i honestly don't think anyone's going to be able to top that

don't leave me

◇ In which your red lips are always sealed until you can’t handle it anymore.

◇ Jaehyun x reader

◇ vampire!au + 1920s!au

◇ requested by @bybangmin; Hello! Could I have a Jaehyun Vampire! Au where he’s a vampire, and the girl a witch (a nice one, but still pretty harsh)?

◇ aaaaaaand I’m back with another 1920s!vampire!au !!! Honestly I was literally gonna make this modern but I’m actually a hoe for vampires in the 1920s….. like the era just suits them so much???? Also i was so inspired for this but i feel like my writing was just kind ajakskklblah for this one butni hope u guys still enjoy it!!

Most would think that you having a vampire for a mate was the most ironic and ill-fitting chance in the world. You did too, at first.

And why, may you ask? Because you hated vampires, that was why. It all start when you were a child — your parents got mixed up with doing business with the vampire clans who ran Chicago at the time, blah, blah, blah, and next thing you know, they’re dead in a gutter.

While you carried on your parents’ business — making potions and casting spells for only the darkest and most privileged of all Beings —, it did nothing to stop the bubbling hatred you had for the species that killed your parents.

And then you met Jaehyun.

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the signs according to ME, based on what I've absorbed from tumblr even though I don't pay attention to 75% of the zodiac and might not be able to even name them all from memory
  • taurus: the impression I get is they're similar to aries in that they’re angry and stubborn? but the difference is that while aries will clock you in the jaw, taurus will hold a grudge for the rest of your born days. your born days, not theirs, because they’re going to outlive you out of spite
  • gemini: is what I think comes next? anyway apparently geminis are very social and bubbly and they're people persons (people people?), but also they’re supposed to be all two-faced and gossipy, because twins. which is very mean to say about twins.
  • cancer: no offense to anyone who is a cancer, but my Least Favorite Human that I've ever met is a cancer, so my perception is tainted. cancers cry a lot. all the time. about everything.
  • leo: you know, I honestly don't know what is associated with leo, besides... lion. so therefore, leos are brave. you might belong in august, where dwell the brave of heart. their daring, nerve, and chivalry set leos apart. congrats you're gryffindor now
  • virgo: or is it libra comes first? I think it's virgo. um, anyway, virgo is my moon sign. I respect virgo. the general sense I get is that they're very... anal and particular and organized? their lists are color-coded and have subheadings?
  • libra: or possibly virgo, depending on whether or not I switched the order. BUT YEAH SO, LIBRA, SCALES. ALL ABOUT THAT FAIRNESS AND JUSTICE. common room is next to the kitchen.
  • scorpio: uuuuuuuGHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M SO FED UPPPPPPP I am a scorpio but I don't WANNA BE a scorpio I'm so TIRED of everything being nothing but femme fatale tropes and byronic hero nonsense I'M NOT MYSTERIOUS!!! are people even mysterious in real life? also please stop talking about how sexually charged and passionate I am. please don't do this. you're making this uncomfortable for everyone and I wanna exchange my sign for something else
  • sagittarius: the sense I get is that sagittarius is best personified by a weird kid at summer camp who hardcore believes in aliens and whose knees are full of band-aids
  • capricorn: does capricorn come next? I don't honestly even know. I don't know anything about capricorns. they're represented by a goat though, so that automatically makes them better than every other sign. A MERMAID GOAT, NO LESS. listen, idk what capricorns are like, but I'm trading my star sign. I WANNA BE A MERMAID GOAT. I WANNA BE A MERMAID GOAT MORE THAN ANYTHING.
  • aquarius: the only thing I know about aquarius is that song in Hair
  • pisces: fish. has lots of emotions, but is pretty chill and creative? bunks with sagittarius at summer camp, but personally prefers cryptids to aliens
Motionless - 19/21

Bucky x Reader, OC’s, Avengers

Summary: The team need to attend a press conference and it doesn’t go the way they had planned.

Word Count: 3,975

Warnings: Angst, panic attack, team are very protective of the couple, Bucky is pissed

A/N: Bucky’s POV, This is the last hurdle they have to go through I promise!!! It’ll be complete happiness from here on out! Thank you guys for being so patient with me as I try to get these out. Oh and Christine Everhart - the reporter - is a bitch in this part.

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8 months, 2 weeks and 5 days

Y/N and the twins were all fine and healthy. There wasn’t much time left until we welcomed them into the new world. After attending her ultrasound, watching them kick and move around I couldn’t help but be excited to meet both of them. Y/N, on the other hand, wanted to meet them long before that…..way longer than that.

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anonymous asked:

You said you liked muscles, right? I know you usually get asked with bellies, but do you have any buff muscle head canons? If you do, let's go with Rin from Free, Ben Tennyson, and the twins from Ouran. (If you feel like you can't give a LONG explanation, then can it be a short list of what you'd want to see?)

Okay I can give these a shot though this is really out my wheelhouse and I’m not 100% sure you’re wanting. This could take some different routes with some of them especially because of differences in their states (Rin already has noticeable but Ben and the Twins don’t as much).

Originally posted by starfish-mako

(As a weightlifter who at least TRIES to have good form unless there is a swimmers technique that I’m not aware of this is the single most frustrating and annoying gif in all of Free. He’s pumping his legs and is cheating to get more reps but no actual tension on the pull up so he’s not actually working toward failure. If he needed to go for more reps they have assistance bands for that to help him.)

(At least this one seems to be with better form. Admittedly we don’t see his legs, but he’s properly holding for a split second at the top of the contraction. If he holds it there it can help build strength and muscle size)

(but oh my look at the separation of the head of the bicep. Beautiful)

Okay I’m not 100% sure where to start out with a muscle canon on Rin since there’s a long history. I’m sure part of it has to do with his desire to be like his dad and Gou is a factor as well. It’s hard to say if his working out came first, if she was influenced by her dad, or if Gou’s muscle kink has helped to push Rin on his muscle. One way or another, Rin’s love of muscle and trying to push himself has long been ingrained in him. The one difference with Rin is because he’s a swimmer is while he can get bigger and stronger, he has to be proportioned a particular way. He may get slightly bigger but he’ll always stay proportioned right. 

While the gif may prove me wrong, I think that Rin would be a lot like Rei and want to make sure he’s doing things correctly and making sure he’s doing things with the proper form and with a focus on improving mobility. Especially once he knows and they try to fix Sousuke’s shoulder (which is a thing I understand well let me tell you that) they will both want to increase range of motion and reduce injury as well. He’s going to do it right and be smart about it

But I think Rin’s love of muscle would manifest early, probably at least in the end of junior high. He’d love seeing himself go faster, stronger, and seeing his muscles grow. I could see Gou helping (or forcing) Rin to measure his muscles to see if he’s gaining muscle and which things he need to work on. This also leads into why he’s more well proportioned. I think he’s more overall better shape when Makoto has a better back and according to @dumdumdrawstumtums​ a Hank Hill butt, but Rin is more well rounded. It is possible because he started to work out earlier than Sousuke and Makoto that Rin isn’t as tall as them (it can be possible that working out with too much weight too early can stunt growth which could explain me compared to others but I have never seen real studies on this, just older books I’ve read so could totally be a myth) but he’s going to have much higher flexibility (as evidenced by his tumblr rep as a stripper)

I do think that Rin likes to subtly show off his muscle by wearing tight clothes or revealing clothing. I also think with him liking muscle and probably always working towards putting on muscle and increasing strength as long as it doesn’t slow down his swimming since that’s his ultimate goal for now. I can definitely see Rin loving growing out of clothes when his arms are too tight for the sleeves or his shirt starts to ride up his back if he flexes too much or his chest when he moves makes his shirt bunch up or it starts to pinch around armpit. Once he loosens up I could see Rin putting on a display for Sousuke or Momo and Nitori (and they would all react differently if heaven forbid he actually tore a shirt). He might be convinced to flex in front of the team, and I halfway believe that they could teach the team more about anatomy by just having Rin pose in a swimsuit. 

I think that there is definitely a possibility in the future especially after he’s done with swimming that Rin could turn professional model and could be someone that will end up on magazine covers or even do like physique competitions. I also think as he got older, he might try to develop his upper body a bit more so he will have a much more defined V shape (though he’s definitely not bad now) Do I still think Rin is an eater? ABSOLUTELY. My favorite is he’s a hard gainer so is having to constantly eat. He may try the technique of intermittent fasting where he only eats within a certain window or even just one big meal, but I like to think that he’s the type that would love to both have a great eating capacity but have the great bod to match. 

One last thing though, is I think that if Rin knows you’re into him and muscle, he’s REALLY going to torture you and he’ll love it. He’d be the type that would throw an arm around Momo and make sure to subtly flex his bicep or squat so you see his butt or flex his back or SOMETHING to tease you about it. Even do something like flex his obliques or let his tank top strap fall off his shoulder to show off his shoulder or his pec or heck I even see him lifting up his shirt to flex his abs and even do the wave with them (I actually think he has a lot of muscle control there so he could even pretend to bloat out if he wanted or do the vacuum). He’s a doof that will exploit you if he knows your weakness is him. 

Now Ben Tennyson is another interesting one because we KNOW for a fact that he grows into this:

Though I personally really hope he reconsiders on that facial hair.

But at some point he really does start to workout. Again I like to think he’s hard gainer and has to eat a ton to be able to put on mass but that’s a different canon (that I’ve already written lol). For Ben, I think that that basically comes out of the decision that he needs to get stronger and he’s constantly fighting. So he would have a much more different kind of ton and strength because it would be fighting based muscles but I do think between high school and college that Ben would really start to hit the gym both with weights and probably like agility training. Mostly likely with Kevin (RIP attractive buff Kevin) being his trainer/spotter. I could see them both spending time at the gym together and Kevin really helping Ben to push his limits and watch his form so he would improve quickly.

I think that with that kind of training and his eating habits, that Ben would bulk up very quickly with beginner gains and probably keep it up the whole time. Also like Rin I think he’d be one that would LOVE to show off his muscle once he starts. First his leather jacket would start to get tight, then his tshirts and I think Ben would LOVE to have his sleeves rip or bulge out. I could see him being the type that would wear a tight V neck tshirt and then love to bounce his pecs if someone was interested. Or really if Ben was just being really bad at flirting. Same with raising his shirt to show his abs or just finding an excuse to take off his shirt. Once he gets big enough, he would just peel it off for no real reason other than “comfort” and freedom of movement.

Ben would be the type that would try to strike poses when he was trying to show off and may even do it during battle if he thought someone was looking. I also imagine that he’d love to go swimming a lot more and like relax from a battle in a sauna or jacuzzi. Rook would have a lot of mixed feelings about this because it was a gratuitous display but he’s also probably really like being able to watch himself.

Honestly as long as he kept his mobility up, I really do think that Ben would be more likely to to get into legit bodybuilding probably thanks to Kevin’s influence. Maybe not enough to do anything competitive but he’d really like to have the power trip and know he’s looking good. I also think he did it on the added idea that the stronger his human body is, the stronger that the rest of his forms are so it is actually better for him to bulk up. But then I also had the strange thought of Ben doing a swimsuit calendar for the entire galaxy that will sell like hotcakes.

Originally posted by nicorobin

The Hitachiin twins would be an interesting bunch. If muscle captured their attention long enough they could be really interesting. Only problem is I could see them being fickle. HOWEVER that could be applied to them doing different types of work outs or sports so they are always showing off on what they are doing. 

I have the feeling that if either Haruhi showed interest in muscle (which I have no problem with there) or a subset of the clientele had a muscle fetish, I think the pair would pounce on it. and by that I mean literally do it as part of the club. The twins would probably set up a gym in the corner of the club and workout for everyone, most likely shirtless just to show off to everyone. 

You know that the pair would tease everyone too by doing something like “Hikaru, don’t you think my bicep is bigger?” “No Kaoru, don’t think my tricep is better defined?” “Well my delts are bigger!” “Oh yeah? My calves are AMAZING!” “What do you think Haruhi?” “Yeah what do you think?” *poses in front of all the girls and Haruhi to try to get attention.* This doesn’t include when they start to come on to each other either

Originally posted by loveandjustice

Then they would always play the switching game so they would probably stay roughly the same size, though Haruhi would always be able to tell the difference and even point out some subtle muscle differences. I think once they got big enough it’s very likely that they would end up being a feature of the club and have some sort of muscle posing contest potentially only in colored posing trunks. 

They would definitely flirt more with their bodies and they would put flexing as part of their hosting time. I could see if they got strong enough that they would lift or bench press some of the girls or pull them up by lifting their arms. I also think they would give lots of piggy back rides and flatter the girls saying how they weren’t heavy at all but everyone would love it because they would get to touch their broad muscular backs. Generally I think they would have some fun showing off their strength and fitting into form fitting clothes. I don’t think they would get SUPER buff, again more fitness model size but everything would be tailored to fit them really well. So everything would show off their figure and be a general tease. They most likely are going to have to have the type of pants that have some sort of elastic in them so that they can sit without having to tear the seat of their pants.

I also think that they would end up taking votes on which muscle group they should work on that day when they worked out in front of everyone. I think they would love to tease Tamaki with their muscle and he probably end up getting a personal trainer of his own too. But even then, they would flex right in front of Tamaki. I could see them sitting really close to him (like they were that in that RottenHeart pic with their bellies) and let their big shoulders muscles just be right there. And then probably pec bounce right in front of him just to get him flustered. 

anonymous asked:

I used to love Todae too but then realized they're prob not very close off camera. :( Top was the only member who never went to support any of Dae's solo concerts even though he was free and was also in Japan at the time. But he was able to go to GD's concert twice during the same period. Top and Dae are also never spotted hanging out together when it's not for work related stuff.

Awww man. That’s really upsetting about T.O.P not going to Dae’s solo concerts. I had no idea (I’ve only been a huge fan for about a year aha). I suspected that it was only really an on-camera thing, but I guess we’ll never know.

anonymous asked:

I see ppl hating on welcome to the madness and I don't know why? Do you know? I haven't seen it/read it but it seems like some people are really mad about it ;')

;”D I see what you did there ahaha

Well, I’ve seen quite a few reasons why, all of which I will try to explain the best I can with limited bias first, then give my own views on it separately. This way, everyone can come to their own conclusions and the like, and no one confuses my explanations for me trying to force my own views onto anyone! 😂

- People think that WTTM sexualises Yurio due to several reasons. The main ones I see are the backless tank top he wears, some of the moves in the program (mostly the one that’s modeled after a move Johnny Weir often does, where he bends back onto the ice and glides. In Yurio’s case, this causes his shirt to ride up, exposing his torso), and, of course, when Otabek helps remove Yurio’s glove with his teeth.

- Going off of the last point above, basically Otabek’s entire presence in WTTM has angered a lot of people. These are mostly people who do not ship the two together, often citing the accusation of “it’s paed/ophilia” for this (not always, but it is a common reason on here.) Otabek removing Yurio’s glove with his teeth was pretty much the straw that broke the camel’s back for a lot of people who are angry over WTTM.

Now for my own opinions.

Me stating my opinions =/= me telling you what views you have to have. 

Do I think that WTTM was pure? No, I really don’t think it was the spitting image of angelic purity. But it was 1000% in-character for Yurio. He is a teenage edgelord. More than anything, WTTM was edgy. It was not inherently sexual in my eyes. There were a few moments that were slightly risque, but honestly I hesitate to even use the word risque for this. None of the camera angles focused in on shots that would be inappropriate, and there really weren’t any unusually sensual moves incorporated into the program. 

I actually really like that Yurio was finally able to skate a program his character wanted, and I think that someone of his age should have the freedom to express himself, even in an edgy manner. Such a thing is the exact opposite of unusual for teens to want to do. From personal experience, I can tell you that when I was younger than Yurio was during WTTM, I recall people doing much worse in environments like school dances. I honestly don’t know why so many people on here are incredibly, incredibly shocked that a teenager, going through the process of maturing and discovering who he is, may not be the embodiment of innocence. (Read more due to length and content)

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anonymous asked:

i don't want to be a pessimist here, i really hope destiel is endgame and after s12, and after i read some of your meta, (which is amazing btw), i mostly believe it will be, but i shipped johnlock too, and all the subtext and even text and the foreshadowing and all those hints that johnlock is endgame was all for nothing...or maybe just for queerbaiting, and i was really butthurt about it that i'm afraid to put any hopes up for destiel, how do you think destiel is different than johnlock?

I may be a bit controversial on tumblr about Johnlock because…. well I didn’t really see it like it was blatant and going to be canon, I saw it as subtext that was something they added to give it a bit of pizazz without thinking they were actually in love or that it would be endgame canon. 

I really enjoyed the first seasons of Sherlock (I just cannot get my head around how the last season worked at all, maybe I need to try again, but it just didn’t make any sense to me) and my interpretation was that Sherlock might be a bit romantically interested in John, but push come to shove he was more intellectually interested in him and the friendship they forged and I never really saw John as being romantically interested in Sherlock at all.

I felt like they added the subtext, which for me, was subtext only, to add a bit of spice to their chemistry and their character bond, but without actually meaning to make it romantic.

Now I see this differently to Destiel in that I read Destiel as 1. much more blatant because of the continuous and abundant nature of it, given that it is now nearly 9 years and much more material to work with due to there being…. around 135 hours of SPN since season 4 v 15 hours of Sherlock

2. But also that it is written into the script in terms of the fact that it has a real effect on the PLOT, not just sitting alongside it as subtext to be ‘enjoyed’ (I say ‘enjoyed’ because I know how painful it was to fans who really wanted it and it didn’t happen but for a lot of people I think it did add to the enjoyment of the show by deepening their character bond). Whole seasons don’t make sense without taking into account the deep feelings between Dean and Cas, I mean… seasons 4-6 are all about Cas saving the world because of his love for Dean, season 7 is one big long metaphor for Dean’s innermost thoughts and depression about Cas, season 11′s mytharc plots rests on Dean’s love for Cas and how Amara uses it… 

I totally feel for anyone who felt queerbaited by Johnlock because I genuinely do think that they put subtext in there on purpose thinking it would be a great addition to the chemistry but had no intention of going through with it as it was just that, a fanciful way to deepen their connection without it really being actually scripted love (honestly this is wanky, but I really don’t rate Martin Freeman as an actor, I find him so cold that it wouldn’t surprise me if they upped the written subtext in order to counter his wooden performance),  I just don’t think they realised how much people would feel cheated by it.

With Dean and Cas, their story is much longer as stated above which enables it to go much deeper into so many more romantic tropes, for them to be portrayed as much more of the romance than the buddy trope, I think they fulfil like 67% of romance tropes? where most couples on tv / in movies settle at most around 10-25% ish? This is because they are able to do so due to the pure length of time we have been watching them and because they are actively portraying it in this way. I’m trying to remember how many Dean and Sam fill and Sam and Cas fill? I think Dean/Sam is like 12% and Cas/Sam is probably about 2%! So there is a real reason why it is so strong with just these two…

Season 12 is all about taking it now from the subtext into the text, we have been watching it with a similar “will they won’t they” attitude towards TPTB as with Johnlock up til now, even though it was scripted and much more plot - related I believe, there was still a chance that they would potentially back out, even if it didn’t make sense for the story, it was still a possibility because I think a lot of the GA don’t really see the way that the story doesn’t make sense without it.

For example in season 11, I think many of the GA just look at the top level and don’t read into WHY Amara couldn’t contact Dean without going through Cas, how her forced bond with Dean was not as strong as his chosen bond with Cas even though she was GOD’S SISTER or WHY Amara’s whole interactions with Dean were all about him repressing his emotions, loving, but it being clouded in shame, holding himself back. 

I mean some people were shocked at some of what Dean said in 12x22, they were also shocked at how Dean acted in 12x11 and a lot of this season said he was OOC, which he absolutely WAS NOT, he was entirely HIMSELF and that was the point! That he had DROPPED the facade so his true self was showing through in snippets and I’m sure these people will be absolutely shocked when he acts more and more like this in season 13.

I feel like to get through to some people Dean literally has to say something blatant like “Sammy I’m done pretending, this is me, deal with it, oh and by the way, I like dudes too” before taking a big bite of a Chicken Parmeggiano and ordering an ice cream sundae and getting back to business, cos man the point is, he’s not that different, there’s just a few things he keeps locked away, but his whole character isn’t going to change.

Anyway, same goes for Destiel, it’s going to have to be eased in slowly but made blatant now and I feel like season 12 was the first part and season 13 should be the second, before it can go canon, so that people aren’t shocked by it, in exactly the same way as they did Performing!Dean this season, ramping up the subtext before taking it into the text and then finally making it canon.

So now after season 12 it feels to me that with all the bad PR around queer baiting with Sherlock, with all the bad PR around Supernatural (if you google queer baiting SPN comes up on the first page), it would be diabolically stupid for the new showrunner to ramp up the subtext like this and bring it into the text as he did from mid season 11 onwards, without taking it towards endgame canon.

It doesn’t mean they will for 100% sure but I would be so confused if they didn’t now, it would literally be the worst kind of ongoing, not just subtextual but textual now queerbaiting and a total shambles of a PR disaster as well as making NO sense to their own story which has been so carefully crafted for over a decade. 

I don’t think they’re THAT stupid to take a beautiful story and rip the soul of it out, destroying their credibility as writers as well as PR Hell…

I have trust in Andrew Dabb until proven otherwise :)

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cold, ocean, phonebook

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What she needed was a local dive, some seedy diner with busted red vinyl booths and laminated menus featuring blue plate specials and eggs any way you would like them. As dusk settled over the Californian sea beyond her, she flipped through a phonebook, thought of keywords for what she wanted: milkshakes, family-owned, titled as Chuck’s Place or Beverly’s Diner or even The Greasy Spoon. Biting her lip in concentration, she counted the waves beyond her little payphone, measured time with them as she looked over all of the listed restaurants from here to San Francisco. Loleta was an odd combination of seaside and rustic, rich and unpopulated; if she wanted a diner, she would have to drive, and after that day, she didn’t want to be stuck behind a wheel any longer than was absolutely necessary.

And Kersh had been called, and their asses were on the line, and their return flight to D.C. would be filled with her last moments of reprieve before an inevitable hailstorm of paperwork, liability, and unfortunately both metaphorical and literal manure rained down upon her desk, but somehow, she had the inkling that a good plate of corned beef hash at a checkered palace where neon lights claimed open twenty-four hours and where blonde waitresses scooted around on roller-skates would at least take Mulder’s mind off of exploding eardrums and the fragility of human life. Of course, the inkling was hardly backed up by solid scientific fact, and just last week, she’d told him that he needed to better his diet for the sake of his heart’s health, but nonetheless, she needed to find him respite, a place where he felt most in his element. First, a diner came to mind even though Loleta seemed void of any diners.

Back in her second year working with him, they’d been stranded in a snowstorm in Burlington, the roads closed and all of the native Vermonters snuggled beneath flannel sheets while she’d phoned her mother to say why she couldn’t make mass on Sunday. That night, they’d holed up in one of the few bed-and-breakfasts that had power, the lake effect wind rustling the shutters on her window, the television’s rabbit ears barely picking up a signal, and at two in the morning, when she’d somehow still been awake, he’d knocked heavily at her door, shouted to her, “I’m starving. Want to get dinner?”

And then, they were in a Ford Taurus - rented, of course - barreling over snowdrifts while plows on all kinds of cars - most commonly trucks but also Jeeps and Yukons and even the occasional S.U.V. - cleared what they could, silent and fat flakes of snow still falling well into the night. From the reckless turns Mulder made, and from the crunchy way the brake pedal on that car had felt even before the snowstorm, she clenched her fists on her lap for the whole ride, her mind repeating I cannot die in a snowstorm with this man, for that’ll be the most tragic way for me to go. While Mulder sought out a diner, they both realized that, apparently, there was a culture surrounding the idea of a diner and that so-called diner culture didn’t exist in Vermont, where shops closed at five in the afternoon and dared not reopen until morning. Stomachs empty, they made it back to the motel, where they managed two candy bars out of a vending machine and where they sat together on his bed, her boots left at the door while his were kicked off haphazardly in the middle of the room, and watched local programming on the fuzzy television. Unsurprisingly, Vermont news was tame to the point of hilarity; over processed chocolates, they laughed at how Mrs. Roberts’ grandson’s visit was the breaking story of the night, and when Scully fell asleep alongside Mulder, he was polite enough not to wake her until morning.

And now, she once again found that, when they needed a diner most, one would never appear.

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anonymous asked:

Thank you for writing what you did about Atomic Blonde. Literally all I've seen about it on twitter/tumblr is 'DON'T SEE IT, KILLS A LESBIAN IS DISGUSTING AND MISOGYNISTIC OFC' and I haven't been able to articulate why that's such a damagingly simplistic view of what happened but you captured it perfectly. I loved the film and I'm glad another bi lady did too :)

Anon, you honestly don’t know what this message means to me, I posted that post with the idea in my mind that I was probably going to get flames, saw the +1 and thought “There’s my first hate mail of the night”, and this is such a beautifull and cleansing surprise

I’ve seen enormously mixed reveiws going through the first minute of posts in the Atomic Blonde tag, it’s kind of half and half from what I saw, but I felt the need to post myself because some of the pro!AB posts I saw (note: SOME not ALL) seemed very dismissive of the Kill The Your Gays/Burry Your Lesbians trope wich is just… not good

See there’s a difference between Kill Your Gays and “We have to kill this person off who happens to be gay” but people don’t often see or atleast acknowledge that difference

The Vampire Diaries killed their lesbians

The 100 HAD to kill off a lesbian woman because the actress was leaving the show and there was no way, plot wise, for them to have her… what? Run off on a toxic planet to never return because the actress was on a different show?

Supernatural killed their lesbian

The Walking Dead HAD to kill off a lesbian woman in order to leave Alexandria without a doctor so that Maggie would have a reason to be in desperate need of going to Hilltop surrounded by 90% of the main cast, wich had to happen to get them confronted by Negan (ha… oh how I wish this hadn’t happened but you know how plots are)

There’s a very big problem of offensive and problematic tropes developing and then fandom being so- RIGHTFULLY- hurt by those tropes that they assume anything that CAN play to it, DOES play to it (IE: Yuri On Ice!!! being “queerbaiting” despite the show being about a literal, canonically queer couple who are in a romantic relationship, just because Japanese censorship laws LITERALLY do not allow an on-screen show of lip-on-lip male/male kissing that isn’t, in some way, hidden)

Things like what happened to Charlie on Supernatural are the reason why people are RIGHTFULLY upset at the Bury Your Gays trope, especially for lesbians, but there’s a line between avoiding an offensive trope and avoiding certain narratives all together, and as I said in the first post, the “Lover of the protagonist dies and fuels their mission” trope is a tale as old as time, look at American Assassin! Dylan O'Brien’s fiance’ gets killed off in the very beginning but I haven’t seen anyone call THAT misogynistic yet and that one fuels the pain of a straight man, but that’s the way the genre works (not that’s an excuse not to deviate from it though)

One of the biggest problems about queer media that’s even MARGINALLY mainstream is that it’s all the same *~~tragic and depressing oh woe it is to be queer~~* nonsense that wins Oscars and usually has some tragic ending where they don’t end up together or one of them dies or whatever, becase *~oh woe to be gay~*, queer media needs to branch into other genres…. like horror, and spies, and thrillers, and those movies don’t typically have Everyone Is Happy And Alive endings

And on a very personal note, as a bisexual woman, Atomic Blonde is so important to me because Lorraine’s sexuality is not erased or fetishized or closeted or portrayed in ANY way other than purely bisexual, and she’s never put down for it, she’s never called a slur, she’s never accused of “just being straight/gay and unable to decide”, it never COMES UP at all, and oh my GOD that’s so rare that, as a person who legitimately goes to the movie theater EVERY Friday, I cannot, off the top of my head, think of another movie where that’s the case

Bisexual representation- ESPECIALLY positive bi representation- is a freaking UNICORN in the vast sea of media and you’d better bet I’m going to hang onto this beautifull blonde unicorn with everything I have because I KNOW I’m not going to see it again until Gotham City Sirens, probably, and that’s… what? Four years from now?

I am so so so happy you sent me this message Anon, I am honestly, honestly so happy, thank you

Originally posted by yandereatheart

More Yandere Family Au Headcanons...

After Knock Out disables Starscream’s wings for trying to take his Jack away from him, Starscream is left shaky and paranoid. He’s angry too, extremely angry, but underneath it all, he’s terrified. He can’t fly or even express himself, and of course Megatron doesn’t care about his safety as long as he can still be useful in some way.  Even if Megatron did bother to ask, Knock Out would just tell him Starcream’s injuries were do to work related stress

But underneath all the fear and the anger and the self pity, Starscream also feels just the tiniest smidgen of sympathy towards Jack. At first he blames the boy for his condition but then comes to realize just how much danger Jack really is in around his new “parents”. He’ll be lucky if he survives to adulthood at this rate

Starscream starts thinking about a way to get Jack off the ship. It’s not out of sympathy, not at all. He just really, really wants Knock Out to suffer for what he did, and letting his little pet human escape is the best thing he can think of.  So he starts secretly trying to convince Jack to leave.

Jack is honestly terrified of leaving at this point. He’s seen what Knock Out did to Starscream, he can’t even imagine what would happen to him if he got caught running away, not to mention what those monsters would do to his mother. Not only that, but it was because of him that Starscream was hurt in the first place. What if the seeker just wants revenge against him and his offers to help Jack escape are merely some cruel trick? 

Starscream gets increasingly frustrated trying to explain himself.  Fine.  Whatever.  Who cares? If the boy wants to stay with those monsters, let him. If Jack never wants to see his friends or family again, that’s his business.  It’s not Starscream’s problem. But there’s just that tiny shred of guilt that never leaves him whenever he sees Jack’s terrified, stricken face. Starscream can’t help but think of all the times he’s suffered at the hands of Megatron and it makes his energon boil.  Starscream eventually decides he’s had enough. Of Megatron, of Knock Out, of the Decepticons in general. So he leaves. But not before grabbing Jack and fleeing out through the ground bridge

His wings still won’t work, so it makes getting around difficult, but he eventually finds an abandoned Deception wreck in the middle of the woods and decides to make himself at home. Jack has no idea how to react. He hasn’t said a word to Starscream since the con snatched him from his bed in the middle of the night. He thinks he’s just been thrown out of the frying pan and into the fire.  Starscream for the most part ignores him, or just sort of talks out loud at him. He’d never admit it, not in a million years, but it’s far less lonely having someone else there with him. He has no idea what he’s doing, but at least he has someone. Even if that someone is just a human.

He makes it very clear to Jack that he’s not a prisoner. Believe him, having a annoying human pet around is the last thing he’d want. But neither of them really know where they are. And Knock Out and Megatron will be searching for both of them relentlessly so they might as well stay together. Jack is able to sneak around the woods far more easily, so he’s able to get food for himself as well as energon scraps for Starscream from an abandoned mine, while Starscream works on getting the ship back online. He also helps disable Jack’s tracking collar. (Can’t have anyone following them can they?)

Megatron is of course angry, but then he always is at Starscream. Knock Out is furious but takes comfort in the fact that Starscream never got his wings fixed.  But his satisfaction quickly turns again to fury once he realizes the collar has been disabled.

Meanwhile, Jack starts to notice that Starscream seems much more personable than he once did. He’s still a sarcastic aft, but he seems like deep down he actually wants Jack to be impressed with him. It’s odd, Jack thinks, but then again, Starscream thrives on attention. Having a human look up to him is like a huge stroke to his ego, especially since he’s all alone now. Jack finds himself slowly starting to trust the runaway seeker, maybe even befriend him. Arcee is going to be pissed, he thinks with a small smile.

One day, several weeks into his and Starcream’s odd partnership, Jack returns to the ship, after a day of foraging, to find the place strangely deserted.  Thinking Starscream must have just gone out to stretch his legs, he enters but can’t shake the sinking feeling of dread in the pit of his stomach. He nearly screams as he’s suddenly lifted into the air and met with the piercing red glow of Knock Out’s optics. From over the con’s shoulder Jack can see Starscream’s bloodied and battered frame hanging limply in Breakdown’s grasp. 

“Jack,” Knock Out begins with a menacing, knowing smirk, “We’re so glad we found you.  You had us worried." 

Jack breaks down into chest racking sobs.

anonymous asked:

Hey so I wanted to start witch practice but I have no clue where to start? I don't own anything I don't think or even know where to begin and I was wondering if you had any tips?

Hello little witchling! I’m flattered that you decided to come to me and I will do my very best to help you figure everything out. If you ever have any more questions feel free to come back :)

Some lovely people have already made Witchcraft 101 posts so I will link them below:

orriculum’s witchcraft masterpost ✨   ( Personally I adore this witch! She is an amazing witch and is always super helpful to beginners!)

9 Tips for a New Witch by tarigrove (A very practical list of tips that is honestly great for any level of witch)

More Tips by tarigrove


Now on to my own tips:

1) Research is your best friend.

It is super easy to take everything from this site and just run with it, but please PLEASE always double check any sort of facts you see on here. All of us here no matter how long we’ve been actively practicing are still learning and growing. Don’t let someone’s mistake cost you. Plus doing your own research will give you your own sense of accomplishment once you find that you are starting to understand things! If you put effort into anything then when you are able to achieve your goal it feels even sweeter

2) It isn’t a Race

People grow & learn at different speeds. Just because someone is able to understand one form of magic right away verses having to practice over and over just to get the basics down doesn’t make either person the better witch. Pace yourself. Trust me, I know this from experience, don’t ever push yourself until you feel so empty that you can’t move.

3) Your Tools

I know it can be overwhelming to see posts of gorgeous BoS (book of shadows) and the best of the best tools that others can have. I get so jealous over those who have clean hand written notes in their BoS since I have chicken scratch handwriting myself; however, your tools only aide you. They don’t turn you into a top notch witch right away. Don’t feel pressured to have to go out and buy the most expensive all leather journal, the biggest crystals, the most herbs… All that will do is make you a newbie and broke. Your first journal can be a notebook like you would use at school. My very first BoS was a diary that I converted into one. Its okay to start small and work your way up.

4) Trust Your Gut

Now I know this may seem like the most obvious of things, but it is still needed to be said. If you see something that just doesn’t seem quite right then trust yourself. Don’t ever do something that makes you feel uncomfortable.

5) Religion VS Not

Witchcraft isn’t a religion. It is a tool. It is how some worship and how others just live. You don’t have to be a Wiccan (a neo-pagan religion) to be a witch. You can be Christian, Muslim, Jewish, etc. You can be whatever you feel like being. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

6) Titles

You will often see posts around here with names like “green witchcraft” or “cosmic witchcraft”. Those are forms of witchcraft. You don’t ever have to give yourself a title or put a title on your Craft. (Honestly doing so when you first start is the best way to put your Craft into a box.) These titles are mainly used so that like-minded witches can find one another easier. You can just be a witch. You don’t have to force yourself into a category box.

feyre-cursebreaker  asked:

The whole Eris thing is so stupid I don't know how to feel about it. It feels so retconned but at the same time we're not given any backstory so we don't really know what went down, we don't know where the truth or lies are. SJM sucks at redemption arcs.

Yeah. I don’t really see why multiple people can’t also be wearing masks same as Rhys. But I feel you on the redemption arc thing. There is a certainly a double standard. But honestly, I can’t argue as to whether Eris was always going to have an arc like this or not. Because we only ever got one side. We all thought Rhys was horrible to until he showed us the nuance involved with what we’re all willing to do in war and to survive. I’ve certainly read books that deal with these darker aspects of human nature better/more fully. I wish people would stop trying to see everything as black and white, good and evil, male and female, is versus them. Those are false narratives that don’t exist in the real world. Everything exists on a spectrum. But we have to be able to look beyond how we’ve been told to think and look and behave, in order to see that truth lies in the nuance. And it’s always messy, it’s never clear.

I can honestly say that my interpretation of the text was that Eris knew Mor was gay, they had some kind of friendly relationship before, he though he was helping by breaking the engagement, Mor got beat, he was unable to come help her—and none of that changes the fact that Mor now associates him with her abuse. But the fact remains that as far as we know, he never put his hands on her. And I think Mor feeling betrayed by him speaks to the fact that they had some kind of friendly relationship before he broke the engagement. Because if they didn’t, then why would she feel betrayed and angry that he left her in the forest? An abuser leaving someone to die is not new behavior. But a friend leaving another friend to die is behavior that doesn’t line up. And therefore where there was once maybe love of friendship, or some kind of friendly accord, became feelings of betrayal and hate. We can’t hate people we don’t love or have never cared for. The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. So I see Eris as knowing Mor was gay, trying to help her, her now associating him with the abuse her parents inflicted….and then on top of it she knows he know she’s gay. So that’s one more thing to feel on edge about around him. It’s a perfect storm.

And that’s not to discredit the abuse Mor had at her parents hands or how she feels. But I question how much she sees the truth in Eris and doesn’t report because she can’t risk anyone finding him believable enough to speak the truth about why he stopped the engagement (she likes women) and then that person knowing she’s gay.

And to complicate that further, Mor would potentially have more to answer for if she came out. Because if her gift is truth, and she lied by omission, or just kept it to herself that Eris wasn’t all bad, then she’s been lying in more ways than one. And don’t get me wrong, I love realistic characters and I do not in any way shape or form see this as reflecting badly on Mor. This is real shit that happens in the real world and it’s never as easy or as simple as being black and white. If anything ever is, then we should run from it. Honestly. I love this about Mor because it makes her relatable and real as a character.

Now. There are some LEGIT arguments to have about “feminism” and what that means to different people and how it does or does not apply to these characters, the ACOTAR universe, the books in general. And sorry I’m on my phone typing this out so it’s kind of a jumbled mess. And I probably need to clarify stuff better, but i can’t cuz I’m on my phone. Let me know if you need to me explain something better.

nekochan84  asked:

How about the RFA plus V thoughts on a MC who is on the hefty side and has Turner's Syndrome and can't have kids. (chromosome condition that affect girls and makes it nearly if not impossible for them to have kids) That is if you want too if you don't that's okay~

I love this idea, both MC being chubby and not being able to have kids, so I would be happy to do this for you! Sorry about the wait, should be better now that school is coming to a close. I hope you enjoy! <3


-When it comes to your size, he doesn’t care

-He thinks you’re amazing just the way you are

-He’ll be your workout buddy if you want him to be, but will always encourage you

-He wants you to be happy in your own skin, so he’ll do his best to help you with that

-Will sing you any love song to you just to prove his point

-As for the kids, he was a little shocked to hear it, but a little relieved

-He didn’t have a very good family, and he always worries if he’ll be good enough

-He would be the type to maybe get a surrogate mother. with your permission of course

-Just so the child would be his still

-Not just because of his looks too, he wants to have a child that’s his

-And as long as you’re there at his side, however that happens is fine by him


-Looks really don’t mean a lot to him

-After listening to Zen’s narcissistic bragging for years, he knows that it’s what’s on the inside that counts

-So you being on the chubbier side, is not an issue whatsoever

-He fell in love with the girl he met in those chatrooms, nothing will change that

-If you’re feeling insecure, he’ll cuddle you all night long

-You’re his beautiful princess, and you always will be

-When you did finally tell him about your condition, he’s a little disappointed

-It’s no secret that he wants to have a family of his own

-But, he doesn’t want you to feel guilty at all, so he quickly researches alternatives with you

-He finds a process of helping fertilize the egg, and goes with that

-He honestly just wants to have a child that’s his, and wants them to inherit your beauty

-He will make it work and make sure you’re happy


-Like Yoosung, looks don’t really matter to her

-She’s always been a bit conservative, and she knows people are sometimes not who they seem

-She’s found someone that makes her happy, that’s all that matters

-She’ll bake you special cakes if you’re getting a bit down, and will list all the things she loves about you

-She literally keeps a list hidden somewhere, and adds onto it every day

-She loves you for you, not your looks

-As for the kids, it was never really an issue in the first place

-But she’s glad you opened up and told her

-She always thought of maybe adopting, but she’s willing to have a pregnancy a different way

-For you

-She’s very logical, and great at research, so she finds the best place to go either way

-So, when you two are ready, you’ll both be prepared to start a family together


-When you first came to his house, he was a little surprised

-Let’s be honest, in his life, he’s pretty much only seen trophy wives and figures to match

-But don’t think that’ll impair his love for you at all

-He found someone he connects with, your looks don’t change that

-He likes to get you custom tailored clothes, so you don’t feel self-conscious at all while shopping

-If you don’t want him to, he likes to kiss every inch of skin he can to show how much he loves you

-If you’re wearing a night gown, he’ll kiss your neck and side of your face. If you’re wearing a tank top, he’ll kiss all down your arms, and so on

-When you finally told him, he’s actually pretty calm

-He explains that he’s not ready just yet to be a father

-After living with his own, he wants to make sure he can give them as much attention as they deserve

-You two have a bit of a heart to heart, since he doesn’t want you feeling upset at all, and you learn more about him

-When you two are ready, you settle on adoption

-Even if it doesn’t seem like it, he likes helping people

-And in his life, a great family is the best gift you can give


-He already knew what you looked like before you even saw him

-Won’t admit it, but immediately felt drawn to you after that

-He knows that looks mean nothing

-Talking to you in the chatroom just made him fall in love with you more and more

-He’s never been superficial, so if you’re happy with yourself, so is he

-Anyone else can shut up, if you ask him

-He makes you feel loved every minute of everyday, so you never doubt yourself

-And again, when it comes to your condition, he already knew

-He’s a bit sad about having kids that aren’t his at first, but you two decide to look at some adoption agencies

-When you two are married and ready, you find the perfect place and set up a meeting

-He sees a set of twins, and immediately wants to help them

-He doesn’t want anyone to go through what he went through with his own home life and brother

-Adopting is the best option, because he can help kids like him

-He becomes the person he never had growing up, and he loves every second of it


-Well, looks were never a center point for him, even before his accident

-He knows better than anyone in the RFA that looks can be deceiving

-He learned to look past a person’s looks and see their heart, and he definitely saw yours in those chatrooms

-Even if it was hard for him to read at times, he hung on to your every word

-When he finally met you, he was stunning by both your inner beauty, and your outer beauty

-You were the person to save him from his own darkness, and he will forever be grateful for you

-When it comes to kids, he was very supportive while you told him

-He understood the worries you had, and assured you that it wasn’t an issue for him

-Any child/children he had with you would be amazing

-It may take a little longer to start a family, but that’s just because you two want to find what’s right

-He knows there are plenty of ways to work around your condition, so finding the best one is key

-He’s an extremely understanding person, so whichever you choose, he’ll be fine with

-He knows you’ll be a great mother regardless, and he’ll be there to support you every step of the way

anonymous asked:

I think her engagement isn't the problem, you know? As sad as it may sound, I think she would have been sidelined anyway. If anything, she probably would have been more sidelined because she wouldn't even have those panels to talk about. I don't know, I just feel like she is more than just another wife and the setting just doesn't allow her to contribute as much as girls like Kougyoku, for example, who are directly involved in the situation. I'm sorry for the random rant! 2/2

I’m going to paste your entire question below before answering. In retrospect, it would have made things less confusing if I had responded to this ask first with the bit about my submission box being an option for long questions. Whoops!

I hope I don’t sound mean but I think people are too harsh on poor Morgiana. She’s not royalty or anything so I think people expect her to do things she can’t in a setting that focuses so heavily on politics and whatnot. Obviously Ohtaka could put more focus on her (I wish, I really love her) but I think a lot of people also have somewhat unrealistic expectations for a character built this way.

 The “trophy wife” jokes kind of rub me off the wrong way, I don’t know.  I think her engagement isn’t the problem, you know? As sad as it may sound, I think she would have been sidelined anyway. If anything, she probably would have been more sidelined because she wouldn’t even have those panels to talk about. I don’t know, I just feel like she is more than just another wife and the setting just doesn’t allow her to contribute as much as girls like Kougyoku, for example, who are directly involved in the situation. I’m sorry for the random rant!

I agree with you wholeheartedly, anon. I think it’s extremely unreasonable and unfair that Morgiana is constantly being criticized for not hitting a political home run while so many other  female were born on third base.

I think she suffers from a problem similar to Mikasa Ackerman from Shingeki no Kyojin in that she’s generally tight-lipped and got a great deal of character development early on in the story. I think more people would be able to see that she’s just as developed as fandom darlings like Kougyoku if her development had been stretched over many story arcs. Of course, that wouldn’t make any narrative sense. It would be silly to have Morgiana dancing for the first time in the World Exploration Arc, or realizing that she didn’t have to ask permission to do something she wants to do just after the battle against the medium.


Realizing you have friends rather than masters who you don’t need to ask permission to hang out with? Experiencing joy and dancing for the first time? Pfffft. That’s not character development! Why look at that skimpy outfit she’s wearing. She’s just a mindless trophy waiting for a man to claim her. *eyeroll*

Even before she came to that realization in Sindria, Morgiana was willing & able to speak freely to a powerful monarch and successfully persuade him to take Alibaba more seriously. That’s a huge step for someone who was still mentally struggling with the notion that she could break free from slavery again just days before she arrived in Balbaad!

I think she gets a lot of flack for being “all brawn and no brains” because she spends so much time with more emotionally volatile male characters who are also seeking to increase their physical combat abilities. The only difference is that she has doesn’t have as many responsibilities to fret over while she’s training. She shouldn’t be faulted for not being born with the burdensome responsibilities that Aladdin, Alibaba and Hakuuryu do.

Why isn’t it enough just to get over the psychological trauma associated with being a slave and managing to live a normal, happy life? 


Masrur essentially does the same thing over the span of two standalone mangas. I’ve never heard anyone criticize him for being one-dimensional or lacking character development. I don’t know, maybe people have criticized him for it, or think that he’s a one-dimensional character and are fine with it. I think he’s a very complex, well-developed, insightful character. Honestly, Masrur seems to be the only person in the manga who has consistently able to give sound personal and political advice to anyone who bothers to ask him about such things. Ja’far and the magi have their moments, but I think Masrur still comes out on top when you consider how many times people have come to him for advice and how many times he gave them good advice. 

 So what if Morgiana wants to get married and not fight in bloody battles every day? Even when she had come to accept that she had feelings for Alibaba, she showed an admirable amount of self-awareness when she assertively asked him to wait because she still needed to grow more as an individual before entering into any kind of romantic relationship. 

That’s an impressive amount of emotional intelligence for well-educated IRL early twenty-something in our day and age to have, nevermind a former slave with little formal education in an overwhelmingly patriarchal society! If Kougyoku, who possessed a superior formal education and carried a great deal of responsibility as a princess and king vessel, was that emotionally intelligent and mature, she never would have fallen prey to Sinbad’s manipulation. Her character has developed significantly since the made her debut, but she’s still suffers from a bit of naivete with regard to politics and a lack of self-awareness when it comes to romance. I’m not claiming that such shortcomings are evidence of Kougyoku being a poorly developed character, but I think it underscores the value of knowing what you want out of life and being realistic about the things you need to do to get there. That applies to commoners and empresses alike.

For as much as people praise Magi the Labyrinth of Magic for it’s complex, grey characters, the notion that complex characters who spend their early years fighting to save themselves and the world would never want to settle down to a peaceful life akin to the people they fought so hard to save is patently ridiculous. Isn’t that what Ja’far spent much of his life being thankful for?

Yes, he has a busy job doing lots of paperwork and keeping Sinbad out of trouble, but I fail to see how deciding for yourself that you want to act as a support system for your childhood savior for the rest of your life diminishes the character’s complexity. That’s what both Ja’far and Morgiana are doing. Morgiana went even further by acting as bot watchdog and emotional support system for the person she had finally realized that she truly loved.

I triple double dog dare you or anyone else reading this to roll up on earnest SinJa shippers like @sinbad-ai, @mari-m-rose or @naoscifra and say that Ja’far is lacking in complexity or character development. Those are the most reasonable, emotionally mature SinJa shippers I can think of and I suspect they would take umbrage with the notion that a canonical romance with Sinbad would “ruin his character,” and they absolutely SHOULD.

I can already hear Morgiana critics claiming that a comparison between her and Ja’far is doesn’t work because she didn’t switch gears from being a martial artist to being some sort of administrative staffer like Ja’far. Again, she’s running up against a double standard. Much like Masrur, she already had a knack for martial arts. Jamil forced her use her skills to harm others against her will. Now she decides how she gets to use her power and what skill subsets she wants to hone and utilize. It’s no different from Masrur giving up swordsmanship and refusing to fight to the death in Zepar’s dungeon.


Ironically, I think the greatest testament to how much her character developed came from the heartbreaking scene in Magi 331 where she explains to Alibaba why she’d be satisfied with dying as she is. She seems to be saying that she’s been through so many changes and experiences that she truly believes she’s already lived a rich and fulfilling life. I don’t think the things she expresses in the panel below are ideas entirely planted in her head by Neo-Sinbad. I think his brainwashing has put her in the same mental state she’d be in if she was about to lose a physical fight to the death or die from a terminal illness.

I’ll end this dissertation response with the aforementioned panel, and let Morgiana’s words as translated by @itsdannystormborn to speak for themselves.


 i knew myself. what i can’t forgive, what makes me happy, what i think it’s fun, what happiness is

i have experienced a lot of different emotions/feelings by your side(together with you)

i was able to do it.

anonymous asked:

1How do I stop being so edgy? I am NOT an atheist, I believe the Christian God exists and that Jesus came to die for our sins. My parents are born again Christians, we go to church and have bible studies so I know a fair amount of info of the bible but it irritates me, i'm disgusted and disappointed at times.I can't believe The Lord is kind, I don't see how we are not simply a game to him. Starting right off on Genesis he knows man would fall just by putting temptation in front of Adam and Eve.

2But I feel so much sadness at the same time. I went to small group at my church and I felt really left out, I want to be a “super Christian”.ifeel so sad that I can’t love God, that I cant blindly read the times God has been unfair or over dramatic like the other Christians. That I don’t feel bad at all for being human. I listen to Christian music but I can’t into get worship mode like my mother does. I want to be able to repent and be 110 into this but I can’t human logic and emotions stop me.

3I see people around me slowly starting to go to church and immediately changing their life and views and ive been hearing about God and going to church longer than them and I’m starting to get really sad about it. What should I do? When I try to study the bible without previous opinions I always fall. I feel do awkward when I get asked in church if i plan to get baptized, I can’t, because I dont feel right doing it since I’m still so doubtful.    

Hi there friend,

I think something that is significantly hindering you is that you’re comparing yourself to other Christians. I see it several times throughout your messages - you say you want to be a “super Christian”, implying that you are observing other Christians you think are better than you. You compare your worship to your mother’s, saying you want to worship more like she does.

It’s not a bad thing to admire other Christians and feel their level of spiritual maturity is something to look up to. But you have to remember that what you are admiring is actually Christ you are seeing in them. Spiritual maturity is something He is responsible for growing and developing in a person, and it’s a reflection of Him in that person. It’s nothing gained by their own works or worthiness - rather, if we desire spiritual growth and seek it from Him, He will honor that request. You have to always keep in perspective that while admiration of others and desiring their level of spiritual maturity isn’t inherently a bad thing, it can reach a point that it becomes destructive and damaging. Our goal should be to become more and more like Christ, not like other Christians. No matter how polished and together a person appears to be, people often aren’t going to reveal the less pretty aspects of their walk as a Christian, such as weaknesses and struggles with sin - especially if they only know you as an acquaintance. I always say that people may draw assumptions about me from this blog, that I always have it all spiritually together based off the asks I answer here. But in reality, I struggle with sin that can be so crippling to resist and at times, I fail and I feel terrible about myself. You honestly cannot define someone as a “super Christian” based on what they choose to reveal to you. Yes, people do have different levels of spiritual maturity.. but I honestly don’t believe in the term “super Christian” because no matter how spiritually mature one may be, that person is still a flawed human being who would be lost without Christ. And in His eyes, He sees us all the same as His children - He has no favorites.   

The doubts you are experiencing are definitely not uncommon among Christians. In the past, I had my own doubts and confusion in terms of faith. I certainly don’t claim to know everything (and I never will), but as you grow in your faith, doubts evaporate and things just start to make more sense. It happens naturally. The key is to keep pressing forward in your faith, choosing to trust that He is good - even when you can’t wrap your mind around what is troubling you and even when the enemy tries attacking with jabs of doubt and fear that can be really unsettling. If you don’t give the enemy’s attacks attention and focus on Christ instead, I assure you things will fall into place and suddenly you’ll realize that the doubts and confusion have lessened and eventually, completely disappeared.

When it comes to worship, I truly urge you to refrain from comparing yourself to others. I used to fall into the same trap when I first started going to church after being born again. I am naturally a more reserved and quiet type of person. I worship and sing more freely when I am alone versus when I am around others. It’s just how I was built and I used to feel so paranoid that something was spiritually “wrong” with me because I felt scared that people would “notice” me singing and I couldn’t get myself to lift my arms up around others as passionately as others do seemingly without a care of what people think. But then I realized - I’m not meant to be a carbon copy of other Christians. Some people can shout out, dance, and raise their hands without a care and it comes naturally to them. What comes naturally to me is to sing quietly, close my eyes, and worship in a more internal way. He knows what’s going on in the heart, whether a person worships quietly like I do or if a person is shouting praise to Him at the top of their lungs. I realized something important - if I were to imitate more outgoing Christians, it would just be for a “show” for others or to prove to myself that I’m worshiping the “right” way - when in reality, worship is about what is going on in the heart and it’s all about Him, not me or anyone else! When I came to this realization, I started comfortably worshiping in the way that felt right for me and enjoying the worship of others around me, whether they worshiped the same as me or more outgoing. I didn’t feel out of place anymore. And this is how you have to learn to see it too.. Worship isn’t a competition, and it’s not about what others see. It’s about what He sees in your heart.

I think you do have a valid point, that human logic and emotions are playing a big role here for you.. You have to realize that human logic will never be able to explain everything because His ways are higher than ours. Some things will never make total sense to us, and that’s okay. We aren’t meant to understand everything. He revealed to us in His Word what we need to know, but we can be assured that He goes so unfathomably deeper that we could never understand everything about Him and His ways. I think you need to approach Him with all these concerns. Lay it all out - tell Him what you fear, tell Him how you have been feeling, directly talk to Him about the things you can’t understand. Tell Him that you desire spiritual growth and enhanced understanding of His Word, without the previously heard opinions of others influencing/skewing your understanding. In reality, our understanding of the Word comes through the power of the Holy Spirit. If you seek Him, He will come through for you.

As for baptism, baptism isn’t about understanding everything or having it all together. Baptism is about a declaration of your faith in Jesus Christ and wanting to show that belief in your heart to the world. It’s not about being “perfect” or not having any weaknesses - because if it was about that, then nobody would be baptized. So I really urge you to get baptized.. Do not allow the enemy to fill your mind with lies that you have to reach some level of perfection in order to be worthy of baptism.

I hope you found this helpful.. Please let me know if there is anything else I can do to help.

anonymous asked:

sorry if this has been asked before... just wondering what your top ships are in bnha?? do you have any brotps? ot3s? brot3s? etc etc :P

It’s ok!~ No one ever asked that actually.

Honestly I love all the kids but when it comes to fanart/fanfic my world revolves around Bakugou Katsuki. That being said my OTP is “KiriBaku” but I’ll ship almost anything if there’s a good build for it - and both sides are happy.

EVERYONE can be Brotp tho’, give me all dem friendship - Honestly all the kids are so precious and there’s so much to think about.

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anonymous asked:

Can you imagine bad boy!Jungkook trying to flirt with you but you're just kind of thrown off cause like hey wow you are so sweet and cute and wait are you hitting on me or are you trying to be my friend I don't get it He would get so annoyed and flustered but that would be so adorable omfg

there are moments where jungkook thinks: for a smart person like you… oh boy you could be dumb as fuck sometimes (he means that in the nicest way possible).

what boggles his mind is that you could tell apart the different shades of colors with just one look. deciphering math equations once you see them. picking out the words that mess up the whole sentence after reading it twice and it’s something people struggle with once in a while but with you, it’s a breeze. a fucking walk in the park with sunshine and a prepared umbrella in case it rains and boy, god has another thing coming to catch you in your bad luck.

which brings him to now, when he’s talking to you, obviously interested and throwing all possible attempts to get you to understand that woman, i, jeon jungkook, is attracted to you.

but no, of course, you don’t see that. you see him as just being nice when he compliments you on how you look. you think he’s just being courteous whenever you sneeze, as soft as it sounds, he’s able to exclaim bless you, princess from across the room. for some reason, when your shoelaces had gotten undone as you walk down the hallway, he got down on one knee (slow down there boy) and tied them for you.

jungkook: a person who thinks it’s ridiculous to do that, did that for you.

it’s another day of trying and honestly speaking, jungkook thinks he’s about to explode today. he always tells himself he’ll be direct and get on with it but seeing your doe eyes and innocent smile throws him off so hard he can’t bear to do that.

but today, ladies and gentlemen, jungkook’s skyrocketing to the heaven’s if you don’t get it again.

just as the bell rings and everyone’s left, gone, the room is empty and only left with you and jungkook (mainly because of the look he gives everyone else while you were busy keeping your things), jungkook takes this time to make a move.

he walks around the tables until he reaches yours, picking up a pen that you dropped and you smile in gratitude when jungkook hands it to you with you dropped this.

“thanks, jungkook-ah,” your voice is sweet, sending the shivers down jungkook’s spine as he exhales, taking a seat on the table beside yours that’s almost empty now. he clears his throat as you swing your bag over your shoulder. jungkook takes a brief moment to take in your attire: a simple white t-shirt, plain, blank, matched with denim jeans and jungkook still doesn’t get how you look effortlessly beautiful. on the other hand, jungkook’s clothing is one you noticed suits him a lot (and he loves how you don’t judge him for that). he has a liking for white tops as well, overlapped with a black leather jacket. his jet black hair always having that messed up effect, as if he kept running his fingers through them to keep it like that. his fitting leggings, black with torn holes for style at his kneecaps. one or two rings slipped on his fingers, a piercing on his right ear and you can tell he’s getting to his desired gauge size.

“you look good today, y/n,” his voice is clear, words echoing into your ears after each syllable and it makes you smile, something jungkook’s fond of doing. “thank you,”

you can’t find of anything to say after that, noticing that he’s staring at you with such expectancy that makes your heart race. gulping, you hang your head low, kicking your own feet before looking up when he coos your name.


“do you have anyone to do your research with?”

please get it. get it this time. c'mon y/n please-

“um… no, why?”

“wanna be partners? we could go to the library and carry out our research together.”

this has to be it. you should know i don’t even do this or give a rat’s ass about this subject-


jungkook’s losing it.

“i-i don’t mean it in a bad way or anything, i just don’t get it and are you-”

“jesus fucking christ, y/n,” he hops off the table, making you flinch as he takes one step and it eliminates all space between the both of you. gasping, you feel his breath on your skin when he tilts his head down to look at you, deep into your eyes and you only see that properly when he cups your chin, tilting it up for your eyes to lock. biting down on your lip, it makes jungkook lick his before his lips part to murmur, “you’re driving me crazy, you know that?”

your first instinct was to apologize, but what he says after that throws you off. finally, it throws you off.

“i like you, y/n. do you get it now? or do i have to spell it out in algorithm for you to understand?”

jungkook then remembers why he likes you so much in the first place.

your cheeks heat up, blushing to the point of no return and that smile you have on your face is one that brightens up his own. and your words, they make him scoff a laugh as he rolls his eyes but without any venom when you’re so, so, so you, genuine and you’re just you.

“i mean, if you could spell it out in algorithm that would be pretty cool,”

with his head turned to the side, it’s your turn to laugh when he curses,”fuck’s sake…”

not realizing you were responding to what he asked earlier, he has to do a double take at you and focus on what you’re repeating because you’re saying it for the second time.

“i’d like that, jungkook-ah,”

this is where the bad boy of this place turns into a sap, him clearing his throat to direct your eyes away from his blushing cheeks. he steps back and extends his arm, his hand faced up and you shyly reach out, placing your hand in his before he tightens his hold and leads you out of the classroom, smiling all the way as he walks you to the library.

((“by the way… that took you long enough,”

“the fucking nerve-”))

Reine des Fleurs - slight summary + CGs (Ghislain’s route)

Continuing with the good fight, here’s route 3 of 5. It…………uh. So Ghislain’s supposed to be the tsundere with way too much soldierly pride, with some other related issues thrown in. He thaws really severely, but this route…loyalty end was good, though you can’t really screw up a bad ending, honestly. The love ending…those of you who have played it will know why all I can do is just sit here and laugh my head off at the absurd harlequin romance mess it became.

At least we got gorgeous piano music.

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