A bit late in the week, but we’re lower than expected rank-wise due to losing a few members last month. (Lotsa people wanted to go off and mentor their friends who started playing because of 2.8.) So we have three slots open that we want filled ASAP!
January crown week we ranked 18th, and December we ranked 14th. We’d like to keep the security and stability up, hence our desire for some LUX-thirsty members. We already have a few members with LV99 raid bosses and several others with LV70+ that’ll be there by this weekend.
We have Key Art #1 partner medal (+7 SP) that makes grinding RBs much more effective, and an entire list of utility medals and guilted Tier 3 medals, all unique! There’s also a couple members with HD Ursula for HS Event (though they’re not up right now, so you’ll have to wait until next week!).
You can check out our join page for the form to submit. I’d generally say that having LV150+ Nova should prove to us that you are strong enough to handle yourself. But most of all, you must have a lust for LUX! Be available for at least half the prime times! Regarding our party structure, we mostly have very high-end f2p and c2p in our group, with a few whales in the mix–so it’s unlikely you’ll be lower than our lowest or higher than our highest, so don’t worry about not fitting in. <3
Message, submit, or send an ask with the form if you’re interested!
quick note on one hundred ways: I am the self proclaimed queen of the slow burn, and since most chapters are written weeks if not months before I publish them, many of the new chapters are going to be canon divergent. I do also have a few AU chapters written, and more planned but just because karamel is canon now on the show doesn’t mean they will be together in every chapter.
As always, your incredible comments are what keep me going and I can’t wait until I have a functioning laptop so I can respond to all of them and post more. Thanks!!
Imagine: Klaus is overwhelmed with everything that is happening on his life, so he leaves you all alone to work some stuff out. Then, when he comes back, he finds you playing with yourself and decides to punish you in the best way he knows.
Word Count: 2144
A/N: may be the dirtiest thing I’ve ever written, so I hope you enjoy it. :)
wait!” You said as he stood up, leaving the bed. “Don’t go
Mikaelson had been absent for the past few weeks and you could not
blame him for that. With all his family problems, such as Mikael and
Esther coming back to life, alongside his brothers Kol and Finn, and
adjusting to his newborn baby daughter Hope, eh, you felt like you
had no right to push him over the edge. Ask more than what Niklaus
was giving you. Loneliness was a bitch, though.
have to, love.” The hybrid simply replied, a grin on his face.
“You know I need to take care of a few things.”
nodded, lowering your eyesight and sighing.
promise it will not take long.”
okay, Nik, I get it.” You bit your lip.
hybrid started to get dressed, taking no more than a couple of
minutes to be completely ready. Then he looked at you, his blue eyes so intense
they made your hands shake. You had no doubt you loved him. The kind
of love no one truly understood. A gasp came out of your lips, which
made him chuckle and approach you, placing a single kiss on your
forehead. Typical Klaus. After that, he left without saying anything,
just whooshing out of the bedroom. You took a few minutes to just lay
there, alone, in the cold bed, sort of mourning his absence. You
realised that it was worthless, though, and took the courage to get
up. Since you did not had clothes on, you walked straight to the
bathroom, wanting to shower on Klaus’ big bathtub. The thought of
maximum relaxation cheered you up. That was exactly what you needed.
couple of minutes later you were unwinding underneath the water.
a sponge, you started to rub your form, slowly, making yourself
shudder. It was a good sensation and something between your legs
warmed up. Biting your lower lip, you let your hands run free through
your body. First, you touched your breasts, playing with your nipples
and giggling mellowly, taking full pleasure by the actions performed.
Then, you touched your clit, which made a low moan escape.
God…” You whispered. “This feels so good…”
a heavy breath, you kept going, this time putting two fingers inside
your pussy. As you moved them, you started to tingle. You gasped and
increased the movements’ velocity. Letting your mind fantasize, it
went straight about being fucked by your boyfriend. His hands
touching your whole body and making you scream like no other man did.
You could spend hours remembering his singularities in bed. The
thought itself made you bit your lip, squirming a little in face of
your own thrusts. Your walls begun to clench and you knew you were
close to cum.
You felt the numbing feeling starting to spread across your toes and
fingers, which made you sped up the process, just wanting to get over
with it. "Oh my… I’m going to…”
love, you most certainly will not.” Nik’s voice, followed by his
grin, scared you, making your hands stop immediately what you were
just… Fuck, I thought you were going to be gone for awhile.”
You babbled, unsure.
told you I wouldn’t take long.” He said, raising a brown. “But
you couldn’t wait, huh? You had to go off and touch yourself. I
strongly thing you should be punished.”
Nik, I really didn’t mean to.”
am sorry, Y/N, but I can not be merciful.” Klaus smiled. “You
need me to be rough.”
water was starting to get cold, but, between your legs, things were
only getting warmer. And his words made you tremble and squeak.
Finding a little strength, you stood up, so fast the water spilt all
over the floor. But you did not care, nor did the man standing in
front of you. He moved towards you, grasping your waist and pulling
you into a kiss. Your hands got lost inside the locks of his hair and
Klaus strongly squeezed you against his chest. By this point, his
clothes were all wet. You tugged his shirt and he smiled, helping you
to get it out. The touch of his skin against yours was wonderful.
what do you say I get my princess to bed?” He said, using the
crooked smile you loved so much. “You still need to be punished.”
me.” You whispered. “Right now, baby.”
grinned, shaking his head and kissing your lips one more time before
you hooked your legs around his waist. He bit your neck and you
gasped, struggling with the friction of his bulge against your bare
pussy. The Hybrid smelt your arousal all over his jeans, grabbing
your butt a little more harder and rubbing your clit with his hard
Klaus.” It was a loud squeal, which made you blush. “I’m so
know, love. That’s my goal.”
massaged your waist and then threw you in the bed, which made you
laugh, biting your lower lip.
have been a very naughty girl, princess.”
know.” You pouted. “What will you do to me?”
will spank that little ass of yours to make sure you do not touch
yourself again. Not unless I say so.”
sat on the bed, pulling your body and placing you on his lap, not
caring that you were still wet. He stroke your butt gently before
giving a loud slap on it. You couldn’t help but scream. It felt sexy. Your
entrance started to drip. How come with only one he would drive you
to that state?
His fingers traced your slit, feeling your juices, and you nodded
weakly. “So tell me, are you ready to be fucked?”
slapped your ass once more.
what?” You felt a tingling sensation on your ass as he took
am ready for you.” You whined, squeezing your legs together,
trying to create a little relieve for the tension between them.
“Please, fuck me.”
a nice little girl.” He said, softly. “Why don’t you help
“What do you want me to do?”
knelt before him and took his trousers off, alongside his briefs,
leaving his pulsating length free for your hands to play with it. A
small sigh came out before you took it in your hands, feeling the
warmth against the tip of your fingers. Klaus’ grunted, feeling your
soft touch. You spit on it, making the up and down movements a lot
easier. Deciding it was time to go further, you looked directly at
him, brushing your mouth on the tip of his dick. The Mikaelson
groaned and you took it as a sigh you should continue. As you kept
sucking and letting your tongue have some fun, he grew impatient and
thrusted, without any warning, harder in your mouth, his cock going all
the way to the back of your throat. You gagged instantly.
boyfriend suddenly stopped and stared at you, his eyes filled with
I hurt you?”
You replied, shaking your head. “I just wasn’t prepared. Can I
finish what started? This time with no surprises.”
nodded, letting you go back to what you were doing. You leant over,
kissing the tip and teasing him once more. It felt good to do that.
Punish him just a little bit for driving you out of the bend. While
masturbating him, you stroke your clit, moaning against
his cock. He grunted with the vibration.
didn’t let you play with yourself. I’ll do that.”
up.” You nodded and stood up. “I think it’s my time to have fun with your perfect little body.”
a naughty grin, he opened up a space so you could lay down. Slowly,
the hybrid crawled and unfolded your legs, kissing your inner thighs and making you shudder. His large hands clutched your hips,
lifting them. Klaus darted out his tongue through your core, making
you yell and ask for more. While he tasted you, kitten licking your
clit, he put two of his fingers inside you. That made your eyes roll.
You did not think you could scream any more louder. Klaus always had
a way on doing this. It was marvellous. His lips were trained on
going to… Oh, my…” You knew if he continued it, you would not
be able to hold on any longer.
love, I want to feel you cum around my cock, not my fingers.”
Nik, fuck me now. I need you.”
a little slut.” His fingers traced your slit and you groaned
shamefully. “So wet for me.”
badly do you want me to do it?”
much.” You squealed. “So hard I won’t be able to walk for
let’s fulfil this wish, then.”
got one of your legs and placed it on his shoulder, making your core
way more wide for him. By that point you were already dripping and
could not withstand more teasing. Actually, anything now could make
you burst. Your boyfriend knew it, that’s why he did not wasted
time and just sheeted himself inside you. Both of you moaned,
experiencing high levels of pleasure through one single movement. The
Original Hybrid, after a few seconds just enjoying the warmth your
pussy provided, started to pound in and out of you. This time he did
it really fast.
baby. This feels so good… I love it when you fuck me hard.”
you trying to tease me, Y/N?”
I am.” He gave you a sharp thrust, which made you lose a breath.
never a fair game with me.”
with him was, aside the huge amount of mixed sensations, fun. That’s
why it got you hooked. He stroked your nipples and, after carefully
putting down your leg, he leant in to kiss your nipples. They were
already harden due the constant shivering. Now the gasps were more
frequent. You knew you were more close than ever to cum. A goofy
smile escaped your lips and, while Klaus glanced at you amazed, you
took an advantage and rolled your bodies.
kitten likes to be on top, doesn’t she?”
I do, baby. But I think it’s time for me, oh, have my
tension built up on your stomach was starting to spread through your
form. Klaus’ hands held your ass strongly and helped you get what
you craved. You were aware the next morning you would be sore.
However, that did not make you stop, actually, it made you go even
harder. Then, the waves of pleasure hit you, making your walls clench
and Klaus grunted. You could not help but scream. So far, it had been
the most amazing sex session you had ever had.
just a little bit longer, babe.” He whispered.
worry, I want to feel you cum inside me.” You kept riding him, in a
fast pace. “Come on, give me all you got.”
It was his turn
to groan and let himself go, cumming in hot spurts inside you. After
a short while, he pulled you in for a kiss, a very passionate and
steady one. You sighed, thrilling with everything that was happening
on your body. Eventually, you left his lap and rested alongside him,
just hearing his breath.
was awesome.” You finally said, your fingers drawing figures on his
skin. “I should definitely piss you off more often.”
you okay, honey?”
are you asking me that?”
“That’s so much on your plate
right now… I just want to check.”
“I’m with you, that
means I’m more that fine.”
know I love you and I’ll always be here to support you. No matter
worry love, everything will be fine.”
‘Your mother and your
not talk about them in out bed.” Klaus shut you up. “I just want
to enjoy us.”
I’m fine with it.”
He stroke your hair and brought you even
closer to him.
darling. You must be tired.”
You nodded and closed your eyes,
catching his scent as you got comfortable on his chest. From moments
like these, you knew why your friends were wrong by judging him.
Klaus could be a maniac and a psychopath. But when he committed to someone…
That was no person in the world that could be more sweet and kind
than him. And that was the reason why you loved him and would never give
up on your relationship.
Thinking about Draco those first few weeks back gives me feels
Every August Draco get a little excited about the possibility of running into Granger in Diagon Alley.
Him spending hours on end waiting for her in Florish and Blots just to possibly run into her accidentally on purpose.
Getting excited to see what she wears on the train because she puts in a little more effort each year.
Him smiling the first time he sees her hand shoot up in class again.
Secretly checking out how much better she fills out the uniform.
Catching her reading in positions that look wildly uncomfortable all over the castle (mostly the library) and having to hold back his smile.
Blaise’s annual “so Granger looks good this year” comment that sets Draco into a jealous fit and Blaise into a laughing fit.
Scheduling his Hogsmead trip so he can see her the most.
Making sure he’s at the Three Broomsticks when she is because every time she licks the butterbeer foam of her lip and he can’t miss it.
Draco falling for her all over again each fall.
Yeah all the feels..
A very Merry Christmas to my CS Secret Santa giftee, @once-uponacaptain! I set out to write you a quick combined coffee shop/bookstore AU. Things got slightly out of hand, and this is what happened instead. I really hope you enjoy it anyway! LOL. It’s been lovely messaging with you the last few weeks and getting to know more about you. I hope you and your family have a wonderful, worshipful holiday season!
After years trying to make things work with a bad boyfriend/business partner, Emma Swan abandons New York for a fresh start in Boston with her son, looking for a way to live her life and run her coffee shop on her own terms. Enter Killian Jones, the pretty perfect owner of the bookstore next door who’s just the man to help her do it. But even the perfect guy can be haunted by his past, and the events of the Christmas season help reveal that maybe it’s not so much about her needing him as about them needing each other. (Captain Swan/Captain Cobra modern AU, coffee shop AU, bookstore AU, Christmas fic. Angst & Romance/Fluff. Rated G.)
The electronic chime signals the opening of the front door
of Horizon Bound, and Killian looks up from the inventory order list on his
computer screen to greet the person who has just entered his bookstore.
Correction: people. The pair to grace his threshold consists
of a young adolescent boy with a head of shaggy brown hair and an eager smile
and – Killian’s lips part involuntarily – a stunning young woman with thick,
blonde tresses hanging in gentle waves to the middle of her back, an athletic
figure obvious beneath her tank top, and the face of an angel. Wow. His usual call of hello completely
forgotten, he stares just long enough to warrant embarrassment before he
catches himself and tries, at least, to affect his most debonair smile.
The boy, dressed in shorts and a well-loved Star Wars tee, trots straight up to the
The woman remains a step behind, her hands tucked into the
back pockets of dark blue skinny jeans, and Killian dares to meet her gaze.
Oh. Her large eyes are grayish green, the color of a forest
in the morning mist, and they sparkle in a warm, if slightly anxious silent
greeting. It’s a Herculean task for Killian to tear his attention away
from her and focus on the boy with a friendly nod. “Hello, lad.
The boy beams, eagerly leaning forward on the counter on his
elbows. “I’m Henry,” he announces sunnily. “This is my mom.
We’re your new neighbors.”
Hello there! :) Can I request what would their reaction be in this scenario: RFA + V and Saeran had temporary amnesia, they can’t remember MC but they can still feel the love they have for her.MC puts on a strong facade, knowing that it’s temporary. It’s been already a few weeks when they suddenly saw MC hiding, silently breaking down. – requested by cookiekiller02
why so much sadness guys??? (lol jk, this is my shit) ~~ mod stranger
- he doesn’t have a clue why you’re crying but it doesn’t matter because he needs to make you feel better and he needs to know
- “MC, I’m sorry. Whatever it is, I’m sorry.”
- Seeing Zen all concerned over you makes you remember all those times when he excessively worried over you so you end up crying more
- Zen pulls you into an embrace and after waiting for you to calm down a bit you begin to explain why
- Concerned Mode Activated
- he immediately bombards you with questions asking you if it’s something he did or if someone upset you
- wraps you in his arms and lets you cry on him even if he doesn’t get an immediate answer and he tries his best to comfort you because all he wants to do is make you okay again
- after a while you begin to tell him about how you tried to remain strong all this time and then it’s his turn to cry for you
- you assure him that it’s not his fault but he still can’t help blaming himself
- she’s super surprised and caught off-guard at seeing you cry because she doesn’t recall ever seeing you cry
- she can’t help but stand frozen place as she watches you because she has no idea what to do but there’s an aching in her chest at seeing you in that state that she begins to cry too
- then she decides to comfort you by placing an arm around your shoulder and calmly asking you what’s wrong
- at first your surprised to see Jaehee crying too and then you start telling her about what you’ve been through
- and to your further surprise, Jaeheestarts crying harder because you’ve been through so much
- she doesn’t know what to do after that because she’s still struggling to recall her memories but at the same time, she doesn’t want to further hurt you
- when he sees you cry he immediately realizes that it must be somethign he did and that it was his fault
- instead of confronting you about it he tells you that he’s going to leave you alone because he doesn’t want to hurt you any further
- but you don’t want to give up on him either because you still love him to death and Jumin decides to stay with you instead and work harder on trying to get his memories back
- he immediately gets the hint and knows that it was his fault and he just completely blames himself for not remembering anything and hurting you in that way
- he realizes that it would be better for the two of you not to see each other again because you had a chance to move on and he didn’t
- one day you find out that seven had gone and left and it breaks your heart at first but deep down, you know it’s for the best
- and then one day he sees you again all happy and moved on in life with a family of your own
- and he’s just like:
- he immediately asks you what’s wrong and tries to wipe your tears away because he can’t stand seeing you like this
- you finally tell him everything about the amnesia and you being strong all that time so he wouldn’t notice anything wrong
- after that he apologizes profusely for hurting you even though you keep telling him that it’s not his fault
- he becomes more determined than ever to get his memories back because he doesn’t want to see you cry anymore
- he blames himself immediately and tries desperately to gain his memories back for your sake
- he interrogates his own doctors for a quicker procedure or anything that can help him because he can’t with himself knowing that he lost those precious moments that he had with you
- he’ll stop at nothing to remember again, even if it means he gets hurt in the end
- eventually, he realizes that it’s impossible for him to get back what he had lost and you tell him that it doesn’t matter anymore since you two still love each other and you can just make new ones
So if you hadn’t heard yet, I picked up these sweet little boys on Wednesday! I had been wanting rabbits for a while after spending a lot of time researching and talking to other people with EDS who have rabbits but the original plan was to wait another few years until I moved to my own place. The plan changed when my dad passed away this summer. This was something I was hoping to do with him, he’s always encouraged pets and went with me to pick out a lot of my pets. I waited until I was a little more stable mood wise but already these guys are making a difference. Anyway….
This is Dodger and Jack! They are male rex rabbits who are about a year old or a bit less than a year and were left at the front door of my local humane society. They are super friendly and outgoing. They were not litter trained but in the few days that I’ve had them, they have caught on very quickly. I’m hoping by the end of this week/start of next that they will be able to have free range of a room. I just expanded their exercise pen since they were doing so well with their litter habits.
Dodger and Jack have their own Instagram account instagram.com/dodgerandjack
I believe my Amazon wishlist is in my sidebar and I will start adding rabbit items as well if you ever want to send them a little something. If you have a pet wishlist let me know. I’d love to do swaps or something at some point.
Today’s probably going to be a mostly quiet day for me unless something absolutely incredible happens. It’s a rest day from the gym and my boyfriend woke up sick. So, he’s home today and so I am. We’re rarely home together during the day. We both are fortunate to have remote working options so it’s going to be a couch and laptop snuggle fest. I’ll take care of him, too.
Anyway, I weighed in this morning. I usually wait until Shark Week is done because I bloat very severely. That, and because of what my goals are, tape measurements and body fat percentage (which, I can only estimate) tell me a lot more about my progress.
Weight: 147 lbs. I put on a couple of pounds during my winter traveling and after my half marathon. I was 152 lbs at the end of December. A few pounds of that was bloat, some were actual weight. Either way, it isn’t a big deal at all because–
Measurements: 37-26.5-38. Those are lower than ever so I don’t give a rat’s ass that I’m a few pounds heavier than my lowest weight of 143 lbs (pre-half marathon).
Lifting: I started lifting in December. I do have plans to move over to traditional barbells and dumbbells at some point. I know that machines don’t engage certain stabilizer muscles. However, the machines have been a wonderful place for me to start forming workout habits and see progress in my lifts. I always injured myself when I tried lifting barbells and dumbbells in the past so my strategy this time is to really ease into it, take my time, research a lot, and just get into the habit of working out with resistance. Some days I do practice traditional moves with light weights. Anyway, in the past two months, I’ve added anywhere from 30-50 lbs to all the machines I use.
My names Anjelica! I’m a few weeks away from turning 23 and in May I’ll be graduating from nursing school! I love meeting new people and I love having good conversation! If you want to know more you’ll have to send me a message and start a conversation with me so dooo it!
Check out my blog @baby-ilove-yourways and my instagram @anjelicadiana and say hi! I’ll be waiting (:
(i’m queueing this way ahead of time, bear with me)
so hey!! it’s valentine’s day!! i know i normally do a valentine’s day art with my ship du jour (and, putting this in over a week ahead of time, i still might), but this year i obviously need to do somethin’ special for somebody special!
Summary : You and Jared were nothing more than just friends. For years, you two were all you’ve got. Until the day Gen appeared on the show, and changed everything. And though, you were used to him dating other people, things changed when you found out he was engaged to her.
A/N : I have been asked by so many of you to write a Jared fic. So i hope you all enjoy! xx
You felt your heart pound profusely as you held the letter close to you. For 48 hours, you have waited for this moment. A few weeks ago, Jared surprised you with big news. Something that you honestly didn’t see coming.
He was going to get married to the beautiful, and talented Gen. The girl you grew close with over the years and someone you considered a very important part of your life. Until the moment you realized that you were going to lose Jared.
You were going to lose him to someone else. Watch him grow old with her, and make a family of their own. And though you knew you should be ecstatic for them both, you couldn’t. And thats when it hit you.
You were in love with him.
Those feelings were pushed aside, many years ago. After the two of you both decided to end the short romance and just be friends, because neither of you could bear the thought of losing one another. And the way things were going for you both, you were on the path of something ugly. And that wasn’t something you guys could risk.
“You going to stay for the reveal?” Jensen muttered, his mouth filled with gummy bears.
You shook your head, feeling your throat begin to knot. “N-no. I have to talk to Felicia about something.” You hesitated, trying to refrain from crying. Your emotions were all over the place, and honestly you weren’t sure how to handle it.
He eyed you for a moment, scanning your face for bluff. Jensen was a brother to you. After meeting him, you two instantly clicked and he has been a close friend ever since.
“You okay?” He asked.
You opened your mouth, but the door swung open and Jared along with Rob and Richard, made their way in.
You have been keeping your distance from Jared ever since he told you. You ignored his calls, ignored his texts. Today was the first time you saw him. And you couldn’t help but feel sick.
“Hey! I didn’t know you were here.” Jared smiled, embracing you in his arms.
His scent was overbearing, but kept you on a high. Until he released, smiling down at you.
“I wasn’t planning on it. But Richard convinced me to.” You said shyly.
Richard flashed a soft smirk. He was the only one who knew exactly how you felt for the guy. He was the only one who understood the pain you were feeling every time you saw them together.
“Well I have to go.” You forced out. “Break a leg out there you guys.”
They all let out a chuckle and nodded.
“Hey, wanna get some drinks after? I missed you.” Jared asked.
You swallowed hard as his words caused an ache to course through you. Something you were beginning to get used too. “S-Sure.” you exhaled.
Before he had time to react, you practically ran out of the room. As the door closed behind you, you let out a breath you didnt know you were holding. You leaned against the wall, and looked up to the ceiling. “You can do this.” You whispered to yourself.
As a few hours passed, it was finally time for the cast to make their way up to the panel. You met up with Richard, and handed him the letter.
“You sure about this?” You whispered.
He nodded, pursing his lips. “You have to tell him, Y/N. He deserves to know.”
You nodded and gave him the letter. He pulled you in for a quick hug, and made his way on stage. Waving to the crowd, as they all cheered, he quickly placed the letter behind Jared’s name and walked over to the podium.
“Hey Y/N!” A familiar voice rang from behind, making you jump.
“Shit Jared-” You panted, pressing your hand to your chest. “You scared me!”
He let out a chuckle, his shoulders bouncing up and down. “Sorry. I forgot how much of a drama queen you were.”
You squinted your eyes at him, and playfully hit his arm. “Shut up.”
Hearing him laugh was something you wish you could hear forever. It was like a soft melody ringing in your ears. And it always made you smile.
“Why haven’t you been returning my calls?” He asked, growing serious now.
Your heart began to pace and though you wanted to tell him right there and then, you couldn’t.
“Okay Jared, you are about to go up.” Cliff stated.
You gave him a quick hug and took a step back. “Good luck out there.”
Turning on your heels, you made your way back out to the crowd. Jared kept his gaze on you. He was so happy to see you today. You have been to every convention and every comic con with him. This was something you both shared together. Having you by his side through all of this, during the crazy uproar of the show, made him feel at ease with it all. He could never imagine doing any of this without you.
“Okay, you are up.”
You felt your heart pound profusely as you stayed close to the door, staring up at the boys. It was time for him to finally read your letter. You couldn’t help but feel anxious and nervous at the same time.
Rob was cracking a joke with Misha as Richard leaned over to Jared, pointing at the letter in front of him. “Y/N left this for you.” He whispered.
Jared took the paper into his hands, unfolding it as he glanced up at you for a moment. Your breath hitched, and you couldn’t handle the anxiety. So you slipped out of the room, and ran as far away from there as possible.
His eyes gazed at the words your wrote on the letter. Feeling his stomach flutter and his heart drop to the pit of his stomach.
Where do I even begin?
I guess there is no way to say this. So here it is…I love you. I have always loved you and I dont think I ever will stop. When you told me you two were engaged, it killed me. It felt like you ripped my heart out and stomped on it right in front of me.
I don’t want to hold anything back from you anymore. I cant, because you deserve to know. I held my tongue for too long, and now i think I’m too late. So this is my goodbye. I cant be here and watch you marry her. I cant watch you two fall more in love. I cant pretend I dont feel this way for you because every time I see you kiss her, or see the way you look at her, I die a little.
I hope you two have a great life together, I really do because All I want is for you to be happy Jared. I love you, and I always will. Im so sorry. Goodbye.
He swallowed hard, feeling tears well as he stared intently at the water bottle in front of him. Jared felt as if he was hit by a truck. His chest ached, and his stomach churned.
He was confused, hurt, and most of all, angry. How could you do this to him now. How could you tell him that you couldn’t be in his life? His throat knotted, making it hard to even breathe. And all he wanted to do was storm out of there. To find you.
His mind was racing with different emotions, different thoughts. He didn’t know what to do.
But with all of that, he knew one thing was for sure. One thing he has been trying to push away, something he tried to brush off as nothing.
He was in love with you too. Since the day you two spent the night out under the stars, 4 years ago, all he wanted to say, all he ever wanted to tell you was that he loves you. And it scared him.
This is about the soft awakenings,
the brave realisations, the happening miracles.
This is about loss,
and what you find after.
This is about how the sun loved the moon so much
she’d let her shine even in the day.
This is no longer listening to the room of echoes,
of finally letting go,
of getting to know lightness.
This is the swallows singing the sky home.
This is about the way you look at me
when you’re drunk. Like
I’m a miracle. Like
maybe this is all enough for us.
And this is laughter claiming home
in our mouths.
This is about the words you say
when you think I’m not listening.
And these are the battles that have left us defeated,
the wars we’ve won, and
the bloodshed that keeps on coming.
This is slipping through forever
and catching the moments as we fall.
This is what happens after.
The days of barely making it.
This is setting yourself on fire
to burn through the darkness,
to get to the other side.
This is searching for something, anything.
This is walking through your ghosts and
finding pieces of yourself everywhere.
This is building yourself a home and having
every wall leaning a little bit to the left
because your hands couldn’t stop shaking.
This is standing at the edge
of some unknown
with a gentle tremble in your chest.
This is it.
This is it.
This is it.
As much as I don’t want it to admit it I see Joe
being the one to die at the end of the season even more so now after this last
episode. He found out about Iris’s possible death and alluded to him not going
anywhere and his future with Cecile and his death would have more impact on all
the characters (besides Iris of course) but like I mentioned in last week’s I
could be wrong post Joe is only dying if Jesse wants to leave the show. But I
also think it would be a bad move to kill Joe so it’s more likely that Julian
will die (actually I think he’s dying no matter what) but we’ll just have to
wait and see.
Now more than ever I feel like a proposal is
coming sooner rather than later. It depends on how the next few episodes play
out but I can see Barry proposing to Iris in 3x20 or at least asking Joe for
permission it’d be a funny and somewhat petty parallel to 1x20 when Eddie
wanted to propose to Iris and Joe was basically like denied. I also feel like
Barry won’t want to propose to her until he’s sure her death won’t happen
because it might upset her or he could use it as reassurance to her that it
definitely won’t happen plus they’re basically already married. OR the latest
he could propose is 4x09 and that’s if he gets trapped in the speedforce at the
end of the season.
This current episode was about Wally training to
get faster so he can save Iris from Savitar but here’s what I’m thinking: obviously
it’s not just going to be Barry and Wally that save her the whole team will
help but what if Cisco has bigger part in saving her than we think because in
last week’s episode Cynthia was able to disrupt the speedforce in Wally when he
was trying to stop her and Savitar is basically pure speedforce right? Well, I
think Cisco is gonna learn how to master all of his powers and be able to hold
off Savitar long enough for Barry to get Iris somewhere safe and Wally is gonna
be the one to trap Savitar in his box OR Savitar captures Wally and as he’s
being trapped in the speedforce and they both get stuck instead of Barry.
4. I’ve seen lots of theories saying that Iris will
be pregnant when Savitar attacks her and because of their meta-human DNA they
regenerate her cells and heal her. While I do like this theory, I think it’s
highly unlikely it will be canon. I don’t think the show would want to go down
that road just yet especially since they aren’t even engaged yet. But Joe’s
reaction would be fucking hilarious.