Just Like A Pill
Co-wrote with the amazing @mildmendes ❤️
“I’m gonna go get a drink.” I try to yell to my friend over the music, but she was too focused on the guy she was with. After 11 years of being separated, I end up at his party. One that I wasn’t invited to - not like I’d like to be anyways. I would walk out of here, but I’m not going to leave Lily here by herself. I make my way from the dance floor to the bar through the cloud of people. Then it all hit me at once. Literally.
“Dude what the fuck?” I look up and see those familiar brown eyes on the boy I used to know so well.
11 years ago
“Tag! You’re it!” I laugh as I run away from y/n. Y/n is my absolute best friend. She has been my neighbor since I was can remember.
“Shawn you’re going too fast! I have tiny legs!” Y/n shouts from far behind me.
“It sucks to be short, doesn’t it!” I continue to run while looking back at y/n. Which was a big mistake since I soon ran face first into a tree.
“Oh my gosh are you okay?” Y/n runs over to my side. I don’t respond and just held a hand to my forehead. Soon before I know it, my mom puts the cardboard box she was carrying down and comes over by us.
“Shawn and I were playing tag and he kind of ran into the tree..”
My mom turns to me, “Did you finally knock some sense into your brain?”
Y/n and her laugh. “Yeah I get it. I’m stupid.”
“You aren’t stupid, you just got to be careful. You’re only eight years old, Shawn. There’s still a lot of growing up to do.”
“That’s a long time away though,” I say while sitting up.
“Believe me time goes by so fast. How about we get some ice for your head.” My mom helps me up and walks into the house, with Y/n and I following shortly behind.
“What’s all those boxes in the car for, Mrs. Mendes? Woah it’s so empty in here!” Y/n says as we go inside.
“Oh Shawn didn’t tell you? We’re moving!” My mom says as she grabs an ice pack from the freezer.
Y/n looked at me very confused “Moving? When do you leave?”
“Later tonight.” She replies while placing the ice pack on my head.
“You aren’t moving far from me are you? We’re still going to the same school, right?”
I look away from her and look at Aaliyah playing with a few toys in the living room. Then I look back at y/n and shake my head no.
“Are we ever going to see each other again?”
To answer her question from many years ago, no we wouldn’t. Yes, we did keep in contact through phone calls and texting when we eventually got phones. But as time went on, we wouldn’t talk for days that soon grew into years. I wonder what ever happened to her. Since I’m in the middle of my tour, maybe I can go looking for her. Only took me 11 years to grow a pair.
“This party is the shit!” Matt says as I down a shot.
“Wouldn’t be without all you guys.” I say over the loud music blasting in the room.
Matt hands me another shot. “Cheers to that!” He raises his glass and shouts “19!”
I do the same and shout it back before downing the glass. If you couldn’t tell I had just turned 19, finally the drinking age in Canada. And yes, I know I still can’t drink in America.
Ian runs over by us, “We have a little problem.. we just got another noise complaint and they said we either shut the party down or go somewhere else.”
Matt immediately walks over to where we have the music playing and turns it off. “Hey everybody shut up! Unfortunately the party has to end..” and our friends start to boo him. “Woah wait hold up! If you’d like to join, the party is going to be continued at the club down the street. Please get there safely and be careful. See ya there!”
Soon the crowd starts to make their way out the doors of the building and down to the club - with the boys and I being the last to leave. Luckily the walk was short to the club so we didn’t have to worry about driving.
“Remember how I told you about the girl I liked growing up?” I say to Matt as we walk down the street.
“Yeah what about her?”
“I’m going to go looking for her.”
Before I knew it we were in front of the doors to the club. “Alright, man. But first we have to celebrate a birthday.” He says before pushing me inside.
Tonight is my best friend, Lily’s, 20th birthday; and she’s taking forever to choose a damn dress to put on on. “Are you almost done? You take forever to get ready!” I say plopping down on the couch.
“Sorry, but I’m not hot 24/7 like you are.”
“Oh shut the fuck up.” I roll my eyes and laugh.
Eventually Lily comes out of the bathroom and out to the living room. “Is this dress okay?” She spins in a little circle.
“Hot enough to get a guy’s attention?”
I roll my eyes yet again. “I don’t know why you’re so obsessed with boys.”
“And I don’t know why you’re so butt hurt about any guy.” She walks over to the counter and grabs her car keys. “Let’s go.” I get up and grab my clutch before walking out to the car.
Two minutes into driving down to the club, Lily starts interrogating me. “Who made you hate guys so much anyways?”
She looks over at me and rolls her eyes, then looks forward again focusing on the road. “Don’t tell me it’s that guy from when you were eight years old. Because that’s dumb. Besides who even is the guy?”
“You probably know him to be honest.”
“Yeah right. Didn’t you say he moved away when you were little and didn’t know where? So how the fuck would I know him.”
“He’s quite popular..”
She shrugs “Forget boys. Lets have fun!” Lily turns up the radio and searches for a station playing a song she likes. “Yes! This is my favorite song!”
And with my luck, it was There’s Nothing Holdin’ Me Back by Shawn.
Eventually we got to the club, but it was already packed with a bunch of people. Bodies were dancing everywhere. Some were drunk and a bit tipsy.
“Excuse me,” I kept saying as I pushed past the people so we could get to the bar, but it was no use. They couldn’t hear me past the music and probably didn’t care. I think I may have accidentally stepped on a girl’s foot with my heels, but hey that’s what you get when you don’t move out of the way.
Once we got to the bar, Lily through up her hand to signal the bartender to come in our direction.
“Two shots of vodka, please.” I tell the bartender.
“Fuck that,” She turned to him. “Give us two shots of the strongest liquor you have.” The bartender goes and grabs to glasses and the liquor.
“Already starting, huh?”
“Hey it’s my birthday and you said you’d do what I want for tonight.” She grabs the two shots that were just poured and hands one to me.
“Yeah it was a big mistake saying that before we got in here,” I say which causes Lily to laugh.
“Now drink.” We clink the glasses together before we down them.
“Ah that’s strong” I feel the burn in my throat.
“It’s only the beginning sweetheart.”
And she was right. Six shots later we were both completely plastered. On top of that I was supposed to be the designated driver, so I guess we’re both screwed. By now Lily and I were in the center of the mass of people. The alcohol had taken over majority of my body and I was moving in ways I never thought I could - or at least thought I would. I was swaying my hips back and fourth and Lily was doing the same. Except she was also making out with a guy and I wasn’t.
“How’s everyone tonight?!” The Dj says in his microphone and everyone screams in response. “Tonight we have a party for a special birthday boy in the house! This one is for you buddy!” I smile looking forward to the next song he would play, since all of his songs were already great. Then he started to play TNHMB. That’s not a club song at all? Why would he play that.. No. No. Today is August 8th, which is Lily’s birthday and Shawn’s birthday. And if he dedicated this song to him, it means he’s here tonight.
"I’m gonna go get a drink.” I try to yell to my friend over the music, but she was too focused on the guy she was with. After 11 years of being separated, I end up at his party. One that I wasn’t invited to - not like I’d like to be anyways. I would walk out of here, but I’m not going to leave Lily here by herself. I make my way from the dance floor to the bar through the cloud of people. Then it all hit me at once. Literally.
“Dude what the fuck?” I look up and see those familiar brown eyes on the boy I used to know so well.
“Woah I’m sorry - “ He looks at me in confusion. “Do I know you?”
I roll my eyes and continue my way towards the bar. The bartender came to me as soon as I sat down, so I was able to order a beer. Then I realize he didn’t come to me, instead he came to help the world famous teen that sat next to me.
“Can I have a water bottle and a -” He looks at me and ask me what I want. I was about to object but I’m not going to turn down a free drink, so I told him. “and a beer please.” When Shawn finished ordering, it took the bartender the shortest amount of time to prepare it. I guess that’s what happens when you’re famous. Shawn hands me my drink, “So, how do I know you? Because I remember your face but I can’t just figure out where.”
I take the drink from him, “You really did forget about me after these 11 years, didn’t you?” I look forward and take a drink of my beer.
His eyes widen, “Y/n? No way.”
“Yup. That’s me.” I say before taking another drink.
“What brings you to Toronto?”
“I live here for school.” I turn around to see if Lily is where I left her, but I catch her leaving with the guy she was with. So much for us leaving together. “And as for my reason to be here, is leaving. So I’m leaving too.” I grab my phone out of my clutch and text Lily that I’m going home. I chug the last part of my drink and attempt to get up from the bar stood. As any other drunk person, I stumble as I got to my feet.
“Here let me help you.” Shawn put a hand on my waist and lets me lean on him to balance.
“I don’t need your help.” I grab Lily’s car keys out while I continue to lean on him.
Shawn snatches the keys from my hand, “You aren’t driving, let me drive you.”
“You didn’t even recognize me so why would you want to help.”
“No I didn’t recognize you at first, but I can recognize a drunk when I see one and so can any cop on the street out there. Let me drive you.”
He did make a good point and I didn’t feel like getting arrested tonight, or let alone dying in a car crash. “Drive me home.”
We go outside and I show him which car is mine. He helps me in the passenger side and gets in the drivers side. I plug in my address into the GPS on my phone so he can just follow off of that.
“How are you going to get back to your party if I live kind of far from this place?” I ask Shawn as he drives down the street.
“I’ve partied enough and I actually wanted to go home.”
I open my mouth to argue him, but I shut it because it was honestly useless to argue him anymore. We drove down the rode in silence, I stared out the window to watch the street lights pass as we went by.
“Just so you know I never forgot about you.” He says while focusing on the road.
“Shawn, you don’t have to pretend. Just because you’re famous doesn’t mean-”
“I’m still the same person, Y/n. I’m still the same boy that lived next to you years ago. I’m just doing a job doing what I love. I promise that I haven’t let it go to my head.”
I felt bad for accusing him of being like any other celebrity - Shawn has never been as dumb as them. I just didn’t know if he was the same person since all of the time apart. “Who would’ve thought that we see each other again for the first time tonight.”
He laughs, “I know. Both of us celebrating birthdays in the same area. You celebrating your friend’s and me celebrating mine.”
“Happy Birthday, by the way.”
Shawn pulls into my garage that’s connected to our apartment. I hand him the my house key so he can unlock the door that opens up to my house. As I get out the car, I stumble in my heels and fall to the ground. I shouldn’t have listened to Lily when she offered all those drinks. Especially when she could handle alcohol better than I ever could. Shawn opens up the door before coming over and picking me up. I do got to say that all of his fans - who are obsessed with his muscles - are right. Shawn is hot and he’s strong. I look up at Shawn taking in all of his features: his angular jaw, his scar from when he was little, his amazing chocolate colored eyes, and his pink plump lips. I was too focused on his features that I didn’t realize that he was looking at me as well. Our lips were only centimeters away and we were about to kiss, but a wave of heat flew over me.
“I don’t feel good.” I jump out of Shawn’s arms and run to the bathroom. Shutting the bathroom door, I kneel in front of the toilet and get sick. This is going to suck tomorrow morning. After I’m done, I flush it down and look at myself in the mirror. Did I really just almost let Shawn kiss me after seeing him for a little bit? He’s not going to get me that easily. I rinse my my mouth before returning out to the living room.
“Feel better?” Shawn asks me while handing me a glass of water. I guess he’s already been raiding through my cupboards.
I take a drink of the water and it’s so refreshing. “Thanks.”
Shawn opens his mouth to say something, but knocking at the door sounds which causes him to stop. “Y/n, open the door! It’s Lily.” Lily says in an annoyed tone.
“What are we going to do?” Shawn says as we hear Lily’s keys jingle from outside.
My eyes widen, “You’ve got to hide.” I grab his arm and drag him to my room. “Stay in here and do not make any noise.”
I shut the door and go into the kitchen just in time before Lily came inside. “Couldn’t mind opening up the door?”
“Sorry I was just getting drink.”
“It takes you 2 minutes to take a drink?” The room went silent. “Besides, what happened to leaving together?” Lily asked while sliding off her heels.
“Well you were with that guy and I didn’t want to bother you.” I tried to say in the most believable tone.
“Okay..” I could tell Lily had some doubt, but she didn’t push any questions so that was good.
“I’m not feeling good so I’m going to go to bed.”
“Oh let me get me put back the shoes before you go!” She picks up the heels and starts heading towards my room.
“No wait -” But I was too late before she opened the door.