i have to smoke

 Bold what applies: C’iana Ichati

Bold what applies to your muse!

  • I’m loud
  • I’m sarcastic
  • I cry easily
  • I have a bad temper
  • I’m easy to get along with
  • I have more enemies than friends
  • I’ve smoked
  • I drink coffee
  • I clean my room daily

My appearance:

  • I wear make-up (light)
  • I wear a piece of jewelry at all times
  • I wear contacts
  • I wear glasses (reading glasses)
  • I have braces
  • I change my hair color often
  • I have piercings
  • I have small feet


  • I’m in a relationship now 
  • I’m single
  • I’m crushin’
  • I’ve missed an ex before
  • I’m always scared of being hurt
  • I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
  • I’ve been in love more than two times
  • I believe in love at first sight


  • I have a best friend 
  • I have at least ten REAL friends
  • I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend
  • I’ve beaten up a friend
  • I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend
  • I can trust at least five people with my life


  • I’ve been on a plane (airship) 
  • I’ve taken a taxi (chocobo porter)
  • I’ve taken a ferry
  • I’ve taken a school bus
  • I’ve made a speech
  • I’ve been in some sort of club 


  • I listen to R&B 
  • I listen to pop
  • I listen to techno
  • I listen to rock
  • I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly
  • I download music
  • I buy CD’s
  • I listen to anything really

Family Life:

  • I get along with both of my parents 
  • My biological parents are still together
  • I have at least one brother ( @heroicedwardgraves )
  • I’ve been kicked out of the house
  • I’ve sworn at my parents
  • I’ve made my parents cry (Unless you count tears of joy!)
  • I’ve lied to my parents
  • I’ve been kicked out of the house
  • I’ve lied to my parents about where I am
  • I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing


  • I’ve had streaks 
  • I’ve cut my hair in the past year
  • I’ve dyed my hair in the past year
  • I’ve been blonde (Still am!)
  • I’ve had black
  • I’ve been red
  • I use conditioner
  • I’ve curled my hair
  • I’ve straightened my hair 

Tagged by: @littletattooist, @aelorellevallancourt, and @poetry-in-exile. Thank you so much!

Tagging:  (I’m not sure who’s already done these so apologies for the re-tag!)

@sword-without-sheath, @the-sky-captain, @kis-a, @puretopia, @sagoliisaffron@kankocharm, @cael-senpai, @rivalj0vi, @marshallrose, @kotone-shimayasu, @dylibird and anyone else who would like to do this!

On the bright side I went to go get high and my gf was sleeping and seeing her just brought me back to reality for a minute

I want to cry I’m so happy I have her tbh I was coughing from smoking and she was fast asleep but she still reached out for me to make me feel better and I just kind of held her hand while she slept until she woke up and I told her about the stuff with my ex

Then she went back to sleep and I’m awake and sad but happy that I’m with someone who loves me so much, she won’t get mad if I wake her up or if I need to vent in the middle of the night and then we can both just go to back to sleep after like normal

Idk it’s surreal and I’m happy I’m out of where I was, I’m sad to see someone else ultimately heading towards the hell that I lived through but I don’t really know what to do about it


thoughts, feelings, y’know that sorta thing

edit 2: this is a post about bipolar disorder, made by me, an artist with bipolar disorder, strictly for other people with bipolar disorder. stop tagging it for unipolar depression, anxiety, bpd, psychosis, or anything else (those are just the most used tags on this) because it’s not about those. even if you think you can relate, tagging this as anything other than bipolar disorder is stripping my meaning away from my work, and invalidating my feelings as a mentally ill person AND an artist. stop doing that.

edit 3: do NOT put this on gore/guro blogs. thanks.

Aroooo ~
Still playing around with quick & sketchy styles, hoping I can whip out a full painterly painting by April 1st!
haha not gonna happen I’m afraid

randomicecream  asked:

Enjolras in #57? ;v; (i love ur art 💕)

Omg thanks for the compliments!! Sorry if I made you wait so long ;;

Here he is!!! Fierce revolutionary with a smoke bomb
thanks for requesting and thanks even more for waiting so patiently <3

Genoary, Day 23: AFTERTALE - What comes to mind? Let your imagination run wild.

Sort of a tribute to ye olde April Fools’ comic that never got finished, since that’s exactly what I thought of for some reason…

Genoary challenge by @shinydiamondblog
CQ as herself, @loverofpiggies