Honestly, i don’t even know how to start this. Absolutely no one understands. I’ve walked around for the last month and a half feeling extremely lost and sad because i thought i wasn’t going to be able to see you in my own hometown in February. I tried contacting Taylornation on twitter, i tried getting your attention here and nothing worked, but i won tickets at one of your AT&T events. I was the 13th winner. TAYLOR, I WAS THE 13TH WINNER. You can’t even say that its a coincidence. I suddenly feel happy again. 2016 was tragic for me, completely and utterly tragic. My dad got really sick, i didn’t graduate on time, and slowly i started feeling really void inside. The only upside to 2016 was when i saw you in Austin, 4 days before F1 i decided to drop everything and just leave. I drove 5 hours to see you and it felt like freedom. No one understands. No one understands what it’s like to be at one of your shows. No one understands how free and young and happy you suddenly feel for two hours. No one understands how much it means to share the same room with you, and thousands of others who love you as i love you. No one understands what its like to turn to the person next to you and suddenly see their pain and worries fade away the second you come on stage. Seeing you is like seeing that best friend that moved away to follow their dreams with their wings spread wide open every blue moon. Seeing you is that feeling in your stomach that feels familiar and warm. Seeing you is being hit with waves of love for two whole hours when nothing else matters. Sharing the room with you is knowing that your life is going back to normal when its over, but in that moment you feel fearless anyways. They don’t understand that i don’t have to physically know you, to love you. I know your heart, i know your intentions and i know theres a small possibility that you love me as i love you.
I’m seeing you in my hometown on February 4th, and i’m counting down the seconds until we share the same space again.
I love you, i love you, i love you.
PS: LOOK AT OUR FIRST SELFIE TOGETHER. (OKAY YOU’RE JUST ON MY BLANKET DETAILS DETAILS)