not only is this normal, it’s expected. I had always been someone who overshared and avoided mistruths (it’s often said that aspies actively seek and expect truths and facts), and it took a conscious effort to break myself of this social incongruity. I still overshare more than a normal person, to a great degree.

It’s being unable to natively read body language. Imagine that you went to Mexico with Spanish as a second language, and only started to learn Spanish as an adult. Maybe you even got pretty good at Spanish, but yours is still not perfect. It’s not natural to you, it always seems to take a second longer for you to “get it” compared to native speakers, and many things which are commonplace conversation to any native speaker always seem to get lost on you, no matter how many times you hear it. You’ll always be missing something. For me, it’s quite like that with body language - it’s artificial and disconnected, it doesn’t come naturally, and it’s an intentional effort to really try to both convey yourself in a socially expected fashion and an active attempt to understand others’ body language beyond the most basic of examples. Body language feels like a second language to me.

It’s having difficulties processing and tolerating environmental stimulation and sensory input (especially sound, in my case). Some things that don’t bother anyone else will bother the fuck out of me, especially particularly strong or strange bad smells, or overstimulating lights or color patterns, or extremely loud but varied noise (loud consistent noise doesn’t bother me, but if it’s varied it drives me insane - this is part of why crowds are awful), or particularly unusual textures and tastes (I’m the pickiest eater I know because I get extremely strong negative reactions to bad textures and tastes in my mouth, to the point where I will gag if I try to force myself to eat something that’s very unpleasant). Touch can be pretty bad too - “weird” feeling objects, especially slimy/wet/cold things, feel incredibly awkward and unpleasant to touch or be in contact with most of the time (this is probably why I waste way too much water doing the dishes, in addition to my perfectionist nature and germophobia/aversion to uncleanliness).

Processing sound can be especially difficult - I am not hard of hearing, but I genuinely thought that I was before I learned of my condition. I can hear extremely quiet things just fine, but I have great difficulty discerning details when there are many noises in contest, which leads to me having to ask people to repeat themselves constantly in mixed (and especially noisy) environments.

Eye contact. Important enough that it deserves its own subheading separate from body language. Simply put, it doesn’t come naturally. I will often have entire conversations with people without ever looking at them, and unless I am consciously forcing myself to make eye contact, if I ever speak about something at length I will inevitably avert my eyes in some random direction without ever thinking about why I’m doing so, or even noticing that I’ve done so. Further, direct eye contact induces a lot of anxiety, stress, and unpleasantness - particularly with people that I am unfamiliar with or not on friendly terms with, eye contact can be downright painful.

Speaking of anxiety, social anxiety is very often comorbid with the autism spectrum. And it’s awful. It’s terrifying to interact with new people with no preexisting social context, and still kind of scary when there is a social context. I get tremors when I have to make phone calls or write important emails, I tap my feet and pace around with my phone in hand like an idiot walking aimlessly. I briefly worked as a cashier at a dollar store, and quit very quickly because I was having panic attacks and nearly vomiting just from having to make constant direct social interactions with a steady flow of strangers with a performance expectation (handling money accurately while being watched). And it’s more than just communication - this sounds silly, but I literally cannot dance in front of other people - like, in private it looks silly but I can *technically* do it, but in front of other people, I will freeze up and be unable to do anything if I try, as if I am paralyzed or frozen in place, minus nervous fidgeting or twitching. And in general SA is so pronounced that it could have its own entire post dedicated to it.

On the note of OCD that you asked, there exists some small overlap sometimes, and I definitely experience on a mild level the neurotic paranoia and compulsive feelings that are commonly associated with it, but I would not say that I have OCD, just some symptom overlap.

And there’s so much more to it (this is probably ~half? of the things? ish?), but I’m getting to an awfully long post already (far longer than I expected to end up writing), and I’d rather not make people read even more wall of text. I hope this helps feed your curiosity.

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I probably should have rewritten this for tumblr, but I didn’t want to put in the effort to reassemble it. I think it mostly stands up without major changes anyway. Just wanted to share.

-Zach

Isak and Even x international women’s day - one shot by Nate

I had planned to post this on international women’s day a few days ago but I didn’t have the time to finish it due to school! But here it is anyways! I hope you guys like it!  💙and doesn’t drill me on my dialogue work because that’s a sore spot for me and I know I have a lot of improvements to do.

It was a late Wednesday evening and Isak and Even had just got back home to Isaks place. It was international women’s day and Even had been the one that had tried to convince Isak the importance of participation for weeks in advanced. Even had always been reading about equal rights and it was often something he discussed many times with his mom during family dinners. Isak on the other hand had previously really not cared at all. Not until recently when he briefly had searched up information about equal rights since Sana had brought the discussion to the table during one of their biology study sessions a few weeks before international women’s day. Since then, Isak had spent loads of his free time googling about the issue of feminism at the same time as he started following new accounts on Instagram that frequently posted about it. The more research Isak did, the more he felt like he just couldn’t ignore the issues anymore. So when Even had asked Isak if he was interested to participate in international women’s day for the gazillion time, Isak was more than ecstatic to finally come around and say yes. After all, despite the fact that Isak had been reading up a lot about it he was still always willing to learn even more so what day wasn’t more perfect for learning all about women’s rights and feminism than on international women’s day?

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