i hope it will be online soon

sweetpetsomine  asked:

Hi, I'm very disturbed with everything that has been happening to you, I'm very sorry that you are going through this and I hope it stops as soon as possible... I'm wondering, isn't it the right time to report them to the police? What they are doing to you it's a crime, I believe? Not only are they using your content, but also harassing you, even if it doesn't work as expected, at least you'll scare them, that's what they deserve, to be honest. Best regards. โค๏ธ

Thank you! It’s very difficult to report things online like this to the authorities but it would also just be a hassle I wouldn’t want to deal with. @-@ I’m not a fan of dealing with legality issues. I’m going to hope that Facebook does something about it with the influx of reports they must be getting on these individuals, and considering everything is in public view, it’s blatant to see they are being nasty and aggressive towards me and my dogs personally. It probably won’t do any good but I can hope! Having to delete comments and ban people from my page isn’t a massive deal, it’s just troubling and upsetting.

But luckily my photography page as gotten 43 new Likes since these drama started, so they’re not doing a very good job at hurting my page at all. :)

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Otayuri saved me💦🙏🙏

Also hey guys, lol
I’ll be selling this as a print at my next cons in June! Come find me at Colossalcon, A-kon and Anime Mid-Atlantic! Hope to see you all soon~

Also for those wondering about my online store… I’ve been so busy with life and work that I havent found time to focus on packing and shipping merch! So by the end of June/beginning of July I will be re-opening my tictail for you guys. Thank you guys again for your love and support

I'm so much happier ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š now that I'm dead๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ’€. Technically ๐Ÿค”missing๐Ÿ•ต. Soon to be presumed dead๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ’€. Gone๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿป. And my lazy ๐Ÿ’ค lying ๐Ÿ˜ˆ shitting ๐Ÿ’ฉ oblivious ๐Ÿ™„husband ๐Ÿ’‘ will go to prison ๐Ÿš“ for my murder ๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช. Nick Dunne took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money๐Ÿ’ฐ. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. That's murder๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช. Let the punishment fit the crime. To fake a convincing murder ๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช you have to have discipline๐Ÿ’ช. You befriend a local idiot๐Ÿ’. Harvest the details ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ“ of her hundrum life and cram her with stories ๐Ÿ“š about your husband's ๐Ÿ’‘ violent temper ๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก. Secretly create some money ๐Ÿ’ฐ troubles: credit cards ๐Ÿ’ณ, perhaps online gambling๐Ÿ’ป♠๏ธ♣๏ธ♥๏ธ♦๏ธ. With the help of the unwitting๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป, bump upโฌ†๏ธโฌ†๏ธ your life insurance๐Ÿ’ต. Purchase getaway car๐Ÿš˜. Craigslist. Generic. Cheap. Pay cash๐Ÿ’ต. You need to package ๐ŸŽ yourself so that people will truly mourn ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ your loss. And America ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธ loves ♥๏ธ pregnant ๐Ÿ‘ถwomen ๐Ÿšบ. As if it's so hard to spread your legs. You know what's hard? Faking a pregnancy ๐Ÿ‘ถ. First, drain your toilet๐Ÿšฝ. Invite pregnant ๐Ÿ‘ถ idiot ๐Ÿ’ into your home ๐Ÿ  and ply her with lemonade ๐Ÿ‹๐Ÿ‹๐Ÿ‹. Steal ๐Ÿค— pregnant ๐Ÿ‘ถ idiot's ๐Ÿ’ urine ๐Ÿšฝ. Voilà! ๐ŸŽ‰ A pregnany is now part of your legal medical record ๐Ÿ—ƒ. Happy Aniversary๐Ÿ’‘๐ŸŽ‰. Wait for your clueless โ” husband ๐Ÿ’‘ to start his day ๐Ÿ“†. Off he goes... ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿป and the clock is ticking โฑ. Meticulously stage ๐ŸŽญ your crime scene ๐Ÿ•ต with just enough mistakes to raise the specter of doubt ๐Ÿค”. You need to bleed ๐Ÿ’‰. A lot๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ’‰. A lot, a lot๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ’‰. The head wound ๐Ÿค• kind of bleed ๐Ÿ’‰. A crime scene ๐Ÿ•ต kind of bleed ๐Ÿ’‰. You need to clean; poorly๐Ÿ‘Ž, like he ๐Ÿ’‘ would. Clean and bleed ๐Ÿ’‰, bleed ๐Ÿ’‰ and clean. And leave a Little something behind: a fire ๐Ÿ”ฅin July๐Ÿ“†? And because you're you๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿผ, you don't ๐Ÿšซ stop there. You need a diary ๐Ÿ“’. Minimum three hundred 3๏ธโƒฃ0๏ธโƒฃ0๏ธโƒฃ entries ๐Ÿ“ on the Nick and Amy ๐Ÿ’‘ story ๐Ÿ’ญ. Start with the fairy-tale early days: those are true, and they're crucial. You want Nick and Amy to be likable๐Ÿ’–. After that, you invent. The spending๐Ÿ’ธ, the abuse๐Ÿ‘Š๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ฅ, the fear๐Ÿ˜ฑ, the threat of violence๐Ÿ”ช. And Nick thought he was the writer๐Ÿ“... burn it๐Ÿ”ฅ, just the right amount. Make sure the cops ๐Ÿ‘ฎ will find it ๐Ÿ•ต. Finally, honor tradition with a very special treasure ๐Ÿ’Ž hunt. And if I get everything right โžก๏ธ, the world ๐ŸŒŽ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒ will hate ๐Ÿ˜ก Nick for killing ๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช๐Ÿ”ช his beautiful ๐Ÿ˜‡, pregnant ๐Ÿ‘ถ wife ๐Ÿ’‘. And after all the outrage ๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก, when I'm ready, I'll go out on the water ๐ŸŒŠ with a handful โœ‹๐Ÿป of pills ๐Ÿ’Š๐Ÿ’Š๐Ÿ’Š and a pocket full of stones. And when they find my body ๐Ÿ’†๐Ÿผ, they'll know: Nick Dunne ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป dumped his beloved ๐Ÿ’‘ like garbage ๐Ÿšฎ, and she floated past all the other abused, unwanted, inconvenient women ๐Ÿšบ๐Ÿšบ๐Ÿšบ. Then Nick ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป will die ๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ’€ too. Nick ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป and Amy ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿผ will be gone ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿป, but then we never really existed. Nick ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป loved a girl ๐Ÿšบ I was pretending to be. "Cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ". Men ๐Ÿšน always use that, don't they? As their defining compliment: "She's a cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ". Cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ is hot ๐Ÿ”ฅ. Cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ is game ๐ŸŽฒ๐ŸŽฎ. Cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ is fun ๐ŸŽ‰. Cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ never ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ gets angry ๐Ÿ˜ก at her man ๐Ÿšน. She only smiles โ˜บ๏ธ in a chagrined, loving ๐Ÿ’• manner. And then presents her mouth ๐Ÿ‘„ for fucking ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿ‘Œ. She likes ๐Ÿ‘ what he likes ๐Ÿ‘, so evidently he's a vinyl hipster ๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿ‘“ who loves โค๏ธ fetish Manga ๐Ÿ“š. If he likes girls gone wild ๐Ÿ‘™, she's a mall ๐Ÿ› babe who talks football ๐Ÿˆ and endures buffalo wings ๐Ÿ— at Hooters ๐Ÿˆ๐Ÿˆ. When I met Nick Dunne ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป I knew he wanted "Cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ". And for him, I'll admit: I was willing to try. I wax๐Ÿ•ฏ-stripped my pussy ๐Ÿ˜ฝ raw. I drank canned beer ๐Ÿบ watching Adam Sandler ๐Ÿ’ฉ movies ๐Ÿ“ผ. I ate cold โ„๏ธ pizza ๐Ÿ• and remained a size ๐Ÿ‘— two 2๏ธโƒฃ. I blew him ๐Ÿ†๐Ÿ‘„, semi-regularly. I lived in the moment. I was fucking game ๐ŸŽฒ๐ŸŽฎ. I can't say I didn't enjoy some of it. Nick ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป teased out in me things I didn't know existed. A lightness โ˜€๏ธ, a humor๐Ÿ˜‚, an ease. But I made him smarter ๐Ÿค“. Sharper. I inspired him to rise โฌ†๏ธ to my level. I forged the man ๐Ÿšน of my dreams ๐Ÿ’ญ. We were happy ๐Ÿ˜Š pretending to be other people. We were the happiest ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š couple ๐Ÿ‘ซ we knew. And what's the point of being together if you're not ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ the happiest ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š? But Nick ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿป got lazy ๐Ÿ’ค. He became someone I did not ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ agree to marry ๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿผ. He actually expected me to love โค๏ธ him unconditionally. Then he dragged me, penniless ๐Ÿ’ต๐Ÿšซ, to the navel of this great country ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธ and found himself a newer, younger ๐Ÿ‘ง๐Ÿผ, bouncier cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž girl ๐Ÿšบ. You think I'd let him destroy ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž me and end up happier ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š than ever? No ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿšซfucking way. He doesn't โŒ get to win ๐Ÿ†. My cute โ˜บ๏ธ, charming ๐Ÿ˜‰, salt-of-the-earth Missouri guy. He needed to learn ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ“š. Grown-ups ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿ‘ด work ๐Ÿ’ช for things. Grown-ups ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿ‘ด pay ๐Ÿ’ต๐Ÿ’ต๐Ÿ’ต. Grown-ups ๐Ÿ‘ฑ๐Ÿ‘ด suffer consequences ๐Ÿ˜–.
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                                       when the world falls around you, and hope is lost,
                                    when you find yourself alone, amid a lightless place,
                                               look to the distance. know that i’m there
                                                     and that i watch over you always.
                                                                                                                                                                      

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The T.O. & the BOOT! I’m really excited about this project. I’ve been developing it for a good handful of years and am currently figuring out publishing options. It’s a pretty crazy story with quite a few moving parts, so I’m still tightening things up; but I’m hoping to have something for people to read ONLINE for FREE sometime soon! 

It’ll be my first time doing my own thing (Story + Art) since serializing PEEPO CHOO with Kodansha and I’m really PUMPED! 

I might have to try crowdfunding this. Hope I can get enough interest & support! More info soon!

POST UPDATE: Just adding some more teaser images :)

Cradled In Love

Pairing: Tom Holland X Reader

Words: 2217

Warnings: โ€œAngst to fluff to smutโ€. NSFW gifs (you know me by now!!)

Anon asked โ€œIโ€™m on vacation with my so called family which is breaking apart at the moment and um itโ€™s really hard to be here with them and I canโ€™t really enjoy this vacay so is there a possibility if you could write a tom holland one shot to cheer me up maybe with angst and fluff and smut and beautiful words of yours.. I donโ€™t want to be here with these people and I want to cry every second of the day.โ€

A/N: So this is my first non-Bucky/Sebastian fic. Itโ€™s special because the anon who asked is having a super bad dayโ€ฆI know how it gets when family is a bitch to deal with (trust me all my extended family are a bunch of assholes!!!!) Anyway, here you go and I hope I did him justice. SENDING HUGS AND KISSES YOUR WAY LOVELY PERSON.

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The Level One Starter: Heyyy there sexy lady ;) how u doing tonight? Got plans for the weekend? Loved your profile, was hoping we could chat more xxx

The Midlife Crisis: Hey beautiful :p I am a professional man living in a city who is looking for a naughty partner in crime. I give generous gifts and dinners as well as tickling and kisses :p I can spoil you any way you like if you can spoil me :p I have a place in XXX and you can CUM by and we can have some adult fun :p :p message me back, I don’t bite…unless you want me to :p

The Scrapbooker: Got any more pics? X

The Google Translate: hello there sexy, i can spoil and am gentle man. can give kisses and lots of spoils. message back with sexy pics in bikinis xxxxxxxxx

 The Dad of Three: Hi :) I’m David and I already know I’m a bit old for you. I guess I’m wondering what a nice girl like you is doing on a site like this?

 The Straight To The Point: Hi, I love your lovely round breasts I can’t wait to squeeze and lick them and stimulate you in every way you’ve ever dreamed. I’m looking for someone very fun and naughty!!! I like anal and various roleplays. Have you ever used toys? xxx

The Chicks Dig Doctors: Hi, I’m Sam :) I’m a medical professional living in the city and I went to university to study medicine, I am working in my medical practice, seeing to my many patients, and that’s why I can’t meet during the day.

The Done This Before: Hello, I’m Michael. I’m 52 years old and run a successful firm in the city. I read your profile and have to say I’m intrigued. I am currently staying at the XXX and wondered if we could get together during my stay. I will compensate you for your time.

The Didn’t Read Your Profile: Me and my wife are looking for a young hot thing to spice up our sex lives ;) Must be sexually submissive, into rape fantasy and costumes xoxo

The Definitely Not A Rapist: Hi there :) I liked your profile, was wondering if you’re free tonight? I have a nice place overlooking the river and could wine and dine you, and also some lovely gifts to spoil you with :) I love making ladies smile. Let me know if you’re free, I could buy you dinner and we could go back to mine xxx

The Conversationalist: Hey ;) x

The Talking Clock: Hello my fair lady :) I loved your profile and have messaged you once before but you didn’t seem to reply! If you’re going to take this seriously, you should reply PROMPTLY to the messages that people send you. I sent you a message on the 4th at 6.30pm and even though you were online you didn’t reply so I am trying again today on the 6th. I hope to receive a warm and friendly and PROMPT response as soon as you see this!!! xxx

The College Student Who Wandered In: Hey, you’re pretty hot :) wanna grab a drink tonight?

The Mother Didn’t Hug Me Enough: Hello, Mistress- i am looking for a beautiful woman like you to dominate me. i want for You to choke me with your high heels and stick huge black dildos up my asshole until i cum over your boots and You have me lick it all up

The One In A Million: Hi, how are you? I’m looking for a young lady to spoil and am prepared to negotiate a pay per meet fee or a monthly allowance, dependant on whether we like each other or not. My email is XXX and please let me know if you’re interested after reading my profile. I’m staying at the XXX until the 10th and we can talk about it over champagne if you’re free this weekend?

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Hey everyone! I’ve been working on this build for about a week now, so I figured it was time to start showing off. This is my model of a nondescript ancient Nordic tomb from Skyrim. It’s primarily based off of Bleak Falls Barrow, but is a bit simpler in design.

I’m hoping to get all the building done soon so that I can start painting and detailing. I’ll probably post once or twice more before the final product. Hope you all like it!

Best things about this ep:

- Craig being the Logical Problem Solver and being super frustrated by Tweek acting emotional and unreasonable, and Tweek being super frustrated by Craig not LISTENING to him and just trying to “fix” him. AND THEN CRAIG REALIZING HE’S NOT ACTUALLY BEING HELPFUL AND TOTALLY CHANGING HIS METHOD!!!! He cares about Tweek so much!!! They work so well together because they push each other to learn and grow!!

- Cartman continuing to be such a controlling piece of shit. Like him freaking out that she was talking to actually suicidal kids online to try to help them?? God. I’m so glad Heidi doesn’t take his shit and calls him out for it. And she does it in a way that he HATES because she stays really level headed and doesn’t react to his nonsense the way he’s used to (aka the way Kyle and Wendy do). I just hope she stops being so gullible soon.

- The handling of Trump’s tweeting was IMPECCABLE. They don’t refer to him as Garrison, they don’t actually show him on screen, but they also aren’t being forced to address Trump by name or face. It’s a great way to stick to their guns and still solve the Garrison problem they created for themselves last season. A+ problem solving, guys.

- Tweek is all of us. We’re all Tweek on the inside right now re: Trump. Thank you Tweek for being the voice of the nation. 

- Craig and Tweek going on a date, holding hands, arguing and making up!! An emotional roller coaster!! I love them!!! Also, I feel the need to address the fact that Tweek feels comfortable just SHOWING UP in Craig’s room in the middle of the night to seek comfort about a personal dilemma, and Craig not only being fine with this but not really all that surprised by it, is the SAME thing Kyle and Stan do. Like it’s a big deal that they’re at that comfort level!! I’m so thrilled.

- THE SONG. THE SONG!!!!! T H E  S O N G. 

- Stan had lines, Kyle and Stan were seen together multiple times, they shared The Look multiple times, Kenny died, there was no Randy… like, I’m so satisfied right now. 

- Matt Stone’s voice acting on point as usual. I love Matt heavy episodes so much.

the-childrens-era  asked:

From what I understand, correct me if I'm wrong, you mostly taught yourself Korean. Do you have any study tips or just miscellaneous tips for those of use wanting to learn Korean or any other language?

Omg. So you’re self-taught in Korean, Kylie? That’s awesome!! How did u do it? Give us tips please! I’ve already learned to read hangul but how/where can I learn/improve vocab and grammar?

Do you have any tips for someone who’s trying to learn Korean?

hi!! how did you pick up korean, and how long did it take you? thank you :)

Do you have any tips for learning Korean? I really want to start but I am not sure of the best method.

Is there any material you would be able to recommend for an English speaker self teaching themselves Korean? If so, thank you!

Okay, so I’m gonna write a lot write now so be prepared. I’ll break it up into sections.

How I learned Korean (to the level I am at right now):

I started learning Korean naturally during 8th grade (2010) or so. I had a really close friend who would teach me Korean words and by this time I was into a few K-pop groups (mainly SHINee) and watched a few Korean dramas. Out of interest in learning new language, I decided to teach myself how to read and write in Korean. Once I hit the summer before my freshman year, I met another really close friend who introduced me to more and more groups and showed me Korean shows. This is probably when I got really into Korean music, culture, etc. I began finding more shows by myself, became more active in fandoms through Twitter, Tumblr, etc. Before I knew it, watching these variety shows, dramas, videos, and reading lyrics allowed me to pick up the language. I never had a formal education as my school (high school and university) did not/do not provide the language. However because of this, most of the Korean I know is conversational and I am most confident in understanding (instead of writing, speaking). Although I translate, I am by no means fluent in the language, although I soon hope to be!

Tips on learning Korean (or any language):

1. Start off by learning hangul or the Korean writing system (or “alphabet”). You can do this by looking up a table of the characters online. 

2. Begin practicing by reading lyrics, tweets by BTS, whatever you can get your hands on. You don’t have to know what you are saying, but it is important to practice and solidify your knowledge of hangul.

3. Figure out your learning style. If you are an auditory learner, try watching videos in Korean like variety shows and dramas (not historical). Read the subtitles carefully and be aware of the words you are hearing as you are reading. I feel like many people unintentionally tune out the audio of a video when watching videos in Korean. If you stay aware, it will be much easier to pick up the language. This is how I picked up Korean. Other ways to learn are through more traditional methods like textbooks and workbooks. If you don’t want physical textbooks there are many apps and online sites that provide PDFs and even podcasts. I don’t use online sites, but I have heard a lot about Talk To Me In Korean.

4. Stay motivated. I know it is really difficult, especially if English is your only language, but you really have to want to learn the language. If you have no interest or motivation, I’m sad to say this, but you won’t be able to learn the language since there is no teacher to force you to learn as there would be in a classroom setting. 

5. Practice/study regularly. I think all people who have learned a language in high school can say this with confidence. If you don’t practice/study the language regularly, all of what you have learned will just fade from your memory. 

Material for learning Korean:

I always refer to this guide, but Tumblr user hobuing made a post as to how she learned Korean and it has a few links to sites and PDFs [here]. 

What do I do when I don’t know a word in Korean: 

Naturally as I am not fluent, I don’t know all the words that I read. When this happens DO NOT USE GOOGLE TRANSLATE. Google Translate is absolutely horrible when translating (at least for Asian languages). I look up words on endic.naver.com (to find the direct English meaning) or dic.naver.com (to find the Korean definition of a word). As slang isn’t present in a typical dictionary, for slang that I don’t know I often google “____ 뜻" (____ meaning) and read what Korean people say the slang means.

- Kylie

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Heyo everyone!

I’m turning eighteen very soon, so that means I’ll be able to open a paypal, and that I’ll be able to open an online shop! 

If any of you have any suggestions on what art you’d want to see, and on what product (phone case, t shirt, print, etc) please let me know in the comments!

What happened to Texts Between Gems?

Hi, everyone! I hope you’ve all been doing well. A lot of people have been asking where I’ve been. I don’t usually share much personal information online, but I suppose I can spare a little bit.

Full disclosure: I am a college student and I’ve had a very busy semester. These past few months have been full of incredible new opportunities, experiences, and achievements for me in my life away from the internet.

I’m very proud of what I’ve been able to do, but I’m sad that this blog fell to the wayside. I love to write, I love TV and I love engaging with other fans online. I wish I could always have time for that.

That being said, the semester is wrapping up and very soon I will have time. In fact, I fully plan on posting texts along with the new Steven Bomb as it airs on TV this coming week.

I’m excited to be back! Running Texts Between Gems brings me great joy, and I hope that you will share in that joy with me as I become more active again. I appreciate you all. You make being a fan so much fun.

That’s all. Thanks, everyone!

anonymous asked:

THE RFA BREAK UP POST AH MY HEART!!! Okay. So. What about the MC moving on and finding someone else? And RFA+V+Saeran realize that they still had feelings for her, but it's been a long time(like maybe a year or two) and MC's finally moved on and they just... Don't have a chance? Why am I like this. Why do I want this. I'm awful. (PS I didn't cry when I read the breakup one, no sir, I did not.)

hey i just read your breaking up headcanon and can i ask for rfa+v+saeran regreting their decision but idk maybe its too late or not its up to you

hi can i ask for a sequel of your break up hc like they regretting their choice and trying to get you back

aah these were similar so I figured I could do them all together! hope you like it. A sort of sequel to this


Yoosung

  • It took 14 months for Yoosung to regret everything
  • 14 whole months
  • Once he realises that he does in fact still love you with every ounce of his being, he starts getting weird
  • Like Yandere Mode™ is activated 
  • It starts off with the usual social media stalking, and he even has Seven helping him find out things about your life via what you post online
  • But soon enough he’s becoming obsessive, and Seven stops helping so not to let it get worse
  • But it does
  • Not being able to investigate everything he can about you online makes him jealous of anyone you’re in contact with
  • Talking to the guys in the messenger? Not on his watch
  • He becomes insufferable, constantly inserting himself into your conversations, commenting on everything you post online
  • You’re almost certain you’ve seen him in the corner of your eye whilst out and about a few times
  • But that’s just you being paranoid, right?
  • Either way it eventually reaches a point where he’s on your doorstep, begging you to take him back
  • He’s crying and rambling, and he’s quite possibly has something to drink
  • But you don’t love him anymore
  • In fact you’re unsure if you could ever love him again 
  • So you tell him this, and it sure as hell is not what he wants to here
  • You’re stuck with a blubbering mess at your door, and have to call Seven to come and retrieve him
  • After this things change drastically
  • He knows he doesn’t have a chance with you, you made that extremely clear
  • He stops stalking your online presence, instead turning to the one comfort he has - his games
  • All he ever does is sit at his computer, playing his games, isolating himself from the outside world
  • Because he doesn’t want to be a part of the outside world if he doesn’t have you.

Zen

  • It really didn’t take long for Zen to regret his decision
  • Like it was probably about 5 months, if that
  • Even the first night when he went to bed alone he had the seeds of doubt growing within him
  • Unfortunately for him, those 5 months were all it took for you to move on
  • You knew it was all for the best, things just didn’t work out
  • But he didn’t think like that, and he wanted you back
  • He tried to be romantic, turning up at your door with flowers, dedicating his performances to you, leaving you voicemails of him singing love songs
  • But you ignored everything
  • You felt guilty ignoring his efforts so much, but it was the only way you would get him to move on like you had
  • How would he let it go if you let him think he was getting somewhere with you?
  • His attempts start getting more desperate, with more and more drunk voicemails being left throughout the nights
  • One of these nights you hear a thump by your front door, opening it cautiously only to find a passed out Zen on the floor
  • You debate just bringing him in until morning, but that would probably give him false hope, so you grab your phone and call Seven to come and help you
  • The two of you manage to get Zen into the car, and you go with Seven to take him home
  • Once there you take Zen inside, helping him to his bed
  • After fetching a glass of water for him, you see he has start to wake up a little
  • Still drunk and groggy from passing out, he thinks he’s dreaming
  • Crying a little, he reaches his hand out to hold yours
  • I love you so much, please just come back to me
  • But his begging still does nothing for you, so you tell him that things will never go back to how they were, and you quietly turn around and leave to go home
  • The next day is surprisingly peaceful, no calls, no visits, no voicemails
  • This continues for weeks, and althought you don’t hear from him you think he’s moving on
  • But you soon find out that isn’t the case
  • Jumin informs you that Zen is drinking much heavier and earlier than he had been previously, and the reason he hasn’t been contacting you is because he’s usually too drunk to even move, that is of course if he hasn’t passed out
  • You lose count of times you wake up to find him passed out on your doorstep, because no matter what happens or how much time passes, he always finds his way back to you, even when you don’t want him to
  • You are after all the love of his life, and he doesn’t know any different than to go to you.

Jaehee

  • She thought she was doing the right thing
  • She thought she had made the right decision
  • But one night whilst watching Zen’s latest romance film for the 100th time she realises it would have been your 5 year anniversary
  • Had you not broken up two years ago that is
  • She’s been so damn busy with work, she’s barely had time to think about how she feels
  • But here she is, suddenly swimming in memories of the two of you 
  • It doesn’t take long for her to realise she’s full of regret
  • How could she let you go?????
  • It’s late now, so she decides to just sleep on it
  • Waking up she’s hopeful it was just a night of reminiscing 
  • It wasn’t
  • If anything, she feels even stronger
  • She suddenly can’t stop thinking about running her hands through your hair, the glimmer in your eyes, the way your hand fits perfectly into hers
  • Every little detail she overlooked before were now screaming to be seen
  • It also just so happened this was the day of the RFA meeting, and she was going to have to see you
  • She got lost in your eyes as you spoke to the group about the guests for this particular party
  • She doesn’t even know what was said
  • After the meeting she casually makes comment to Jumin about how happy you looked
  • That’s when he says the one thing she never wanted to hear
  • Well it’s probably because of the new girl they’re seeing
  • Her heart literally shatters as he says the words
  • Jaehee doesn’t really know how to handle this??
  • Why at the same time she realised what a monumental mistake she made by ending things with you, did she have to find out there was someone else making you happy
  • Her way of dealing with it is pretending everything is normal
  • Not you or anyone else ever notices, she hides it so well
  • If you had known, maybe you would realised you felt the same
  • But you never find out, so you never reflect on how you feel about her
  • She supports you in your relationship, and seems to get on really well with your girlfriend
  • But when no one is looking, her eyes well up, and the occasional one escapes
  • She cries herself to sleep more often than she’d ever be willing to admit
  • Seeing you and your new girlfriend happy together breaks her heart over and over again
  • She would kill to be the one making you smile like that, just like she used to.

Jumin

  • He’s always prided himself on his ability to ‘kill his feelings’
  • And when he ended your relationship, he did this easily
  • It didn’t take long for him to revert to his old ways, being stiff and generally unwelcoming 
  • He was civil to talk to, but he was so different to the person who had you inside his head for three years
  • The breakup felt like it had almost killed you
  • It took you a very long time to get over it, because you never had any closure
  • But then you met someone, someone who let you in from the start, who treated you like you were the single greatest thing on earth
  • You still had a lot of hurt in you from Jumin, but this new person was like a breath of fresh air
  • As things get more serious, you start bringing them around the group more
  • Up until the first time Jumin meets them, he had no idea you were even considering dating other people, let alone be in a serious relationship with someone
  • He’s polite, but doesn’t make much of an effort with them
  • He ??? doesn’t ??? know ??? what ??? this ??? feeling ??? is ???
  • It feels like his heart is actually aching, but that’s just illogical, surely?
  • That night he sits with Elizabeth, drinking his wine and trying to figure out what is going on with him
  • The best thing he can think to do is call up the person who knows him better than himself, and he does so, explaining these strange feelings to his best friend
  • V chuckles softly, a hint of sorrow in his voice as he tells Jumin what it is
  • Jealousy
  • He hangs up, shifting Elizabeth and walks over to his penthouse windows, looking out at the night sky
  • V is right, and Jumin knows it, but there’s nothing he can do
  • He is the one who ended things after all
  • He can’t swoop in now and hope to have you back
  • His solution is to obviously stomp out the feelings, but it doesn’t work
  • He cant get you out of his head, you even haunt his dreams now
  • So instead he distances himself from the RFA more and more, only speaking with V on a regular basis
  • RFA parties can’t be avoided, so when the winter party finally arrives, he doesn’t have a choice but to go
  • Seeing you hurts him, but no one could have prepared him for what happened
  • Your significant other proposed, in front of everyone, right in the middle of the room
  • You were so happy and excited you didn’t see Jumin’s tall figure quietly leaving the building
  • But V did, and for a brief second, he almost thought he saw a glistening tear making it’s way down Jumin’s face.

Seven

  • About 6 months after that party, you started to feel better
  • To say you were completely over him would be a stretch, but it didn’t feel like the world was crashing around you whenever you saw him
  • As you started accepting the relationship was over and letting go of it, Seven slowly started joining back in with the RFA more
  • It doesn’t take long for the two of you to become relatively close again
  • But it’s different 
  • You still love him, but it just feels platonic now
  • It didn’t seem possible that you would ever get to a place where you could be happy in his presence again, yet here you are
  • The pair of you spend a lot of time together, but you still manage to start dating again
  • A lot of people are uncomfortable with how close you are to your ex, except one
  • They’re so perfect ???
  • You can’t believe it ???
  • If you thought you were happy when you were with Seven, you were wrong, this was genuinely the happiest you had ever been
  • Little did you know that during those months where you were rebuilding your friendship with Seven, it was bringing back more than just platonic love for him
  • Without even realsing he found himself madly in love with you again all of a sudden
  • He just wanted to have you at his side all the time
  • And whilst you did spend a lot of time together, it wasn’t how he wanted it
  • He stalked your new significant other online within an inch of their life
  • Everything they ever posted or was posted about them he found
  • But there was nothing in there to use to get rid of them
  • They were a good person
  • But even so, everday before he went to sleep, he would check again
  • One day he would find something, to keep this person away from you
  • He had to find something
  • Slowly as your relationship progressed, Seven started holding himself back, once again isolating himself from everyone but V
  • He didn’t know how he was supposed to live a life where someone else made you smile the way he used to.

V

  • A little part of him always harboured some feelings for you still
  • He knew he would never completely move on, but he didn’t expect this
  • It had been a little over a year since he broke off your relationship
  • You were less bitter, so he saw this as a sign of you having moved on
  • But something about that just didn’t sit well with him
  • Had you really let it go?? Did you really no longer have those feelings for him??
  • For a long time it seemed like you would never move on
  • So now that you had, he hated it
  • It didn’t take long for him to realise
  • He was still in love with you
  • The second it was clear to him, he wanted to drop everything and run to you, just to plead for a second chance and tell you how much he loved you, how he had been so stupid to give up such a perfect person like yourself
  • But he didn’t
  • You finally looked happy
  • And if that didn’t make his heart feel light and airy, he didn’t know what would
  • He knew how much he had hurt you, and he didn’t believe he deserved a second chance no matter how much he wanted it
  • So he chose to keep his feelings to himself, never telling a living soul about how much he craved curling up with you every night 
  • How he craved to feel your hot breath on his lips again
  • How he craved to see you smile because of him again
  • He spends his time pretending he doesn’t love you
  • Just seeing you happy and healthy is enough for him
  • Even if not having you by his side physically hurts him
  • Whenever he hears you laugh he has to actively stop himself from daydreaming about a life where you were his once more
  • Unlike the others, it’s not because you’ve moved on that he never gets you back
  • He just thinks it’s for the best
  • But if he had told you how he felt, he would have found out you were still in love with him too
  • Instead you both continue to hurt, both wishing the other would reach out
  • But neither of you ever do, and neither of you ever get over the other.

Saeran

  • He was wrong
  • He was so fucking wrong
  • He doesn’t even know why he said it
  • Of course he loved you, of course he still loved you
  • But he had said it, and he had shattered your heart into so many pieces he could never fix it
  • So he never tried
  • It took a long time for you to get over it, at least 3 years to be specific 
  • But you got there eventually
  • Looking at him didn’t hurt
  • Being in his presence didn’t make you nauseous 
  • Hearing his voice didn’t make you want to scream
  • What you didn’t know is that it was the other way around now
  • Looking at you hurt 
  • Being in your presence made him nauseous 
  • Hearing your voice made him want to scream
  • He knew he had left it far too long now, and you were finally happy
  • There hadn’t been much if any relationship between you since the breakup, so when he started isolating himself you didn’t even notice
  • It was Seven who reached out to you, telling you something was wrong with his twin but he didn’t know what and he didn’t know how to help
  • So being the person you are, you went over there to try and speak to him
  • It was awkward at first, you had barely spoken in 3 whole years
  • But you wanted to help him so you pushed and pushed
  • Eventually he snapped and and blurts out that he can’t handle his feelings for you anymore
  • You’re taken aback by his confession, which is followed up by a question you dreaded answering
  • With what almost seemed like tears in his eyes, he quietly begged for you to just tell him you still loved him too
  • The only thing he wanted to hear, you couldn’t say
  • He asked you to leave after you told him you didn’t, and you did so without putting up a fight
  • The last thing you wanted to do was make the situation worse
  • For the first time in a long time, Saeran cried himself to sleep
  • He distanced himself from the group slowly, only speaking via Seven
  • But he always kept an eye on you, because even if you didn’t love him, he wanted to keep you safe and happy
  • You were the first person he truly loved, and you would also be the last.

soulmate! jeonghan

anon asked: “Soulmate Angel👿 Jeonghan please??”

a/n: we were kind of confused about angel part so i hope you dont mind we did it normally! enjoy!

summary: in which whatever your soulmate gets called often is tattooed all over your body, visa versa

  • as soon as you could understand soulmates and why you had a bunch of lines and circles all over your body,
  • you were captivated
  • so at 7 years old you learned the language was korean and your soulmate’s name was ‘yoon jeonghan’ and probably not ‘trickster’
  • at 13 you started taking online courses
  • by the time you were 18 you were decently fluent in the language after all the classes and the communication practice you had with your korean friend and her family
  • so when college time rolled around, you were dead set in studying abroad in korea
  • you were freaking ecstatic to be accepted into seoul national university
  • you figured you had a hell of a better chance if you guys were actually in the same country
  • so as college rolled around you came to find you had one problem
  • money
  • so you were lucky enough to find a waitress job at a meat restaurant where you could work at night after your classes
  • even though you were kind of iffy as you heard the owner talking to his friend about how “the new girl will attract even more drunk old guys, and she works the night shift”
  • whatever it pays great
  • but one day it’s particularly crowded and they’re short on waiters and waitresses
  • including you it was only two others
  • “hey y/n! can you get that table in the back!”
  • you were the maknae of the staff so whatever they say goes
  • of course it doesn’t matter that you have the most tables as you guys get paid by the hour
  • and it’s against korean culture to tip so
  • putting on your best smile you walk over
  • “hi what can i get you?”
  • the table was filled up with 15 rowdy guys
  • honestly from their looks, you’ve spent enough time in korea to know what an idol group and two managers look like
  • you bring out their order of almost 500 dollars worth of meat out
  • you see some of the boys pointing at the names tattooed on your leg and arm as you reach to serve them
  • you ignore them, people tend to stare when you have random nicknames plastered on your body
  • they look like they’re about to say something to you when
  • “hey you! bring another around of drinks for me and my friends!”
  • you try not to tighten your hand on the tongs too much and look over, politely saying
  • “please wait a minute!”
  • the man at the other table scoffs and slams the bottle on the table
  • “if you don’t bring the drinks over right now i will make sure you’ll be jobless!”
  • he cackles with his friends and you sigh handing the tongs back to the boys 
  • “do you think you guys can grill the meat yourselves?” you say with the best smile you can manage
  • “yeah sure don’t worry about it” one of the guys say and you ignore the slight looks of pity in the guys eyes
  • the idols seem to start talking about you as you quickly go to the back and bring out many bottles of soju and place them on the table with the rude customers 
  • “finally you fucking foreigner, did you not understand? i asked you like 30 minutes ago!”
  • he drunkingly opens another bottle and loudly laughs with his friends
  • you don’t really let it affect you as this is a somewhat common occurrence and the old men are drunk
  • “call me over if you need anything else” you say sweetly before turning around and biting your knuckles to prevent yourself form cursing at them
  • you're ready to end the night and change your uniform into some pj’s
  • “hey y/n!” you pick your head up at another waiter, the nice one
  • but you don’t notice the thirteen boy’s heads shoot up  at the sound of your name also, looking in your direction
  • “ill take that table for you, just finish the rest of your tables and take the rest of the night off”
  • you smile and thank him
  • “excuse me?”
  • you hear a voice from the idol table call you over
  • “yes?”
  • you see the other guys look at him expectantly
  • he has blonde hair that framed his forehead
  • “uh do you happen to have a Korean soulmate?”
  • you look at him oddly and think, 'there’s no way he’s..?’
  • “maybe” you respond vaguely, your eyes twinkling as you smirk 
  • you might as well mess with the guy who put words like 'swindler’ on your arm and 'angel’ on your thigh
  • some of the guys have to stifle their laughter at your words
  • “ah well what’s his name?”
  • “it’s swindler Jeonghan,”
  • you watch his eyes immediately widen
  • “you wouldn’t happen to know him would you?”
  • he seems to get flustered and one guy full on bursts out laughing
  • you get called over to another table and laugh amused, even if your heart is beating wildly
  • “talk to me after my shift” you wink and leave the other guys laughing their asses off and him with his mouth open
  • “MANNN HYUNG! SHE’S AMAZING”
  • you go over a couple more times for food orders and each time you catch him staring and you may or may not have looked at him longer than normal
  • at the end of the night after they pay you, you hang your apron up in the back and see your soulmate and a few others waiting for you out front
  • “my name’s jeonghan, but i think you already knew that”
  • “my name’s y/n but obviously you knew that, i just have one question”
  • “uh okay?” you look at his confused but smiling face 
  • you grin, “how can someone be an angel and a swindler?“
  • the few other boys who stayed with jeonghan start laughing out loud
  • "it’s a long story…” he says rubbing his neck in embarrassment
  • “I’ve got time” you hear yourself say
  • by the end of his explanation, you’re laughing along with the rest of the boys
  • and maybe it was the euphoria from finding your soulmate
  • or just maybe you being tired af
  • but you stand on your tiptoes and playfully ruffle his blonde hair
  • the other guys are whooping and cheering
  • jeonghan looks down at you thoughtfully and leans a bit closer to whisper something in your ear
  • “let’s give them something to really cheer about”
  • he folds you up in a hug
  • you feel yourself blushing
  • you’re also pretty sure some of the guys are dying just watching you two
  • you’re hearing weird noises that you can’t tell if it’s laughter or screaming
  • jeonghan pulls back and gives you a smile bright enough to never make you question if he’s an actual angel
  • “I’m glad that I found you.”

read part 2

Originally posted by jeonghney

The Seventeen Soulmate AU series:

|| Seungcheol / Pt. 2 || Jeonghan / Pt. 2 || Joshua / Pt.2 || Jun / Pt.2 || Hoshi / Pt.2 || Wonwoo || Woozi / Pt.2 || Seokmin / Pt.2 || Mingyu / Pt.2 || Minghao || Seungkwan || Vernon / Pt.2 || Dino ||

MASTERLIST

~ admin seri & jess

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 I don’t care how easy it looks, gif making is far more difficult than it seems. The amount of time it takes to find the video, the recoloring, making sure the gif flows well. You can’t just pop the video into Photoshop and take scenes from it, it’ll literally look like S.H.I.T. I’m mainly basing this off of gif makers because they’ve had the most reposting lately from what I’ve seen. It’s hysterical when you try to deny all accusations of stealing when the original has the same amount of frames, color, and the EXACT same size. 

If you aren’t aware of the fact that you’re doing this then I hope you realize this soon and put a stop to it. However, if you’re aware of this and continue to do so when others constantly message you about it plus deny it. Then you’re an ignorant person and give humanity a bad name. It’s really heartbreaking seeing your work online posted by someone else; it’s also really aggravating seeing the amount of notes it gets but then you look at your post with not nearly as much. It’s not about notes though, what hurts most is the support and recognition it gets. 

Without followers, the blogger is nothing. Please don’t support these reposters. Check out the post if you can, look into the blog, spot the errors. By you reblogging/liking their post this encourages them to continue. They feed off your support and only grow bigger by this. 

okay so here’s the thing with all girl indie rp blogs. i’m about to rant a little. 
i’ve been roleplaying for quiet some time now. 5 years at least. had a few blogs here and there, always ended up leaving. why, you ask ?? because of the fact that all of my muses were females. i’ve tried roleplaying as guys so many times before ( never felt comfortable while doing so ) and have always recieved so much attention as soon as a male starter was posted. to get replies to my girls ?? fuck, i need to repost at least twice or simply hope there will be a good soul online who doesn’t actually mind replying to female starters ( bless you all who do, btw, you know who you are !! ) but damn !! why do girls get no damn attention ?? it makes me so sad. and here’s another thing; i hate doing long ass developed bios for my girls because i know barely anyone reads them. although i know exactly what i’d like them to be and their past and everything, i just don’t want to do them because they get ignored anyways and it freaking sucks. ugh. i’m almost a hundred percent positive i’m speaking on behalf of most all girl rp blogs on here. 

FEMALES DESERVE MORE ATTENTION. i’m sorry, but they do.

fcxholes  asked:

u mentioned in smthn recently kevin "getting drunk with Neil and Jean on the anniversary of Riko’s death and collecting reasons why Riko deserved to die." which is just such a sick concept, could u write that scene??

Hello dear followers, readers and above all, lovely mutuals <3 as some of you might have noticed, I have not filled any prompts recently. That is because I moved to another town, started my first actual real adult job, started writing my first actual novel (woo) and generally had lots of stress, and ABOVE ALL no (fucking) wifi. As I am typing this, I’m sitting in my friendly neighbourhood starbucks and holding on to their free wifi (thank you, starbucks.)

I have gotten so many sweet anon messages from people asking if I was alright, and letting me know they support me and look forward to more writing. And all of those messages were so incredibly sweet and good for me and my mental state. It’s all a little hard rn, trying to be an actual adult, and so that was really… nice to hear. A big fat Thank you to everybody who messaged me. I hope we soon have wifi, and I can be online more again. Until then, please be patient with me. You can still send prompts ofc, but you might have to wait a little until I’m filling it. 

You guys keep me want to write, and just… thank you. This fandom is such a nice community. <3

alright, enough with the sappy shit, let’s get on with this. This contains Jerejean because i love them. Sorry not sorry. 

Not beta’d. Sorry :D 


It’s been a year, and they are drawn together like some kind of gravity is working its power on them. Some sick force, pulling them together by their bad memories, their trauma, their common denominator. 

Riko Moriyama.

He’s been under the earth for a whole year now, dead and probably rotting away in his grave. They have to remember it from time to time, that he’s gone.

Kevin, when his hand hurts when the weather changes, or when he looks at Wymack showing him thumbs up after a particularly good game and he feels like he’s dreaming.

Jean, when he traces the lines on his body, so many scars, all of them inflicted by Riko. The scars in his soul aren’t traceable, but he knows they’re there, too, when Jeremy hugs him and Jean tenses up for just a second before relaxing and remembering he is allowed to hug back, he is allowed to bury his nose in Jeremy’s hair and enjoy this for himself. 

Neil has to remember it when he looks at Andrew sometimes, and when he looks in the mirror and sees the marred skin of his cheek where the “4″ had been. 

It’s Renee who asks Jean to spend the weekend with them. Jean reluctantly agrees. Jeremy doesn’t try to talk him out of it at all, even though Jean had half expected him. Jean and Kevin haven’t talked since the day Jean left to join the Trojans. 

He’s nervous when he arrives at the airport. But Renee is there with her colorful hair and her sweet smile. And it’s alright.


“Kevin.”

“Jean.” 

They stand in the doorway awkwardly, facing each other. Kevin still looks the same. But at the same time, he doesn’t. His hair is growing longer. Back at the nest, this haircut would have been unacceptable. 

“You… had it covered up.”, Kevin says relucantly, pointing to his own cheek where the queen chess piece covers his number 2. Jean touches his own fingertips to his own tattoo. 

“Yeah.” 

Kevin avoids his gaze. “…good for you. I-… uh, I heard you’re getting on well with… with the Trojans, and… it’s… is it… are you…?” He looks up, and Jean wants to slap him suddenly.  

“No.”, he simply replies, answering Kevin’s unasked question. “…I’m not alright. But I’m better.” 

Kevin chews on his bottom lip and nods curtly. “…good.”, he eventually says. “Good.” 


Jean likes Neil, for some reason. He has more of a spine than Kevin, and he doesn’t ask Jean any nonsensical questions. 

Jean isn’t quite sure why Neil is dating Minyard now, but he seems happy with him. Jean sees him smile across the table at Andrew when they’re out for pizza in the evening. 

The Foxes seem to have grown closer. Everyone is invited for the dinner, and Jean notices that they seem… friendlier together. Maybe that’s why they’re a better team now. Not maybe, definitely. 

Jean texts Jeremy under the table. Renee sees and just smiles, patting his thigh. 


They get drunk. Of course they do. 

Kevin is still an alcoholic, Jean knows that much. Some bad habits don’t die. And tonight, on the anniversary of Riko’s death, Jean, too, needs a drink. Or several. 

They end up on the court. Jean doesn’t really remember how. The ceiling spins above him as he stretches out on the polished wooden floor. He distantly remembers Minyard driving them here. But now they’re alone, Neil, Kevin and him. Why? Whose idea was that…? Jean can’t remember.

“He’s… he’s fucking dead…”, Kevin eventually says into the big silence of the court. 

“He deserved it.”, Neil adds, and there is no regret in his voice. He spits the words out with the honesty Jean admires about him. 

A strangled noise escapes Kevin. “Don’t…don’t say that.” 

Neil, who has been lying on his back as well, sits up and points at Kevin. “He fucking did deserve it. He broke your hand. He cut me up into pieces. He treated Jean like a dog.”

Jean doesn’t flinch. But something in his chest stirs. “…he was a bad person.” The words come out lazily and slowly. 

Neil grunts in agreement. 

They fall silent again.

After several minutes, right when Jean’s eyes threaten to fall close, Kevin speaks again. His voice is quiet, timid, almost. “…do you remember when he broke my nose?”, he asks, and it’s clear that it’s directed at Jean. 

Jean does remember. It was one of the rare occasions Riko had actually taken out his rage on Kevin instead of Jean. 

“…he slammed the butt of his racket into your face.”, Jean drawls with a low sigh. “…later that night, he let Jake fuck me.” Jean has never talked about that with Kevin. He is sure Kevin knew though, back then. 

There was another silence, until Neil says, “…we should make a list.” 

“What list?” Jean slowly rolls to his side. His stomach grumbles unhappily, filled with liquor. 

“Reasons why Riko deserved to die- stop choking, Kevin.” 

Kevin is coughing now, red in the face, pressing a hand to his sternum. When he speaks, his voice is an octave higher than usual. “Reasons…?” He is clearly scandalized. Old habits die hard. 

“Yes, let’s.”, Jean agrees after a moment. “Reason one, he fucked up Kevin Day.” 

Kevin glares at Jean. Jean doesn’t know how Kevin isn’t going cross eyed. He has half a bottle of vodka in his system, after all. 

“Reason two, the stupid fucking tattoos.”, Neil adds, and to his own surprise, Jean laughs. 

“Fuck yeah.” 

“Reason three.” Jean and Neil go quiet when Kevin speaks. “…he… he told me I was nothing without him, and he broke my hand.” 

“Reason four.”, Neil adds, “…he was an egocentric, manic and manipulative asshole.” 

Jean nodds strongly. “…yes.” 

Another silence settls over them. 

“…he forbade me to speak french. …that’s reason five.”, Jean adds after a moment. 

“You did, anyway.” Kevin is smiling down at his own hands when Jean looks over to him. 

“Yes.” 

“Reason six: he was bad with knives.” Neil runs a thumb over a scar right above his elbow. 

As Jean tries to think of another reason, something ridiculous comes to his mind, and he has to laugh again. It feels weird to laugh, especially about Riko, about this, but laughing makes the tight feeling in his chest losen up. 
“Reason seven should be the way he pronounced ‘court’. It always sounded like… card.” It’s lame, a lame reason, but he’s still laughing, and now, Neil is too. 

“It did. Caaaahrt.” 

Jean snorts because he is laughing so hard. “Fuck, yes.” 

Kevin isn’t laughing, but smiling. 

Neil’s and Jean’s laughter dies down after some time, and silence settles over the Foxhole court again. 

“…he’s really dead.”, Kevin says into it after several minutes. “He’s dead. Riko is dead.” 

Jean thinks Kevin sounds like he’s tasting every syllable of the sentence in his mouth.

Help Me Get The Girl part 13 (Grayson Mini-Series)

Description: Grayson seeks out your help to get your friend to fall for him.  In exchange for your help, Grayson promises to take care of your freshman brother when it comes to being bullied.  What you two didn’t know is that even though helping each other would ideally be beneficial, there would be a series of events that would make you two question whether this was a good deal or a disaster in the making.

Word Count: 2,192

Warnings: Language.

A/N: Well, here is chapter 13, it’s more laid back but I really enjoyed writing it!  Thank you for joining me on this journey so far for this series!  I hope you enjoy this part!

Your POV:

I had walked up the stairs to Theo’s room which was up higher in our home, almost excluded from the rest of the rooms.  I was leaning against the doorframe while he typed away on his computer.  At first I thought that it was homework that he was working on for his online high school, but I soon realized that it wasn’t.  He was mumbling under his breath what he was typing.

“He laid, still as can be with his hand tightly clenched around her necklace that she had given to him days ago.  What a beautiful memory to drift away to.”

Smiling to myself, I realized that he was writing which was something I didn’t know he liked to do.  I’ve been told that writing can be therapeutic to people, but I had the feeling that he had been doing this in secret for quite some time.  

“That was beautiful.” I told him.  He jumped up, twirling around in his chair with wide eyes.

He quickly turned back around, saved his document, and closed the window.  “Shit!  Don’t you know how to knock, Y/n?”

I laughed at his outburst, taking a step into his room, “I couldn’t see anything, really, all I could hear was what your were grumbling.  I came up here to catch up and see how things have been for you.  You haven’t been too talkative lately.”  He shifted uncomfortably in his seat, seeming unsure of what to do, so I prompted him some more, “I brought you an orange soda and skittles!” I brought them forward from behind my back, dangling them in front of me.

Eyeing his favorite treats he squinted in thought, obviously contemplating whether or not to take the bait.  After thinking it over for a second he smiled and said, “Can we go on the roof?”

“Of course we can!” I chuckled, tossing him the soda.

We were sat on the roof, chugging our drinks and popping the skittles like our lives depended on it.  Theo kept tossing his up in the air and catching them in his mouth while I tried to catch them before he got the chance to eat them, but he tossed them in a way that I was always a second away from snatching them.

“So,” I started as I set my drink down, “How’s online school going?”

He shrugged, “It’s meh.  I mean, it’s nice because I don’t have to deal with those neanderthals always pushing me around, but I do miss being at school with my friends.”

“A specific friend?” I teased, wiggling my eyebrows at him.

His cheeks turned a deep shade of red as he bowed his head, “Maybe.”

“Layla.” I dragged the final ‘a’ out.

He ran a hand through his hair, “She makes my bones ache when I see her, but a good ache.  It the kind of ache that reminds you that you’re alive and that the person who is making you feel that way, is there for just that reason; to remind you that you’re alive.”

I raised my brows at him, an impressed expression covering my face, “That was poetic and I didn’t know you could talk like that.” I said truthfully as I bumped my shoulder against his.

“She makes me a poet I guess.” he said as he leaned back and stared up at the night sky.

“Gross, that was mushy.  Too far.” I groaned as I joined him, my back resting against the roof.

“You’re right,” he laughed, “I’ve written for a long time.  I’ve just never shared it with you guys.  I will say though, she inspires me to write more romance within my stories.”

“Romance,” I scoffed, “Romance obviously has love at the center of it and love causes problems.”

He snorted, “What’s up your ass?”

“Nothing, I’m just being realistic.  Love is like this monster that sits on your shoulder continually telling you to take one road and when you get to the crossroads it steers you in a completely different direction that takes you right back to the beginning.  And once you’re there, you’re still all alone, driving in hopes that you’ll finally get to your destination.  It’s tragic, honestly.”

“My gosh.” he grumbled uncomfortably as he shifted a bit, “Could you be more negative?  I think love is a beautiful thing.”

Sitting back up, I pulled my legs to my chest, “As I said, love is a monster, but I will admit… it’s a damn beautiful monster.”

Theo dumped the remaining skittles into his mouth, chewing as he said, “Fuck monsters, man.  I’ve got an angel.”


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“So, why not sleep with both of them?” Ayla asked as she stared at the table across the cafeteria.  Both Ethan and Grayson were sat at the table together, but there was no Grace.

I had gotten so used to sitting with Ayla, Jason, and Nicole that it just became my permanent spot.  Neither of the boys seemed to mind, they continued to banter back and forth, quite a bit of the time there were a few other guys who would join them partway through.  

“That’s not how you settle things like this.” I snapped, sending her a quick glare.

“She’s right, Ayla.  The correct way is to see which one buys her more gifts.  Especially lingerie, oh yes.” Jason said before they both roared with laughter.  I could tell that Nicole was trying her best not to laugh, but was failing to do so.

“You both suck.” I let them know as I threw a napkin, hoping it would hit one of the two of them.

“The truth is,” Nicole started, “You go with whichever one makes your heart happiest, and if you feel like that’s going to be a decision that you won’t be able to make, you let them go, because it’s unfair to them and it’s unfair to yourself.”

Both Ayla and Jason stared at her with their mouths hanging open and their eyes wide like deer in headlights.  Nicole’s eyes shifted back and forth between the two of them, even taking glances at me.  I’ll admit, I was equally as shocked as them.

“What?” she squealed, throwing her arms up.

“That was the deepest thing you’ve ever said.  I’m pretty sure it’s safe to say that you’ve never been that serious in your life.” Jason told her, resuming eating, the initial shock calming.

“Well, I mean, I wasn’t quite done.” we all groaned when she spoke those words.  “I was also going to say that I hope you end up with Ethan because dangly earring over there is too delicious for me to handle.”

“There she is…” I joked, sending a smile her direction.

She shrugged innocently, “It’s not my fault that God blessed him with perfect assets.”

“They’re twins.” Jason stated as if she was an idiot.

“They don’t look exactly the same.” she defended, “They’re both good looking, but I want to be the conductor of that train,” she gestured towards Grayson, “Choo choo!” she gestured like she was sounding off a train whistle.

“Gross.” Ayla said under her breath.

“HEY!” Nicole shouted, “HEY TWINS!” she said again.

“What are you doing?” I asked her.

She ignored me, “ETHAN AND YOU!”

“His name is Grayson.” Jason said in between bites.

“ETHAN AND GRAYSON!” she corrected, finally getting their attention.  “COME SIT WITH US!”

Exchanging looks, both of them got up with their trays in hand, walking over to our table.  Ethan took a seat next to me while Grayson sat next to him with Ayla on his other side.

Looking at the twins and then in my direction Nicole said, “What a dream.”

“A dream?  What dream?” Grayson asked, clearly confused.

She looked him straight in the eyes, “My dream.  My ultimate fantasy.”

“Okay…” he said, looking over to me, “How’s your day going?”

I tilted my head a bit, “Fine.  Routine.  Basically on autopilot as usual.  What about you?”

“Just going through the motions.” he replied, looking back at Nicole who was still eyeing him.  “Are you ok?”

“I’m fine.  Just waiting.  Waiting for that green light.”

Eyes still on her he leaned and whispered something in Ethan’s ear.  A few seconds later Ethan leaned over and whispered, “Gray thinks she’s a bit… odd.”

“She is.” I quietly said back, my lips unintentionally brushing against his ear.

After finishing lunch Grayson grabbed me before Ethan had the chance.  We talked about school and life.  He asked about Theo and how his schooling was going.  He just kept the conversation casual which I appreciated because normality was what I had needed in that moment.

“So,” he said as we came to a stop in front of my classroom, “I know that between Ethan and I, we haven’t made things easy for you.  But, I want you to know that I meant what I said whole heartedly, and in no way am I trying to say that I feel more for you than Ethan does, because it’s impossible to compare the two of us and our feelings.  I just… I don’t want to pressure you more, but have you thought about it at all?”

I should have known that it wasn’t going to continue to be small talk.  I should have known that we would come back to this conversation, but stupid me fell into the trap.

“I think– I think that I’ve been thinking too much lately.” I told him honestly.  “I’m starting to feel like maybe it’s my heart’s turn to take the wheel and when it’s ready, it will let me know what it wants.”

He nodded, “That’s understandable.”  The warning bell sounded off, telling us that we only had a minute left to get to class.  “I have another question and it’s not about that,” he reassured me, “Who is that Nicole chick?”

I giggled, “She’s the self-proclaimed new girl.  She’s amazing and we’ve become really good friends, which I needed because…” I trailed off thinking about the situation with Grace who I haven’t spoken to in a couple weeks.  “Because I feel like it’s time for me to have a fresh start and rid myself of negative vibes.”

“That’s understandable as well.  She’s kind of a weirdo.” he laughed awkwardly.

“Yeah she is, but I love it.” I smiled.

“She’s pretty entertaining,” he started to back away, “I should get going though.  I can’t be late for class again.”  With a contented smile I nodded to him and watched as he walked down the hall, not noticing all of the girls ogling over him as he passed.  He would never know how amazing he was.


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“Okay!” Nicole said as she jumped in front of me right as we entered my house, “Screw, marry, kill with Ethan, Grayson, and Jason.”

Each time I tried to move past her she shifted her body so that I couldn’t get around her.  “Fine!” I shouted, dropping my bag inside the door, kicking my shoes off, “Screw Grayson or Ethan, marry Grayson or Ethan, and kill Jason.  I’m pretty sure that Jason would rather be dead than marry or have sex with me so…”

“Oh gosh that’s not how it works, you can’t say both of them.  I’d totally marry Grayson though because then I could screw him whenever I wanted.” she covered her mouth and then gave me a look full of fear.  “That was so rude of me, Y/n, I’m sorry.”

“Sorry for what?” I asked, finally moving past her, shutting the door behind me.

“I just… I know you’ve got a thing going on with the two of them and me making these comments isn’t appropriate, no matter how badly I want to jump his bones.” she smacked her hand against her head, “I DID IT AGAIN!”

I nearly cackled, “It’s fine!  It doesn’t bother me.  I know that you mean no harm.”

“But, you’re my friend, I shouldn’t be so outwardly flirtatious and verbal about it.  I apologize.” she said sincerely, following me to my room.

I sat on my bed, Nicole making herself comfortable next to me, “He asked me if I had been thinking about things.  I told him I was done thinking and that I was allowing my heart to lead me.” I told her as I leaned my head against her shoulder.  “I just want this to be over.  This never should have happened.  I’m a high schooler, I should not be feeling these emotions already, right?”

“It’s life, Y/n, you never know when or what you’re going to feel.  It just happens.  But, I have an idea and I want you to trust me.” she slowly pulled her shoulder out from under me.

“What?” I asked, nervous for what was to come next.

She clapped her hands together, “I’m going to ask you a question and I want you to answer it with the first thing that comes to your mind.”

Hesitantly I answered, “Okay.”

“If right now there was someone approaching your front door ready to whisk you away on the greatest adventure of your life, who would you want it to be?  Grayson or Ethan?”


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