i have some (new) regrets

Dean finding a picture of old Castiel, fem!Castiel, not knowing that this is Cas. And going on and on about her beauty.

“Holy shit Cas, who is this hot chick? Damnn.”

and the thing is, Dean would only be talking about her eyes. How blue they are, how he’s a sucker for blue eyes in general, how that beige coat just emphasises the BLUE in her eyes even more.

Dean writing an ode to the woman’s beauty, before Cas quietly says, “that’s me. Was me. This is my old vessel.”

Dean pausing immediately, “this is…you?” Because he realises that he basically spent the last 10 minutes describing, in excruciating detail, how hot his best friend is to his best friend.

Dean wanting to act casual about it and saying “Oh, man, great job. That’s a good vessel you picked. That’s. Um. Yeah. Good…good choice.”

Dean hastily adding, “Not that you, you know, did a bad job with your current vessel or anything. Jimmy’s great, like, in terms of, as in, body-wise. I mean, same blue eyes, right? Uh. And well-built, too. Sturdy. He’s, I mean you, you’re, you’re good looking now too. Um.”

Dean finally just blurting out “basically what I wanna say is that you’ve always been hot, cas.” before bolting the fuck out

Cas, still not having said anything other than the original clarification, just staring after him with confused comprehension, furrowed brow, squinty eyes, and a cocked head.

Sam accidentally witnessing this exchange and laughing till his stomach hurts.

ooc;; … You know what
I owe this blog one last post.

ooc;; It’s dead here. This blog is dead and I’m not planning on bringing it back. Got no reason to.
I wanted to leave this blog to just die, never hop back on since this terrible fandom still has connections to it… but there are people who never got to see me make my official move and the blog I’m on now. So I owe it to the people I don’t strongly dislike/outright hate to post here just how things are doing.

This blog is dead. But my Nep muses live on - they were, up until very recently, on my General Multifandom Multimuse - but recently, the four that were there moved to a new Hyperdimension Neptunia blog. This one has the whole main cast. Right here’s where you wanna be. As of now, nothing but the relationship between Nep and Zane has carried over… though only time will tell how true that stays.

ooc;; Anywho, those of you who enjoyed my content here, didn’t see me move, and I don’t have any reason to hate? Give my blogs a follow! If I hate you? Well, I’ll block you when I see you, so if you didn’t already know, you will. Ohhhhhh, you will.

So! That’s how things are. I’ll think of what to change the URL here to to show that it’s archived… just the way it is. See the Cool Blogs at the new places!

[ENG] Sechskies Allure Interview (1/2)

[Eun Ji Won]

How did you feel when you first listened to “Three Words”?
I thought it was a song that everyone could relate too. It had a ballad feel to it, and it wasn’t like a typical hook song, so the members liked it.

How did you try to express the rap part as the main rapper?
I wanted it to be rough, like I’m expressing my true feelings that I couldn’t say out loud until now, for the first time. I never had that opportunity, you know. I put all my vehement emotion into the rap during our first recording. But some said it’s too strong, so the released version is the calmer one. I tried to convey my feelings without glossing over it.

The remake album was released this week. Weren’t you worried about the reaction from the people who are used to the originals? Memories play a big part, especially in music.
Of course it is a little awkward. It’s not like we remade songs that were less know, we remade our most famous ones. We had to carefully fill in Jiyong’s parts with other members, so our old fans who have been listening to the original albums would probably be disappointed not to hear Jiyong’s voice. But, there probably are some fans who would find it refreshing. You can think of this album as like the meeting ground of the old fans and the new fans. Until our new album comes out next year, this album will serve as a connector.

Did you notice the members’ improvements?
Sunghoon definitely changed the most. I could tell he has practiced his vocals a lot. I can sing just like before if anyone asks, because I hadn’t really practiced singing after the disbandment- I only focused on rap. But Sunghoon changed a lot. Jaeduck and Jaejin also got better. Jaejin surprisingly has perfect pitch. He can sing the exact note very well. Suwon got weirder (laughs). Suwon once had a vocal cord nodules, and since then, he has been extra watchful of singing out of tune.

Some lyrics have changed after the remake. Are the dances changed too?
We’ve left our signature dance moves alone, and some, we simply haven’t had the have time to fix the dance. I’ve hummed the new “Couple” so many times that I don’t remember the old version anymore. “Com’ Back” changed quiet a lot, so we memorized the song through the dance.

How are you preparing for the performance of the new song?
We’re considering doing a dance that’s a bit looser than our “knife-like” dance. We want a dance that has our color to it, but still cool enough so that the hoobaes will see us and think it’s cool. YG’s Jaewook is in charge of the dance, and Hyunsuk is checking up on it.

How did you feel when fans started appearing at the airport again when <Infinite Challenge> was airing?
I thought it wasn’t for me. I thought there was some other celebrity coming, so I looked behind, but nobody was there. And they were all taking pictures of me. They weren’t even saying anything. If you’re a fan, you would say “Welcome back” or something, right? But they just silently took pictures, so I thought they were reporters. Since then, I’ve been wearing a mask around. I’m scared of being photographed.

Scared of cameras?
I’m really bad with photo-shoots. I can do well in front of video cameras, but not the pictures. Sometimes, I find pictures taken by my fans, and I just can’t even look at them. So I wear a mask. I would look good in anything in their eyes, anyways. But when there are other people around, like at the airport, and they say things like “you’re handsome”, I want to hide.

You have said that it feels like the fans have “forgiven” you. Did you feel burdened as the leader about the disbandment?
There had been a lot of talks about how the reunion isn’t happening because of me, and I always knew the fans had some resentments because of that. But I can’t go on TV and say “It’s not because of me!,” you know. It’s not something worth making excuses, anyways. I thought one day, there will be a chance, and it came through <Infinite Challenge>, like a miracle.

Did you really think the fans weren’t going to come to the guerrilla concert?
Our fans are no longer students and they all have jobs, so I questioned if they could come at that time. And we didn’t get any chance to promote. The staffs kept saying they’ll come, but I was still doubtful. I felt so thankful to the people who came. I wrote that letter to the fans because I wanted to tell them how I felt. I’m bad at expressing through talking; I can’t even tell my parents “I love you”. So I wrote instead.

What’s your current goal as a Sechskies member?
Idols can be in a spotlight all the sudden, but I know it’s hard to maintain such attention. Sometimes, I feel the pressure of being an idol at this age. One thing I have learned through doing variety shows is to accept myself changing as time goes by. But now that I’m an idol again, I need to take care of myself. So sometimes I think, “We should’ve reunited earlier”.

Did you have any hardship in your 20 years of being a celebrity?
Why wouldn’t I. I try not to do variety shows in which my personality gets judged. For programs like that, people don’t think of them as shows- they think of what they see on TV as the real me. I learned a lot about what it means to be on TV by doing various prgrams. When I get hurt, I think of all the good things my fans have said to me, and I try to forget it by drinking with people around me.

You have done a lot of variety shows, but weren’t the ones you did with your members more special?
They were all really fun. Especially <Running Man>, because it was the first time filming outside in a long time. If we get a chance, I want to do a traveling show with the members. We went to Busan together for <Season’s Greeting>, and it was a lot of fun.

You were the one who forgot the most dance moves in <Weekly Idol>.
I’ve done them for so long, but I couldn’t remember like it was my first time doing it! It’s not like I didn’t do it just to not do it. I really wanted to do well. Jaejin kept saying stuff to me, but he made even more mistakes than me. I was more confused because of Jaejin.

2017 is the 20th anniversary. Are you preparing anything?
I don’t know when exactly, but I want to hold a 20th anniversary concert with a new album.  


[Kang Sung Hoon]

The MV filmed in Japan was released. Do you feel better about MVs now?* (Jekki has previously said that they never had a proper MV under DSP)
No. I feel like we didn’t really work it, and our faces were all very stoic.. The scene with the female model was especially awkward. I have some regrets. I want to do better for the new song.

Did you change your style of singing for “Three Words”?
Before, I used to put accents on every single words I sang. But now, I sing more comfortably. I sang it in a few different ways that Tablo and Future Bounce wanted.

How was recording remakes of your old songs?
It was very nerve-racking. I used to be so stressed out whenever I had to go record songs, because I was scared of how I was going to be scolded that day. But now, going into the booth is so fun. The atmosphere is so good, and every staff members  respect our opinions. I can’t help but be happy.

What is your favorite remake song?
I like the new “Yeonjeong” and “Come to Me Baby”.

Do you have any personal favorite that’s not in the remake album?
I really like “Say”. I also like “White Night”, and we’re singing that one at our end of the year concert.

How much progress has been made on the new song that will come out in 2017?
The song is so good that I’ve questioned if it’s okay for us to sing it. I’m curious how it’s going to turn out, but also scared. I think generally, they end up sounding nice after recording, though.

You’ve written your own songs like “The Present She Left Me” and “Promise”. Do you still write your own songs?
“The Present She Left Me” turned out okay all thanks to Kim Hyung Suk hyung who rearranged it. Now, there are so many famous songwriters in YG, so I’m not even going to try. But I do have one or two songs for which I’ve thought about the lyrics.

For idol groups, performance is just as important as a song itself. How are you preparing for the performance of the new song?
I realized it while doing <Inkigayo> stages. Jekki shouldn’t dance anymore. I think it’s now time for us to sing some trendy songs. At this age, we shouldn’t dance even if we can.

Which variety show did you enjoy shooting the most?
I had the most fun being on <Radio Star>. It’s weird that every time I go there, I suddenly remember a lot more things. What’s good about the show is that they can make even the mistakes seem funny.

I think honesty on talk shows has become jekki’s another charm.
We’re at that age where it’s more charming to be natural, like to talk nonsense or cross our arms. I just trust the editing staff, and say things comfortably, as long as they’re too much.

You guys still get asked a lot about your past activities. Don’t you want to talk about your current activities?
Even I see that it’s funnier to talk about the past. That’s what the public is most curious about. In a year from now on, there will be more things to talk about, and people won’t ask us about the past as much. I just answer comfortably thinking ‘when else would I talk about this?’ But sometimes, even the members remember things differently. But still, we don’t really try to look for who’s right. I can’t look at our old stuff because they’re too cringe-worthy.

Who was most supportive of you before the reunion?
I have two really close friends, and without them, I think I wouldn’t have made it this far. I could’ve thought “Do I really have to be a singer again?” All I wanted was to be on stage together for the fans, at least once. That was all. To be honest, I wasn’t one of the members who took the initiative in trying to bring back Jekki.

Who was the most enthusiastic one?
I think the one who truly wanted it was Jaeduck hyung.

Are you good at showing your emotions like you are to your fans?
I’m actually pretty cold. People who have known me for long wouldn’t think I’m that amiable. If I don’t want to do something, I make it obvious. Even back then, people knew if something had gone wrong before the performance based on how I was on stage. It’s not professional, but I just can’t fake it.

Then are you blunt with your members?
I express my thoughts just the way they are in my head. If I like it, I say I like it; If I don’t, I say I don’t.

Idol culture has changed a lot too, right? What’s the most interesting change?
There are too many. Words like “세젤귀”, “입덕요정”, “ and "입덕은 가능하지만 탈덕은 없다” are cute.

When was the most touching moment after coming back?
It was the Seoul Concert. We were back at Olympics Stadium after 16 years, and as the concert started, I almost cried. The first song was “Com’ Back”, which is an upbeat dance song, but it’s almost as if I was crying while I was dancing. I was reminded of the past a lot.

Any specific moment you thought of?
We had a concert on that very stage in early 2000, when there was already a talk of disbandment. I think the fans knew, too. I knelt down and bawled during my solo stage “Promise”. And we were back on that stage 16 years later. It felt odd. I was happy to see all the yellow balloons again. I was too excited, which caused the toe injury.

If you can form a unit within Sechskies, who would you do it with?
Don’t you think it’ll have to be with Jiwon hyung? I think we can do a song that has both melody and rap. We lived in Hawaii together.

Don’t you want to visit Hawaii again?
We all have a plan of going to Hawaii together. I want to go to Nuuanu Pali, Jack in the Box, which is a burger place, find a Giovanni’s Shrimp Truck and eat shrimp with the members, and do some water sports, too.

You made “Fix it” popular. What have you “fixed” recently?
A lot. My mental has become weaker, so I tell myself “fix your mental”. I’m fixed on moisture cream because it’s winter and my face gets dry, and I’m fixed on wet towel next to my bed to take care of my throat. I’m fixed on angora because it’s winter! The stylist keeps putting fur on me.

By the way, do the members still not know Jaejin’s number?
I didn’t even ask. I’m not curious. (laughs)


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