I was on twitter when I found out apparently Adam won't/can't sing 'You're my best friend' to which someone said it was selfish of John and then said Adam would've performed it better then the orginal. haaa! yeah right, So many of these fans have no respect for freddie or john. Adam seems super sweet and his singing is good but I hate seeing 'Adam is the new Queen' BYE (And also about the whole 'John is selfish' thing??? He can't keep one song thats personal to him? GOD)
I didn’t know that! Good on John, I say - that’s his song, written for his wife, and obviously means too much to him to let just anyone sing. Aw, thanks - special Deaky feels for this morning! :D
There is a way to be yourself, I assure you this There’s a way to catch your dreams without falling asleep You might as well get it while you can, babe ‘cause you know you ain’t getting any Younger, younger, younger Are you? (x)
I have been working on finding my voice for years. As an artist, I always want everything I create to represent what my soul feels and sounds like – whether it’s a video concept or a lyric or melody.
Two years ago on a rare rainy day in Los Angeles, in a songwriting session with Owen Thomas and Lily May Young, I was venting my frustration about my music not connecting the way I wanted it to. Lily looked me in the eye and asked, “Tell me something nobody knows about you, something you are afraid to sing about?“ I immediately thought, well I like girls and that’s what I want to sing about, but even then I struggled to say it out loud. Finally, I told Lily that I always say “you” and “them" and never the pronoun “her" in all my songs because I was afraid it wouldn’t connect. We talked more about concepts and my experiences, and how I loved the idea of stealing another guy’s girl because that was always a fantasy of mine. Growing up, everything I did was always about girls. I took dance because of girls. I got involved in student council because of girls. Not that I ever expected any of them to like me back, but I just felt comforted being around them, even if I could never date them. So there we were. The song “Girls like Girls" was born.
I imagined a very emotional, heart-wrenching but real music video to go along with the song. When we shot the music video for “Girls like Girls,“ I felt like I was finally telling my story for the first time. The yearning feelings I had and also the feeling of being so alone. I think that’s why people connected with the music video. Not only because they too have experienced deeply liking someone, but also the sadness and longing that comes with it. You could be around so many people, and still have the feeling of being so alone and misunderstood. It’s that fear of rejection and uncertainty of whether the person will like you back that makes you question everything. I struggled with these feelings so much growing up. I’d fall in love with girls who would never give me the time of day, or if they would, they had no idea I had other intentions. I had my heart broken over and over again; I never felt good enough. My life was led by these crushes as far back as first grade, when I had a crush on my teacher. That was the first time I realized I liked girls. But the problem is you feel like you can’t share these true feelings with anyone for fear of outing yourself and facing judgement. So you struggle. And feel alone. Growing up, there were some [out] celebrities who were much older than I was and I wondered if I had to wait until then to be happy. I didn’t have role models who I could relate to at the time, where I could think, if they can do it, I can do it.
Most of the time, you become confident after years of struggling during your young adulthood. I want to encourage the youth to find that confidence now. Not later. For them to know their own self-worth at an earlier age. It’s been really cool at my concerts to see all of these young fans showing up alone, and then leaving with friends. The music and stories I create have built this judgement-free safe zone. But most of all, they have inspired me to be comfortable with myself, and to let them in. They unintentionally gave me a gift that I am forever grateful for. Most of my music isn’t necessarily about heartbreak or other people, but more so everyone’s personal journey and falling in love with yourself.
I think that’s why my fans and I relate to each other. My music reassures them that they aren’t alone – that their feelings are valid, that they are enough and they will find someone to love them back. I didn’t have that hope growing up, so I get emotional and inspired (or encouraged) every time I meet a fan who looks at me that way.
It’s hard sometimes, especially after this election, because I feel a responsibility to these girls. I know they are looking to me for guidance and comfort. It breaks my heart that fear is so present in our world right now. School is hard enough and it breaks my heart to see these kids under attack by hate crimes and bullying.
Hope. That’s my cause. I strive to inspire hope through human compassion and through music. Hope leads me through my lyrics, stories, and melodies. You must continue on, and know in your heart you are not alone, and have confidence that love will find its way back to you.
Yuri on Ice interview translation - CREA 2017/03 (p32-33)
This is the full interview with Mitsurou Kubo published on CREA. I actually wanted to translate all the YOI interviews together but some translations going around urged me to post this one before the others, as I wouldn’t be able to finish everything tonight.
It’s not really an interview, it’s more like a partial interview and a short commentary of each episode.
The other 4 short interviews are with Kenji Miyamoto (choreographer), Eiji Abiko & Junpei Tatenaka (figure skating animators), Yuuko Sagiri (original costume designer), Keisuke Tominaga (music producer). I will try to post them tomorrow night if I can finish them.
***If you wish to share this translation please do it by reblogging or posting a link to it*** ***Re-translating into other languages is ok but please mention that this post is the source***
The reality as expressed by 5 people who created “Yuri on Ice”
Reality #1: Story x Mitsurou Kubo
“The reality of emotions” is what Kubo-san gave most importance to when she created the manga storyboard for this series. “Simply listing up the contents of the skaters’ programs and their score and connecting them together is not going to create something emotional. In my storyboard I tried to convey the feelings of all athletes, not just Yuuri, with their performances, to express them carefully, so that other skaters who watch them will in turn be influenced by them like in a chain reaction.” An important tool to express those feelings are the monologues that can be heard during the programs, blended in harmony with the performance. “Watching the footage of the choreographies by Kenji Miyamoto-sensei I realized that, even though he simply created them based on the songs, in many cases they perfectly match the athlete’s feelings too. I was so moved and thought that Kenji-sensei is an amazing person.” As the series is pursuing reality, it does not contain any unrealistic techniques. “If we had included something over-the-top people would have just said ‘that’s unreal’, so I thought that it was better to just go a little ahead of reality, and consulted with many people to decide the difficulty of the techniques to use. However, shortly thereafter real life skaters actually surpassed that level, which really surprised me. We did decide the level knowing that it would be surpassed one day, but we didn’t think it would happen so soon!” The writer Mitsurou Kubo also needed a lot of courage to portray Yuuri determined to win for love. “On the ice rink you can express anything, and that’s why, even if I had never thought about what true love is or represented it before, I decided to try my hand at openly depicting love as fiction. As a result, I myself was encouraged by the story I wrote and felt that I could make a fresh start after that.”
“I ended up being encouraged by the story about love that I openly portrayed as fiction.”
Highlights of every episode by Mitsurou Kubo
#1 Nan no Piroshiki!! Namida no Grand Prix Final “I want you to watch the best figure skating animation” Before the series was broadcasted I was worried, because normally original anime not based on a previous work and airing late at night take a long time to catch the viewers’ attention. However, my fear was swept away by the extraordinary skating scenes of the first episode, and the show gained a good reputation right away. Stunning images can provide the best promotion.
#2 Futari no Yuri!? Yutopia no Ran “Figure skaters feeling more familiar” This part is set during the off-season in Yuuri’s hometown. If we had showed special people battling each other in a faraway place from the very start the viewers would never have felt close to them, therefore I decided to start the story with the Russians, Victor and Yurio, spending time in the onsen of the castle town Hasetsu, eating katsudon and spreading news via the SNS, so that they would feel more familiar to the audience.
#3 Boku ga Eros de Eros ga Boku de!? Taiketsu! Onsen on ICE “You can feel the growth of Yuuri and Yurio” Once the Grand Prix series starts no one can afford to lose anymore, so I created this provisional match between Yuuri and Yurio to emphasize their relationship as rivals but also as comrades. I also wanted to show that a competitive program is progressively brushed up during the season based on each athlete’s pace. Originally I also thought of showing Yurio’s mother rushing to the scene.
#4 Jibun wo Suki ni Natte… Kansei!! Free Program “Yuuri and Victor gradually become closer” In the process of completing the free skating program Yuuri and Victor become closer to each other, both as coach and student and as equals. Yuuri’s gesture of poking the top of Victor’s head has no logical meaning. I think it symbolizes how Yuuri, acting on an impulse, breaks his own shell and steps into the territory of the person that previously was only considered a living legend.
#5 Kao Makka!! Shosen Da yo! Chuu-shikoku-kyuushuu Senshuken Taikai “Check out the relationship between seniors and juniors” Minami-kun, a skater that looks up to Yuuri, appears in this episode. I really like the scene where Yuuri, finally becoming aware that he is going to lead the current generation of Japanese skaters, silently hits Minami-kun’s back. As in the scene where he pokes Victor’s head, once again Yuuri uses a physical action, instead of logic or words, to try to communicate something. When it’s animated it looks really awesome.
#6 Kaimaku Grand Prix Series Yacchaina!! Chuugoku Taikai SP “Check out Chris’ sexiness” The tournament starts and many fascinating athletes make their appearances, but this episode is also an occasion to fully enjoy the charm of Chris’ ass. After watching Kenji-sensei’s choreography I decided to draw a beautiful ass in my storyboard, then its charm was further emphasized in the animation, and finally thanks to the voice actor’s absolutely sexy voice we could obtain the best ass animation ever.
#7 Kaimaku Grand Prix Series Yacchaina!! Chuugoku Taikai FS “An FSP where Yuuri and Victor overcome their fears” Yuuri and Victor were both anxious before the FS, and I feel that the strongly emotional scenes following that were represented in a very effective way. Regarding the last scene, I started receiving lots of questions from overseas, asking “Did Yuuri and Victor hug? Or was it a kiss?” and that’s when I realized how much the anime’s popularity had spread worldwide.
#8 Yuuri VS Yuri Osoroshia!! Russia Taikai SP “JJ’s striking appearance is a must see” This episode is where Jean-Jacques Leroy, aka JJ, one of the most likely candidates to win the gold medal, appears. What is scary about JJ is that he has the ability to paint any story in JJ color, overshadowing even the protagonist. Mamoru Miyano-san, the one who played his role, managed to take JJ to the next level with his natural personality and made him all the more convincing.
#9 Yuuri VS Yuri Osoroshia!! Russia Taikai FS “When the absence of an important person makes you grow” This episode is where Yuuri grows after fighting without Victor next to him. When we went location hunting at the Fukuoka airport there was a glassed-in corridor close to the arrival lobby, and as the director saw it she excitedly said “Yuuri and Victor are going to run side by side separated by the glass!”. I was like “they definitely are!”, and we started taking heaps of pictures. The airport is currently being remodeled and it’s not possible to recreate the scene.
#10 Chou Ganbaranba! Grand Prix Final Chokuzen Special “Ordinary life episode the night before the last fight” As the last part depicting ordinary life before the Grand Prix Final, I wanted to create a relaxing episode without skating scenes while at the same time introducing the athletes, but in the end so many things happened in it that no one could relax and I was told that even animating it was a pain. The ring Yuuri gave Victor also carries the meaning of a symbol that the two of them are like soul mates.
#11 Chou Chou Ganbaranba!! Grand Prix Final SP “The speed leading to the last episode is impressive to watch” The OP footage, that was gradually changed from episode 1 by adding colors, is finally complete. I was happy that we could welcome as voice actors Ken Gamada-san, who actually works as an MC in tournaments and ice shows, and Nobunari Oda-san as himself doing the commentary. With the pace of the story speeding up toward the finale, this episode was just chaos.
#12 Chou Chou Chou Ganbaranba!!! Grand Prix Final FS “A final episode where you can catch a glimpse of everyone’s future” Including Stéphane Lambiel-san’s debut as an anime seiyuu, which is something no one could have expected, the chaotic mixup of anime and reality reaches a climax in this episode. Beside the sense of fulfillment for the victory, I think that the contents also let you catch a glimpse of each character’s future. I was about to faint looking at the beauty of Victor’s tears.
Final note (this is just my opinion, it’s not part of the translation): There is a translation going around where the line about soul mates is translated as “proof”, but actually the word 証 (akashi) can have many different meanings, among which symbol/mark/token/proof/sign etc. In this case, I personally do not think it means “proof” (also to be honest when it’s “proof” usually they write it as 証拠 shouko). It’s more like symbol/token, as in “it’s meant to symbolize Yuuri and Victor’s deep bond that goes beyond a normal relationship”. Although the difference is only subtle, I still think it’s not the same. Also please understand that the Japanese word “soul mate” does not have the meaning that is used in fanfiction… I believe it’s actually the same in English too, but in normal conversation it means “two people that have a strong spiritual/emotional bond (that makes them suited for each other, be it either as friends or lovers)”, not “two people who were destined to be together from their previous life”. That is something you are free to imagine or fantasize about, however please do not twist the creators’ words just to fit people’s headcanons…
P.S.: And please do not misunderstand me. I love Victuuri, but I prefer to draw a line between canon and fanon, and I don’t really like it when words by the creators are “adapted” to accomodate people’s shipping ideas. I think what she says is deep enough even without mistranslating it anyway…
“this is getting a little personal”. i love pet names. look at this cutesy crap. guys, i promise, i have dark stuff on the way. this… isn’t it. (apologies to any polish-speakers out there… feel free to correct me if I use words wrong!)
An actor in a movie or TV show gets given a script and takes that character given to them and performs that character. And some of them do it incredibly well, and some of them do the bare minimum, but all of them do.
And theatre actors don’t get that liberty, not if they want to be remembered. Theatre actors are taking a character that’s probably been seen a million times, who only has a set number of lines or songs, who fans probably feel like they know, and each new actor makes that character a little different, adds a little bit of them. Because if they don’t, the only thing that will change is the face, and that’s not the beauty of theatre. Theatre changes every time somebody new gets on stage, every time anything is changed.
Theatre actors take two passing words in a two act musical and add an entirely new layer. And that’s why people can look or listen to a single piece of a show and know who it is.
The difference between actresses’ “fiyeroooOOOOO” can let you know exactly who is playing Elphaba.
The different way Jack leans on the scaffold, the different sound Katherine makes in Watch What Happens, the simple difference in tone used in the delivery of a line.
Theatre actors take a given script and make it their own, and everybody’s character is different, no matter how many other people have played it.
The difference between Laura’s Zoe and an understudy’s Zoe, for example. Same songs, same lines, same costumes and lighting and mic and story, but the character feels entirely different because Laura’s Zoe is entirely different from any other version of Zoe.
And the art that caused me to be in this pitiful is none other than ‘Spring Day’ by BTS.
'Spring Day’ is easily my favourite comeback so far.
After all, it is the most honest, sincere and beautiful piece they have released.
The song is just so pure, so heart wrenching. The production is fantastic and their voices….
Many people say that BTS does not have good vocalists because they cannot hit a lot of super high notes. True, if a voice has all the falsettos in the world in is nothing without emotion. And emotion is something that BTS can deliver not to 100 % but rather to an infinite amount. Their voices carry pain, longing and sincerity.
Now why am I mentioning sincerity so many times? Well, an artist without having sincerity is a writer with no pen or paper or any method of writing. Sincerity is essential, it is what captures the attention of the listener because it allows the reader to be able to relate. Even if the listener cannot relate he or she might want to retry to understand.
Spring Day achieves just that. After all, the song is honest and so is BTS. These are emotions all feel. These are the emotions that remind us that we too are humans.
And the music video, of the music video fits so well! The MV creates the feeling that this is not simply an MV, but rather is a coming of age movie, meant to showcase, pain, longing, confusion but also hope.
The shots of the, passing each other, only to at some points get together feel so sad, so painful and interestingly beaver when they are together for me, although there is a lighter feeling it still feels like something is still missing for them. Because they still keep running and they indeed are cut of by the train carrying Jungkook himself.
But at least they are together. At least they no longer have to suffer alone but can share the burdens that they have. They are each others ‘light’
The MV also allows for so much interpretation from the first watch.
One might take them as a random choice. However, the clothes could also mean that they have let their old selves go. They could mean the they feel worthless, like they can be called ‘dirty’ at any moment and discarded. Or they could mean that they have washed there ‘stains’, their pain.
The scenes at the staircase and at the carousel when they seem unable to find each other can be seen as painful as them losing each other.
Or it could be that they still haven’t found the others yet.
Maybe, there are all in front each other…Maybe they haven’t looked properly.
The train with Kookie that passes BTS could mean that Jungkook is leaving the past behind…
Or he could simply be going forward, not yet knowing of the people he will get to meet, the same people who are in the same compartment as him.
And the shoes that hand from the tree… are they can mean death, the murder of their own selves.
But they could also mean that BTS has exchanged their pain for appreciating and loving themselves. Because they are no longer alone. No, this time they have each other. And so they are letting their old selves die in hopes for a better future them to be born.
And more interpretations can be made. They just depend on how people feel at the moments and what they want to believe. I like the idea that they simply search for each other, but that proves difficult at first cause they do not know exactly whom they are searching for. I like to believe that this MV is a look, a battle for the future. But I also love reading others interpretations.
And that is what this song and music video.
So thank you BTS, for once again getting out of you comfort zone and creating this masterpiece.
Thank you for bringing us all together.
Thank you for creating powerful music that speaks to all.
But also there are other people that deserve to be thanked.
People who sit silently and work endlessly to make this happen. Thank you to all the staff and the crew. Thank you to all those who helped make this happen, whether you are the MV director, or the person bringing the brush to the make up people.Because these people are too a huge reason why we have these MVs.
Thank you to all those that help with the creation of the songs.
Thank you to all whom advertise these boys, to all whom support them.
And thank you to my fellow ARMYs, who no matter what shit we get from others, continue to support these boys.
BTS has released one of their most beautiful works yet.
So lets support them!
ARMY loves you BTS… I love you BTS!
Thank you for reading!
PS… Who’s ready for Not Today? Not me that’s for sure
It’s laying under the flower pot at your front doorstep. There’s a small rock set on the opposite corner, like the pot isn’t heavy enough to keep it down.
Leaning over, you take it from its hiding space, realizing it’s a letter. Your name is written across the white in black ink. The handwriting is familiar. Something you’ve seen in journals and lyrics written quickly on newspaper or paper towels when his phone was too far away. You found parchment in your purse from the small train you took in Amsterdam. The song turned into roses. Who knew one lyrical line would’ve turned into your favorite song.
When the door is unlocked and your bag and keys are on the hook, you take a seat by the window. Your cat is curled up at your feet, stirring in her sleep.
The envelope is sealed, but you don’t go to open it as quickly as you should. The lip feels heavy, straining your shoulders. The breakup is still fresh, too fresh to read his letter. Maybe he wants to get back together.. maybe he’s about to show up with a bouquet of tulips and a single white rose- the only way you’ll accept flowers. Maybe it’s actually from Aaliyah, or an old friend from college. It was your birthday just last month. It could be a forgotten gift and the writer was too embarrassed to give it to you, face to face.
“What am I waiting for?” You ask yourself, knowing the longer you wait the worse the pain in your chest will feel. The words he spoke will never leave. They’re tattooed in your mind..anyone else would’ve found it beautiful, poetic. For you? It was tragic.
WARNING: KIND OF LONG POST FEATURING A CYPRIOT IN LOVE WITH THE COMEBACK OF 13 AMAZING, TALENTED AND BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE.
So…. I’m crying. I’ve actually been crying for hours. Why? Well one word: Seventeen.
I spent so many days in worry. When I heard that Seventeen are changing their concept I was extremely worried. After all,what I have noticed is that some people do not accept change. They expect a group to have the same branding forever.
You were still buzzing when Harry finally managed to unlock the front door and usher you inside. There was very minimal amounts of alcohol in either of your systems, but that wasn’t what was making you buzz.
He was number 1.
Harry’s song was number 1.
Granted, the actual Billboard numbers hadn’t been released yet, but it didn’t matter. You and Harry both knew the numbers and how incredible the song had done in even the first few days. Besides, to you, even if he didn’t hit number 1 on the Billboard charts in the first week, it wouldn’t matter. Harry was more worried about longevity, and you knew that he would be around as an artist for a long time. You were proud of your boy no matter what position he charted.
It took about five seconds after you stepped into the house to realize how tired you were. You and Harry had been out all evening with family and friends, celebrating the release of the song, and while much fun had been had, it was getting very late and the after effects of the wine were starting to hit you.
You yawned as you bent down to pull your boots off, and you heard Harry chuckle and place his hands on your hips.
“Don’t fall over, love. At least let me get yeh into bed before you fall asleep.”
“I’m fine,” you said, standing up and shrugging off your jacket, “It’s just been a long day.”
“Good day though?” Harry asked, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you close to him.
“Mmm,” you smiled.
His lips pressed against the side of your neck as he buried his head in your shoulder. He was tired too - you could tell - but you knew he was incredibly excited about how well-received his song was. You could feel him relax when your arms went around his back and started scratching lightly through his shirt; your other hand went up to slide through his hair, massaging the back of his scalp.
“Mmm, baby,” he moaned, “You’re gonna put me to sleep on your shoulder. Feels good.”
The weight of his body was starting to become hard to hold, so you gently pushed him up and pecked his lips quickly with your own.
“Let’s go to bed, love,” you said, “You need your beauty sleep.”
* I knew the second Cheryl gave Veronica the Vixens she’d commit suicide. Anyone seen 13 reasons why? The first sign of suicide: Giving away things that you love
* I was ready to tear Archie into shreds but nope, came out he just wanted to be Veronica’s soul mate. You are, Archiekins
* Ronnie ships Bughead, guys
* I hate Hermione Lodge and Penelope Blossom. Worst parents of the year award goes to them
* On the other hand, FP wins best parent of the year award. He gave Jug Hot Dog and made sure he wasn’t alone. I want him out of jail NOW
* Have y'all seen how vulnerable Alice looked when she told Betty about her son? No makeup, no fancy clothes. Just her. I love her.
* I’m not the biggest fan of Ronnie but I like how she took care of Cheryl and tried to befriend Jug
* Josie is a good person. I like her. And looking at her parents, I understand why she’s a bitch sometimes
* I want Cheryl to leave her mom and move in with Ronnie. Then I want Ronnie to bitch slap her mom for being a heartless whore
* 10 bucks it was someone hired by the Sheriff or the mayor to hang that shit up on Betty’s locker
* Another 10 bucks it was someone hired by Hirem to kill Fred
* I need a gazillion gifs of that love reveal and another gazillion gifs of that make out session. I knew Jug wasn’t awkward during sex. He’s a fucking man
* Btw can I have a copy of Jug on my front door? He’s so fucking hot
* I like Varchie but tbh I screamed all the time to get back to Bughead. That shit was hot and I was surprised they’d go all the way THAT fast
* Btw Kudos to Betty for that speech. And of course the love of her life was the first one to applaud
* Betty stop worrying about Jug being a Serpent now. They proved time and time again that they’re loyal and good people. I mean, have you seen the kids laughing with Jug? They’re cool. Also, now you have a hot biker gang boyfriend who punches assholes who dishonor you (I’m jealous)
* Did anyone get a glimpse on Hot Dog? He looked like a Lab or a Goldie but FINALLY HOT DOG
* I need Archie’s song as MP3
Summary: TOO MANY FEELINGS I WON’T SURVIVE THE HIATUS UNTIL SEASON 2!
Did I mention Jughead Jones was so fucking hot this episode?
i . buddha said: “a jug fills drop by drop”. trying to keep in mind this quote helped me so so much starting the year the right way!
ii . don’t be harsh on yourself. change isn’t something that occurs within days, and habits need to be formed. but keep some balance in your daily life. you can forgive yourself if you are too tired to tidy up your room before going to bed, but try to mantain the level of clutter low by doing small things when you feel like it!
iii . procrastination is something i have to deal with everyday. but i found out that when i just can’t control my discipline, i just need someone else to do that for me! it works all the times.
iv . listen to your body. sometimes you just have to trust your instinct and your intuition. feel the moment and do what’s better for yourself.
v . when times are a little darker and you feel the winter blues, you need something to make your heart feel a little warmer. please, please, please, go and watch yuri on ice. please. just do it. it will make your life like 10000 times better. it saved me from winter depression. it saved me. just trust me. i don’t know how many tears of happiness i have cried because of yoi. go. and watch it.
vi . this month i realized one little thing. i have so so many mental schemes. and the majority of them are really bad for me and for my mental health and for my life in general. for example, when i wake up in the morning to go to school my brain decides that i have to feel stressed. and that i just can’t enjoy the morning. even if i don’t have any tests that day. when i realized it i started paying attention to what i feel and why, and decided that i wouldn’t have let my brain ruin every single morning! and it worked!!!
vii . at the end of the day write a done list. this has been one of the best thing for my happiness levels lately. list every single good thing that you did, even if it’s a small thing. and feel proud about it!!
viii . sometimes i just can’t get started with a specific task because i set goals that are too high and that scare me before i even start. if i tell myself that i’m going to revise all of my notes i can be sure that i won’t do it. but if i set the goal to revise for a limited space of time, or to just study some chapters, i don’t feel overwhelmed and eventually when i’m finished with the goal i have set, i’ll just keep on working!
ix . when i’m feeling really down or there’s something that bothers me, i know that the only thing i have to do is writing. i take out my journal and start scribbling what’s on my mind. i feel completely free and in touch with myself, to me writing is like a therapy. many times i got to understand a problem that i couldn’t solve… just by writing. sometimes dancing and singing to my favourite songs works as well. just try to find what’s an activity that has the power to calm you down or to make you see things more clearly, or something that can be an outburst for feelings you have been suppressing.
x . this month i learned that i. have. to. throw myself away and just do things. i have many ideas but i’m always too shy to do anything. but in these past weeks i tried really hard to escape the prison i have built for myself. i started interviewing some of my classmates and recording them as they talk, which is something that i wished to do for a long time. i made a group on a messaging app to talk about some more serious topics with them. i took all the courage i had and clearly expressed my feelings about some stuff to my best friend, and we are happier now. i went out of my comfort zone and experienced new things. even if i didn’t always feel perfectly comfortable, i tried to avoid panicking, and instead i took a deep breath and reminded myself that failing was always better than not doing anything at all!
xi . and last but not least, here is some of the music i’ve been listening to in january. enjoy!
You know, I have a lot to say about [opening up as an artist], because if you know me very well, I talk quite openly about everything that I’ve been through.
When I wrote ‘If you say so’ on the first album with Sia, which was only a couple of…maybe even weeks after. `Cause, you know, the album was done and then we added that song on to the record. And I loved that song, I would’ve probably talked about it more, but again that was an example of something where I was SO honest with that song and we were very specific with that song. And then when it became time to talking about it, you know for me, it wasn’t so much that I wasn’t ready to talk about it, but what people don’t understand always is, there are so many other people that were a part of this. Family and friends. I have to be respectful of that. So it was a little too soon I feel for me to go out there and be so open.
I wanted to be sure that everything that I put on this record now, I was comfortable with talking about. So I wrote ‘Hey you’ which is the last song on the record. I wrote with Stephen Wrabel and Ali Temposi. And I sat down with them to write a break up song about someone who had terribly broken my heart. Even though we had sentimental memories on the record, which is like also a nice little moment for them, I still felt the need to write some more. And I would sit down to write this break up song and I had a journal of some… I don’t really write songs as much as I write feelings and ideas, but I did have this full song. It was called 'Hey you’. And so we finished this break up song.
First we do the lyrics… first we drink the wine, then we write the lyrics. Then we go and we sit and then we go 'okay, let’s get the music to then go with the lyrics.’ So Stephen sits down, and all of a sudden Wrabel starts to play -hums melody from 'Hey you’- and I go: ’ that sounds like… it sounds like something falling from heaven.’ So I said that would be a really good background for this little song I wrote called 'Hey you’ and next thing you know -within, I think, 30 minutes- we had the song completed.
I wanted to write a song about losing someone that wasn’t necessarily some heartbreaking, horrible, sad song. I wanted to write a song that was beautiful. That was about 'If you had 5 minutes to see someone again you lost, what would you say to them?’ And when I’ve stopped to think about it, whereas you maybe think that you would say everything that you were upset about or everything that you…if you had questions… you probably wouldn’t. You probably would just look at them and say 'hi! How are you? Oh my God.’ Like, it would probably not be that… for me it just felt like it would…it would be much more simple than that. And so I love this song, and it’s so special to me and I think everyone wants it to be some dramatic story but it’s just not.
I’m very proud of it. Probably cause I like you [Larry Flick] so much and when you handle things with respect and class in an interview, people would be surprised how much more people are willing to open up. As the publicist sits here and sweats. But you know, it is something I’m proud of and I probably won’t talk about it ALL the time, but you know, I love the song that I wrote.
- Lea Michele on ‘If you say so’ and ‘Hey you’ (x)