i heart this picture

sometimes my heart really hurts when I look at pictures of fun I had in the recent past; smiles on faces I’ll never see in the same way again, old lovers whose eyes I’ll never gaze that closely into again, the images of younger versions of people I know who I still have, but it will never be the same as it was in the frozen photos… and it leaves a tight feeling in my chest, not quite sadness or longing, but something just as painful, with the slightest lilt of fondness and peace….

is that normal?

anonymous asked:

Did you see the smile on his face? I mean yeah when I first saw the pictures my heart hurt a little 😂😂😂 But he looks so happy and that makes me so happy 😭

I have never seen him look so happy. I couldn’t be happier for the both of them.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.