i hit the bottom

I’ve hit rock bottom. I’m dissociating too much. Thoughts of another life, other worlds, my ideal companion. IRL I have changed so much to be able to survive a dishonest society, I cannot recognize my own actions anymore. I feel there is no turning back, my very essence is dying. It’s the tragedy of tragedies. I have stopped looking for beauty in reality. All I wanted was to meet someone like-minded to share this planet with. I am dumbfounded at this realization: Is this really my fate? Failure?
—  Anonymous

ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ Iwa Sketchpage! Pick/Tag your fav. Mine’s bottom left corner for some reason.

4

Star Wars…. if it were told through Anakin Skywalker’s Instagram Adventures

I’M SORRY I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THIS IS A THING THAT EXISTS I just got too excited about the new Clone Wars and-

This could either be a modern AU, or an alternate universe where everything is exactly the same… except everyone has instagram. (let’s be real this universe would involve a lot more bad hashtags, ~dramatic filters~ and check-ins at Mustafar)

anonymous asked:

i like how you list stuff so i'm just gonna ask you more. i notice that jungkook can be clingy so maybe like fav clingy jungkook or idk possessive jungkook moments? or some clingy yoongi moments, too?

I’m so happy you like how I list things ;~; Thank you! I’ll try and do a bit of each one! Maybe three of each so I don’t go on a listing spree hehe. I’ll start with Possessive!Kook since I thought of one right after reading your ask~


Top Three Possessive!Kook moments:

1. There was a moment at the BBMAs when Jungkook came off a bit possessive. I’m sure ya’ll know the one. Yoongi was leaning against the wall as, what I think anyway, was a makeup artist fixing up Yoongi a bit. Jungkook was right there leaning close to Yoongi with a hand right beside his head just watching. It just comes off as him watching whats his while someone else touches him. 


2. I know I bring this moment up a lot, but it was honestly the best SugaKookie/YoonKook moment in the world. Jungkook wasn’t particularly possessive here, but he had that look in his eye that just was telling us Yoongi was his and only his. Not to mention the way he just kind of looking at Yoongi before looking at us, like, boy. Please.


3. Does everyone remember that time Yoongi made a post about keeping our fourth finger empty? To which Jungkook responded telling Yoongi to keep his fourth finger empty? You know Jungkook was highkey telling Yoongi and us that Yoongi was his. Also that look in Jungkook’s picture, it’s like “You know better than to say things like that, Yoongi.”


And just so everyone knows, I’m doing ‘clingy’ as in them just holding each other for the sake of holding each other. There are some moments where I honestly think they are flirting and I’m gonna leave those out. Maybe for another time lol.


Top Three Clingy!Kook Moments:

1. I just like this moment how Jungkook just naturally rests his hands on Yoongi’s hips and just leaves them there. It’s not particularly clingy, but he is holding on to him and they are happy, and i’m happy, and the world is at peace.


2. I just… Jungkook just walks up and wraps around Yoongi and… Look at how soft, sweet and just so natural it looks? My heart explodes. There is plenty of space in between Namjoon and Yoongi, but Jungkook goes for the more comfortable spot. 


3. Both of them are holding each other in this one, but I still love it. They just look so good. And bonus: Jungkook checking out Yoongi’s ass after.


Top Three Clingy!Yoongi Moments: 

1. This one is a throw back, but it’s one of my favorites. Yoongi just looks so comfortable holding on to Jungkook’s arm while they watch people dance. I just love everything about this moment.


2. Comfortable soft Yoongi while clinging to his boyfriend gives me life.


3. Not necessarily clingy, but I love this moment so much. Yoongi is just casually combing his fingers through Jungkook’s hair, and its just so… so loving and caring and soft and my heart is going to burst. Help me.


Sorry that I have no story for the clingy moments. I feel like it doesnt really need one. You can just see the love and care right there in the pictures/gifs :> If you want to see me talk about other things let me know! Send in those asks :D I love doing this!

I love to smoke. Smoking a cigarette is like forgetting. When I hit rock bottom it’s all I have. Light up, smoke up, shut the fuck up. It hides the shit. The smoke hides the shit. There’s menthol and vanilla. Some people like ‘em. Menthol cigarette. Vanilla cigarette. Chocolate cigarette. Cigarette cigarette. Cigarettes clearly keep me from going crazy. Keeps me alive. It keeps me alive until I die.
—  Xavier Dolan, Les amours imaginaires

popular text posts + ask memes (part two) 

❛ i don’t have time for a relationship. do you know how many books i need to read? ❜
❛ i think it’s hilarious when people tell me i’m laid back because i’ve pretty uch been screaming nonstop in my head since like fifth grade ❜
❛ coming out of my cage and i’ve been doing just… not good ❜
❛ i’m a piece of shit, but it’s fine ❜
❛ how i am supposed to have a lit summer with $4.65 ❜
❛ i’m a huge fan of space; both outer and personal ❜
❛ and to your left, you can see me, ruining everything ❜
❛ any full cast musical number can be a solo if you believe hard enough ❜
❛ kinda hungry, kinda horny, kinda tired, kinda wanna get a tattoo ❜
❛ no amount of under eye concealer can cover up how tired i am of this world ❜
❛ i’m ready for autumn, but not autumn responsibilities ❜
❛ today i’m wearing a lovely shade of i slept like shit so don’t piss me off ❜
❛ i’m not making enough boys nervous ❜
❛ i really want my last words to be ‘hey, wanna see a dead body?’ ❜
❛ don’t you hate it when money goes away when you spend it? ❜
❛ i’m always a slut for conspiracy theories ❜
❛ i wanna make a diss track about myself ❜
❛ true friendship is bullying your friends into watching the tv shows you watch ❜
❛ i’d be such a good girlfriend/boyfriend/s.o. you’re all missing out ❜
❛ sorry i was late. i can’t conceptualize time. ❜
❛ fuck what the aliens said ❜
❛ sometimes it physically pains me to hold back my sarcastic comments ❜ 
❛ if outfit repeating was a crime i would be sentenced to life without parole ❜
❛ does anyone have ten thousand dollars they don’t want? ❜
❛ i want a sugar daddy, but i know nicki minaj wants me to be independent  ❜
❛ i stress about stress before there’s even stress to stress about ❜
❛ i don’t have plans for tonight or the rest of my life if anyone wants to have a drink or get married ❜
❛ tbh sometimes you just gotta let me be dramatic because i will get over it, but let me be dramatic first. ❜
❛ painfully average looking with a great sense of humor and always down to get drunk ❜
❛ if we date, you have to hold my hand in the car. no exceptions. ❜
❛ in an unfortunate development, i am now awake ❜
❛ you’re hella bomb, hella cute, and anyone would be hella lucky to have you ❜
❛ kinda hurt, kinda offended, kinda not planning on saying anything about it ❜
❛ trying to embarrass me is so unnecessary. i do it to myself just fine. ❜
❛ if you don’t think i’m a princess then you’re 100% right. i’m the fucking queen. ❜
❛ fuck summer. i want it to be dark and misty and frigid and october. ❜
❛ lana may have fucked her way up to the top, but i am bullshitting my way up to the middle ❜
❛ i don’t want to get involved in the drama, i just wanna know 103% of the information on what happened ❜
❛ so… do you want to watch 49.7 hours of parks and recreation with me? ❜
❛ i hit rock bottom like every two weeks ❜
❛ can someone please be proud of me? like fuck, i’m trying. ❜
❛ give me a few days to overthink about it ❜
❛ can i sell my feelings on ebay? i don’t want them anymore. ❜
❛ i’m really fucking sarcastic for someone who’s about to start crying most of the time ❜
❛ when does hibernation start because i am 100% participating in that ❜
❛ don’t you hate it when you wake up and you’re awake ❜
❛ i lowkey just wanna make sure you’re happy as fuck ❜
❛ i literally have no idea what i’m gonna do if i don’t end up rich ❜
❛ you know you’re in deep when you love listening to them talk and you get attached to their voice ❜
❛ no offense, but when is it my turn for someone to be in love with me ❜
❛ i’m an asshole with a really big heart ❜
❛ i have to be funny because being hot is not an option ❜
❛ can i apologize in advance for basically everything i will ever do ❜
❛ okay that’s cool, but consider the following: snuggling with me until i fall asleep ❜
❛ please handle me with care. i am a very sleepy and soft creature. ❜
❛ drunk me is the me i really want to be. confident, hilarious, and most importantly, drunk. ❜

  • Hanzo: Sometimes I think, man, it sure must be nice being the good guy.
  • Reaper: I relate to you, Hanzo. When I hit bottom, I was crushing man’s skull like sparrow’s egg, between my thighs… and I think, why you have to be so bad, Reaper? Why can’t you be more like good guy? Then I have moment of clarity… if Reaper is good guy, who will crush man’s skull like sparrow’s eggs between thighs? And I say, “Reaper you are bad guy, but this does not mean you are *bad* guy.”
  • Hanzo: Right… I’m sorry, you lost me there.
  • Submitted by TemplarSecretWeapon

okay okay i know everyone likes lance wearing nail polish but how about uhhhhhhhh hhh hh he hasn’t even thought about painting his nails before and someone on the ship decides to do it for him and he realizes how cool it looks (eh? EH?)

Probably the most terrifying scene of all

The fact that Bum has always been someone who has gone through so much shit in his life. Death of his parents, history of self harm, raped by his uncle, a social outcast, weaker, little to no confidence, bullied and thrown into the army who ignored his poor health. The guy has gone through a lot. 

Then he thinks he finally has a friend, this one person who he could connect with who also suffered rape and abuse. It is bad enough he’s got a disorder too and all he wanted was to just have somebody. Not to feel so alone and even she turns on him. 

There then is Sangwoo who wears an innocent mask with a monster behind it. Again suffered abuse and probably some sexual abuse off his own mother (we dont know yet but hey… it could be possible). Bum receives a good beating and horrific torture off him too. That still to me isn’t the worst thing that has happened until now… Bum has just murdered a (yes very bitch) but innocent young woman all because of a shitty memory of another shitty person who was abused by yet another full of shit monster she had to call “father’.

Bum is tired of the fucking world. They’ve paid him no favours, no one wants to help him mentally or physically. No one cares, he’s no life outside of Sangwoo’s home anymore or anything. 

“But I don’t care”

In a sick and twisted way I can’t say I blame Bum. If I was treated like this I don’t think I would care either. It’s wrong and not right of course but I feel like I can sympathise with his way of thinking here. He’s hit rock bottom and for the first time Bum has actually screamed out his anger, vented out every shard of hatred in his entire beam and we’ve never seen this side of him before. 

Sangwoo has opened the door to a monster and it’s one he’s most likely going to train.