i have so many feelings for fictional characters

Yuri on Ice interview translation - Febri 2017/03 (p29-33)

Finally the interview from Febri is finished! I like Kubo’s interviews but I swear I don’t want to see any more for some time… This one is also mentioning a lot of stuff that I haven’t read in other interviews so far. It’s a bit long but definitely worth reading!

Translation is under the cut. I might fix the format a little later on to make it visually better, now I have to leave to go to Wonder Festival… (who needs sleep?).
If you have any questions about the interview feel free to message me.

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Why is ADHD invisible?

In some ways it could be argued it is very visible. Nearly everyone has at least heard of it; they know a few of the symptoms (and often incorrectly think they know them all.) After all, how could something affecting 11% of children, usually continuing to affect them into adulthood, be invisible when so many people have it?

But then, where are all the ADHD people?

For years, I thought I knew no one outside my family who had ADHD. No one else ever seemed to mention it. Even now, I know that a large number of my classmates probably have it, but who they are, I have no idea.

Even beyond the people you personally know, it’s hard to find people who are ADHD. But ADHD people are everywhere. We are acting in blockbuster movies - people like Mark Ruffalo and Liv Tyler have ADHD. We are winning medals and making history at the Olympics - Simone Biles and Michael Phelps have ADHD. We are writing books, making music, founding huge businesses like Ikea or Virgin Airlines, we are everywhere. But how many people ever know that these people who are so successful are also ADHD?

How many fictional characters are ADHD? Not many, and if they are, it’s usually just to make them ‘quirky.’ Never do fictional characters really struggle with ADHD; they are never shown with memory problems, struggling with rejection sensitive dysphoria, getting distracted EVEN WHEN they’re trying hard to listen. Never have I seen an ADHD character who I could point at and say, 'I see myself in that character.’ Never do I feel like there is any character who explains what ADHD is really like.

How people see ADHD is very strange to me. Everyone knows what it is. They know that it makes people hyper and unable to pay attention; but that is all they know. They don’t know about rejection sensitive dysphoria; about stimming or hyperfocusing; many of them don’t even know that ADD and ADHD are actually two different types of the same disorder. Even ADHD people don’t know these things sometimes.

ADHD is known; and at the same time it is unknown.

I hate it.

I know there are people out there who feel the same way I do, who have the same experiences. I know that other groups of people get plenty of representation in fictional stories; there are countless well-written characters with depression or anxiety - but those are the only two that get any expression. Other mental disorders are rare to see in fiction.

Online I see people posting about how seeing a character that had the same mental disorder as them was so helpful for them. How wonderful it was to see the thing that defines their lives portrayed in the things they enjoy. How when people asked them what their disorder is like, they could point at that character and they would understand. I’ve seen people without those disorders say how much more they understood it after seeing how a fictional character struggled with it.

But there are no characters to teach people about ADHD.

I want to know what it is like to see a character and feel like people can see what my life is like through them. I want to know what it is like to have people know more about this thing that defines everything for me than just stereotypes. I don’t want this part of me to be invisible.

I want to see more non-ADHD people who mention ADHD and know about ADHD outside of the context of jokes. I want to see people not treat it like something undesirable and childish but as the serious thing it is - and what makes ADHD people who we are. I want schools to teach children about ADHD in health classes as well as things like depression and anxiety and eating disorders and addiction, because some of the kids in the class probably have it. I want people to understand that ADHD doesn’t just make you 'quirky’, or mean you really like shiny objects. When you have ADHD, it affects… everything. It’s both positive and negative. It is part of what makes you who you are.

Because 10% of the population has ADHD, and we can be successful. We make movies. We win medals. We make history. And our ADHD is not nothing. It’s not something that is an afterthought, that can be brushed to the side. It’s important.

Because we are here, and we are not invisible.

[okay for non-ADHD people to like/reblog in fact I would very much appreciate it if you did]

Shout Out Post for Mystic Messenger

I feel like some people in the mystic messenger community don’t realize just how amazing this game is. There are so many things it does besides allowing you to talk with fictional characters. Many people struggle with their own problems - everything from failing a test to coping with suicidal thoughts and actions - and this game is a perfect way to counteract some of these problems in a positive way.

1. For starters, a simple pun can brighten the player’s day. If you are having a panic attack because of school, there is a good chance a couple mystic messenger puns could brighten your day.

2. Also, the hyper-realistic interactions with the characters allow them to act as real friends. When you don’t have a real close friend, mystic messenger provides the closest thing to that as possible. Furthermore, the extreme variation in personalities of the group also encourages the player to feel like themselves rather than, well, an MC. It encourages individualism.

3. (Warning: this is only going to get darker from here) Okay, I know this is usually taken as a joke in the MysMe community, but let’s get real for a sec. Everyone knows the persistence with which the characters ask MC if she has eaten. The constant positive encouragement is a good way to convince the player to care about their health (and they usually have facts to back it up tbh). I deal with body dysphoria and the support has convinced me more than once to care more about my physical and mental health than my appearance. These fictional elements of our lives have a REAL PHYSICAL IMPACT. Even by making the player smile there is a physical impact.

4. Mystic Messenger has also taught me to try understanding that things get better. Watching how the characters live their lives allows the player to reflect on their own life. Your life can be hella hard, but it’s best to work towards the future. Even if you can’t take to that advice, it’s a good way to ease your mind for a little. I can’t thank cheritz enough for creating the game how they did.

Conclusion: This game has improved my quality of life. So the next time Yoosung makes a joke or 707 writes you something in binary, take it to heart. They may be fictional, but they have been more supportive to me than everyone else in the past couple months.

Also, tell me if there is a series that has improved your quality of life in the tags (games, books, tv series, etc). A series that has literally save my life is Pandora Hearts by Jun Mochizuki. A game that has improved my quality of life is Mystic Messenger by Cheritz.

If you actually made it to the end of this, thank you.
Hope you enjoyed ~ 01100100 01100101 01100100 01100101 

Hey so the VLD fandom has made several of my friends feel like shit lately so i’d like to make a general statement to everyone and anyone who’s ever started shit:

Grow up. It’s a kid’s cartoon. Nothing is that deep. It is not worth hurting a REAL PERSON over. You’ve rendered my friends to tears and have triggered anxiety and panic attacks and memories way too fucking many times for me to ignore this. Over fictional fucking characters. You’re not helping anyone. Your issues and experiences are your own and by forcing them onto others you’re causing a plethora of negative emotions. No one’s happy to be part of this fandom anymore and it’s because of the ugly black & white mentality so many of you have.

Hate what you want. Love what you want. Stop forcing it onto others. It’s that simple. If someone hates a ship you love then leave them alone. If someone loves a ship you hate then leave them alone. Block people. Use blacklist extensions. How many times can i say this: your internet experience is your responsibility and yours alone and it’s not fair to expect others to cater to you. No matter what you do, people are gonna do what you hate. So move on.

Take a step back and look at your goddamn life and stop shitting on other people because you’re not happy. Happy people do not spew venom at others. Look at your issues and fix your life and stop trying to ruin others’. This needs to stop.

painthekiller  asked:

I am so freaking frustrated because I have like 12 worlds in my head complete with difference species and governments and all this stuff, but I have nothing to DO with them and I am dying. I'm lucky to have a boyfriend who will roleplay with me but I keep changing the setting every two days and just. Ah. Sorry I'm venting the frustration of a world creator.

1) I’m SUPER IMPRESSED by world creators. Like holy crap there are so many mechanics to sort through, how???? I have a friend who’s got two parallel worlds with unique social, political, and religious histories. Like, in TOTALITY. It blows my mind.

2) I recycle characters all. the. time. Dead plots/half-forgotten plots leaving interesting, multi-faceted characters without a home.  So you’re kinda shopping your characters around different universes it sounds like!

3) Convince your characters that it’s like vacation. A continuous, unwanted vacation that skips between genres but a VACATION.

4) Let us cry together over our fictional words. Let us feel our feelings and burn complicated maps that become IRRELEVANT WHEN A NEW IDEA POPS UP. LET US BURN THEM ALL

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bittersamgirlclub TOP 5 PROMPT #11: TOP 5 SAM-PRAISE MOMENTS 

Making this made me feel all warm and squishy inside, there are many other little moments I could have chosen and that makes me very happy. Sometimes it feels like Sam is so underappreciated, both in fandom and in universe, so to focus on all those moments where characters talk or feel about Sam the same way we do is just wonderful.

These are not necessarily in any order, although those first two are pretty much interchangeably in first place.

  1. Marie - Fan Fiction - I just love how with three words Marie manages to sum up so much of what we all adore about Sam, those core facets of his being that make Sam so beautiful. But what I love even more is “there’s nothing he can’t do”. There’s something so powerful about that, and it’s so true on so many levels. The way in which Sam has defied destiny and other’s expectations for him, time and again. Working his way to a full ride to Stanford. Building himself a new life, not once, but twice from the ground up. Overcoming the devil. How could anyone not believe that Sam is capable of anything after reading about that! The other thing I love about Marie is that, although she exists in universe, she gives us an out of universe perspective on Sam, in that sense I find her, and her praise of Sam to be very relatable, it feels as if I am being voiced directly through the show. Of course the fact that Sam did not hear this praise saddens me, but I think it is incredibly important that Dean did hear it, to be reminded of all those things that deep down he knows, and loves about his brother.
  2. Jess - Pilot - I think its no secret how much I adore Sam/Jess and their relationship. Of course we only get tiny slivers of their life together, these fleeting moments, but ones like this especially I think illuminate their relationship perfectly. In this scene, Jess makes absolutely sure that Sam knows how proud of him she is, bringing up his LSAT score, praising how amazing it is, making sure he knows she’s serious when she says she’s proud, that she wasn’t just kidding around, that she really means its and that she believes in him. I think Jess was painfully aware of how little, if ever, Sam had been exposed to the concept of someone being proud of him and that intentionally worked to rectify that at every available opportunity (I might have written a little ficlet about this *cough*shamelessplug*cough*). We hear in ‘Phantom Traveller’ that apparently John expressed his pride in Sam to others, but clearly withheld it from Sam himself, the fact that Jess goes out of her way to ensure that Sam knows how she feels is just SO important.
  3. Mr Wyatt - After School Special - This episode in general is just EVERYTHING to me, but this moment in particular is incredibly special and I think actually instrumental in shaping Sam. I think its quite likely given Sam’s reaction to thinking the Mr Wyatt was going to fail him, that prior to this scene Sam was actually rather apathetic about school, moving from place to place, never being able to make real connections, he probably loved learning and studying but was unable to find reasons to really care about doing well when in a few days he’d be off to the next school anyway, when he saw nothing in his future but more of what his entire life had been, death and danger and loneliness. Mr Wyatt not only praised Sam’s academic abilities, but more importantly he allowed Sam to believe that there could be something beyond his current life, that he was capable of escaping that, of building something of his own.
  4. Dean - Scarecrow - I love, love, love this moment! Firstly, I’m pretty certain that this is the first time Sam has heard the words “I’m proud of you” from anyone other than Jess, look at his reaction, he’s completely at a loss for what to do or say and just taken aback entirely. What’s also important here is what Dean is praising Sam for. Dean is saying that he’s proud of Sam for the very things that go Sam disowned and dissociated from his family, for things that Dean in the past (and sadly will again in the future) had criticised Sam for. Standing up to John and forging his own way were actions that Sam had been led to believe time after time were deep and terrible betrayals and things that he should feel ashamed of, that Dean in this moment acknowledges that they are in fact great strengths and worthy of admiration is just so incredibly important.
  5. Sarah - Clip Show - I actually think this one is a little odd, because I think what Sarah is picking up on here is Sam’s determination to finish the trails and to 'right’ all the perceived wrongs he was done, to make up for all the ways he believes he’s let Dean down, and I can’t really feel that that is a positive thing. On the other hand, Sarah a) doesn’t know the context of what she’s seeing, she’s genuinely trying to and say something good about Sam b) at this point in the season people who bolster Sam in anyway, especially to his face, are so few and far between that anything along those lines is like manna in the desert….

sunflowerchester — I finally finished it! hahah…

So...another post....because....i feel it needs to be said just one more time....with more understanding.

*sighs deeply* why do people assume because i write x reader fics i don’t care about lin? Or any one i would write about, be it rami malek, or dan and phil when i was younger, or norman reedus when i was a big ol whore for the walking dead.

Look, i have made many an angry post, many a post trying to defend what we write about.

Here is the thing. In any fandom, for any human, fictional character, inanimate object anything! There are fans who will be crazy obsessed, hell in the kpop world, fans have sent bloody letters and shit. Those are obsessive people. That being said, that is out of line, that is crazy, and should not be tolerated. Breaking personal boundaries or stalking is not ever okay.

If i wouldn’t like it to happen to me, i wouldn’t do that to another human being.

Us who write x readers, well known blogs, we respect lin and his family, we have set tags for our own needs. So others don’t see our i guess internal fantasies.

Now, because i write fics about real people, it in no way, means i am
A) going to send it to that person
B) stalk said person
C) call them daddy in real life.
People who do that in periscopes or instalive or what have you, are either being funny, to themselves​ or friends they are with, or have mind vomit and that happens. To everyone, word and brain vomit just happen.

We write because its nice to place ourselves into a fake world, note i said Fake, not real, not ever going to be real, world. I do not ever think anything i am saying, or writing, is real, so if i have a head cannon of lin thats
- lin is the type to let you sit in his lap even when you complain that you are too heavy.
Thats just me observing him in interviews or listening to him on a podcast and making an idea of maybe he would be like that.

Head cannons and fics are based on our own ideas of what we think lin or any one we wrote about would be like. They could be true or so far from the truth its insane. But we will never know because we do bot no lin in real life, and never will, just the fact of life. So we all have to make our own, guesses of how we think said person would be like.

If Lin was still on tumblr, which he isn’t, not because shipping, or x reader fanfics. But because people in a whole different section of the fandom, were asking for the bootleg link to hamilton that someone who went, filmed against lins wishes, and people were making gifs and asking for the link, it made him very upset, because like he has said
The video of the OBC is coming, we just have to wait for it. Simple. That is why he is no longer on tumblr. And he’s a goddamn 37 year old man with a family and a 2 and a half year old, an actor filming a movie and so much more, he has twitter and that’s all he has got time for. Meanwhile daveed is so privet with his life he has twitter and insta…and he barley uses those. He is just very focused on clipping and his projects. So yes we write about them.

But we respect them, we keep to our side of the web, and we act respectful to lin by not sharing our stories and ship things with him, we retweet his tweets or make mood boards or other non shippy or x reader things and show those to him. Because he is not a fictional character to us. He is a role model, an idol, a hero, a human with a heart bigger then this world can hold. He is a loving father, husband, and son. He is an award winning genius. Who i have looked up to since i discovered hamilton.

You wanna know why?
Because as the only half POC in my entire family, i saw hispanic/latinx representation on broadway, in a place i loved, i saw a passionate latino man unafraid of who he is. I saw a real human, not a talking dog, or the things people say we are on the news. I saw myself, because since i was young me being half mexican was the joke in my family
“Haha did you run jump or swim here?”
“Shit cheynne get down the police are coming”
“So i guess we have to change your last name, don’t want the patrol to chuck you across the wall”
Me being half mexican, was a joke, and i never realized until i was old enough and i saw how fucked up it was.

Lin made me so proud to see a latino man, a latino in general be praised for breaking the wall, and most of the time no one commented on his race, why? Because it didn’t matter. He wrote a beautiful story, he told a forgotten persons life, he made me cry, and laugh.

Lin will always be my idol, my true role model on how to live, on how to treat people, to show that kindness is the key, to not fight back with harsh words, i have done that i know, i have been rude and snarky, yes. And that was not okay. I am sorry.

To me, i am able and have been for years, i have been able to separate the fantasy lin, in my mind, the ‘Daddy AF, plow me, etc.’ Lin, from the very real in my heart idol and role model, father type figure lin. I can have my own world and write it out for fun, for my own sort of writing things, but always knowing, always, ALWAYS, knowing he is a real human, with emotions and feelings and a family.

But people who call us creepy and gross and weird and obsessive and fucking disgusting. You don’t seem to see we are also humans, real people, with feelings and emotions and take what you say to heart.

A person wrote to me after i made a post and said, because of what people said in such a post as this, that they felt so guilty and had a full blown panic attack, and were going to delete all of there social media because of that. How is that okay, how is that fair, we respect everyone we write about, but people can’t understand words they say or type can be just as hurtful as ours are to you.

Now, we stay away from the main tags, or try to, its tumblr its gonna happen, we write we tag, if it gets a lot of notes, that is not in our control, block us so you don’t see our fics…or scroll past it or select photo or gif. It is so much easier to scroll past us, then to be hateful or hurtful.

As aaron burr once said in a marvelous musical.
“Talk less. Smile more”
In this i mean, scroll past, smile more.

Cause guys
“Love is love is love is love” kindness is what the world needs, lin said it himself.

Remember, write what you want. Sing what you want. Dance how you want. Because we only have a grain of sands worth of time to do what we love, so don’t waste it.

“We only have a grain of sands worth of time on this earth….”

I’m going. To fucking. Scream.

Someone decided they were fucking fictionkin with one of my OCs. What the everloving fuck? I put a lot of work into all my OCs, but this one I poured my heart and soul into. And this fucker decided to steal my work and pretend to be her. They didn’t even ask to rp as her, which is what they’re really doing. This fucker took my work and claimed they know my character better than I do. They even took key components of her who she is as a person and completely erased them, then acted like they have the authority on her because “they are her.”

While I’m on this rant, the whole fictionkin/otherkin bullshit is really fucking disrespectful to my and a number of other religions. If you were reincarnated from something, it had to have been alive at one point or another. You can’t be a fictional character or an inanimate object or a song or whatever bullshit. Meanwhile, they switch back and forth between “oh boo hoo did I hurt your feelings” and “you hurt my feelings how dare you.” This is not about personal offense. You are appropriating so many cultures and religions with your kin bullshit, and it needs to fucking stop.

If you’re just pretending to be a character or something, just fucking admit it. I don’t care about your fucking coping mechanisms; come up with other ones because that type of dissociation is unhealthy as fuck. If you really think you’re that character, get psychiatric help. Delusions are a symptom of greater mental problems, primarily schizophrenia, and you could end up hurting yourself or someone else.

TL;DR: fictionkin is bullshit, get professional help, leave my OCs the fuck alone

rules | answer the 20 questions and tag 20 amazing followers you’d like to get to know better!

tagged by: @evanngeline tysm!!💕💕

tagging: @maraadyer @nestaxarcheron @maudthebookeater @znanyjany @inejcalmarekaz @gisabarrow @tsibeyah @wintercovrt @redqueenfandom @alittlelightninggirl @didmavenkillyou–metoo @mavencalorers @cmarthad1 @rnarebarrows @petricalore @eye-of-elena @queen-cassiopeia @silveroblivions @diagonally @chaoslaborantin and anyone else that wants to do this I tag you too!!

name: Kahlia
nickname: don’t have one but I knew this girl that called me ‘C’ which makes literally no sense
zodiac sign: piscies
height: like 5'7 or something idk
orientation: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
nationality: australian/ nz
favourite fruit: I’m thinking pineapple
favourite season: autumn or spring
favourite book: that’s too much pressure man
favourite flower: umm
favourite scent: books or coffee or rain
favourite colour: blue
coffee, tea or hot cocoa: coffee or cocoa, depends on my mood
average sleep hours: I get like 7/8 hours but will still cry about it
cat or dogs: BOTH
favourite fictional character: Rhys or Warner or ???? idk I have too many
number of blankets you sleep with: 1
dream trip: everywhere pls
blog created: april 2016
number of followers (you don’t have to put this if you don’t want to): 1,026 ❤❤❤ (I still need to find a way to say tyyy?!!?)

I’ve had a great week at work, but I still can’t shake the blues. So it was a treat to remember I’d been tagged by @rayonthego. I’ve done something like this recently, but I think some of the questions are different.

Name: Rebecca
Nickname: Beka. Never, never, never Becky.
Gender: Yes
Star Sign: Libra
Height: 5′ 6″
Sexual Orientation: bisexual
Hogwarts: Gryffindor
Favorite Color: Greens and blues
Favorite Animal: Tree Frog
Average Hours of Sleep: Never enough
Time Right Now: 9:25 A.M.
Cat or Dog Person: Both

A Favorite Fictional Character: I could never choose a favorite, but the two that spring to mind first are Hermione Granger and Marion Stone (half of a pair of formerly conjoined twins in Cutting for Stone).
Number of Blankets: One
Favorite Singer/Band: Again, impossible. But when I look at my music, I apparently have almost every song The Kinks ever put out.
Dream Trip: A long tour of Italy. Florence is my favorite of any city I’ve ever visited.
Dream Job: Working at a charitable foundation.
When Was This Blog Created: 2009, but I only reblogged for the first couple of years.
Current Number of Followers: More than I deserve.
When Did Your Account Peak: I would probably gauge the success of my blog by how therapeutic it was for me. So on a purely personal level, I think 2013 to 2014 was when I really exorcised a lot of demons.
What Made You Decide to Make a Tumblr: All the pretty pictures.
Why Did You Pick Your URL: My name is Beka, and it was available.
Last Thing I Googled: succubus and incubus

Fictional Character You’d Like as a Sibling: Christopher Robin
How Many Blogs I Follow: Way too many. I feel guilty, because I can’t keep up with all of you. But I can’t quit you.
What Do I Post About: My daily life, my face, phone pictures, and random thoughts.
Do You Get Asks On a Regular Basis: Yes. I have been so supported here, that it’s ridiculous. It feels unmerited, but I appreciate the kind words from my friends here more than you know.
Aesthetic: Pre-hoarder

Thank you, Ray!!

I will tag @lipstickspice, @drethecajun, @officeslave6, @jeffwcpa, and @mindfullofnothingness .

Regina’s Happy Ending....ish?

I have watched the episode a good 5-6 times now, in slow motion and in reverse and back again. At first, I won’t lie, they ended it with The EQ and Robin Locksley having a supposed happy ending (though I suppose we will never know) and initially I was like “Hey…..that wasn’t as terrible as I thought it was going to be”

And then I had a coffee this morning…..

I don’t know if I agree with it anymore. I see the stills of the EQ/RL in the tavern and I think to myself, Regina is going home knowing that a part of her is having the opportunity to live with love, (romantic love, I am stressing this isn’t turning a blind eye to familial love or friendship love), and she doesn’t have that. It was taken from her (again) and there is no changing that fact. 

The character we have watched this entire series has been all about Regina redeeming her actions as the EQ. So when she decided to split her into two people, I get that she felt guilty and needed to fix it, to protect people. I love that she wanted to do that. It shows growth. A consistent growth throughout her story. I get that. 

But she has redeemed herself…hasn’t she? 

Surely if the other villains in the show get to have this redemption and find love and happiness, surely Regina Mills, the character who has been repenting her past sins and doing whatever she could to open herself to love, to learn to say she was sorry, ask for forgiveness, do what she could to earn it, deserves to have that same acceptance in redemption. 

Her family I think has given that to her, (I’m not going to get into this cause it’s a can of worms still to me). And she has Henry. Henry is her happiness, I understand that. I love that. I adore their relationship now. 

But.

Regina wants to feel at home in the world, and Robin was part of that world. To me, finding that place where you feel settled, and calm inside, where you feel at peace with who you are, definitely depends on having people who love you unconditionally, understand your past, accept your apologies and want to hold your hand and walk down the next path with you. 

Robin was that person for her, again as a romantic love, but romantic love isn’t just flowers and kisses. Romantic love is having that person you come home to at night, and share a glass of wine with and just sit quietly curled up under a blanket with. Romantic love is going on an adventure with that one person you want to spend your life with, who you want to take silly pictures with, act like utter dorks, be free and open and know that regardless of everything, they still love you and want to come home to you every day.

And it still doesn’t sit right with me. to say that she has failed a test of grief, that is repulsive to me. Grief isn’t something that just goes away like that. Think about people you have lost. If you had the chance to see them again, to feel them hug you and listen to their voice, wouldn’t you take that opportunity? How is it fair to ask anyone to just “move on and let go.” That’s not right. That’s not how real life works, nor how actual emotions happen.

Love and Loss are not just taps you can turn off and on. Just because you lose someone doesn’t mean you slam that door closed, brush your shoulders off, wipe away the tears and go “oh well, onto something else” and never have even a flicker of anything again for them. It doesn’t work that way. Regina Mills is far too emotional to have this be real. 

I understand you can’t dwell on loss. It’s a vicious cycle to get trapped into. But you also can’t just let it go. It will always be sad and leave little bruises on your heart. That is life. 

I know that Lana has said Regina’s happy ending is being at peace with herself, and fuck me sideways her acting in the latest episode was so brilliant I can’t even think about without getting teary-eyed. 

Being loved, and loving in return, that is part of being at inner peace. And with how they’ve ended OQ, I really don’t know how she ever gets to that point where she can sit on a couch alone with her glass of wine and say “I am truly happy.” 

I know this is a fictional show, and these characters aren’t real. But being part of the audience that watches this show, (and with many others) it just feel disingenuous, and inauthentic to have this storyline played out this way.

I just wish she could have her Robin back. 


(THAT ALL BEING SAID….I WILL CONTINUE TO WRITE OQ FF AND DARKOQ FF CAUSE HEY, I LOVE THESE CHARACTERS AND I WILL FOREVER!) 

Ya know I’m not one to judge, but if you ship incest of any kind, you are nasty.

I don’t care if it’s adults, kids, or even elderly people. It’s gross and unnatural.

Did you know that humans, like many other species, have a certain instinct that is supposed to keep them from mating with their relatives? It’s in our sweat. The sweat of your relatives smells worse than people you’re not related to, and this is supposed to be a turn off.

Also, inbreeding is really gross. It ruins family lines, as well as that poor child will have to suffer for the rest of their life. So many birth defects and disorders that could’ve been prevented.

There actually are people who are victims of incest, as well as sexual abuse from relatives, so people romanticizing these kind of relationships is really hurting people like that. So no, it’s not “ship shaming”, or “ship hate”. It’s calling you out for shipping something that is disgusting.

Because when you ship incest and talk about how “cute” it is, you’re not hurting fictional characters, you’re hurting actual people. Keep that in mind.

anonymous asked:

Can I just say I love you for that post you just reblogged? It makes me feel relieved to know that an artist I look up to believes that. Sometimes with all the discourse on this site I feel eaten alive with guilt by the way I want to enjoy fandom.

I’m really sorry you have been struggling with feelings of guilt, anon ): I’m glad the post helped make you feel a little better, though! It’s a really good and well worded post. (And also a link to the post again just in case.)

Sometimes I get the impression that fictional characters and theoretical people and concepts tend to be prioritized over actual human beings.
Yeah, dealing with real people is difficult. They’re complicated and have messy feelings and experiences that can’t be put in neat little boxes. But that’s why the black-and-white approach doesn’t work.

You know, so many fandom discussions about all these dark and upsetting topics like abuse and discrimination often appear completely devoid of any genuine warmth and compassion, and that seems very backwards to me.

I’m not sure where I was going with this and I don’t words good at the moment. If you feel guilty again, maybe it helps to remember the saying “do no harm, but take no shit.“ An anon told me about it once, and I think it’s excellent!
Basically, treat others with kindness and respect, but don’t let them make their personal hangups and issues your problem.
For fandom, that mostly means tagging and warning for things appropriately, and respecting people’s squicks and NOTPs in their spaces (so post and reblog stuff you like to your own blog to you heart’s content, but don’t go bother people on their blogs about stuff they don’t like.)

Anyway, I hope you’re okay! You sound like a good egg to me, anon.

anonymous asked:

I agree that Keith is gay but it makes me sad because I'm a girl and I have a tiny cartoon crush on him, fueled by fanart and FanFiction and also occasionally the actual episodes I watch with cute Keith moments.

I feel the same way trust me, but who doesn’t seriously??

(For a cartoon character he’s pretty hot ngl…LOL I sound so weird, but I have so many crushes on fictional characters so I’m not even complaining. But you know what they say, all the hot guys are either gay or taken so…)

But anyways, I know exactly how you feel, except I’m not really sad if anything. I think it’d be so adorable and cool if he was gay and had a cute romance with a guy (cough Lance cough). Except I can see where you’re coming from tho :D

Finished filming Director Luca Guadagnino and actor Armie Hammer about the power of sensuality, ugly beauty and sex in front of cameras

The Italian director Luca Guadagnino is a master of emotional, intimate theatre like ‘I Am Love’ (with Tilda Swinton) and ‘A Bigger Splash’ (with Ralph Fiennes) that unsettle and charm with their intensity. Armie Hammer rather drew attention with his complex interpretations of discrete roles, not at last with the Winklevoss twins in ‘The Social Network’. Now Luca Guadagnino assigned him with the role of Oliver, a young American that gets tangled in an armour fou (intense love affair, in his screen adaption of André Aciman’s novel ‘Call me by your name’ (Berlinale 2017/Sundance Festival).

For the VOGUE-talk they met in the Palazzo Albergoni in the Lombardy, a century old villa that is the home of an American professor, his Italian wife and their 17 year old son Elio in the movie. Oliver is a guest in their villa and like Armie Hammer he was changed by his Italian experiences.


Armie Hammer: We already talked about the fact that the atmosphere of the movie is supposed to be relaxed and loose. Thanks to you this is also true behind the camera. And that despite the hard circumstances, especially the rainfall.

Luca Guadagnino: That happens without me having to think about it. I love having guests. And this movie is about someone that is a guest. Many things in human relationships can’t be controlled but some things can be alleviated. The shooting is a hectic process full of conflicts that are related to personal discomfort. Shooting A Bigger Splash was all about it. This time I wanted to avoid such tensions. But there is always an inner tension that builds up during shooting and is related to the contents of the movie. I try to redirect the intensities between my colleagues into the movie. Especially the cultural differences between Italiens, French and American has to be channelled.

—– PROFILES —–

Name: Luca Guadagnino
Job: movie, documentary and opera director
Life: Born 1971 in Palermo. Childhood in Ethiopia. Study of film history in Rome, thesis about Jonathan Demme. After first short and fictional movies were ‘I Am Love’ (2009) and ‘A Bigger Splash’ (2015) internationally successful. 2013 he introduced the documentary ‘Bertolucci on Bertolucci’. Since 2013 his creative agency is producing fictional and fashion movies and supervises fashion campaigns. 2012 debut as opera director with ‘Falstaff’ in Verona.
Privately: Lives in Crema, Italy.

Name: Armie Hammer
Job: Actor
Life: Born 1986 in Los Angeles. Childhood in Dallas and on the Cayman Islands. Dropped out of high school in Los Angeles to start his acting career. First roles in TV-shows. 2008 main role in ‘Billy: The Early Years’. 2010 ‘The Social Network’. 2011 co-star to Leonardo DiCaprio in ‘J.Edgar’. 2013 main role in ‘The Lone Ranger’. Bought the movie rights for the story of the drug lord La Barbie.
Privately: Married to the actress Elizabeth Chambers. One daughter.

Armie Hammer: Your movies always play in Italy despite international cast?

Luca Guadagnino: It is easier to organise. But I don’t plan it. To tell the truth I hope this is the last movie shot in Italy for a long while. By the way I always wanted to work with you and ‘Call Me By Your Name’ was the moment to ask you. The international cast wasn’t planned, developed naturally. I would never as a European director cast an American for a reason that isn’t part of history.

Armie Hammer: I love this shooting experience and the life here. Crema, where we live, is the most pittoresk town that I can imagine. Nobody speaks English. That is completely new for me as an American who usually gets through with this. I dive into a new world 24 hours a day. And it is an analog experience. My smartphone is turned off most of the time alone because of the time difference. This isolation makes it easy to concentrate on the project. I feel like I landed in a different universe.

Luca Guadagnino: Really? You don’t know this way of shooting?

Armie Hammer: Absolutely not. I never worked with a director with where I instantly felt like we fit. I just walked into this world where everything is lovely, the colleagues, you, this villa.

Luca Guadagnino: But isn’t it always like that? I’m curious now.

Armie Hammer: You make me feel like we are equal. There’s no hierarchy here where the director is like the god where me as an actor is located beneath after the author, the producer and so on.

Luca Guadagnino: So that’s how it’s usually?

Armie Hammer: Yes, especially with projects with a gigantic budget and big studio. You are only the actor there who has to fit into the designated mould.

Luca Guadagnino: As a director I always feel like a kid that still has many years until the graduation. I still have much to explore and discover. I don’t only want to get a concept of the fictional characters but also of the actors. This attitude is probably because of the postwar movies and exploded in the 70s. With directors like Scorsese and Coppola the line between actors, characters and story blurred. I wonder how I can realise a bigger movie with this attitude, an action movie for example.

Armie Hammer: Like ‘French Connection’?

Luca Guadagnino: Absolutely. As a spectator you get completely absorbed into the lives of the cops played by Gene Hackman and Roy Scheider. You feel the risk that they and the director take. The movie is a phenomenal adrenaline ride. Something like this is a huge inspiration. I’m not very interested in fiction. I hate the man-made, constructed, polished way of it. I want to find out something while filming, I want to, how do they say?

Armie Hammer: Be a midwife?

Luca Guadagnino: Exactly. I am a delivery nurse. And my new interpretation of ‘Suspiria’ is gonna be as personal as ‘Call Me By Your Name’. I always felt I wanted to shoot this movie again. I want to honour the feeling that the movie caused me when I was ten. I hope that it will shock the audience.

Armie Hammer: That is an interesting idea to make a movie for the sole purpose to make the audience feel what you once did.

Luca Guadagnino: Just like I will hopefully convince the audience with our that it doesn’t matter who they fall in love with.

Armie Hammer: That they can fall in love with anyone?

Luca Guadagnino: I love the impossible and hate the possible. When I suspect that something unreachable can be realised I get really enthusiastic.

Armie Hammer: The novel from André Aciman, which inspired our movie, is also a challenge. It is narrated in its own perspective. You are completely in Elio’s head. You hear his doubts see the scenes painted by him. But the screen adaption is more the study of two people who overcome all kinds of obstacles and fears.

Luca Guadagnino: A face can tell a lot about what’s going on inside. And when you have fantastic actors then you build an emotional world that gets tangible while watching.

Armie Hammer: Normally I research for a movie for months and read everything what I can get my hands on. But for the information that I needed for the role of Oliver Aciman’s nove is not the perfect source. Instead I tried to find out what it meant to grow up in the 70s and 80s. And I got acquainted with the Jewish identity that is important for my role. But mostly I tried to understand the tone of the movie. My character is curious, sensual and open for everything that he encounters. No matter if it’s a glass of peach juice, Elio or the young Chiara. To understand that was a big part of the preparation.

Luca Guadagnino: The movie doesn’t portray Oliver like for example ‘Malèna’ by Giuseppe Tornatore was directed - as a pretty woman you stare at. That he is a good looking man was always an ironic detail for me. All characters are beautiful but not because of their physical appearance but because we gaze into their heart and soul. What is important is the emotional process that Elio undergoes and that we can see in his look. How does he deal with his crush? Does he make more out of it?

Armie Hammer: I noticed there’s not a single vanity shot in this movie where it’s about the best angle with the most flattering sun light that stages the face. But still every single shot is gorgeous in all your movies. They are incredibly cautious and subtle.

Luca Guadagnino: I’m interested in sensuousness not beauty. When I hear the word beauty I cock my gun. For me it’s about how those people submit to the sensuousness at last. In the end you can’t turn down an erotic challenge. Another impossibility that I think about constantly.

Armie Hammer: Water is a sensuous element in this movie.

Luca Guadagnino: And that while I can’t swim. When I go into the water I drown. I hate the sea, I hate the heat, the humidity, the people around me, I don’t want to present myself naked. Pantelleria was also disgusting for me while shooting ‘A Bigger Splash’.

Armie Hammer: Well, this is funny: We spend a good part of the movie in the water and that while you hate it!

Luca Guadagnino: It is about the meaning in the movie just like with the sex scenes. Technically they’re without meaning if they’re not about the dialogue between two people.

Armie Hammer: If you believe it or not I had my first sex scene in ‘Call Me By Your Name’!

Luca Guadagnino: Wait, you never did this before?

Armie Hammer: No! But you and the crew dealt with it like it would be nothing special, just another scene. And as soon as it is “Cut!” you look up and come out of the fog: there’s the boom operator, there’s the camera man and they just do their job. I wish I could fill this feeling in bottles, the feelings before and after the scene. I would need weeks to explain the difference. Anyway it doesn’t feel like anything special to me anymore either.

Luca Guadagnino: You made it emotionally completely believable. That was fantastic. Actors are in a very fragile position.

Armie Hammer: We are incredibly exposed alone because the whole crew is there.

Luca Guadagnino: The actor gives the director a credit of trust. And then the movie goes out into the world.

Armie Hammer: But that is why I became an actor.

Luca Guadagnino: And when will you become a director?

Armie Hammer: I’ll probably never write my own script. I don’t have the concentration to sit down for months. I’d really like to direct a movie though. But when I see how fluent and effortless the process is for someone like you then I tell myself I’ll never be able to do this.

Luca Guadagnino: In your opinion, what does it mean to be a director? You already worked with the best.

Armie Hammer: Well, it’s about reconcile everyone involved and always keep the outline in mind. I don’t have a single clue what processes are happening in a director, it’s all going on inside. And it’s so fast I tell myself if I ask a question now I only hinder everything. But there are directors that approach things completely different and think at every shot out loud where the camera should be placed.

Luca Guadagnino: Do you like that better?

Armie Hammer: Sure. No one is as close to the camera as the actor. And when the director walks over to start a talk with the cameraman I sure do listen closely. I always knew I wanted to make movies. As a child I went to the cinema on weekends and watched everything that was on the program. I had no idea what a director or producer does so the next thing was to become an actor.

Luca Guadagnino: To direct means to be an outcast. You have to ready yourself for a journey that’s deep and dark.

Armie Hammer: What’s the reason for that? Where does this alienation come from?

Luca Guadagnino: I thought about what I like today. While growing up I loved directors whose movies were strong, compromising and hard to take. Their movies had no success at the beginning but became legends later: Stanley Kubrick for example, Rainer Werner Fassbinder, Michael Powell, Federico Fellini. Under this circumstances I can’t make a Hollywood movie. You are dead before you receive a second chance. So: I like directors that do what they want and address my desires. It’s scary but I also always get what I want. I was in love with Ralph Fiennes, his photos hung on my wall. And then he played in ‘A Bigger Splash’. It is important to get what you really want. I really need to own and desire the actors that star in my movies.

Armie Hammer: Was it the same with me?

Luca Guadagnino: When I saw ‘The Social Network’: Yes, the movie is brilliant, the script is great, Jesse Eisenberg plays Mark Zuckerberg fantastically - but who the hell are the Winklevoss twins? There was something about you that I wanted to bring in front of the cameras.

Armie Hammer: And we did it.

Luca Guadagnino: My next goal is to find your dark side. Do you see yourself as an actor as a seducer or as seduced? I always hear that actors are seductive. But as a director I have to say that sometimes they get seduced and then left alone.

Armie Hammer: Who isn’t involved in the origination process romanticises actors. It would be really great if I would get surrounded with scripts. But the sad truth is that there are so little good directors and great scripts that everyone wants a role as soon as a good movie appears on the market. I feel more like a boxer in the fight for a chance. Sure there are colleagues that get all the fantastical commissions automatically…

Luca Guadagnino: … but you don’t even want that.

Armie Hammer: But you seduced me and it was definitely worth it. The filming with you has left as big an impression in my personal life as in my professional.

Luca Guadagnino: It’s irrelevant how many movies an actor shoots per year. It’s about giving an emotional iconic performance. And you did that. That’s how Film history works. That’s how I see it and I’m film historian.

Armie Hammer: You know more about movies than anyone else. And partly that’s the reason why you make such beautiful movies. On the other hand you gaze so interestingly at things, at everything, whatever it may be. Your opinion is always cultivated, considered carefully.

Luca Guadagnino: There are so many practical problems while filming it’s overwhelming. You have to work with every single shot and then the total out of it.

Armie Hammer: I worked with directors that said, no the trees have to be planted differently.

Luca Guadagnino: It’s crazy! That’s how I thought about it when I was 17. You shoot in a garden where everything gets redesigned. But that’s not how it works.

Armie Hammer: I know other directors that like midwifes let things take their way.

Luca Guadagnino: There we come to the masters of the subject. They didn’t close the door to reality, how Jean Renoir once said.

The talk was moderated by Ingeborg Harms 
Photo by Peter Rigaud
Original text published in VOGUE GERMANY, January 2017 issue, translated from German into English by Nici Jones. 

You know, one of the things I really love about the Expanse series are the subtle mentions of LGBT+ folks - someone’s grandfathers husband, a lady passing by with her girlfriend. There’s the not so subtle, like Anna and her wife and child. Not only that, but there’s the positive portrayal of poly relationships as seen by Holden’s family.

And I feel like this is what science fiction is supposed to BE?? Not only technological advances, but the advancement and evolution of our society and culture as well. So many sci fi stories have these fantastic settings…. Yet the characters still hold 20th century attitudes. It’s a very weird juxtaposition.

Anyway I have a lot of feelings about this series and lgbt people and the inclusivity makes me want to cry

tracing-dim-stars  asked:

I hate it when SeungBum shippers say that we (SangBum) shippers need to respect their ship, while they literally shit on us for shipping SangBum and say that we "Support rapists, murderers and abusive relation ships in real life"

YES. 

I generally hate when people act shitty towards other people, don’t respect anyone but themselves and the ones whose opinions they 100% approve of, but then feel entitled to be respected. Respect is something you earn, even when it comes a “side of the fandom” and not a single person. 

Shipping fictional characters doesn’t meant approving their action and the type of relationship they have, but we’ve said this so many times already…

its-a-goddamn-heartbreak  asked:

I've been missing Gang 1, so I was wondering if you could do the old 'sick at the cinema' trope for Eden and Jude? Maybe one of them is feeling off but goes because they know how much the other wants to see the film? (also in memory of the post that went round for ages about how bad it is to throw up popcorn...)

A/N: I have been missing Gang 1 too, so thank you for this prompt! I can’t even remember how many ‘sick at the cinema’ fics I’ve read (probably too many) but I always forget how much I love it! 😍  So I really really hope you enjoy, because I really loved writing this one! 


Jude was in a hurry. 

He’d promised he’d meet Eden outside the cinema at quarter to six, which was cutting it fine after his mentor meeting at the school he was on placement at. But Eden very rarely wanted to go to the cinema – normally it was too crowded, with too many things that had the potential to trigger his anxiety. Yet he’d really wanted to see this new horror comedy film and Jude knew how much it meant to him, so they’d arranged to go to a midweek showing, in the hope that it might not be so busy. Jude had even made it sure to have all his planning done so he wouldn’t have to stress about it as soon as the film was finished.

Jude’s stomach was grumbling with hunger as he left the school. It’d been a long and busy day, so he ducked into a shop just outside the subway station and grabbed something that he could easily eat and assuage the rumbles of his belly. When seated on the subway train he ripped open the lid of the pack of sushi and stuffed a whole tuna maki into his mouth and chewed fiercely. He only had four stops, so he had to eat fast. He caught the eye of the woman opposite him in the compartment as he shoved one of the salmon rolls into his mouth and struggled to chew, blushing slightly.

He’d managed to finish the packet, which he disposed of into the bin as he exited onto the platform, then headed for the escalator up onto the main street, checking the time on his watch. He quickened his pace, he didn’t want to leave Eden hanging about on his own at the cinema.

Eden was smiling as Jude rushed up to him, and Jude noticed that Eden was wearing his black shirt that he wore when he wanted to look smart.

“Sorry I’m late,” Jude panted as he reached Eden. “You look wonderful Ede.” Jude felt vastly dishevelled as he gave Eden a quick peck on the cheek, which flushed pink as Eden grinned.

“I bought tickets for us already,” Eden said, struggling to hold back a grin. “I know you’ve had to run, I thought it might help.”

“Oh thank you,” Jude slipped his hand into Eden’s as they began to walk towards the escalator up to the higher levels.

“We’re in screen six,” Eden told him, checking the tickets, “which I think is on the third floor. I was thinking about getting some popcorn!” Jude was surprised, and happy, that Eden was so upbeat and confident about this cinema trip. “How about we get half and half?” Eden suggested as they stood in the little shop before the screen; Jude loved sweet popcorn, but Eden preferred salted, so Jude knew this was him compromising.

“Yeah, I’m up for trying that!” Jude nodded, feeling himself beginning to relax after the stress of getting from placement to cinema.

As they’d anticipated for a midweek showing, there was about twelve other people in the theatre screen, and they had the pick of the seats they wanted. They settled in roughly the middle of the seats as the trailers began. Eden propped the popcorn on his knee and slipped his hand back into Jude’s, resting it onto the arm rest in between.

“How was your day?” Eden whispered, leaning his head across and onto Jude’s shoulder.

“Busy,” Jude answered lowly, “I’m just glad to be here with you.”

“Aaw,” Eden kissed the side of his face gently. “I love when we get to spend time just the two of us.”

“Me too,” Jude squeezed his hand, and with his free hand reached across and grabbed some popcorn from the bucket.

The film had only just started when Jude felt his stomach gave an uncomfortable squirm inside his stomach and he shifted around in his seat, trying to find a more comfortable position. He tried to focus on the film, but the vague level of discomfort inside him kept pulling his attention away from the action on the screen. He glanced across at Eden, whose hand was periodically dipping into the popcorn and traveling up to his mouth, and Jude smiled at how calm Eden looked as he watched the film.

Maybe it was just him having been running about all day, but Jude felt like the theatre was really warm. He felt perspiration gathering around his neck and chest, and he wiggled in his seat as beads of sweat began to run down his back. His stomach was beginning to feel bubbly, like someone had filled his stomach with coke and chucked a mento into it. Perhaps he was just really hungry – he’d not eaten a lot today, and now was roughly the time that he would normally eat dinner… It was very possible, so he reached across and grabbed a handful of popcorn then began to feed one bit of a time into his mouth. He turned his attention back to the screen and tried to pick up the threads of what was going on.

Jude struggled to swallow down another mouthful of popcorn, his mouth felt ridiculously dry and he could almost feel each kernel scraping his oesophagus as it travelled down to his stomach. The mixture of sweet and salty popcorn had left a strange taste at the back of his mouth, and an intense thirst made him lean forwards so he could fish his water bottle from his bag.

When he found it, he pulled the cap open and drank roughly half of the bottle down in one go – the cool liquid soothing the weird dry sensation in his throat and removing the taste from his mouth. He slotted the bottle into the cup holder at the end of the arm rest and tried to pay attention to what the main character was saying, but he could now feel the sweat that had been running down his back and gathering across his forehead turning cold.

He tried to relax his muscles consciously, first he tensed his toes, then his feet, and continued to work his way up until he reached his abdomen. Then he realised that the tensing in his stomach was beyond his control. In fact, his stomach was not only tensed tight, but incredibly unsettled. He could feel the water he’d just drunk sloshing about inside his belly, and as he shifted very slightly in his seat the contents seemed to bubble ferociously, threatening to erupt. He was definitely sweating now, he could feel rivulets beginning their journeys down the side of his face.

Resting his free hand onto his stomach he pressed down experimentally and immediately wished he hadn’t. A wave of nausea washed over him like a tsunami, he sat up straighter in his chair and took some slow deep breaths in through his mouth. He wasn’t quite sure why he’d suddenly begun to feel so ill, but he glanced back across at Eden, who was fixated on the moving pictures. He couldn’t bother Eden now – not when he was so engrossed into the film, especially as this visit had been quite a big deal in the first place.

Yet after another few minutes the churning in Jude’s stomach had gotten much worse, it was now the only thing he could focus on. He could feel the glugging and burbling in his belly, and the urge to burp was overwhelming him. He moved his hand as it looked like he was leaning on it, and waited for a loud part of the film that he could try and disguise a burp behind.

Bbbrrrrrppp!” The belch was low and prolonged as he felt the expulsion of air behind his hand. He looked across at Eden, but he hadn’t noticed so Jude was relieved. His stomach still felt gurgly and full of air, so he tried to burp again in the hope that it would ease the discomfort in his abdomen.

Brrrrrrruuuuuuuuuurrrrrrp!” The next belch was deeper, wetter, and to Jude’s consternation he suddenly tasted a bitter acidity at the back of his mouth. He took another deep breath in and reached, once again, for his water bottle and took a few small sips. His stomach protested, though, at the addition of more liquid to its contents; he could feel his hand trembling as he replaced the water bottle into the holder.

Gguuuuuuuuuurrrrrllllluuuuurrlllluuuullll.’ At a brief moment of quietness in the film, his stomach let out one of the noisiest upset sounds he had ever heard it make. Eden glanced across, and Jude forced an apologetic smile onto his face and hoped it didn’t look like too much of a grimace. Under the dim lights of the cinema Jude’s face was clearly hidden from displaying the discomfort he felt, and Eden’s attention returned to the film.

A rising, expanding like sensation was creeping up his chest, but he didn’t particularly feel safe in burping again so he put his hand onto his chest and massaged gently to try and alleviate some of the odd feeling. He couldn’t seem to make it fade, even as he took slow steady breaths and gave up entirely on watching the film. 

Hnnnmmmmmmmmrrrrrf!” The sudden heave burst out of Jude unexpectedly, and in the urge to not make a mess his arm jerked out to grab the popcorn bucket on Eden’s knee, making his boyfriend jump in surprise. He was shaking fiercely as he took a gasp in as the sudden spasm subsided, but his mouth overfilled with really watery saliva which he was struggling to swallow back.

“Jude?” Eden’s hand was suddenly on Jude’s back, but he had leant forwards in the seat and was staring at the floor, breathing heavily as his belly lurched repeatedly.

“ ‘m gonna be sick…” Jude forced out, realising that there was no point in hiding how he was feeling. “Hmmmmmmmrrrrkk!” He retched harshly again, trying to keep his lips forced shut as he felt liquid flood the back of his mouth.

“Here!” Eden unceremoniously dumped the last of the popcorn out onto the floor and thrust it under Jude’s face. At the sight of the bucket Jude’s stomach gave another lurch, and he could feel his cheeks burning with embarrassment as he knew everyone in the cinema was about to witness him vomiting.

Hiiiccccrrrrr!” He heaved again, his stomach leaping up into his mouth and his head was spinning. Eden’s hand rubbed firmly across Jude’s shoulder blades; the discomfort in Jude’s chest and throat was becoming more intense.

“Let it out Jude,” Eden encouraged, his entire focus redirected onto his boyfriend rather than film. Jude’s hands were gripping onto the popcorn bucket so tightly that he was in danger of crushing it; he felt so horrendously awful, and was waiting for that final lurch that would bring up the offensive contents currently mimicking a Jacuzzi.

Baaauuuurrrrp!” The belch gripped at Jude’s chest, stinging all the way up his throat and he pitched forward in his seat.

“Oh Jude, don’t hold it in!” Eden sounded terrified, not relinquishing his hand pressing against the nape of Jude’s neck.

Uuuuuuuurrrrrrr,” Jude heaved again, and he could feel the popcorn that he’d forced down scraping its way up his throat and making his eyes water in pain. “Huuuuurrrrrk!” A small spattering of water and mushed popcorn landed in the bottom of the bucket.

“That’s it,” Eden whispered into Jude’s ear, “well done.”

As soon as that first wave was up Jude felt a gush of liquid creeping up his oesophagus and brought the container up to his face in preparation: “Buaaakkkkkuuuuuurrghh!” It caught him so strongly that he wobbled in his chair and Eden steadied him as a copious amount of puke poured from his mouth and nose.

“Oh Jude…” Eden held tight onto his boyfriend’s shoulders as he coughed and spat away the tendrils of spit that were clinging onto his lips. Eden heard a deep gurgle from Jude’s belly, which turned into a heave and resulted in another large outpouring of sick into the popcorn bucket, and Eden winced at how painful it sounded. Then a further gurgling burp produced a smaller wave of vomit and he retched over the bucket that was getting precariously close to being full.

“Sorry…” Jude’s voice was hoarse, his hands were trembling severely, and he could feel the sweat clinging to his face.

“Oh Jude,” Eden’s heart was hammering as he touched the side of Jude’s face and felt how sticky and clammy it was. “Let’s get you out of here.”

“Mmm,” Jude shook his head miserably, “wait – uuurrp… I need a moment.”

“Okay, okay – that’s alright,” he reassured. “Can… can I take that away?” Eden indicated to the popcorn bucket that Jude was still holding onto with trembling hands. 

“Yeah…” He whispered somewhat reluctantly, and Eden slowly began to prize the receptacle out of his boyfriend’s hands, being extra cautious not to spill it.

“Are you feeling up to moving?” Eden asked once he’d placed it down onto the ground, and Jude nodded. “Okay, I’ll get your bag.” Jude was visibly trembling as he rose from the seat, and he wobbled while trying to exit the row, and Eden scooped up Jude’s bag as he rushed to follow his boyfriend. He caught up with Jude as they reached the bottom of the stairs, and as they rounded the corridors which led towards the doors out of the screen Jude clamped his hand suddenly to his mouth, stopping abruptly.

“Go! Quick Jude!” Eden gave him a gentle push in the small of his back to encourage him; Jude took off, bursting through the double doors and out into the small foyer area where they’d bought popcorn earlier. Eden followed him at a slower pace, blinking at the change of the lights from inside to outside the screen; he glanced around and spotted the toilets, making a beeline for them as he suspected that was where Jude would be.

Swinging the door of the toilets open, Eden could hear the sounds of retching and as he continued further in towards the cubicles he saw spots of sick in a trail along the floor leading to one of the stalls.

“Jude?” Eden said, pushing at the door and finding that it wasn’t locked Jude was curled over the toilet bowl, heaving dryly. “Oh Jude…” Eden knelt beside his boyfriend, able to see the grey colour of his skin and the way his face was coated with a slick sheen of sweat. “Please, please tell me you didn’t feel this ill when you arrived?” He asked, brushing Jude’s fringe away from his sticky forehead.

“No – mmmmmmmrrr…” Jude shook his head, heaving once again, then panting heavily. “I ate – uuuuuurrrrpp – sushi on the – huuuuuurrr – subway…” He forced out in between retches.

“You think you’ve got food poisoning?” Eden asked in horror, stroking the back of Jude’s neck which was also damp.

“Mm – hhhhhuuuuuuurrrmmm…” Jude confirmed, his eyes closed as he gagged again; then he gave a small sob.

“Don’t worry,” Eden assured, and was surprised at how calm his voice was when his heart was pounding so fast that it almost hurt. “You just take your time, it’ll be alright.”

“I – uuuuurrrrgh – sorr – iaaauurrr…” Jude was no longer bringing anything up, but still heaving persistently.

“No, no, it’s fine Jude,” Eden moved so that he could rub his back properly. “We’ll stay here until you feel up to moving, then we’ll get you home.”

“Tha – aaaarrrghh – thanks…” Jude murmured, resting his head against the edge of the toilet seat.

“You’re gonna be okay,” Eden said, almost trying to convince himself as well as his very ill boyfriend. “You are going to be fine.”

Newt Scamander Rant

Recently, people have been asking me about fantastic beasts and in complete honesty, I’m absolutely terrified to tell them everything I know. To show them hoe much this story and these Characters mean to me. It’s truly a horrible feeling. I’ve been obsessed with the Harry Potter universe for my entire life, everything about the Wizarding world just makes me feel wonderful but, I’ve definitely been told to “shut up” about it. Every time I want to talk about Newt Scamander, I just know people give me strange looks. Ever since elementary school to even now, I feel constantly judged for loving the Harry Potter world and you know what, it bothers me. Fictional characters have helped me through so much more than my friends or my parents have.

When a character gives you a new outlook on life

Or has a character who is socially awkward like myself and many others

Originally posted by ilvermorny

Or when they make the LEAD emotional and have actual feelings

Originally posted by nonmugglegal

It really makes having anxiety and being a socially awkward person who’s afraid of showing emotion that much easier. Newt obviously has had friendship problems in the past, like me and like him I need to learn to not dwell on the past. Why do people think that people who actually find comfort in someone fictional to be strange? I just don’t understand. These characters make me feel whole. The traits I have are reflected in a character, and they aren’t mocked or embarrassed by said traits. hell yeah I'm going to feel a connection to them. Newton Artemis Fido Scamander is just the kind of person I want to be. He knows he doesn't fit in, He knows others look at him weird, he knows how cruel humans really can be. I want to be able to be okay with all of these things.I want to be okay with people thinking I’m annoying or that i have interests in strange things. His philosophy actually helps me go through my day, every time I start to worry, I remember what he says. These aren’t just some book characters who we forget about when we’re done, These people help shape who we are. It’s not just Newt, different characters help different people and I am sick and tired of feeling ashamed of for loving the people who make me feel happy.So what if i love Newt Scamander, he is literally one of the only reasons i stay alive so if you think that’s stupid, that it’s childish, then go find a character who does make you understand. We all need one. 

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