i have to grow my nails out or else mom says nobody will hold my hand

Chapter 12


Kai

“Sanchez! You got a visitor!” The guard barked and my eyebrows came together. I already spoke to my mother and brothers, they told me they couldn’t make it today and Rob is officially done with a nigga so I was wondering who the fuck could be tryna get at me.

I stood up and let him cuff me all the way out into the visiting area and scanned the faces of the free. I had to do a double take once I saw Kayla and how fuckin’ beautiful she looked. Just glowing, my nigga. Her stomach grew from the last time I saw her and her thighs were fillin’ out. Shit was giving me flashbacks from when she was pregnant with my seed.

The tears in her eyes that she was tryna fight came down the slope of her cheeks when she saw me. I ain’t gon’ lie, my vision was goin’ blurry too, man. I made a mess of her, it’s probably too late to apologize but I'ma shoot my shot anyway. The guard uncuffed me and I stood there waiting for Kay to approach me. She walked slowly and cautiously and melted in my arms when she was within distance. I kissed her forehead and wrapped her in a bear hug.

“I miss you, man.” I mumbled into her hair and kissed her cheek, motioning for her to sit down across from me. “Wassup?” I asked, getting tired of her silence. Kayla ain’t never quiet around me. I’m used to her loud mouth ass rambling on about how much I ain’t worth shit.

“You got my letter?” she whispered, wiping her tears with her sleeves. A few nights ago, I got a letter from her telling me how much she needed a friend, and Lord knows that a nigga could relate, and how she couldn’t carry her baby alone so we bonded over a phone call, just like old times. She even slipped me an ultrasound picture of her pending shorty.

“Yeah,” I mumbled. Uncomfortable wasn’t the word. Why she sending me pictures of this nigga’s baby? Something ain’t right. “Kay, what’s poppin’ out there? The baby okay?” she nodded.

“You okay?” I asked and this time she shook her head.

“Why not? Talk to me, Ma.”

“I’m scared and I’m alone. No one is here to help me with him and I just-” she covered her face and sobbed quietly.

“Kayla, whatchu mean you alone? That nigga ain’t helping you with nothing concering ya’ll baby?”

“Kaiden, I fucked up.”

“How, Kay Kay?”

“I wanted it but I didn’t want it like this.”

“You confusing the shit outta me, mama. Spit it out, man, please.”

“The baby’s not Jaylen’s. He’s yours.”

Reality slapped fire outta me when I went gazing down memory lane; from Kaila’s birth to how crazy in love I was with Kayla, to the second I couldn’t feel my daughter’s heart beat anymore, ending with me hating my high school sweetheart. I ain’t want no rerun of this shit. It was scary and I vowed to never do it again.

“Kai, please comfort me with words right now.” she mumbled, looking down at her nails. “Do you want this?”

“I ain’t plan for it.”

“Neither did I. That night, it made me feel like I was yours again. I honestly didn’t wanna come between you and her, it felt right-”

“It take two, ma.”

I gotta say, cheating on Robyn was one of the dumbest things I’ve ever done. She was mad good to me and ain’t ever did nun wrong. I was constantly making her cry, cheating, being disrespectful, shit everything in the fuckin’ book. She still looked past all that shit and when I got locked up, she visited me whenever she could. The last time I seen her, she told me she planned on gettin serious with that other nigga and how she didn’t want me in her life anymore. I couldn’t accept that shit, so I was calling left and right, sending hella letters, but I never got a response. Eventually, I just gave up and accepted the fact that she moved on so I need to do the same shit.

“How you feel?” she asked, glancing up at me for the first time. Relief was written all over her face.

“I’m cool. Ain’t my first rodeo witchu. I got some money stashed, I could tell you where it’s at so you can sit pretty, far away from the fuckery. Start a new life with my lil’ nigga, Kay.” I ain’t want her around all this shit. Knowing that my past just keep catching up to a nigga, I wanted her to get the fuck away from here. Especially since she was carrying my seed. I know it’s gone be hella chaos when I get out. Somebody was gone die, and I felt like that person was gone be me.

“I got money too, that’s not what I’m here for. I just wanted to tell you that you were his father.”

“Why you play with my emotions like that?”

“I didn’t know. It was between you and Jaylen. I thought it was his.”

“You still in contact with him?”

“Nope. I got a new spot, new phone number.”

“This shit is crazy. I don’t wanna bring no youngin’ in this world behind bars. He gon’ be five when I’m out.”

“I’ll hold it down until then. I got your back if anything, Kai. Just like back in the day. I know the Judge, you’re gonna be outta here in no time.”

“I’m sorry for treatin’ you like shit, Kay. I don’t wanna dive back in no relationship but, just know I got mad love for you. Ain’t nobody really understand me like you. I promise to do better when I get out, I promise to be a better father. A better fiancèe, if we ever get back to that. I promise to have a better ear, if I listened to you all them years ago, I wouldn’t be here.”

She was the main one tellin’ me to leave this dangerous shit behind, while all my “homies” was gettin me into shit left and right. I’ve almost got killed multiple times, and I was still being hard headed. Your girl really is the realist one on ya team.

“I believe you, Kai. I never stopped loving you, dude. I promise to make myself a better me and a better mother. I’ll help you fufill your promises.”

“Baby steps. We gon’ be aight. I’ll let moms know so you won’t be alone. She gon’ be the daddy until I’m free. I need videos, audio, pictures, updates. You still my assistant, nigga.”

“Fuck off.” she wiped her tears and grinned.

“How the business doing by the way? Kendall said y'all holding it down.”

“We are, its doing better than it was than when you ran it. Promo every where. We even got mad celebrities coming to different locations. It’s poppin’.” She flipped her hair as I waved her off. I believed her, cause Kayla was genius as hell with the ideas.

“Nah don’t start feelin’ ya self, don’t nobody run a business better than me. Thank you though, real shit.” I smiled, holding her hand.

“Gimme hug.” I stood up and hugged her. When we pulled away, her face was inches from mine. I leaned in to kiss her but I stopped myself. I wanted to but, it felt like it was too soon.

“Ladies first then.” she mumbled and kissed me softly. Wiping my lips afterwards. “Finally got your bitch back that can actually handle you.”


Robyn

“Girl they asses stay asking if you want a design like if I wanted one, I would’ve said it.” Winter rolled her eyes as we walked into the living room. We had just came back from getting our nails done and shopping and I was honestly exhausted.

I haven’t really went out and just spoiled myself in a while, and winter was the perfect person to do it with. She kept me laughing the whole time.

I had a chill day with her, but I was honestly ready to lay my ass down. I had to measure hella clients tomorrow morning for a wedding. “I’ll see you later. We should do this again.” I smiled at her, embracing her in a side hug.

“Definitely, just hit me up whenever you’re free!” She yelled before disappearing down the hall to O’s room.

I kicked my vans off and started to jog up to my room. When I got in, the first thing I spotted was Jaylen lying on his back while he was staring at the ceiling.

I haven’t spoken to him since last week, because he seemed like he wanted to be alone after finishing out whatever Kayla had told him. As soon as I asked if the baby was his, he just stormed out and left. I was bummed at first, but I knew eventually he’d come around and talk to me about it.

I guess today was my lucky day.

After setting my purse down on the nightstand, I sat next to him and he knew just what to do. He stripped out of his shirt, lying on his stomach afterwards. I sat  on his lower back area, and started to let my hands work its magic. “Talk to me.” I spoke.

It ain’t mines..” he said loud and clear, making me furrow my eyebrows. Shouldn’t he be excited?

“Isn’t that what you wanted?” He was silent for a while before answering.

“At first, I wasn’t too happy about the pregnancy but after her living with me through the whole damn thing, it started to grow on me. Ya boy was anxious as hell to be a father. I spent all this time, putting my work aside just to help her out because no one else would. I spent hella racks on this baby, and I was even considering moving into a bigger house. I don’t see my lil’ sister that often, so having a kid would’ve been dope.” He explained, and I couldn’t help but to feel bad for him. He talked about his sister all the time and how he wishes he could see her everyday.

I didn’t know he felt that way about having a baby. Jaylen was the most truthful and loyal person I knew, he didn’t deserve what I nor Kayla did to him.

Not knowing what exactly to say at the moment, I wrapped my arms around him tightly, letting him know that everything was going to be okay.

“Everything happens for a reason, Jay. You may not have a kid now, but God’s gonna bless you whenever the time is right. Who knows, maybe he’ll bless you with twins one day. Besides, you didn’t want a kid with her anyways. You dodged a bullet, that’s the way I see it.” I assured him, kissing his cheek as my arms remained around his neck.

“You right.” He said as he flipped over on his back while I still hovered over him. His hands found its way to my butt, gripping it as a smile plastered across his face. I chucked and moved his hands away so we could be serious at the moment.

“Exactly, so enough of this sad stuff. I wanted to ask you something.”

“Spill.” He played with my fingers.

“Aight so, I love your work. I’ve been looking at places for a while now and I’m actually working on opening a store pretty soon. Would it be too much if I asked you to bless the store with your creativity?”

“Nah, I’d love to. That’ll be dope.”

“Really?”

“Hell yea.”

“As much as I’d love to talk about this all day, I’m pretty sleepy.” I got off of him and stripped out of my clothes to get under the blanket. He was laying dorm also but he was watching a movie. Let me take this nap.

**

Jaylen’s hands were wrapped around my waist as he stood behind me and watched me attempt to paint a picture of particularly nothing. He was more into it than I was. It was actually pretty cool but I sucked at this. It looked like I was just slapping colors every where.

I mean of course some artists make that look okay, but mines just looked like it was forced. It wasn’t blending.

“I don’t even know what I’m doing.” I chuckled looking back at him.

“Don’t think, just paint.” He coached me, kissing me on the forehead. I nodded and took a deep breath before continuing. After 20 minutes passed, I felt like I was done so I stepped aside to let jaylen see. He turned his head over to the side to look at it from a different angle.

“Girl, this look like my dick hairs. What is this?” He busted out into a fit of laughter. He legit had tears coming out of his eyes, making me feel like a failure.

“Jaylen!” I sucked my teeth so he could stop laughing. By now, he was tuning me out and having the time of his life.

I rolled my eyes and started to grab my things. “Aight! I quit, I quit.” He said before laughing one last time.

“It’s not funny.”

“Nah it’s funny cause you was really focused over there for damn near an hour, ugly ass.”  

I was bound to take my ass to Odell’s room and chill in there since Jaylen wanted to be a dick. “I know you ain’t in yo feelings.” He stopped laughing, sucking his teeth. I looked away so that I wouldn’t smile because he always gave me my way.

“You a cry baby Robyn, I swear. Come here.” He mugged me, patting the spot on his lap. I smiled and sat on his lap willingly, wrapping my arms around his neck.

“I love you.”

“But just a minute ago I was a dick?” He rose an eyebrow. I thumped him for not saying it back.

“You know you are.”

“Girl please, ever since we been kickin’ it I been nice as hell to you compared to the first day I met you. Got me going all soft and shit.”

“And it’s cute, you should stay this way.” I kissed his neck. He continued to draw on whatever sketch app he had on his iPad.

“Can we go to Starbucks?”

“Hell nah, unless you driving. I’m high as hell.”

“Ain’t nobody told you to get that high in the first place.”

“Too bad.” He smacked my thigh, making me hiss.

“Jaylen..”

“Man starting tomorrow Ima start telling ya ass no.” He got up to put on his shoes.

He always said that.

Jaylen

“Yo why this nigga hugging him and shit?” I asked as I stared at the fight that was playing on my big screen in the living room. Rob and I were here watching it. O wanted me to go there with him but I wasn’t bout to pay thousands just to see two niggas fight when I can see that shit down the block for free. Fuck outta here.

“I’m gonna go make me something to eat.” Robyn got up, digging a big ass wedgie out in the process. Them damn shorts.

“So yo dirty booty ass just gone block the TV?” I smacked the back of her thigh as she hissed.

“You just dug one not too long ago so shut up.” She shot as she made her way to the kitchen.

“Make me some!” I yelled out as I picked my cup of Dirty up, gulping the shit down like it was water. If she saw me do that, she’d beat my ass. She hated when I drank and smoked so much, but she was just gone have to deal with it. Shit made me feel at peace. It’s like all my problems went away whenever I was high or drunk and I like to keep it that way.

Since she didn’t reply, I put my bottle down and got up to walk into the kitchen. I could eat a cow right now.

“Why you always wearing these shorts around a nigga? You tryna get pregnant?” I asked, pulling her by the strings on her shorts.

“It’s hot.” She shrugged, trying to get out of my grip. She knew what she was doing.

“Nah, my AC in this bitch blasting.” I smirked, shaking my head at her lying ass. It was literally Antarctica in here.

“Whatever, what you want me to make?”

“Some nachos, I ain’t had any in a long ass time.” I smiled, standing behind her.

“Jaylen, why does your breath smell like that?” She folded her arms over her chest. I forgot how strong that shit smelled, I should’ve gotten some gum.

“Like what?” I played dumb. She rolled her eyes and stormed into the living room, picking up the cup of lean I had on the table. Once she realized what it was, she shook her head in disappointment. I really ain’t feel like hearing no speech.

“What did I tell you about this stuff, Jaylen? It’s slowly killing you!” She yelled, slightly making my high go away. She lucky I love her ass or she would’ve gotten a piece of my mind.

I shrugged. “If I die, it was just my time to go.” She scrunched up her face and sucked her teeth.

I ain’t wanna say shit, but that same feeling I had before I met Robyn was starting to come back. That feeling I felt when God took my mama. Like I had nothing to live for.

I hate thinking about shit like that, which I why I take so much drugs the way I do. When I’m gone off this shit, none of that depressing shit even pops up into my head but it’s like as soon as I’m sober, it be the first thing on my mind.

It be so bad that I even have nightmares that’s why I can never sleep unless I’m with Robyn. I ain’t telling her that shit though.

I think this whole thing is because I haven’t been talking to her about my problems like I was when we first met. After she got with her ex nigga, she just stopped helping me.

“Do you hear how stupid you sound?” She asked, braking me out of my thoughts.

“I ain’t tryna’ hear allat’ right now, Rob. Talk to me bout that shit another day, you workin’ my nerves.”

She thought that just because she had stopped smoking, she could get everyone else to do that shit. Fuck no.

“I don’t care! Throw it out, or get out!

Instantly, Future’s lyrics started to play in my head. Bitch Ima choose this dirty over you, you know I ain’t scared to lose you. Now I was confused.

"Man you trippin’.”

“Do it look like one of my shoes untied?” I laughed at her sarcasm before taking the cup of out her hand.

I looked at it, wondering if I should pour it down the sink or not. This shit was expensive. But shit, Robyn probably gone cut my ass off if I don’t pour this shit out.

I sighed and walked into the kitchen, pouring it out in the sink so that she could get off my fucking case. If she was gone tell me to throw my weed out, she could kick rocks to be honest. I wasn’t throwing that shit out for nobody.

When I came back into the living room, she had a big smile on her face. “You really did it? I didn’t think you were going to!” She yelled, pulling me into a hug. I waved her off and started to walk over to couch still thinking about my lean.

While we sat down, she started to stare into my eyes as if she was looking into my soul. “What’s really wrong with you, Jay?”

“It’s cool, Ion wanna talk about it.”

“Jaylen if you don’t start talkin’ boy…” she playfully punched my arm. I chucked at her thinking she could run me. Shit, I sure was about to tell her though. She already blew my high so why not?

“You know how we used to have deep conversations about everything all the time? That shit helped a lot. It took away all those negative thoughts I had, all the nightmares, I actually could sleep at night, just everything. And once you got with that nigga it’s like, all that shit stopped. You stopped checking up on a nigga like you used to and all that shit just started coming back. I ain’t ever told nobody this but,” I paused to sigh because I know she’d make a scene from what I was about to tell her.

“When my mama died, I tried to kill my damn self. And believe it or not, those suicidal thoughts starting to come back cause my life is just all over the place right now. I ain’t tryna’ sound like a bitch, but when you went ghost and shit, I felt empty.  When I said you special to me, I meant that shit. Only family I got is my dad and sister, and I barely see them so a nigga be feeling lonely. And the fact that I couldn’t talk to you about this shit was making it worse.” By the look on her face, I knew she wanted to cry.

“Why didn’t you tell me this sooner, Jaylen?”

“Because I had been feeling like this ever since you cut me off the first time for dude.”

“Jaylen, I’m so sorry! I was being such a dumb ass to even put him before you. You know you can talk to me about anything, even if we on bad terms. Especially if you’re thinking about suicide, don’t hesitate to call me at all! You’re everything Jaylen, and I’ll literally lose my mind if you ever did anything like that. I love you Jaylen.”

“I love you too, girl.” I grabbed her head and gave instantly my tongue was down her throat. I could never get enough of her kisses. Fine ass.

“Don’t hurt me Rob.” I said once I pulled away.

“I won’t.” She smiled, holding her pinky out so I could lock mines with hers. I was starting to gain my trust back with her.

I was a lil scared that she’d hurt me again. That hurt I was feeling wasn’t a pleasant feeling at all. I wasn’t tryna get hurt again, so I hope this shit was legit.

**

“It’s X to pass and square to shoot, baby. If I win, we stay in this bitch all night and fuck in every room until I get tide and nigga, I don’t get tide!” I flexed and she gazed at me with lust in her eyes.

“And if I win, we go out on a date.” I shrugged and latched my pinky with hers.

“Bet. Pick ya team.” I already knew I was about to tear that ass up because she ain’t know shit about sports. She might as well just strip now and get the Plan B ready.

She sat on my lap, slightly blocking the view of the tv with her big ass head. I put my hands on hers, coaching and teaching her what controls to use again. I nibbled on her ear while the game loaded and she smiled, craning her neck so she could kiss me.

“I love you for real, Robyn. Like on some shit, a few months ago, I thought we wasn’t never gon’ be in a good place again. You my nigga, baby.”

“Facts. I love you, too.” Her love was on some official shit. We been on for a few weeks and I saw the contrast between me and the other nigga already. She was constantly in tears or always had a frown on her face with the jailbird. Since WE got together, ya’ll already know we some big ass kids and we was always comfortable around each other so it was just a hella healthy relationship. Rob was my fuckin’ cinnamon apple, no doubt.

“You got the Cavs? You sure?” I asked with my chin on her shoulder.

“Yes! LeBron is cute!”

“Don’t get fucked up. Bron don’t want no smoke over my baby.”

“Relax, he’s married with kids.” she rolled her eyes and got situated on my lap once tip-off approached.

“Ready to get yo ass beat?” I mumbled with my lips on her neck. It’s hard to keep all of me off her. She’s addictive as fuck when she not on fuck shit.

“Please, I'ma win for my date.”

“You gon’ get ya date. I getchu whatever, don’t I?” she nodded while blushing. “Stop with the cute shit! It’s game time.”

“Fine. Let’s get this work.”

**

Believe it or not, I was actually putting in effort so we could go all night in the boom boom room but, she was always closing in on me with bitch ass Kyrie. She wanted this damn date, all she kept shooting was three-pointers. I chuckled once I fouled her with a few seconds left in the game.

“What’s so funny?” she asked, looking back at me.

“You won. You beat me fair and square.” I half-lied. I kinda let the game slip through my fingers in the second quarter. I was hungry as fuck and a date at a romantic spot alone with Rob ain’t sound too bad.

“YAAAASSS BITCH YAAAASSS.” she whined on my dick and I watched her move like the joystick on our controllers. “GAS ME UP! GAS ME UP!”

“You the shit, man.” I mumbled as she shot her little foul shots which caused her take the W by ten points.

“What? Can’t hear you!” she shot up and started shaking her ass.

“You everything. Come here.” I laid down and she hovered over me. I really hope this shit is for real, I hope someone could love me as hard as I was out here lovin’ other bitches. I hope that someone is Rob.

“Where we going?” she asked pecking my lips.

“Somewhere wit’ poppin’ food. I’m starving.”

“Same, I'ma hop in the shower.”

“I’m coming witchu. Don’t have the water pipin’ hot either, shit be burning me the fuck up. I’m light skin, that shit gon’ show.” I mumbled as she took my hand and led me into the bathroom.

**

I made sure all my jewelry was on before looking in the mirror. I didn’t really dress up because we were going to eat and I couldn’t keep my clothes clean for shit. Don’t get me wrong, I still looked like a bag of money even when I wasn’t trying.

I decided that I was gone take her to this soul food spot that I used to take O and Winter to back in they college days. The spot was dope and I swear the food was hella bomb. It made me feel like I was back in VA, at a family reunion or some shit.

“Damn ma, you made a handsome ass son.” I mumbled, looking up at the ceiling. If ma was here, she’d stay boosting me like she always did when I was younger. That’s the reason a nigga so cocky right now.

I was actually looking forward to this “date” or whatever because for one, I was starving. Second, Robyn and I stay in the crib 24/7. I’m either at hers or she’s always at mines. There was nothing wrong with that, it’s just nice to get out for a change.

I came out of my room only to see Robyn patiently sitting on my couch, looking as beautiful as she always looked. She was gone fuck around and give a nigga diabetes with all that chocolate. Damn she was fine.

“Why you staring?” She smiled, breaking me out of my thoughts.

“Girl getcho’ pretty ass up so we can go.” I laughed, holding my hand out for her to grab.

“You just got a haircut?”

“Yea, why? Shit nice huh?” I smirked, as I locked the door behind us, walking towards the elevator. She always noticed the little differences every time she saw me. Even if I had a new grill, new watch, anything. She’d always compliment me on it.

“Looks real nice on you. I should’ve wore panties.” I heard her mumble, not knowing if that was meant for me to hear or not.

Once we were outside, I held the passenger’s door open for Robyn noticing that Winter and Odell were already in the backseat. I don’t know how the hell they got in there.

“Who told y'all to tag along?” I said as I started up the car. They gone ruin our shit with they arguing. They argue every two minutes.

“No invite, nigga?” Odell muffed my head. This nigga.

“Right, you know this our spot.” Winter pitched in, shaking her big watermelon ass head.

“What you mean no invite? You niggas already done invited y'all selfs into my car.”  I shook my head before pulling out off the parking lot. I guess we would have to plan something alone next time.

**

We were now at the restaurant, and it felt good to be back. I was honestly looking forward to the pie more than anything else. As I sipped some of my water, I looked over at Robyn and seen her playing with the material on her dress. She had her legs wide open like she had on panties.

“You know you fucked up by not wearing no drawls around me, right?” I whispered in her ear, gripping her ass in my hands.

She shook her head no and tried to ignore my hand as it started to make its way up her dress. She was wetter than an ocean, real talk. Fuck this food, her pussy was my dinner.

“Jaylen what ar-” Her sentence was cut short due to the loud gasp she let out. I smirked and looked at the menu as if my fingers weren’t deep in her pussy right now.

“Rob, you okay?” Winter asked as she noticed the look on Robyn’s face. I wanted to laugh so bad, because I knew she couldn’t control it. She tried to play it off so hard but failed miserably. She couldn’t even talk. I started to curl my fingers and I knew that sent her over the edge.

“Yea I’m fine..” a moan slipped out of her mouth, causing O to look up from his phone.

“You sure you aight?” O asked, as she slowly nodded before rolling her eyes to the back of her head. They were looking at her like she had two heads.

“Ion’ know what’s her deal.” I shrugged, sipping some of my water. They both just brushed it off and left about a minute later because O had dropped his keys outside. More privacy for us.

“Jaylen please.” She moaned out in my ear as the waiter made his way over to our table. I made sure to order everything for everyone since Robyn was lost for words and Winter and O were doing whatever. We all got the same thing every time.

Once the waiter was gone, Rob’s juices were dripping down my fingers instantly. Just as I started to lick my fingers clean, they were back at the table.

“What you licking your fingers for?” Winter looked at us suspiciously.

“Bread and butter was bangin.” I lied, tapping Robyn so she could get up so that I could wash my hands. I would be a hoe ass nigga to touch all of the food when my hands been all in Rob.

Once I was in the restroom, I felt my phone vibrate. I looked down at it, noticing that it was a text from Robyn.

Robyn🌸: I really can’t stand you at all 😩 you had me looking stupid

Me: you taste better than that pie 😏

Laughing, I put my phone away and started to wash my hands. When I was finished, I dried them with paper towels before leaving and making my way back out to the table.

I noticed that the food was here and everybody was already digging in. “Damn I leave for two seconds and y'all already grubbing without me.” I sat down, saying my grace before digging into my own food.

There was silence and the only thing that could be heard was the soft jazz playing in the restaurant. “You remember when Jaylen used to bring us here after class?” Winter asked O as he nodded with a smirk on his face.

“We used to order the whole damn menu.”

“On God, we used to come every Wednesday when this bitch wasn’t packed and order a damn feast. Especially after a smoking session.” I laughed, dapping O. Them were the days, man.

“You and Winter would go back and forth every fucking time on who got the last piece of pie.”

I laughed as I looked over at Robyn and noticed that she was just scrolling through her phone looking as if she felt left out. Shit, this why I wanted it to just be us two.

“What you scrolling through over here?” I asked, moving some of her hair out her face.

“Nothing, I was playing Impossible Bottle Flip.”

“Yo simple ass.” I laughed, shaking my head. She grown as hell and got more games on her phone than anyone I know.

“Just because I don’t watch porn on my spare time don’t mean I’m simple.”

“Who watch porn?”

“YOU!” All three of them said, making me chuckle. Fuck them.

“So what? I be tryna learn new shit.” I shrugged, leaning back. Robyn need to shut that shit up, cause once I try this new shit on her she gone be damn near decreased. She couldn’t even handle my finger earlier. She was over here bout to have a heart attack.

“Nasty ass.” Winter mumbled, sipping some of her wine.

“Shut up Jawunna Mann.” Rob and O started to snicker but stopped when Winter glared at them.

“I’m playing, you know you my big sis.” I smiled blowing kisses at her as she scrunched up her face.

After clowning on each other for forever, we were all full so there wasn’t that much energy to continue. “About that collab.. when you wanna start?” I asked Rob, sitting up in my seat.

“Tomorrow?”

“Bet.” I smiled, finishing up the little portion of pie that I had left. I was really looking forward to this shit. I wanted nothing but the best for my girl.

**

I swear on the whole way home, we couldn’t keep our hands off of each other. I had just got an uber for O and Winter cause I ain’t feel like hearing they two cents. Robyn was lookin’ hella good tonight and now that we were at my place, I was bout to fuck the shit outta her.

As we were still kissing, I used my free hand to try and unlock the door but failed miserably. “Hold up real quick.” I chuckled, pulling away to catch my breath. Not even a second after I got the door to open, our tongues were back down each other’s throat all the way to the bedroom. I ain’t even get to lock the door.

Just as I went to reach for her panties, she had threw up all over my expensive white, silk shirt. I literally just bought this a day ago.

“I gotta be dreaming, yo.” I laughed, pinching my arm as hard as I could but each time, nothing happened.

“Jaylen, I’m so sorry! I-I-” she started to stutter as I just put my hands up.

“You good, I’ll be back.” I sighed, getting up so that I could clean this shit off. Looking at it made me wanna throw up myself.

By now, my dick wasn’t even hard anymore and my horniness had went away. Once I was done cleaning my hoodie, I took it off and threw it in the washer. I guess I didn’t need a shirt.

When I got back in the room, she was sitting at the edge of the bed holding her head. She couldn’t be pregnant. She was literally just over here 2 days ago crying to me about her cramps.

“You ain’t pregnant are you?” I asked, stripping out of my jeans. She looked up and shook her head no.

“No, I just had my period. I think it was just because of that chicken I ate.”

“Oh yea, I forgot that you was vegan. Why you ain’t say nothing?”

“You’re the one that kept fantasizing about how good the chicken was so I wanted to try some!”

“Well was it good?” She rolled her eyes before shaking her head. I knew she wanted to slap me.

“Yes, but now I feel horrible.”

“Just lay down baby, I got you. You should feel better by the morning.” I sucked my teeth once I saw her eyes close.

“You gone fall asleep on me?” I asked, standing in the doorway of my bathroom. I know we been chillin’ all day but if she falls asleep I’m gone be bored as shit.

She shook her head yes, before making herself comfortable. I was only letting her go to sleep because she was sick. Any other time, I’d be bothering her ass.

“Aight baby, get some rest.” I told her and seconds later she started making kissing noises so I made some back. This girl had me going soft. I’m a savage to these niggas but to her I’m gentle.

Stepping into the bathroom, I turned the shower on and stripped out of my clothes before stepping in. I bathed myself for at least 30 minutes, before I decided to get out. After doing my hygiene routine, I went back in the bedroom and put on some polo boxers and socks. My feet be freezing at night.

As I walked to the bed, I noticed that Robyn was sleeping hella good and I didn’t wanna wake her up but I was tryna make sure she was good before I went to sleep. When I’m sleep, I don’t hear shit.

“Baby..” I shook her softly. Her eyes fluttered open before she started to look at me. I hovered over her and began to kiss all over her beautiful face as she started to smile. I noticed that her forehead was hot as shit. “Huh?”

“You don’t wanna go to the hospital?” She shook her head no.

“Drink this then.” I handed her my water bottle from off the nightstand. I had gave her some pills earlier and I didn’t wanna give her anymore, because it would be too many.

Once she drank half of the bottle, she gave it back to me before getting comfortable again.

“Goodnight.” I mumbled in her ear, wrapping my arms around her waist. I hope she feels better in the morning.