i honestly thought that was the last one


Honestly, i don’t even know how to start this. Absolutely no one understands. I’ve walked around for the last month and a half feeling extremely lost and sad because i thought i wasn’t going to be able to see you in my own hometown in February. I tried contacting Taylornation on twitter, i tried getting your attention here and nothing worked, but i won tickets at one of your AT&T events. I was the 13th winner. TAYLOR, I WAS THE 13TH WINNER. You can’t even say that its a coincidence. I suddenly feel happy again. 2016 was tragic for me, completely and utterly tragic. My dad got really sick, i didn’t graduate on time, and slowly i started feeling really void inside. The only upside to 2016 was when i saw you in Austin, 4 days before F1 i decided to drop everything and just leave. I drove 5 hours to see you and it felt like freedom. No one understands. No one understands what it’s like to be at one of your shows. No one understands how free and young and happy you suddenly feel for two hours. No one understands how much it means to share the same room with you, and thousands of others who love you as i love you. No one understands what its like to turn to the person next to you and suddenly see their pain and worries fade away the second you come on stage. Seeing you is like seeing that best friend that moved away to follow their dreams with their wings spread wide open every blue moon. Seeing you is that feeling in your stomach that feels familiar and warm. Seeing you is being hit with waves of love for two whole hours when nothing else matters. Sharing the room with you is knowing that your life is going back to normal when its over, but in that moment you feel fearless anyways. They don’t understand that i don’t have to physically know you, to love you. I know your heart, i know your intentions and i know theres a small possibility that you love me as i love you. 

I’m seeing you in my hometown on February 4th, and i’m counting down the seconds until we share the same space again. 

I love you, i love you, i love you. 



anonymous asked:

I think you are 1000% on the right track about the tone of Dan's last video. it wasn't a liveshow. He has full creative control to edit out or leave in what he will, so we can infer that what he put out was deliberate commentary to the phandom. What I want to know is your take on the Pete Wentz unfollowing thing. As Phil wrote that tweet - do you think Dan's frustration with the fall out (ugh I'm such trash) was directed toward Phil in any way? I didn't quite get why he put that in the video?

thanks so much and i think you’re so right in acknowledging the full control dan had over the reactions and responses he left in the video. to answer your question about the reindeer tweet and the unfollowing debacle: no i do not at all think dan put that segment in the video as a call out to phil, i just think he thinks the whole incident is actually really hilarious. when phil wrote that tweet, obviously dan was like ‘wtf are you serious’ but there’s just an underlying fondness in his reaction, in that he seems so genuinely amused that phil even came up with something so outlandish. i think he thought it was so fucking funny that no one could identify the tweet as being phil’s work or even just out of the ordinary at all. and i think, altogether, phil means a lot more to him than pete’s follow on twitter, and tbh he probably thinks that this is a poetic and fitting way to lose that follow: one of his teen idols who is now basically his life partner writing a kinky tweet on his behalf and his other teen idol kinkshaming him. (also in the live show where he actually discussed this, which was his last live show of 2016, he said there’s the very real possibility that pete just unfollowed bc of the gamingmas spam in december. so obvi he doesn’t like. literally blame phil in an angry way) 

anonymous asked:

Honestly, I didn't actually hate it. However, I am scared that they are doing a rather permanent ending. I see it being a very, very long time before we get a season 5, if we get a season 5. Now what I am looking forward to is when you come back with more Blackbird, Fly :) If you feel like sharing, I would love to hear your thoughts on season 4 as well :)

I’m working on writing up my thoughts into something more coherent than my blabbering and gushing to friends last night. I may need one more viewing. So be patient with me. :) But in the meantime, I would like to situate myself firmly in the camp of those who loved it.

Thoughts on Season Four

Season Four was the first season of Sherlock to come out since I first got into the show in 2015. And possibly, as I see it, it could be my last.

Season Four honestly blew me away. And, barring a few points that were quite upsetting/disturbing, I enjoyed every camera pan and focus and zoom. My longtime theory concerning “the other one” was actually proved correct! (I theorized that the third Holmes sibling would be a sister approximately one year older than Sherlock and play an instrumental role in both the show and Sherlock’s adolescent life.) I hung on to the edge of my seat, screamed loudly many times, and even found myself leaking a tear or two.

But there was one thing that really made this season stand out to me, a character whose existence I’d predicted just last year.

Eurus Holmes.

Mainly the fact that I, on some level, understood her.

Now, don’t get me wrong: Eurus Holmes honestly has very serious issues. And these issues shouldn’t be just put aside. But I found that on some weird level I understood her.

Why, you may ask. Why do you seem to find a connection to a literal psychopath who drowned a kid, killed people, and managed to manipulate so many others into doing what she wanted?

Because, simply, I know what it’s like to feel alone.

I never had siblings - the only one I was ever informed of died before I was born. I grew up playing with the neighborhood boys - they were my brothers in a world where I didn’t have any. And when they moved away, I didn’t make any best friends that I could see on a daily basis until years later.

That meant that as a child, I played alone in my room. I talked to myself incessantly, retreated into books, absorbed as much knowledge as possible.

When I entered school, I tried making friends and found the endeavor impossibly hard to accomplish. I remember trying to talk to a group of girls I thought friendly enough to accept me. They didn’t seem to like books and dinosaurs and sea life as much as I did, but they seemed friendly enough.

I tried to talk to them.

You know what they did?

They ran away from me.

I went home in sullen silence. But my mother told me something I’ll never forget.

She told me, “Everyone has a different intellectual level. Yours just might be higher than others.”

So throughout elementary school, when I tried to make new friends, I felt like Eurus Holmes: not Eurus the psychopath, but the Eurus in a plane where everyone was asleep but me.

I did eventually make best friends that I could see on a daily basis at around 11 years old. But my earlier years haunted me and still do today.

Because I was alone.

And, more than a decade later, I realized that that feeling of being alone…it helped me to understand Eurus Holmes.

Because in those moments where I locked myself in my room and talked to myself and played with myself and fantasized having a best friend that I could see all the time…I was Eurus.

TL;DR: I understood Eurus Holmes because, in a way, I was Eurus.

Thank you, Moffat and Gatiss.

Another Tag!♡

So I was tagged by @i-studyuniverse ♡ 

I guess all I have to do is answer a few questions so lets get into it!

Nicknames: Katie, Katie Bug, Kate

Star sign: Virgo

Height: basically 6′ but lets go with 5′11″

Last thing I Googled: *checks* ah Day6 

Fave music artist: Honestly either Kyuhyun or Lee Hi

Song stuck in my head: mmmm I Wait by Day6 (I’m still binge listening) 

Last movie I watched: Well I’m watching Twenty right now so I think that counts

Last T.V show I watched: Goblin(may my heart rest in pieces)

When did you create your blog: September 2016

What kind of stuff do I post: Anything Korean/Japanese language and study related things!

Do I have any other blogs: Not at the moment I’ve been thinking about making a kpop one

Do I get ask regularly: Not regularly but I get it often enough

Why did I choose my URL: I honestly thought it was witty as hell and that it was original (low and behold its not that cool)

Hogwarts house: *sigh* Slytherin 

Pokemon Team: *again sigh* Valor 

Favorite color: Grey or any neutral color

Average hours of sleep: Maybe 5 on a good week

Lucky number: 16 I’m pretty sure

Favorite characters: Wang Wook, Baek-A, Woo-Hee, Wang So, Je Soo-Ho, Han Ryang-Ha, Sim Bo-Nui

Dream job: Teaching English overseas and Japanese/Korean at college level 

Following: 64

Taggin: @washme-drownme @blythehopper @nananamarie @icecreampoetry @studyjani (and anyone else who wants to do it!

Jungkook One Shot Recs

Since the last fic rec post i made went down pretty well, i thought i may as well make another but this time for one shots. Just a quick disclaimer, this is only a few of the one shots i love (honestly if i listed all of them we’d be here all day). Hope you enjoy! Masterlist

Tinder 2.0 by @tayegi 

Photographs by @helloblamebts

Beneficial by @jiminables

Get Under the Car by @deerguk

The Boyfriend Shirt by @taehyugme

Sweeter than Sugar by @jungkxook

Orange Tulips by @kainks

Blue Orchids by @inktae

Lost Stars by @tahyungs

Killer Kiss by @an-exotic-writer

Officer Jeon by @park-jimeme

It’s a War Zone by @chokemejimin / @the95liner

There will always be something hauntingly beautiful about the final words on 1989 being “I think I am finally clean.” There too is something deeply thoughtful in ending Red with “I watched it begin again,” and something so unequivocally special about Speak Now coming together as a perfect whole with the line “One day, we will be remembered.” Taylor’s wisdom allows her to capture even the most intricate of details in such an ethereal, poignant and iconic way.

I’m in tears

not because of all the hate, but all of the love i’ve been receiving over the past few hours. I came back onto my pc expecting the worst but i’m so blown away with how much love was in my inbox. Thank you so much. Every last one of you. I wish I could reply to you all but I won’t be answering asks for a while until this all blows over. Thank you so, so much. From the bottom of my heart. 

Being called a pedophile, while being a victim of pedophilia, was so hurtful. Getting death threats was something that I never thought I’d receive and I honestly thought that I would end up having to delete my tumblr. But all of this support makes me so happy. I won’t let this get to me anymore. I know who I am. YOU know who I am. Let’s keep moving forward. 

Special thanks to all of my friends for being there for me. Especially @jaltoid for sticking by my side from the very beginning. ;___; I’m so lucky. 

honestly there could be plenty of reasons why vilde found out, i really don’t think it’s one of the boys because the show wouldn’t make us grow so fond of them just to have one of them pull such a horrible move like that. even is the “new kid” wtih no apparent background and he hasn’t been in school all week, people who have too much time on their hands/are way too curious probably found a way to know what happened in his school last year. this really really sucks and i wanna slap anyone who thought they could use this as something to gossip about, but i definitively do not think it’s one of our boys 

ETA: i just reread the texts and vilde actually said it was someone from even’s last school. I AM TOO TIRED AND EMOTIONAL BYE


TLC Shipweeks 2017- Week One Day One- Home.

tbh wolflet is as cozy as you can get honestly it was all i could think of when i thought of the theme. I wanted to make this look better but i haven;t slept in like,,,,a long time,,,and idk lmso. anyway yeah they went out dancing at the bar last night and she stole his shirt but Ze’ev was wearing those pants when they went out. idk how to draw him lol. i will probably go back and redraw this someday.



I honestly never thought I’d get this far with this blog and my art. The last week has literally been crazy!!! I’m so grateful for every single one of you! Here are a bunch of gifs of Dan and Phil please enjoy: 

Expect way more art in the future as I journey through school! 

Also tomorrow I’ll be announcing something really big and Special!! So stay tuned to that!

Last night, when I was trying to get to sleep, I had a major realization about Leonard’s and Mick’s redemption arcs: They aren’t going to be that different.

Let’s think about this. 

In Season 1 of Legends, we saw Leonard choose to be a hero. It was a long, hard road, but in the end, he was the hero we all knew he could be.

People tend to give three different characters credit for this, and I thought I’d explore each of them.

Mick Rory- This is honestly the one that confuses me the most. Yes, Mick was Leonard’s best friend. Yes, when Leonard died, it was taking the place of Mick. Yes, Mick was the closest thing to family Leonard had, aside from Lisa.

However, Mick’s role in Leonard’s redemption was fairly straightforward: He was the other choice. Time and time again, when we saw Leonard make heroic choices, Mick was trying to convince him to do something else. 

In 2046, when Leonard decided to go with the team, Mick was practically begging him to stay.

When Leonard protected the team from the time pirates, he had to hold a gun on Mick to do it.

Yes, I love Mick dearly, and their friendship as well, but Leonard Snart didn’t become a hero for Mick Rory.

Barry Allen- Ah, yes, the persistent little puppy of a superhero, who looked at a criminal and saw something good. Someone who could be a hero himself one day. 

This one makes a lot more sense, and undeniably, Barry played a huge role in Leonard’s redemption arc. 

He repeatedly trusted, encouraged, and helped the criminal, and it was something Leonard had never really experienced before.

 Barry planted the seed of heroism in Leonard’s mind, and when Rip Hunter offered him a chance at that, Leonard decided to take it.

Yes, Barry was a major part of showing him he could be one, but Leonard Snart didn’t become a hero for Barry Allen.

Sara Lance- Full disclosure: The shipper in me just wants to call this “Right” and move on, but the realist knows it isn’t quite that simple.

Again, she clearly played her part in his redemption story.

She took away his excuses. He’d always used his past as an excuse for his actions, but after hearing about her past, about how she killed innocent people because she was told to do so, how she’d held bloodlust and darkness and evil-and seeing the way she chose the light anyway… If she could become a hero, he knew he had no excuses.

She looked straight at him, saw both the good and the bad, and cared for him anyway.

She reached out to him, she inspired him, and yes, I believe he loved her, (believe she could have loved him with enough time,) but Leonard Snart didn’t become a hero for Sara Lance.

So, why did he become a hero? When he stepped up to the Oculus, if it wasn’t about Mick, Barry, or Sara, why did he do it?

He did it because, his whole life, he believed he’d never be more than his father. He thought he could never be anything good, because his father had been so undeniably evil. 

He was destined to be a criminal, or so he was told, and he’d taken up that mantle without question, because it seemed to be the only way.

In that moment, looking at the Oculus, he realized he did have a choice. And he chose to be a hero.

Leonard Snart became a hero for Leonard Snart.

What does any of this have to do with Mick Rory’s redemption arc?

My prediction is that Ray will be Mick’s Barry. He will stubbornly continue to see the best in Mick, with a smile of sunshine and the faith of a puppy. He has already and will continue to play a role in convincing Mick he can be a hero.

Amaya will be Mick’s Sara. Now, I know there’s a lot of controversy about this ship, for a lot of different reasons, but the show definitely seems to be setting up for that. People are worried that they won’t have separate story arcs, but Captain Canary did. I suspect it will go a lot like that. 

Amaya’s story will probably be about finding Rex’s killer, and Mick’s definitely seems to be this redemption arc thing. They’ll have their own stories, but they’ll play huge roles in each other’s, as well.

And Leonard? Leonard will be Mick’s Mick. He’ll be the voice from Mick’s past, trying to convince him that the hero business isn’t so great, trying to “set him straight” about who they are and what they do.

He’ll try to get Mick to join the Legion of Doom.

And yes, I ship Mixen/FoxFire/FireFox, (seriously, what are they called?) and I BroTP the heck out of ColdWave and Atomwave, but if Mick turns down Leonard’s offer, I predict that it won’t be for Ray, it won’t be for Amaya, and it won’t be out of loyalty to a ghost of Leonard’s memory.

If Mick chooses to be a hero once and for all, Mick Rory will become a hero for Mick Rory.

My hope is that eventually we’ll get Leonard back, and that even though Mick and Len are basically antagonists in each other’s redemption arcs, we’ll get to see them be full-fledged heroes side by side.

I hope you enjoyed this random parallel that popped into my head in the middle of the night while I was trying to sleep! :D (The middle of the night cliffnotes I wrote included something about how “Barry and Ray have probably hugged the Boogie Man,” and I really wanted to include that in this, but it wouldn’t fit.)

your favorite suho stan back at it with yet another FF,, honestly,, i thought nobody did this anymore but I’ve seen many around so I was like,, why not,
I was gonna make another edit instead of recycling last and last last year one but honestly,, who has the time, and I havent used photoshop in like 10 years so idk if i could even make something pretty,
But thank you all for making my days a bit funnier and pissing me off sometimes, those who praise Bayern or CLAIM suho is not the best thing about Exo,,but i still aprecciate every single one of you! sp. the ones who I’ve been following since,, 2014? that i made this blog, thanks for sticking with me i love u deearly,,,

Also this is not in alphabet order because thats too much organization for me..

First of all i wanna thank you, for not unfollowing me evenn though i went from 100% football to 10% you’re the real MVPs!

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i love u all mutuals or not

Y’all. The thing that makes me happiest about That Kabby Clip™ is that it’s… it’s part of a whole scene??? Like. My highest hopes for a Kabby sex scene were just the implication of it. A slightly more passionate kiss. Hands wandering under clothes. A closed door. Fade to black. 

But Abby is completely unclothed. They’re not standing, which means it took them time to get down there: Marcus is either laying down or sitting, and Abby is on top of him, in one way or another, kissing him with an open-mouthed kiss that doesn’t suggest this is just a morning-after “oh I guess we had sex last night well that was fun” like I honestly thought they’d do to us. This is initiating.

This is fucking candlelit. 

This isn’t going to be just a cheeky nod at what they’re going to do: we’re going to see an entire scene. Two middle-aged adults, in the middle of a teen-oriented CW show, are going to get an entire scene to be steamy and sexy and loving and alive and it’s just so important to me for you guys to know how lucky we are that we get that??? 

Like……………………. I might actually cry. 

you know what? i just rewatched all the episodes from season 3, from 1st to 6th and i think it was no only great that even wasn’t a big part of the last episode, it was needed. watching all the pre-hiatus episodes + the post-hiatus one made me realize that, from isak’s pov, even was simply everywhere in the first five episodes, from the moment their eyes first meet. and it was to the point where it was almost suffocating and i think isak needed to take the time to just take a step back, breathe and recenter his thoughts on himself. i honestly believe that if isak had confronted even this week, he would not have been ready, and it would’ve made things worse. he needed that talk with the “doctor” and he especially needed that talk with jonas. he needed to start wanting to feel better, which is what happened. and although things are still far from perfect in his world, although he still has issues he needs to solve, i think he’s feeling a lot more stable now than at the beginning of the week. he’s more at peace with his feelings and he’s a lot more honest with himself. and so now i believe is a much better time to start thinking about talking to even again.